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#18: Boys Don't Cry
« Reply #20 on: September 20, 2012, 04:40:27 PM »
Entry #18
Title: Boys Don't Cry
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s):Abe Maria (Tetsuo), Matsui Jurina (Nobunaga)
Word Count: 3,115

Boys Don't Cry

She was only 5 when her mother died, killed in a car accident by a drunk driver while on her way to pick her up from school, she was in absolute despair but her father reassured her that everything would be okay.

It was all lies.

From what she could understand, the bills from her mother’s funeral arrangements and such were rather expensive, her father struggled to pay it all on his own and soon they were in debt, they had to sell their home but that wasn’t enough to dent whatever they’d owed.

Her father started drinking and became an alcoholic, the irony of it all, he ended up losing his job for coming to work inebriated more than he probably should have. Eventually, he started spending his days holed up in their dingy apartment, drinking his sorrows away. Maria was practically a ghost to him except for when he needed her to go out and buy more beer though with what money and how was a young girl even suppose to purchase alcohol, you ask?

Her father found a way.

She was forced to pickpocket and steal whatever food she could get her hands on, it was pure luck that she wasn’t caught at all though getting her father his beer proved more difficult but she somehow suckered some poor souls into getting it for her with whatever sorry excuse she came up with.

The money mostly was spent on keeping her father drunk, there was hardly any left to purchase food to keep herself from starving.

—-

School was her only escape, being surrounded by anyone other than her father was a relief and it didn’t smell like stale beer unless her clothes counted. The only problem was that because of the constant fear of her father’s mood swings, she had a hard time trusting the other kids and teachers. She knew they meant well but she couldn’t shake the feeling that if they found out her secret, she would be ridiculed for having a useless father and a broken home.

It didn’t help that she was a naturally quiet child, preferring to sit in the back or the corner to not draw any attention to herself.

Despite desperately wishing she could just work up the nerve to talk and make friends, it was her fear that would always hold her back all the way to high school.

She was a ghost at home and here as well.

—-

Another night of her drunken father’s exploits, a particular night that had him more agitated than before, from her room she could hear him screaming over losing some bet which she knew would turn into another night of him in an intoxicated rage. It didn’t take long for him to bust through her bedroom door, yelling at her before Maria’s father took her by surprise and struck her across the face, knocking her down. Somehow satisfied, her father stumbled his way out of her room, down the hall and back to the den to possibly pass out.

Why, why was this happening to her? Whatever happen to the father who would pick her up from school and buy her ice cream, take her to the park and push her on the swings, who would slip her sweets when she wasn’t suppose to have any?

Why was everything so fucked up now?

She tended to her bleeding lip before heading off to bed, trying to think of an excuse for school tomorrow that would explain her new injury.

She dreamt of her mother that night.

—-

Maria wish she was brave, brave enough to stand up to her father, brave enough to reach out to the other kids in her school, brave enough to speak up and not just be that shy docile child she has been since the first time her father started abusing alcohol. She wanted to be like the heroes in the manga she would read in the convenience store while escaping from her father’s drunken wrath at home; she wanted to be brave like Goku whenever he fought against a new enemy, brave like Kenshin whenever he would save his friends, brave like Yusuke whenever he had to save Kieko.

But she didn’t have any powers, brutal strength or mastery of weapons, she was just a girl.

She wish she wasn’t so weak.

—-

The first time she got in a fight was by accident.

Walking home from school, she somehow passed through some yankee girls’ territory, they surrounded her and threatened that if she didn’t give them any compensation, they would kick her ass; she had no money, her father took it all, leaving nothing for her to even buy a meal. Maria didn’t know how to fight or at least really well, fending off her drunken father wasn’t exactly good practice and she wasn’t exactly going to go looking for one either. She tried her best to keep them at bay, blocking their attacks and delivering a few of her own; she needed to get home soon or her father would get angry, she really didn’t want another injury to treat for tonight and explain tomorrow at school to her teachers.

Something must of triggered her because she soon realized that one of the girls who was attacking her was on the ground with a broken bloody nose, the other two looked shocked but it quickly switched to fury as they attacked her.

Maria didn’t get home until extremely late that night, the other girls had roughed her up a bit, she had to come up with a good enough excuse to explain her injuries. Luckily for her, her father was passed out in the den, so she didn’t have to deal with his drunken fury; she dressed her wounds and got ready for bed.

Despite feeling like she was hit by a truck, Maria couldn’t help but feel so damn satisfied with being able to hold out her own against those girls.

It was the first time she felt strong.

—-

Arriving home from another night of pickpocketing, Maria dropped the new case of beer next to her father, no longer having to be yelled at to be reminded of what to do as she hurried off to her room, in hopes of avoiding him once he tore through the case and started up his usual drunken rampage throughout the house.

She wasn’t so lucky.

Maybe an hour or two or maybe three, she couldn’t be sure since the clock in her room was long smashed from one of her father’s previous uproars, she didn’t care enough to replace it with a new one if it was just gonna be destroyed by him again later on; she heard yelling and furniture being knocked over followed by a few crashes of whatever was being broken, her father screaming out her mother’s name. She could hear stomping throughout their apartment but it was when the noise turned towards the direction of her room that she started to panic.

She could hear him bumping against the hallway walls and hitting them, probably making more dents that they would have to hide from their landlord; she hoped that he would ignore her, forget that she was even existing right now, that he was too drunk to work a doorknob, that he would trip and knock himself out—anything so he wouldn’t barge in through her bedroom door.

Luck just wasn’t on her side.

Her father kicked opened her bedroom door, it crashed heavily against the wall, making the dent there already more prominent that before. He yelled out insults and profanities at her as he stumbled his way towards inside her room with his fist raised, ready to strike out against her.

Paralyzed, she was paralyzed; she couldn’t move for some reason, she was more afraid than ever before and as her father’s fist connected with her face, busting her lip, she could taste blood in her mouth.

She reacted before she could stop herself.

Her father laid unconscious on the bedroom floor, with the force of Maria’s punch and the haziness he had from drinking earlier, he’d stumbled backwards and hit his head against the doorway frame, knocking himself out.

This was bad, really bad; never before had she struck out against her father, what was she to do? She couldn’t stay, he would definitely kill her once he woke up, she needed to leave but she couldn’t just go with him like this, right…?

Quickly calling an ambulance, Maria packed whatever she would need, grabbing as much money as she could from where her father stored their finances.

Great, now she assaulted her father and stole from him.

Hastily putting everything in her ratty backpack, she rushed to leave as she could hear sirens coming from a distance already. Before hurrying off, she took one last look at her home, realizing she could never come back and ran off in hopes of never being found.

—-

Finally arriving at from what she heard over the intercom, Aichi, it seemed.

Maria figured it was far enough from Kyoto and that hopefully her father wouldn’t think to look all the way over here for her. She hoped he was alright, even though he made her life a living hell, he was still her father but she just couldn’t stay even if she had never hit him, she desperately wanted to get away.

—-

She found an abandoned home not far from the station and figured this would be best since there was no way she could ever afford enough rent for a apartment, she still need to eat so unfortunately, she took to pickpocketing again.

She hated it, she hated how everything in her life had dwindled to this as she swiped another wallet from some poor unsuspecting fellow.

—-

It was starting to get to her, she had only been on her own for a few months but the loneliness was getting to her and making each day feel more like a chore to get through.

She craved another human being to just talk to, to take away this ugly feeling dwelling in her that kept on growing with each passing day, Maria wished she could go back to school.

Even though she had always been alone, at least she was surrounded by others, she felt safe there but she could never go back no matter what for fear of her father.

As she stumbled into the park restroom nearby, there was no power or working facilities at the home she was staying in, so this was the only way for her to keep herself from looking haggard.

Checking to make sure no one was in any of the stalls, she closed and locked the door. Turning on the faucet to wash her face, Maria looked up to see herself in the mirror, she seemed even more sullen than she did yesterday and the day before. Her eyes had dark circles under them and her cheeks were beginning to hollow due to eating so little.

It was all too much.

She started to cry, the frustration of everything that had build up had finally taken it’s toll on her, the sounds of her sobbing echoed in the small room.

No!

No, she need to be strong, she couldn’t just give up like this or all the times her father yelled at her for being useless would be true. Maria remembered all those heroes she read in manga before, how much they brought her strength because they didn’t give up, how they were always strong and brave.

Wiping away her tears, Maria promised herself that she would keep surviving.

—-

This was bad, really bad.

She had waited for a potential target to appear while in a crowded marketplace and once she spotted him, she made her move. Quickly, she swiped the poor fellow’s wallet and walked briskly into a small alleyway, as she was heading towards a more secluded area to check out what she had taken, she heard a deep voice yell from the direction she had been and loud stomping from someone running.

Maria took off, sprinting as fast as she could.

But no matter how many twists and turns she took or climbing over whatever obstacle, the person chasing her seemed to always keep up.

She mistakenly took a wrong turn and ended up at a dead-end, the footsteps that were following her stopped, she turned around not only to see the man she had stolen from but others as well.

She made the mistake of stealing from some yankee and it looked like he called for backup.

Shit.

Maria could hold her own but only if it was one-on-one or a couple more but there was no way she could take on this many.

She was done for.

And as the first guy charged, she prepared herself.

She blocked and tried to attack as best as she could but it only got worse when the others surrounded her and started delivering blows of their own, how much longer could she hold on for?

The sound of one of her attackers in pain bought everything to a standstill, looking over to where she heard it, she could see a young girl and the first thing she noticed was the two scars around her strangely only grey-colored eye.

Immediately, a few of the men charged at the new girl in retalliation for their fallen comrade but it proved nothing when she took them down in a couple of hits. Taking advantage of their stupor, Maria attacked the others that still surrounded her and in no time, both girls were the only ones left standing.

As the mysterious newcomer started leaving, she motioned for Maria to follow her, she probably shouldn’t have so willingly gone along with a stranger for all she knew this girl could probably turn around and attack her, leaving her for dead but she felt no danger in doing so.

They ended up in a empty park, stopping to sit on the swings.

It was quiet before the other girl finally spoke.

“What’s your name?”

She didn’t look at her when she asked that, choosing instead to stare up ahead.

“Maria.”

Nodding to her response, the other girl turned to face her and gave a small smile, “Jurina.”

She brought up her hand to shake, Maria hesitantly followed suit, her grip was really strong.

—-

After that run in with Jurina, Maria found herself meeting up with her at the same park where they first spoke with each other everyday. No longer did she feel so lonely, like everything was spiraling downwards, she had a friend.

But all good things come to an end.

—-

“I might not be around much longer.”

Startled by this sudden news, Maria nearly choked on the bento she was eating.

Composing herself, Maria turned to Jurina, who was busy staring at her own half-finished lunch, picking at the rice with her chopsticks.

“Why?”

“…I did something horrible and some people might be coming after me soon.” Jurina spoke softly, her expression forlorn and Maria wondered what she could have done that was so horrible but she refused to pry, both girls never talked about how they ended up on the streets.

She tried to think of something comforting but her mind remained blank until Jurina spoke up again.

“Promise me this though.” Jurina gently took hold of Maria’s shoulder, leaning in to look her in the eye.

“That no matter what, you keep on going, that you keep on moving forward even if I’m gone. Keep surviving, you are strong.”

The grip on her shoulder seem to weigh so heavily in her heart, why was she telling her this? But she nodded in agreement to the promise, Jurina released her and both girls returned to their unfinished bentos.

They separated soon afterwards, it was the last time Maria saw the other girl.

—-

Maria wondered if anyone was coming after her, did her father report her to the police?

She ran away over a year ago and yet there had been no one confronting or approaching her on what she did, she wondered how long she could keep hidden.

And as she looked up at the chipped paint on the ceiling, she hoped that Jurina was doing okay before sleeping that night.

—-

She was startled awake by loud banging coming from downstairs of the abandoned home she was living in, she briefly wondered what it was before she heard a harsh slam and many heavy footfalls traveling all around and up the stairs.

Uniformed men barged into the room she was in, grabbing hold of her roughly and pulling her throughout the house. She tried to struggle free before she heard an electrical snapping sound and her body was in massive pain, draining her energy.

As they dragged her out towards a black van, the last thing she saw as they threw her in the vehicle was the smirk from a man wearing glasses.

—-

She was roughly woken up by the van lurching to a stop, she was dragged out of the vehicle and could barely make out that they were in a forest in front of some building before a black bag was forced over her head.

As she was pulled off into whatever direction they were going, she was ordered to change into some jumper before donning the black bag over her head again, it didn’t take long for them to stop once more as she was pushed against a table (she assumed) and forced into wearing some kind of heavy bracelet.

Maria didn’t know how long they had been walking but she soon heard yelling growing louder and louder as they traveled, from what she could probably guess were other girls?

The uniformed men pulled off the black bag on her head and threw her into some room before leaving, she didn’t understand what was going on, it felt like everything happened in a blur from when she was taken till now.

“Hey.”

All of her fear and thoughts disappeared when she heard a familiar husky voice, she looked up from where she had been thrown to the ground, staring into a pair of eyes with one colored grey.

Maria knew she was safe now.

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#19: Black Sweet Apple
« Reply #21 on: September 20, 2012, 09:35:26 PM »
Entry #19
Title: Black Sweet Apple
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Matsui Rena, Shinoda Mariko, Matsui Jurina, Watanabe Mayu; Rena/Mariko, Jurina/Mayu
Word Count: 2,696

Note: words in italic is Jurina's thought.

Black Sweet Apple

"I like you, please be my girlfriend" a boy's confession.

"Okay, but only if you get that apple for me" a short black haired girl said. She is pointing the black apple on top of the apple tree across this street.

"You are crazy..." the boy scared, "Please forget what I've said before" then the boy ran away.

The girl sighed and growled, "Coward!!!" She picked up a stone and threw it to the tree but it missed and hit someone on the head.

"Who is that?!" the victim shouted.

"Run!!" the girl hurriedly ran away with ultra high speed.


This short haired girl named Matsui Jurina, a 15 years old girl who is longing for love relationship. Many suitors ran away and gave up on her because of that weird request. She will only date the person who is willingly climb that big tree and get the black apple which is on the very top of the tree. How many times do boys run away after hearing her request? That's maybe over 48th time. Why is she insisting to date someone who can get that apple? Well...


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At home


"I'm back..." Jurina walked in, lazily put off her shoes.

"Did someone confess to you again?" There this tall, brown haired man is his twenties, walking out from the kitchen bringing a glass of water. His name is Shinoda Mario, her soon to be brother-in-law.

"H-How did you know?!" Jurina surprised to hear that from Mario.

"It's all written on your face~" Mario poked Jurina's fluffy cheek and pinched it.

"Huurrrt!" Jurina complained and tried to remove Mario's hands, "Rena-chan, help!"

"Okay, okay... enough playing" a woman in her twenties is walking out from the kitchen, bringing two plate of well-cooked curry in her hands.

"Why are you insisting to date a man who will get that apple for you?" Mario asked.

"You don't know why?" Jurina shocked, "Rena-chan?"

Both Mario and Rena looked at each other and shrugged their shoulder. Jurina facepalmed for herself, "How can you both forget about it?" Jurina slightly pushed Mario out of her way and went straight to her room.

"Won't you join us for dinner?" asked Rena.

"Heck no!" Jurina walked into her bedroom.

What stupid question is that? They are both like spicy food, unlike me who can't take it. Last time I took her cooking and ended up being hospitalized for three days because of terrible diarrhea. Both of them really are a spicy couple, always having super duper curry rice and spicy soup as dinner. Even mom and dad rather go to restaurant to have dinner.

Why am I so insisting to date a person who can get that apple for me? That happened four years ago when I am 11. Rena-chan is so upset because her boyfriend cheated on her. Mario-sama appeared to be her bestfriend (partner in spicy food), came to concern for her. It's revealed that actually Mario-sama has crush on my sister. He took my sister to somewhere in the garden where the very big tree was, I am following them that time. There, he is holding my sister's hands and looking at her passionately.

"You know, girls are like apple. The best one is always on top of the tree. Boys are always picking up the rotten apples which fell to the ground because they have no courage to pick the best one. They are too lazy to sacrifice themselves"

He smiled at my sister then walked closer to me, "When you grow up, don't date those boys who can't sacrifice themselves for you"

Then he walked to the tree and climbing it. My sister is surprised also panicked that time to see Mario climbs the tree to get the apple for her. There're times when Mario slipped from the branch and almost fell. My sister is squeezing my hands tightly as she watches Mario climbing to the top. He managed to get the bright red apple and went down safely. His smile is so dazzling in the sunset at that time. He told my sister to grab a bite on the apple and she did soナ her expression is full with happiness and she can't stop saying it's sweet. Mario shows off his smile proudly and confesses to Rena-chan.

"Since you ate that apple, it means you are officially become my girlfriend"


Jurina pissed and punched her pillow as punching bag, "How can they forget that?! It's you who told me to date a person who can bring that apple from the top of tree!! Curse you Mario!!"  (looks like Jurina misunderstood the meaning)


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Outside the room...

"Hachiiuuuuu..." Mario is sneezing.

"Are you alright? Is that the food too spicy?" Rena asked concernedly.

"I wonder..."



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Days later...

Jurina is standing under that apple tree and staring at the black apple on the very top.

"Red apple has become black... I think it's rotten" she sighed, "I've been waiting for someone till it's got rotten. Maybe I should take down that apple, so it will lower the height target for my new suitors?"

Jurina picked up a ton of stones and launching it like a machine gun at the apple but all missed. Then suddenly there's a sound of broken glasses. A middle-aged man is coming out from afar, shouting and cursing about who dare to break his windows. Jurina hurriedly picked up her belonging and turned to leave. Just then, a voice appeared from behind the tree.

"I saw you threw the stone toward the windows" a boy showed himself, "Matsui Jurina"

"W-Who are you? H-How did you know my name?" Jurina shocked, then she saw the boy is holding her student card.

Jurina ran back to the boy and asking him to return her student card, "Give it back to me"

"I'm going to report you" the boy said and going to call that middle-aged man but Jurina pressed her hands on the boy's mouth, dragging him away across the street. Once Jurina feels the situation is safe, she let off her hands.

"Pffuuuaaaahhh..." the boy is catching his breath, "Are you going to kill me?"

"Please, don't report me. I didn't mean to do that, I just want to get that apple"

"If you want an apple, buy it yourself. All trees in that garden are private properties"

"It's not I want to eat that apple. It just..." Jurina's eyes glittering in tears, "I just want to date someone who can get that apple for me. But all of them run away when I suggest this. I think maybe the target is too high, so if I get that apple down, then it will lower the height. Maybe there will be someone who can get the apple for me"

"Baka..." the boy said as he handed his handkerchief to Jurina.

"Thanks" Jurina took it and wiped her tears. When she was about to return the handkerchief, she noticed a label at the corner of it. "Ma-yu-?" she spelled it out.

The boy blushed and immediately took back his handkerchief.

"So, your name is Mayu? What a cute name" Jurina claps her hands together and smile innocently.

"It was my stupid brother, sewing my name on it" Mayu hurriedly put the handkerchief into his pocket and leaves.



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At Home


"La~la~la~la~" Jurina put off her shoes and placed it neatly on the shoe shelf.

"Someone managed to get the apple for you today?" asked Mario curiously while having a spicy drumstick in his mouth.

"Nope~" I smiled and keep walking toward my bedroom. "I met a cute boy today~"

"She acts like you when you fell in love with me" Rena appeared behind Mario, watching her sister walking into her room. Mario smiled and offered his drumstick to Rena.

"Wonder why the drumstick is sweet today"



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I, Matsui Jurina decided to give up on that apple. I will start dating to whoever confesses to me today.

"I like you, please be my girlfriend" a boy is confessing to Jurina.

Jurina smiled sweetly and nodded her head, "I-- aacckkkkh" she got hit by a stone from nowhere.

"Jurina-chan!" the boy is going to catch Jurina's unbalance body but he's pushed by someone.

Mayu appeared behind Jurina and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, gently placed Jurina's head on his shoulder. He is giving another boy a deadly glare. The other boy thinks that he is Jurina's boyfriend and immediately bowed at them and embarrassingly left. "I'm sorry, I don't know you already have a boyfriend"

"Wait!" Jurina called out but Mayu grabbed her wrist, dragging her along with him.

"What are you doing? Where will you bring me to?" Jurina tried to release Mayu's grip on her.

"Here" Mayu stopped and let go of Jurina's hand.

Jurina looked around and found out that she is in the garden, under the big apple tree with the black apple on top of it. She wonders why Mayu brings her here, don't tell me he is reporting me to that ugly man because I broke his windows? Jurina panicked and turned to leave but paused by Mayu's question.

"Will you eat that apple?" Mayu asked.

"Eh?" Jurina confused.

"If I bring you that black apple, will you eat?" Mayu cleared his question.

"Eh? Are you going to get that apple for me?" Jurina is looking at Mayu with shimmering eyes, "If you are willingly to get that apple for me, of course I will eat, even it will make me having diarrhea" Jurina is really happy to know Mayu is gonna get her that apple, on the very top of this tree.

Without saying any words, Mayu rolled his sleeves and climbed the tree. The tree is about twenty feet from the ground. As she watches Mayu climbs the tree, her heart can't stop beating hard. Whenever Mayu took another step, Jurina's heart skips a beat. She never knows this tiny boy has the courage that wins all the boys she has met. With his skinny arms, he holds the branch firmly and climbs more higher to the top of the tree. After 30 minutes of climbing, Mayu managed to reach the top. He is smiling at the black apple just an inch from him. When he reached his hand to take the apple, the branch under his feet breaks all of the sudden.

"Mayu!!" Jurina screamed in horror and burst into tears.

Mayu is falling down from the tree, Jurina can hear the sound of leaves brushing each other and Mayu's growls. He is still trying his best to grab something that will stop him from falling and finally, six feet from the ground, he wrapped his left arm on a thick branch. Wounds all over his smooth skin and his handsome face but he is smiling like the pain is nothing for him. He is smiling proudly while holding the black apple in his right hand. Somehow, his smile reminds her to Mario. At that time, Jurina thinks she found her destiny.

"Hey, don't just standing there and crying. Help me down" Mayu called.

Jurina wiped her tears and stretch her arms, "Jump down, I will catch you"

"No way! I won't do that!" Mayu complained.

"It's just six feet from the ground. Trust me, I will catch you" Jurina said to ensure him.

"I will never do that" Mayu insisted.

Jurina thinks for a while and face him with a big grin, "You forgot to zip up your~~"

Mayu shocked and loose his grip on the branch and falling down. Jurina managed to catch Mayu but she can't manage to keep her balance and ended up falling together on the ground. Mayu blushed when he realize that he is on top of Jurina and tried to move away but Jurina wrapped her arms around Mayu's neck and pulled him for a hug.

"I said I will catch you and I did it~" Jurina said happily.

"Get off" Mayu pulled himself away from Jurina and back facing her, checking on his zip.

Jurina laugh out loud to see Mayu's reaction, "I was just kidding on you"

Seeing how big Jurina's mouth when she is laughing like that, Mayu shoved the black apple into her mouth to shut her up. Jurina is cursing Mayu while the apple is still stuck between her mouth, saying how can you stuck this rotten apple between my mouth. Mayu finds she's cute like this and leaned in to take a bite of the apple.

"Sweet" Mayu said with his charming smile.

Jurina is completely stunted there with tomato face. She slowly takes the apple out and taking a bite on it. The apple is unexpectedly sweet and juicy. Mayu took out his handkerchief for Jurina's to clean her mouth. He walked to the apple tree and touched it gently.

"Did you know, the best apple is always on the very top of the tree" Mayu turned to face Jurina and continue, "My brother once told me that girls are like apple, the best one is always hard to get. I am a person who aimed for the best. I won't let myself to get 90 in exam, I always aimed higher. I won't let myself look dirty because I want to show the perfect side to everyone... and also, I always aim for that apple" Mayu pointed the black apple in Jurina's hand.

"I am waiting for the girl who dares to aim for that apple, which placed on top of this tree. Then I meet you, I saw how you deal with all your suitors. I am getting more interesting with you. Maybe you are the person I've been waiting forナ even if that apple is black and looks rotten but inside it's sweet, isn't it?"

Jurina stunted there, amazed by Mayu's speech. She didn't know there's also someone who aims this black apple for a long time like her. She feels so happy to hear that plus Mayu is comparing her with the apple, that means Mayu see her as the best girl of girls... but wait, did he say something rotten? Is my appearance look that bad?

"Oh yeah, and for the payback the other day when you hit me with stone... and also my house windows..." Mayu walked closer and stopped right in front of Jurina, "You have to be my girlfriend"

Jurina surprised and confused, "You're the one I hit with stone? What did you mean by 'Your House'??"

"Actually all the trees in this garden belong to my family, and the windows you broke are from my house. That ugly man over there is my gardener" Mayu explained.

"............" Jurina jaw dropped to hear that.

Suddenly, Mario and Rena appeared behind Jurina. Mario saw them and stopped to greet them, "What are you doing here?"

"Oni-chan" Mayu bowed.

Jurina turned back to see Mario and her sister - Rena are standing there, greeting her with smile, "Nee-chan, what are you doing here?"

"I'm visiting my future parents-in-law" Rena waved her hands to Mayu, "Oh, hi there, my soon-to-be-little brother in law"

"Why I didn't know about this? Mayu and Mario are siblings?!" Jurina stressed.

"By the way, why are your uniform get so dirty?" asked Mario.

"I'm getting the apple for her" Mayu explained, "She is now my girlfriend"

"Oh, how... Did your family always use this trick to get girls?" Rena pinched Mario's cheek.

"Well, my family is running apple business. It's normal if we use the same trick to get girls" Mario said playfully.

"EEEH?!!" Jurina gets more shock.

"Ehemm..." Mayu cleared his throat, "Actually, this is not black apple, I just put blackberry jam on it to let it attracts people eyes" he explained to Jurina, "But it's too late now, for you to regret"

Mayu stands in front of Jurina with left hand on his waist and right hand pointing at Jurina's forehead, "You are my girlfriend now"


I will never get near to apple now... it's a very dangerous thing... my advise for you, don't ever look at black apple...
« Last Edit: September 20, 2012, 09:40:40 PM by Dino »

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#20: Majisuka Kiss
« Reply #22 on: September 21, 2012, 04:39:39 PM »
Entry #20
Title: Majisuka Kiss
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Oshima Yuko, Matsui Rena, Matsui Jurina; Yuko/Rena
Word Count: 1281

Majisuka Kiss

The girls 48 were among recordings the second season of the dorama Majisuka Gakuen, the team had finished shooting the scene where Rena Matsui (Gekikara) finds Yuko senpai in her dream before waking up in a hospital bed surrounded by her friends. After the end of the recording Rena just left the set as fast as she can the place without even thanking the production or talk to Yuko.

-This is bad, this is bad … -Rena repeated to herself walking the halls of the school that served as the backdrop for the drama, as she hugged her arms clutching the sleeves of the jacket of her character. The girl was walking in a hurry without looking sideways when bumped into someone.

-Ouch! -Said the girl sitting on the floor because of the fall.
-I’m sorry Jurina. Are you okay?  - The eldest Matsui asked to reach out to the youngest.
-Yes, you will not hurt me. -Jurina said to hold the hand of Rena and up. -And you?
-What about me?
-Are you okay? It seems strange.

- Y-yeah I’m okay. Why wouldn’t be? -Rena gave a nervous smile
-I don’t know, it was just a question. -Jurina raised eyebrows. -It was fine recording with Yuko-san? -Rena lowered his head. -Rena-chan?
-Help me Jurina-chan! -Exclaimed the older girl holding arms younger.

-Hm… then Oshima-san made you heart race? -Jurina joked. The duo Matsui was sitting in the bleachers of the empty pool that lay outside the school.
-This is not funny! -Rena complained to hide his face with his hands. -I don’t know what to do. As I look at her face now?
-Think of the bright side of things and not the bad. Oshima-san knows?
-No. -She said looking at Jurina.

-So there’s no problem. If you find yourself strangely beside her, Yuko-san will not notice. You know she is always with hugs and kisses with other members.
-Yeah … I think you’re right. -Rena said, between a sigh.
-Of course I have. –Jurina put his arm around Rena.
-How do you know so much about love affairs? -Asked Rena to face the newest.

-Well… -Jurina blushed and shuffled his face she looked at the watch on his wrist. -Oh! Look at the time, it’s almost lunchtime! -The girl stood up and walked toward the school.
-Eh?! Jurina?! Jurina you didn’t answer my question! -Rena called to follow the girl.

-Remember, when you see Yuko-san act normal. -Jurina said Rena’s ear as the two entered the room where they were serving lunch.
-They said my name? -Yuko asked to leave behind one of the staff suddenly. -Oh! Jurina hello! Rena-san! You left in such a hurry today’s filming. Is everything okay? -Yuko asked the girl with her lovely smile, making Rena blush.
-I can’t! -She screamed and ran out of the place. The older Matsui began running through the halls of the school away from their staffs and colleagues.
-Matsui! Hey, Matsui! -She heard the voice of his senpai in his back, Yuko was behind her.

-Leave me alone! -A girl screamed trying to run faster. Rena climbed some stairs that led up to the terrace where there were several barrels, papers and trash. The location where was recorded Maeda-san and Gakuran fight in the first season.
-Rena-san! -Yuko exclaimed how you got hold of the girl’s wrist.
-I told you to leave me alone! -Rena said while trying to hold what was in vain, since Yuko grabbed her other wrist.
-But what happened? -Oshima asked while trying to hold Matsui while not hurting her.
-N-nothing, just leave me alone! -She screamed as her arms twisted with Yuko.

-Rena-san care! If you keep moving like this we end up falling. - Yuko said trying to calm the girl. She stepped back, but did not notice the barrel on his back and fell with Matsui on top of her body.
-S-sorry Yuko-san! Are you okay?! -Rena asked to raise a little face, the girl’s legs open with feathers Yuko who were leaning on the barrel between them.
-I said we were going to end up falling. -Yuko smiled, her hands were on Rena hips. -I’m fine, I don’t show up often this season then it’s okay if I get hurt. I’m more worried about the costumes have gotten dirty. And are you okay?
-Y-yes I am. -Rena replied, blushing, she felt Yuko’s hands tighten the jacket.

-Rena … it’s okay with you? -The older girl asked, his face was serious now.

-W-why do you think I‘m weird? - Rena felt her heart going out through the mouth.
-Because did you leave so fast the film set today when I spoke to you just now you also fled.

-It’s something to me?
-No …
-Did I do something wrong to you?
-No it’s just … She pursed her lips and brought his face to Yuko, her lips lightly touched the girl’s only seconds later to intensify the kiss. Rena felt a hand Yuko caress your hair and stop at your neck with this gesture of affection Matsui gave Yuko’s lips.
-I-I’ll take that as a “no.” -Yuko said smiling, but she was flushed to his ears.

-Y-you not angry? -Matsui asked with red face.
-For what?
-B-by I have kissed you. -The girl looked away. Yuko straightened sitting next to her.
-Why would I be now that I know their real feelings? -Matsui stared in amazement.
-Y-you know!

-Yes. Or do you really think I thought all that emotion in the scene we shot today was just acting? Tell the truth, you thought you could lose myself in real life? Rena-confirming just nodded. -Oh … this is so cute Rena-san. -Yuko said to embrace the girl and touching her face on it.
-B-but why you not angry? -Rena asked Yuko feel the breath on your skin.
-Think. Only when the affection is mutual and that we aren’t bothered at being kissed by surprise. -Yuko faced Rena, the brown eyes made contrast with the dark hair of the girl.
-I thought you liked the Kojima-san.
-And like her, I like being with her, I think she beautiful, but that doesn’t mean I feel something strong for her.

-And … feel something strong for me? -Matsui asked blushing. She clutched the sleeve of the uniform of dark blue sailor who wore Oshima
-I fell. -Yuko admitted to blush.
-Since when?

-I don’t know. Maybe… since we started recording this new season. Well, it just happened. They say love happens when you least expect it. And now here I am, trying to steal a kiss without scaring you.
-Know that you can do it at will.
-I know, but I love to see you embarrassed. It’s so cute. -Rena closed her eyes and buried her face in the shoulder of Yuko.
-I love you. -Rena said in Yuko ear.
-I love you too. -She heard laughter coming from Rena.
-Hey… are you mad? -A girl asked to look at the oldest. Rena was too ashamed to imitate Gekikara when he was not working, but she knew Yuko loved when she did.
-No, I’m very happy. -Oshima smiled showing his dimples. She spent her fingertips gently by double fake scar the girl had the eyebrow and then stroked her hair.
-Me too, I’m very happy. - Rena pulled Yuko hair to back exactly how the girl was in her character yankee and kisses again Yuko’s lips.

Now the girl would not have to look on the terrace, in the classroom, in the gym or on the ward. Yuko would always be with her. And they would be together for a million years.

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#21: Tripping and Falling Back
« Reply #23 on: September 21, 2012, 09:56:15 PM »
Entry #21
Title: Tripping and Falling Back
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Oshima Yuko, Takahashi Minami, Maeda Atsuko; Yuko/Minami
Word Count: 2148

Tripping and Falling Back

Takamina first felt her responsibilities as the group’s general manager when a text popped up at 4am in the morning, jolting her out of her bed with a short but firm message.

Meeting in the Office now, our aces are in deep shit. – Yasusu

With no time to lose, Takamina jumped off her bed and threw on a big coat before running out to flag a cab. Her head was spinning; she wasn’t sure if it was the need to wake up at 4 in the morning or the fact that the ambiguous message mentioned someone really close to her heart.

But one thing she knew for sure: she didn’t like the sound of it.

-

Takamina clutched her head; it was spinning far worse than it was when she got out of bed an hour ago and the photos strewn all over the table in front of her wasn’t helping at all.

The agenda of the meeting was clear: Damage control.

The meeting room was abuzz with suggestions on what to do with a few staff busying themselves over at the white board, scribbling all the better recommendations down while both Togasaki and Aki-P buried their heads over at the other corner, engaged in whispered discussions. Takamina sighed, picking up a photo and winced; it’s going to be difficult to fabricate a lie out from all these evidences to cover their asses.

Hitting her fist on the wooden conference table in agony, Takamina let out a low yell. The room quieted down as all eyes were now affixed on her; the staff watched in horror as Takamina raised, eyes bloodshot from the lack of sleep and stress before grabbing a few photos in front of her and stormed out of the room, ignoring the shouts behind her for her to get back into the room.

Togasaki sighed before telling everyone to get back to their discussion and looked knowingly at the boss.

General Manager, Takahashi Minami, was on the job before anyone told her to.

-

 Turning the key, the door clicked and unlocked. Takamina stood facing the door, taking a deep breath in and shook her head as though to clear off all her frustrations and anger. She stepped into the familiar house, one that she hadn’t came since a few months ago and chuckled silently to herself that the key still worked. Someone’s probably too busy to get it changed, she thought.

Walking into the eerily dark house, Takamina made a beeline into the room that she used to spend many nights in, feeling a breath stuck in her throat as she watched the sleeping girl from afar…

-

Flashback

“Let’s break up.”
“Why?”
“I fell out of love with you.”
“And in love with someone else?”

“Yes. I’m sorry Minami…” The girl held onto Takamina’s hand, nodding as tears fell from her face. She didn’t really know why she was crying; it was after-all her who initiated the breakup, betrayed the other girl’s feelings and ultimately the one who was supposed to be the happy one after being free from this relationship.

Takamina shook her head as her face scrunched up; disappointment, hurt, anger and betrayal flashed past her face as she looked at the ace whom she felt so much for, the person whom she fought so hard to keep by her side after the management knew about their relationship and the one girl whom she wanted to spend the rest of her life with.

The one who now, betrayed her heart.

-

Forcefully, a hand jerked her out of bed and the drowsy girl forced her eyes open only to recognise the silhouette in front of her to be of Takamina’s. Rubbing the sleepiness out of her eyes, a slap rang out in the room as Takamina’s palm kissed the side of her face.

Before the pain could register, the shock did.

“THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU? WHY DID YOU LET THE PAPS GET SUCH PICTURES OF YOU!?” Takamina yelled, tears rolling down her face as an indescribable rage took over her, throwing the photos that were grabbed tightly in her hands onto the girl.

It wasn’t her plan to scream at the girl; she wanted to talk it out with her and find an acceptable reason for her actions but seeing her face, the one that she loved so much even now, she just couldn’t keep it inside her. She looked as the girl stared back at her open-mouthed, shock painting over her features and she felt a tug on her heart.

Nearly apologetic, Takamina clenched her fist, feeling as her sharp nails dug into her palm. Her head spun; she wasn’t sure if it was the worry, the anger, the lack of sleep or just about everything combined together.

She watched as the girl bent over and picked up the photos that had flew to the floor, gathering all the pieces that were mercilessly thrown in her face earlier. The poker face was something Takamina hated; the actress in her made it impossible for anyone to read what was on her mind most of the times, and Takamina, despite being her girlfriend, could hardly read them read.

“Takamina…” the soft, seemingly weak voice cut through the silent, jolting the general manager out of her trance. The shorter girl’s eyes softened as they locked with the other girl’s, watching as tears spilled down her face.

Takamina glared at the girl and turned her back, refusing to look at the crying girl. She tugged the back of Takamina’s pyjamas as if begging for the general manager to look at her. “I’m sorry…” she whispered, voice hoarse.

Slowly, Takamina felt the hand losing grip as it slid down her shirt; the girl did not say anything else as she tried to wipe the tears that kept falling, off her face. She sobbed quietly, debating within herself if she should explain everything to Takamina.

Saved for a few sniffs, the room was deadly quiet as Takamina stepped out of the room…

-

Flashback

“Who is the guy?”
“…”
“Right, I don’t even deserve to know who my girlfr- ex-girlfriend fell in love with.”
Eiji Wentz…

-

“Takamina…?” Yuko called out with her voice quivering as she stepped into the other bedroom; the one that she packed all their memories together in. She looked as Takamina traced a finger over the photo that they took the week they got together, heaving a sigh as memories started overwhelming her senses. Running to the other girl, Yuko threw her arms around the shorter girl and gave her a tight hug from the back. “I’m sorry. Minami, I’m sorry…”

A smile began to form on Takamina’s face unconsciously as tears welled up in her eyes. Turning herself around, she looked at the apologetic girl, “Why?”

The bluntness took Yuko back.

“We didn’t realise we were followed by the paparazzi,” she started, “Wentz was tasked with sending me home since Acchan was all wasted and over Takeru. Him, being all gentlemanly, didn’t decline even though we broke up some ti-“

“WHAT? YOU GUYS BROKE UP?” Takamina yelled, hands gripping on Yuko’s shoulders. The other girl sheepishly nodded, giving the younger girl another apologetic look. “When? Why? AND WHY DIDN’T YOU TELL ME?”

Yuko smiled for the first time that night, “A few months ago. It didn’t cross my mind to tell you something as trivial as this.”

Takamina arched her eyebrows, “Trivial…if it’s trivial for you…”

Yuko nodded.

“I fell out of love again.”

-

Flashback

“I guess it’s the last goodbye for us?”
“…Thank you for the pleasant memories all these times…”
“You too, Yuu-chan. You too. And I hope whoever that your heart is pointing you towards now…would love you back…”

“I hope so too, though it’s probably impossible,” Yuko gave a dry laugh, picking up her bag as she opened the car door. Wentz gave a puzzled look as he stepped out of the car. “Well, we broke up once, so I guess, it’s hard to mend a broken heart?”

“So I see…you tripped and fell back in love……”

-

The sun streamed into the room, irritating Takamina’s eyes as she opened them slightly to look at her phone. Typing a text message to Togasaki, the general manager placed her phone back on the bedside table and closed her eyes, blowing a strand of stray hair off her face. The body next to her snuggled up against her, arms tightening themselves possessively around her waist and Takamina was suddenly reminded that she wasn’t alone. Looking down, she found the other girl’s legs intertwined with hers into an undistinguishable mess of limbs and chuckled softly.

Patting the other girl’s head gently, Takamina hummed a sweet tune that she shared with Yuko back when they were dating. Yuko stirred as the other girl placed a gentle kiss on the top of her head, stroking the shiny brown hair. She loved to look at Yuko’s sleeping face; it was one of her favourite thing to do each morning when she woke up next to the girl while they were dating.

One of the ace of AKB48, one of Japan’s promising budding actress and one of the most busy person in the entertainment industry, it was only while she was sleeping, does she shed the mask that she had to put on whenever she goes out to meet people. Replacing the hyperactive, energetically happy face, was the calm, serene and beyond gorgeous face.

Only while she was sleeping, she is Oshima Yuko.

-

As much as she wished to remain in bed with Yuko for the rest of the day, Takamina’s phone was telling her otherwise; it had been ringing and flooded with messages from the staff since early dawn and she had just been summoned back to the office with Aki-P’s latest message.

Trying to untangle her legs from Yuko’s with as little movement as possible, Takamina reckoned that it was a feat more difficult to achieve than standing in Tokyo Dome for her solo concert. Carefully extracting a leg out of the mess, Yuko moaned, burying her head deeper in Takamina’s chest as she forcefully turned the other girl ‘round to face herself.

The younger girl sighed, “Yuu-chan…wake up…” Yuko groaned, nuzzling her face against the pillow only to catch a soft moan. The girl nuzzled once again, puzzled at the light moans that seemed to sound like a certain someone.

Opening her eyes as the dull sunlight infiltrated her senses, Yuko smiled. The angelic face that greeted her, oh how she missed it so much. “Minami…” the older girl crooned, cupping the other girl’s face and gave her a morning kiss. “Good morning…”

“Good morning…now can I have my legs back? Aki-P just sent me an ultimatum and I’ve to get back to the meeting in 30 minutes,” Takamina said with a laugh, watching as the other girl pouted her disappointment. She patted Yuko’s head once again, “Someone has to clear up the shit you stirred up last night ya know?”

Yuko chortled, throwing a playful punch onto Takamina’s arm. “I’ve yet to hit you back for slapping me!”

“That woke you up, didn’t it?” Takamina ssexy beasted, rubbing the spot where Yuko hit. She didn’t let it show, but it pained her so much when she slapped Yuko the previous night. The guilty silence hanged in the air between them and Yuko cuddled up to Takamina, whining softly. “I’ve got to go,” lifting Yuko’s arms away from her waist, Takamina attempted to sit up from the bed, only to find herself being pulled back onto the mattress, coming face-to-face with her girlfriend. “Yu-unnnnnfff,” Takamina’s chiding died on her lips as a pair of full moist lips pressed firmly against hers.

Yuko ran her tongue lightly on Takamina’s lips, smirking against the kiss. Not one to reject such a proposal, Takamina quickly allowed its entrance and enjoyed Yuko’s soft skin brushing up against her own. The younger girl, face flustered, pulled away from the sweet lips before it was too late to stop. Yuko whimpered, face obvious with distaste that the kiss ended sooner than she liked it to be. “Don’t worry, we’ll have lots of time for this when I cleared up your mess,” Takamina laughed, sitting up and grabbing a scrunchie off the bedside table and tying up her hair in a bun. She turned around and smiled at her girlfriend as she opened the door.

“Thank you for falling back in love with me.”
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#22: What lies beneath the surface
« Reply #24 on: September 22, 2012, 04:14:36 PM »
Entry #22
Title: What lies beneath the surface
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Kimoto Kanon, Matsui Jurina
Word Count: 2840



What lies beneath the surface

Vampires. A lot of people would just shrug them off as urban legends, as things that only appears in novels, comic books or movies. But as I  found out… they were real, silently living among us. They aren’t so much like the ones you read about, they don’t sparkle like in some  crappy novel, they don’t change appearances, they don’t turn into dust. They just look normal like you and me.
 
-
 
25 years ago my family moved to the United States to start a new, and have a better life. Things weren’t going well for us back in Japan. Even though my parents are both university graduates, they both couldn’t find a proper job. The companies were always biased to who ever they employ. If you didn’t have any connections you either pray for something to happen or attempt to make something happen. My parents tried both of that. They didn’t like the concept of sucking up to their bosses like they’re coworkers did. They had enough, so with us in hand and the little money they had in their pockets. We moved here.
 
I was just an innocent little girl, not knowing if what we did was right. Although I didn’t like the idea of moving, I did understand that our current situation wasn’t very good at all, so it might be for the best. 
 
I just focused on taking care of my younger sister, she’s always so clingy. She’s 4 years younger than me, but always so mature. Even so she still had a childish side, she loved coloring her book while laying down on her stomach, she would have a smile on her face and would always call me to join her. She doesn’t like losing or crying in front of others, when she feels like she can’t hold the tears in anymore she comes to me. Even though she’s taller, she has never teased me about being the short one even though I’m older. She once said that she wanted to be like me. Our personalities are so different. The only thing similar about us is our dimples, but even so we were really close and I loved her so much.
 
Everything was going perfectly well in our new home. Even though we were just living in a small apartment we didn’t mind, this might sound quite cheesy to you but we have each other, that’s all that matters. Everyone in the small town was friendly, it didn’t take us long to make  friends. I was starting to feel glad that we moved here.
 
Until 5 years later. My father mysteriously disappeared his coworkers said that he had went home early but he never returned. I was only 12 at that time. I wanted to help my mother with anything that I could help her with. I was too young to go get an actual job and She was alone trying to raise two kids. My younger sister and I understood that we shouldn’t cause her trouble. So we did our best, in whatever it maybe. Studying, sports, anything that would make her proud at least. I started to learn how to cook and my younger sister would offer to help. God bless that child she would always cheer me and my mother up.

We could only hope for things to get better.
 
A year later, still no word from him. We lost all hope with trying to find him. The police have told us that there is, maybe, a possibility that he had died that day. Although they can’t prove anything until they found a body. 
 
One night, I was shopping for groceries. When I saw a figure in the side walk, it was like he was waiting for me. I backed off and didn’t continue, only then did he finally called my name “Kanon…” He sounded like he was in pain “Run away…” he shouted.
 
My father is alive, but what I saw next was horrifying. His eyes in a different color. I do not know where to start explaining what I saw but, he was transforming, into another creature, which seems like a wild dog that runs in two legs… What do they call them? Werewolves? But I later found out that they were called Lycans.
 
I just dropped everything and started to run, earlier he looked like my father… but now he’s just some monster. I was so confused with what was going on, I even started to think that I was dreaming. But sadly for me, I wasn’t. I just ran as fast as I could and made it in to a back alley. Our apartment was close from the grocery store, but I didn’t want to lead him there.
 
I was so afraid that I didn’t noticed  a vehicle coming, until it hit me.  I hit the pavement, I heard my bones crack, and I was bleeding really bad. I couldn’t even move, I think I broke all the bones in my body that night.

I got a glimpse of the people that came out of the car. They were wearing black and one had a gun in his hand.
 
“Tsk. Shit… I think this one’s not going to make it” One of them said as he continued to inspect me. “It’s a pity she’s too young” He then said coldly.
 
“Can’t you at least feel a little bit of remorse, it was you that hit her after all” The other man scolded him. 
 
“Come on David, We’re not humans, if we kill that is to be expected of us, an-WOAH LOOK OUT!” His attention later turned to the creature that went towards him, quickly the other man fired. I heard the creature scream in pain. It seemed as though it worked as his body started to change back to human form. Slowly he made his way to me. The man still pointing his gun at him.
 
“P-papa…”I said weakly as my father started to stroke my hair. He kissed me in the forehead, I felt tears fall down on my face. 
 
“Kanon…I’m sorry” he said crying, the then turned at the men that was just watching us. “Please… save my child” He begged. One of them approached him, now with his gun down. “Are you sure?” He asked, he looked down at me and then back at him. “If I turn her she will forever remain 13 and will probably suffer the consequences later”
 
“It’s because she’s only 13 that I want her to live…” My father said looking at the man. “Very well, but I cannot guarantee you how long she will live after this.” The man replied.
 
My father thanked him, he then turned to me and whispered. “Look after your mother and younger sister for me” He said with his last breath as he collapsed next to me. I started to feel cold, I saw the man come closer, he squatted next to me. I tried to look up, I met his bright blue eyes…they look so sad. I closed my eyes and my heart slowly stopped beating.

Six years.
 
It’s been six years since my older sister had disappeared, and six years since my  father’s death. When they found him on the street he was already dead. They also saw some  blood near him which they have confirmed to be my sister’s, they searched the whole area  for anything, but nothing. All they could find was her blood next to my father. I heard  that, when they found him, it looked like as if he was laying next to someone…who might  have been her. 
 
I was so devastated when I found out. I was only 9 at that time. I remembered my mom  suddenly bursting into tears on the phone. When she was done, she held me close and just  cried. “Jurina… you’re father’s not coming back…” she said. The next day more terrible  news. My sister was not found yet. It was then when I started crying. I never cried in  front of my mother before but my sister was gone, was all I could think of. But I remembered what my sister would tell me when I would get discouraged. “Jurina is  strong, she can over come anything! I believe in you.” is what she would tell me. “I  believe in you.” Are the words that kept repeating on my mind. It gave me the strength that  I needed to go on. It was my turn, to take care of our family. Even though its just me and  my mother now, we still manage to get through everyday.
 
Right when I turned 15, I immediately looked for jobs so I can help my mother with  finances. I didn’t care about what video game came out, or what movies are coming out, I  didn’t care. I only wanted to help my mother. That is what my older sister would have done.  She would’ve even spoiled me too, like what she did back then. She used to pat my head all  the time when I felt sad or when I feel I have a tummy ache. I started to pout then I  thought about those days. I missed my older sister. 
 
“Jurina?” I heard my mother called. “What’s wrong you’ve been spacing out?” She asked as we  were eating dinner. It was my mom’s birthday so I made sure to treat her in a nice  restaurant. I’m sure that’s what my older sister and Father would have done…
 
“No… nothing… How’s the food? Is it good?” I smiled and asked her, I didn’t want to  bring her mood down, no not tonight. 
 
When we were done eating we decided to watch a movie, but on the way there something unexpected happened. Something jumped on the hood of the car, I wasn’t sure what it was but  It looked like… a big wild dog.
 
My mom tried to shake the thing off when she managed, she didn’t noticed the tree the car  was heading towards to and crashed. When I came to, I turned to my mother. I tried to wake  her up, shaking her, no response, I tried shouting but still she won’t wake up. Until I  finally gave up. The car started to ignite, it will probably explode soon. This is probably it for me…  Onee-chan. I wanted to at least see you one last time. I’m sorry.
 
I closed my eyes until something grabbed me and threw me out of the car. I feel my bones  break as I cough out more blood. I couldn’t see the thing coming at me clearly… my vision  was starting to blur… I couldn’t move.
 
Suddenly I hear gunshots, and I heard the thing in front of me growl but what fell down was  just a mere human. I saw someone coming towards me. I tried to look but my eyes started to  get heavy. “Are you sure about this…Kanon?” The person beside the smaller figure asked. 
 
Kanon? I thought. That was once my older sister’s name. Has she been alive this whole time? 
 
“I don’t want to leave her like this” 
 
Upon hearing her voice I tried to look up, I recognized it. That voice that had  always encourage me when I was younger. I wanted to see that person again one last time.  but I was too weak, I couldn’t move my body anymore… I saw her walk towards me and I  tried to turn my head. All I could see was a blurry image of what looked like a young girl. 
 
“O-onee-chan… d-did you come for me?” I tried to say. The person sat down beside me.  ”Shhh…Jurina go to sleep…” She said and gently placed her hand on my cheeks. Her hand  felt cold. I slowly closed my eyes and stopped breathing.
———————————
 
A few hours later.
 
I opened my eyes the pain in my body had disappeared, was I only dreaming?
 
I looked around to see where I am, It was in some abandoned building where the windows are  shut. There was sunlight peeking in from one of them but I felt like I should avoid it I  wonder why. 
 
Slowly, I remembered what happened the other night, I sat up and looked at what I was  wearing. My clothes were all dirty and ripped from what happened. I remembered that I had injuries, but they seemed to have disappeared. Then I remembered my mother. I started crying, with my hand covering my face. I felt a hand touch my head. 
 
Surprised, I looked at who it was. It was my older sister But she still looked 13 as if time stopped for her. She should be 19 now and should’ve at least grew taller, but she looked exactly the way she did before she disappeared except her eyes are bright blue which changed to back dark brown. Or is it just someone that looked like her?
 
Seeing how confused I was looking at her she finally spoke. “Jurina. I know you must be wondering why I still look like this…But for now you should rest, I’ll explain anything when the sun goes down” she said and started to pat my head like she did when I used to cry to her.
 
Without saying anything I obeyed her. I laid down on the bed and closed my eyes. I felt her put a blanket over me. Not that I needed it anyway. I didn’t feel cold or hot. I didn’t feel anything which scared me. 
 
When I woke up, I looked around. I was still at the same place. I heard footsteps coming towards the room and I just stared at the door. My sister came in holding some clothes and a paper bag. She looked at me and smiled. “You should change your clothes” She said and handed them to me. I nodded and grabbed it from her. I still have no idea what’s going on.
 
I finished changing, I turned and looked at her. Her smile faded. She knew she has to explain everything to me eventually. She motioned for me to sit down so I did.
 
“Onee-chan… you should have at least let us know you were alive.” I started feeling a bit mad at her.
 
I just saw her look down, but she looked back at me again. “I’m sorry… I couldn’t come back again. After what happened that night…” She cleared her throat.
 
“You remembered those things you saw last night right?” She asked and I just nodded. I still didn’t know if what I saw was real.
 
“The reason why Papa had disappeared was because he was turned in to one of them” She paused as she saw me trying to process the information. “Those things are what people would call Werewolves but we call them Lycans” she continued.
 
“We?” I asked thinking out loud. 
 
She took out a small blade and slowly she started to slit her wrist, blood started to pour. Surprised, I was going to stop her. She just looked at me and her eye color suddenly changed into a bright light blue color. “Jurina… this is why I couldn’t go back” She tried to explain.  The would started to heal by itself. I looked at her with amazement.
 
She bit her lips and continued “That night when father was found. I was hit by a car and  died.” She looks at me, to see if I was following along. “I was turned into a vampire”
 
I couldn’t believe what I just heard but I said nothing and waited for her to continued.
 
“…and last night… you…” she stopped and hesitated. “You died.” My eyes widened. It was like I was hearing a story from a fairytale, or a comic book. She then took my hand. Her hands were cold and so were mine. She then place her cold hand on my cheek, I looked up to see her face. “I’m sorry I couldn’t save Mama. It was already too late” She said with regret, her sad bright blue eyes turned back to dark brown.   
 
I shook my head and gave her a hug, while still sitting down on the bed. “Onee-chan… You’ve been watching over us right?” The feeling that I had earlier about her leaving us disappeared. I closed my eyes as she started to pat my head. I knew she wanted to be with us too, I felt the same way. I couldn’t stay mad at her after all she was the only person that I have left. Even though now we’re both neither dead or alive. 

She then went towards the table and reached inside the paper bag. She handed me something that looks like a clear juice bag. Except inside wasn’t juice. I knew what it was when I saw it’s color. I took and drank from it without saying anything.

And so it began. Our lives as Vampires. Living and trying to survive. Together.

What lies beneath the surface? I used to wonder about that too.

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#23: Red String
« Reply #25 on: September 22, 2012, 09:13:41 PM »
Entry #23
Title: Red String
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Nakatsuka Tomomi,Yokoyama Yui, Nonaka Misato; Tomomi/Yui
Word Count: 4390

Red String


Have you ever heard of the red string of fate? It’s a little thin string that ties two soul mates together; it’s just a legend though. At least it is for people unlike me that cannot see the mess of strings that tie people together. As far as I could remember I would look at the pinky on my hand and there would be a string limply tied to it. Yet whenever I said that there was something there nobody would believe me, they thought that I had just heard of the folklore and it was just my childish imagination kicking in. It wasn’t though; I had no idea about that legend until I was older. Yet because of the responses of those around me I started to leave that red string alone.

It wasn’t until I turned older that I yearned to see who was at the other end of that string, yet every time I would chase after it I knew in the back of my mind that it would be pointless. It would lead me places yes, but there was always the chance that the person at the other end didn’t even live in the same country let alone the same city.

I gave up on searching, thought that if we were really meant to be then we would find our way to each other. I was right about that part though, because that summer of first year she appeared before my eyes. Okay I might have been a little shocked at the fact that it was a she but then again I go to an all girl school I can’t be THAT shocked.

I don’t know what horrible deity above decided that we needed to have class in the summer but we did and she just waltzed right into our class with this stupid little smile. I don’t know if there was someone up their pulling our strings or something but she happened to be placed right next to me. A desk mate that I soon found out that I didn’t want. After everyone had settled in, class began but unlike usual I found it hard to concentrate.

That is because of the little thin red string tying us together that only I could see. Who would’ve thought that the person connected to be would be her. I was confused and unsure and our first conversation did nothing to help it.

She turned to face me, or at least that’s what I think she did because I was too focused on her hand to notice. “Uhm… do you have a hand fetish or something?” She whispered to me and I flushed red. I quickly stuttered out, “No, no I don’t.” before turning to face the board. She just gave me a strange look before shrugging her shoulders and refocused on the lesson. She did have nice hands though…

It was afterschool when I was finally free from her bothersome existence; she was putting me completely out of whack. I dragged my conflicted self back to the dorms in hopes that a nap would rid me of all these things that I’m feeling. The thread shows that she’s the one for me, but how exactly am I supposed to handle something like this. It’s not like I could just magically seduce her into liking me, I mean she probably thinks that I’m a complete weirdo!

“So, has the new kid caught our precious Chris-sama’s eyes? Want good old Micha to hook you two up?” I heard an almost annoyingly familiar whisper into my ear. I turned and gave her a pointed look which just seemed to encourage her some more. “I’m pretty good at this whole matchmaking thing~” She continued with a cheerful voice that made me just want to throw her off a cliff before she ruined my future. “No. Stay out of it; don’t you have your hands full with Sakiko and Umeda-senpai?” I asked hoping that she would become distracted. It was surprisingly though, not having either of the senpais outside my door trying to catch Micha’s attention.

She stopped and paused to think for a bit, “Oh them…? I think I banned them for a week for getting into a fight with each other. Why can’t they just seem to get along with each other?” I gave her an exasperated look, how does she just casually do stuff like that?! She’s older than me! Shouldn’t she handle her relationships more carefully? Then again this is Nonaka Misato we’re talking about; she probably doesn’t need to care considering her legion of fangirls.

I pitied the two senpais I really did, considering how Micha was always hesitant about the two of them. “They probably would start getting along with each other again if you stopped leading the both of them on and chose one.” I sighed out, this most definitely wasn’t the first time I’ve said something like this. It’s been almost half a year since the two of them started adamantly pursuing Micha and it truly seemed as if Micha was just stringing the two along. At least I would think that if it weren’t for the fact that we were such close friends.

She shook her head and replied, “Naw, good luck with your transfer student~ I’m rooting for ya!” Then she proceeded to casually float- I mean gracefully walk out of my door. I sighed to myself as I watched her retreating figure and started mumbling, “Micha… neither of them are right for you.” I stared at the thin red string attached to her left pinky and sighed some more.

It wasn’t my business to interfere with other people’s love lives but she’s my friend I can’t help but care. Even if she is usually an annoying empty brained ojou-sama type, okay maybe not but she still is hella annoying at times. My most hated memories are all a result of her; ever since I was young she’s caused me so much embarrassment. She even still brings it up for a laugh in front of people we’ve just met! I’ve seen too many people who are with the wrong people, and ultimately they all break up eventually. I just don’t want Micha to realize too late when she’s given half her life to the wrong person.

It was almost half a month later when I had given up on this Yui person. She was this completely headstrong, rude person and I most definitely didn’t like her. For the first time in my life I wished that I could actually be able to take a pair of scissors and snip off this red string that was tying me to this supposed soul mate. It was stupid for me to even care what this person was up to in the first place. No matter how many times Micha might tell me that it’s the typical boyish way of treating one’s crush I am so close to accidently tripping her down the stairs.

I heard a faint knock on my door and the same person that I was considering making some type of voodoo doll walked in. I gave her a glare before demanding an explanation. “Thought I’d show you how you gave me a bruise the size of Mt. Fuji on my head.” She said casually while lifting her hand awkwardly to point at the bruise that I had given her earlier that day in class when I slammed my textbooks on her. “Oh…” I muttered before lifting myself to the mini fridge and throwing her a cold drink. “Put it on. I don’t want your parents to find out and sue me or something.” She reached her hand out to get it but it felt out of her hands.

I was going to comment but she said, “Remember when you threw a basketball at me with full power last week?”  My face fell some more, and I was starting to feel a tinge of guilt for all her physical trauma. “Oh… whoops.” Yui just shook her head and pull out the bag she was hiding behind her with her non traumatized by me hand. “Peace offering.” I would dare say that she said it cutely but then she added, “Ya know so I don’t die before I graduate?”

I gave her a glare before standing up to take the gift from her. “Aren’t you going to share~” She asked with her annoying voice. It’s like every time I think we might actually stop trying to kill – I mean I stop trying to hurt her she just has to screw it up. “Oh fine, get out of here after though. Unlike you I actually need to sleep at proper times instead of napping in class.” I scoffed at her, she deserved all the times I smashed her with a textbook at least I was a little less harsh than the teacher. She wouldn’t still be here with all her limbs intact if it was the teacher.

I mean seriously who hires an ex military buff guy to teach at an all girls school?

I grabbed some plates and set out the cakes that she had apparently purchased as a peace offering. “These are actually pretty good. Where’d you get them?” I asked out of curiosity and it was bugging the hell out of me how she was looking at me weirdly (like to plot my death?). “Oh I made them.” She said offhandedly and took a bite of the cake she had. “You can bake?!” I looked at her skeptically, “Then why are you failing home economics?” There was no way in hell that this girl would be able to bake.

“Okay fine, I got a little help from Akane…” She replied sheepishly just like I had guessed. There was no way this kid could bake, sports yes bake no. So that’s why the cakes tasted so familiar, they were probably made from Akane’s own recipes. I really should go drop by and ask her for them one day. “So… is the peace offering accepted?” She asked me curiously and I nodded back, maybe now she’ll stop being so utterly annoying. The smile she gave me though… That was another heart stopping story.

Everything was going along fine and I stopped thinking that maybe having this almost imaginary string tying us together was actually okay. Yui and I had ACTUALLY started to get along. Even Micha thought that it was a complete miracle. I guess everything sort of was thrown into chaos after I received a mail from Yui asking me to meet me at the rooftop of the school. I could kind of guess what she wanted from the whole…

Please me at the rooftop after school.

I have something that I need to tell you.

Yui


I clenched my hands before dragging myself up to the roof of the school where Yui wanted to meet me. My chest was pounding and hands sweating, I didn’t know what was going to happen. If I had known I would have probably rolled myself down the stairs and into the hospital to avoid everything. She was already up there waiting for me. It was a nice scene really having her hair waving in the wind, but of course I didn’t notice it at the time.

I walked up to her hesitantly fearful for exactly what it was that she had to tell me. I mean I had my suspicions but I would rather it not be true and she just felt like having a little nice heart to heart talk. I braced myself as I called out to her. She turned around with a troubled face and it was then that I truly became fearful. Fearful because I didn’t know what to do next if what I predicted was to come true.

She stared at me for a moment before stuttering out, “I-I’m glad you came.” Where did the stupid headstrong and rude girl that was my desk mate go? Did someone just kidnap her and replace her with a clone. Well that’s what I thought before I saw that stupid judgemental face of hers appear again. Okay so maybe it really was the same girl.

“Do you believe in love at first sight?” She asked as she continued to stare into my eyes as if compelling me to speak the truth. I shook my head, I truly didn’t believe in such a thing. I unconsciously touched my left pinky, with the ability to see such things I don’t think it was possible for me to fall in love with anyone other than the idiot standing in front of me. The thing is I don’t even know what it is to love.

“I-I know that we haven’t exactly started off on the right foot but I like you. It even comes with those stupid fuzzily lil butterfly feels. I can wait you know, until you figure it out. Can you just promise me that you’ll tell me the truth when the time comes?” The look on her face killed me, why was she being like this? Being so dreadfully considerate of me. I nodded and her gaze lingered on me one last time before walking past me and down into the dorms.

I just stood there frozen, still confused by this so called thing called love. If she’s talking about butterflies, I don’t get it but my heart hasn’t stopped beating. Mother always said that love couldn’t be truly defined and you just know it. Maybe I’m just a little slow and skeptical about this whole topic. My gut says that I could accept Yui and see where things go from there because according to string connecting the two of us, we were meant to be. We had been tied to each other for as long as I could remember.

The gods above had destined us for each other, and who am I to go against their will. Who am I to say otherwise to these confusing feelings that I have?

I thought I had everything figured out when the final plot twist happened. I felt someone embrace me and I froze, it couldn’t possibly be her coming back… “Chris… she confessed to you didn’t she?” A worried voice asked me, it was Micha but why does she sound so sad? I tried to turn around but her hold on just tightened. Worried, I asked her, “What’s wrong, did something happen between you and the two of them?” It was quiet except for the sniffles that came from her. Something was wrong, but I didn’t know what… Oh Nakatsuka Tomomi just what are you going to do?

“Tomomi… I broke it off with the two of them, you were right it was wrong for me to lead them on this whole time.” I froze as I registered what she told me, finally after so long she had broken it off with the two of them. Freed the both of them to look for the soul that they were truly linked to, perhaps that is why she feels so sad. Micha probably felt like she was losing two people that cared about her a lot. I felt her hold weaken and I turned myself around so I could hug her. “It’s going to be alright Micha, there is someone out there for you. You just have to look a little longer.” I tried to comfort her but the sniffling just wouldn’t stop.

We just stood there, I don’t know how long but I just continued to hold onto Micha tightly. I could feel her pulling me away a little and I was slightly scared of the expression that Micha had. It was the same one that Yui had a little while ago. I could feel all the warning alarms in my head going off, but I just stood there. There was truly no place for me to flee from this and all I could do was stand here head high and look her into the eye as she confessed to me.

Today just wasn’t my lucky day.

“Tomomi… I rejected the two of them because I’ve liked you for a long time. You never seemed to show any interest so I thought it’d get over it and then the two of them came along. I tried really hard, I really did but I just couldn’t make myself like the two of them. I’m sorry, even if this ruins out friendship I have to tell you. I love you.” Her eyes had started to brim with tears and I still stood there shocked. I was conflicted; I loved Micha yes but as a friend, as a sister. Then there’s the string connecting me to Yui who I had just promised a reply to.

Everything was just crashing on me and I had no idea what to do. Micha probably saw that I was confused and let go of me. “I get it… I’ll just go now. I hope we can still stay friends? I guess I just need to try harder.” She stuttered out before running off.

Great. I’ve probably ruined the day of 4 girls, just wonderful and I just getting used to this mundane life.

I dragged myself down the stairs while thinking of how much I wish she never appeared in my life. I wanted to blame her for all of this; it was bad enough with the confession but Micha… I was hurting Micha and she didn’t deserve to be hurt. Yet I knew that I would have to break her heart because the little red string that I wish I could just cut linked me with Yokoyama Yui. It was something that I just couldn’t change and if I were to be selfish and chose to make Micha happy I would be ruining the lives of all four of us. Four because somewhere out there, a person is going to spend their life making Micha happy it’s just that they haven’t been fated to meet yet.

I wish that I was never born with such a gift, and then I wouldn’t have to worry. I wouldn’t need to be in such a position and could be selfish. I could always break Yokoyama’s heart and try to mend Micha’s but I knew that I couldn’t and this is what is killing me. I knew who I wanted but doing so would only hurt the other whom I loved just as much. Why can’t the person that Micha’s destined for just show up at her doorsteps and waltz away with her. Then I wouldn’t have to be here feeling all this guilt for trying to love the person that I do.

I knew what I needed to do, and it was to talk with Micha. As hard as it seems right now, I probably can’t do anything without hurting, might as well try to lower the pain. It was all I could think of and at the time it seemed like a plan. Talk to Micha see if there was some way to salvage our relationship and then talk to Yui and give her the answer that she deserves. For now I should just sleep, maybe the sleep will numb away all this pain.

I woke up late the next morning; thankfully we didn’t have classes because I was sure I wouldn’t be able to face Yui yet. I would have to face her eventually but first I had to face Micha and it really wasn’t going to be any easier. My heart was pounding from the nervousness which was stupid considering how I usually just barge right into her dorm. Right now I’m just in front of her door trying to gather the courage to even knock. Even now I don’t know what exactly will happen to our friendship from this.

Knock knock

There I did it, my hand was still shaking when she came to open the door and let me in. I grabbed a seat on her bed trying to look anywhere but in her eyes. “Chris… you like Yui don’t you? You’re shaking and I’d hate to be the reason for it.” Micha told me sadly with tears gathering in her eyes. I didn’t even know what there was I could say, it’s not like I could deny it and go against my heart to claim that I didn’t. I pulled myself up and tried to pull her into my arms but she just slapped them away.

The look that Micha gave me killed me, “Tomomi, just give me some time alone. I’ll get over you I promise but for the time being please just stay away.” I understood what she wanted but it didn’t help the tears that were beginning to fall from my own eyes. Why is it that the gods above have to play these cruel jokes on us humans? Micha turned away from me and I left the room with my tears falling.

The door closed behind me and I don’t know how long I stood outside crying my heart out. It just wasn’t supposed to turn out this way.

Through my blurred vision I saw a figure approach me and wrap their arms around me. I didn’t care who it was and cried into their arms until the tears just stopped coming. All of this just hurt so much; this joke was just too cruel. It felt like a long time had passed when I pulled myself together to thank the person holding me. “T-thank y-“ I lifted my head to say and saw that it was Yui with teary eyes that had been holding me this whole time. That’s right; I’m not the only one that is hurting…

“Yui… I-I just can’t. I can’t do this knowing that I’ll hurt one of you.” I cried into her, no matter how much I try to figure this out at the end of the day someone was going to be hurt. “Tomomi… stop. Stop being so selfless, just chose what you want and if it isn’t me I’ll be okay with it. I promise.” I stared into her eyes and I just couldn’t do it.

In the end I had chosen her, I had chosen Yokoyama Yui who had been far too gentle with me. I didn’t regret the choice, ever since I could remember there was this little red string tying me to someone in the world. I would search and search until I grew tired but I never found them. Now that they’re here right beside me I shouldn’t allow for the chance to slip away.

I don’t want to grow old, and be one of those unhappy couples that long for someone other than the one that they have beside them.

I held onto Yui’s hand tightly as Micha approached the both of us. “Hello Nonaka-san.” Yui greeted politely as I nodded my head to Micha who just frowned. She walked up and hit me in the head with her pursue before slinging her arms over my shoulder. “Oww! What did you do that for?” I shouted, god lady do you store bricks in that bag of yours? I looked over to Yui who was chuckling and my face darkened some more. Why did I accept the confession of this evil person who won’t even protect her girlfriend?

“What~ So, Yui I’m guessing you’re dating this useless dork now that wet her bed till-“ Micha started blabbering and my eyes widened. I slapped my hand over her mouth and attempted to kill her for even starting this talk again. Every single time she just had to give people this talk. WHY!? Yui looked on with interest but didn’t comment as I wrestled Micha who was actually winning since she happened to be part giant – I mean taller than me. “Okay, okay fine I won’t embarrass you in front of your new girlfriend… for today.” She told me with a smirk and making some suspicious eye contact with m-my g-girlfriend. My face flushed as I realized just what she had called Yui.

“W-why are you here anyways!” I shouted trying to rid myself of the embarrassment. “Oh, I’m here with a friend, want to meet her? She’s cute~” Micha gushed. Wait she was gushing, does this mean she’s probably completely over me? Oh yeah, mental celebration! Both Micha and Yui gave me funny looks and I frowned. What can’t they let me have fun for one day? “Over here!” I heard Micha shouted and then I saw it this thin red line that linked the two of them. “Hey, I bought you a Dino plushy. Thought you might like it.” The girl walked over here excitedly waving this green dinosaur plushy. Oh right, Micha likes Dinos this girl sure knows how to woo her.

The two of them linked arms and Micha said, “This here is the bratty Chris, and that her girlfriend Yui. Introductions done~ Let’s go to the movies.” Micha started dragging the girl away without introducing her, what a typical Micha thing to do. The girl looked back with a sorry look before walking away with Micha. “Hey, now that they’re gone I guess we can go for our date.” Yui told me before interlacing her hand with mine and pulling me away. I took a peek at our hands and our own red strings connecting us.

I guess I did end up finding her after all.

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#24: we have not touched the stars.
« Reply #26 on: September 23, 2012, 03:20:08 AM »
Entry #24
Title: we have not touched the stars.
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Maeda Atsuko, Oshima Yuko, Kojima Haruna, Itano Tomomi, Minegishi Minami, Watanabe Mayu, Shinoda Mariko, Takahashi Minami
Word Count: 2131

A/N: Just in case you didn’t get this situation (I hope it was understandable because I know I actually don’t mention the event), this is my head-canon on AKB members at the moment Acchan announces her graduation. I did first gen, Mariko, Yuko and Mayuyu (all for obvious reasons, I hope!).

we have not touched the stars

It happens like this: This is where the evening ends. There is a start and a lull. There is screaming, words blurring together, frantic murmurs and whispers. There are people wishing, a prayer against a storm. Later media networks will explode with this news but right now under the noise there is some horror creeping in at the edges, horror and silence. There is a group of girls on a stage with mirrored expressions like their faces have been carved from the same mould. Yes it happens, it happens like this, amongst the echoing howls there is a girl standing and looking out at lights, her words both an apology and a goodbye.

I. YŪKO

It is a punch to the gut. You thrive through competition; you pride yourself on having friends who are rivals. They challenge you; they make you a better person: you’re used to this give and take, the push and shove of power and camaraderie. Acchan with those words has taken that away and suddenly you feel something give in inside of you, a dam bursting and your legs giving way. The world folds within itself like a tidal wave, the centre of a storm, the eye of a typhoon.

It has been a push and shove with Acchan ever since your team was created. The second generation had a burning spirit to overtake, to prove themselves and it still flows in you, that competitive spirit. You need to know you’re an equal. You need to know that you’re not option b because option a was taken, the last resort, the last slice of cake left on the table that no one wants to touch. You have not been validated yet though, and you are still waiting.

You know though, you know that nothing is going to be the same again. Your heart beats triple-paced, curls within itself, a scramble to figure out what is happening. You are falling backwards into reality, and the landing has just happened. It stings. It hurts. But was it too much to expect though? This snail race with Acchan, this frenzy, this fervour which has possessed your mind for the last two years.

Maybe she is tired. Maybe you are tired. You haven’t realised it yet, but maybe you will and then maybe you will leave and it will happen all over again. Maybe AKB will sink into the mud again, sink into the dregs, left to other girls to pull out and launch into the sky. All legacies die.

(It happens like this, Acchan announces her retirement from the elections and it is more than a punch, it is a beating, you feel like you have been robbed of the chance to prove yourself on that stage and show that you deserve it and you think back to last year when you had fallen apart within Mariko’s arms and realise you will never feel that again, not really, that painful feeling of wanting something just out of reach and when you stand on that stage holding the plaque reading first place with Acchan looking on with a large bouquet and tears in her eyes you think: I have lost anyway.)

II. HARUNA

Your eyes open wide and tears slide out, unconditional tears.

When people talk about this day later you just smile and nod because you’re not sure how you felt. Your mind is a blank mess, a prison of thoughts. You wanted her to tell you that she didn’t want this, that someone pushed her into it, that she wanted to stay. You wanted her to tell you that she wasn’t miserable. But she has still said nothing, and you are still confused, when you walk to her while Aitakatta plays you still don’t know what to say. Everyone has the best intentions. When she looks in your direction her smile is almost blinding, she is happy, she is relieved. Your thoughts crumple. There is nothing left to say.

III. TOMOMI

You ate out with Acchan the day before.

She had asked if you wanted to grab something to eat, the crease between her eyes deeper than normal. There is something on her mind, you had thought, but you didn’t want to push the issue so you didn’t. As she sat in front of you she looked like she was rolling words over her tongue, like she was choking on them as they tripped out of her mouth. But you knew they weren’t the right words that she wanted to say so you waited. To fill the space you talked about the concert, how it went smoothly, how surprised you were about Jurina and Milky, what clothes you’ve been buying, how delicious the food is that you’re eating, how excited you are about Tokyo Dome and isn’t it great that our dreams are finally coming true? And as you talked and talked she had sat and stared past your face, her eyes glazed over.

It’s ok to be scared you know, you had said, still thinking about Tokyo Dome. I’m terrified. It’s an admission, an acceptance of defeat, but you think it needs to be said, if only to shock her out of her silence.

I am too, she had said finally, her eyes cast downwards, a smile sliding off her lips.

It wasn’t until this moment that you realise she wasn’t talking about the Dome.

IV. MINAMI (I)

The dam bursts the fastest with you, you know what’s coming as soon as Acchan starts talking and all your emotions rise to the surface, a turbulent storm. All along Acchan has been an aggravating and inspirational figure for you. Even now hearing the opening notes of Nagisa no Cherry, the sounds of those waves brings an uneasy feeling to you, makes you feel sick to your bones. You can’t help but remember your eyes rubbed raw from crying, that feeling of total and utter insignificance. You still feel like your personality, the personality you have created for yourself was a by-product of that time; you are famous for seizing the moment, the fast talker, the entertainer. If you think back, you can probably trace it back to that moment: dancing behind Acchan’s silhouette, watching her back be illuminated by light.

Now as you watch younger members back dancing in your spot, wearing your costume you nod at them, a will and a promise that it gets better. Still though, you know it doesn’t quite work out that way. You tried to be a proper idol and failed in that sense, you aimed for becoming AKB’s top variety idol but you’re not sure if that is really you. You do have your subunit but when was that unit ever about you? You’re not really a national idol, the name AKB is famous but who is going to know and remember your name after the boom ends? What legacy have you left behind?

Acchan though has left a blazing, reluctant train, even in this moment she is shining through her tears, a halo half smeared through her dark hair. For now though, you push aside these thoughts and let it sink in that she’s leaving, she’s really leaving, she’s actually leaving and you can’t stop crying, the tears won’t stop, you’re drowning. You take steps towards her and grab her hand, ready to comfort her but you fall apart instead. She places her other hand on your face and wipes your tears away, strokes her fingers through your hair and lets you soak her shoulder. And you think to yourself, you are so glad she stumbled into your life.

(It happens like this though, AKB48 rises in fame and the stars of the first generation rise higher. You watch on the sidelines, the other one, the forgotten one, and you realise you have somehow removed yourself from an equation you can’t even solve.)

V. MAYU

It is simple. You are surprised, but not heartbroken. You believe Acchan will go onto acting or doing something, everyone knows that AKB wasn’t the end of her dream. It’s not necessarily the end of your dream either; everyone in AKB is clambering for their chance at being loved. It’s not a hard thought. You feel like after the shuffle something has broken inside of you and what was left has hardened into what you are now. Five years of being in the entertainment business has trained you well, almost too well and you can conceal everything behind an expression. You’re pretty sure you’re the real actress in AKB, growing up in front of cameras you have learnt the power of words and how much trouble showing your feelings can cause. You’ve been blasted for speaking out of line and trying to speak honestly. Now you’re guarded, you’re a fembot, hooded eyes above a pretty smile.

There is something that pulls in your mind though, a thought that catches through your whole body. You try to rein it in but it still pulls at you, it reaches out to you and whispers into your ear: this is your chance. You can crawl into that blank space, that zero. You can make the world yours; fit it in the palm of your hand, for your enjoyment, all for you. The walls are straining, but you let them cave in. It’s okay. You feel tears slide out but you’re not sure if they are tears of shock or tears of sadness or if they were just tears of show, caught in the moment. Later when you think this moment back in the future, you are still left wondering.

VI. MARIKO

You should have noticed. You should have noticed that there was something happening. Everything was still, and you know that happiness can’t last for so long. Nothing ever does.

You’ve taken to mean that it’s your duty as the eldest to naturally want to help others. You had felt something happening with Acchan for a while now but you weren’t sure enough to ask her. Sometimes you would catch Minami glancing vaguely in Acchan’s direction, a look of concentration on her face. You’d see Acchan sit by herself during rehearsal breaks, staring at the corners of the room, like she wanted to melt and join them, to flatten herself into nothing.

When she raises her hand with her shoulders squared you know. And in an instant it hits you. She was one of the girls who let you into the circle of the first generation, and for that you’ll be eternally grateful. But she is no longer the girl that you have babied and laughed with. That girl has been thrown away a long time ago, a stripped painting in the name of art. You were always so worried for her at the beginning, you knew the nightmares she was put through as the face of the group, you knew what people said about them all, and the tears that everyone cried. All you wanted was to protect everyone in the width of your arms, the wisdom of your age. Your protection alone wasn’t enough, you’ve come to realise, the Acchan of fourteen with her self consciousness and timidness is gone. There is a rigidness in her shoulders now that has been building, a practiced narrowed slant to her eyes which has been growing, a weariness encasing her whole body as she steps forward.

You do not recognise that girl anymore, but her laugh is exactly the same.

VII. MINAMI (II)

Acchan grips your hand until it turns white, an iron vice.

(You are halfway through eating your katsudon when Acchan puts down her chopsticks. I want to graduate, she says.

You choke on your food, and look up while coughing. You expect to see crinkled eyes, a laugh catching in her mouth. Instead you look up and see blank eyes, aged eyes. Acchan curls her legs onto the plastic red booth of the twenty four hour cafe you are sitting at, tucks her head on top of her legs. I’m just so tired, she says and she sways in her seat lightly backwards and forwards. The headlights of cars reflect over her body, her shoulders wracking with silent sobs. The Acchan who seemed larger than life suddenly feels so small. All the shadows are moving and you are suddenly the only still thing in the room.

You spill her coffee when your arms reach out to her. The coffee drips from the table but no one is coming. There is no one left.)

You nod, and let her go.

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#25: Captain
« Reply #27 on: September 23, 2012, 04:24:50 PM »
Entry #25
Title: Captain
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Oba Mina, Shimada Haruka; MinaHaruu
Word Count: 1272

Captain


We knew you’d be the captain.

From the moment Togasaki-san stepped onto that stage and announced we’d be forming Team 4, every single one of us was sure of one thing, and that was that you, Haruu, would be chosen as Captain. We weren’t sure about our Ace, but surely your captainhood was a sure thing. No-one else would even capable of such a task, at least not amongst us.

And then suddenly, we were on that stage and the announcement was being made. But it wasn’t your name that was called. It was mine. I’m Oba Mina, and, apparently, I’m Team 4’s Captain. Or at least I should be.

I didn’t expect these responsibilities, and I didn’t want them, but if Akimoto-Sensei says I have to take this role I will do. And I did, as we started practising for our 1st stage to begin, never wanting the responsibility.

And then that blog had to come to light. I mean of course it was my fault, I’d been irresponsible, but it was years ago. Still I’d let myself down. I’d let my fans down, my teammates down, I’d let you down.

I had to take responsibility, so I volunteered my suspension. What choice did I have, the fans would want me out, or at least some punishment. So I took it. I’m sure they won’t take me back. Certainly not as a captain.

I heard they made you captain in my place on the first day of the show. You deserve it more than me anyway.

You’ve been trying to call me, to message me, wanting to talk to me. You shouldn’t want to. I’m just the girl who let you all down. I feel terrible about it, I wish I could do anything to make it up to you.

The only thing I can do is take myself out of the picture. But Akimoto-sensei will call me back, I’m sure. I don’t want to be a problem for anybody. I’ve already caused everyone too much trouble. The fans will complain if I come back. I don’t want to do this anymore. Not with all the guilt.

I don’t want to do this anymore…

Suddenly it all makes sense. I know what I have to do. For your good Haruu, I need to be out of the way. I need to be gone. And I’m not happy with my life anymore anyways. At least it’s my own fault, so no-one else has to feel guilty about it. I just need to be able to do it.

                                             

“Has Mina replied to you this time?”

Haruu looked up from her phone to see most of the team looking at her with an air of concern. The answer, of course, was no.

“What do you think? I just wish she’d talk to me. I need to know that…. that… she’s alright.”

“Haruu, we’re all concerned about her, but snapping at us isn’t going to solve anything. We all know you’re worried about her, but if you can’t get her to talk to you, I think you should talk to her in person.”

“Perhaps you’re right. I think I’ll go do that. Just let me ask someone first”

Haruka went out and found Yui, the only person outside of Team 4 likely to have heard from her.

“Gomen, Haruu, but I haven’t heard fro Mina since her suspension either.”

“It’s fine, I wasn’t hopeful, but I wanted to take the chance. I’m worried about her.”

“Most of us are. But we can’t help her if she won’t let us. You’ll have to convince her I suppose.”

“I’ll go round to her place, talk to her in person. Do you have her address?”

                                                         

Do I really want to do this?

I thought for sure I could do it. I’m sure I have to. Bit I’ve been sitting on this windowsill, next to this window, ready to jump, for about an hour now and I haven’t jumped yet. Maybe some part of me doesn’t want to die just yet. But I’ve caused to much trouble. This is the easiest way. Maybe I need something to push me into it. But what?

                                                 

Haruka had just found Mina’s address, and was now trying to find her apartment, when she got a call on her phone. It was from Akimoto-sensei. He was telling her, in advance, that he planned to take Mina back into the group to start working properly again after the new year had happened, and he was going to tell Mina first but he couldn’t get ahold of her. Haruka ended the call, and kept on looking, now with the good news to tell Mina.

                                                               

I’m not sure I can do this. I’ve been looking at the ground outside for who knows how long, and I’m still no closer to jumping. Maybe I’m being stupid with this. Time to be serious. No point in this.

What was that noise? Someone at the door? I could go answer it? Could use the company. I don’t think I want anyone to see me like this though. Wait, did I even lock the door? It’s opening, guess there’s my answer. Oh Kami. It’s Haruu. Haruu’s just burst in and I’m sat halfway through my window. I can’t deal with this. She’s angry with me isn’t she? I don’t blame her. Guess here’s my push. I’m sorry for failing everyone.

                                                                   

Haruka had just burst through the door, and there she could see, Mina.

“Mina, thank God. What’re you doing on there …”

Before she could finish her sentence she could see Mina seemed to be pushing herself. Through an open window. It took half a second to process what was going on. It might have been to long. She ran at her friend, and reached out with her arm.

                                                             

I’m not falling. It can’t be. My arm hurts, and I kind of hit the wall. She caught me, didn’t she?

I look up at my arm, and sure enough there, holding my arm, preventing me from falling any further. My hand has barely gone below the window sill. Just how strong is she?

“Let me go Haruka. I’ve caused people enough trouble already. It’s better for you all if I’m not around”.

“Do you mean that Mina? Really? How do you think I’ll feel having just seen you fall to your death. How do you think Akimoto-sensei will feel knowing his chosen captain’s dead and the substitute’s incapable of performing because of what she’s been forced to see? There are a hundred things that’ll happen from this Mina, and nobody will benefit. Now tell me, Mina. Do you really want this?”

I look down to the ground. Nobody seems to see what’s going on. It’s awfully high, and I’m scared now. I know what the answer is. I know exactly what I want.

“No.”

I reach up to her with my other hand, and she pulls me up through the window. I smile awkwardly at her, before she hugs me and tells me Akimoto-sensei wants me back soon. She wants to take me to a hospital for now though.

“Please, Haruka, just let me stay here. With you.” She checks my arm uncertainly, running her fingers down the cuts where it hit the wall. I wince with the pain, but it’s a nice pain. The kind of pain I like. I just didn’t know it until now. I pull her into a hug, tears down my face. I have to talk to the others. And apologise for the trouble I caused them. But for now, I just need to be here with you, Haruka.

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#26: A Promise for Happiness
« Reply #28 on: September 23, 2012, 09:18:06 PM »
Entry #26
Title: A Promise for Happiness
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Kitahara Rie, Sashihara Rino; RinoRie
Word Count: 1676

A Promise for Happiness


She promised her that she would watch over her, always and all the time. While she, in return, would focus on her work- do her very best and fulfill her dreams without any worries. They thought that they would be fine continuing things that way, but after a long time of trying, Rino realized the truth. She realized that a life without Rie- no matter how fun it may seem, was still just as empty. Without Rie by her side, she can’t be the Rino she used to be.

They both would usually take almost everything lightly, even the fact that they were going be separated; apart and away thanks to this world’s cruelty. Though they were crying on each other’s shoulders as soon as her last theater concert has ended, they still managed to wipe the tears in their eyes away with a quick laugh. Rie knew that letting the person she love go- to be free to do whatever she wishes to do, to be able to do everything without worry- is the best thing she could do for her. She thought that being able to watch from afar and being contented with just that would be enough to fill her needs. Though it is painful for her part, she believed that it was a way to prove that if you truly loved someone, then no matter what happens, you would be alright. Even if there would be no more embraces, no more kisses, not even a quick exchange of smile. Much like a guardian angel who supports one person, protects her, care for her, yet does nothing about it. Because she really can’t anymore. Not when she promised that she will live without her. Some would refer her as a saint now- being able to live in such a torture to make someone happy. And damn right, she is. Because she continued on believing that after this long torture, something good will come out. Because she knew that she did the right thing. The damn right thing.

But then again, did she ever wish to become a saint? No. Did she wish to be happy, then? Of course. She knew that better than anyone else. That all she wanted was to be happy, yet why did she let her go? Her only happiness- Rino- even though she had always been within her grasp, she let her slip away. When all she needed to do was to take her hand. Grasp it. Hold it. And never, ever let go.

The answer? Of course she knew too. To Rino, she can never be selfish. If it’s what the girl wants to do, then she’ll easily give in. Even if that means throwing away her own wants, her own needs. Because Rino was the only thing she cared for- it was supposed to be for a selfish reason; just so she can be with her for as long as time allows her- but then… Rino’s not here anymore, is she?

She let Rino go to make her happy- and for a long time, she believed that seeing her happy is more than enough to make her self happy as well but… Right now, as she watches her from afar, unable to hug her or even talk to her… Even though she sees a smile on Rino’s face, is she happy about it?

No. Absolutely not.

And that’s why it hurts a little.



“Rino…” She trailed of, her wide eyes locked on to her and her brows both slightly raised up. With her attention only focusing to the girl before her, without even trying, she immediately knew that the girl was troubled- despite the smile on her face. “…Why are you here?”

The confident look that she wore as a façade slowly turned into bittersweet, her smile now smaller and her eyes shifting to the floor. “Aren’t you happy to see me?” Rino asked sheepishly. She found it hard to look at her straight in the eyes. After all, they both made a promise. For Rie to continue on watching over her, and for her to continue on working without turning back. Yet there she was, back to Tokyo, even though she was now assigned in Hakata. She was breaking a promise she made with her closest friend.

Rie could only turn away in response. She had nothing else to say. Judging from Rino’s reaction to her question a second ago, Rie knew that her words had stabbed her much deeper than she thought it would. And she didn’t mean that. While she couldn’t say anything, however, she felt frustration creep up on her. She tried her best- did her best to avoid her so they could concentrate to their works without worry. So they can be their selves without ever letting their minds occupy something so trivial (like missing someone) to save themselves- to save them from what they could never be, and yet…

As she watched her friend struggle in search for something to say, the smile on Rino had finally faded away. She couldn’t blame her if she’s completely speechless from her sudden appearance. But she, however, needed to say something to Rie- she wanted to shout it to her, just to get her to listen. That she’s had enough. That even after months of trying, months of moving forward blindly, she realized the truth. That life was still just as empty, just as meaningless… without her by her side.

But with her current state as it is right now, Rino couldn’t possibly voice it out yet. Not when she seems like she was about to break- not in a vulnerable state like this… Not when she looks too delicate…

“Akicha… She’s not here right now…” She said quietly, almost like a whisper, knowing that it obviously wasn’t what Rino wanted to hear. Lifting her hand up to her own shoulder, Rie continued on looking at the side as she rubbed it. She felt like hiding, she felt unsure. For some reason, she was frightened- as if the frustration she had earlier had dissolved into nothingness.

“I didn’t come to see her,” Rino took a step forward. And Rie instantly responded by taking one backward, unconsciously, in fear that she would reach out and grab a hold of her. Because she knew that once she does, she would melt, crash, and burn; she didn’t want that. Not in front of her. She didn’t want her to see- to know, that even after a long while, she still held her dearly. That she still loved her so much that she could die.

“Rie…” She said in a voice so soft, it was as if she was pleading, praying, hoping. Rie knew what she wanted. And Rino was more than willing to make it happen. Both, however, refused to admit and back down from the challenge.

“In HKT…” It was Rie who spoke, “Are you happy there?”

“It’s fun there.” She replied, taking yet again a step closer to her. The way she stared at her this time, with a gaze filled with so much intensity kept Rie in place.

Seeing that Rie made no attempts of moving away from her anymore, Rino’s expression soften, and with a final step closer, she raised her arms up. “But I’ve reached my limits…” She felt her cheek; it was warm, ethereal, beautiful… Everything about her was beautiful. She felt her neck, a pulse beating beneath her hand. Her shoulder, firm, but she knew that it would collapse if ever she held onto it too tightly.

“You’ve been watching over me, right? You can see how I’m slowly breaking…” Rie remained frozen as she let Rino pull her into an embrace, feeling the shorter girl tremble as she tightened her hug, “Rie…” Rino trailed off as her voice croaked just by calling out her name. She stiffened, but finally rested her head on her shoulder when Rie finally wrapped her arms around her. With the two of them finally together like this- RIno felt like she was complete again. As if the thing that suddenly disappeared from her had reappeared. “I’m sorry for breaking our promise but I missed you. No matter how hard I tried to hide everything with a smile, I still missed you.”

Rino’s voice was trembling, and Rie knew that she really is close to breaking. So she held her closely, taking in the scent of her hair before pressing her lips on the top of her head. To Rie, Rino’s happiness was the only thing that mattered the most to her. Even after a few months, that never changed. And even though they both made that silly promise in hopes that it would make the two of them happy, they were actually sad.

“I missed you too…”

Rie knew that letting the person she love go- to be free to do whatever she wishes to do, to be able to do everything without worry- is the best thing she could do for her. She thought that being able to watch from afar and being contented with just that would be enough to fill her needs. Though it is painful for her part, she believed that it was a way to prove that if you truly loved someone, then no matter what happens, you would be alright. Even if there would be no more embraces, no more kisses, not even a quick exchange of smile. Much like a guardian angel who supports one person, protects her, care for her, yet does nothing about it.

But she never wanted to be a guardian angel, nor a saint. She only wanted Rino to be happy, for her to be happy.

Yet, even after making a promise, neither of them were.

Ever since they were pulled apart thanks to the world’s cruely, they never were.

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#27: One Bullet
« Reply #29 on: September 24, 2012, 02:25:57 AM »
Entry #27
Title:  One Bullet
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Iriyama Anna, Abe Maria
Word Count: 5349

One Bullet

The young man lies on his back, staring into the starry night sky. His eyes open to the endless possibilities of his future. It is like the very description of hopes and dreams. It is a perfect image. Someone could easily take a photo and think he was modelling as he silently star-gazed.

Except… one, he is dead. And two, he has a bloody gash across his neck where his throat used to be.

*

White plastic bodies drift around the scene, going in and out of the yellow taped area. I stand above the chalked outline of where the male’s body once was, as the crime scene investigators and forensic scientists search for valuable physical evidence.

Yet another murder. This is the third one so far. And he died in the same way as the previous two; with a deadly slash across his throat.

The very first murder reported six months ago was of a middle-aged man, found in his home. When we arrived we discovered the decrepit male sitting in a hauntingly relaxed position at his desk chair. His eyes still open, and with his mouth hanging agape, he almost looked as if he was watching something on his computer. However, from the blood-splattered monitor and keyboard, he definitely was not watching something. At first we thought it was a vicious murder that resulted from a robbery gone wrong. Except, during the autopsy, we discovered that there was a struggle and he was bound evident from the bruised wrists and small contusions dotting his rather round body. Plus, nothing was out of place and all his money and valuables were still in the house. It was as if someone just broke in, brutally killed him, then left, gaining absolutely nothing.

The second occurred only two months later with the same occurrence. However, this time the victim was only a twenty year old female student, second year in university, an honour student. Everyone was expecting much from her. Except, they did not expect that when she was walking through the wooded area leading to her home that she would be attacked, left sitting under a beautifully blossoming tree, with her throat cut and abandoned while her own blood stained her pristine white blouse. At least, that was what we deduced. However, during her autopsy, there were signs of little struggle and when we found her, her eyes were closed and her body was clear from any sign of resistance. It seemed almost peaceful. That is, except from the bloody slice across the throat.

Now, it is the third incident, which occurred last night. One month later since the last killing. Identified as a male student from a local high school, there was nothing extraordinary, except that his main hobby was star-gazing. So when someone discovered him lying on the park balcony, it seemed he was just in the wrong place at the wrong time

In all cases, there are two things in common. One, there is little to no evidence left behind by the murderer and no eye witnesses. Two, all victims died with the ‘trademark’ slash to the neck. However, nothing linked the victims nor could we connect a motive. It seemed like the only hypothesis was that it was just mindless slaughters committed by a single lunatic.

Nevertheless, there is no doubt about it. We have a serial killer on our hands and they were still roaming the streets. And it is my job to capture them.

Frustration and urgency is becoming a normal sensation within me since I was assigned this case. With almost nothing to work with, everyone on the team, especially me, were beginning to feel the apprehension and desperation. With the interval between each killing becoming shorter, there is only one question. When and where was the murderer going to strike next?

I turn when I sense someone approaching me. Even though I am surrounded by familiar faces, I keep my guard. It is one of the crime scene investigators.

“We found something.”

*

I stare at the single thread of hair in its sterilised tube, coated with the victim’s dried blood. It is a long raven-coloured strand, much different to my milk chocolate mane and the boy’s short, light brown crop. The possibility that this could belong to the murderer burned inside me, along with the haunting suspicion that the murderer is a female. This, along with a human nail chip found on the first victim’s collar and the tiny smudge of a partial fingerprint caused by an unknown substance found on the second victim’s sleeve, is the only other clue.

I enter the forensics lab but I’m not expecting much. Amongst the shimmering, state-of-the-art equipment, I see the single figure, hunching over a microscope and I can’t help but smile.

“Maria.”

The woman, recognising her name and my voice, stands and faces me. A sudden and stunning grin decorates her face, making something glow inside me and I respond with my own small smile. I head over and naturally stand next to her as she returns to analysing the nail fragment.

“How was it Anna?” she asks me.

“Not good.” I regretfully reply. “Have you looked up the DNA profiles?”

“Yes and no. As predicted, the fingernail was too small and the cells were diminished. By the time it arrived for me to analyse, it was too late to gain sufficient DNA samples.”

I nod in understanding. I knew the chance of getting a substantial sample was miniscule but that didn’t lessen my hopes that a miracle would occur. Obviously, reality was unforgiving.

“And the fingerprint?”

“No matches.” Maria replies. “And on identifying the unknown substance, it was inconclusive.”

“Crap.”

Feeling increasingly exasperated and weary, my temper is getting curter.

“However, I did some investigating in some lawless hot spots and discussing with my ‘associates’ I found some information on the murderer.”

I look at Maria and smile. She always knew how to make me feel better. However, what did I expect after being partners for five years.

“According to some,” she continues. “the murders are renowned in the criminal underground, and they are calling the killer by the name ‘Slasher’.”

Slasher? Well, that is fitting. Spurred by the new information, my confidence rises again. With this, perhaps we could get a real name for this so-called Slasher.

However, before I can investigate further, I have to hand over the single precious piece of evidence.

“Maria, you are a star.” I compliment; something I rarely do. “And as a reward, I’ll give you a present.”

She expectantly smiles and with a mischievous smirk of my own, I place the single tube in her gloved hand. Her grin grows, causing the fondness in my heart to increase, and she hurriedly goes back to her microscope. I smile and head out.

However, just at the doorway I stop.

“By the way,” I call to Maria. “stop polishing your guitar at work. You have stains all over your lab coat.”

And with the dark smudgings the last thing in my mind, I disappear to find Shimazaki Haruka.

*

The bar is gloomy and desolate. There is a stench of sour beer and foul cigarettes. If I could describe the filthiness of this dwelling, it is that, this is the place where rats come and die. However, even though any normal human being would be too disgusted to even open the mouldy door to this place, I know that some scumbags do. Unfortunately, that included me.

I enter the sorry excuse for a bar. As I walk to the counter, feeling the stickiness of the floor underneath my shoes and the stench cling to my black suit, I focus on the reason I am here.

Sitting at the worn-out counter, I watch as the elderly bartender wipes the glasses with a rather dirty looking rag, probably breaking all sorts of health violations.

“Where is Haruka?”

He doesn’t answer or even make eye contact. He just continues to wipe the murky glass in his hands. Putting my hand into my inner suit pocket, I take out and slip a ¥5000 note across the chipped surface. He pauses and putting a grimy hand over the crisp note, he answers.

“She’s upstairs.”

With a nod, I gratefully step from the counter, and head to the door leading to the stairs. Having been here a few times before, the scent of strong perfume and seduction is familiar. With a sigh, I head towards the room upstairs, where the intoxicating scent is strongest.

I knock on the door.

“Come in.” I hear the sickly sweet voice sing.

Toughening my spirit against my own reluctant heart, I enter the room. Like all my other visits, I ignore the ridiculously bright pink double bed that took up most of the entire room except from the tiny dressing table and full luxurious mirror. Everything that seems glamorous however, does not cover the stale white walls attempted to be camouflaged by the numerous posters of idols, the cracked paint, the dirty carpet and the damp mouldy corners.

I keep my eyes focussed on the slim figure sitting on the bed, with the back of a feathery strawberry red dressing gown facing towards me. Keeping silent, I watch as the women spins round, revealing that underneath the dressing gown, she is only wearing a set of purple underwear covering her womanly assets.

When Haruka realises it is me, her sweet grin instantly vanishes and is replaced by a deep scowl.

“You’re not a customer.” she says, folding her dressing gown over herself like she was trying to hide a secret.

“You know I’m not Haruka.” I answer. “Not the usual kind.”

“What do you want Anna.” she indignantly asks, standing up and setting herself at the packed dressing table.

“Information.”

“What kind?”

“The usual.”

“Then you know the cost.”

I stroll to Haruka’s sitting body and stare at her reflection. Putting my hand in my jacket pocket, I take out and flash a ¥5000 note. I see the familiar greedy glint in her eyes. In a flash, Haruka spins round and snaps it from my fingers and stuffs into her bra brashly, without any inhibition towards me. As quick as it happened, Haruka is back facing the mirror, fiddling with her many cheap make-up brands.

“What do you want to know?” she compliantly inquires.

“A new criminal. Goes by the name Slasher. Ring any bells?”

“Perhaps.”

I lean across to add a ¥5000 note onto the table, making sure to catch Haruka’s eyes and flash a smile, making her know that my presence is here. She smiles voraciously, grabbing the note and slipping it into her bra along with the other note.

“Well I remember this one man talking about his new boss called Slasher. Said Slasher was a real nut. However, he’s never seen him before. Apparently, he is supposed to go through this initiation process that all new members have to do.”

Suddenly my heart accelerates but I don’t show it on my hardened expression. However, my smile is long gone.

“Do you know where this is going to take place?” I ask, handing over another ¥5000 note, losing my patience.

“He said that he needed to go to the docks.”

“When?”

“5pm. Tonight.”

*

The car is filled with suffocating tension as I stare at the rear view mirror, while Maria sits next to me with her binoculars. After hearing the only lead we have, I rushed back to the base, picked up Maria and sped to the docks. When we arrived, it was 3:07pm. It is now 4:52pm. With each passing moment, pressure and adrenaline increases. Frequently darting my eyes around the quay car park, I keep my eyes open for any person. With the harbour deserted because of the grey stormy weather, and the car parked with the docks easily viewable, my hopes build. This could be our one and only chance to finally detain an accomplice to the murders who can lead us to the ‘Slasher’.

“Anna, there’s someone there.”

I feel my growing anticipation edge into my tight throat. I take the offered binoculars from Maria. Directing my enhanced view ahead, I scope the wooden docks, barely noticing the splashes of the raging waves.

There, standing at the very edge of the pier, I see the man. Hooded and waiting.

Quickly I call for reinforcements.

*

I edgily glance at the clock. It is 5:05pm. Backup still hasn’t arrived. Mindful that the allocated time has passed, I keep my eyes truly focussed on the unidentified man. With the dark weather and the large hoodie, I cannot clearly get a view of his face. However, from his fashion and his posture I can tell he is still young enough to not be middle-aged. Observing the scene, I notice he is looking around more frequently and becoming increasingly skittish. A fearful possibility enters me. It is only a matter of time before he loses tolerance and leaves, meaning we would lose our one and only lead.

So, with that in mind, I make my decision.

“Let’s go.”

Maria turns to me and I can sense her hesitation. However, as we stare at each other silently, she nods, once again proving her great dedication to our partnership and friendship.

We arm ourselves and as hastily, but quietly, as possible, we race up to the docks. In a matter of seconds we reach the pier, about to block the only solid path that the man could take. Maria runs ahead of me. She was always faster than me.

“Stop right there.” Maria shouts.

I physically see the suspect jump and quickly he spins round. This is finally it. My anticipation is at its all highest. However, as he turns, suddenly I halt in my tracks as a primal instinct overwhelms me. There, in his hand, I see the black outline of a familiar, dangerous object. Identical to the one in my hand.

“Maria, stop!” I hear myself shout.

However she doesn’t and then everything is deafened by the piercing gunshot.

I watch as everything turns into slow motion. I see the splatters of strawberry red spray across the floor and into the wind. I see the bullet disappear into Maria’s chest. And I see the toddling steps Maria takes until she is off the dock and falling into the sea.

“MARIA!”

I dive in. I don’t care that the suspect may escape. I don’t care if I lose our only lead. I just don’t want to lose my best friend.

As soon as I am submerged in the sea, I am taken into a new world. The waters are frighteningly dark and my eyes squint against the saltiness of the sea. Freezing is an understatement. My lungs instantly compress into tiny deflated balloons and my limbs already begin to stiffen even though I am violently swimming. Even underwater, the waves are unsympathetic and bash into my insignificant body, forcing out the little precious air I have.

I burst out of the water, gasping for much needed oxygen. However, with my frozen and violently shivering body, nothing seems to go in or out. My eyes burn sadistically but I force them open, darting my frantic gaze across the constantly shifting waters.

“Maria!” I forcedly cry; my throat already hoarse from the amount of unsanitary salt water I swallowed. My sinuses are on fire and I feel like all the water in my body has been replaced by sea water, with it dripping out from every crevice of my body. But again I shout. “Maria!”

However no one returns the call and the worst horror encompasses me. Wildly I dive back in, desperately swimming through the obscure waters with my eyes stinging aggressively. Slowly, I am being asphyxiated by the cruel sea. But I can’t give up. I just can’t.

Even when I feel my lungs tighten and my bones and muscles cry out, I keep going. Even when I feel myself becoming hypothermic, I don’t stop. And even when my sight darkens until I cannot see, I continue.

*

I don’t know when I lost consciousness but when I wake up, I realise I am in hospital and my supervisor, Takahashi Minami is sitting beside me. I am suddenly all too aware that everything was not a horrible nightmare. It happened.

They tell me that they tried their best but Maria’s body was never found. 

That day I cried for the first time in eight years.

*

There isn’t time for grieving. As soon as I am able to, I leave the hospital and return to base, immediately and obsessively scouring over the evidence every day and night. Pressure is piling from the victims’ families and from the agency. The killer is accelerating and yet I do not know of their motive or their next move. I lost our only lead, which will never happen again and the only useful clues we have now, is the hair strand which does not match any of the criminals in the DNA profiles and the fingerprint made from the unknown dark substance.

I slam my hands onto the metal table, furious frustration finally etching into my skin.

Was there something I was missing? What was I overlooking?

“Agent Iriyama.” I spin round, unexpectedly caught off guard. I see one of the agents stand at the door. “We have something.”

*

Tires slide across the tarmac road as I dangerously accelerate the car.

Someone had called in about hearing sounds which were similar to screams from the abandoned office building while the caller was walking their dog this morning across the busy road. Being in charge of the case, they sent me first. My heart is pounding furiously as my inexcusable hopes begin to build once again. Even though it was now afternoon, perhaps I can find something worthwhile.

Skidding to a halt, my tires smoke dirt as I exit. I stare at the impressive building, only its skeleton left. Long have people gone and the whole area is fenced off. I hear no sounds, apart from the few cars that speed past on the street far opposite the office, where the caller must have been walking her dog. It is an eerie setting and it causes me to be on high alert, pulling out my gun.

Cautiously I enter the property, slipping through the gap in the metal fence. Entry into the building is made easy by the long rusted lock.  All my senses are heightened. As soon as I enter, the smell of stale cement enters me. Glass and rubble crunch under my shoes, echoing in the man-made cavern. If I was a carnivorous predator, I would be going hungry. However, even though my steps seem unmistakably loud, I hear no other noise. If anyone was here, they were either hiding, or have already disappeared.

After investigating the wide ground floor, seeing the open stairs, I climb, keeping my gun ahead of me. Step by step, as I’ve been trained, I pause for a second to evaluate my surroundings. The quiet is unnerving but my determination drives me forward.

Finally arriving onto the next floor, I am hit by a new smell, one that is very similar to raw meat. I turn to my right and my eyes immediately land on a sight that would make normal people vomit but just makes me lower my gun.

Iron chains loop around a high beam and attached to the chain is a girl, gently swaying as she hangs by her wrists, hovering over a deep red pool of her own blood. Her tearful eyes unnaturally open and her neck dripping with blood.

I call for back up.

The stench of the blood is so strong that I can taste the copper on my tongue. Thankfully it is nearly winter, otherwise the corpse would be buzzing with swarms of flies, drinking and eating away at the bloody decaying body. It is as if someone had thrown a bucket of red paint at a mannequin.

As I scan her body with my eyes, stepping around the pool, I can see that this woman was around mid-20s, and worked within some sort of office because of her suit trousers and white shirt. However, from the body, I can tell she went through a lot before she was given death as a ‘reward’. Her clothes are ripped, as if they have been shredded and underneath welts are found on the revealed skin. Her face is cut and bruised, along with the rest of her body, from what I can see. And what is really horrid, is her feet and hands. From each of them, all digits are missing. Dismembered and dropped, left carelessly on the floor underneath her.

It is disgusting and even I am sickened by this vulgar display of complete and ruthless torture.

However, something strikes within me.

There is something different about this scene. The blood is still wet. Instantly I begin scouring the deserted floor, going through places where walls should be and searching through abandoned rooms. Suddenly I come across another a door, partly hidden by a fallen beam and broken concrete blocks. With closer inspection, I see the barely hanging sign that indicates the door used to be a fire exit and that it is slightly ajar. I am about to put my hand on the handle, when I stop. Just under my palm, where I was about to put my hand, I see the scarlet smear across the silver surface. Adrenaline begins to bump inside me and without another thought; I arm myself with my handgun and push the door open with my foot.

Cautiously stepping out into the outside, I don’t see anyone. All I see are the unsteady looking metal staircase that leads upward. Carefully, keeping my gun ready, I begin ascending.

In what feels like hours, I am on the next floor. With a swift scope, I see no one. I make my way up another flight of steps when I suddenly spot someone. My breath catches in my throat and it causes my heart to jump. The figure stands at the open balcony, looking down onto the world below. From my position, midway up the steps, even though her back is turned to me I can see that the person is female because of her sensuous curves and long black hair, tied in a neat pony-tail. The same type of hair that matched the strand at the previous incident.

With my chest pounding, I slowly make my way across. With each painstaking step I take, I am thinking that she can hear me approaching, the sound of the soft metal clangs almost deafening to me. However, supposedly too consumed in whatever she is watching or thinking, I manage to step up the stairs until I am on the same level as the person.

“Halt!” I shout, my gun held at point-blank. “Put your hands up and slowly turn around.”   

I don’t even see the person flinch and I know that is person truly is the murderer. There is no doubt. She is the Slasher. The female slowly begins to turn, her raven mane twisting behind her.

My blood freezes and I am staggered, as if someone had just punched me in the stomach. This couldn’t be true.

I face the murderer, with blood splattered across her shirt and trousers, smirking as she gazes at me. The one person I would never expect. The one that has been my partner for five years. The one that was shot in front of my very eyes. The one I thought was dead.

Abe Maria.

“You wouldn’t shoot your beloved partner, would you Anna?”

I am speechless. This couldn’t be real. I was there. Maria couldn’t possibly be alive.

“You should be dead.”

The clone of Maria suddenly laughs, throwing her head back.

“Straight to the point aren’t we Anna?” she smirks, lowering her arms with ease. “It was all an elaborate set up. The guy that shot me? He was already one of my minions. Tell me, have you ever heard of a bullet proof vest and a fake blood pouch? They really are usual items.”

The shooting… was a set-up? Suddenly, my mind flashes back to the past.

The first clue, with the fingernail. A memory of a day when I saw Maria’s hand, pressed flat on the lab counter as she studied the very nail, with a miniscule chip on her middle finger.

Then, the finger print. The smudged print caused by some dark substance. The same coloured substance as Maria’s guitar polish that stained her lab coat. The same stains that I saw the very day Maria was shot.

Finally the third clue, the hair strand. The same colour and length as Maria’s thick locks. It was no wonder they couldn’t get any matches on the DNA profiles.

Maria wasn’t a listed criminal. Plus, with Maria being one of the top forensic scientists, there was no way anyone would question her findings, even though they were constantly inconclusive.

I realise that me, and everyone at the agency, had just been made a fool. Maria is the Slasher.

“You lied to me.” I hiss, tasting the venom of hate. “To everyone!”

“Well done Anna.” Maria applauded, her sarcasm making me glare and resentment intensify. “Honestly, I really should have listened to my brother and gone to acting school. But then again, if I did, I don’t think I would have had so much fun.”

Suddenly, maintaining her sinister grin, Maria slowly pulls out a formidable sized Bowie knife. The murder weapon. I can tell the blade is treacherously sharp from the way it angrily glints in the light. With one false move I know I could easily lose a hand.

However, in a matter of seconds, Maria is in front of me and blood is spurting from my arm. Luckily, my instincts kicked in and I stepped back just in time before she managed to cut deep enough to penetrate an artery.

“They don’t call me Slasher for nothing.” she laughs.

I take another step back and instantly pull the trigger. However I miss, my shooting arm screaming in excruciating agony, evident by the increased amount of blood dripping off my arm. Nevertheless, it makes Maria hesitate and slightly retreat, realising that a knife wouldn’t win against a loaded gun. Without hesitation, I fire another shot. Once again I miss, and Maria is running up the metal steps.

I give chase, my arm shrieking out in pain and my legs wobbly from the loss of blood and the shock, even though I’ve had years of training. However, with the adrenaline pumping and my burning vengeance, I don’t stop. I never will stop until Maria is down.

I fire once more and this time it’s success. I manage to shoot Maria’s hand and she cries out with pain, dropping her knife. Now disarmed, I know I can attain her. However she continues running until we are on the roof of the building. The roof is clear and the wind is vicious. However, I barely notice and I finally corner Maria against the open ledge, where she finally stops and faces me.

“Why did you do it?” I yell over the loud gusts.

“Why?” she repeats as if it was the most outrageous question. “Because I could! Who would have expected an A.K.B agent to be a serial killer? No one!”

I can tell she is on the brink of hysteria. However my blinding anger continues to burn and I am not hindered by her fatal and seriously unstable mentality. But, I allow Maria to continue, recording her confession in my memory.

“Honestly it was all too easy. Making the plan was simple and finding experienced lackeys was easy, with everything at my fingertips, I could do anything. All I had to do was look up past records of perfect crimes and the criminal data base to find disposable pawns that you arrested and seeked revenge. All I had to promise was your head. Before long, I was in charge of a criminal conspiracy which would have ended in your demise.”

“You wanted to kill me?” I interrupt, disbelief shaking me.

“Of course I did.” she coldly replies. “You being the star of the agency, I hated you. And then they made me your partner. I couldn’t even believe it. Every second I was with you, I loathed. Your attitude, your voice, your looks, your very being. I wanted it gone from my life. With you gone, I could finally be happy. But here we are.”

I can’t talk. I can’t even breathe. Yet, Maria continues. Completely uncaring and indifferent.

“The first victim was so easy to kill, an irritating nerd who didn’t know how to shut up. When I tied him and gagged him, he even continued to muffle. Finally too annoyed, when I slashed his throat he kept on gurgling. Couldn’t believe it.

Then the second one, now she was a loner. Even more than you. No true friends and no real family, I took pity on her. That was why I decided to end her sad life, so she wouldn’t suffer anymore. She didn’t even resist. I bet she’s thanking me now.

The third, well he was just unlucky. I was in a particularly bad mood that day. Actually, now that I think about it, you were the one that made me annoyed that day, making me troll through all those records until my eyes turned red. Well, he was just lying there, as if god had served him up on a platter for me to feast. So I decided to relieve my stress.”

I want her to stop, feeling my disgust in my mouth. However, Maria pays no heed.

“But then the fourth, she was a fighter. She reminded me of a lot like you. Tough, resilient, rude. It was no wonder she took so long to die. That’s why I decided to have a bit of fun with her. Hanging her up, slicing off one toe at a time, one finger at a time, until she was almost drained of all her blood. But even then she didn’t beg for her life. She just cried and mouthed me off. I had to hand it to her. Even when I slashed her throat, she managed to wrap her legs around me. If it wasn’t for her bloody screams and delaying my escape time, you probably wouldn’t have found me.”

I am dumbstruck. To think, my partner for five years, who I considered my best friend, had conspired to have me killed, by her very hands. And in the process of her insanity, decided to kill others before she got to me. Like it was a game. Evil really did come in unexpected forms. But what frightens me most is how close it was to me. The seemingly fine, perfectly sensitive, kind woman was all a façade. So well played and disguised that even I couldn’t recognise it. A deep chill runs down my spine.

I feel my hand shaking as my finger touches the trigger of my heavy gun, still pointed at Maria.

“But I’m glad you did. If I ever was to be apprehended, I knew it would be you. Though, it did take you some time.”

Maria throws her head back, manically cackling again. The insane laughter continues until it gets cut short, interrupted by my gunshot. Silence remains, as I stare at Maria’s crumbled body, the blood quickly pooling underneath her from her chest.

With one bullet, she was down.

And with another bullet, she is dead.
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#28: Nakeru Basho
« Reply #30 on: September 24, 2012, 04:17:27 PM »
Entry #28
Title: Nakeru Basho
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Akimoto Sayaka, Masuda Yuka; SayaYuka
Word Count: 3477

Nakeru Basho

I looked at the full-body mirror inside my room as I dressed up for nothing in particular.  As I grabbed the coat from the coat hanger, my eyes fell on the large lump of paper cranes hanging beside it. They were made of different colors.

I smiled softly as I touched the delicate objects and thought about the person who made all of them for me.

Yuka…

***

“You ~ are~ late~,” she said as I opened the door of her room as silently as possible.

“Sorry, they were asking for another round of rehearsals so I had to stay.” I looked at the girl’s pouted face that was very obvious due to the ugly bright light in the room. “Hey… are you mad?”

“Of course not!” she said. She looked at her lap, busily doing something. I went to the glass window and put the dark curtains aside so that we could see the view. The city lights looked soft and nice from afar.

I walked towards her and found her folding a paper crane. She had a little stack of cute origami papers by her bedside.

“Hey, what are you doing?” I asked.

“Making paper cranes,” she replied, her eyes focused on the piece of paper she was working in.

“Need help?” I tried to reach out for one paper.

“No!” She said defensively, pulling the piece of paper for me. “My wish won’t come true if you butt in.”

“Ah, okay…” We were both silent afterwards. I felt quite annoyed that I didn’t have her attention, not that I was longing for it. “Yuka, what’s your wish?” I muttered softly to myself, too soft that she could not hear. I was dying to know and if I could do something about it, I would.

I watched Yuka carefully. She had always been so passionate about her work that I sometimes felt like I’m not doing my best when I’m beside her. I watched as her eyebrows crossed due to concentration. She probably didn’t know how to make a paper crane.

“You don’t know how to fold a paper crane?”

She looked at me with a childish pout. “Acchan taught me before but I forgot,” she replied. She started murmuring the old instructions to herself. I found the focus that she gave to the project similar to that of a kindergarten who was struggling to make a project for the first time. It was a bit cute. Innocent Yuka.

“Why not ask her again?” I asked simply. Her face fell. I suddenly felt pain in my chest. She couldn’t go out of this sad hospital room and she couldn’t see her friends.

I thought I had been insensitive about my statement.

I walked toward her and pulled away the wheeled table where she was doing her handiwork. The crane was folded too many times that it looked like an ordinary crumpled piece of paper on her lap.

“Yuka?”

She heaved a sigh. “Ne, Sayaka?”

“Hmm?”

“I wonder when I’ll be able to get out of the hospital…” she looked at the ceiling with a serene face.

I didn’t know what to say. Yuka was taken to the hospital many months ago, just after she finished starring in a huge theatrical project. It was probably more painful than any of the things that I had experienced. That was the start of her dream. But the four walls of the hospital room and the tube connected to her veins suddenly stopped her from advancing further.

It made me realize that I didn’t have any idea why she was here. There were negative thoughts swirling in my mind, due to the things that happened to her when she was young.

But I didn’t want to think about those things. Yuka will get better and I would be able to sing and dance with her again.

“Soon…” I said out of impulse, patting her head. She looked at me and smiled. Her smile was so sweet. I couldn’t believe I had missed that much.

How many times have I ignored that smile because I was too preoccupied with other things?

“When I get out of the hospital, let’s go to the karaoke, eat takoyaki, meet the others…” The list of the things she wanted to do faded when I embraced her. I didn’t know why I suddenly did that. Maybe it was because of her sad eyes that said different things from her smile.

Oh, how I missed her!

“Yuka, it’s okay…”  I meant that it was fine for her to cry and release everything but my own tears started to blur my vision. Everytime I visited her, I wanted to cry but I didn’t want to show my pitiful self to her.

She kept her face buried on my shirt and I felt her warm tears. “I don’t want to stay here… I want to go home…”

I rubbed her back gently. I want her to get out of the hospital too. I wished it would have been me in this state instead of her.

“Don’t worry, you’ll get out soon. And once you do, we’ll do all the things you want to do.”

“Promise?”

I gave a short laugh. “Of course. I always keep my promises.”

***

Everyday, I visited her in the hospital and watched as the pile of paper cranes grew. Before I knew it, she already had one long stack hanging from the curtain rod to the floor! She was really serious about this paper crane project.

Perhaps, she was wishing for her good health. I also did the same, visiting some shrines I pass along my way to make some wishes for her too. But again, she really beat me in her passion. Folding all of them was no joke.

I went inside the room to find dozens of paper cranes inside a big basket. A second stack of paper cranes, this time of soft pink and peach color, hung on the other side of the curtain rod. However, the room was empty. “Yuka?” I called out, searching the bathroom. She wasn’t there. I placed the flowers in the empty vase and the box of her favorite food on her bedside table.

I walked around the hospital to look for her. It could be her time for a walk or she could be in the therapy room but nevertheless, I looked for her.

I was astounded to see a very beautiful garden behind the hospital. I didn’t know about that place because everytime I visited Yuka, it was evening and we couldn’t go out.

I thought she was in this place. I roamed around, watching other patients as they chatted and walked. At the end of the garden, overlooking a river, I saw her familiar silhouette. She was doubled over, clutching on her dextrose stand as she vomited. It was a poor sight to see.

“Yuka! Yuka!” I called out, kneeling beside her and patting her back. “Are you okay?”

She didn’t face me for a while as she tried to catch her breath. After a few seconds, she looked at me and smiled. “A-OK!” she said, forming the sign with her 3 fingers.

I was not that dumb not to see that she wasn’t okay, though. I frowned at her.

“Hey, Sayaka, wipe that frown from your face. This place…” I helped her to stand up, “… is a paradise compared my room. “I could sure use some bright curtains…” She laughed.

I nodded as I looked at the scenery. It was really wonderful and refreshing, unlike the busy city and its dark smog hanging around. “You sure stayed in a nice hospital,” I said jokingly.

“Yeah,” she replied. “By the way, don’t you have work?” she asked. She pointed at my face and opened her mouth in amazement. “Probably, you came from your modeling job. Look at that sexy makeup!” She grinned before hugging me. “Sayaka, you are really gorgeous. I love you!”

I slapped her hand playfully away and cleared my mouth before she could notice the redness on my cheeks. “I came here to bring you some takoyaki,” I said.

“Really?” the old energetic Yuka returned, jumping a bit. I had to restrain her or else we might fall down. “Let’s go!” She almost started to run that I had to chase her while pulling the dextrose stand.

***

I visited the hospital the week after, carrying a paper bag. I bought some curtains, as Yuka had mentioned before. The nurse told me that she wasn’t around because of a therapy session so it was a perfect time to surprise her.

I removed my shoes and stood on top of a chair to start my work. I noticed that there were already three stacks of paper cranes, hanging side by side. I didn’t want to ruin them so I tried to work as carefully as possible, placing the new colorful curtains with difficulty.

“Tadaima…” Yuka’s sad voice greeted, a voice that was unlike the way she talked to me when I visit her. Her sudden arrival gave me a shock, making me pull on the curtain as I fell on the floor. To my horror, the hanging paper cranes fell down. I bet Yuka was horrified as well.

“No!” she shouted, standing up from the wheel chair and kneeling in front of the origami, trying to get them. “No… no…” tears started welling on her eyes as she gathered the fallen cranes.

“Yuka, I’m sorry…” I started to cry, apologizing repeatedly.

“Go away!” she screamed at me. She looked as if she lost herself, scrambling on the floor for her paper cranes. “Go away!” she repeated again, throwing one of them at me. I had no choice but to leave as the nurse guided me out of the room. I was really worried but I couldn’t do anything.

I decided not to visit Yuka after that. I was dying to go to her but I was so guilty that I ruined her tiny happiness inside the hospital room.

Was she still mad? Was she waiting for me?

My mind wandered as I watched my friends practice. Yuka was somewhere between them before. I really missed her so much. I stayed at a shadowy corner to make sure that no one would spot me crying.

My phone rang. I was surprised when I saw that it was Yuka’s number on the screen. I almost snorted as I looked at her customized picture everytime she calls! How silly. I wiped my tears and sniffed before picking up.

“Yuka…” I said. I was ready for any blow.

Gladly, her cheerful voice responded. “Sa~ya~ka!” she said cutely. “I really missed you.”

“I… I miss you too,” I replied with a soft voice. It was a bit embarrassing exchanging these kinds of messages in public.

“Hey, can you go to our favorite restaurant? I really missed their food. Can you buy me something from there?” she asked.

“But we’re still in the middle of practice,” I hissed. What was she thinking?

She sounded like a kid wanting to cry. “But you… you owe me a lot…” she said childishly.

I sighed. How could I ignore her request? “I’ll talk to them and ask if I could leave.”

“Yay!” She really sounded excited. “I love you, Sayaka!” she said again.

I gave a dry laugh before letting her drop the call. I knew that visiting Yuka meant staying with her for a long time so I just told the manager that I had to take the whole day off.

I went to the old restaurant where we used to hang out if we have time after work. It was a small, quiet place with few customers. I went to the counter to pick the food that I would bring and I was really surprised when someone covered my eyes.

“Hey, let me go!” I said, trying to hit the apprehender. The person giggled beside my ear and I felt relieved at once.

“Sayaka, you’re getting thinner!” she said as she removed her hands from my eyes. Yuka waved at me when I turned towards her.

She gasped when I suddenly embraced her. It had been weeks. However, I then realized that she was outside the hospital!

“Did you get out already?” I asked as I let go. She smiled coyly as she shook her head. “You, silly. We must go back!” I said, pulling her wrist. But she did not budge.

“Hey, that’s not good! I got outside of the hospital because I wanted to see you.”

She wanted to see me? My heart skipped a beat. This is dangerous! I looked at her and felt odd because it was the first time in months since I last saw her in casual clothes. It seemed like she made an effort with her blue dress and doll shoes.

“Yuka, I don’t know if this is a good idea…” Obviously, she escaped the hospital. She was able to drag me out of the restaurant, and we both walked. I was able to regain my senses as I inhaled the fresh air. Being with Yuka was a good thing, but I was still worried about her condition.

She was humming a tune with her wondrous voice. She then stopped and sighed. “I wanted to hate that song. It’s very sad.”

“I know.”

“But I like it, of course! Because you really led us well in that song,” she continued. “And you looked really beautiful,” she added.

I blushed. I really felt comfortable when she talked about me being beautiful. I decided to change the topic. “Hey, since you’re out, we could probably do the things you want to do.”

“Sayaka-chan, you’re a genius!” Yuka replied, squishing my cheeks. “Let’s go to the karaoke. I missed singing!”

It got me excited to go to the karaoke house with her since I also missed singing for fun, especially if it was with Yuka. We sang different songs, our own songs, our favorites, and some random novelties. She was really hyped up, jumping up and down as she sang.

“Hey, sing this song with me!” she said, forcing me to stand up as we sang what was probably the 20th song for that day.

After spending more than two hours in the karaoke, we decided to go to the nearest beach we could go to. However, Yuka suddenly staggered. I quickly went to her side to catch her.

“Are you okay?”

“Of course!” she said. She tried to be as cheerful as possible but I noticed that her eyes were wide and she was breathing rapidly.

I helped her stand up. “Let’s go back to the hospital.”

“Are you crazy? The day hasn’t ended yet!” she said in disbelief. Yuka could be very stubborn. I was really worried about her condition and if I could, I would carry her back to the hospital.

But I looked into her eyes. She was enjoying every minute of the day, I knew that. I couldn’t just end that.

I couldn’t just wipe that beautiful smile from her face.

We rode an old bus to the bayside, just as she requested. It was an hour long ride and she either spent her time poking and annoying me or standing up and looking at the scenery. It was as if she was a newcomer because of the way she acted. It was cute, though. I watched her with amusement.

“Hey, what’s funny?” she asked as she noticed me.

“Nothing!”

“You’re making fun of me,” she said, sitting down and crossing her arms. “Hmph!”

“No, I’m not,” I retorted. “I guess I’m just… glad.”

She was a bit surprised from my statement but she gave a soft smile. I tried to hide my face because I felt embarrassed about the things that I’ve said.

“Ah, we’re here!” I took her hand and we stepped down from the bus. It was already late afternoon. There were no people around; I guess they were still at work.

I gasped as she suddenly sprinted towards the shore, excited like a little child. She even removed her shoes so that she could feel the sand beneath her feet. I was still worried but she looked so energetic I even doubted why they needed to confine her in the hospital.

“Sayaka, come here!” she shouted as loud as she could. She had just finished making an ugly mound of sand.

“Ah, yes…” I muttered before running after her. She started splashing water towards me and as revenge, I did the same. We chased each other around, the hem of our clothing already submerged in the water. In a few minutes, we were both soaking wet.

As the sun set down, we both sat on the sand, looking at the orange hue it imparted to the open sea. It was a beautiful yet a sad sight. I made Yuka wear my extra clothing and wrapped her in a towel to make her feel warm. She leaned her head on my shoulder as we looked at the sunset.

“It’s so beautiful, isn’t it?” she asked in a soft breathy voice.

I just nodded in reply. I looked at her for a second and looked back to the sea. I heard her unzip her purse.

“This… is the last paper crane…” she said in between gasps. “I should finish this today.” I watched her trembling fingers as they did their handiwork.

Tears welled up in my eyes. “Yuka, you can do that tomorrow. You did a lot of things today…” I said. However, she continued to fold the lavender origami paper with difficulty.

I saw the poor piece of paper fall on the sand. She tried to get it but I took it away from her. “Sayaka…” she pleaded for it, her hands outstretched. She gave up a minute after, though.

She put her arms around me and said, “Please finish the last one for me,” she requested.

“You… you can do this tomorrow…” I tried not to cry. Was she saying goodbye already? “You said… you said your wish won’t come true if I fold the cranes for you…”

“But my wish is for you, Sayaka,” she smiled. Her eyes were sparkling with tears but she still smiled.

I looked at the paper and found a message written on it.

I wish Sayaka all the happiness in the world.

I don’t want her to be hurt. I don’t want to see her cry.

I want to see her beautiful smile always.

 I wish that when I see her again, she would be smiling and shining like the sun.


I couldn’t hold back my tears as I read her wishes. How selfless! She could be wishing about her health, her life, but she did all of those things to make a wish for me. I looked at her. I couldn’t see her face but I knew that she was smiling.

If only these wishes could come true, I would wish for her to be healthy again.

“Sa…yaka…”

“Yes?” I couldn’t look at her. I tried to look afar, watching as the tall mound of sand that she created earlier got crushed by the waves.

“Will you still… like this place?”

“Of course. It’s our favorite place…”

She took my hand and held it tight. “I’m so… glad…”

I wished I could hold her hand like that forever.

I moved closer to her, leaning my head on hers, as we watched the last rays of the sun get swallowed by the sea. Her hand that was holding mine loosened its hold and fell on the sand.

I could not do anything but to hold her tight. I kissed her forehead and embraced her as I cried silently in the darkness of the night.

***

The autumn wind was cold. I hugged my coat, pulling it tighter to my body as I went to the bayside. No one was around and the place looked sad. I sat on the same spot where Yuka and I sat for the last time and looked at the setting sun.

I remembered each second of the day. Her last question swam inside my head as I looked around the silent bayside.

“Will you still… like this place?”

I wiped the first tear that came out but the next ones continued pouring down, wetting my gray coat.

Of course. It’s our favorite place.

This is the place where I can cry.

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#29: Devil & Angel
« Reply #31 on: September 24, 2012, 09:59:40 PM »
Entry #29
Title: Devil & Angel
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Shinoda Mariko, Minegishi Minami, Takahashi Minami, Kojima Haruna; MariMii
Word Count: 1469

Devil & Angel

In a big city, there is a famous cafe, called “Danso Cafe”. This cafe is very famous because of all of the waitress are handsome girls. Each month, this cafe hold an event to choose the most handsome and kind waitress by votes from costumers. But, there is a hopeless waitress who always loses in this event. Her name is Shinoda Mariko. She’s known as “devil  waitress”, not because she is so cruel or evil, but because she is a bit sadist and her eyes are very frightening which make the costumers scared  and not give any vote for her.

One day…

“Today we got a few costumers… weird…” said Takamina while waping the table.

“It’s still noon, maybe at night we will get a bunch of costumers… right, Mariko?” asked Kojiharu while waping the mugs.

“Whatever… I’m tired…” replied Mariko with annoying tone.

*cring*

Suddenly the bell near the door rang means the door opens and there is a costumer. It’s a girl, she was wearing angel outfit and looked cute. She walks cheerfully then sat on the seat near the window, waiting for a waitress to approach her.

“Wow… looks like we got another weird costumer…” Takamina whispered to Kojiharu.

“Yeah… let see if Mariko can handle this one.” Kojiharu whispered back. “Mariko! can you take care of the costumer at table number 48?” Kojiharu half shouted to Mariko who was standing near the bar.

“What? Why me?” Mariko replied.

“Well, I and Takamina a bit busy here…”

“Tsk… Okay then…” Then Mariko approached the girl and offered the menu list while hodling a note to write her order. “Welcome to Akiba’s Danso Cafe… What is your order, Ojou-sama?” She said with cool tone without a smile. Though her manager always remains her to smile to the costumers.

“Hm… What is this ‘Akiba Parfait’ thing? Is it kind of special menu?” The girl asked with a smile on her face.

“Yes… It’s like a parfait with a special touch from our chef…” Mariko answered with annoying tone this time.

“Then, what is this ‘Special Parfait’? Is it different from akiba parfait?” the girl asked again which make Mariko getting annoyed.

“Y-yes… special parfait is a parfait with special ingredients…”

“Then how about…” before the girl wants to ask again, she looks at Mariko’s sharp and deadly eyes. Normally, the costumer will get scared and stop asking about menu. But this girl just shouted “Hey what’s wrong with you!! You’re waitress right?! At least smile to your costumer!!” looks like she’s unsatisfied with this cafe service, especially the waitress, Mariko.

Mariko, who was being shouted by the weird costumer, smashed the note on her hand to the table.

*brak!!*

Then she shouted back, “This is how I work… I have been like this for long and no one protest about it… problem with that?”

The girl fought back as she stood up then pinched both of Mariko’s cheeks and forced her to smile. “smiiile~!! See? You look more handsome if you smile!” after that the girl released her hand then smiled to Mariko.

Mariko rubbed her red cheeks and making a confused plus angry face. ‘what’s wrong with this girl?! This is the first time she comes here but she’s brave enough to make a problem with me? And why she’s so care about me?  I smile to the costumer or not is not her problem!’ She thought.

“Hoo.. I guess you can’t smile… that’s why you always making a scary face!” The girl smirked at Mariko.

“What did you say?!” now Mariko really get mad to the girl.

“Forget it! I’m hungry right now! I order this special parfait! Hurry up! go get it for me!!” The girl sat back and ignoring Mariko’s question.

Mariko just making an annoyed face then write the girl’s order and went to the kitchen to give the order to the chef. A few minutes later, Mariko back to the girl with a parfait on her hands. “Here is your special parfait… hope you like it” Mariko placed the parfait on the table.

“Yaay!!” the girl seems happy and then she eats cheerfully.

Before Mariko left the girl and back to the waitress room,

“I can smile, you know… I just didn’t show it to you now…tsk” said Mariko with low voice.

hearing that, the girl stop eating and look at Mariko’s face, “Hee~  then next week  I will come here  again to see your funny smile face” the girl challanged Mariko.

“Huh, come here as you want… I’ll show you that I can smile!” then Mariko walked away from her.

A few minutes later, the girl finished and then she went to the cashier to pay it. When she was about to left the cafe, Mariko suddenly shouted, “Hey you! Wait! What is your name?!”

The girl turned around and shouted back, “My name is Minegishi Minami! Remember that, Mariko!!” then she left the cafe.

“Wait. How did she know my name?” Mariko wondered. But then she remembered that Kojiharu had mentioned her name by half shouted. Maybe Minami heard that.

Next week…

“Hey, Kojiharu… do you realize something?” Takamina whispered to Kojiharu.

“Huh? Realize what?” Kojiharu replied with low voice.

“About Mariko… since last week, she started to smile to costumers… Isn’t it weird?”

“Hm… you’re right… maybe something happened…”

Suddenly,

*cring!*

As she had promised, Minami came back to this cafe. She was wearing the same outfit, an angel outfit. She really loves this outfit, so she uses it everytime she went to her favorite place.

“Welco-” Kojiharu was about to welcomed Minami and offer her the menu list. But, before she could do that, Mariko grabbed her shoulder and pulled her.

“I will take care of this one…” said Mariko with cool tone. Kojiharu just nodded as she and Takamina moved backward and watching at Mariko’s weird behavior.

“Welcome to Akiba’s Danso Cafe… what is your order, Ojou-sama?” This time Mariko said that with a nice smile on her face.

“Pfft… so you really trying hard to smile, huh?” Minami brust into laugh as she saw Mariko’s smile.

“Shut up… now I already proof you that I can smile…”

“Hm… but I’m not satisfied yet…”

“What!?” Mariko smashed the table.

“You have to change your cold behavior!!” Minami pointed at Mariko.

“No! Why must I!?” Mariko crossed her hands.

“Hoho, don’t say that you can’t be gentle because your ex-boyfriend make you trauma of being a good girl…”

“What did you say!? that doesn’t make any sense!!…aaargh okay okay I accept your challange! I will proof you that I can be a nice and gentle girl!!” Mariko got frustated by Minami’s statement.

“I didn’t even say that I challange you… but whatever! Now bring me the usual special parfait!” Minami smirked happily.

——-

Since the first meeting with Minami, slowly Mariko changes all of her bad behaviors and become a nice, gentle, easy to smile, love to make a joke, and handsome danso waitress. She also being loved by other costumers. Even in the next vote event, she’s surprisingly become the best waitress. Takamina, Kojiharu, and the manager of danso cafe also surprised by this result.

One day, the manager discussed about Mariko with Takamina and Kojiharu.

“What do you think, Takahashi-san?” the manager asked.

“I think a costumer had changed her…” Takamina replied.

“But you know it yourself, that Mariko never paid attention to costumers… normally she would ignore the costumer and just doing her job…” said the manager again.

“But, there is a costumer that always came every week, and every times she came, Mariko always argued with her… I don’t know what did they talk about, but I’m quiet sure that that girl is the one who changed Mariko!” Kojiharu added.

“The girl with angel outfit, you mean?!” Takamina asked then Kojiharu nodded.

“Interesting… so, an angel has changed the devil?” the manager rubbed her chin.

“Seems so…” Kojiharu answered.

“And… I think the devil has fallen for the angel…”

“Eh!? What do you mean?” Kojiharu asked.

“Do you remember the first time the angel came to this cafe? Since then, Mariko’s behavior started to change… you realized it too right? If she didn’t fall for the angel, Mariko would never do as the angel has told to her…”

“You’re right…”

“So, the devil has changed because it has fallen in love with the angel?? haha! Interesting story, guys! By the way, back to work!! The meetings are over!” command the manager.

“Okay okay” Then Takamina and Kojiharu back to their work and the manager also work in his office.

——-

‘The devil that has fallen in love with an angel, slowly changed itself to become another angel, so they can be together without any gap between them.’

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#30: Between Hate and Pain, There is Love
« Reply #32 on: September 25, 2012, 04:40:12 PM »
Entry #30
Title: Between Hate and Pain, There is Love
Main Character(s)/Pairing(S): Itano Tomomi, Yokoyama Yui; Tomomi/Yui
Word Count:  3856

Between Hate and Pain, There is Love



Thief is my profession…

Swindling is my job…

I live for branded things...

I live for money…



There are two figures walking toward the same spot in the middle of the crowd. The two of them are walking from different directions. The young brunette with curly browned hair is walking from the east, she is wearing white tank top with branded brown coat and a branded bag hanging on her left arm. The other is from the west, wearing light blue T-shirt with red jacket and baggy jeans, messy beard and hair is still visible although he is lowering his cap.

“Oops, sorry” said the man after bumped into someone. While bumping into someone, he stole his victim’s wallet without them knowing. He bumps into his target once in a while, all things go smoothly.

In the middle of the crowd, a lady accidentally dropped her valuable pouch on the street, inside it is full of money. Those two figures spotted that moment and speed up their pace toward the abandoned pouch. They both grab the bag at the same time… instead of the bag, they’re holding each other’s hand. Young brunette startled and look at the person right in front of her. She finds this guy’s messy beard and raven hair is cool, and his face is handsome.

Ikemen…

Tomochin… The man also startled when he saw this girl and lowered his cap. He let go of her hands and went to pick up the abandoned pouch but the young brunette holds his arm to stop him.

“I saw it first” the brunette called Tomochin stated.

“I see… we are in the same profession” The man continues to pick up the pouch and take a look inside it, “How about we share it”

Tomochin thinks for a while and agreed. The man smirks and takes out the money inside the pouch, “One for you, one for me, one for you, one for me, … … … … … … …” he shares it until it left only one sheet of a thousand dollars.

“How about we share this $1000 in restaurant?” the man suggested.

“Not bad” Tomochin answered.

PRIIIIIITTTT (sounds of whistle)

Suddenly, two police officers came out and stopped beside the two of them. The lady who accidentally dropped her pouch appears from behind and staring at the pouch in the man’s hand. She claims that the pouch is hers and told to police that it was stolen by these couple. Tomochin is pretending to be mad and said she has nothing to do with it but one of the officer claimed that he saw them splitting the money. The officers forcefully took all the money from their hands and handed it to the arrogant lady, then they turned to face the couple.

“Sorry for being rude, but you are under arrest” The officers took out their handcuffs to take them back to police station.

Tomochin sighed and gave up on struggling, either the man. He pretended to give up on struggling and waiting for the right moment to move. Just when the officer is about to cuff the man, he stepped on the officer’s foot and sent him to the ground with one punch. The other officer is unaware with the man behind him and got attacked right behind his head. The man immediately holds Tomochin’s wrist and runs away from there.

“Wait! My bag!” Tomochin released herself from the man’s grip and went to where her branded bag is on the ground. If she keeps insisting to go back, she will definitely captured by those officers.

“Are you crazy? You’ll be captured by those officers!” the man ignored her crying. He grabbed the girl’s arm and took her away, disappeared into the crowd.



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Somewhere in the street


*pant… pant…*

“Let me go!” Tomochin struggling against the man’s tight grip while her hands were still cuffed by police’s handcuffs, “Do you know that bag is all I left for living. I have nothing left beside it!” she cried.

The man withdrew his hand and kicked a wasted can near him, “Do you really want to go in jail? Is that bag worth more than your life? What the hell are you doing there?”

“None of your business!” Tomochin shouted back.

The sun is going to disappear from the horizon, street lamps were light on and some shops on the street are closing down. The man walked to the bench and sat there, taking out a cigarette from his pocket and lighted it while Tomochin is standing on her spot, not moving an inch. She stood there and crying, thinking on how will she keep living in this world.

This brunette called Tomochin is currently running away from her home. Her parents divorced and her mother married to another man. Since then, her father is always coming late and drunk. While he drunk, he often beats her, that’s why this girl decided to run away from her father. She has been running away from her father for 4 years, ever since she graduated from high school. She lives for branded things.

All started from high school, when she is longing to have a branded bag, her senior introduced her to work with her. Her senior is a swindler, her job is swindling middle-aged man’s feelings and money. They acted like they’re falling in love with their victim and told them to buy something expensive or giving them money for investment. All stupid men fall for their trick. She keeps living like that until now… unfortunately, her living fees are all being swindled by her senior. She trusts her and thinks of her as her big sister but she is just using her to earn more money. The worst thing is today, when she lost her bag and everything inside… forty thousand dollars… no place to live… no money to keep living…

Suddenly the sky is raining like it’s responding to Tomochin’s sorrow. She bent down on her knees and cried louder, blaming her life, blaming her fate, blaming on everything and also the man who rescued her. The rain is getting harder. The man gets up and walking to the girl, he took off his jacket and put it on Tomochin’s shoulder. He knelt next to her and staring at her which makes the girl feels uneasy.

“What?” Tomochin shouted.

“Don’t catch cold” the man said.

Tomoching stayed silent and glaring at the man with so much hatred. Then, something catches her attention. There’s something wrong on the man’s face. His beard is kinda… the edge of his beard dropped off from his skin? Tomochin feels curious and pulls his beard merciless with her cuffed hands.

“Ouch!!” The man cried in pain.

“As I thought, you’re wearing fake beard–” Tomochin is supposed to laugh but her eyes widen when she saw the man’s face clearly. “You are… Yui-han…”

The man called Yui-han took his beard and put it back on his face. Yui straighten himself and walked away from Tomochin, “Wait, Yui! Why you become like this? Why do you disguise yourself as a man?” Tomochin said while chasing for Yui.


If you use too many kind words, you’ll hurt me… I feel sick to hear your voice…

Yui stopped walking and shouted at her, “Why am I become like this? How can you say that after what you did to me!!!”

Tomochin stayed silent, remembered what she did to Yui…

It was four years ago when she joined her senior’s profession. She starts swindling middle-aged man for money and branded things but her desire grew more and more. She wants more than this… one day when she saw Yui being all alone in school, she approached her… offering herself to be her friend. Yui is known as a lone wolf in school and never had friends because of her quiet character. At first, Tomochin is pure offering herself to be friend with her but not after she knows Yui’s background. Yui is from wealthy family, she can have anything she want… anything but love. She has no father and her mother always being busy at work, that’s why she likes to be alone.

Yui changed when she met Tomochin and opened her heart to her. She likes the feelings that people called friendship. She began to know that she is not alone… who knows this friendship is what ruined everything around her…

Blinded by the money, Tomochin lose her way and aiming for Yui’s properties. She is being more kind to Yui, her caring is more than friend… she starts guiding Yui to the feelings of more than just friend. She leads Yui into yankee’s world, guiding her to stealing, swindling, even into drug. Yui lost herself and becoming drug dealer to pay her debt. Tomochin left her home once she graduated, Yui has no one to rely on… Some gangsters (who secretly are working with Tomochin) barged in Yui’s house to rob their money and valuable things. Her mother died to protect Yui from being beaten by those gangsters.

“Where did you go?” Yui pushed Tomochin roughly that makes her fell to the ground. “When I need you the most, you disappeared… my mother died, you ruined my life… why did you walk into my life?! I should have listened to my mother to stay away from you! I shouldn’t have listened to your sweet talks and believe it when you say you love me!!”

“Yui-han…” Tomochin stands up and walks closer to Yui but being pushed by Yui once again.

“They took all my belongings! All things around me vanished in one night! Do you know how I feel to sleep on the street for years?! You think I like wearing boys’ clothes and attach this damn beard on my face? Do you know that I almost being raped on the street by a filthy jerk!!” Yui knelt beside Tomochin and raised her fist, ready to punch her, “How can you appear again in my life like nothing happened!!”

Tomochin closed her eyes to wait for the pain but nothing happened. The rain stopped falling from sky, Tomochin opened her eyes to see tears flowing down from Yui’s eyes. Yui gritted her teeth and launch her fist on the ground, leaving Tomochin speechless. She wiped her tears and ran away with high speed.

“Yui-han… I did love you that time…” Tomochin cried.


“Hey, Lady~” Not long after Yui left, two yakuza appeared and greeted her, “Why are you being here alone?”

Tomochin is afraid of them and tries to hide her cuffed hands. She hurriedly turned back and walked faster but one of the yakuza ran in front of her, stopped her to walk further, “Wow, wow, hey brother, her hands is cuffed~” that yakuza said with a sing son.

Those two yakuza walk closer and closer to trapped her between. Tomochin is too afraid of them and her legs are trembling. She closed her eyes and keeps repeating her pray, wishing for someone to help her.

Please… someone, help me…


She felt someone grabbed her wrist and pulled her out from between those yakuza. She opened her eyes just to receive a slap on cheek. “What are you doing here? I told you to stay home!” Yui tighten her grip on Tomochin and dragged her away, “Let’s go home!”

“Wait… wait…” those yakuza stepped in front of Yui and stopped her from going further, “Hey dude, we found her first”

“Sorry, she is my girl” Yui stands in front of Tomochin protectively.

“Little missy, why don’t you go with us? We are better than this little beardy old man” one of them pushed Yui and the other is trying to get Tomochin over.

“HYAAAAA!” Yui took out her pocket knife and sliced it on the man’s arm then she launched a kick on the other man’s stomach and bringing Tomochin to run with her.

After running for an hour, they finally get off from those yakuza. Now, they are hiding inside the tunnel under the bridge. Both of them stayed silent while catching their breath after that long marathon with yakuza. Feeling the extreme awkward between them, Tomochin decided to break the ice.

“Thank you for saving me”

Yui walked toward Tomochin with emotionless face, makes Tomochin to step backward until her back attached on the wall. She moved closer until their face are really close, close enough to feel each other’s breath.

“I’m not saving you. I’m back to get my jacket” she said as she roughly took her jacket that covered Tomochin’s wet body, “Besides it, how can you repay me? You have nothing left, don’t you?”

Feels annoyed, Tomochin leaned forward to catch Yui’s soft lips. Yui was surprised at that moment and kissed back. When she came back to reality, she withdrew herself but Tomochin pushed Yui to the wall and insisting to catch those soft lips once again. This time, Yui doesn’t go easy on her. She slapped Tomochin really hard that blood is forming at the edge of her luscious lips. Looking inside Tomochin’s eyes, Yui can tell what is she going to say… somehow, she feels that Tomochin’s feeling toward her is true… but her heart is denying all the truth.

“I loved you…” Tomochin said, “I’m sorry for what I’m doing in the past… I loved you that time”

“Looking into your eyes, I know you’re lying… the words of love that coming from your mouth are too vague, they’re being abused… With just a kiss, my wrath can’t be contained… neither your kind words” Yui’s flame of hatred is burning inside her.

Yui stayed silent with her emotionless face makes Tomochin’s guilt grew heavier inside her. See no reaction from her former girlfriend, Yui took out two pieces of toothpick size metal and tuck it into the handcuffs’ key hole to release Tomochin’s hands.

“I wish I’d never met you” Yui said as she walked away, leaving the teary Tomochin.


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Days passed… Yui is back to her daily life, walking in the crowd to steal people’s wallet, went into mart to steal some lunch or sometimes went into restaurant and had free meals… when she is unlucky, she will ended up beaten down street. At night, she will go to have some drugs… having drugs doesn’t mean that she didn’t learn from what happened to her before. It’s just she doesn’t want to face reality, she thinks that having drug will let her free from the pain of reality brings to her. All her outcome from stealing all day is only to vanish for having drug.

Meanwhile, Tomochin is secretly following Yui for the past few days. Seeing yui having life like that is too painful for her. Her guilt is growing more deeper… she can’t take her eyes off Yui… she is blaming herself, she wants to give Yui a new life, she wants to draw Yui far away from the things called drug…

She decided to work hard and earns more money to start a new life for Yui. Swindling five men in one day is risky for her to expose her identity but she has no choice about it. She doesn’t want to see Yui live like that anymore. Seeing her got beaten down street does hurt her heart, she is still in love with Yui, her feelings haven’t changed all this time. She regrets to leave her at that time, when she needs her the most… when her mother passed away and she has no one to rely on.

Today, as usual, Tomochin lured the perverted oldman to book a hotel room with her. She will take all her victim’s money when he is going to bath and leaves the room as fast as she could. Unexpectedly, when she stepped inside the room, there’s someone waiting for her. That man is her victim last time. He is sitting on the bed, half naked with a towel wrapped around his waist.

“Is she the one who stole your money?” said the man behind her.

“Yes, thank you for bringing her here” her former victim took out a pack of money and gave it to the man behind her. The man gets the money and smacks Tomochin’s butt before go out from the room.

“Last time, you stole my money while I’m taking bath. How are you gonna pay me back?” said the man while approaching Tomochin dangerously.

Tomochin threw her bag at the man’s face and went to open the door. Before she can get out, the man pulled her inside and threw her on the bed. He didn’t bother the half opened door and went over to Tomochin like a hungry wolf. Tomochin is struggling and screaming while the man pinned her down and starts kissing her neck. Tears were coming out from Tomochin’s eyes to know that she can’t win against this man’s strength. That man’s hand went to her collar and tears her shirt, revealing her smooth shoulder. Tomochin’s cried louder for help, wishing someone who passed by will some inside to help her. When she almost gives up on her hope, a loud thud can be heard and the man falls to the floor.

Yui is standing there with a wooden statue in her hands. Tomochin instantly hugged Yui and cried on her shoulder. The man hasn’t passed out and picking up his phone to call for help. Yui took off her jacket and put it on Tomochin, holding her hand and running out from the room. When they went down to the main hall, some yakuza were seen to run after them from behind. Some of them are firing the gun toward them. Unfortunately, Yui got one shot at her left thigh. With crippled leg, Yui holds Tomochin’s hand tighter and keeps running into the crowd because it’s easier to get away from them in the crowd.

They run from street to street and exhausted while those yakuza are still following them. Yui looked around and found a ramen store with half opened door. Without second think, they went inside the store and closed the door. Yui took out her pocket knife and told the owner to keep silent. Instead of stay silent, the owner went panic to Yui’s wounded leg. She immediately locked the door and offered them to have a seat while she is going to take her first aid box.

Sitting on the chair, Tomochin can tell the pain that Yui bearing. Her wound won’t stop bleeding. Desperately, Yui grabbed her jacket which is on Tomochin and searched through the pocket. She took out a pack of white powder and hurriedly opened it with trembling hands. Tomochin takes a good look at the powder and knows that is drug. Without warning, she grabbed that pack of powder and ran into washroom. She threw the drug in washtub and flushed it with water.

“What are you doing?! That’s my only pain killer I have now!!” Yui shouted.

“I will prefer to see you in pain, rather than having drug!” Tomochin shouted back.

Unable to control her desire from the drug, her body is trembling all over. She holds her throat like she is having hard time to breath, her face went pale and her lips went purple. That’s the effect from the drug, when she is not having it at the time she needs it, she will feel like dying from the extreme pain no one can tell. Out of her mind, she went to the washtub and stuck out her tongue to lick it. Tomochin prevent her from doing that and splash the water to her face, clearing her head. Unexpectedly, Yui bite Tomochin hands hardly. Tomochin bear the pain and keep splashing the water on Yui until she has calm down.

Yui is calming down and sat on the ground, leaning her back on the wall. Looking at Tomochin’s hand, Yui gently rubbing it and apologize, “I’m sorry…”

Tomochin sat next to Yui and hold her right hand and bite it hard for revenge. Yui surprised but she didn’t withdraw her hand. She stayed silent and watching the person she hates the most with gentle eyes. Tomochin release her bite after she satisfied. She lifted her head and looking straight to Yui’s eyes, she finds the same gentle eyes watching at her just like four years ago when they’re together. Tomochin shows the bite mark on her hand and at the same time, holding Yui’s hand which she bit just now.

“We look like a couple with this mark” Tomochin smiled.

“Childish” Yui said as she removed her hand from Tomochin but she won’t let Yui’s hand go.

“I still love you…”

“I hate you”

Tomochin smiled and poked Yui’s cheek, “If you hate me, how could you appear there and rescue me from that perverted old man~”

“I was just passed by... I just don’t like seeing you being seductive toward oldman” Yui looked away, don’t want to look into Tomochin’s eyes, “Your job is dangerous… don’t do it again”

“But swindling is my profession, if I give up on this… will you take care of my living fees?” Tomochin staring at Yui seductively, “Or… you want to become my only customer?”

Yui shoved Tomochin away and tried to get up but her leg is in extreme pain that she can’t move. The bullet is still in there and her wound won’t stop bleeding. Tomochin tore her worn shirt and tied it on Yui’s thigh, above her wound to stop bleeding.

“Don’t be kind to me, I hate you is a fact. My hatred at you will stay the same” Yui said.

“Whatever” Tomochin ignored her, “I still love you” Tomochin said as she tighten the knot on Yui’s thigh, makes her growled in pain. Tomochin smiled gently at her, “As long as you hate me, there’s love”

“Oh gosh…” The owner came inside washroom, “What are you doing here? Water can’t stop the bleeding. Look, you are all wet, you might catch cold like that. You help me bringing her upstairs, I will take care of her wounds and you have to change in clean clothes. I can lend you my clothes if you don’t mind, it’s not fashionable. You must be having a fight with yakuza, right? Look at your wound, that bullet in it. You should learn to behave like a normal teenager. I don’t understand young man these days, having fight out there and let her girlfriend crying for you and take care of you, … … ... … … … … … … … … … …”

“She is so nagging” Yui whispered beside Tomochin, “Can you stop her?”

“You deserve it”


If I can throw away the love in my chest, I won’t suffer… Because I love you, I hate you so much and being in pain so much… the more I hate you, the more I love you…

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#31: Wordless
« Reply #33 on: September 25, 2012, 09:59:38 PM »
Entry #31
Title: Wordless
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Maeda Ami, Komori Mika, Sashihara Rino; Ami/Komori
Word Count: 3039

Wordless

Maeda Ami was five that year when she was introduced to both Komori Mika and Sashihara Rino. They were both students of her mother that would soon become her schoolmates. At a young age Ami was extremely shy and because of such they had decided that it was best for Ami to be brought to school with her mommy in an attempt to try and get her to socialize. Little Ami had soon grown attached to the hyperactive Rino but failed to make the same connection with Komori who was much like Ami.

Komori Mika didn’t necessarily hate making friends but rather her thoughts would always be out somewhere far away. Or for lack of better words, she was a complete natural airhead that nobody seemed to be able to understand. At the same time she was Rino’s neighbor and no matter what Rino who felt like an older sister figure to the both of allowed the two to cling onto her.

Sashihara Rino felt proud to be that older sister figure to the two of them even though Rie would constantly be jabbing her about her lack of reliability or how she was in fact a terrible influence for the two. This however only caused Rino to take her ‘responsibilities’ as the older sister figure type more seriously. Even Mama Maeda would laugh at the protective actions of Rino when the younger more playful kids had accidently scared Ami. Rino would just huff and puff saying that she would protect Ami from all the people that scared her.

That was the start of the three of them and their weird relationship.

For as long as Ami would remember the people closest to her would be Rino and by default Komori too even though she never seemed to understand the other girl. She liked her though; she knew that because Komori was really nice and would always be there for her when Rino couldn’t be. Even if she had the habit of saying random things and preferring to look at the clouds than playing with the two of them. What Ami remembers the most fondly is the fact that every year on her birthday Komori would be the first one to greet her, the first one to wish her happy birthday, hug her and then hand her some handmade present. To this very day Ami still treasures them even though after so long, she still doesn’t understand exactly what they are. Komori remembers everything about Ami, Ami knows this because that’s what everybody says in her class. “If we ever needed to find out anything about you we’d just go to Komori.” Misaki would chuckle out. Ami loves Komori and was sure that Komori loves her too even though no words would ever be needed to be spoken between the two.

Ami LOVED Rino and wasn’t afraid of showing it, ever since she meet Rino she would be clinging onto the girl. Even her own mother got jealous of how much Ami would cling onto Rino. Rino was one of the few people that Ami wasn’t afraid of talking to; in fact she wasn’t even afraid of expressing her feelings when it came to Rino. She loved Rino and she made sure that everyone knew it. As Ami grew older and Rino grew closer to Rie none of this stopped, in all honesty Ami would admit that she was jealous of Rie who she felt she was being forced to share Rino with. She would understand though and she would accept it because her precious Rino nee-chan loved Rie too. Ami was sure that Rino would be her nee-chan forever and even if Rie were to try to whisk her away that nothing between them would ever change.

Ami believed that nothing would change, but little Ami had been wrong.

Some things had to change as Rino moved on to the nearby high school with Rie, only Komori was left to accompany Ami. Although Ami had gotten better, she was still overly dependent on Rino and everyone knew this. It was only the second week when Ami ran to Rino’s house in the middle of the night crying about how much she missed her. Rino just shook her head, gave Ami a little pat and lulled the poor girl to sleep. She then phoned Komori over stating something about it being like the old times when the three of them would sleep over. Komori arrived and it was only then that Rino realized how they could no longer fit on the same bed together. For lack of better words, Ami and Komori grew into giant poles.

Rino had gotten out of the bed that she had been sharing with Ami to greet Komori. It was only then that Ami’s nightmares had started to return, Rino didn’t return to the bed to comfort her but rather she said, “You’re in charge of protecting her now, go.”

Komori gave Rino a knowing nod before slipping under the covers and pulling the shaking Ami in her arms. This was the first time that Rino started to feel out of place, as if her little sisters had suddenly grown up before her eyes. She had only been gone for two weeks yet it seemed as if it was going to be an eternity. Rino had been right; something had changed the moment that she had passed on the task of protecting Ami to Komori. Perhaps it really was a sigh of relief to have her little sisters finally grow up, that Rino didn’t know. She just knew that her job was done, she no longer had to protect Ami and this brought forth a sudden feeling of emptiness.

Ami woke up the next morning in Komori’s embrace; she was surprised but didn’t shrink away from the awakened Komori who had just been spacing out once again. “Ohayou, Komori.” Ami greeted with a yawn while pulling herself up. “Mika…” Komori muttered with a pout. All these years Komori had insisted that they called her Mika but somehow it just stuck and soon nobody was calling her by her first name. “Yes, yes Mika-chan~” Ami greeted tauntingly only to make Komori’s pout grow some more. “You two lazy asses get out of my bed right now or I’m going to kick you both out the door.” Rino barged into her own room and ordered. She had been fed up with how lovey dovey they looked in each other’s embrace and ran off last night to whine to Rie about it. She had actually only just returned hand in hand with Rie.

That had been the start of another arc in the life of Maeda Ami, without Rino she had grown closer to Komori. Even with such few words spoken between the two it seemed that they were finally able to understand each other. They didn’t even need words anymore, wordlessly Ami would go to Komori and wordlessly Komori would protect her. Komori may think on a completely different level but all that mattered to her was that Ami understood her. Not her teachers, not her parents and not even Rino.

Rino was troubled, at how much the both of them had changed the next time that she saw them. They would always be her little sisters, but still she knew that something was off. When Ami of all people didn’t run up and hug her. Rino was disappointed; she had never thought the day would come when her little Ami wouldn’t hug her anymore. Instead she could only watch as the two that stood in front of her hugged onto each other the whole time.

“Jealous?” Rie had asked her.

“I’m not allowed to be.” Rino would reply, although a bit bitterly.

Sashihara Rino would not allow herself to be jealous of the pair that she had made closer. She had no right to be jealous when she was the one that had to leave them alone. She can only stand at the side and watch as the two become enveloped in their own little world.

Rino can only watch over the two of them whilst continuing on her own road, one that had become split off from the road the two walked on.

“Komori…” Ami muttered sleepily after realizing that Komori had snuck into her bed again last night. Komori only passed her the wrapped present she placed on the tableside earlier before drifting back to bed. Ami could only smile at the sleeping figure before unwrapping the present in her hands.

Ami,

We don’t speak much to each other. Even now that you seem to be over your fear and after asking Rino about it she suggested that we write out what we have to say to each other. So this year, no homemade figure from me! It breaks my heart to ruin such a tradition but I think this will be much better for us.

Happy 16th birthday Ami.

365 letters Ami, I hope that we’ll be able to do this every day okay?

Getting letters from me will surely beat all those love letters that you’re getting from the boys!

Mika


Ami laughed at how childish the letter sounded to her before taking a look at the package she had. It was pretty simple, just a box of stationary inside and on the outside in bright pink letters it said ‘Ami’s Mailbox’. Ami knew that surely the reason why Komori was so tired next to her was because of the time she had spent decorating the box.

“I made one for myself too…” Komori whispered while taking a peek at Ami. Placing the box aside, Ami lowered herself back into the bed and cling onto Komori. “Thank you.” Ami said with a huge smile. She loved the present and was sure that it would be fun writing Komori a letter every day for the next year. That after what would feel like no time at all, Ami’s Mailbox would be filled with handwritten letters from Komori and vice versa.

Komori blushed before pulling the covers over her head.

-

Ami started to look forward to the mornings, because every day when the two of them walked to school they would exchange mails and give each other teasing smiles. It was their little secret, something that would be between only the two of them. No matter what it was that happened, every morning Ami would receive a letter. Even the time when Komori fell sick and could barely get out of bed, Ami thought that she wouldn’t be getting any letters for a while. She knew she was wrong when she saw her mother pass her a letter later that night stating that it had been in the mailbox. Ami shook her head and place the letter down before telling her mother that she would be going over to Komori’s for the night.

It had been a long time since Ami had last snuck into Komori’s room in the middle of the night. After that morning when Ami woke up next to Komori she had started to regularly sneak into her bed at night. If Komori was surprised she never showed it when she woke up the next morning with Ami literally sprawled all over her. Komori’s parents could only just sigh and turn a blind eye to their new regular house guest. They even gave Ami a key to the house so she wouldn’t have to keep on climbing up to Komori’s window.

Ami never did end up using that key though having been lectured by her parents for sneaking into the Komori household for almost a whole month just to sleep with Komori. Ami had long forgotten about where she had carelessly thrown that key when her parents banned her from going over to the Komori household. She was rather used to climbing the tree that had been conveniently placed right next to Komori’s window anyways. Despite being fairly early in the night Ami could see that Komori was already fast asleep. She could hear the bustling downstairs where the rest of the household was preparing dinner and welcoming home Komori’s older brother.

She was just about to sneak into Komori’s bed like the good old times when she was stopped by a glare coming from the owner. “I’m sick.” Komori croaked out before weakly trying to push Ami off of her bed. Ami just shook her head before forcing her way into the bed and pulling the weakened Komori into her arms. Ami stared at Komori who had flushed red from her actions before signaling for her to go back to sleep. Snuggling into Ami’s arms, Komori soon found the sleep that she too had long missed.

Ami’s parents had long stopped trying to even bother to keep Ami from Komori. They supported it really; it was just that having to wake up to their daughter trying to sneak back into their house every morning was starting to get bothersome. They saw what Ami couldn’t see, they saw how Ami’s attachment towards Komori was growing to something that would have never been possible with Rino. Mama Maeda could only sigh in relief at how things turned out with her daughter. Even though she had never managed to completely open up to everyone, at least she still had Rino, at least she still had Mika.

The mails never stopped, not even once. Even when Ami had to go out of city for a vacation with her parents every afternoon a letter from Ami would appear in Komori’s mailbox. Ami had written them all ahead of time worried that if she had written the letters all the way from Okinawa Komori wouldn’t be able to receive them on time. In return Komori faithfully left a letter in Ami’s mailbox to wait for her return.

The whole year had passed by too soon and once again Ami’s birthday was approaching as with the day to exchange their last letters. Neither of them seemed nervous as they approached each other in the morning with sheepish smiles before exchanging the letters. It was as if another normal day for the two of them, even though the contents of their letter would suggest much otherwise.

When the two of them had finally return home after a busy day of everyone, or as Komori would think of it every guy in the school approached Ami with birthday greetings and letters. Letters that Komori had promptly taken out of Ami’s arms and tossed in the recycling of course. Ami would just give her a judgmental look and brush it off like usual. To be honest she was rather glad that she didn’t have to deal with such letters.

The two took out the only letters that truly mattered to them, wondering exactly what it was that the other had or written. Or how they would react to the letter that they had written for the other. Ami gently pulled out the letter and took a deep breath before reading the familiar writing on the paper. After seeing the contents of the paper Ami gave off a laugh before grabbing a jacket and rushing over to Komori’s house. She was right out the door when she noticed a shy Komori waiting outside for her.

Komori lifted the letter in her hands with a look of confusion, “They’re the same…” Ami just pulled the girl standing in front of her into a hug, “Yes.” Komori still had a look of confusion having yet to understand the meaning of Ami’s answer or the reason why Ami’s letter seemed so similar to the one that she had written to her. “Oh…” Komori answered slowly when realization had dawned on her. Ami pulled away to see the silly smile that Komori had on her face.

“Yes. My answer is yes.” Ami said before lifting the letter that she too had been holding. On the paper there was one single question

Ami~

Will you be my girlfriend?

Mika


Rino looked at the couple in front of her with a look of pure horror. Her little baby sisters were getting married and showing off their wedding rings! She didn’t even know that they were dating in the first place. Tears started to run down Rino’s face as she started blabbering to the two about how she was a horrible sister having never noticed that the two were in fact dating for all these years. Rie just turn to give her dense girlfriend a pat on the back before turning to congratulate the two who had long started ignoring whatever Rino was choking out. Ami gave Rino a little pat on the head and a smile before saying, “Nee-chan, be my bridesmaid.”

It was a strange relationship that the three of them had, even till now when Rino is watching as her sister walks down the aisle to her other sister. Somehow it feels just right to Rino as the two of them exchange their short vows that the two had previously insisted were completely unneeded. Rino too thought that it was unneeded but had to be done to please the crowd. One could not have a wedding with just the two of them in their own world communicating to each other without words now could they?

Rino smiles as the tears begin to fall down her face as she watches and follows her sisters as they walk out of the church in happiness. She doesn’t notice whom the bouquet had been thrown to but just focused on how happy her sisters looked. She had long been done her job as the protector but she couldn’t help but feel sad that yet another layer of distance would be added between her and the two.

She sees Ami give her a wink before she turns and realize that it was her girlfriend that had caught the bouquet.

Rino thinks back to what Ami and Komori had told her the night before.

“Arigatou Nee-chan.”

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#32: Words of Encouragement
« Reply #34 on: September 26, 2012, 05:55:57 PM »
Entry #32
Title: Words of Encouragement
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Suda Akari, Hata Sawako
Word Count: 1707

Words of Encouragement

“Watch out!”

The young patrol officer jumps before the motorcycle pushing the little girl to safety.

“Are you okay? Are you hurt?”

The little girl turned towards the voice as she heard the patrol officer’s soft voice. Her eyes lifeless. Without saying a word, the little girl stands up and walks into the crowd gathering at the scene. Shocked, the patrol officer jumps up chases after the little girl.

“Wait…”

The patrol officer’s voice was too quiet to be heard through the chitter chatter of the crowd. As she pushes through the crowd, the patrol officer finally manages to catch up to the little girl.

“What’s wrong little girl? What’s your name?”

“Akari…”

The patrol officer smiled and placed her hand on the girl’s head.

“Hey there Akari, what are you doing out by yourself? It’s dangerous out in the streets you know.”

The girl didn’t answer.

“How old are you?”

“10 years old.”

“Where’s your mother? “

“mama is… mama is gone.”

“Where did she go? What about your father?”

The girl’s eyes widened, she turned away and crouched down, hands covering her head as if she was trying to protect herself from something. The girl screamed as the patrol officer tried to calm her down.

“Hey Akari, it’s okay I’m a patrol officer. My name is Sawako.”

“Shawako?”

Although the little girl pronounced her name wrong, the patrol officer just smiled and said.

“Yes, Shawako.”

The little girl now calmed down, gave Sawako a big hug as tears ran down the side of her face. Sawako comforted Akari and reassured her that everything will be fine, and took her down to the police station where they sat down and talked a bit more.

——————-

Akari was the younger of 2 siblings. Her elder brother Toru was significantly older than Akari, and responsible for her safety whenever their parents weren’t home, which was often. Toru loved Akari, and Akari loved Toru. They were the best of friends, always played together, and laughed together. When Akari couldn’t sleep because she was afraid of the dark, Toru would always bring her a glass of warm milk and says “Yuukirinrin Akarinrin, let’s say it together Akarinrin” to give her the courage to sleep. Akari always loved hearing her brother say that, it would cheer her up. Sometimes she would just pretend she couldn’t sleep just so Toru would come comfort her. The two would always go to this small cake shop and sit by the window to eat cake and talk. They would go every year on Akari’s birthday and to Akari, there was never a better present than spending time with her brother.

——————-

“Shawa-neesan, I can’t sleep.”

After bringing Akari to the police station, the section chief ordered for Akari to be brought to an orphanage to stay the night as they couldn’t come in contact with her parents. Sawako thought it would be a bad idea, so she suggested letting Akari stay with her until they could find her parents. Akari never let go of Sawako’s hand the whole time.

“What’s wrong Akari? Would you like me to keep the light on?”

“No… can I sleep with you?”

Unsure what to do, Sawako put her arms around the little girl as she crawled up beside her in bed.

“Thank you Onee-chan, Good night.”

“Good night Akari.”

Throughout the night, Sawako couldn’t sleep. She couldn’t help but wonder why Akari was alone in the streets, and what made her so afraid.

“Toru…Toru-niichan…where are you? Don’t leave me”

Sawako felt Akari’s grip tighten, and hugged her firmly as the little girl called out in her sleep. Sawako’s worries grew for Akari, wondering what had happened to Akari’s brother and her parents as well.

——————-

“Toru-nii, where’s mama?”

“shh… Akarin you have to be strong. Mama isn’t with us anymore remember?”

“But where did she go?”

“Somewhere far away. Come on, let’s get you ready for school. If dad hears us mention mom again he’ll get mad.”

Toru handed Akari her backpack, and packed a bunch of clothing into another bag. After a while he got ready to take Akari to school, as their father walked in.

“Where are you going?”

“I’m taking her to school.”

“Oh. Bring me back some beer when you return.”

Their father, who use to be a successful politician, now nothing but a drunken old man who does nothing but sit at home. Toru walked Akari to school and said their goodbyes like usual, but this time was different. Toru put his hand on Akari’s head, gently brushed her hair and said.

“Akarin, You have to be strong okay? Remember what I use to say when you couldn’t sleep?”

“Yuukirinrin Akarinrin, let’s say it together Akarinrin!” Akari repeated out loud to make sure she remembered it properly.

“Good. Now let’s see you smile.”

Akari put on the biggest smile she could.

“That’s my girl, now I’ll see you after school. We can go to the cake shop and celebrate!”

Akari gave her brother a hug, smiled and skipped to class. Without looking back, Akari skipped all the way to class without seeing the smile fade from her brother’s face as he got up and walked away.

——————-

Five years have passed, Akari now the class idol. Always smiling, and known by her catch phrase “Yuukirinrin Akarinrin, let’s say it together Akarinrin!” Brought up by her sister who is now a high ranking police officer, Akari always tries her best to help out whoever is in need. Being at the top of her class Akari has impressed a lot of teachers.

“Hey Akari, your birthdays coming up, anything you want to do?”

“My friends told me about this cake shop down the street. That old one we use to always walk by. Can we go try it out?”

“Sure anything you want Akari.”

The two girls smiled at each other as they headed towards the old cake shop. They sat down near the window and order some cake. The two were chatting and laughing for hours before they realized.

“Hey Akarin-chan I’m sorry but we have to close early today.”

“Okay, Thank you Oji-san for letting us stay so long.”

As the two girls walked out the store, Sawako stopped. Something was wrong, she took Akari’s hand and went back into the shop. The owner, startled to see them rush back in, asked them if they had forgotten something.

“No, but I think I did find something.” Sawako said while trying to clear her thoughts.

“What is it my dear?”

“Nee-san? What’s wrong?”

“When you came over to tell us you were closing, you called her ‘Akarin-chan’ right? How did you know my sister’s name? This is the first time we’ve been in here.”

Akari after hearing this was shock and also wondered why.

“Do you know Akari from somewhere Oji-san?”

“Oh I’m sorry I must’ve mistaken her for a little girl who always came to my store a long time ago. You see, every year on her birthday, she would come with her elder brother and they would sit exactly where you two were sitting, right there. “

Sawako realizing that this old man could have known about Akari’s past because to interrogate the man about everything she could think of.

“Ah yes, they were regular customers. If I remember where I placed them, we took pictures every year. Only the brother and Akari would come, I never saw their mother, but their father was a big shot politician and was always on TV.”

The old man pulls out a dusty album from under the counter,  and hands it to Sawako.

“Let’s see here, this picture was taken on her 7th birthday I believe, the year her mother passed away. Poor girl. That accident must have done quite a bit of damage to her poor heart. Gradually they came by less and less; I’m guessing it was because of their father.”

“Why would you say that?”

“About 5 years ago today. As always I prepared a special cake for Akarin-chan for her birthday, but this year she didn’t show up. Neither did her brother. Their father on the other hand came barging in demanding I tell them where they went. The man wreaked of alcohol and was really violent.”

5 years ago today. That was when Sawako first found Akari in the streets. 5 years ago she walked around with lifeless eyes and cried for her brother. Sawako had finally found a clue, something that might lead them to the truth about the past. If only the old man knew a bit more about what happened. If only..

“Shawa-nee? What’s wrong?”

“Oji-san do you remember her brother’s name?”

“oh um yes. I believe it was To…”

“HAI STOP!”

Akari now standing in between the old man and Sawako with both hands stretched out.

“Shawa-nee let’s go… I don’t want to remember… I’m happy now, with nee-san. That’s all that matters”

Streams of tears run down Akari’s cheeks as she said those words. The store was quiet, the orange glow from the sunset now barely shining through the windows.

“It’s getting late, we better go home.”

Akari opened the door and looked back at her sister and the old man with a smile.

“We’ll come back soon oji-san, I’ll bring some friends next time too!”

Akari ran off towards the car as her sister thanked the old man and chased after her. The old man closed his shop, and made his way home. He knelt down in front of a photo in his living room and bowed.

“Toru-kun, I’ve found your sister. She’s as happy as ever. She has a caring sister that loves her now. I’m sorry it took so long. But I found her, and she is safe. Everything you did to protect her, it wasn’t a waste. You can rest in peace now.”


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#33: And Darling
« Reply #35 on: September 26, 2012, 10:46:27 PM »
Entry #33
Title: And Darling
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Nakanishi Yuka, Oya Masana, Deguchi Aki, Hiramatsu Kanako; Yuka/Masana
Word Count: 6183

And Darling

“You did what…?”

“I set you up on a blind-date.” I stared in disblief at my roommate in hopes that whatever she just said was all some big joke, that she didn’t really setup something that was more than likely to end in disaster. I don’t do blind-dates, I don’t even date, I’m awkward as hell when it comes to things like this.

The silence between us stretched on and I knew she was serious. God damn it Aki.

I groaned into my hands, how am I gonna deal with this?

“Oh calm down, it’s not like I’m sending you off to war?” Aki strutted from the doorway of my room to where I was seated at my work desk.

“I just don’t think I’m ready.” I mumbled into my hands, trying to think up as many excuses to not go, the intense dread making me sick to my stomach.

“Don’t be like that, it’s not like you’re marrying the poor girl. You’re just going out and having lunch, think of it like that.” I felt her pat me lightly on the back in hopes of convincing me, which only served to make my nerves more prominent.

“It’s been nearly a year already, I just want you to get out and have some fun, okay?” The sincerity of her voice brought me out of my own misery, I knew Aki had been worried about me ever since Rikki and I broke up; I’ve practically been like a zombie with how I just threw myself into my work.

Maybe it wouldn’t be so bad.

Leaning back in my deskchair, I glanced up at Aki, giving her a small smile, “Okay, I’ll go.” She roughly grabbed my shoulder in excitement, god when did she get this strong?

“Great, great! Alright, the date is on Saturday, I’ll tell you the rest of the details later.” I watch her practically bounce out of my room before I returned to back to work, I felt a little better after our conversation but it didn’t erase the tiny bit nervousness I had in my stomach.

I hope that I don’t act like a doofus at least.

—-

If I could phase into the wall, I would have done it already, I had arrived early in hopes that I could have enough time to calm myself down but so far.

It wasn’t working.

And I was feeling so damn positive in the morning but as the day progressed, all my confidence seemed to disappear. I kept scanning the crowd in hopes of spotting my date. All Aki gave to work with was that she had simple feautres and long dark hair.

Thank you Aki, for describing nearly everybody on the planet.

Distracted with my cursing of a certain lazy roommate, I hadn’t noticed that someone had walked up to me during my internal fit.

“Um excuse me?”

Halting my mental beating of my roommate, I looked up to see a girl in front of me and wow, she was pretty.

“Are you, Nakanishi-san?”

Scouring my head to hopefully try and find any words to respond with and not keep this dumb expression on my face any longer, I gave her a stiff smile.

“Uh yes um are you Oya-san?” Mentally wincing at my own voice cracking, I’m a 23 year old women and why did this happen to me…?

“Yes, I just want to be sure I got the right person, Aki-san did show me a photo of you.”

She what? Was she setting up a blind-date or an Arranged Marriage? AND WHAT PHOTO DID SHE SHOW? Better not have been our graduation picture…

Getting back on track.

I nervously rubbed the back of my neck, a habit I have yet to break since childhood, I swallowed the giant lump in my throat, “Oh well, I guess since we’re here, we should head to the cafe already.” Oh god, did my vision just black out for a second…?

“Y-yes, of course.” Oya-san nervously shifted from where she stood in front of me, guess I wasn’t the only one feeling a little out of place.

Taking the lead, I directed the both of us to the location of our date, probably the most awkward 2 minute walk of my life.

—-

We haven’t spoken at all from the time we left our meeting spot to being seated at our table, how in the world was I gonna survive this much longer?

And judging from how Oya-san kept shifing and glancing around at everything but me, I can guess the feeling was mutual.

Starting to feel a little frustrated with myself, I at least should try to be friendly, I mean Aki went through all this trouble and I’m just doing nothing here.

“Okay, I have to be honest here,” Seeing that I got Oya-san’s attention, I pushed down that ball of nerves in my stomach, “I wasn’t looking foward to this blind-date at all, Aki set me up to hopefully get me out of the apartment and maybe try to help me get over my ex. I’m sorry if I haven’t been the greatest person from the start but instead of treating this as a date, how about we treat this as just us hanging out or something…?”

It felt like I admitted to more than I should have but it was better than just sitting in silence for who knows how much longer, I hoped that she would accept my offer.

“Okay.” Startled a little by her quick positive response, Oya-san smiled slightly at me, I could feel my chest tighten a little from it but I pushed it out of my mind.

“To be honest, I also wasn’t looking forward to this date either, I’m no good at these type of things and I kind of don’t care for them but I would like to become friends instead.” I gave her a smile of my own, the nerves that were bothering me all day disappeared along with any tension from before.

“Alright then, how about we start over, I’m Nakanishi Yuka, it’s nice to meet you.” I extended my hand across the table. ”Oya Masana, nice to meet you, Nakanishi-san.” She reached out and grabbed my hand, we shook and seperated to a new atmosphere. A friendly one.



“So, how did it go?” Immediately after walking through the front door, Aki nearly bum rushed me out of nowhere in what I assumed was excitement.

Throwing my keys onto the hallway table and slipping on my house shoes, I tried to condense my afternoon into a few words as I watched my roommate bounce up and down in front of me, “Great, it was great.”

Judging from her disappointed expression, I don’t think those were the words she wanted to hear.

“Great, just great? Not spectacular, wonderful, or even a ‘thank you’?

Side-stepping my way around her, I walk towards my room with Aki following closely behind, throwing more questions at me; I paused just as I stepped inside my room and turned around to face her.

“We decided to be friends and we’re meeting again tomorrow at the cafe.” I answered as I ever so slowly closed the door, I could see Aki fumbling with the words in her head and right as my door clicked shut, “So really, no ‘thank you’?”

—-

“It’s raining.”

Masana’s voice broke whatever concentration I had on the movie we were watching, I turned to where she was seated before looking over at the direction she was staring at, rain was pouring down and it looked pretty heavy too.

“I’m probably gonna have to call a taxi but I don’t feel like spending money on one.” She turned towards me and she slighlty pouted, I couldn’t help but chuckle at her childish antics but Masana did live a ways from the city and by the time she made it the station, the last trains would have left.

“Well, how about you stay over, it doesn’t look like it’ll let up anytime soon anyway?” I suggested considering it was late and we both had work tomorrow and I didn’t want her going home alone at this time, Masana feigned an embarrassed expression, “Ah Nishishi, what kind of girl do you think I am?”. I swatted my hand at her but she dodged it and grabbed hold of it, leaning against me as we laughed.

“Shut up! I mean it, I think it’s better if you stay over for tonight since it’s pouring so hard. And now that I think about it, I don’t think Aki is coming back anytime soon either.” Remembering that earlier my roommate had left to go visit her girlfriend at her apartment and hasn’t been back for hours, so she definitely was not coming back.

“You can borrow some of my clothes to sleep in.” I stood from the couch, stretching out the kinks I received from sitting down for so long. Masana following me as I turned off the tv and headed towards my room, grabbing an over-sized shirt and some shorts for her.

Turning off the lights, we both settled down in my bed, listening to the soft pattering of rain against the window. Already exhausted, I could feel my eyes growing heavier and as I was about to drift to sleep, I heard a voice break the silence.

“Nishishi, I know this may be an odd time but I really want to thank you.” I could feel Masana grasp my hand tightly, I turned my head to face her and saw that she was gazing up at the ceiling with a forlorn expression or was I imagining it because I was tired?

“You see, I haven’t had someone close to confide in for awhile, I mean, I love the friends I have and made here but,” she turned towards me with a small smile, I could feel my chest lurch for some reason but I ignored it, “I feel safe with you.”

I was at a loss for words, my dumb face must of shown it since Masana reached over with her other hand that wasn’t holding mine and patted me on the head. “Let’s get some sleep, we have work tomorrow.” And if by magic, she fell asleep in no time while I tried turning over what was just said.

It was quite overwhelming and though I felt so restless from this sudden confession, my eyes grew more heavy as my thoughts went on and on; I soon drifted off to sleep.

From the time we fell asleep till the morning, Masana and me were still able to keep our hands grasped together.

—-

It feels like my eyes could fall out of my sockets.

I was completely mentally exhausted from editing the article in front of me but I needed to get it done since I’ve been putting it off to work on the easier projects.

My office space never felt so compact as it did right now, not even when I had all those boxes from Airin’s collection when she was moving and didn’t trust putting it in a storage facility.

Ugh.

“Hey, boss!”

I turned around to see my intern, Maria, swiftly walking towards me.

She was a good kid, aiming for a journalist job to write about fashion though it seemed more like she could be featured in those magazines instead with the way she looked and dressed, I’m surprised she wasn’t a model.

Made me feel a little raggedy.

I wasn’t one to worry about those type of things, learning and writing about new and old anime and games took up most of my time anyways.

Wait, they didn’t put her with me so I wouldn’t be such a eye-sore right?

Mieko-san you can be so cruel…

“Someone’s here to see you.” Maria moved out of the way as Masana stepped into view, I felt my mood immediately take a 180.

“Oh hey! What are you doing here?” Maria silently left as Masana moved into my little cubicle, leaning against my desk.

“I figured we could have lunch together today.”

“Sounds good to me, I’m about to go crazy from sitting here all day.” I saved my work and shut off my work computer, I grabbed my bag and started following Masana out towards the elevators.

“I didn’t know you wore glasses.” Confused, I turned towards Masana to question her before realizing I still was wearing my glasses.

“Oh right, I only really wear them while working.” I made a move to take them off but she quickly stopped me.

“No, keep them on, they look cute on you.”

Now that was something new, I never really cared what I looked with or without my glasses since it just felt like an obligation but being complimented with them made me sort of happy.

“O-okay, I guess.”

As the doors for the elevator finally opened and we moved inside, I didn’t notice the small blush on Masana’s face.

—-

“What was she like?”

“Hmm?”

It was the Fall festival, Aki and Kanako had practicaly forced Masana and me to “double date” with them though as soon as we had set foot in the area, they practically abandoned us and went off to do whatever they usually do.

I didn’t really wanted to know.

So, Masana and me ended up spending our time moving from stall to stall, eating some of the food and playing some of the games. When the fireworks started up, we moved to a spot near the pond that was surprisingly empty.

Though as of right now, I’m not sure what she’s exactly asking.

“What was your ex like, I know you were together for awhile right?”

Oh.

“Um…Well, Rikki was really.. determined, always really helpful towards others and just…really kind and gentle, she was also our class representative all throughout high school too so I guess you can say she was well liked by everybody.” I could feel my chest tightned from this sudden nostalgia being brought up.

“How did you two get together, it wasn’t during high school right?” Masana continued staring up and watching the fireworks as they lit the sky in an array of colors, I wondered why she was bringing this up?

“Well, during high school, I was dating someone at the moment but we end up breaking it off around the time of my graduation. Rikki and me didn’t get together until our second year of university, we broke up last year around June.” I don’t understand why I suddenly felt so upset.

Was it because I was talking about this after trying to forget about it for so long? Or was I still longing for her?

I really did love Rikki, I knew that but I feel like that wasn’t why it felt like there was a sudden weight in my chest.

“I’m sorry, maybe I shouldn’t have brought it up.” Masana grasped my hand tightly, reaching up towards my face with her other hand and wiping away…tears?

Reaching up towards my own face, I could feel wetness on my cheeks.

When did I start crying?

I felt arms wrap tightly around my waist as Masana embaced me, I’m not sure if it was because of her comforting gesture or how I felt already from speaking early but I just start crying even more.

I’m not sure how much time had passed but when we seperated, the fireworks had already stopped and I could hear that noise from the crowd had dissipate.

“Nishishi, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to make you so upset.”

Taking big breaths, I could fee that the weight in my chest wasn’t there any more, “No, I think I needed that, I’ve been holding it in for awhile I guess, thanks.” We smiled at each other and embraced once more but something was different.

I was suddenly more aware of Masana; how warm she was, the small breaths I could feel on my neck as she exhaled and how her hands pressed against my back.

What was going on with me?

“We should find Akisun and Kanako, they might be worrried about us.”

“Nah, I bet they hardly even remembered we even came with them.” Separating, we made our way towards and through the crowd to the entrace of the park, I felt a small tug on my arm and glanced down to see Masana had took hold of me.

Probably so she wouldn’t get caught in the crowd but I’m not sure why I was so nervous now.

With the entrace in our sights, I could spot Aki and Kanako talking animately with one another before my roommate spotted us and yelled out, “HEY WHAT THE HECK TOOK YOU SO LONG?!”

Why are you mad, you abandoned us as soon as we got here.

Kanako laughed at her girlfriend’s antics before directing her attention to the both of us, “We should hurry, the last trains should be leaving soon.”

“You guys head to the station, I’ll walk Masana home.”

We hurried on towards the apartment building that was located across from where we were, we ended up standing outside her door for a few moments before I worked up the nerve to say something, “Hey, thanks again for earlier.”

Masana looked at me before giving me a small smile that for some reason, now churned something deep within my chest. “No problem, be safe on your way back, okay?” We hugged goodbye and I waited until I heard the door lock click before hurrying off towards the train station.

The only thing on my mind until I slept that night was how much I though Masana’s smile looked so beautiful.

—-

“Hey, whatever happened to that Akimoto girl?”

I stopped eating and looked up to where Aki was seated across from me. “What do you mean?”

She took a bite out of her sandwich before continuing, spewing crumbs, “I mean, after high school, she moved abroad right?”

“Yeah, she moved to the states, I think to study for medicine.” I took a sip of my coffee and wondered why Aki was suddenly bringing this up now?

“Hey, we’re back~!” We both turned towards the voices calling out to us, I could see Masana and Kanako returning from their shopping; they had told us they had saw something nice and would meet back up with us at the cafe.

Judging from those bags, I assumed Kanako found many nice things, looking over at Masana, she didn’t have anything with her.

“Hey, you didn’t buy anything?” Masana remained quiet for a moment then winked at me, “It’s a secret.”

“Uh.. okay then.” I just brushed off her vague response.

“So, what were you two talking about?” Kanako inquired as I returned back to my own sandwich, Aki took a big gulp of her juice before waving towards me and herself, “Reminicing about high school, by the way Nishi, what was that nickname Akimoto gave you?”

Oh god no.

Nearly choking on my food, I tried to play the dumb card, “I can’t say I recall.”

“LIAR.” Damn it, why are you only cunning in these types of situations, Aki? ”It was Chun something, Chun..Chu…OH! Chun Chun.”

That devilish grin on Aki was the most hated thing at this moment for me.

As I sat mortified in my seat, the other two occupants of this table broke out into laughter, I left that nickname behind when I graduated and with Sayaka-san when she left for the states, since she was the only who called me that to annoy me.

“Why Chun Chun though?”

I turned to see Masana trying to control her laughter, grimacing at the fact that we were still going on about this topic. “Well, I think it had something to do with Mahjong, can’t really remember throughly…”.

I have to admit, it was pretty clever for Sayaka-san to come up with such a nickname like that from something so simple.

But I still hated it.

“That was my nickname in high school mainly because Sayaka-san, an old classmate, liked to tease me. I graduated from it with Nishishi, which I prefer.” I emphasized on that last part by steadily glaring at Aki who chose to ignore me.

Damn her.

“Anyway, have you heard from Akimoto lately? I heard she got married, right?”

I remembered that email I received a few weeks back. “Yeah, I think her wife’s name was Miyazawa-san.”

Sayaka-san had met her future wife while she was interning at a clinic and had treated her though she was hesitant about dating Miyazawa-san since she was a patient. Took a lot to finally convince her and who knew it would eventually develop into marriage.

I’m happy for the both of them.

“Man, I can’t believe that Akimoto chick got married.” Aki’s whining brought me out of my thoughts, making me remember something very vital.

“Hey Aki, didn’t you use to have a crush on Sayaka-san in high school?” I could see her face completely darken from what I had just said before she started waving me off, “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

Sorry, Aki, you’re not getting off this easy.

“No, I’m pretty sure you used the words, ‘SEXY’ and ‘TOTALLY BANGING BODY’ once.” If she could, I’m sure Aki would have jumped from her seat to try and strangle me but she just settled for seething in her seat.

Too bad.

As the atmosphere finally calmed down, we were able to finish our lunch in peace before Masana had to leave for work. After she had left, I could feel two pairs of eyes burning holes into me.

Now what…?

“So, Nishishi, have you told her yet?” Aki leaned over the table as Kanako nodded along in agreement. I sighed, knowing where this was going.

“No, I haven’t gotten the opportunity.” I flinched as Aki slapped the table and both of them groaned in frustration.

If you’re wondering what’s going on, well, I realized that not only did I actually like Masana but… I’m also in love with her.

I realized it around Christmas when we were tricked under the mistletoe (no thanks to Aki) and of course, I was way to embarrassed to actually kiss her so Masana just pecked me on the cheek and that feeling just stayed with me for the rest of the night but it wasn’t just that.

When I caught myself staring at her from time to time, wanting to see her pretty much all hours of the day, looking forward to our lunch dates, finding her really cute when she would fond over children or whenever she would be stingy about nearly everything and feeling like my entire body was coursing with electricity when she would smile at me.

Yeah, I had it pretty bad.

“Are you ever gonna tell her?” Frustrated as she was, Aki really was worried about me since she was afraid that I would be reluctant to admit my feelings considering what had happened between me and Rikki but no I just really suck at confessions. I remember doing one for a school play and my whole face felt like it was on fire.

Of course, it didn’t help that she gloated over the fact that her match-making skills were a success when I told her about it.

“Just..don’t rush me, okay?” Aki and Kanako both nodded in agreement and I returned to my thoughts, wondering if I’ll ever get the guts to do this.

—-

“HAPPY BIRTHDAY~!”

I chuckled as I recovered from the sudden surprise I got arriving home from work, since it was during the week I wasn’t expecting anything today.

Aki, Kanako and Masana stood in the middle of the apartment living room wearing party hats with decorations nearly everywhere, food decked out on the coffee table; for such a small party, I couldn’t have been happier.

A few hours later, my head was swimming.

I shouldn’t have let Aki, who was currently passed out on the couch with Kanako, talk me into all those drinks especially since we both have such a low tolerance.

Definitely gratefully I have no work tomorrow, don’t think I would be able to even function at all, the party was great. Aki had took advantage of my gaming system and immediately called a tournament though as much as I did play I ended up losing. About 20 matches later, she just had to turn it into a drinking game with the current results of me drunk and her passed out.

The gifts I had received were pretty great, Aki had given me about 4 new PSP games that I’d been dying to get including the new Monster Hunter, she really is a great friend when she isn’t being a big jerk; Kanako had supplied me with a new parka since my old one was practically falling apart and Masana… well, it didn’t really matter to me since her company was more than enough for me at least until…

“I need to go already.”

Turned out Masana had to leave for a few days to visit her family, I knew I shouldn’t be so selfish and wish she could stay, I just couldn’t help but already feel a little lonely as I walked her towards the door.

“Do you want me to walk you to the station?”

“No, that’s alright, I called a taxi.”

“Wow, someone’s not being stingy.”

She lightly punched me as we quietly laughed, trying to not disturb the sleeping couple in the next room, as our laughter died down the feeing of loneliness washed over me even more.

“Oh, almost forgot your gift.” Suddenly surprised by this sudden news, I watch as Masana pulled out a small box from her bag.

“Here, happy birthday, Yuka.” Blushing slightly from the rare use of my name, I gratefully took the gift, lifting the cover off the box to reveal a scarf. But as I pulled it out, I could see that it had my nickname ‘Nishishi’ embroidered on it.

“I picked up the materials with Kanako-san a few months back, it took awhile since I kept messing up the stitching. It might be a bit warm to wear a scarf now too but-” “I love it.” I cut off her rambling and pulled her into a tight hug which felt like it would last forever but of course it couldn’t.

“Ah I should go, don’t want to keep the poor man waiting.” Right as she was about to open the door, “Oh, I forgot something.” Before I could ask her what it was, I could feel hands carass my face as Masana kissed me.

It ended as soon as it began, I was too stunned to really react as she stroked my face tenderly, “I figured I could beat you to the punch.”

No way.

“Also, wear your glasses more often, okay?” Not able to will any words out of my mouth, I just nodded dumbly in agreement.

We separated and she exited through the door, I recovered enough to head outside and make sure she made it to her taxi safely. Once she was seated inside, I could see her look up and smile, waving goodbye as the taxi pulled away.

I headed back inside the apartment and towards my room, not even caring for the mess from the party.

Yeah, best birthday ever.

—-

Somehow, I got roped into running the shooting gallery for the Spring festival.

I probably should have paid attention when I was talking to Aki over the phone when she was going on about how the staff was short on volunteers this year, but I have a feeling she would have found a way of guilting me into doing it. Since the festival fell during the week I thought maybe I could get out of it by using work as an excuse but as soon as I tried to appeal to my boss, she quickly informed me that Aki had phoned her earlier and already granted me some days off, so I didn’t need to worry about it.

Mieko-san, why…?

So, I’d been stuck running the stall for awhile. Aki and Kanako had thankfully visited but as far as I was knew, I was just a small pitstop as I kept seeing them pass by with different foods each time.

Where do they get the money to spend so frivolously like that?

I wish Masana was here.

Even though I’d told her about the festival and everything, she needed to wake up early to open up shop since Kinchan was on a business trip up in Hokkaido and wouldn’t be back until next week. I never knew a flower shop had to open so early and did so much work, at least until I made the mistake of volunteering once and nearly killed myself doing almost everything. Kinchan may act air-headed but she sure knows how to take advantage of someone’s good nature.

Well, our phone-calls with one another would have to do for now.

Even though it was still early, it felt like I’d been here for hours and I noticed something since the start of the festival.

There were an unusually number of girls lined up for the shooting gallery. I’m not saying that women can’t enjoy this kind of game but I’m not kidding when there was a huge crowd of girls surrounding the stall I was running.

While the ones in queue made it blatantly obvious of their staring, the others who were up taking their turns just kept making glances at me for whatever reason while they shot at the prizes.

It was middle school all over again.

“Excuse me, are these all the prizes?” Breaking out of my thoughts, I looked over to who had called out to me and saw a young girl, probably a high school kid.

“Yes, everything you see here is a prize.” After I had explained, she seemed to be turning over something in her head before she pointed the toy rifle in my direction, “Woah, wait, I’m not a prize ma’am.”

She seemed to be disappointed but seriously, it may have just been a toy with cork bullets but those still hurt.

After that small incident, I had no trouble other than avoiding eye-contact with all the girls surrounding the stall for the rest of the night. Before I knew it, the fire works hard started up, signaling the end of the festival and thankfully the end of my exhausting night.

Waiting near the (now) closed shooting gallery stall, hoping that Aki and Kanako would hurry up so we could leave already, I was so preoccupplied with my own thoughts that I never noticed someone sneaking up behind me, “Excuse me?”

Startled, I jumped a little and quickly turned to see the very same girl who tried to shoot me earlier in the evening; what in the world was she doing here?

“Ah um yes, do you need help or something?” As I tried to calm my racing heart, I could see some kind emotion flash across her face before she returned her gaze towards me. I felt incredibly uncomfortable right now.

“I was just wondering…if you were free right now?” She took a unusually close step into my personal space, putting her hand on my arm, I tried to back away. “No, I’m waiting for a friend.”

It didn’t seem to hinder her.

“Well, how about sometime later when you are free?” Now she had both hands on me, one on my arm and other laying on my shoulder, playing with the collar of my shirt. I was really afraid now, what was I suppose to do? I’d never had to deal with something like this before.

Putting my arm between us, I tried to lightly shove her away, “Look, I have a girlfriend, so please stop?” From the corner of my eye, I saw a flash of white and looking over, I could see Masana standing a few yards away.

When did she get here?

I could see a pained expression wash over her face before she swiftly left in the direction she probably arrived in, the situation becoming clear to me. I quickly pushed the girl off of me, sternly telling her to go home before rushing off to find Masana.

It didn’t take long for me to catch up, I lightly grabbed hold of her and turned her around to face me, I could see tear streaks on her face. Pushed down the guilt that was making me sick to my stomach, I led the both of us to a more secluded area and waited until she calmed down enough, I had so many things I wanted to say right now. I wanted to reassure her that what she saw was all a misunderstanding but it was like my jaw was wired shut, I could feel my teeth ache from clenching them so hard.

The sound of her ragged breathing brought me out of my stupior, “Masana, that girl was harrassing me, I was trying to push her off.”

“I know.”

W-what?

Confused, I waited for a further explanation as she fidgeted with her hands before looking up at me, “I know that you wouldn’t do anything to hurt me but…”. Masana broke eye-contact, remaining quiet for a few moments as she rested her head on my chest. “The reason why I was so hesitant about our blind-date before…was because I was afraid, you see…the last relationship I had…t-they cheated on me.” I could feel her hands clutch my shirt tightly as she started crying again, I wrapped my arms firmly around her.

Sometime passed waiting for Masana to calm down a little before I slowly eased away, cupping her face with my hands and wiping away stray tears. “I would never do anything to hurt you, Masana, I-I love you.” Oh god, it felt like my head was about to explode but now wasn’t the time to faint.

Delicate fingers reach up to caress my face as Masana pulled me towards her until our foreheads touched, in a small voice she whispered the very same words I just confessed.

I messaged Aki soon afterwards, I told her to leave without me as I wasn’t going home that night.

—-

It was August and I was swamped with so many articles, I was pretty sure my boss was doing this deliberately just because she finds it so damn amusing.

Mieko-san, why are you so cruel…?

Maria’s internship was ending soon and with what luck she was offered a job for a pretty established fashion company run by someone she admires very much. That kid deserves it.

Luckily for me, I was able to get some time off considering I was invited to a wedding, Rikki’s wedding surprisingly. If this was a year ago, I’d probably hole myself off in my room with nothing but work to preoccupy my time, but I’m really looking forward to it. Though I told Aki that if she drinks, I was leaving her behind because I did not want to deal with her being drunk on the way back home.

It really was a beautiful wedding, they had decided on a western style one which was not surprising considering how Rikki had always wanted to be seen as a foreigner, even adopting an English name though hardly anyone called her that to her dismay. I was happy for her but judging from our old peers they must have expected me to be in shambles and were not anticipating that I would bring a date, it also didn’t help how much they kept gawking; really would you quit it?

At the reception, I was able to speak with Rikki. We discussed a few things, a few important things that invovled us and such, we both apologized in our own way about how things went down though it was probably not needed. I introduced Masana to her but surprisngly they were already aquianted, how? Well, that’s because the florist Rikki ordered her flowers from was the one Masana works at, I guess that’s why she had go to work so early for a few weeks before.

Masana and me were busy enjoying the chill night air, escaping from everyone else (and an obviously drunk Aki). How, in such a short time, did so many things happened and what were we were gonna do with Aki since we really couldn’t leave her here, no matter how much she would annoy me on the ride back.

Masana’s voice brought me out of my planning.

“Hey, I almost forgot, I have something for you.” Curious, I watched as Masana reached into her coat pocket and pulled out a bracelet. I noticed that she was wearing a similar one as well.

“What’s this?” She reached out and grabbed my hand, slipping the bracelet onto my wrist, “Let’s just say, I find rings cliche.”

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#34: By the Rooftop
« Reply #36 on: September 27, 2012, 05:26:26 PM »
Entry #34
Title: By the Rooftop
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Takayanagi Akane, Oya Masana; MasaChuri
Word Count: 2710

By the Rooftop

Ghosts, monsters, spirits, lost souls and other things that are not visible to the naked eye- I never did believe in them. And if ever I were forced to, then I suppose I’ll just go with the typical belief of them being one of those scary vengeful beings. Of what use is there in believing such things anyway? People are only scaring themselves by inventing such stories- some even threaten their children with it. Is it so fun to watch each other turn to pale and see them cower in fear?

I’ve never seen any of those ghosts, anyway, and that’s why I never believed in them.

Still, everyone in my school insisted that they exist- and kept on saying that some even hunts within our campus; from the restrooms to the school ground. Before I knew it, the rumors had begun multiplying. Hearing it was starting to become tiresome for me, yet the others still took interest in them whenever a new one surfaced.

I planned on being one of the few who never believed in them, but as I walked up to our school’s rooftop, one day, to get a clear view of the city and the birds flying around, I saw a girl. I was thinking of greeting her, just a friendly greeting, as it was my first time meeting her, but then as she turned around after noticing my presence, she backed away a little. That’s when I noticed,

Her skin was pale, very, very pale. And she was shivering too.

I didn’t pay much attention to it at first, and continued by introducing myself. “My name’s Takayanagi Akane, from Class K. And you are?” I tried putting on the greatest smile I could, and held my hand out to her. Still, she took a step away again, eventually hitting the fence behind her before lowering her head down, letting her hair cover most of her features.

“Masana…” she finally talked before reluctantly holding her hand out as well, “Oya… Masana…”

Noticing how she made no attempts of taking my hand at all, I took the initiative and took one step closer to grab hers, but then, as though I was just reaching out for nothing but air, my hand passed through hers. My foot took a step back out of impulse, my hand retracting back to my side and my eyes widening from surprise. As I looked at the stranger before me, she continued on looking away, still shaking and her lips pursed into a thin line.

And then a thought hit me,

She’s… A ghost?

Silence engulfed the two of us for a long while. And as she continued on looking away from me, her back resting on the fence, I slowly shifted my eyes down to my hand which passed through hers. I could see it shaking already, and I can almost feel myself turning to cold- or maybe that’s just the wind.

Locking my eyes back to her direction, I immediately noticed how her eyes seemed lonely- scared, yes, but the feeling of loneliness was evident too. As a ghost, she must be feeling alone; with no one to talk to, no one by her side. Just her alone, from morning until night…

I silently cleared my throat, swallowing all of the nervousness piling up inside me. This may not be a wise idea, especially from me who never believed in them until now, but… I felt this need of making her smile, and with only that occupying my mind, I grinned to her again, trying my best to hide my fear as I once again, broke the silence between us,

“Do you want to be friends with me?”

-

Ever since then, everyday, I would run up to the school’s rooftop early in the morning. And every time I do, as soon as I open the rooftop’s door, I see her there, standing in her usual spot, either looking down towards the city or resting her back by the fence, her eyes locked up at the sky. Even though I always see the same scene again and again, it never seizes to amaze me, and so, wanting to treasure such a scene, I brought my camera with me and took a snap of her gazing up at the sky.

Hearing the camera click, she turned her head to me, and I beamed a grin at her in exchange. She seemed surprised at first, but smiled back soon after,

“Stealing a picture without even telling me?” Her smile soon turned into a mischievous grin as she slowly approached me, her hands lifting up a little as if she’s about to grab me with her fingers moving around, adding a small ‘creepy’ effect on her. “I’ll make you pay back!” she exclaimed and started running.

Even though I knew that she won’t be able to hold me anyway even if she catches me, I still ran away from her, circling around the rooftop while laughing loudly and shaking my camera to taunt her, “That’s why it’s called stealing~ You don’t steal with permission you know~” I stuck my tongue out.

“Churi! You better delete that!”

“Make me.” I stuck my tongue out again. Seeing her finally sigh in defeat, I held out a peace sign. “Churi – 10, Masanya – 2!”

“You’re lucky you’re able to run fast with that body of yours…” She muttered before resting her back on the fence again.

Every morning, we would always end up doing the same thing, running around in circles by the rooftop until one of us gives up. It seemed kind of childish, but I didn’t mind. It was fun being with her, no matter what it is that we’re doing, even if it’s just looking down at the view before us, I would still end up enjoying it anyway.

Seeing her look up at the sky again like usual, I walked beside her and raised my head up too. The sky, as it was still 5 in the morning, still had small hints of the night’s darkness on it, and with the sun slowly rising up, the dark shade too, had begun fading away; slowly, leisurely, until it completely disappeared from our vision.

After seeing a few birds pass by, I smiled a little, and then turned to her. She was still busy looking up, her side profile in complete view from where I stood. Her hair, raven black in contrast to her pale skin, covered half of it. And as I wanted to have a better view of her face, I reached my hand out slowly, reaching out to the few locks of her hair only for my said hand to pass through it.

Ah… That’s right, she’s a ghost.

“Today’s cold, isn’t it?” She spoke while rubbing her hands around her arms, heaving out a shaky sigh before pressing her back on the fence even more, “For some reason, I’m more tired than usual today, too…” she gave me a small smile, to which, for some reason, gave a small, painful pang in my chest.

I could only give her a nod in response. It wasn’t cold at all. Despite the fact that the two of us were standing by the rooftop so early in the morning, the wind was actually warm. But I couldn’t possibly say it to her. As a ghost, feeling something such as ‘warmth’ must be hard for her…

Watching her blow on her hand just so she could warm her self up, even if it’s just for a little, a small frown slowly made its way on my face, the feeling of guilt enveloping me. I wanted to help her feel warmer, I felt like hugging her, but I knew that it was useless. As I am a human, and she is a ghost, the possibility of us even touching each other was less than zero. It’s cruel, these two different worlds we both live in.

The school’s familiar chime soon echoed throughout the campus, indicating that it was time for class already. With both of us exchanging quick goodbyes, I hurriedly made my way to class. Even though it’s more fun being with her than with my classmates, I still have to attend it, after all.

“Good morning.” I greeted to everyone as soon as I opened the backdoor, only to receive the usual stares they always give me, with some of them still refusing to even turn their heads towards my direction. It was always like this- me always being the one left out- that’s why I want to believe that I understand how Masana feels- because both of us are always alone.

As I made my way to my desk, I noticed that one of my classmates still had her eyes locked at me.

Yagami Kumi. Out of everyone, she’s always been the only one kind enough to give me a smile and a nod whenever I walk inside the room. Of course, I would beam out a smile back at her too, but aside from this small greeting, we never talked with each other. I’m grateful to her though, at least I know that a classmate of mine still acknowledges my existence.

As soon as our class ended, I walked out from the classroom and made my way to the rooftop, hoping to see her there, waiting for me like how it always have been. To my surprise, however, I couldn’t see her anywhere.

“Masanya?”

I called out, but there was no reply, so I just sat down on a ledge by the fence she used to lean on a lot and looked up at the sky. And as time passed, what used to be a yellow-ish sky soon turned darker. Is this the view that Masana always sees, I wonder? Sometimes, I can’t help but question as to what it is that she’s trying to search up there.

The rooftop’s door made a quiet creak as it opened, immediately taking my attention as I turned my head towards its direction.

Behind it stood Masana. Her eyes locked on the ground with her hair covering her eyes, just like how it was when I first saw her.

“Churi… Can you come with me for a second?”

-

The two of us stood inside the library. It was dark, but Masana insisted that we don’t turn any lights on as it might catch the security guard’s attention. To which I immediately agreed on. A book was lying down in front of us, and with only the moon’s glow as our light, Masana held her hand out to it and flipped through its pages.

It surprised me- to see her actually touch a thing. Ghosts aren’t supposed to be able to touch things, are they? Unless the rumors are false, of course.

“Churi.” I turned my head to her, my brows lifting up. For some reason, she looked as though she was hurt, with her eyes casting down and her brows knitted to the middle, “If you don’t mind… Can you read what’s written here..?”

I nodded my head, and slowly turned to the book. The first thing I noticed was how a small picture of my face was there, on what seemed to be a cut-out of a newspaper, stuck on this book for everyone to see. I smiled a little, letting out a confused ‘Eh?’ as I continued to read the texts below it.

October 1, 2011.

Takayanagi Akane, a student of the well-known Sakae all-girls Academy, was discovered dead after school when one of her classmates approached her to ‘wake her up’. The student who found out that she was dead explained that earlier that day, the girl was feeling bad, so she took a nap on her desk- but never woke up ever since. Further report sa-


I ignored whatever was written next, taking as many steps as I could away from the book out of fear.

Is this some kind of a sick joke?

“Churi-”

I looked up at Masana, but my vision was already too blurry as tears began to uncontrollably pile up in my eyes. “Th-This is a joke, right?” My voice sounded as if it was about to disappear- hoarse and in a whisper. “I- I mean, everyone still looks at my direction when I walk inside the class. Yagami Kumi seems like she can see me too! I can’t- I’m not dead. I’m here! I’m right here, so there’s no way…”

“Churi, listen!” I jumped up a little. It was the first time I heard her snap at me, “They weren’t looking at your direction… They… They were wondering why the door would suddenly open and close… Yagami though… Well, she’s special. You’ve heard of the rumors right? That she can see ghosts…”

“Then my camera-”

“You were holding the camera tightly in your hand when you died…”

Taking a deep breath in, I hurriedly wiped the tears in my eyes away before they could fall down. But it was already too late. Even though I was able to wipe away those that gathered, one by one, they started on falling down from my eyes anyway. “I-” my voice croaked, but still, I continued after breathing in. “No… This is a lie.”

I shook my head repetitively as I took a few more steps back, eventually collapsing down on the ground slowly as all of my strength seemed to have left me.

Now that I think about it, everything makes sense this way. How nobody seems to notice me, how when we first met, Masana seemed like she was freaked out- she wasn’t scared because a human noticed her- she was scared because there was a ghost standing before her.

“We’ll meet again though, I’m sure of it.”

“Eh…?” I looked at her, puzzled, and then down to my feet.

I’m… I’m disappearing?

“I’m sorry if I didn’t tell you immediately, Churi. I was actually… Planning of keeping this fact to myself… So I can spend more time with you. But I realized… Seeing you feeling like you’ve been ignored by your classmates, watching you spend the day innocently without even knowing the truth… It must be painful for you.”

“But it’s fine! I… I want to spend more time with you too, Masanya!”

I held my hand out to her hopefully, wishing that she’ll hold it. That she’ll grab it, that she’ll prove that I’m still alive- but she simply shook her head. Tears began trickling down my eyes even more.

“I’ll… I’ll die soon, too. So you won’t have to wait for long, I promise.” She whispered, making my chest even heavier than it already is. “I’m sick, Churi. For a long time now. My days are counted and my body’s slowly becoming weaker… So I’ll follow you soon. That’s why, it would be better if rest in peace, now, Akane.”

Hearing this, I slowly dropped my hand down to my side. No wonder she always rests herself by the fence. She couldn’t stand well- she was weak- so she’s using it as her support. And her skin- it’s pale… Not because she’s a ghost, but because she’s sick…

“Churi.” With tears gathering in her eyes as well, she moved closer to me, and pulled me into an embrace; which I surprisingly felt.

Feeling her warmth around me, I wrapped my arms around her too, refusing to let go as I tightened it. I was scared. Scared that I might not see her again if I let go. Scared that I might disappear once our hug ends. I still had a lot of thing to tell her. I wanted to tell her how everyday, the only thing I’m looking forward for was meeting up with her by the rooftop- I wanted to tell her how I’ve already embedded all of our memories in my mind- I wanted to tell her… I wanted to tell her that I didn’t want to leave yet.

But the world’s just cruel.

“Bye, Churi.”                                                                       

“I don’t want to go.”

“You know…”

“Masanya…”

“I think I’ve fallen for you. I think I love you, Akane.”

“Masana… Masana I love y-”

And with that, Masana was gone. Or rather, I was gone.
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#35: That 1830m
« Reply #37 on: September 28, 2012, 01:47:20 AM »
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Entry #35
Title: That 1830m
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Takahashi Minami
Word Count: 7495

That 1830m

The month after AKB48 in Saitama Super Arena concert DVD was released, a while after the Tokyo Dome concert, Takamina took the same path back to the theater in Akihabara from Tokyo Dome. The 1830m.

It wasn’t a long route; but it was sufficient for Takamina to recap at her own pace, without the cameras, over the things that happened over the past seven years. It had been a long route; but not long enough for Takamina to have achieve everything that she had set out to do on the way along the seven years.

Alighting from the taxi at Tokyo Dome, she took in a deep breath. She had never imagined stepping foot on this sacred concert grounds as a performer back when she saw the advertisement in 2005 July. She thought it might be a good co-curriculum activity for summer; never did Takamina think that she would still be part of this group seven years later. On October 30th that same year, she was one of the 24 chosen ones to be in this group, AKB48; which over the past few years, evolved into a magnanimous team compromising of more than 200 members.

Taking a step away from the Dome, she smiled; the precious 23 other members, many whom are much older than she was and many of them who had went on with life, away from AKB48 seven years down the road while she was still stuck here. Life, it has its own plans for everyone.

Takamina didn’t know how and why but one of her earliest friends was this Itano Tomomi who was miles different from her; fashionable even at 14, Takamina could only dream of being half as so as Tomochin was. The only common point they both have was probably their favorite shopping district was Shibuya; that even, it didn’t really make sense to Takamina how they could shop in the same area, yet come out with vastly different clothes.

-

Tokyo Dome City, the place where they did Request Hour 2012 in; never did Takamina think that she and the rest of the 48family would be stepping foot on the bigger stage beside this, just months later.  She grinned as images from yesteryear came alive in front of her; Shihochan, Yukarin, CinDy and Mariko would daydream in between lessons about being able to hold a concert in this hall back when they were nobodies. They would talk about the stages that they wished to put up before Yukarin teases Mariko about her lack of stamina and singing skills.

Speaking of Mariko, Takamina giggled; she could still remember how shy Mariko was when she first joined the group, three months later than everyone. Sitting at one corner, trying to blend into the surroundings as much as she could, but always failing horribly seeing how tall she was, even back then. Takamina always teased the older girl, “If only you were there to witness the breathtaking seven fans theater show!”

It was a day which everyone wouldn’t forget – December 8th 2005 – their first-ever theater show back home in Akihabara. A1st, they called it. The members never really expected an audience, though in their hearts, everyone was hoping for a miracle that never came for them. They ran out onto the stage when overture ended and caught a glimpse of the audience; it didn’t look as bad as they thought, maybe about 50 or 60 people? Then slowly, Takamina’s eyes picked up familiar faces; the record company boss, the lady in charge of their outfits, that guy who works on their schedule…

It stuck her in the world worst possible way: The audience aren’t fans, but people who are working with, working for, them. She would never forget how dejected she felt that night when Aki-P told them that in the audience; there were a mere seven fans and they had to do much more than what they are doing, in order to reach out to everyone.

That night, Takamina said something to the team despite her young age; Even if there are only seven fans, we’ve to do our best. Because these seven people are here to watch us, we cannot give them any lesser than what we would give to a full-house. Let’s support each other and go forth!

Takamina didn’t know that but she missed the approving nod she got from Togasaki, the AKB48 theater manager, who was observing the talk at the corner of the theater.

-

Stopping by the road as the traffic turns red, Takamina remembered the one announcement that stopped her heart back in 2006; the release of Sakura no Hanabiratachi. One of the songs in A1st set-list, she had never imagined how they could have released a single of that. The cover-jacket shooting was hilarious with them trying to arrange each other according to heights and some refusing to admit that they are more vertically-challenged than the rest. Takamina remembered the day when they were told that the theater performance will be used for the PV; Haruna was trying to do a different hairstyle from what she usually does and was panicking when she almost couldn’t tie her hair in time.

They didn’t know how the PV was going to look like until it came out; tears were shed in the theater as it played on the huge screens when all the behind-the-scenes were included. Nozomi and Shihochan chuckled at the scene when the former was teaching her the dance steps, which they later realized were wrong. Takamina grinned at Acchan and Nacchan at the scene where they were hugging and the trio laughed, seeing that they were sat beside one another again.

“A-AKB48…Takahashi Minami?” A voice stopped Takamina in her tracks and asked. Takamina turned and saw a nervous-looking wota and smiled, nodding her head. The guy asked for a handshake which the captain gave with another smile, thanking him for his support. The stammering boy could only stammer back his thanks and mumbled something about him being the thankful one instead of her.

-

Two months after their first theater stage, on February 4th, it was Team A’s first ever sold out theater show. The members couldn’t believe that when it was first told to them.

But soon after the joy, their manager revealed that the second auditions would be opened soon and they were to expect even more competition. Takamina sighed; if it wasn’t already difficult to keep the rivalry down in Team A, what more, another new team. Compared to them, the formation of Team K only took a week to decide and narrowed down to a mere 19 members.

Takamina briefly remembered how they were introduced to each other and the light whispers among the members about which members looked threatening. It didn’t come as a surprise that the few taller members – Akimoto Sayaka, Miyazawa Sae – were narrowed down as ones to look out for. Maimai did point out that the other girl who shared her name – Oshima Yuko – had a threatening glint in her eyes every time she looked at a Team A member, but visibly softened whenever she talked to a Team K member. None of the members, Team A or Team K, ever let their guard down whenever they were with members from the other team.

They didn’t have many interactions from what Takamina remembered. The captain shook her head as she felt her shoelaces coming off; maybe walking the same route twice in a row wasn’t a good idea, the captain chuckled to herself.

Little by little, Team A heard of Team K’s motto and it was something very different from their own; something along the lines of forging closer than friends bonds in order to push each other forth and excel in whatever they are tasked to do, the complete opposite of the ‘rivals’ concept that both teams were fed with since their formation. Of course, Takamina knew that Team A were close friends, helping each other in areas that one wasn’t strong in, but she knew that they had never wanted to be more than ‘colleagues’.

Perhaps it was after seeing how Team K helped out each other that Team A also took another step forth; by putting down the rivalry in their hearts and reaching out to one another genuinely. Seeing how the dancing experts in Team K – Nattsumii, Umechan and the other Oshima girl – helping out the weaker ones like Maachan and Mee-tan, Team A learnt something.

You can only improve if the group improves. And that is the only way to survive in AKB48.

-

A few glances were thrown Takamina’s way as she continued down her route; she guessed she got about 300-ish meters down so far, five-sixth more of her journey towards the theater. Glancing at her watch, she was glad she started early. She would probably make it back to the theater by 3pm, she thought. It would give her plenty of time for rest before rehearsals start for the Team A stage that night.

Team A stages, Takamina reminisced, thinking back about the A2nd stage that they did in April 2006. With Team K taking over their A1st, making it their K1st, Team A got a new set-list and the members were thrilled. Even though the new dance steps were relatively more complicated than before, their dance had indeed improved over the months and the members could catch on much faster. Takamina remembered the few days she had to stay back with some of the members to catch up with the dancing, being a horrible dancer herself. “Hey, I’m pretty awesome a dancer now,” the midget argued with herself internally.   

Little by little, the theater began to have fans that came to watch them regularly. Takamina remembered the familiar faces which always followed her when she changed her positions in songs; it became a habit for the fans to follow their oshimen as they danced across the stage. No one could remain in their seats throughout the one-odd hour of performances; Takamina thought it might be a fun thing to experience once again though it seemed rather impossible seeing how strict rules were now at theater shows.

-

The girl stopped in front of a takoyaki shop and contemplated getting a serving of the delicious snack that Yuka relishes, then succumbing to temptation and ordered a takeaway.

Time seemed to fly after that; with the release of Skirt Hirari, and then soon after, Aitakatta, Takamina thought. With an increase in popularity, the group got busier; it no longer mattered if you are Team A or K, but everyone seemed to start seeing themselves as part of AKB48. Soon there was A3rd and likewise, K3rd…

Just as they thought they could remain status quo for a bit longer, it was announced that the third auditions for Team B had started. “How should we face these new girls?” Takamina remembered Maimai asked with the other Oshima clinging onto her. “The same how you treated me,” Yuko replied cheekily to which Maimai replied, “With a sense of loathing?” Takamina could almost picture the dejected look on Yuko’s face then when Maimai joked.

However, jokes aside, the members were lost on should they treat the newly formed Team B of 20 girls with the same wary heart they once had for each other, or to open their hearts and be friends…

A year after Team A’s first ever stage, on 2006’s December 8th, it became a tradition to stick a pink ribbon on the pillar in the theater. Takamina smiled thinking of the ‘ceremony’ they did in December last year where she was the one sticking the ribbon on. “I could still reach next year,” she remembered saying so which earned laughter in the theater.

-

It wasn’t really until when Nacchan, CinDy and Shihochan transferred to Team B did the three teams really got together; Takamina secretly thanked the transfer (though regrettable in her opinion, for she loved the three and was rather close with Nacchan even) for it pulled everyone together.

From what Takamina could remember, 2007 had been tough though fruitful; another new stage, another audition for the fourth generation, and four singles in a year.

When they were first told of Yuuhi no Miteriru Ka single, Takamina was hoping for a track that would finally stray them away from the ‘panties-showing group’ image and also for a song that focuses less on love. What were the odds of that near-impossible wish coming true?

Well, when the lyrics of Yuuhi no Miteriru Ka were revealed to the Senbatsu members, Takamina (and the rest of the girls) were no doubt, pleasantly shocked. Despite it being a 2007 release, Yuuhi remains her favorite song; and she knew that for some of the members like Haruna and Acchan, despite them having better positions in some other songs, still list this as their favorite track. It meant a lot to the members, if not for the change of image, but also for the encouraging lyrics. Whipping out her iPhone, Takamina scrolled through her songs and decided to put the song on loop; what’s better to conclude this walk down the memory than with this song?

The last day of 2007 was spent taking part in the 58thKohaku Uta Gassen, the group’s first ever. Despite not having any really big fanciful performances, just being at the venue thrilled the members, and it certainly gave them the boost to continue on forth towards 2008.

-

Throwing the emptied takoyaki box into the bin, Takamina rested on the fence beside the road, humming along to the energetic yet not irritating melody. Takamina didn’t know how to start on 2008; it seemed like a really busy year, if not memorable one. There was the first ever request hour, the first ever AKB48 variety show, the first ever digital single, the announcement of SKE48, the first ever no3b release, and not forgetting, the first time that Acchan wasn’t their center.

It was a cloudy Tuesday morning when the manager announced their next single, Oogoe Diamond to the excited group of girls. What stuck them was the Senbatsu name-list had someone unfamiliar; Matsui Jurina. It was later told to the members that she is from SKE48, “and she would be the center for this single.” The calls of “lies” and “blasphemy” rang out in the studio as the members tried to deal with this sudden and rather unacceptable announcement.

The next day, a timid-looking young girl was brought to the AKB48 theater to meet the rest of the Senbatsu members. To everyone’s horror (and some lolicons’ joy), the mature-looking girl was only 11; while she introduced herself in a strong and clear voice, it was later pointed out by Mariko that Jurina’s eyes flashed a look of nervousness and uneasiness when she first took the stage to speak. Anyone would have thought that the AKB48 members were already used to, if not immune to the constant change of members and would know how to properly handle such situations but no, in reality, they were still as lost as they were since the start.

Takamina recalled how after the first dance practice, the young girl retreated to a corner of the room, plugging her earphones in and just sat there, watching as the rest of the girls went off for their lunch.

“I’m going to get Jurina,” Mariko announced in the other room, standing up from the table where the rest were seated with their lunch. It surprised everyone; though no one really said it but everyone was thankful towards Mariko for being daring enough to lead the young girl into the circle. Mariko later joked about how Jurina refused her invitation to lunch while Miichan took a jab at the older girl, claiming that she has a lolicon face. Likewise to say, Miichan didn’t escape without a bruise on her arm that day.

Getting to know the really young girl, Takamina couldn’t help but feel in awe of her determination and almost everything about her. Being young, she seemed to carry her feelings on her sleeves; her emotions were on display for anyone who bothered to take a look at her and it worked to her advantage. Soon, everyone was fighting to shower her with care and concern.

The whole Matsui Jurina and Oogoe Diamond taught Takamina something very important, and one that she abides by even now: If you want someone to treat you genuinely, you do the same first. 

-

Passing by a manga shop, Takamina couldn’t help but took some time off the route and popped in to check if One Piece had a new book out. Iiwake Maybe greeted Takamina before the shop-owner could and you could only imagine the look of surprise and joy when she saw it was her. Rushing out from the counter, the middle-aged lady greeted Takamina and offered assistance. It wasn’t a rare sight to be honest, but somehow, Takamina felt flattered.

It turned out, the latest issue wasn’t released yet but Takamina felt bad to leave empty-handed. Grabbing the previous release, Takamina proceeded to the counter to pay for it. “It’s free for you!” the lady insisted despite Takamina’s refusal. “Please! There’s only so much I can give to you after all the joy you and your members brought for my family,” the lady said, pushing the paper bag into Takamina’s hands.

Who would have thought that she could achieve this much over a mere 7 years? Iiwake Maybe was the first ever song that born out from their first elections. The cut-throat popularity competition that separated the team into who’s popular and who’s not; the one event that let the members fully grasped the ‘rivalry’ concept that they were once told off but had long forgotten.

It was especially cruel to Acchan and Yuko, Takamina recalled. With Acchan being somewhat appointed as the group’s ace, Yuko had been struggling with both her own increasing popularity and the idea that she could never replace Acchan on the top. It was her chance to show the world that she is better; but life fell short of it and she was placed #2, right behind the ace. She would always play the second fiddle to Acchan, and that made her angry with herself. Yes, she was thankful for the fans who voted for her but she felt that she didn’t do enough to earn more support. She had imagined that if she had given as much chances to shine as Acchan, it would probably be here standing at the top then.

The elections, however cruel it might be seeing that it gave every member a label, did some good. Yukarin and CinDy who were conveniently left out of Senbatsu despite being first generation members were included in the single, scoring the 15th and 17th positions and once again proving their popularity.

Takamina remembered the look of disappointment on Sayaka’s face when she realized that her best friend was cut off the media senbatsu list though she made it in herself. She also recalled the joy she felt in her heart when Miichan, Tomochin, Mariko names were called. Despite being good friends with both Acchan and Yuko, Takamina rooted for Acchan in her heart and it seemed that it exploded in joy when Acchan was placed first. She recalled her thankful feelings, being placed #5 even though in her humble opinions, she wasn’t as appealing as the other members like Haruna and Erepyon.

All these rivalry and competition only highlighted one thing to Takamina then: Friendship amongst members and how it overwrites all these popularity contests in the end.

-

Refusing to leave without giving something back, Takamina took a photo with the shop-lady and gave her a signature. Overlooking the counter, she saw the shelf of CDs behind and it had the whole AKB48 discography. “RIVER caught my attention, and I went back to get all the albums before that. My son continued getting them since Beginner,” the lady shared sheepishly after catching Takamina’s gaze at the shelf.

“I like RIVER too,” Takamina smiled, “The lyrics…it’s really good,” to which the lady nodded. Fumbling with the player, RIVER came on.

The PV had been a chore to film; having to don on those thick army outfits and not forgetting wading through the water with that dirty makeup. The need to keep a straight and serious face for the song was also a chore for some of the smiley members though no one really complained since the encouraging lyrics immediately made the song a kami kyoku amongst the fans and the members.

 “Sayaka! Your hair looks like ramen,” Jurina teased, slurping up her lunch. The older girl gave a distressed look, “I don’t need more reminders of that. You didn’t know how much I protested against this hairstyle,” Sayaka cried out, using her usual exaggerated actions to emphasize her point. The room erupted in laughter and Tomo~mi patted the older girl’s head, “It’s okay Saya~ka, it’s cute!” making everyone laughed even harder.

“Thank you for the manga!” Takamina yelled as she stepped out of the shop. The lady shook her head, “Thank you instead!” came the reply. Takamina smiled; it just got even realer that AKB48 could indeed do more than just perform; they touched lives and brought people together.

-

Takamina, are you coming to the theater earlier? – Mariko-sama
Probably reaching at 3-4. Why? – Takamina
Just thought of going through some steps with the team earlier, seeing that it’s our first stage after Atsuko’s graduation. – Mariko-sama
Oh, I’m cool with it. I’ll text everyone then. 4 it shall be! - Takamina


Slipping her phone into her pocket, Takamina quickened her steps. If she wants to make it on time, with time to rest, she needs to walk faster and avoid all these distractions. If 2009 had been hectic, then there isn’t any word that was sufficient enough to describe how much more chaotic 2010 was.

It was also the start of A6th, K6th and B5th; which for the past 2 years hadn’t changed. It was the stages for the new teams that were reshuffled in August 2009. Takamina remembered how tears were shed on stage and backstage where members, whose ties were forged for years, were brutally forced to strain by separating them from everyone they were used to working with. How Tomo~mi fell sick for weeks after the reshuffle, being separated from the members whom she had grown so used to, and even contemplated graduating from the team. Takamina could still remember the hate she felt for the management for forcing something this cruel to the members; though at the same time, she truthfully believed that it might mark something bigger and different for the team as a whole.

In that reshuffle, she was given the rightful title of a captain, the captain of Team A; at the same time, Sayaka, who had been leading Team K was also named Team K’s captain and Yukirin was named Team B’s captain. She laughed silently, how things have changed after two years; Mariko is now the Team A captain, Yuko taking the reins from Sayaka, and Umechan had transferred to Team B to take over the captain position. She? She was being named the general manager of AKB48; something like the second-in-command after Yasusu; though Takamina, to be honest, still couldn’t grasp what all that was about.

However, when 2010 was mentioned, two things came to mind vividly; Heavy Rotation and Jankyen Tournament.

The second election saw Yuko overthrowing Acchan as the #1 in AKB48; Heavy Rotation was the election song and as much as the PV was controversial, it sure helped them secured a bunch of headlines and attention. Clad in bikini-like sleepwear, the PV shown them playing around and kissing each other; it was daring but it made sense when the PV was explained to them. Girls, gathering for a sleepover, were very much like this. Even when they had their sleepovers, minus the fanciful underwear, it was pretty much like that…and Takamina daresay, sometimes even more crazy than what was shown in the PV. The hoo-ha did them good; AKB48 began to gain recognition from local and foreign media and their appearances on TV, magazines and just about everything else increased.

Life got really hectic for the members, especially the Senbatsu members. Takamina remembered how apologetic she felt for having to miss so many theater shows in a row; it was their starting point and she never want to neglect this important detail of her life. However, not only did the workload grew, so did the amount of concerts that they have to stage as a group; and that was something really taxing on the small captain’s body.

The first ever Jyanken Tournament was announced after Surprise wa Arimasen concert and the competition, based solely on personal luck, kicked off in September. Well, Takamina never had jyanken luck. She was glad however, that someone else got a chance to shine. The tournament wasn’t one that was based on the management, nor the fans’ decision, but one based on the members themselves. It was a pure challenge of luck and therefore it opened doors to members who never got the chance. She was thrilled to see Uchida got her chance to be the center of the next single; the change of center had also allowed more people to see how versatile each member was and Takamina was more than glad.

 -

Lunch before practice? – Nyan Nyan
Nah, I’ll skip. – Takamina
You’re going to starve before performance. – Nyan Nyan
I just had Takoyaki!! –Takamina


Takamina wished she could sum up 2011 within 400m, but she knew it will be too difficult. Too much happened in the span of just 365 days; NMB48 and HKT48 started their theater shows, the great earthquake in March, the third election, the Seibu Dome concert and winning the Japan Record award at the 53rd Japan Records Awards.

Truthfully, there are some periods of time when Takamina was thankful for AKB48; the earthquake in March and the aftermath made Takamina see the human-side of the management. Some people criticized them; doubting their efforts and belittling them to just mere publicity, but the members knew that it wasn’t what the management was aiming for. With the ‘What can I do for someone?’ project, AKB48 reached out to more people than they ever thought possible. Donations were a given; donating their record and merchandises proceeds to the cause and reaching out to their fans to donate through the project, they made a different for the victims under the name of AKB48.

A person’s strength might be weak, but a combined effort made it big, Takamina learnt.

She was thankful of the chance to go out to the affected areas and simply put up a performance for the victims. It wasn’t anything fanciful; they did not have bright lights, colourful outfits nor were they paid for that. It was just to make people smile; to touch hearts through songs and dances, to ease the mental pain of the victims and even though there was only that much the members could do, they were glad that at least they did that.

They gave hope, in places where hope was scarce.

The outreach programs surprisingly, helped to tighten the bonds amongst members. The two Tomomis who had strayed apart due to conflicting schedules and busy lives were brought together for one of that program and not only did they bring smiles on the children’s faces, they brought smiles on their own after being able to get a chance to collaborate once again. Through the program, and through talking with each other on the trip there, they got to know each other again; it only served to further strengthen those tight bonds these two shared and reassuring each other that no matter what happened, they will always have each others’ backs.

And that, happened for many other members as well.

-

The third election saw Yuko handing the top back to Acchan; it had been a power fight between the duo on the surface, but other than the voting times, Takamina knew that none of them actually put the ‘rivalry’ in practice. They might see each other as competition but it was all fair and positive; Acchan and Yuko served to push each other to their limits, exceeding what they think they could achieve and shine in their own ways, then sharing this limelight with AKB48.

Losing the title, Yuko had been regretful; the tears she shed at backstage, hugging Mariko and just crying it out wasn’t a sore-loser act but one that showed how important the team was to her, and how much she hoped that her hard-work over the past year had repaid her. More than anyone else, Yuko did her best in her solo works as well as her commitments to the group in the past year; with the explosive popularity of Heavy Rotation came the immerse attention on her as the center. As the body protested with the added workload, she pushed herself to the limit, wanting to prove to everyone that choosing her as the ace wasn’t a wrong choice.

What she was lacking, she made it up with hard work and more hard work. But it didn’t work for her…

Acchan on the other hand, didn’t have to face with the pressure from Heavy Rotation and even so, the center position was handed back to her immediately in the next single after the election. Takamina couldn’t even put into words how she felt when her partner-in-crime got her #1 back; it wasn’t that Yuko didn’t deserve it, but Takamina knew more about what Acchan went through over the past year and wished everyone could feel it as well. The haters who showered her with malice after she regained her ace position in the next release despite being #2, the self-doubt that she had ever since being #2, the strain on her body from her solo and AKB48 commitments and ultimately the stress on her to regain her #1 in this elections…

The day when Acchan received the message from Yasusu, asking her if she was able to stand in center for Beginner, Takamina and Mariko were with her. The way the girl broke down under pressure was something that Takamina wouldn’t forget; in return, Mariko replied the text. She is able to stand as the center, but not willingly. Because this is what’s good for AKB48, she will. But her little body is currently dying from all these, and if you could, please let us share her burden. It resulted in the multi-center versions for Beginner; and never had Acchan been more grateful for having her friends with her.

-

A little girl stopped Takamina as she turned into Akihabara and politely requested for a handshake. “I’ve watched you at Seibu Dome,” she gushed, clinging onto her mother. “We’ve been there for the first and last day. She enjoyed it so much,” her mother added, patting the little girl’s head. Takamina smiled and thanked them for the support and bent down to give the girl a hug, “We’ll put on a better show for you next time when you watch us,” she promised.

Seibu Dome…especially the first day, Takamina fought back the urge to apologize to the girl when she mentioned she was there for it. It was such a disappointing concert, not just for her and the members, but also for the fans. Even if fans who later went to handshake sessions reassured Takamina that they hardly sensed anything less than perfect during the performances, Takamina couldn’t forgive herself for the uninspiring show. 

They didn’t have much time to rehearse for that concert; it was a new venue with a lot of newer elements, new songs thrown into it but nothing could be an excuse for their lackluster concert. She recalled that while she was doing the debrief with the members, she shed tears; those weren’t tears of sadness but tears that encompassed her regretful feelings. She wasn’t blaming the members because if anything, she was blaming herself for not noticing how badly everyone was coping during the earlier rehearsals and allowed such an uninspiring show be put up.

Every mistake is a chance to improve and learn; Takamina was glad that the members had the same mindset, and the next two days were a blast.

-

Starting out as the ‘panties-showing group’, Takamina dreamt of, but never thought it was possible, to get the Japan Records Award. But one can dream, and working towards that dream, it became a reality on December 30th in 2011. This time, the members shed tears of joy. It was a recognition for them; that they are more than just idols but singers and also entertainers that impacted the Japanese music scene.

It was a milestone for AKB48, and Takamina was thankful she was part of it.



Stopping near the AKB48 café in Akihabara, Takamina observed the long queues outside the café and a grateful feeling soared within her. She didn’t know how it was possible to receive all these love that these fans have for them but if anything, she wants to do more in return for their adoration. Concluding the Tokyo Dome concert, Takamina and the management had been discussing and exploring their possibilities for the future seeing that 2012 was a year of huge changes for them.

Give Me Five allowed the members to try their hands on various instruments, making them work towards a more musically-inclined group than before. It was tough when they were learning; having to bring around guitars and bass and to practice them in their free time wasn’t easy especially when the little time that they had for themselves was usually spent on sleeping. Being the drummer, Yukirin had it worst; it wasn’t really practical to bring around a drum-set and drumming wasn’t exactly something that you can master in a short time. Her tight schedule saw her going to the studio at two in the morning to practice on her own for a few hours, then waking up at seven to prepare for her schedule for the new day. The results was amazing though; being able to pull this single off let the members felt that they could do almost anything that would be thrown to them in the future.

-

The two major concerts that they did in 2012; one in Saitama Super Arena and the other, on the stage of their dreams, the Tokyo Dome had been mind-blowing for them.

Back then, Saitama Super Arena was the biggest stage that they had done to date and the sheer size of it was breath-taking; Takamina recalled how involved the members were, giving their opinions on stage setup, shuffle units, performances. It was the first step that the members took to make the stage something they can call their own and Takamina believed that because it was something that they could proudly call their own, it was what made the concert the most enjoyable one that they ever did. The smiles on stage throughout the three days weren’t forced; it might be tiring for them, having to make their presence felt on this vast stage, but because they were enjoying it themselves, it seemingly didn’t felt as taxing.

It was also memorable because on that big stage, Acchan announced her graduation.

Honestly, it had been something that they had discussed many times over the past few months. It wasn’t only to her; Yuko, Mariko, Tomochin, Miichan, Haruna and a few others had either discussed with Acchan before or had caught wind of her considering this move. It was a big thing not just for her but also for AKB48; what can the team do after their ace graduate and how can they cope? It wasn’t a rushed decision but even so, equally shocking.

Takamina felt it when Acchan asked for a firm handshake before the start of the first day; the look in her eyes told Takamina that this girl was going to go for it and she was confident enough that she can brave through whatever shit that awaits her after she leaves this sanctuary. When she said “I’m going to do it,” on the third day, Takamina knew that Acchan had never been more firm and brave as she was throughout the seven years as she had been today.

While the graduation took the country and the world by storm and shock, the announcement of Jurina and Miruki joining Team K and B respectively was somewhat neglected.

Jurina, despite being in AKB48 singles since years ago, is a part of SKE48. Pampered like a baby that she is and in spite of the strong SKE48 ace front that she carried, she collapsed. Nishishi, Masana and Churi watched helplessly with heavy hearts when Jurina went down; there was only so much that they could do to help her and this…this was way beyond them. What they could do was to give her mental support though “what help could that give to her anyway,” as Masana had bitterly said to the other two.

On the other hand, Sayanee didn’t know how to respond when Miruki was announced to be going to Team B; she laughed, thinking it was a joke from Togasaki, and when it hit her that it wasn’t, she broke down at the backstage. She thought that she was losing her rival, the one who pushed her to excel in everything that she does, her friend, the one who knows what’s going on in her life more than anyone else, and most of all, her sister, the one whom she knew she could trust her life on.

They were thankful though, both SKE48 and NMB48, that it wasn’t a full transfer; it was the light in the midst of everything chaotic.

-

Walking past the many shops in Akihabara, Takamina was suddenly reminded of a fellow first generation member – Nakanishi Rina.

It still pained and angered her to think how someone as flawless (in Takamina’s fangirl-ish opinion) as Rinatin would even consider a career like that. But who was Takamina to judge what path a frie-, she meant ex-friend, to take? Especially after Rinatin made a conscious effort to cut off all forms of communications with the other members – Takamina believed it was to protect them and their image – and sending that one last message to her before she stopped the phone-line she had been using since they knew each other. I’m sorry Minami, for being such a horrible friend; I’ll go my own way in life, and we’ll never cross paths ever again but I wish you and AKB48 would be even more successful. The 3 years in AKB48, were my happiest times. I’m sorry. Takamina didn’t know what she was sorry about then, but now she does.

Original Team A members held the same wish – to step onto the Tokyo Dome as a performer, and do a sold-out concert for their fans.

On August 24th 2012, though it wasn’t the original Team A, K, B members, but in fact everyone in the 48family and missing a handful of the graduated members, AKB48 stepped onto the top of Tokyo Dome and fulfilled their 1830m dream. It was such a beautiful sight from the stage at Tokyo Dome, it was even more beautiful, standing on top of the cake-like structure stage, and looking at their fans, Takamina remembered. It was a sight that she would never forget.

Day 1 ended with a reshuffle; yet another cruel reshuffle. Takamina believed that if they could get through with the one in 2009 and emerged stronger and better, they could handle this as well. And being appointed as the general manager, she would do her best, do even better than what she was doing now, to lead the team on.

The second day however, was her day.

She didn’t know what to anticipate for the second day; for a far bit, she was dreading it, knowing that the next day would be her best friend’s graduation. But the day took a turn for the better when the duo did their duet, and packaged as a graduation gift, Acchan announced her solo project. It was her dream; she wanted to be more than just a solo singer, but a solo singer while she is still in AKB48. It didn’t go down well for her when Tomochin, Acchan, Wasamin, Mayuyu, Sasshi and Yukirin were given their solo singing projects; Takamina knew that she wasn’t the best singer in AKB48, heck no one could be the best singer in AKB48 other than Yuka, but she had always hoped that somehow, a miracle would befall her and she could be given a solo project. She loved singing more than anything else and whenever she had the time to, she would practice her singing and tried her best to be better with each performance. Even though she knew it would just be a matter of time for her to have her solo, there were times when she turned on herself and doubted her capabilities. It wasn’t until the announcement that she came to realize that all the whispers that the higher-ups had when she stepped in the room, the unfamiliar staff faces that were at their rehearsals, and just about everything that she felt out of place, fell into place.

And then, it was Acchan’s graduation.

Takamina didn’t have much time to cheer over her solo project for the next day at Tokyo Dome and the day after at the theater were for Acchan’s graduation. What she felt about the strong girl was said during both performances and she knew that even after graduation, her bonds with the members would not change. So much had happened in the seven years that they were together as AKB48, and they have faith in their friendship. If a graduation could break the friendship, then it wouldn’t be a friendship to be proud of in the start, right?

Miichan knew this as well; she mumbled it to Takamina while she was crying into the latter’s shoulders, but despite knowing so, Miichan couldn’t control her tears. Miichan knew that with their busy schedules – Miichan with AKB48 and Acchan with her filming – it would be difficult for them to meet up even for a meal. Back when Acchan was struggling with her solo commitments, at least in the midst of all these busy periods, they could meet for a few hours while they work as part of AKB48 together. But these little times…they couldn’t happen anymore after the graduation.

However, it wasn’t until August 28th that it sunk in for most of the members that Acchan had indeed, left AKB48.

She would no longer be labeled as AKB48’s Maeda Atsuko, but just plainly, Maeda Atsuko.

-

Stopping in front of Don Quijote, Takamina took a deep breath; 1830m later, she found her own answer.

Checking her watch, 3:32, she was glad she made it in time for the rehearsal with some time to rest. Taking the lift up to the theater floor, she stepped out, greeted by two Kojimas, Natsuki and Nyan Nyan. The latter laughed at Takamina’s seemingly disheveled look before fixing the ribbon on the top of her head and pushing her into the theater, “I’ve got extra food,” she exclaimed happily just as Takamina’s stomach let out a hungry growl. 

Life, especially life as AKB48, moves on, Takamina came to realize.

In this group, it was taught that no one is irreplaceable and everyone is vulnerable; if the ace leaves, someone will step up under pressure to be the next ace, and the cycle continues. It doesn’t stop for anyone. It might be cruel for some, but that was how AKB48 survived and is still thriving despite it going into its seventh year.

At first, it wasn’t easy for Takamina to accept that someone could be this easily replaced or forgotten. Then she learned.

No one was replaced or forgotten.

They were simply kept as precious memories and used to fuel the next generation on forth with their own unique charms, pushing them forth to reach the next milestone and to create brighter and better records in the name of AKB48.
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#36: Not Letting Go...
« Reply #38 on: September 29, 2012, 01:32:14 PM »
Sorry for the lack of updates in the forum yesterday!  :panic: Double update now! And wait for more fics today later!  :thumbup

Entry #36
Title: Not Letting Go...
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Shinoda Mariko, Takahashi Minami; MariTaka
Word Count: 2893

Not Letting Go...

It’s been 2 years now, since I’ve graduated from AKB48. I’m now solely focusing on being a model. Ah! I forgot to introduce myself, I’m Shinoda Mariko. Age… it’s a secret~

Although I’ve graduated from AKB, I still keep in contact with some members I’m close with like Maeda Atsuko, Acchan, Kojima Haruna, Nyaro, Minegishi Minami, Miichan, Oshima Yuko, and Itano Tomomi, Tomochin. We often will go and eat and drink or even sleepover at each other’s apartment. I would also go to shopping with Nyaro and Tomochin.

But… Even if we tried to act like normal, we all know that things between us is never going to be the same as when we were all still in AKB together. Especially not when ‘that’ happened 2 years ago…

You guys might have noticed a name missing, a close friend that we have in common. Maybe even more than being a close friend, someone we all love so much for so many years. Someone who is always so gentle and caring to all of us… Someone who would always lead us towards our dream and someone we all respect so much… Yes, she was once AKB’s captain and at the same time, also Team A’s captain. Her name is Takahashi Minami a.k.a. Takamina but I would often call her Minami.

When I’m with her, I would always feel safe and comfortable. I always thought that this will last forever but… that incident causes us to lose her forever…

Minami I miss you…

That Chibi captain will always look after someone else’s interest before her own. She always pushes herself over her own limit and that always made me feel bad. Even though her height is only 148cm, her back seems a lot bigger when she’s standing in front of us. I also tried to push myself to become stronger so that I can also stand by her side but no matter how hard I try, she is always one step in front of me.

She really is a good captain, strict when rehearsal but gentle and caring during times when we’re weak and need someone to comfort us. She always notices when there’s something going on, like when a member is feeling down or sick. She really is irreplaceable in AKB. I can’t and don’t to even think about what will happen to AKB if she’s not in it.

Though we respect her as a captain, we will always make fun of her as we know that someone as kind and tender as her won’t really be mad at us. Besides, it’s really cute to see her being bullied by us~ Oh! When I say bully, it’s not like those you see in the dramas, it’s only playing around in our case.

That charisma that Minami has, has brought a lot of us together like Acchan, Nyaro, Miichan, Yuko, Tomochin and me. All of us loves and care about Minami and we’re all satisfied with the distance we have with her. We’re all afraid to take our relationship we have now a step further, fearing that it will break the only thing we have now. I’m also one of those people who love Minami as in lover and also a coward. I really regret why I’m such a coward back then and hid my feelings about Minami… Now, I don’t even have the chance to tell her my feeling.

I don’t know why I’m spilling off all these feelings now when I’ve kept it inside me for 2 years already. Maybe, it’s because I’ve never let go about that incident. Although it hurts to remember it again, I want to share this with you guys.

I still remember how sympathetic I was or rather we were when Minami left us, forever. Things seems to have turned black and white, everything just seems so lifeless and boring. Nothing seems to interest me anymore. I only know that, AKB has lots of memories about Minami and it hurts whenever I recall about it. So, I decided to graduate from AKB. Trying to run away from reality, from the fact that Minami is no longer here anymore… After I graduated, they, those we also love Minami also can’t bear to stay at AKB any longer too and also chose to graduate.

Minami, do you know how much I loved you?
How much I regret about not confessing to you?


That incident happened 2 years ago when we’re having our 4th Tokyo Dome concert…

2 Years Ago…
AKB are having their 4th Tokyo Dome concert. All the members are now at the stage having rehearsal.

“So the starting song would be Ponytail to Shushu, then…” Minami is explaining the song orders to the members.

After the explanations, without much time being wasted members starts to go to their own position and prepare.

An hour later, Minami gave everyone a rest and I went to Miichan and Nyaro’s side and start to have a chat with them.

“What’s the trend color this summer?” Miichan asks me.
“So this summer’s popular colors are light blue and sky blue” I answered.
“And light green too” Haruna added.
“I see, I see” Miichan mumbles as she is taking notes seriously which made me and Haruna laugh out loud.

“What are you guys laughing about??” Minami asks as she just finishes talking with the staffs.
“Nah, it’s just that it’s funny when you see how serious Miichan is taking notes about fashion” I replied.
“Here’s some water for replenishment, it’s quite hot today better made sure you guys won’t dehydrate and have a heat stroke.” Minami says as she handed each of us a bottle of water.
“Thanks Minami~ You’ll be a good boyfriend” I says teasingly which causes Minami to pout cutely.
“Yea, Takamina! Do you know you’re No. 1 that members want as a boyfriend??” Miichan added.
“I’m a girl!!!” Minami says frustratingly which causes another round of laughter.
“Eh? Isn’t Takamina a guy??” Haruna declare while bending her head a bit to the right.
“Nyan Nyan!!!” Minami cries.
“Hahahaha” We all laughed happily that time, not knowing that we would lose this Chibi captain forever.

As time pass by, it is now the time for the concert to start. We all dance and sing with our full might from the start since we didn’t want to disappoint any of our fans and we didn’t want to do things that will make us regret later on.

It is summer now and the heat today is really strong. With all the dancing and the heat in the backstage, many members were experiencing heat stroke. The heat made us felt like we’re at hell!

In the middle of changing at the backstage, I could see Minami’s face really red and so much sweat. She’s not standing properly and was about to fall. I quickly went to her side and help her stand, she’s at her limit I could tell.

I told her to sit down and take a deep breath and ask if she wants to rest for awhile. She told me she’s fine and can still go on and went to change. When she leaves, I don’t know why but I feel really worried. Sigh* That girl pushes herself way too much, so much that it hurts to see her like that…

Now, the concert is at its peak. At the later half, it is Team unit songs. Now, it’s Bird and it’s me, Minami and Sae chan.

At this time, I just hope the concert finish faster so that Minami can have a rest. Because I know that unless the concert is finishes, Minami would not leave her own part. I don’t know why but as we’re performing ‘Bird’ my right eyelid keep twitching, although I don’t believe much in those superstitions, I just have a bad feeling.

In the middle of the song, I heard something from above so I looked up and saw one of the stage light falling and will hit me soon. I was just so dumbfounded that I forgot to escape and I thought that I’ll die today and regret that why didn’t I confessed to Minami. If I’m lucky and didn’t die today, then I swear to myself that I’ll tell Minami my true feelings.

I closed both of my eyes, waiting for the impact to hit me.

Later, I felt something bump me but it’s from the side and I also heard “Mariko sama, be careful!!!” and CRASH!!!

As I opened my eye, there wasn’t even a scratch on me. But the scene in front of me brought me nightmares…

It was Minami lying on the floor with her head bleeding badly and the stage light beside and its edge is colored by Minami’s blood.

I can’t comprehend what just happened, it was just in the blink of an eye. I felt dizzy and my world spinning, I only remember seeing staffs running towards Minami and myself mumbling ‘No, this can’t be true’ and fainted.

Minami, if I can turn back the time I would rather be the one hit by the stage light and not you…

By the time I woke up, I was at a room full of white except my clothing which I can tell is hospital patient’s clothing so I know that I was at the hospital.

I try to recollect about what happened.

I remember we’re having Tokyo Dome concert and I was performing ‘Bird’ then… Minami!!! I remembered now, Minami was hit by the stage light! Where’s she?!

I hurriedly got up from the bed and was about to dash towards the door when the door suddenly opens, showing Nyaro and Miichan with both of their eyes puffy and red.

“Mariko…” Haruna calls and her voice is a bit husky from so much crying.
“Nyaro, where’s Minami??”I ask worriedly hoping her to tell me everything’s fine, Minami’s fine just a bit injured…

But Miichan’s next few words completely broke my last hope away.
“Mariko, Takamina sob* sob* left us… forever” Miichan then fall onto her knees and starts to cry.
“No… this isn’t true… This can’t be happening! You’re lying!!” I screamed and run and shake Miichan’s shoulder while shouting, “You’re lying! Where’s Minami?! Where’s Minami!!!”
“Mariko, calm down!” Haruna says while trying to pull me away from the crying Miichan.
But I just can’t calm down and continue to shout whatever comes to my mind.

Then suddenly Haruna slapped me and say “Takamina is dead!”
I can’t bear to hear the word ‘dead’ and fainted again.

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2 years have already passed since Takamina passed away… Although I can now face the truth that she is no longer here anymore, I still can’t get rid of this sadness in me. I still wish that I was the one that died and not her…

I always keep myself really busy so that I won’t have the time to think about her. But every time when there’s an event like Chirstmas, New Year, Halloween or April 8, her birthday, I can’t stop but think how we would’ve celebrated those events if she was still here.

Right now is the second Christmas after she has passed away… Tomochin, Acchan, Haruna, Miichan, Yuko, etc. all is going to celebrate it with their family.

I don’t really have the mood to celebrate Christmas but neither do I want to just stay home doing nothing, so I decide to walk around the neighborhood.

As I walk around I see families, friends and lovers all around laughing and celebrating Christmas. In this happy atmosphere, I seemed to not fit in the environment at all.

I just walk aimlessly and by the time I notice there seems to be a bright light covering all my body. I panic a bit but can’t open my eyes to see what’s happening as the light is too much for my eyes.

After a few seconds, I slowly open my eyes but what’s in front of me were not the white snowy scenery I last saw but my old house where I used to live 2 years ago!

I’m really surprised as I look around and I am really sure that it is my house that I used to live in. I’ve moved out since Minami passed away because I want to change of mood and never been back here after I left, but why am I here now?

As I’m thinking, suddenly I heard a sound coming from the bed. It is the AKB48’s Bird and it also used to be my ringing tone 2 years ago. And of course the reason why I changed it is because it always reminded me of Minami…

Anyway, I quickly find the phone which is lying under the blanket but I froze up when I saw the caller’s name…

It is Minami…

How come?! What’s going on?? This can’t be Miichan calling because I remember I input her name as Miichan and not Minami!

Putting aside the matter I decide to pick up the phone.
“Moshi, moshi?” I try to say it calmly but my trembling voice tells that the speaker is not calm at all.
“Ah! Mariko sama? This is Takamina. I was just worried since you’re not at the Tokyo Dome Concert Hall yet because you just told me that you’ll be here at around 7:00 a.m. and now it’s already 7:50 a.m. so I was thinking what could’ve happened.”
“Mi.. Minami??” I stuttered as it indeed is the voice that I missed so much for all these years… That voice that hunted me, that voice that I can’t forget about…
“Yes??”
“Are you really Minami??”
“Of course! Mariko sama, are you okay? Why are you asking funny questions?? Or are you trying to fool around with me again??”
“Minami, what day and year is it today??” I asked nervously to make sure if my prediction was true.
“Huh?? Mariko sama, are you really fine? Of course it’s XX XX 20XX, where we’re having our 4th Tokyo Dome Concert!”

After hearing the date, I can confirm that I have gone back to the past.
To the past where Minami still exists,
To the time where I can still feel her warmth.
To when I still haven’t lose her…

I believe that this is a chance God has given me and this time I’m going to protect Minami! I won’t let go of her anymore, I’ll be brave and tell her my feelings and definitely will avoid that hateful accident that happened 2 years ago, today!

“Hello, Minami? I’ll be there in 40 minutes”
“Okay, then I’ll see you later Mariko sama. Tutt* Tutt* Tutt*

Once I hang up the phone, I quickly dress up myself and dash towards the concert hall, full of determination!

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The time went past quickly, rehearsals are finished and it’s time for the real thing. Each minute passing reminds me that the time of the ‘accident’ is coming soon and I can’t help but feel cold sweat forming on my back.

Now, it’s time for Bird. Only God knows how nervous and worried I am now because I know what could’ve happened later…

Arg!!! Although I’ve already made a plan, I’m still worried and my eyelids are also jumping which is not a good omen! I just hope nothing unexpected will happen…

As I perform Bird on the stage with Minami and Sae, I am putting 120% concentration on the surrounding and checking if the stage light is going to fall soon.

Then later as expected the stage light is falling and that Bakamina is running towards me and plans to push me away!

I won’t let that Bakamina do things as she like this time! She is selfish enough to save my life and left me 2 years ago but this time I won’t let her do as she pleased!

I hurriedly run towards Minami and push her to the side and of course I also dodge to the side because in my perfect plan is I live happily ever after with Minami and not Minami living but I’m dead!

So after pushing Minami to the safe side and myself out of the area where the stage light is falling on I breathed a sigh of relief. But this does not last long…

As I turn and look at Minami I saw another stage light falling which is just on top of her! This is really something UNEXPECTED!!!

DAMN IT!! What does this have to happen?! Why can’t the world leave us in peace?? What did we do to deserve this?!

I am really going insane as I quickly run towards Minami because I can’t bear to lose her the second time…



“Minamiii!!!!!!!”



Why did God have to take you away from me?
Leaving me in the world full of sadness and despair.
Then after two years,
I believe that a chance has come.

I thought it was a Christmas present from God,
But turns out to be from a devil…
He gave me a hope but just have to crash it the next second!

However I’ll not letting go this time,
I’ll hold onto you tightly in my arms.
If the destiny turns out to be the same,
Then I’ll go with you this time.

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#37: A Guide To Marine Life
« Reply #39 on: September 29, 2012, 01:48:04 PM »
Entry #37
Title: A Guide To Marine Life
Main Character(s)/Pairing(s): Matsui Rena, Kojima Haruna; Rena/KojiHaru
Word Count: 2637

A/N: The referenced lyrics are from KojiHaru’s Cloudy Sky. The aquarium they are at is the Okinawa Churaumi (“graceful ocean”) Aquarium; more precisely at the main tank, called the Kuroshio Sea (look it up on youtube).For purposes of this story, let’s pretend that somehow it is possible for the said aquarium to not be overly crowded on a Saturday, that people are allowed to touch the tank glass and, more importantly, that even national idols can peacefully mind their time in there without being disturbed.

A Guide To Marine Life


When the sun split into half brought morning with it, my senses slowly awoke to the noise of an unwelcomed October rain, pattering softly outside my window, as my mind became cluttered with thoughts. And questions. Questions I don’t have a good answer to. Seeing that who I am today is permanently a little different from whom I was yesterday.

« Where can I find a heart that doesn’t have a single wound? »

« In five… ten years time, what will I be in ten years…? »

« Just what do people truly desire?
»

Sometimes, I allow myself to think that maybe I grew tired of it. It’s not that I feel like giving up, or anything. I’ve never even considered it. I always took pride in my determination of steel. “I will paint tomorrowonce more with these hands “, to be a person who continues to live with this in the heart, it’s what I’ve taught myself to do.

But… I wonder . Would it be okay for me to break free, just for one day? To get away from it all — the chaotic schedule, the routines; it gets almost suffocating.

Then my mind would wander back to all the people who cheer me on unconditionally, and I feel terribly sorry for my negative thinking. I want to be able to give them healthy smiles, to send them my feelings of appreciation, in return for their everlasting kindness and support. I always remember this, my purpose.

Even so.. it can’t be helped. Once in a while, somehow, I end up feeling low-spirited. Today, even the sky is moody. That’s why, I think that, just for today, it’s okay.



A few hours earlier, when I’ve decided I wanted to come here, at the Okinawa Aquarium, and found myself waiting for a train I haven’t taken in years, it just hasn’t occurred to me that it would be a particularly memorable day. I guess that sometimes you meet the person you least expect in the most unthinkable circumstances. And sometimes there’s that one extraordinary encounter everyone’s waiting for, deep in their pockets. For me, that person turned out to be none other than… KojiHaru-san. Come to think of it, it’s quite amusing, isn’t it? How the odds work at times.

At first, even though I was standing right beside her, here, at the Kuroshio Sea, she seemed too far away for my voice to reach. I wondered how should I call out to her? If I were perhaps someone dear to Kojima-san, what would I say to her? But soon enough, before we even had time to take notice, we started talking freely, the way two childhood friends would. It was like I was able to step a little further into her world, and I would let her into mine.

Suddenly, her voice anchored me to reality.

“You can’t defeat Jack Kojiro! “ – she striked a ridiculously cute pose, which seemed more the impersonation of a cat than anything  –  “… was it?”

My wandering thoughts have been spinning me round for a while now, I think.

“Um.”, I nodded, as a chuckle escaped my lips, “It was cute!”

“Eeh~? Cute? I thought my make up was more of a shocking point.”

“It was, it was. But Kojima-san pulled off a very laughable impersonation of that character.”

“You know, maybe I should have dressed like that for the Janken Tournament, so I couldn’t have been defeated!”

“I think when it comes to that, it’s all about luck, though.”

“It all comes down to that in the end, doesn’t it?”


“ Um.” I nodded in agreement. “Besides, if it’s Kojima-san, then the costume doesn’t matter. It’s always your idol aura that shines through the most.”

“Brighter than all the glitter on our concert costumes?~”
, she giggled.

“Yes. If it comes to « Who I want to see »… I want to see Kojima-san—”, in the excitement of the moment, all these words which were on the tip of my tongue, unintentionally slipped. “On stage, I mean! Pe-performing!”, I blushed a little and immediately started touching my bangs nervously, trying to avert her gaze. It’s a bit embarrassing and I realized it a little too late.

“Is that so?” she asked, somehow surprised and somehow contented.

“Yes”, this time my answer was firm. No matter where I look at, there’s Kojima-san being cute.

It must have been my imagination because it seemed as though even her cheeks were slightly colored in a dim shade of red.

“I should treat Rena to some melon pans to properly show you my appreciation. Or maybe I should bake some; would that be better?”

That… I think that would be the end of me. Literally. One overdose of salt disguised in the form of a melon pan, it can’t actually be… deathly, right?

“But isn’t Kojima-san rather sloppy when it comes to cooking…?”, I laughed nervously, “But… but somehow, it fits your image, I think…”

“Eeh~~? It does?”

“Yes. Like a 2D character who is known to be the airhead type,” I explained, “you would actually expect that character to be unskilled in the kitchen… ”

“Oh, I see. ” She slowly nodded. Then her attention was snatched away by something in the aquarium tank.

“Ah! That fish looks exactly like Takamina, doesn’t it!”, her sudden remark aroused my own curiousity as well.

“Which one?”, I asked and she immediately guided my sight with her finger. “See? The really small one right there, you can barely see it—” by the time she could properly finish the sentence, she had already bursted out in a hearty, very contagious, laugh.

“The resemblance is fearsome!”, she eventually managed to add.

“Kojima-san, that’s a bit—”, I tried to rationalize while trying to contain my own chuckles.

“Whoa, amazing~! As expected of Takamina-fish, leading all that bunch out of that hole!! Maybe they are swimming away from the wota!”

Her sense of humour was definitely a bit odd but so delightfully silly that I couldn’t possibly hold it in any longer. I gave in and let the sound of my laughter to join hers. They fell in sync so naturally, like the perfect harmony of a carefully composed symphony. And just like two carefree middleschoolers joking around all the way home, on the last day of school before summer vacantion, we mended into each other’s presence and laughed to our heart’s content for what seemed like a few eternal minutes.

“Say, doesn’t it feel like the fishes can take all the troubling thoughts away?”, she said, after the lively atmosphere settled down. “Everything about them seems so simple. And it’s beautiful, isn’t it? “, she took a calming breath, ”I wonder what it’s like to be a fish…”

“But wouldn’t that be a little ironic?”, I asked, still a little amused.

“Eeh~? How so?”, she seemed genuinely confused.

“Datte~ aren’t fish supposed to be a cat’s favorite meal?” I explained.

She put her finger on her chin as though she was considering the question. “… That’s how it is, isn’t it?”, she smiled a little.

 “I would probably end up eaten by a really cute ~nyan nyan”, she said, playfully pouting. Then she laughed.

There it was again. Her laugh. The very moment when Kojima-san shines the brightest. I could feel her behind my eyes. I was truly drawn to her side.

What I experienced in that moment was the bliss to have been the one to make her laugh, and an irresistible urge to have the opportunity to do so everyday.

“But I mean,” her expression became heavy, contemplative, “do they also get to feel lonely, even when there are always so many of the other ones around…?”

She said, almost to herself. We both fell into a moment of comfortable silence, as an aura of quiet empathy embraced the atmosphere.Somehow, her words were a mirror to my own thoughts. My own doubts and anxieties.

誰もが胸の奥に

Everyone, deep in their hearts,

見せたくないものがある

Has something that they don’t want to be seen

モヤモヤしてる気持ちが

Somewhere, there must be feelings of

どこかに浮かんでるはず

Sadness and gloom

I see now. Even Kojima-san feels like this sometimes. I guess that I forget too easily and too often that other people may feel the same way as I do.

 “How about we both choose a fish?”, she pointed to a large group of orange fishes with black stripes, trying to follow their perpetual motion with her finger. They were rather small. And definitely impossible to distinguish.

“But… isn’t it impossible to tell the difference?”, I asked, a little confused. I couldn’t tell if she was truly under the impression that she would somehow be able to do so, or if she was trying to lighten the mood.

“See? That one is mine,” her finger pointed towards a comet-tailed goldfish. One second of absence of mind and the fish was nowhere to be seen. A short silence followed.

“Ah, I saw it!, she shouted.

“Kojima-san, I am pretty sure that is not the same fish”, I smiled. Somehow, Kojima-san is a bit of a child at heart despite the elegance that radiates from her appereance, isn’t she?

“What do you mean it’s not the same fish?”, she looked at me as though I have unraveled the universe’s biggest mystery. A slight frown was starting to cloud her smiling eyes, and suddenly I felt as though I had just accidentally told a little kid that Santa Claus is not coming to town.

“Well, you see—”, I really was at a loss of words. As though to answer to my unvoiced bewilderment, Kojima-san chuckled.

“Just kidding,” she smiled and gently pated my head, ”so Rena is that kind of person, right?”  That kind of person…?

“Someone who cherishes the other person’s feelings”, she gave me the answer even though I haven’t asked. She must’ve noticed my troubled expression.

“No, it’s not like that, really. I am rather a very selfish person…

“Everyone is, truthfully. But, you know…  it’s like, people are willing to forget their selfish nature once in a while, aren’t they? And some people do it more often than others. Like a habit, maybe. Rena is a naturally caring person, that’s what I think.” My cheeks burned with a deep shade of red as she continued. “That’s why, someone as gentle as Rena doesn’t have to feel alone.” I felt gratitude surging in my chest, warm and a little like an ache.

As expected, to be told these type of things by Kojima-san is… truly overwhelming.

I realized that maybe this was something we both wanted to hear. Like a needed reassurement of some sort. That we are definitely not alone.

“Th-thank you!!”, I suddenly bowed my head and glued my eyes to the floor. I was struck with the urge to cry. My eyes hesitated and my tears appeared. The more I tried to hold in my tears, the harder they seeked to escape. And before I had realized it, they were streaming down my face. I was just… really, truly happy.

Amidst the silence filling the atmosphere, embarrassment echoed through my trembling self. Then I felt a certain warmth upon my head. Her hand. She tenderly stroked my head. And all I heard was a soft spoken name. My name. “Rena…”

As I finally lifted my head to meet her eyes, the warmth of her hand moved to my forehead. It’s a little embarrassing, but I didn’t mind it at all.

Her skin was soft, her touch was light; it was flaming my every cell. My heart’s pounding a mile a minute. So much that I decide it couldn’t possibly be a dream.

“There there, little kingyo, she offered me the brightest smile, unlike any other. And took my hand into hers.

“—Harunyan chooses you. Since you were the one to take my worries away for today.”

I hope that she knows she did the same for me. I couldn’t convey all those feelings into words so I wiped my tears, and I answered her with a most sincere smile. The most genuine smile I had in a long time. I wanted her to have it.

Her cold fingertips were gently pressed onto the glass of the aquarium tank as her gaze lingered upon the beauty beyond it. Her grip of my hand hasn’t loosened one bit. And her eyes reflected a whole new world; they were a momentary quide to marine life.

“This world holds such precious joys as these. Wouldn’t you say?”, her expression eclipsed the fascination of a child.

« People come here with an oceanwide labyrinth of troubles and worries; a heavy weight upon their shoulders. And the fishes would take them all away. The fishes will forget about them after three seconds, you see… so the worries will have all soon vanished. And people can smile freely, without having to put a mask over their heart. Isn’t it nice? Even if it’s for the short span of time they spend here, people can embrace the loneliness within themselves, and be happy. »

I remember now. The reason why I wanted to come here today, out of all the other places. My father’s words from when he took me here for the first time… I remember them clearly even now. Mmh, that’s right… I asked him how come all the people here are so happy and lively. I couldn’t help but smile, really. And seeing Kojima-san’s smile, I felt happier.

… I was truly glad I had a person with whom to share the scenery before my eyes. As it is, just like this, I want to always feel the warmth carved into her hand.

I want to remain like this for a little longer; for awhile.

Once these hands of ours will have parted , I won’t forget —our encounter will slowly fade into the depths of my mind, becoming a memory. A memory I will cherish dearly.



Before we have realized, it was already time to leave. Outside, the rain has stopped for what seemed like a few hours; the smell of the approaching night floating in the air. If I just look up, where the clouds start to break… I see the first evening star. The fragrant wind gently brushes my skin.

In the sight of a scarlet-colored sky, as we parted ways, she murmured the words which said:  « Let’s both keep trying our best, okay? »

Watching her back growing further away into the distance, I figured that from afar Kojiharu-san has always seemed like a shooting star to someone like me; a little out of reach. Constantly shining, just beyond my grasp. Unapproachable. But today… I’ve finally reached her. The faint glow of her smile remained even now. That image is something that, surely, will linger in my mind eternally. I have it memorized.

人は誰だって

No matter who they may be,

心の片隅に

People carry on with their lives

少しだけ雲を

With a few clouds floating

浮かべながら 生きてる

In a corner of their hearts

For a brief second I closed my eyes, and smiled to myself. After all… loneliness is nothing to fret about. It’s inevitable, but always temporary. Just like the rain.

That’s why, in the nothing of an unseen future, I will continue to shine a little too. And I hope that we can light each other’s way again someday. Kojima-san.

« Thank you. »

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