Translation of Kodama‘s blogDoctor stop.I was diagnosed with manic depression.This was the reason for my two year absence.As I was pursuing my dreams, singing and dancing in the spotlight, I was suffocating and withering away on the inside…I was honestly really conflicted about saying this publicly. After all, an idol is someone who radiates positivity – someone who has to have a smile on their face always.But despite all of this I decided to come out publicly with this diagnosis because I wanted to provide some hope for those going through the same illness, even if it is only in the form of me, a former actress turned idol, saying that I am just a human being like everyone else.At the time I was first faced with my illness, I really wanted someone to be by my side. For someone to say “it’s alright”, and to have hope.I want to hope that this note might provide that sense of comfort to some. I plan on writing more about both the good and the bad of the idol world, as well as how I dealt with maniac depression.If you found this article helpful or good, please continue to support me. I hope to see you all again soon.