Jurina POV
It’s really cold outside, but Rena’s heart colder than all the things and all the season in this earth. Chuckle. I can bear with Rena’s cold heart for years, So there is no reason for me to getting weak in this kind of weather. I pull up my jacket closer to me, to keep it warm my body. How i hope this warm isn’t from my jacket, i hope its from her instead. I remember her last hug, the really last hug that i feel its really from her heart.
Flashback
Backstage SSK 2015
I droped my rank again. I was so despressed, i can’t gain higher rank even after Rena decided to not participated in this year SSK. How i can to face her. I really dissapointed to my self. I want to show Rena if i’m not a kid anymore, i want to show her i’m stronger than before.
So she can lean on me.
“Jurina” she call my name, i knew its her, i knew her weird sweet voice well. I broke away from masana’s hug and look at her. All emotion that i keep to my self show up in the seconds. Why i always weak infront of her. She hug me, and laugh, i thought she tried to cheer me up.
“I’m sorry Rena-chan”
“Its ok Jurina, its ok, everything will be allright” she said. No. She lied. Everything not gonna be alright. She left me.
Come back from the time machine, yes, memories is always be my time machine. Althought the scars get deeper everytime i come back to reality and realize it just a memories and sadly i don’t even know she will remember it or not. The funny thing is here i’m in combini, buying her favorite food. She always smelled like one of it.
That melon pan freak.
Rena POV I walk without any direction, i just walk where ever my feet bring me. I walk till my feet getting sore. I saw some of kids around 5 or 6 years old walking together, one of them has teary eyes and little sobs heard from her little mouth. I look at them.
“I’m sorry, its because of me we lost” the little kid keep on crying. A girl beside of her, which seems younger than her, hol her hands and look at her with concern.
“Its ok yu-chan, you almost dit it! Little bit more we can beat them” the younger kid try to cheer her up “Smile smileee! i’ll buy an ice cream for Yu-chan” the kids walk away and laughing.
I smile, the kids remind her about Jurina and I. To the good old days.
Flashback
I was crying when we recording for SKE48 ebisho.
We lost because of me. If i jump higher than before we will eat those cherries. Even Jurina seemed really eager to eat those cherries. But i failed. Jurina came to my side, and wiped the tears from my cheecks. She defends me, she said its not my fault and i almost nail it.
I stood up, and walk to start other game. I still feel guilty. If i’m not this weak. “Its ok Rena-chan” i don’t know since when Jurina was beside me. She gave me a pure small and cute smile, and walk to others member and speak with her cheery voice. She is the true mood maker.
And i don’t know why i feel warm in my heart.
Come back from daydream, once again i smile because of the memory of my little knight. I don’t need a time machine, because the memories will bring back me to her, bring me back at the time when we used to be together.
When fanservice doesn’t matter.
The funny thing is that i still use the backpack that she gave to me as a birthday present. I love this backpack very much. I know Jurina loves having matched clothes or accessories with members, and she know me very well that i don’t like it because its too embarrassing, so that kid bought me a backpack with same brand but in different design. I posted it in my instagram. I remember after i posted it, she ran into me and hug me really thight. She didn’t say anything, but i feel her heartbeat in chest to chest with me.
Here i stand alone infront of the gate in the park when we first perfomed with AKB members in the same stage. I can hear the ‘Party ga Hajimaru’ song play in my head.
Jurina POV “Rena-chan” I call her name whith whisper. She froze at her place, and i can see clearly how she shake her head. She stand infront of me. I know its her, althought i can’t see her face.
“Rena” I call her once again, she turn her back and face me.
“Jurina, what are you doing here?” I can see she is little bit shock to see me in here, well we never met for nearly a year. But she is still the same Rena i know, brown eyes, pale skin, thin pink lips, all same. Except her bangs. What the hell with her bangs its really short. I chuckle, then froze when i see her confuse face.
“*cought* i’m sorry hehe *cought* I just need a fresh air and ... i’m in here” I smile to her. Wait, is she blushing right now? She still cute as before.
“Hey because you are here with me right now” I feel a warm feeling when i said this, when i realize she is with me right here, right now “How about we talk a bit, you know like How life treating you? Or how busy you are?” Yeah busy avoiding me.
“Sure”
I walk to a nearly bench, i can see she follwing me, its prety late right now. No one in this park except us. I see our shadow while we walking, i keep remind my self to not turn around and hug her.
I sit on the bench, and she sit beside me.
Rena POV This is so awkward, she just sit there beside me and keep silent for minutes, she looks at the sky, and i’m glad about it, because i can observing her face. It still same like before tho, same pretty eyelids, strong gaze, and cute dimple. I look at the plastic bag in her hand.
“I see you are curious with the ‘treasure’ in my plastic bag” I don’t know how she know about it. She roam her hand inside the plastic bag and take her ‘treasure’.
A melon pan.
“Take it, i know you want it” She said and put the melon pan on my lap.
“*chuckle* you makes me sound like a melon pan freak”
“Aren’t you?” Oh i hate that smirk, i hate how i miss that smirk in her face.
“Thank you Jurina” She turn her head to me, she smile, a really sweet smile. I hope i can picture her smile and save it in my memory for forever.
“So how are you?” she ask me, i’m good i said, and i ask her the same question.
“I’m pretty good too”
.............
“Hey don’t you remember this place” sudenly she said. Of course i remember this place, how can i’m not remember how hard to performed at that stage before.
“Yes i do... its really small compare to Nagoya dome or Tokyo dome, but at that time i can’t stop amazed how big this stage”
“Don’t you miss it?”
I look at her “im sorry?” i’m not sure what she said.
“Don’t you miss it? To perform with SKE? With us? ... with me?”
Jurina POV I almost cry when i ask her. Stay strong Jurina, stay strong. You can bare it for really long time, just keep stong for minutes please.
“I miss you”
*Badumb*
I can’t stop my heart to skip a beat when i heard she said those words. But the memory of she left me alone playing in head.
“You lied Rena, you don’t miss me, you never ever missing me”
I heard her chuckle, i turn my head to her. Nearly explode. How can she play with heart, how can-
“Isn’t you Jurina who always lied to our fans? To me? Playing fanservice to get more attention from fans? Isn’t it always been you who acts like you adore me, like me, and . . . love me! You are a liar Jurina! You are-“
“BUT I REALLY LOVE YOU RENA”
She stop talking non sense about me, about my feeling about her. How dare she said i don’t love her, when i nearly died in here because my love for her. I hold her shoulder and make her facing me. I can see tears stream down her face.
“Plese listen to me, i never lie to you. When i kiss you, its bacause i desperately want it. When i hold your hands, its because i think yours really fit in my hand. When i let you cried on my shoulder, its because i want to be somebody you always can lean on. And when i said i love you, i really really mean it. The only lied i told you when i said and i did all of the things is because of fanservice. And i’m regret it. Please believe in me” I can’t stop my self from crying, its really hurt.
Rena POV “Stupid Ju” I crying really hard “You should just say it to me, i miss you baka”
“isn’t it I love you instead of i miss you, ne Rena chan” This kid, how can she tease in this situation. That stupid puppy. I pinch her cheeck. “Yaaa ittai yoo Rena-chan” i laugh at her face.
“So.. are we okay?” she ask after i let go her red cheeck.
“Yes we are”
“SO can you follow back my twitter ahh and also my instagram, you should follow me” she said with energic voice, this kid is really a kid.
“No, don’t you think its good if we keep this as a secret between you and me? I think it will be more .... hmmmm special?”
She smile cheerfully, i thought she will against it “If you want it to be like that, well i’m ok with that, Althought you aren’t following me in social media, now i know your heart will always following me tehehe” How cheesy this kid.
“So my puppy already grown up ne?” Now its my turn to tease her.
“Mou~ stop it Rena-chan”
We laugh together like the good old days, i’m very sad to my wmatsui shippers out there, that we, Jurina and I, will lie to them again. We lie that we are not close anymore, we lie that we don’t care with each other, and we lie that we not fall in love.
Well life isn’t always about fanservice right?
And let this story will be the secret between Jurina and me... and you who are reading this story.
The End
“But Rena-chan, follow back my twitter pleaseeeeeeeeeee”
“JURINA”
A/N : Yeahh its done baby! its done! Thank you for reading my non sense fanfic. Hope you like it. Is wmatsui official now? Or they just a bestfriend? or mutual understanding? well I left it open so you can assume it by yourself. Sorry for any gramatical error 
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