Here is my 2nd OS :)
This is Fuuko’s POV and based on A Thousand Miles by Vanessa Charlton. I wrote this during my mid terms exam so it kinda rushed. Happy reading :D
I’m walking around this night city. The cold winds blows my face. I breathe into the cold air. Thankfully,i wore thick clothes so i don’t have to freeze. I just staring blankly ahead making my way through the crowd. I walking fastly,not even have interest to take a glance or two to the peoples that i meet in the street. Cause i know you can’t be there.
Finally i’m home. Quickly i unlocking the door by putting the warm metal key into the right lock hole. The door swings open and i stepped in. The silent atmosphere who envelope the room greets my lonely figure. Here i am. I goes to my balcony while bring a cup of hot espresso. My views lands to the night city. Cars pass away in the street as if will never stop. The night sky looks so beautiful with so many stars all over it. And also the lights of public places such as bar,mall,and the restaurants. Suddenly i see a star fall from the sky,quickly i close my eyes and make a wish. Wishing for something comes true whole-heartedly.
“Wish you will be here again.”
I open my eyelids only to greets by the dark night once again. I take a look at my smartphone. No call,no message,no notifications. My mood suddenly changes when i looking at my phone’s wallpaper. That’s her picture that i took when we were celebrating her 17th birthday. She smiling beautifully with her birthday’s cake in front her. I still remember that i gave her a surprise party when i asked her to come to my place. I still remember it vividly as if it was yesterday though it was five years ago. A silly smile painted in my face when i remember her shock expression. It was cute yet funny at the same time. Ah,if only. Suddenly flashback plays in my mind like a video.
Three years ago we were good friends. Three years ago we were so close,so young,so careless. Yeah,we were almost like sisters,sticky to each other as if no one could separate us. We often hangout together,spent our free time by having a conversation. We would talk about the future that we were all looking forward too. I still remember the conversations we had those days. We were also talked about those random things,such as homework who often give us headache and etc. I always told her everything who catch my attention lately such as my favorite idol’s new single,my favorite shoujo mangas,and even my sickly love story with Jonishi Kei. I don’t know why,but talk to her always make me feel free and my burden more lighter. And she would heard me while put a smile in her face.
It was a long time ago. It feels so long. I erase this stupid tears who welled up in my eyes. Ah,i can’t believe it makes me become fragile again. A prickling pain comes to my heart and try to break me inside.
‘Cause everything’s so wrong
And I don’t belong
Living in
Your precious memory
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I close my eyelids again. I wish that i could back to those days. I wish that accident was never happened to us. I wish i could take my words back.
“I can’t believe it,Miru. You’re same like the others.”
I was so shock to heard that fact from Kei. I couldn’t believe that she have that feelings for me. It’s disgusting. It’s like she take advantage from my chaotic love story. Disguise clearly showing in my face. I was looking at her abhorrently.
“Yeah,you’re right and she is right. I’m just a sucker for anything that you do.”
She was tried to kept her composure although she was breaking inside.
“I love you,Fuuko. More than you can imagine. I love you and i always wait patiently hoping you’ll return my feelings. When i see you with her it’s hurts me. I keep this burden,this prickling pain all alone. But now i know,i’m in love with the wrong person.”
She came closer to me and kissed me out of the blue. Her lips glued onto mine for a few seconds,made me frozen in my feet. When i regained my conscious,i pushed her harsly to the floor. She fell down to the cold floor. She stood up while grabbed her bag. A genuine smile was painted in her beautiful face.
“Good bye,Fuuko. Please be happy with her. thanks for all the happines that you’d gave to me,and also this damn heartbreak. Take care of yourself :) .”
She ran away,left me frozen in my feet. My mind went blank. What was i did? For the first time i was so confused. My feelings were mixed inside me. Should i chase her? I wish i could drag my feet,chasing after her. But no,i just stood there while tried to processed what happened. It was so fast. Her confession was so sudden.
“ I wish i was realize it. I wish i was notice her feelings.”
After that day we were never talk again. She kept her distance while i was sticking to Kei,my so called girlfriend. We were in different class so it made it easy for us. i though i could erase her from my mind as if she was never exist. But no,her confession kept repeated in my mind . Her bitter smile,her hurtful looks,and even the feel when her lips touched mine. It was so good and yet i wanted she to kiss me once again. Ah,it’s like an addiction. I shaked my head,tried to erase that stupid though from my mind. I shouldn’t thinking about her. She was nothing but my ex-best friend. Kei is more precious for me,right?
Day by day passed. The same things happened,routine repeating,world rotating. My everyday life are always same. Only the difference is,she no longer my friend. I carried my burden alone,tried to face my problem by my self. Usually she always here to help me,usually she would always comfort me. Ah,i get used to have her by my side.
“Yagura-san..”
That familiar voice waking me up from my train thought. I saw her,standing right in front of me. Her heavenly scent filled my noistrils. After long time finally she came to me. I was staring at her figure carefully,examining every inch of hers. She was hiding something behind her.
“What is it,Shiroma?”
I was staring at her with my icy look. Oh,how tsundere i am. Actually i’m so happy that she talked to me again. Meanwhile she was pretending to kept her composure.
“I come here only to give you this.”
She handed me a small pink colored love-shaped box with a blue ribbon emboss it.
“Today is Valentine Day,so i want give you that. I hope you will accept it although we’re no longer friends.I think that’s all. Bye,Yagura-san.”
She was left me quickly,but unexpectedly i called her name.
“Shiroma...”
She turned her back,looking at me confusedly.
“Thank you.”
She smiled.
“You’re welcome.”
And her figure fade away from my view. I felt so empty when her completely disappearred from my view. I sighed,i really want talk to her again. I was so sick of Kei nowadays. She dumped me again by flirting with Yoshida Akari,the new popular transfer student. She looks so beautiful like a model in the magazines. Of course that Jonishi,the famous player in our school would sweep off Akari’s feet. I was so tired of her. Miru was right,she would never change. I broke up with her. I wouldn’t heard her useless reason again. I had enough with her. I let her cried her eyes out in the middle of the rain. I was so dumb to give her too much chances. She would keep hurt me again even if i give her chances.
And i miss you
And i need you
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I couldn’t believe that day was the last day i saw her. She transferred to another school due her father job who made them moved to other town. I fell onto my knees. My feet suddenly became too weak to prop my body properly. My tears was streaming down onto my face. The realization hit me hard. She left me right in my birthday. And i was so blind to notice my feelings. Loving her..it’s started after her left.
I opened the box that she’d gave to me. I was surprised. A small music instrument placed neatly with a letter under it. That is the expensive harmonica that i want to buy,but i couldn’t because my money is not enough. I never tell her about it. Surely she knows everything about me. I took the letter and reading it.
Dear Fuuko,
When you read this letter probably i’m not here anymore. Ah,i’m so sorry Fuu,i have to go. I don’t want to but i have to.Take care of your self,’kay? I hope you will be happy and Kei will changes her attitude. Thanks for being a friend,thanks for make me smiles only by looking at your figure. Thanks that you let me know about your personal life,makes me happy that i could stay at your side although just as a friend. Thanks for everything,Yagura Fuuko. This is the time i’ve to say good bye.
PS: actually i want to give this at your upcoming birthday but i can’t because i ‘ll move right after Valentine Day.
Your Friend,
Shiroma Miru[/i]
I put down the letter onto the table harshly. I was so angry and broken. I didn’t have the chance to tell her about my feelings. It’s too late,too late for me to make her know that her love is not one sided. I punched the mirror,let broken pieces stabbed my hand and made it bleeding. Too young,too dumb,to realize. It’s too much late for me to realized she was the who loved me first. It’s too late to regret that i’d hurt her and made her heart torn its two. I could be so strong because she would always comfort me and cheer me up whenever Kei made me sad. She is my everything,she is my all. How do i live my life without you,Miru?
“If you love me,why did you leave me? You said you won’t make me hurt but why are you run away and leave me alone with this prickling pain? MIRU,I WANT YOU COMEBACK!!!!”
Suddenly i realize that i’m sobbing and shaking uncontrollaby because that flashback. FuuMiru,how nice they sounds in my ears. Every single day i keep wishing she will come here again,knock my door and stay with me. Every time the thought about her keep run in my mind. Don’t she know that i’m drown in her memories? Do i ever exist in her mind only for once? It’s always time like this when i think of her,i wonder if she ever think of me. i miss her,i need her. I want her come back to me. if there is another chance she will come here and stay with me,i will never let her go and keep her in my arms. I won’t move to Tokyo because i’m still waiting for her. How can i move on when my heart still longing for her? But what else i can do? All i can do is wishing if someday she will realize and find that she is missing me,her heart will starts to wonder and she will come here,the only place she could find me. yeah,i’m the girl who can’t be moved. In these past years i keep stay in this small apartement though my parents insist me to moving with them to Tokyo. I’m refused,i’m just a heartbreak girl who still waiting for her. If it’s a day,a month or a year. I’ll wait for her even if takes forever. That though drift me off into deep sleep.
Here i am now. Walking in the street alone in this cold town. The morning breeze blowing me softly. I looks like a zombie, alive in the out side but actually died inside. Every morning i wakes up only to find that my heart desperately missing her. The only thing that i always do to calm my self is walking around the town while sipping my espresso. That black bitter liquid is the only thing who makes my heart warm. Yeah,i’m the cold gloomy girl who never talk to others aside for studying or shopping.
Bump! Accidentally i bumping to someone who walks from the opposite direction. I fall down on the hard asphalt just like that person. I quickly stand up,help that person gathering her scattered belongings. Ah,looks like that person is a girl who have the same age with me. ehm,,i think she kind of familiar like i’ve seen her before. My eyes grow wide as if it will fall from the socket when i see that stranger face.
“MIRU?!!”
Oh,i hope this is not lucid dream like i usually do.
Haha,i leave it cliffhanger. See you in the next OS :)