Hi. I'm new here. I've been reading the fanfics here. And now I decided to post my story. This is my first story. It could be boring and sorry for that. Well here it is, hope you like it. And sorry for my bad english.
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Why can’t you love me back?
Chapter One
We’ve been together for 6 years. We’ve become very close throughout the years. You are the Leader and I’m the Ace. We always hug and joke around. You are so funny and kind hearted. You are the perfect “boyfriend”. You are so beautiful and you have e perfect small and thin body. Every time I hug you I can feel the warmth of your body and every time I do it, I don’t want to let you go. Everyone in the group teases you for your boyish style and that inside you are a boy. And in front of them I act like I agree with them, but inside I think you are a very attractive young lady. “I want you all for myself”. Both of us live alone and sometimes you come to sleepover at my apartment or I come to sleepover at yours. At my apartment you have your own pajamas and clothes. You come and I cook for you. You eat my dishes with pleasure and every time with a smile on your face you say: “It’s delicious. Thank you Atsuko.” When you call me, “Atsuko” I feel like my heart skips a beat. And every time you are around me I want to kiss you so much. But I’m so scared that you will reject me. I love you. Minami can you love me back? Do you love me?
Today we have a recording for AKBINGO! We will be playing dogball. And we’re on the same team. I am so happy I could be so close to you. The first Mechaburi is “Getemono Ryori”. Right after the game starts you have been hit by the gorilla… Oh I’m sorry by Akimoto Sayaka. She is such a monster. Hehe. I’m so disappointed I wanted to play with you more. The you sit to eat and you are so scared. I’m so worried about you. After you ate it you looked so pale. I got close to you and asked:
“Minami, are you ok?” I said with a worried face.
“Yeah don’t worry, Acchan”? you said with a smile.
My heart skips a beat again and I look at the ground.
“Acchan, are you ok? Minami asked me with a worried face. “Yeah, I’m ok. Don’t worry about me.”
After we were done recording for the day I went to change in the dressing room with everyone else. But I was so tired for the whole day that I couldn’t stay on my feet. Then I sat on the chair next to me and laid my head on the table right next in front of me. Then you came and asked me with a worried face and half – shouted: “Atsuko, Atsuko, Atsuko, are you ok? Atsuko? I lift my head and I look at you. You look like you are about to cry. I was so shocked and I couldn’t answer you. I was so happy that you were so worried about me. Then I saw a tear coming from your eye. You came closer and kissed my forehead and said: “You don’t have temperature, so you not sick. But you look so pale. Are you tired? After the kiss I was even more shocked, but then I came back to reality and got the courage to answer.
“M – M – Minami. Don’t worry I am ok.” I answered you while blushing.
“I’m so glad you are ok. You really scared me you know? She said while smiling and holding my hand.
“I – I’m sorry, Minami” I said and look right down at the ground. “
Don’t be so nice, Minami”
“Ok, let’s go to your apartment. I’ll stay over tonight” she said smiling.
“You don’t need to. I’m fine”.
“I know I don’t need to, Atsuko. But I want to.” She said still holding my hand tight.
“
Please stop”
We took a taxi to my apartment. And Minami is still holding my hand.”
Please, Minami. Let go of my hand.” We reached my front door and she let my hand go so I could take out my keys. We got in and Minami sat on the couch. She looks tired..
“Do you want something to eat? Are you hungry? “
“Yeah, I’m starving. Make me something delicious.”
“What do you want me to make for you.”
“Everything you make is delicious, so everything is fine, Atsuko.”
A smile formed on my face. She is really kind. I’m so in love with this girl. I want to tell her, but I’m so scared she will reject me. I love you, Minami. I want to be with you until the end of my life.
“Okay, then I’ll will make you favorite.”
“Okay. In the mean time I will go take a shower”. “Okay, well you know where your clothes are.”
“Un”. She is so shy. I thought to myself and my face got really red. I would really love to go in with her. I am such a perverted. Hehe.
“Minami, the dinner is ready.” I said while my face is bright red.
“Okay, coming.”
She then walks down the stairs with her pink pajamas and her wet hair. She looks so beautiful, especially with her hair down. She should be with her hair down more often.
“Mmm smells good”
“Here you go, your favorite Katsudon”
“Omg, I love you so much, Acchan.” She says and kissing me on the cheek.
I look away so she couldn’t see my red cheeks. My heart hurts when I hear those words, because she doesn’t feel the same love I feel for her. Don’t say that, Minami. You don’t know how much it hurts.
“How is it, Minami”
“Ah, oshii, Atsuko. You are a great cooker. You will be a great girlfriend”
“Don’t lie. I’m not that great of a cooker”
“No. It’s true. Whoever you date, will be a lucky guy.”
Right after I heard those words a tears falls from my eye. I try to hide it because I will only make her worry and I really don’t want her to worry about me.
“Atsuko. Are you ok?”
“Yes, Minami. I’m ok, eat your food.”
“No, you are not okay, you are crying. Did I do something wrong?” she said while whipping my tears from my cheek.
“No, no. You didn’t I just can’t hold it anymore.”
“What’s wrong. You know you can tell me everything. We are best friends, remember?”
No don’t say that. I don’t want to be your friend, Minami. I want to be more than you friend. I want to be you lover. I started to cry. I just couldn’t keep it in me anymore. I want to tell her how I feel. I want to tell her I want to be more than her friend. I know she will probably reject me. But keeping this feeling in me hurts more..
“Minami. I’ve been keeping a secret from you.”
“What is it, Atsuko.”
“I’m such a coward. And you might hate me for what I’m about to say.”
“Atsuko, you are not a coward and I will not hate you. I couldn’t hate you. You know that”
“We’ve been together for 6 years now. And I’ve always……” I started to cry even more. I couldn’t speak I was so nervous and scared.
“Calm down, Atsuko. You don’t have to tell me if you don’t want to.”
“No I have to. It’s tearing me apart. I have to tell you what I feel”
“I don’t understand. What are you talking about?”
“Minami, I have always loved you. Since the day I saw you at the audition. I love you. I love you more than a friend. I want to be your lover. I want to with you forever.” tears rolling down my eyes.
“Eh, Atsuko. Are you serious? Don’t joke around with stuff like this.”
“No. I’m not kidding. I love you, Minami. Please believe me.”
She looks so shocked. She looks down and looks like she is going to say something. My heat is beating so fast. I feel like I’m going to die if she rejects me.
“Atsuko……” she said with a sad face . Now I really regret telling her, she is going to hate me.
“Atsuko, I’m sorry. I can’t accept your feelings. I love you too, but only as a friend and nothing more."
“Why, Minami? Why can’t you love my back?
Something snapped in me. I just couldn’t accept her rejection. I love her so much and I want her. I want her mine…
“I’m sorry, Atsuko. I’m really sorry.”
“Minami..”
I start to move closer to her. “I love you, Minami”. Then I move close and closer and now our lips are only inch away. “No, Atsuko. Don’t”. She steps back, but I wrap my arms around her waist. She couldn’t move anymore. “Atsuko..Don..” She couldn’t finish her sentence because I sealed her lips. I kiss her. I can feel her warm, soft lips. But she doesn’t respond my kiss. Then turn my head to the right so I could kiss her easier. I play with her lips. I suck her upper lip then I slowly open my mouth and I try to put my tongue in her mouth. But she still doesn’t respond the kiss. She closes her mouth so I couldn’t put my tongue in her mouth. Then I break the kiss and look in her eyes but she looks away. I turned her face to face me. And then I forced her to open her mouth so I could kiss her passionately. I don’t want to do this. I know she will hate me but I want her to become mine. I push her down and now I’m lying on top of her. I kiss her again and break it and look in her eyes again. She is crying. “Please, Atsuko. Stop. I don’t love you” I couldn’t bare it. It hurts like hell. “I’m sorry, Minami. I can’t stop. I love you and I want you mine. I said as I star to kiss her again. She still doesn’t respond the kiss. She tries to escape but I push her really hard to the ground. I kiss her chin and then move down to her neck. I lick it, kiss it. “Stop, Atsuko. Please..” I hold both of her hands so she couldn’t escape. With my other free hand I start to unbutton her top. I touch her stomach and move my hand up and squeeze her breast. Although they are small I could feel their warmth. It’s so nice. “I love you.” I say as I star to undo her pink bra. ”Atsuko. Please stop. I don’t love you. There is someone else I love.” I stopped all of my movements and looked her in the eyes. She looks so sad and scared. I started to understand what big mistake I have made. “ I’m really sorry, Minami. Please forgive me.” I’m such an idiot. I’ve hurt her so much. What did I do?
“Please, Minami. Don’t hate me.”
“I told you I could not possibly hate you. But I won’t ever forgive you.
“Minami. Don’t say that. You don’t mean it, right?”
“I do mean it. I don’t want to see you again.”
She got up and changed her clothes. She put on her shoes and left. And I’m just sitting on the floor and crying. She loves someone else…..
“Minami. I’m sorry.”
TBC
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