Sayamilky OS : Your Answer is…?
Truth to be told, Sayaka never feel this complicated as ever in his whole 23 years old life. Life could be good and challenging sometimes, but he never did feel this confuse and afraid of making a choice for his whole life. As he believe life never been a complicated, the humans are the blame for it. It is our own choice to choose what we want to do, people always have an option, good or bad who knows.
But right now, all his brain system and heart agree the only complicated one is thing called Love. If only.. yes… if only… Sayaka know that things will never be the same when he meet with the certain girl back then.
Yamamoto Sayaka, the famous member of boy band, is now facing a dilemma. He is afraid, yes the great Yamamoto Sayaka is afraid, afraid of giving his heart to certain cute girl, that always greet him with a smile. A smile that can make your trouble goes away.
If only the certain girl feel the same with him, things won’t be that difficult Sayaka thought. if only… but what can he do, there is nothing he can do today, he also don’t have any mood to do anything plus his band practice is being canceled today.
Yui : Sayaka, if you sighing again I will really smack your head. I think you just need to go home today. You really don’t have any mood for band practice.
Jun : yeah, his mood really is running the whole practice. Can we just stop now? We have been training like heel this recently.
Yui : No way! we will have our performance in next week, do you think I will let all of you slip from the training?! Moreover our mismatch schedule, we have little time to practice!!
Jun : but.. we have been practice really hard, and I think we will be okay in next week live. pretty please… leader sama (puppy eyes attack)
Yuuma : well, I think you just want to have some break, and have your time together with Matsui Rena right? I have an info that today she is at Tokyo, having some work from Yuki. That why you have been finding some excuse to used so that you can asked her for a date right?
Jun : once again, Detective Yuuma, you are correct. I still wonder how come you can read me like an open book, my dear friend.
Yuuma : heh, it is just on my blood to have a great observation skill (smirk)
Jun then whisper to Yuuma something
Jun : and can you help me to find a way out from this hell ? I really need to see my angel. Pretty please, we hardly meet each other.
Yuuma : what the deal?
Jun : urgh!! I will buy you one week meal..?
Yuuma : you know, the CD of new Anime song I really like one? They will have a sales and it is really a limited edition… and I
Jun : okay, okay deal. I will buy it for you. You really know how to make me broke. You know Rena also want that song right? (pout)
Yuuma : deal. (giving Jun innocent smile).
Yuuma then talked to Yui, Yui have a frown on his face, but soon he face went white as soon as Yuuma mention about Shimazaki Haruka. Yuuma return to his position with a smirk in his face, giving OK signal to Jun.
Yui :fine, we will practice again tomorrow, and right now we will have a little break.
Jun : really? Yatta!! you are the best Leader sama. I will bring my 200% energy tomorrow.
Yuuma : I will also meet with Yuki, so don’t bother to find me today. I don’t want anybody to ruin my date with her.
end of flash back
When he is in daze there a line on his phone.
“ I hear from Yui, your band practice is canceled right? I meet him just now, he is picking Haruka chan.”
Sayaka look at the Line ID and sigh… talked about devil he though
Line conversation :
”S : Yeah, we canceled it today, so no band practice until tomorrow.”
“M : great, so… I just think do you have spare time right now? I just wondering if we can practice together…? For our next filming...”
Sayaka paused himself from texting, as a perfectionist person, he really like to have everything done or better. He aim for the best on everything he do. He has a quick flashback on the day when he met with the certain girl, the girl called Watanabe Miyuki
As he is being famous, he was offered by the famous director to work with him in his next drama. And Sayaka agree with him, and In that drama he will be the leading actor, and now he is working with Watanabe Miyuki, she is the new idol who is famous. Same with Sayaka they both are newbie in acting who have they name become famous recently.
As Sayaka working with her in their new drama, he started to know her little by little, sure she is cute and pretty but not only because of that he fall in love with her, her great personality and kindness are one of the things that Sayaka like about her. And because of that, they become friend with each other, Sayaka also think that talking with Miyuki bring him so much fun, he really find Miyuki easy to talk with. Sayaka know he has feel something about her, but he is just too stubborn to admit that Miyuki already win his heart. He think that his feeling is just an admiration, not love.
another notification come again, and it snapped Sayaka from his day dreaming. He look at his phone, and now his heart beating so much.
“M : so, what do you think about that?.... I will be waiting at my apartment if you don’t mind.. since it is near with your band practice.”
“S : okay, sure. I will come around 30 minute”
Sayaka now is standing at Miyuki’s front door, as he stopped a bit before he knocked the door. few minutes later, he hear a foot step and when the door opened he is stunned by the girl. Miyuki is wearing her usual clothes, and she decided to let her hair loose, looks like she just come from shower. As Sayaka can see her hair is a bit wet. As for Sayaka, the view of Miyuki right now is attempting. He is in daze before she hear Miyuki giggle looking at him.Sayaka thought
I must be look like stupid, standing in there.
Miyuki : come in, please make yourself at home. (giggle)
Sayaka : ah.. shitsureishimasu…
Miyuki : please sit down and make yourself at home.
Sayaka and Miyuki then practice their line together, since each of them are professional, they somehow have memorize all the script already, and they don’t find any difficulties, until when in the drama two of them started to date each other and have a quite romantic scene. Sayaka find it is very difficult for him to stay on his logic, his heart beating very fast because of the closeness, he need to close their gap by faking kissing her, and the sweet smell from Miyuki didn’t help at all.
Sayaka hand is trembeling as he touch Miyuki shoulder, this shouldn’t be happened because in the main character are the person with very high confident, and he need to kiss her confidently, as in the woman in the drama is the shy one. Right now on the contrary of that, Sayaka can’t help himself from this feeling. This is really the first time, he been this close with Miyuki.
Sayaka : urgghh.. I am sorry, but I can’t!!
Miyuki then opened her eyes and look at Sayaka again. She give him a smile and telling him that it is okay to redo the scene. But Sayaka doesn’t miss a hint of disappointed from Miyuki eyes. He wondered why, may be because of his lack of acting..
Sayaka : I am really sorry
Miyuki : it is okay, but I never know the lady killer like you will be nervous when kissing a girl.
Sayaka : lady killer? who? me?
Miyuki : yes, most of the article and show called you with that name. don’t you know that? because you are the only boy from your band who doesn’t show interest in any certain girl. Rumors said that you have been dating a lot of girls, and never really into them.
Sayaka : that.. that not true! I never date any girl. The management just make up story that I have been dating before. They said that I have some kind of bad boy image.
Miyuki : Really?! so… you never fall in love with somebody?
Sayaka : un.. so.. I am sorry, I don’t really know how to imply myself in that situation.
Miyuki : well let’s practice, shall we?
Sayaka : practice?
Miyuki then come closer and hug Sayaka. Her action make Sayaka surprised, he doesn’t know what to do until he decided to hug her.
what should I do.?! what should I do?! Oh my god!! she is so close to me, and I can feel her warm body on me, her smell are so nice, should I hugged her too?
as I try to hug her back, somehow I feel relax. just until now, I feel like my heart and mind are going to explode. but as soon as I hug her, I have a mixed feeling, I feel calm and peace. I … feel happy
end of pov
Miyuki then withdraw herself and look at Sayaka, she give him, her sweet smile before giggle again
Miyuki : so, do you feel relax now?
Sayaka : un… but I don’t think I can do the kissing scene now…. I think we should end the training, I a bit tired.
Miyuki : it is okay, take your time, we still have three more weeks before the kissing scene take part. beside, I need to prepare for another job, I will have a photo shot today.
Sayaka : this late?
Miyuki : un, we need to take the night scenery
Sayaka : souka, be careful not to overdo yourself, Miyuki san.
Miyuki : un, I will
As Sayaka is ready to leave, Miyuki stopped him.
Miyuki : Say… Sayaka kun…
Sayaka : nani?
Miyuki is a bit nervous and she blushed a bit which made Sayaka think that she is really cute.
Miyuki : I just wondering… what do you think of me… ah.. nandemonai… just forget about what I talked about just now.
Sayaka : it is okay, to tell you the truth I also don’t know, I think I admired you. You really have a great talent on acting, and you act very professional. I don’t know how you are able to do it, but you really make my heart beat so hard just know with your act, when we practice that kissing scene.
There is a awkward pause between them. As Sayaka curse himself, how come he said that kind of thing, since they are not even a couple. They are just a friend who work together. Sayaka has his face very red, but he doesn’t notice that Miyuki also have a red face, she is flustered of what he said, before she try to regain her composure and smile sweetly at Sayaka.
Miyuki : thank you…
and before Miyuki close her door, she called Sayaka one more time, she give him a kiss on his cheek before whisper to him
Miyuki : although part of it, I really mean it.
Sayaka is in high spirit in this past week, and after their concert end, it is his time to focus with his drama with Miyuki. He read the script again, he is at his dorm right now, along with Jun and Yui. Yuuma have another recording with Kashiwagi Yuki, one of the top singer in Japan right now. As Yui is reading some books, Jun is watching the television. As he change the channel, one of the news caught Sayaka’s attention.
Watanabe Miyuki has been spotted go out with Kinoshita Momo, they are spotted to met in the fine restaurant after the photo shot two weeks ago, and there are photos of them hugging each other before they went to their own separate way. Moreover Kinoshita Momo declare that he will have Miyuki as his lover. They looks like a perfect couple for this year.
Jun : woah.. they look good on each other, don’t you think so Yui, Sayaka?
Sayaka : I am going to have a little walk before I go to shot the drama today.
Yui : that is one scary face for you.
Jun : nee Yui, what happened with Sayaka today? He seems very pissed of something. Did I miss something?
Yui : well, I guess that Baka will realize something soon (smirk)
Jun : Huh? what do you mean?
Yui : ara… looks it is time for me to pick Haruka. I will be going first.
Jun : Yui han!! don’t leave me hanging like that, I also want to know what happened with Sayaka (pout)
Sayaka didn’t really want to met Miyuki right now, after he hear about the news, he have a mixed feeling, he feel angry, disappointed, and sad. But what can he said, as on today schedule they will meet each other due to work circumstance. They are having some photo shot and interview to promote their new film.
The whole photo shot is a hell for him, as he need to have close skin ship with certain girl, to make worse, his heart can’t stopped beating so fast, it make him feel really nervous, his whole body feel tense and the photographer need to redo things because he been acting very awkward.
“Yamamoto san, this is not good. I really need your cooperation, please relax your muscle. We will have a break first. After this we will continue the photo shot. ”
Sayaka : hai.. I am sorry, I will.
Sayaka then go back to his room, not knowing that somebody have followed him from behind. Sayaka now is in the deep thought, he began to talk to himself, as he feeling really frustrated.
Sayaka : sigh… what happened to me?! This is so wrong! I hate this feeling… what have you done to me Watanabe Miyuki…
“what have I done?”
Sayaka surprised of what he hear, Watanabe Miyuki is now standing not far from the door. Her hand is folded, looking straight at Sayaka.
Sayaka : no.. nothing… what are you doing here? I thought we have our free time now?
Miyuki : hm… yes we do have our free time, and why? Can’t I come to your room?
Sayaka : no, that not the problem here, but… people will start gossiping about us…
Miyuki : what wrong with that? I am fine with it.
Sayaka : what?! … souka, so you are fine with whatever man huh?
Miyuki : what do you mean?
Miyuki then come closer and now standing in from of him. They have staring contest, and Sayaka feel Miyuki feel hurt by what he has said. But, as he also feel hurt inside, he need to clarify things with her, or not he won’t be able to work properly. As he can’t stand it anymore, he blur out what he has been thinking.
Sayaka : aren’t you dating with Kinoshita Momo san? and now you said you are okay with everybody think us as couple? That is wrong!
Sayaka can’t help it when he said the last word with a bit higher tone, but as Sayaka finish his word, he feel surprise, that tears are falling from Miyuki eyes. Miyuki quickly wipe her tears away, and walk away from him.
Sayaka is back from his work early, as they canceled the photo shot, since Miyuki said that she feel sick, the photographer also agree since he said he need to prepare few thing and fix some of his theme for them.
As he come back to their dorm, there is no body expect Yui. He is reading a book, and without closing his book he talk to now sulking Sayaka. Between all of them, Sayaka always find Yui a better companion than other members. He doesn’t know why, but he feel like he can trust Yui every time he have problems or secret he need to share with.
Yui : so what happened to you? Mind to tell me few things? I am all ear.
Sayaka : well… I don’t know either. Now, I hate myself.
Yui : with many other girls and boys dream to dating and be like you? (chuckle) you need to feel more grateful you know. The great Yamamoto Sayaka is now facing a dilemma?
Sayaka : quiet mocking me (sigh) I don’t understand girl and I hate myself for being a jerk.
Yui : well, sometimes, boys do something stupid. But that doesn’t mean that we are being a jerk here, you just become a jerk if you let the thing hanging and run away from the problem. Haruka sometimes mad at me too, but I never let her mad at me for too long. Girls can be difficult, they have different mindset from us boys, but that doesn’t mean that we can’t understand them, we just need to try.
Sayaka : … and how if the situation is not as what we expected? I am afraid of rejection Yui, and now I am hated I don’t think I deserve for her.
Yui : well, why don’t you trust your gut? You know what? Girls like to give hints to people they love.
Sayaka : you know what Yui? Thanks a lot. Now I fell better after talking to you.
Miyuki didn’t believe of what she has see. God must hate herself so much. Now, standing in front of her door is none other than Kinoshita Momo. The last person she wish to see. Smiling proudly as usual, he try come inside even without Miyuki invite him to. He then sit in her sofa and putting the banquet to the table.
Miyuki : Kinoshita kun, what bring you here?
Momo : I heard from you manager that you finish your job, and doesn’t feel well. So.. I bring you some fruits and flowers.
Miyuki : that so nice of you. Thank you, you are so kind.
Momo : I know, you don’t have to thank me for that babe, that is what I must to for you.
Miyuki try to ignore what she just heard about, by trying to find another excuse. And she is giving a mental note to punish her manager later on.
Miyuki : ara.. but I am so sorry, I have another plan for today. I do feel a bit tired, but I have promise a friend to go out today.
Momo : who is that?
Miyuki : that… (God, anybody..please help me…)
As giving an answer of what Miyuki been prying of. There is a bell sound, and Miyuki go to open the door. To her surprise, Sayaka is now standing in front of her door.
Sayaka : eh.. hi… I know this is so sudden, but do you mind if we have a dinner together tonight? I…
Before Sayaka finish his word, he see Momo inside Miyuki’s apartment.
Sayaka : ah.. I am sorry if I interrupt your time together. I will take my leave now.
But, to his surprise, Miyuki held his hand and they eyes met for a moment. Sayaka really believe that Miyuki seems troubled. Should he trust his gust?
Sayaka : Miyuki, what wrong?
Miyuki : Kinoshita san just visit me because he think that I am sick. Don’t tell me you are forget about our date.
Momo : da… date?!
Miyuki then giving a hint for Sayaka to play along. Miyuki then held Sayaka hand lovingly.
Miyuki : that right, today I having a date with Yamamoto Sayaka san. I didn’t tell my manager about this.
Sayaka : yes right, we are planning to have a dinner together.
Sayaka also round his hand around Miyuki’s shoulder. He looks like her boyfriend now.
Momo : well, mind if I join you guys? I also haven’t eat dinner yet.
Sayaka : no you can’t. I am sorry, but I just booked for two people. Miyuki, please prepare yourself, I will waiting for you. Now if you excuse us.
Sayaka and Momo having a staring contest at each other, they looks like ready to fight in any minute, and as if Momo still want to declare that he still have a chance with Miyuki and provoke Sayaka. He held Miyuki hand and kiss her hand gently.
Momo : fine, please contact me again babe. It a fun night back then. (smile sweetly at Miyuki)
As Momo is leaving, the room fill with silent again. Things been awkward between them, and with this, Sayaka doesn’t know where to start. His mind feel in complicated things.
Miyuki : ano… Sayaka kun… there is nothing between me and Kinoshita san. We are just a mere friend, nothing more. So… Sayaka kun, tell me what are actually purpose to come here? Does that just for asking me for dinner?
As if she know what am I thinking about. She just explain things for me even without I asking about things between them. Does this mean it is okay for me to stay with her? Think Sayaka! Think! Like Yui said, maybe… maybe she is giving me a hint?
And I also own her a sorry, I have made her cry and I hate to admit it, but yes. I feel jealous, by seeing them together really make my heart boil so much. it bring pain to my heart. I confirm my feeling once again, thanks to this incident. Now, I am sure that I love this girl. She asking me as if she is waiting for me to say it.
Stupid me, for denying my feeling for her. I bring pain not for myself but to her as well.
End of POV
Sayaka : Miyuki san, I come here to ask for forgiveness.
Miyuki : of what?
Sayaka : for judging you having a relationship with Kinoshita san,saying awful thing and I am sorry for yelling at you back then.
Miyuki : do you have anything to say anymore?
Sayaka : I… yes, I do.Sayaka thought
Now or never, I must tell her. This is my chance, I am just stupid not to realise thing sooner.
Sayaka then move closer to Miyuki, and place both of his hand on her shoulder. He is looking at her eyes and he can see that Miyuki is still waiting for him to say it.
Sayaka : I love you, Watanabe Miyuki. Will you be my girlfriend?
Miyuki smile brightly and throwing herself to Sayaka, hugging him. There a tear form in her eyes, but Sayaka believe that is a happy tear. He wipe away her tears gently, and slowly closing the gap between them. They started with a gentle kiss, before Miyuki try to tease him by asking for access to his mouth, Sayaka soon giving her the access, and they kiss become more and more bolder, as Sayaka pinned her in the wall and Miyuki is trying to make their gap closer by hugging him by neck. They kiss until they run out of air, both are looking at each other still attaching their head together.
Sayaka : say..Miyuki..I haven’t got my answer yet.
Miyuki : I love you too, Sayaka kun. The end