Yep finally I've finished it
I'm open to any constructive criticism and I hope you will enjoy this XDThe title and the end of the story were inspired by Reina's parts from Joshi Kashimashi Monogatari 3
Ichiban
I’m so pathetic, standing here in the corner of this room, and gazing at her. Even though we have a break she is still practicising. God, she is so beautiful....so hot...so damn sexy...How I would like to touch her...kiss her...and...No! Stop it! Reina you freak! You musn’t think like this. She may be all sexy and hot on stage, but offstage she is totally pure and innocent, moreover she is your leader now.
I wonder if she has ever kissed. Probably yes, she is already 21. After all, even innocence has its borders. But I bet she is still a virgin. Well, at least I think so. She is, right? She must be! I mean, come on with whom would she do that? With Gaki? Yeah right, not even in a million years. However...they are very close to each other, maybe even closer than I’ve thought. Damn you Niigaki if you’ve touched her I swear you will regret it...Gah! What am I thinking? It’s none of my business. I’m such a perv. But I can’t help it. I want her. I want her so much that it hurts sometimes. But I can’t tell her how I feel. She would hate me for sure and that’s the last thing I want her to do. Guess there is nothing I can do about it. I’ll just stay here, admire her and imagine how nice it would be to...Oh just stop it Reina!
Dammit she is coming here! What should I do? What should I...Ok stay calm. It’s alright, just act normal as nothing has happened. Wait! That’s right, nothing has happend! I’m starting to lose my mind...
“Is everything alright?” She asks, placing her hand on my shoulder.
“Yeah” I mutter out as I come back to reality.
“Is there something you want to tell me?”
“Eh?!”
What’s up with this question? Has she been reading my mind?
“Me? Tell you? No, no, no. Why do you think I have something to tell you?”
“Well, you’ve been staring at me for over 10 minutes with that look like I’ve done something horrible to you and now you want to kill me for that.”
Wait, how did she notice me? Oh right, she saw my reflection in that big mirror in front of us. Great. Did I really have that kind of expression? I should be more aware of myself.
“Besides everyone has already gone to the cafeteria only you’ve stayed. So I thought that maybe you want to talk.”
Oh crap, she is right everyone has left. I was so lost in thought that I didn’t even realize that.
“Uh...mhmm...ano...eto...”
Come on, think Reina! Come up with something.I was just gazing at you and imagining how great it would be to make out with you...No! That’s a bad idea!
“Ai-chan~!” A scream from behind interrupts my mumbling.
It’s Gaki. I’ve never been so happy to see her in my entire life.
“Ai-chan,” she sounds angry.
Damn you Risa! How dare you be angry with my Ai-chan!
“How many times I have to say when it’s break, it’s break! You will get overworked.”
Yeah that’s right! Good point Gaki-san!
“She is right.” I agree sheepishly.
Ai gives me a suprised look. She opens her mouth to say something, but Risa grabs her hand and pulls her out of the room.
“Come on, you have to eat something.”
They walk away, hand in hand leaving me behind. I feel anger boils up in me as I clench my fists. Damn you Niigaki! Why haven’t you invited me too, huh?
* * *
Practice ended at 6:00 o’clock and we could head back to the hotel. The day after tomorrow our tour starts and everyone are excited about it. Especially LinLin and JunJun as this is their first tour with us. And first with Ai as a leader...
I shut the door behind me, but I can still hear Sayu’s and Eri’s giggling in the corridor. They wanted me to join some kind of stupid game. I said that I wasn’t in the mood and left them. They weren’t disappointed tough. To be honest they seemed to be quite pleased with my refusal. I know that they want to be alone. Well, whatever, I don’t care.
I drop my bag in the corner and take a quick shower. I eat something since I haven’t had lunch. Somehow I lost my appetite after I’d seen Ai and Gaki together. I lie down on the bed. Staring at the ceiling Ai comes to my mind. I’m imaginig the two of us on the stage in front of a huge crowd. She is slowly coming up to me. Our faces are just inches away from each other. She grabs my chin and...
“Holy shit Reina! What’s wrong with you! Pull yourself together!” I mutter to myself.
Knock...knock...“Come in.” I say not even taking my eyes off the ceiling.
“Mhmmm...ano... Reina…”
“Ai-chan!” I stand up immediately.
What is she doing here? I mean doesn’t she suppose to be with Gaki?
My leader shuts the door and looks at me uncertainly, bitting her lower lip.
“I wanted to talk with you.”
“Hai... “ I smile and pat the space beside me.
She sits down. God, she has such a beautiful eyes.
“Tanaka...”
Tanaka? Certainly not a good start of the conversation.
”Are you mad at me?”
Mad at you? Mad about you, yes, but not mad at you.
“No, why?”
“Because lately you’ve been acting strange around me. Either you avoid me or give me those creepy Yankee looks.”
Oh great Reina! You are really i-chi-ban. You’ve made her think that you hate her.
“No, I’m not mad at you...”
I’m just crazy about you...Baka! Stop it! I want you like hell...Baka! I have those perverted dreams about you...Baka! I want to jump on you and just...
“BAKA!!!” I scream right into her face.
“...”
She looks at me with her brown eyes wide open as if I’ve just lost my mind. Hell, yes, I am insane!
“I--uh...BAKA ne, BAKA ne, BAKA ne, doushite ano ko ni torarechau no BAKA ne yappa namida ne...” I fall silent.
Her expression hasn’t changed. She hasn’t even blinked. Great performance Reina...
“You know I really like this new song. I’ve been singing it all day.”
Have...Have I really said that just now? Oh my God! Am I turning into Eri or something?
However, Ai doesn’t seem to be so worried about my mental state as she begins to giggle.
“Mou~ Reina you are so funny.” She pats my head causing me to feel like an idiot. ”So you aren’t mad at me?”
“No. Of course not.” I assure her blushing. ” I may be a little bit nervous and stressed. You know it’s our first tour with LinLin and JunJun and without Yossy as a leader...“
Soon after I said those words I started to regret them. I really must have gone mad...
“Oh, I see. Guess I’m not the best leader then... “ She says, hanging her head down.
But I get a glimpse of saddness that fills her eyes. Last time she looked like that when Yossy was graduating. I’m such a jerk.
She stands up. I’ve never wanted more to tell her how I feel than I want now. To tell her that I really, really love her.
Aishiteru Ai-chan!
She is about to leave when I finally pluck up the courage and grab her arm.
“Ai...“ She turns around, our eyes meet.
She is trying hard not to cry. I truly hate myself in this moment.
“Ai...araba it’s all right.”
No! Not again! I can’t belive this! Reina you fool!
Ai looks down on the floor and starts to.... giggle?! Minute ago she was totally depressed and now she is giggling gleefully?! Sometimes I just don’t understand this girl but I guess it doesn’t matter as long as she isn’t crying.
“Mou~ Reina, you should rest. You are overworked.” She places a palm on my forhead to check if I have a fever.
Well, she should touch my cheeks then she would know that I have one.
“No I mean it this time.” I state firmly.
“Ee?”
Obviously she doesn’t understand what I mean. Well, even I am not sure what I mean.
“If there is You everything is all right.” I say embarressedly, looking into her eyes.
“Oh...“ She blushes slightly. “But that song supposed to be about love right? As long as there's love, it's all right.”
“Yeah, but it sounds equally good when we assume that Ai is you.” I grin because of this crazy play on words.
“Look, what I said before I didn’t mean it that way. You are a great leader. You are reliable, responsible and professional and...“
Damn hot and sexy. Shit Reina! Not now!
”And...I like you very much” I blurt out.
Her cheeks are bright red now which I find really cute and...Ekhem! Oh right not now.
I didn’t realize it but I’m also flushing like mad.
“Maybe you’re right.” I break the awkward silence. “I am a bit tired I haven’t been sleeping well lately.”
Yeah, no wonder since every night I watch your Alo-Hello DVD and look through your photobooks imagining many things about you and me. Gah, I’m disgusting!
“So I may talk nonsense, but I promise to rest properly.” I gently stroke her warm cheek. “We need you Ai. I need you so...don’t you ever give me that sad look of yours.”
She touches my palm and hugs me tightly as she bursts into tears. I wrap my arms around her back returning the hug. I can feel her breath against my neck, her tears are falling on my shoulder.
She has changed since she became the leader. She became stronger and more confident. However, somewhere deep down she still was that shy and vulnerable girl who always was relying upon Yossy or Miki. Well, she wasn’t supposed to be a next leader at first, but then Miki screwed up, and she didn’t have much of a choice. She still seems to be a little bit scared and uncertain about this whole situation. I’ve never thought about how this past weeks must have been stressful and hard for her. And apparently, she couldn’t show her weak side to her sub-leader. She probably thinks that Gaki is relying on her too much and she can’t let down her expectations which is of course absurd. After all, Risa is her best friend, but Ai-chan has strange ways of thinking and to be honest I don’t have anything against it. I am happy that she has choosen my shoulder to cry on. After all, I’m also her friend and...I love her.
Suddenly, she stops sobbing and realses her grip. I look into her beautiful wet eyes, softly wipe the tear off her cheek and I don’t know why, maybe some kind of demon possesed me or something but...God forgive me...I kissed her lips.
My heart is pounding like mad. I am mad! What on earth am I thinking?
She stares at me, I look down, again my face is changing its colour I want to hide somewhere far away from her.
“Gom...” I begin, not making an eye contact, but she takes my chin with her index finger, her head comes closer and if my heart have been bouncing like mad before then now it is just about to jump out of my chest.
I’ve imagined this kiss so many times and now when it’s actually happening I don’t know what to do. It is so surreal. Takahashi Ai is kissing me?! No freaking way! But she is kissing me...
She slips her tongue to my mouth, wraps her arms around my waist and presses our bodies together.
Wait, I thought that the demon possesed me not her!
Suddenly, she breaks away from my lips and looks into my eyes like she wants to read my mind, to make sure that I’m enjoying this. Surely, the feeling of excitment and enjoyment is written all over my face so she smirks. Ok now seriously, where have Takahashi gone and in whose arms am I now? Does she has split personalities or something?
Well, whatever the truth is she turns me on like hell...
She must be aware of that fact since a few seconds later I’m lying on my bed and she is climbing on top of me. We start to kiss passionately. My hand intuitively goes up under her shirt and strokes her back. Meanwhile her hands are wandering around my body. She is gentel yet so impatient as she begins to undress me.She reaches my pants and unzips them. She is, well let say pretty skillful.
Damn you Niigaki! How will you explain this? She was practicising with you, huh?!
But guess it doesn’t matter now, does it?
I pull her closer into me. Now she is mine and that only matters.
Her fingers tickle my tummy, my weak spot, I break off from the kiss and giggle. She smiles and strokes away a few hair strains out of my face. We’re looking into each others eyes for a while like we want to become more aware of the situation and to make sure this isn’t a dream. And when we made sure this is really happening, we continue...
My heartbeat increases swiftly, I feel her lips against my neck and soon after her fingers cross the line between my skin and my panties...
God I will never forget this night.
Snuggling into her arms I fall asleep...
* * *
I wake up just before the alarm clock goes off. I turn it off or else it’ll ruin everything.
Ai is lying next to me. The sunlight sneaks into my room from between the curtains and I can admire her in the full light. She is more beautiful then ever, plus she is bare naked.
I smirk at that thought.
It really happened. I’m so happy. I have this strange feeling of excitement running through the whole of my body. I want to scream out of the happiness, but of course I can’t it would wake her up.
Well, actually it’s too late, she wakes up by herself.
“Konnichiwa.” I greet her, grinning
“Ohayo.” She says and places a kiss on my forhead.
She rolls to her back, I lean my head against her shoulder, hug her arm and playfully rub it with my nose. She laughs, takes my palm and kisses it gently.
“Mmhmm...ano...“ I mumble shyly and lift my gaze to look at her. “May I ask you a personal question?”
After all, I have to be sure before I’ll kill Gaki...
“Sure.”
I pull the sheet to cover my face. She agreed, but when she will hear the question, she actually can slap me across the face. So it’s better to stick out only my puppy eyes.
“Have you done that before?” I flush lightly and Ai bursts into laughter.
“Like with whom?”
“Well, I don’t know...with Gaki?”
“With Gaki?” She asks in disbelief. “God Tanakacchi not all leaders and sub-leaders sleep with each other if you know what I mean.” She winks.
Right, even though Yossy and Miki had a fling it doesn’t mean that she and Gaki also have it. I needn’t have worried so much.
“So...Reina was first?”
She smiles kindly and nods.
“Yaay!!! Reina is ichiban!”
I scream pointing my index finger into the air. But as I realize that screaming something like that early in the morning isn’t the best idea I quickly hide myself under the sheet.
Ai pulls up the cover and sits up on my stomach. She puts her hands on either sides of my head.
“Yeah...you really are ichiban.” She whispers seductively to my ear.
Reina is ichiban and that’s already decided, nee Leader-sama?