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AKB48 Fanfics => AKB48 Fanfics => Topic started by: yuko on January 26, 2015, 08:28:42 AM
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CHAP 1
Atsuko POV
I never thought that things would be like this. All that has been my plan until today so messy, that all because of my own fault. I should not be that stupid, I should be more use my brain, but so be it. It seem like destiny toying. All that has been dreamed-that should be realized slightly longer-destroyed because of silly mistake I did.
I someone who always put perfection. Since the first should not be anything wrong with my life, everything has been planed it carefully. I work harder than other to be accepted to top university, I tried to keep my apperance to make it look attractive and get a lover of the above, I try harder than anyone else to be happy.
Since childhood I have always praised as beautiful and smart girl. During school I was popular in the eyes of my friend and also my teacher. I’m perfect. Everyone will look at me with a look of envy and adored. Once I finished school, I went to a famous university and date with handsome young man from rich family who is also my senior in college. My life as a princess in a fairy tale. Supposedly, like other fairy tales, my life was ended with the sentence ‘... Happily ever after’. Suppossed all goes according to plan.
A mistake I did changes everything into a very bad nightmare. This time I had delay from college, when I should be graduating next year. I also had to break up with my boyfriend who has a relationship with me for almost two years. Not only that, worse than that, I had to marry with someone who doesn’t love me and I also didn’t love him.
Both my parents were shocked when I and Kai decided to get married but they do not mind. If i may be honest, maybe compared to my parents, i was more surprised by this decision. I don’t love Kai. Not at all.
Me and Kai did it only once. We did it once, without love. At that time, we both were under the influance of alcohol and the next morning we couldn’t remember what had happened overnight. Happened that night was a big mistake in my life. One mistake that destroy my life and my dreams into pieces.
That night we make not only one mistake but two. We not just sex, we also do not secure, and to cover up mistake that ironically we cover it whit another error. Married. I and Kai married even though we didn’t love each other.
I don’t hate Kai, but i don’t love him too. We both just playmates since childhood. We’ve known each other a long time and do not love each other, that’s it! I always dreamed to be able to live a high life as a princess and Kai knew it. By marrying, all just a dream was shattered.
Kai doesn’t love me, of course, he had long knew and know what i really am. He never think of as a woman-as i never think of it as a man-if only night that we were not too drunk, this all would not have happened. We don’t love each other, but we should get married. How pathetic.
I had to break up with my boyfriend, rather he was furious and left me when he found out what had happened. There’s nothing i can do. I should be married with Kai. I know, Kai was very upset about this, but of course ha can’t blame me becuase this is an error that occured two people and both of us must take resposibility.
Our marriage lasted simple without a party. We registered our marriage in registry office without reception or honeymoon. We even did not anything on our first night. No dance or wine. Two of us quite traumatized after the incident that night and we have made an unwritten agreement that we shouldn’t not drink alcoholic beverages while being alone.
We combine all our saving for down payment of an apartment and live together even tough we were still sleeping in separated rooms. We don’t hate each other, before all these events our relationship is fine. Our first pretty good friend during school but now we got married just getting away. A marriage without love is being big mistake, but having sex without contraception with someone who does not love is also a mistake.
Sleeping with childhood playmates is one thing. Married to man who is not loved is also one other thing. But compared to both, there is one thing that still foreign to me : pregnancy.
I was carrying the child of my childhood playmates and it all seemed strange to me. I’m not so fond of small children and now there is a fetus in my stomach that slowly grows into baby from men who do not love. Kai and I do not need this child. I don’t love them.
I fall into the hole that is my own making. I’m only twenty-one years but I’ve been married and soon have a child. If only i had the courage to abort then i do not have to be stuck in this situation. We do not need to get married and Yuu doesn’t need to know that i had been betrayed. Unfortunately i was too afraid to do so.
“Toast again?!” Kai half muttered grumpily staring at his breakfast with frown on his forehead. He snorted see that i made breakfast for him this morning: a special toast-Atsuko style. Toast delicious savory butter coated..
“Don’t talk to much !” I snapped, pulling up a chair and sat down in front of him
“This baby kept kicking my stomach when i’m going to cook something. Try to feel yourself how to cook with baby in your belly. I’m not a kangaroo!”
Kai snorted. He looked at me in disgust,
“Don’t make a joke!” he said curtly
“Your pregnancy age just four months, which could probably kick your womb? Don’t fool biology teacher”
“Hah!” I replied sarcastically, “If you good biology teacher, you should not do stupid mistake like this,” I muttered as I poured coffee into my cup, “I know it’s your first experience, but you should learn a lot of porn. Do you know what a condom right?”
“Enough!” Kai stood with his face flushed restrain angry, he tightens his tie with annoyance, “If you’re already experienced, you should prepare the pill or other contraceptives! Just a stupid woman who let herself impregnated man who is not her lover without stop!”
“You think I cheap?” I threw my cup which is now almost empty on the table. Most contents splashed to tablecloth that i like. I stood and stared at Kai who stare back at me from the other side dinning table. I sigh and massaged my forehead.
“Come on, a virgin is boring. No wonder there is never a woman wants a relationship with you. If you had to sleep with ten woman, will probably be ten woman who would come to claim your responsibility.”
Kai pounded the table in front of me, surprised me.
“Enough!” he said with a face completely red. He walked away from the table, grabbing his coat with coarse.
“I’m leaving!” he still sounded angry, “I’ll be home late. Not dinner at home.”
He stepped out and closed the door violently.
I sighed and sat back in my chair, ‘at least he says he not going to have dinner at home, i didn’t not bother to cook.’
Incident this morning was my daily routine since we married. We always argue and fight, after a long time I was familiar with this situation. Although it seem a bit odd considering we were old friend first, after we got married just acting like a mortal enemy. Maybe, we just can’t accept the fact that we had to marry each other, not with the people who really we like. I have not been accustomed to live life as a housewife. Maybe I’ll never get used. I’ve always aspired to be a career woman, chores such as cooking and taking out the trash.
I snapped out of my reverie and immediately looked at the clock . I groaned when i saw the little hand was on number nine. Bad! I forgot that today is the day the garbage disposal!
In my neighborhood, the garbage disposal only once a week is Wednesday every week. Because do not want to trash ruffled crows then we can only put out garbage in the garbage disposal on the clock when garbage collection trucks come. if I did not manage to throw it today then it means I have to live with the garbage-trash this week for another week. Ugh.... I don’t want to think of it!
I pulled a large black plastic bag containing garbage from the kitchen. I took it out of the apartment with difficulty. Our room on the second floor so i had to go down the stairs with a big bag of trash, and it was not easy.
While half ran I prayed that I didn’t miss the garbage trucks. Painstakingly, I dragged the trash along the road to the place where the garbage collection garbage truck will be waiting.
“Ah, wait!” I shouted, trying to catch the truck started to leave.
“Wait!” I shouted again, dragging the garbage bag. Quite a long time I chased the truck until the truck driver was aware that a thin woman with a somewhat distended abdomen were running after the truck by dragging a large trash bag with a vengeance.
After successfully taking out the trash out the trash, I walked wearily back to my house. Since officially declared to contain, somehow slightest activity capable of making me tired. And also angry.
Hours as this is still quite crowded streets. I looked around. There are adults who go to the office, the children go to school, the student left for college... While I have to go back to the house. How ironic. The fate of the mother-housewife is like this. My world was boring. I was to young to get stuck in hell mothers.
If I try to think positive there may be some things that benefit the young married. While the other friend sleepy in class, listening to the lecture and the nagging thought of report that must be collected, I can relax at home. Lying in front of the TV while eating a bag of chips. Ah but I missed all my classes. I was a great candidate for attorney-my teachers always said so. I know I’m going to be a great lawyer. Unfortunately I have lost my chance and got stuck in this situation.
When I got home I looked around a little sadly. This is where I am now. Not in the classroom or behind a desk. I looked at my stomach, it is still not too big, but in three months I would have ballooned by container trucks. If so what else is left to me this?
I sighed and walked toward the kitchen. A cup of tea and a can of crackers seems to fit with my mood today...
TBC
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CHAP 2
Kai POV
When you hear the word “marriage” what comes to your mind? Feast? Sex? Cake? Family?
I looked at myself in the mirror reflection in the bathroom. Young male figure with frowning face staring at me from the mirror behind. The man’s face look some miserable with eyelids and the skin dull due to work related stress suffered in recent months. The young man in the mirror it was Takahashi Kai, myself.
I complained as he put on me. This morning I felt unwell but what may make me have to keep teaching. A few more week midterms, I have to finish some of the subject matter before next week. If I may be honest I never thought that being a teacher would be busy. I smoothed my blond hair and sighed. Initially I chose to become a teacher is because I think being a teacher looks fun, at the time the student holiday, the teachers were able to vacation and relax. It’s not like that. I was naive, since I’ve always miscalculated and failed. Even before my friends often call me a loser. I know they are right. So far there is not good thing that happened to me, including the marriage.
I looked at the figure of the man in the mirror again, her face looks like want to cry this time, so pity.
Let me introduce the man in the mirror, his name is Kai, early age of twenty years, since the fall of last year he taught at a private secondary school in tokyo, has been married with his childhood playmates and about to become father.
Father....
I shook my head. Although i am a teacher and often surrounded by children, i can’t imagine myself as a father. I mean, I love children and I love to play with them, but playing with the kids and have a child are two different things.
I straightened my clothes once more before he left the bathroom. Since growing up I was always thinking about marriage and starting a family. Since childhood I have been orphaned because of that I crave a warm and happy family. I did want a family-wife and children-but not this way.
I’ve dated few time before this but everything always ends up in matter of months. I was never doing more than merely a kiss with the woman who became my girlfriend at the time, not because I put a moral or follow a particular religious stream, but because previously there was never a suitable opportunity to do so. When then the opportunity came, I never thought that it would do with my childhood friend, Maeda Atsuko.
I’m not someone who is conscientious and always be careful in doing something. Often i make mistake, but only this time i did a fatal error. Mistake this time, can only repair by doing other error.
When you hear the word “marriage” what’s in your head?
Honeymoon?
I wrinkled my forehead while up in the kitchen. My wife, who also wrinkled forehead looked at me with a look of dislike, every morning she would me with her dislike face and it makes me feel very upset. She always treated me like an enemy. As if all happened was my fault alone.
What she had never heard the proverb “it take two people to dance”?
Before all this happened, much earlier, we were both quite familiar. We used to play together. I still remember the first Atsuko often play pretending to be a princess. Even now, she is still entangled with her obsession to become princess. That is one reasons why she was so upset by the fact that she has to marry me, because I’m not a prince who wanted.
Princess?
Give me a break.
“Toast again?” I half muttered, pulling up a chair in front of me and sat down. Atsuko did not like to cook but every morning she always prepares of toast for me. If it does not like to do should she not bother to make breakfast for me. Somehow I feel annoyed stare bread was slightly charred.
I heard my wife sighed.
“Don’t talk to much,” she said curtly, she looked me in disgust, “This baby kept kicking my stomach when I’m going to cook something. Try to feel yourself how to cook with a baby in your belly. I’m not a kangaroo!”
Again, she used her pregnancy as a shield. Silly reasons.
“Don’t make a joke!” I said with a tone that is slightlly higher that that I actually I mean, “your pregnancy age just four months, which may be able to kick your womb? Do not fool biology teacher.”
This morning ritual begins again, as usual, Atsuko always insulting me and threw me rant. I know she hates me and blame me for all that has happened, but even though I knew I was wrong and I was a man in our relationship, I still couldn’t prevent her word hurt me. Everyday she would issued rant insulting my dignity as a man, and every morning I would go to work anyway in anger.
Today I kicked off our dinning table to end our debate. I went off to school with mixed feeling. Women are one that always knows how to hurt my pride as a man.
I walked slowly toward the station. I left fifteen minutes earlier than it should. All of this because again Atsuko start fight with me. Know since when the shoulder length hair young sweet girl who lives next door to my house it grows into selfish woman who casually.
FLASHBACK
“Marry me”
She looked at me in disbelief.
That day we were sitting in a cafe near the station. Her face was pale and her eyes were swollen. Her voice trembled as she said for the first time to me. I know that maybe my decision to ask her to marry was a bit rushed. We both did not kid anymore, but we are still young. Although we’ve grown, but we still do not know how to solve the problem like this. I know I should think it through, but this girl sitting in front of me with quivering lips and pale face. I couldn’t leave it alone.
“Atsuko,” I said again, “marry me.”
END FLASHBACK
This marriage was mistake but to kill the baby and get on with life as if nothing happened is a mistake that much larger. I always wanted a family and now despite the unpredictable was I get a family. A little difficult, but actually slowly I fix everything. The child has the right to be happy. Although I didn’t love each other and Atsuko but I’m sure our children will always abudant love of both parents.
When you hear the word “marriage” what’s in your mind?
Family?
I want a family, this maybe initiated from a mistake but i wanted to try to build a family with Atsuko. I mean what I intend this but somehow every time I opened my mouth to start a conversation, she always responded with harsh words. That make my ears hot. Maybe Atsuko didn’t want to form family with me, I can’t force it, but still it feels all too depressing.
Unconsciously I took a deep breath and exhale.
“Takahashi-sensei, are you okay?
I looked up and saw a girl with long straight brown hair standing in front of me and looked me without expression. The uniformed girl put a stack of notebook on my desk. I smiled at her.
“Thank you Kojima-san,” I smiles, I just remembered that earlier before the clock expires lesson I asked her to collect notebook classmates and bring it to my office, “You can go home now.”
Although I allow her to go, she still stood there and looked at me, eyes that seemed to be able to read everything in my mind a little scared me. This girl is very pretty and have good personality but some time she can guess my thoughts as it scares me.
“Sensei okay?”
I nodded, a student who worrying her teacher sounds very sweet, “Of course, don’t worry, Kojima-san, I was just daydreaming..”
Then for no reason that can understand her face suddenly flushed, “ All right, then,” she said as she hastily bent, “You’ll excuse me, sensei.”
Before i could reply she was already running to classes left. Actually there rules that prohibit students to run in the corridors but I just smiled to see it. A girl like Kojima Haruna that could be flushed without reason looks very sweet.
Suddenly I remembered young shoulder length hair girl and for some reason I feel annoyed. Atsuko’s beautiful face, it’s just a pity behavior is not at all sweet. I glance at my watch, it’s six o’clock, the school building was already almost empty, only few student who are still following the sport club or art activities. For several days I went drinking with colleagues of other teacher after teaching but unfortunately today after the other teachers at the same time have their own affairs so inevitably I had to go home early. I don’t really like to drink because I am who easy to drunk. This marriage also came from a drinking event, because I’ve learned a lot in order to keep from getting drunk. I don’t like to drink but I don’t like to go home early too. Actually I don’t like being at home. I don’t like to have a fight with Atsuko, she doesn’t just hurt me but also my self-esteem.
I and Atsuko sleep in separate room. Every time I go home at night, Atsuko had locked herself in her room and not come out again until morning. Each day we only met in the morning at dinner table. For a new bride, of course, our relationship is classified as very sad, but so be it.
I don’t have nowhere else to go so I decided to go home. The journey from the station to the hour takes 8 minutes but I chose around the garden first. As much as possible I don’t want to get home quickly.
Red sky and raven fly back to their nests in some trees in this park. I bought a canned coffee drinks vending machine and sit on a park bench. After finishing my coffee, I’m going straight to home, so my intentions.
On the front there is a sand play area children, a boy who was playing was picked up by his mother to go home. The boy was about five years ols. His hands ware covered by sand hold his mother’s hand all the way home. With cheerful he tells what he did earlier in the day of his mother.
I smiled at the sight. Soon I will have a child. I will see my son learn to walk, then teach him to ride a bike and on Sunday we will play ball or just walk to the park. Boys could definitely be invited to play football or baseball. Maybe I’ll take him fishing. But if a daughter, i’ll take her out and bought ice cream for her. Without realizing I had a big smile. I want a family.
I stared at the empty cans of coffee
Fisrt of all, I have to try to make peace with Atsuko.
With hesitation I reached into my pocket and pulled out my cell phone. I dialed our phone number and then press the call keys. My heart beating faster as i hear the dial tone.
“Moshi-moshi, Takahashi residence here.”
Hearing the voice of Atsuko somehow my courage and my resolve a little torn. What if she laugh at me? What if she actually yelled at? My hands I used to hold the phone began to sweating. I couldn’t speak.
“Moshi-moshi?”
Atsuko began impatient. I swallowed hard to moisten the dry throat. These action probably wrong but if I don’t try I’ll never know.
“Moshi-moshi?”
“Uh, hello.. Atsuko, it’s me.. I’m going to get home.. Why do not we have dinner at outside?”
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CHAP 3
ATSUKO POV
We both opposite. A small table standards limiting family restaurant sat us both. His eyes had been fixed behind the a large glass window next to us which restricts us to outside world. I tried to trun to my cell phone. I refuse to start a conversation with him although I have to admit, it become more awkward with our mutual silence like this.
Oh may it be better if we were both silent , because if we talk then we likely have a fight. We are like that. It could be trigger slightest quarrel between us.
On the table between us there was a glass of strawberry milkshake is mine and hot cup of cappucino belongs to him. We equally have not touched our drink. Next hand riffling purple drink with straw, making a sound that I like.
If the other see we were just sitting quietly without taking to each other, even without looking at each other, waiting for orders, maybe they’ll think we as lovers in the middle of a fight. But when one of us start a conversation, and then provoke an argument between us.. From the way we fight, then most likely people will think we are a married couple who had been married long.
I sighed and wrinkled my forehead when a small indicator light blink indicating cell phone battery residual twenty percent. I turned off the phone and put it back into the pocket of a jackey that i wear.. I tried to distract the other things in the room. Not easy because there is nothing interesting in that room.
Secretly, I keep my eyes on the man sitting in front of me. His chin resting on his hand, his eyes still focused on the streets out there. Brilliant brown eyes appear slightly grayish tonight. His hair was little messy though this morning before leaving for work he had been smoothed. His face loke more mature. Know since when, whiny boy who lived next door to my house grew to be a man who.. Uh, good-looking?
Compared with Yuu calm and cool, of course, Kai is not nothing. Yuu, however, is the man of my dream. Unfortunately I could not marry him.
Since childhood, I never imagined that one day I will marry with Kai. Kai doesn’t look too bad when compared to the average Japanese man, but I want so far nothing on him.
I watched Kai face. Kai faced quite handsome if silent. It’s just that he almost never silent. The comments are always annoying flung me reluctant.
“sorry for wait”
I quickly turned away so that he didn’t realize my eyes when a waitress arrived wit our order.
“spicy curry rice, fries and beef burger,” said the waitress was cheerful while placing our order on the table , “enjoy the food”
I turned my attention to the dish containing my beef burger. When was suddenly called me and invited Kai eating out I was a little surprised. Since getting married, this is the first time he asked me to go to dinner outside. Although as I’d expected, which meant the dinner outside is in a family restaurant just few block from our apartment.
“enjoy your meal,” Kai muttered as he spooned his curry and began to eat.
I paused for a moment and looked at him. Unfortunately, he was aware of my eyes. Kai stop the movement , “what?”
I shook my head, “ah, nothing,” I muttered, grabbing a knife and fork to cut my burger, “Itadakimasu”
Back when I was still with Yuu, we always had dinner at an expensive restaurant and classy. Every time he would pick me up at my apartment with his car and took me to an expensive restaurant that often appear in life style magazine.
It will come with rose and opened the car door for me. Yuu didn’t talk much but he treats me like a princess. He doesn’t talk much but always listening. Occasionally he would chimed story with comments.
Yuu voice always made me feel comfortable around him. His hand were large and always feels cold remedy, each holding my hand.
I slapped my face hard in my mind. This time I was having dinner with my husband and I even recall memories with my ex-boyfriend. This time I have to admit that I was a little too far.
I don’t know exactly what the reason Kai suddenly took me out to dinner. Until last before he left for work, we still fight. Looks like his mood suddenly changed. I don’t understand what exactly planned, but if he wants to make peace, maybe i should just take it. After all, he is the father of the baby in my belly now.
“why you not eat that?”
I realized that since I had just cut up the meat on my plate without eating it. In front of me, Kai looked at me with a frown.
I sighed, normally I would throw bitter word that would then ignite a quarrel, but for some reasons this time I don’t want to quarrel with him.
“ah, I was just thinking,” I said, eating a piece of meat, “and now it is finished, I’m going to eat.”
Kai grunted but didn’t say anything to more. I think he was trying to avoid a fight with not say anything that will provoke debate.
“So..” I swallowed my food while trying to start a conversation, “how do at school today?”
Kai went on eating, “normal.”
We fell silent. Topics that I picked up was a few second second after I said.
“Uh..” this time he tried to start a conversation, “how in the house today?”
I frowned, thinking for a few second about how I should answer this question. Finally I just lifted my shoulders, “just like usually”
We were silent again and the atmosphere become awkward. I chew my food slowly because I felt so I wallowed my food I have to say something to start a conversation. We are newlyweds and we don’t have ideas for our talk, so pathetic.
“Uh, your stomach....”
I squinted to hear the word ‘stomach’ but didn’t say anything so that he could continue his words.
“looks like it’s getting bigger.”
I pursed my lips, don’t like to hear it, “you mean I’m fat?”
Kai raised both eyesbrows, stop the movement who want to feed the food to his mouth. “Fat? What you talking about? You’re pregnant, it’s natural if you gain weight, right?”
I wanted to beat the guy in front of me, “you mean I should not say anything insulted like this?”
“Insulted? I didn’t insult you!” Kai put the spoon in his hand back to the top of the plate, his face looks desperate, “Okay, I’m sorry. I didn’t want to fight this time. Okay?”
I still wrinkled my forehead but didn’t say anything more.
Kai sighed as I didn’t say anything else for two minutes.
“I just want to know about your condition and, uhh..our baby.”
My resentment started feeling a little fade whe he calls ‘our baby’, some how the words sounded wonderful in my ear.
“Umm, all fine , I said as he continued eating, sitting in front of me Kai nodded, “as you say, in the present age is not much I can feel”
“still sick?”
I nodded, “sometimes..”
The he didn’t ask anything more and we continued eating. In my heart I felt a little strange, talking about unborn condition with him like this is the first time and to my surprise, it feels very natural.
Maybe we can do something about our wedding.
“On Friday of this week,” I stop my movement when Kai come back to say something, I looked at him and our eyes met, “I’ll take off all day.”
I was silent, still don’t understand.
“We equally to the doctor to get checked your pregnancy.”
I blushed and something churning in my stomach.
He looked at me and smiled.
Ah, of course..
“all right,” I nodded. “I’ll call the doctor and make an appointment.”
Our wedding can still be saved.
TBC.
Sorry for my bad english. :bow: :bow: :sweatdrop:
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CHAP 4
KAI POV
Today, for the first time my wife and I sat at the table opposite and spend our breakfast without glaring at each other mutually. At least we are not shouting this morning. If you ask me, this is fairly rapid progress. I mean, just yesterday morning we were still shouting over backward to each other and try to refrain from strangling each other. Apparently, after dinner, we managed to reach an agreement in writing not to make peace with each other.
I believe, we can do something to save our marriage. We didn’t love each other, but that does not mean we can’t be friend right? However, before this incident was actually our friends quite well.
I feel happy, because at least the atmosphere in the house is better than ever. Once in a while I do have ti refrain heard her words fairly painful. But I think, as a man I have to be more restrained. Pregnant woman and her hormones are not the enemy explosion lightweight, better yield.
The conversation at the dinning table this morning were able to make me feel better. It was the second time we could speak well without yelling at each other after dinner the night before. This time it feels natural and light. I smiled remembering conversation.
“Sensei!”
When I woke up from reverie, my student laughing at me. My face immediately turned red when it hit me that I’d been daydreaming in the middle of schoolwork. My students were flushed cheering omissions d. I know I was wrong, day dreaming when I’m teaching is not to be proud of.
“daydreaming huh, Sensei?”
My students back tease. Since the beginning I was taught in high school of this country, my students do tend to often tease. Perhaps because of my age are not to far adrift upon them. Five or six years above they may still be considered too young.
I just laughed awry, scratching my back of my ear that doesn’t itch. I was in front of the biology lesson, waiting on my students who are busy doing exercise that I gave. I should not daydreaming.
“Sensei must have been filthy daydreaming !” said one boys brunette laughter from the class, “Sensei, it’s being middle hour lesson!”
“miss your wife, right sensei?”
Back laughter I could only laugh embarrassed.
“just because the newlyweds!”
I just smiled, “shut up! Go do your duty!”
My student still laughing but slowly they are busy with their respective duties. I looked all over the class until then my eyes met one student bluish long brown-haired woman with an expressionless face staring at me.
I smiled at her. But she didn’t smile back. I can’t interpret her eyes. Our eyes met for a few second before she looked down and re-do her jobs as if nothing happened.
Strange..
Lunch hour i spent in the staff room, check the students notebook on my desk. My lunch right now is curry bread that had been bought before departing in front of the station and can of coffee milk.
My eyes were riveted on one notebook belonging to my students. The name is written in the book it was Kojima Haruna. Suddenly I remembered the incident in class.
Kojima Haruna..
Haruna is one of the smartest student in her class. Note performance above average and attitude often praised the teachers. I don’t really know about her family background, but it seem she is not troubles students. I’m little curious, why is she looking at me like that?
“Takahashi-sensei!”
I turned and smiled at fellow teacher who was standing near my desk, his hand holding lunch box.
“Shinoda-sensei...”
“Your lunch is bread and coffee again?” Math teacher asked who was not far adrift from me that.
I laughed, “I like bread.”
Shinoda Mario snorted. He pulled up a chair and sat beside me. He put his lunch box on the table.
“newlyweds like you, your wife should make provision for you..” he opened his lunch box and smiled proudly when viewing the content of the box lunch prepared by his wife, “Ah, my wife made too much for me, want some?”
I smiled and shook my head, refusing to put it mildly.
Mario lifted his shoulders, “all right, then.”
His face look happy while eating his wife’s artificial provision. I just sighed and re-focus on my job to check the records collected my students.
See Mario’s face look happy every time talking about his wife whom he married three years ago that made me realize, married since ‘want’ and get married because ‘must’ it’s two different things. Ah, of course.. Married and love are two different things. I’ve been able to accept the fact that married not be based on love. There are other things more important that should underlie the wedding.
Such a commitment.
I realized , I had committed to marry Atsuko, and whatever happens I have to keep that commitment. Although without love..
Ah, I feel dizzy every time I think about it. State has become better in between us but that doesn’t mean now the situation has become not awkward at all. Last night, before go to bed, i was still thinking hard. Until when? Marriage is, supposedly, only once in a life time, right? And at this rate, what I have to undergo a loveless marriage for life?
Reverie stopped hearing the bell marks the lunch break is over. Looks like I have to stop this habit of daydreaming.
Today I picket duty, which means that after school I was assigned to check each classroom and ensure that no child who live in he building after school learning activitie. I’m in charge of locking each room and make sure all the windows have been closed.
Six o’clock, all students are required to have left school, with the exception of students who are still following the sport club activities and the arts. I started around from class to class and hopes to soon finish my job to get home soon. My head was little dizzy and I want a hot shower today.
This morning I’ve been told Atsuko that I’ll be home before the dinner time, and that she prepare for me a bath of hot water. Unexpectedly, she didn’t sound mind doing it.
I stop in front of one of the classroom. Person standing in front of the classroom window, turns to me. A girl with long hair.
Hey, who’s there?” difficult to recognize her as a window facing west made her face hidden golden sunlight, “it’s time all the students go home”
“Sensei?”
My forehead wrinkled as I realize that student take the middle turned to me was Kojima Haruna. I was a little surprise to realize she was crying. I don’t understand why she was crying but my gut as teacher told me that I should do something,
“what is it, Kojima-san?” I tush over to my student, a little less confident that I could calm her down, but I still closer to her.
I stopped a few feet in front of her. A girl who was several inches shorter than me looked like hide her tears. Her hands were clenched tightly in her chest. I still don’t understand what really happened to her.
“Kojima-san?”
She didn’t answer me.
I was just going to get closer to her when she ran past me and left the room. I only can pause and follow it with my eyes. Wrinkled my forehead confused. What is it?
I also decide to talk to her tomorrow.
TBC
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Woah, sounds interesting :3
Can't wait another chap^^
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CHAP 5
ATSUKO POV
Today, for the first time my husband and I sat at the table opposite. Not only that, we also do it twice this morning for breakfast and for dinner tonight. It feels a little strange, because usually I always eat alone. Normally I would make a sandwich and bring it into the room or ordering ramen at my favorite ramen shop to delivered to the house. It feel a little weird to eat together with someone, especially if that person is the husband who doesn’t love you, but I have to honestly say if I don’t hate it.
Before the incident a few days ago I never dreamed that I and Kai could do this kind of truce. Previously I guess I’ll have dinner alone forever. Dinner together like this was not bad either. I’m still not good at cooking but I’m happy because at least Kain has not protest about my cooking. Maybe he just doesn’t want to start a fight with me, but whatever the reasons, I really appreciate it.
“So?”
Kai raised his eyes from the plate of pasta and looked at me with a puzzled.
“How was school today?”
For a moment, Kai not knowing what to say. I hastily added, trying no to sound embarrassed, even tough I’m really embarrassed, “I just thought, the couple usually like to talk about this at the dinner table?” I asked, pretending to re-focus on my palte, “So? How was school?”
I heard Kai sighed, but next time he says something he doesn’t sound rude and angry, and I was glad of it, “everything is as usual..” suddenly he pauses, “ah..”
I looked up and looked at him confused, “Ah’ what?”
His forehead wrinkled as if the middle remembering something, “Today, one of my student cry.”
I laughed, “you made her cry in class? I don’t think that you are the type of teacher that is fierce with yor student”
“Not so,” Kai sighed, “she didn’t cry at teh hour of my classes. I, rather, caught her crying”
I shrugged my shoulders, to be honest I’m not so interested, a teenager crying is not a big thing, “and then?”
“When she saw me she ran.”
I twist my spagetti with my fork, “maybe she was tricked another student? Lately I’ve seen on TV on a few school bullying often occurs in some students..”
Kai shook his head, “In the school where I teach there is no such thing. Anyway, Kojima-san is a clever student and I knew she was never in trouble with anybody.”
“then it’s definitely a family matter,” I concluded, “none of your business, right? Problem families each pupil’s not the responsibility of the teacher.”
“I don’t know..” Kai smiled weakly, “I don’t know why I’m little worried.”
I have never and will never say directly, but at times like this I always felt that Kai is someone who is very dedicated to his work. Perhaps it was because Kai possess a tender heart, although perhaps he didn’t realize it. I always knew that he always easily touched by little things.
First Kai often do dangerous things to help me and his friend. Once he had fallen from tree for trying to save our friend cat. As a result he had to suffer a fracture and was treated for a month . I’m sure even now he still has not changed.
That night I dreamed about our childhood. At that time I and Kai was about seven years old and we are still quite close. At that time my parents took Kai went with our family to the zoo. I dream of how we both cried when my parents did return. At that time, we both promised a day when we’re older we would go together to the zoo without my parent so that we can have fun longer.
When a awakened from my sleep that morning, I felt a little wondered if Kai still remember the promise we made hat day. Of course I didn’t get my hopes up because it was fifteen years have passed since that day. I don’t even remember about it if not for the promise of the dream.
The morning after Kai left for school, I received a call from my mom. My mom is a housewife, so she has a lot spare time just like me, sometimes she would come to visit for tea and eating cake with me or call talk like today.
“what is the your pregnancy condition?”
“Tomorrow I and Kai will see a doctor for a routine check-up,” I explained to my mom, “but so far I don’t see anything strange. Sometime I still feel nauseous but otherwise I feel fine.”
“Kai-kun will accompany you to the doctor? What about his job?”
“He have a day off,” I said with a sigh, I walked into kitchen and picked up a box of cold milk from the refrigerator, “when in fact it is not necessary.”
“what do yo mean ‘not necessary’!?” she scolds, “of course he wants to be with you to the doctor. It’s about the health of children and his wife, of course he would feel anxious.”
I rolled my eyes. I grab the phone with my shoulder and my cheek, pouring milk into a glass. I never like milk before pregnant. But for some reasons lately I could spend two liters of milk. My mom says, i was lucky because milk contain nutrients that are good for the unborn.
“So when are you going to stop by the house?”
I drank my milk while walking toward the couch in front of the TV. Next to the hand holding the glass while the other one holding up the phone. “I don’t know.. What’s wrong?”
My mom sighed, “Since you married, you never came to the house. Me and your father a little anxious, you look not so along ahead of your wedding.”
I sat on the maroon couch with carefully, “Calm down, we were fine.”
“Why don’t you two have dinner with us tomorrow? And sleep over!” Suddenly she sounded excited, “Kai-kun tomorrow take off all day, right?”
“But on Saturday he had to go back to teach..” I muttered, looking at the empty glass in hand with frown, I know what my mother. If once she has insisted there no need to argue.
“The distance from home to the work place is not far away. Never mind, just in case you don’t want to tell Kai-kun, I will call him with myself”
Right? My mother was very stubborn.
“Why all of sudden?” I asked finally relented.
My mother sounded happy because she knew I had to give up, “No nothing, just overnight I have dream about your childhood.. Suddenly so miss..” she laughs, “Oh, I had to take fliers to neighbors. Take care of yourself and immediately contact the house if there is anything. Bye.”
I took a deep breath when she finally break our conversation. Again, my mom managed to decide unilaterally. My mom, too, one of the reasons why I accepted Kai proposal. Somehow my mother really like Kai. From the first, when we were little my mom always said that I would be Kai’s wife someday. Even when I started going out with Yuu, she still often said if she would agree if I’m going out with Kai.
I threw myself on the couch and straighten my leg. My pregnancy is not too big but I easily feel tired. Currently still show at eleven o’clock and I was feeling very tired. Ki have to eat something for lunch but somehow I felt very sleepy. There are still a few hours before lunch. Nothing wrong a short nap.
I didn’t take long for me to fall asleep on the couch in front of the television. And I dream about Yuu.
It is said that if you dream about someone, there are two reasons. First you miss that person, or the person who was miss you. i don’t know why I dream about my ex-boyfriend, I can’t remember clearly what the dream at that time. But when I woke up that afternoon, I became aware of two things when you check your cell phone screen to see what time it was.
First, I only have a little time to prepare dinner
Second, I receive an e-mail from Oshima Yuu.
Of course the last thing that made me forget the first thing. I was a little shaky when deciding to read the e-mail. After a few months, this is the first time Yuu sent me an e-mail. Could he have forgiven me?
Fill in the e-mail was very brief, but enough to make feel weak.
'I want to restore some of your think left in my place. When did we can meet?'
Met with ex-boyfriend, its looks like it’s not a good idea.
I have decided to try maintain a relationship with Kai. Things like this... Maybe I should not have to reply to an e-mail from him. Ah, or maybe I just need to write back and say I don’t want to meet him.
I must be firm.
It’s over between me and Yuu.
I ...
Suddenly I remember the dream that I saw when I sleep this afternoon. I vaguely remember what happened in my dream.
Finally I decided to reply to the e-mail.
Hopefully, what I did was not wrong.
'Sunday in front of the station cafe at 2 o’clock'.
TBC
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NEW AUTHOR~, WOOOOO :otomerika:
welcomeee ~
ur fic is good :3
i really want to read more lol :wub:
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woahh ~ I really like it :thumbup Good job !! can't wait for next chapter
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Ah... so Kai and Atsuko didn't love each other
Well Kai might want to learn to love Atsuko... he did like her when they were young even only as best friends
But Atsuko is still dreaming... always wanting to be a princess so she wants to always be spoiled I guess
Going to classy restaurant, open the door, to be listen all the time...
What's wrong with Haruna?
Did she have feeling or problems that she wanted Kai to help her out?
Eh... she wanted to meet with Yuu
Would Kai know about it?
Would their meeting leads to something?
Honestly, they should just get abortion or just be friends that share their custody or give to the one that wants the child.
Anyway, what's going to happen next?
Can't wait to find out
Thank you for the new story
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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Hahahawesome! I love kind of this story, it touches my emotion.
U did a great job. Pls update soon
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thank you for the comment, minna-san :), sorry for my bad english anyway :bow:
CHAP 6
KAI POV
Today after ending the lesson, I call Kojima Haruna and asked her to meet me after school. Her face didn’t show any reaction but I knew, she would understand why i called her. I don’t want too meddling in the lives of my students, but I also can’t leave it alone.
When I returned to the teaching staff, some teachers who were preparing to leave teaching to each class smiling at me. When I got to my desk and put my stuff, in the room was just me and one grade math teacher, Shinoda Mario. He also recently finished teaching like me and there is no teaching schedule again after this.
“Hey, I heard you took the day off tomorrow?” The brown light-haired man asked as he open a can of coffee and drink it.
I nodded, “Itano-sensei will succeed for one day, I would accompany my wife to the doctor to check her pregnancy.”
He nodded, “I hope everything goes smoothly. Already know the gender?”
I shook my head, “Ah, I don’t know yet.. But it’s better if I were a surprise, right?” I smiled
After that we were both silent. Mario sat drinking coffee and checking his notes while I was silent, thinking about how I should start a conversation with Kojima Haruna later.
“Ano....”
Mario stop the movement and stare at me , “Yes?”
“Err..” I don’t know whether to ask teacher was right thing or not, “about Kojima-san..”
“Kojima? Kojima Haruna? What about her?”
“What’s past is nothing strange about her? I mean, from what you see in your class..”
Mario looked thoughtful for a moment, “Kojima is a good student. I understand that she has no problem with other student. She is also popular among boys.”
I nodded, so far, it’s also what I heard about Kojima Haruna. There is never a negative rumors about her.
“Why?” Mario asked, “Did she have a problem in your class?”
I shook my head quickly, “ A.. Ah no!” I rush to cover my nervous with my laugh, “I just want to know...”
Mario looked curious but he didn’t say anything else.
I’m just going to grab the newspaper today who have not read when the phone rang.
I flinched when I saw the name on the screen.
“Atsuko?”
“Hey..”
I narrowed my eyes at the sound of her voice, I’m not accustomed to receiving from her call. I hope nothing bad happens.
“what?” I asked without mince words. I knew she could call me because just missed.
“My mom just called,” She also unceremoniously, her voice didn’t sound curt as usual, “She said, she wants us to have dinner at home tomorrow.”
I sighed, mother-in-law is someone who I known since childhood. Nature doesn’t vary much with Atsuko, It’s impossible to resist her desire, “Why not? We have not been right?”
“The problem,” Atsuko muttered, “My mom also wants us to sleepover.”
I don’t see anything wrong with it.
“Why not?”
To my surprise, Atsuko sounded surprise, “you agree?”
“Of course..”
When she spoke later she sounded happy, “Thank God! I will call home, then. Ah yes, you’ll go home before the dinner hour, right?”
I looked at my watch, I no picket schedule today. Talking with Kojima Haruna will not take long..
“Yes, I’ll be home on time, wanting to buddy something?”
“Ah no, then I’ll be ready!” Atsuko sounded cheerful, I couldn’t resist that smile doesn’t expand, “Let us eat tempura shrimp tonight!”
“Sounds good,” I aid, still smiling.
She laughed, Well, bye”
“bye”
I tried to ignore the stares Mario as teasing. I knew he would tease me about this new couple again so I choose to avoid.
For a moment I forget about Kojima Haruna. Today for the first time I felt getting married was not too bad either.
When the school bell rang sign, in the blink of school buildings that been deserted become rowdy. The students eagerly settle their stationery and prepare to go home or club activities that they follow.
Most of the teacher who don’t have a picket schedule and not a pub club mentors getting home. i despite not having a picket schedule today, still in the teacher’s lounge. I tidied up my gear and lock the drawer of my desk.
I said goodbye to the teacher who still survive in the staff room and headed biology lab space where I asked Kojima Haruna meet me after school.
I was little surprise to see that she had been there before me.
Her face didn’t show any expression. She looked at me briefly before returning down, avoiding my eyes.
I sighed. This is the first time for me to call a student meet me after school hours.
“Kojima-san,” I said , trying to smile, “Thank you for coming.”
She just nodded.
I allowed her to sit in a chair while I sat on the desk in front of her.
“You know why I call you?”
She nodded again.
I sighed and smiled, I don’t want to scare her, “then? Is there a problem? If this is a problem in school, you can tell me. I’ll help as much as possible..”
She shook her head without looking at me.
I flinched, “then?”
She bit her lower lip and install the expression as if to say something, but feel free. I decided to wait until she says something.
“Sensei,” she looked up slowly, brown colored eyes met with my eyes, “Sensei was marries , right?”
“eh?”
I don’t understand the meaning of the question but I decided to nod answer that question.
“Is sensei happy?”
Again, I don’t know what to say. I looked at her confused. Marriage problem... It has nothing to do with the problem he faced middle right?
Before I could answer, she shook her head again.
“Both of my parents... They never look happy”
I was speechless.
I began to understand the problem that her faces.
“Your parents, have a fight?” I asked cautiously. I don’t know if a teacher need to intervene to problem like this or not.
She nodded.
“My parents, they still retain their marriage because of me. But every day they always fight,” she looked at me with an expression that is difficult to understand, “they say for the sake the child. In fact, they were married, right?”
I can’t say anything.
Maintaining a marriage for the sake of the child, it’s the thing that I done today.
“sensei, why people should marry someone who didn’t love?” Haruna asked, still staring me. Beautiful eyes seemed to glisten, “It is not only going to hurt the feeling of those around him? Is not that lying to me with their feeling?”
Again, I lost my word.
“Both my parents.. They said they were not separated even though it is not love each other, because they think of me. If they really thought they were not going to fight my feeling constantly... I ...” She began to sob, “I ...”
I don’t know what to do when he saw the tears at my student face.
Suddenly, Kojima Haruna, a student who has always been mature and admire the teachers fellow students sobbed in front of me.
Without thinking I put my arm around her slender body and hugged me.
“ssshh,” I don’t know what to say anything so I just hugged her, patting the back of her head.
“Adult are selfish..” she said on the sidelines of her sobs.
I didn’t answer anything.
Maintaining a marriage with person who not lover for the sake of the child.. I can’t tell Haruna but I was the same with her parents.
She was right.
Adult are selfish.
TBC
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CHAP 7
ATSUKO POV
I looked at Kai who was eating dinner with a blank stare. I don’t know what he was thinking but I know, when the head is filled with something. He chew food slowly. His forehead flinched. There something bothering him. I’ve known him long enough to be able to guess what’s in his head this time.
Although I would not admit it directly in front of me, but I know that, though stupid, Takahashi Kai is a good person who often participate dizzy at the thought of someone else problem. In the past, not just once or twice, he was troubled by the problem created by his friends. This time even I could tell that he was thinking about problems in the workplace are likely to have nothing to do with it.
“you know,” i said, biting my tempura mushroom, my eyes don’t look at him but I knew I had managed to get his attention and he was looking at me, “if you don;t like my cooking, you don’t need to force yourself to eat it.”
“N-no,” the blond was hastily explained, “is not so, your cooking tasty... I just.. I ...”
Is stifled a smile at his reaction but I maintain my cold expression, “I was not good at cooking ar taking care of the house. I was totally in competent. I’m not a good wife.”
“No, I ... “ I glance back at him through the corner of my eye and almost laughed at his flushed face, “dinner is very good, I don’t think you can cook .. Uh i mean, I’m happy ... Oh uh ...” his face getting flushed, “thank you”
I wrinkled my forehead and looked at him, “then? Why you dont eat wtih a frown face like that? As should be forced to eat my cooking..”
He sighed and shook his head, “I;m sorry, but it is not so ... I was just thinking about something...”
“about?”
He shrugged and continue eating, “business. Not a big thing.”
“there is a problem at school?”
He shook his head.
I rolled my eyes both. I know he won’t explain any further that that. I was not going to force him. Anyway, I don’t want to interfere with his business too.
We continue our dinner without saying anything. Every now and then I glanced at his sitting across the table. He didn’t look at me but this time he didn’t look like he was daydreaming again.
“tomorrow, we’re going to the hospital at what time?” Kai asked me suddenly, I was little surprise because it didn’t suspect that he would start conversation with me, “I think it was twelve o’clock, right?”
I nodded, actually I didn’t think that he would remember my schedule with my gynecologist. I’m little happy because at least he was little concerned with the child in the womb is.
“After the doctor we had lunch outside huh?” He said while drinking orange juice, “then maybe we can stop the pastry shop for a gift for your parents. Do you have a restaurant you want to go?”
I shook my head. Again, I was surprise. I don’t think it will take me to eat outside. It’s not a big thing, but...
“what?” he asked as he realized expression, frowning, “you okay?”
“No, I’m okay..” I said trying to act casual, “Okay, so tomorrow don’t forget to bring bag to stay huh? I’ll set it up. Ah, but I still have clothes in my old room, you can use pajamas my father right? So we don’t have to carry a lot of stuff..”
He smiled, “yes, don’t think about it”
“ah, about the restaurant for lunch tomorrow, that remind me, I know that is good, then I read in a magazine! The place should not be far from hospital..”
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When the doctor’s waiting room was filled with the woman who were waiting in line to enter the examination room. Unfortunately, at that time none of the were accompanied by their partners. Perhaps because it is a working day so that their husband could not accompany.
I glance at Kai who sits on the couch next to me. O’m little afraid that if he felt uncomfortable being in this place but I was surprise to see the expression on his face looked mediocre and not disturbed at all.
“Kai...” I called softly.
He turned to me, “Huh? What’s wrong? You need something.”
I nodded, actually I feel thirsty. My turn is still quite long. And we’ve been waiting for more than half an hour.
“I’m thirsty,” I said with a pleading, since childhood I always use a gaze like this when wanting something from my parents or anyone else, and I know Kai can never resist this gaze, “buy me a drink?”
He didn’t seem to mind one bit, “something to drink?” he hastened to add, before I open my mouth, “do coffee!”
I pursed my lips, “then chocolate milk”
He nodded, “Okay”
He stood up from his seat and started to leave when I pull the ends of jacket he wore made him turned to me.
“what?” he asked with one eyebrow raised.
“don’t be too long, you want to come into the examining room and met with the doctor, right?”
Kai smiled and patted my head with one hand, “don’t worry, I’ll be right back with your chocolate milk.”
I nodded and let go of the end of the jacket so that he can go buy me a drink.
I was just going to open up a magazine that is available in the reception area to get rid of boredom when the two woman also there in the room spoke.
When I looked up, two woman, who looks a bit older than me and the other one looks like my age or maybe younger.
“Hey, my name is Kashiwagi,” said who looks older than that, she was a woman in her late twenties who is very pretty. Her long hair color combination of brown and orange reminds me of autumn. A pair of hairpin-shaped blue flowers adorn her hair. She was smiling at me, “this is the first time I saw you here..”
I nodded, “ah yes, this is my first visit, I Maeda, ah I mean Takahashi..”
Long-haired young woman brown that looked at my age was smiling cheerful, her petite but she seemed very excited, her stomach looks already quite large, “I Matsui,” she said cheerfully, “nice to meet you, Takahashi-san!”
“that was the husband?” Kashiwagi asked.
I nodded.
Kashiwagi and Matsui exchange long before then both smiled knowingly. I don’t understand what the purpose of their smile. I’m little worried. What bring the husband to come this place was a mistake? No wonder since last I saw no one who accompanied her husband.
“Ah, don’t worry,” Kashiwagi said, laughing when she saw my expression, “we just feel a little jealous.” she tried to explain, “my husband is also a doctor at the hospital, in part precisely surgery, but he was never able to accompany a check-up.” she frowned and looked a little annoyed, “when I contains the twins,” her hand pointing toward a pair of twins about three years old was playing on the other side of the waiting room, “he was always busy.”
“Ah, Jun also not been able to accompany me..” Matsui said, folding her arms across her chest, she sighed and explained, “I understand he had to work hard to prepare money for the birth of our son, but stll..”
I don’t know what to say. At first i didn’t think to much about it, but it’s trivial as it can mean big for other.
“what your husband work? Kashiwagi asked with a smile. Her eyes occasionally supervise the twins who seem still busy playing.
“ah, he is a teacher.” I said, “He was a biology teacher in high school”
“teacher?” Matsui said surprise, “instead of working day today?”
I nodded, suddenly my cheeks felt hot. “Umm, he took special day off today.”
“Wow...” Matsui looked at me in awe, “How lucky...”
“You are very loved right, Takahashi-san,” said Kashiwagi sound the same admiration with Matsui, “my husband is a good husband, but the husband obviously love you so much.”
I can’t say anything. When other say that Kai loves me, I don’t know what to comment anything. For I know, I don’t love each other and Kai at all.
Not long after Matsui called into the examination room. I talked with Kashiwagi until then Kai returned with my drink. He apologized for a long time. Apparently the drink vending machines in the hospital ran out of chocolate milk so he had to buy it at the hospital canteen in other parts of the hospital. I just drank half my drink when then my name was called to enter the examination room.
The doctor who examined me still relatively young. He wearing a mask that covered most his face, but his eyes I can tell that he is a handsome man. His short hair disheveled and he yawned several times but judging from the number of patient who made appointment with him it seem he is a good doctor and quite liked the patient.
After checking my blood pressure, he asked me to lie down foe an ultrasound. I lay in bed that has been provided and the doctor was applying type of cream that feels cold to the skin of my stomach. Kai is standing next to me watching me with a frown sign of anxiety, but he didn’t say anything.
“Well, Takahashi-san, you can see, this your baby.”
I and Kai stared into the screen which was next to my bed. On the screen that appears strokes of black and white vague from an image. It.... My baby?
“At twenty weeks gestation, had a lot that we can see,” said the doctor Miyazawa, explaining, “this is your baby head, and you can see, the fingers of your baby has started to form..”
I looked at the picture on the screen with look disbelief. It was.. It was... My baby?
“Kinda hard to tell the gender of your baby now, your baby seems very shy,” joked the doctor again.
“Ah!” Kai said startled me, he pointed towards the monitor, “he sucked his fingers!”
Dr. Miyazawa and nurses in the room was laughing.
I stared into the screen and sure enough, the baby seemed to be sucking his thumb. When I turned to fig Kai, he looked so stunned at the video of our baby’s development. Unconsciously I smiled to see it.
“All right,” said the doctor miyazawa, “now let me explain”
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“I can’t eat this much.”
I looked at the food served at the table in front of me. There are various type of foods that meets the table. I looked at Kai who sat across from me in disbelief as he had ordered the food as much as this.
“I can’t spend all of this,” I protested.
Kai looked at me with his brown eyes, “instead you say you want to eat at this restaurant?”
“of course.” this restaurant is a restaurant that was recently covered in my daily lifestyle magazine, has long I want to try to eat at this place, “but I can’t possibly eat this much!”
“You heard say what Dr. Miyazawa said, right?” Kai asked without waiting for an answer, “you have to keep intake your nutrition. During each lunch you just eat instant noodles, right? From now on you have to eat right!”
“but that doesn’t mean having to eat as much of this as well, right?”
Kai instead on looking at me, “eat!”
I sighed. This time I couldn’t do anything about it.
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I don’t remember how in the end I could spend all the food that was Kai ordered for me. What is clear currently out of the restaurant that I feel very satisfied.
We both don’t directly to my parent’s home, but go to the pastry shop to buy a gift for my parents.
“I’ll take this and this!”
Kai looked at me with astonishment, “I think before you say you are full and don’t want to eat anymore?”
“it’s for later!” I said reasoned without taking my eyes from pieces of opera cake and pie tempting fruit that looks fresh chunks peaches favorite.
Kai sighed as he was watched the clerk who was wrapped up our order.
“you have to remember what the doctor said your sugar levels.”
I wrinkled my forehead without say anything, pretending not to hear what he had just said.
Take him to the doctor’s check up was apparently not the right choice because since we got back from the hospital there was all he said advice for me.
When we left the pastry shop has shown four in the afternoon hours. We walked down the sidewalk toward the station. My parent’s house within four station from here.
On the road I saw a lot of couples who also road side. In my heart I imagine, when people see us whatever was on their mends. Do we look like any other normal couple?
We don’t hold hands, my hands in my cardigan pocket that i wore today. Kai walked beside me with one hand in his jeans pockets and a hand holding a cardboard box of cookies for gift my parents.
Until when we finally sat down on the train, we still have not spoken to each other. Only this time is different from the usual, our silence is not because of a fight. This time though w didn’t speak to each other in the air around us is not heavy, even feels comfortable. I won’t say it directly but I like the feel of existence next.
Suddenly, I feet sleepy. Unconsciously I was asleep with my head resting on the shoulders of Kai.
I don’t remember what the dream, but when it was warm and comfortable.
When we arrived at my parent’s house, she greeted us with a beaming face. She seemed to have waited for us earlier. He immediately ushered us into the living room and asked us to sit down while he hurried to the kitchen to make drinks for us even though I’ve refused and said not to bother because we are not thirsty.
“there is a need help you?” I asked as I turned on the TV.
Kai sat down beside me. Leaning on the back of the couch, his eyes were focused on the apparently being broadcast television sportscaster.
“No, you sit down. Oh yes, Kai-kun, you want tea with cream or not?” my mother asked from the kitchen.
“No cream, thank you,” Kai said without taking his eyes off the television.
I picked up a magazine lying on the floor and flipped through several pages before the decided that there was nothing interesting to read. I also turned my attention to the television and flinched. I don’t like sports news. I also grabbed the remote and change the channel of the TV talk show guest star afternoon with my favorite actor.
“Hey!” Kai protested, looking at me but he didn’t say anything else. His forehead wrinkled as he took the magazine and flipped through the pages magazine dated last week it.
Not long after, my mom returned from the kitchen with three cups of tea and cake before we take it as a souvenir.
My mother put the tea and cake on the table before sitting on another couch that surrounds the wooden table.
“Where is father?” I asked, still staring at the television screen.
“still in the office,” she said as she took her cup of tea, “take it easy, he will return quickly. He was very happy to know you are going to stay.”
I didn’t say anything. I could feel Kai sitting next to be a little tense when he heard about my father. I quite understand, because even though my father allowed us to get married, he still cast a few blows in the direction of the first Kai knew that I was pregnant with Kai.
Actually, my parents have long known Kai and they seemed quite happy to have son like Kai, but I also understand why my father hit Kai then. After all I was his only daughter. It certainly was not easy for my father, releasing her beloved daughter into the hand of other men.
I took a small plate of cookies were served by my mother . I already feel hungry again though earlier I had sworn I would not eat again today. It looks like a baby in my belly always makes me hungry.
“so how was it?” my mother asked me after putting back the teacup on the table in front of her, “the doctor said what about your pregnancy condition?”
“ah, healthy baby. Entering the twentieth week, no problem after all,” I said , “today we also perform an ultrasound and the baby looks healthy. He sucked his fingers all the time.”
My mother sounded glad to hear it, “then what about the gender?”
I shrugged, “i don’t know, we don’t know.”
My mother seemed very enthusiastic, “ah, I can’t wait to shop for baby gear. You’ve been setting up the nursery?”
I and Kai exchanged glance. My parents knew that the apartment where we stayed had two bedrooms but they don’t know if we sleep in separated rooms. We decided without word that they don’t to know.
I shook my head, “it’s too early for that, right? There are still four to five months before the baby was born.”
My mother flinched, “which can be so ! You don’t underestimate them ! You have to think about it from now on. Having child is not to be taken lightly!”
“all right,” said Kai mediate, after a long stay close to my family, Kai knew the woman in the Maeda family very stubborn and if not stopped now then it will be a long debate, “we will start o prepare next week. We will begin to buy items such as cots and diaper.”
My mother seemed satisfied with Kai’s words, “if you need help, you can call anytime.”
I glanced at Kai with disgust. He returned my look with a look that seemed to say “so be it”.
I snorted in disgust.
Today it is still not over. My father still join us. I have a feeling that tonight will be a little in convenient for me.
TBC
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Chap 8
KAI POV
Today I saw my son for the first time. Well, not really see it but there is a faint image on the screen in doctor’s office it was my son. Still very small but are starting to resemble a human baby, with arms, legs, and tiny finger. I could see it moving and writhing in the Atsuko belly. He even sucked his thumb!
Atsuko and I don’t know what the sex of our baby but even so , I’ve fallen in love with a baby who was not even born yet. I know, from now on, we will continue to grow the baby in Atsuko belly until finally born into the world. I can’t wait to meet up with my first baby was.
The first baby?
My face heated imagine the word ‘second baby’ and the next. I and Atsuko didn’t love each other and our marriage is happening because of a mistake. I and Atsuko equally don’t want other error occur. There will be no ‘second’ or ‘third’ time. I and Atsuko have reached and agreement unspoken. We have decided to make peace but that doesn’t mean our feeling have changed. I know, deep in the corner of her heart, Atsuko still blame me for all this.
I opened my eyes and stared at the Atsuko room ceiling. We were both lying on the bed in the room they occupy before she married and moved into our apartment. Rooms lights have been turned off so that the only light in medium size room was only moonlight came through the sidelines of her window blinds that were on the other side of the room oppositee the bed.
In beside me, my childhood friend fell asleep. Her body was to me. Vaguely I could hear the sound of regular breathing. I can smell the soft scent of strawberry shampoo hair. Since we got married, the first time we slept in same bed. I and Atsuko didn’t want to make her parents anxious and decided to behave normal cuople to please both, including by way of sleeping in the same bed.
Although this is the first time I slept in her bed, but this is not the first time I was in the Atsuko room. First, as a child, I often come play in Atsuko room. We will coloring picture book or doing summer homework. Atsuko mother will go in when go in when we’re busy doing something and brought us a cake of fruit and drinks. On rainy days or when the snow was falling thickly, at the moment we can’t play outside, Atsuko’s mother would make hot chocolate for us. I and Atsuko will play cards or puzzle to pass the time.
In the past, been a few time Atsuko will fell sick and couldn’t play out of the house. At the time I would come to visit and be with her. Atsuko would lie in bed with a fever compress plaster embedded in her forehead and thick blanket wrapped her body while I read a book-lined room floor carpet or playing a playstation alone. When Atsuko was already asleep I remain there, until she woke up and saw me, I would ask what she was feeling better before they leave home.
I smiled at the memory of my childhood. I and Atsuko close enough yet. I’ve considered orphaned as a child by the Atsuko parents. We are very close to exceeding siblings. Our first taste almost never fight at all. Know since when we started to move away.
I closed my eyes, trying to remember the reason we stay away. During our junior different class, but it was like when it was occasionally we still often go home together.
I opened my eyes suddenly. I remembered now. The reason why I and Atsuko suddenly away from each other mutually.
I smiled at the thought of the reason. At the time we are still very young. Too young to be able to cope with small trouble as happened at the time.
Ah no. Even now we are still immature. Until this time was no different. I and Atsuko still put our selfishness. And soon we will be parents and should set a good example for our children later.
Our son...
Suddenly I thought of Kojima Haruna, one of my student who suddenly cried in front of me. I don’t know what happened to her but somehow I feel sympathy for her. When viewing the tears when I felt compelled to do something to stop it. Perhaps, as a teacher, this is beyond my responsibility but I couldn’t let hher sad like that. I wanted to do something for her. I want to make her feel better.
I don’t know what’s going on in her family, but I’ve seen, Haruna has lot of hurt because of her parents. During Haruna is reliable model student I never thought that the real in her she was injured like that.
Maybe I’m too meddling but as a teacher is not already a duty to help his student? I don’t know what but I want to do something. Maybe I’ll talk to her. By becoming interlocutor maybe I can help ease the burden.
Suddenly, I felt sleepy. I don’t know what time it is but I have to teach tomorrow morning. I shouldn’t wake up late tomorrow.
I wipe my eyes with one hand before turning around so that her back Atsuko’s body. I’m a small yawn before my eyes closed.
“good night, Acchan.” I whispered before then let sleepiness grabbed my consciousness.
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When I woke up the next morning I was alone in the bed. I wrinkled my forehead, trying to gather my consciousness. Window curtain in front of me had parted but the sun still looked embarrassed. It shouldn’t have been too late. I squirm before finally sitting up straight and stretch my muscle are stiff.
The digital clock on the table shows that this is still six in the morning, Atsuko not usually get up so early.
Unless she woke up feeling nauseous.
I feel anxious, I know Atsuko often feel nauseous in the morning and spent nearly half an hour in the bathroom just to remove all contents of the stomach through the mouth. I walked downstairs to feel a little anxious. At least, in this house there are two parents, if there is anything they must be doing something.
In the kitchen there is only my mother in law who was preparing breakfast, it looks like my father in law is not up yet. Quite reasonable when considering how many bottles of sake he spent last night at dinner. Lucky I managed to refuse his invitation to drink too much last night with reasons to teach today, otherwise maybe I was lying in bed this time.
Mother in law to stop her movement which was chopping something and turned to me. She smiled at me before returning to work.
“Kai-kun, morning. You wake up in the morning. You still can sleep up to seven, right?”
“err.. Where Atsuko?” I asked, decided not to answer question my wife’s mother.
“she woke up a little while ago because of nausea and after throwing all her dinner last night she said wanted to run in the morning...”
“running in the morning?!” I said don’t believe, what’s in that woman’s mind? I also don’t believe my mother in law to let her go jog alone!
I immediately turned around and headed for the main door. If anything happened to Atsuko. If anything happened to our son..
Just as I walked a few steps, the main door opens to reveal the figure of Atsuko wearing a red shirts. Little bit wet towel hanging aroung her neck. Her short hair little wet because of sweat.
“you awake?” she said with a casual tone when she saw me. She crouched down to take pff her shoes, not realizing look taht accompanied the wrinkles in my forehead to him.
“where are you?” I asked with furrowed brow still, behind me, mother in law to stop the cut, seems to want to overhear my conversation with Atsuko, I don’t care. Right now I’m annoyed at the married woman.
Atsuko put her shoes on the shoe rack at the end of the corridor before walking toward me and walked into the kitchen to see what her mother had cooked for breakfast. I followed her from behind, still insist on getting an answer from her.
“I just ran in the morning,” said Atsuko as she saw a plate of fried shrimp on the table and take one to eat. She turned to me and said with her full mouth, “I woke up too early and I think it would be a nice morning run for me. I have not exercising.”
“Atsuko..” I sighed and massage my temples with one hand, she doesn’t know how panic I said, “you don’t need to exercise, you’re pregnant! Don’t push yourself to doing that don’t need!”
“sport is important!” Atsuko said as she took a piece of shrimp again and eat it, “just because I’m pregnant doesn’t mean I have to stop the activity. I don’t force myself. I know the limits of my endurance. Anyway I just jog in the park near here. Don’t be too excessive.”
“if there is anything in the way, who will help you?” I asked annoyed, “if you want to do something you could do something more safe. Something that can be done indoor. At home!”
Atsuko put her hands on her waist, a pose she always did when she was ready to argue, “look, I just ran in the morning and it was not dangerous! Stop patronize me, I’m not a disciple!”
“Atsuko,” scolds mother in law, who had been silent listening, “your husband only worried about you. Don’t be like that...”
“but he treats me like disable!” Atsuko said pointed at me.
“I just don’t want you to act recklessly! You have to remember that you are pregnant this time!” I said that began to be provoked, “don’t be underestimated. The condition of your body can change suddenly on the road. If that happens you think who would bother?”
“what? So that, huh?!” Atsuko turned to her mother before going back to look at me, “see? He doesn’t worry about me, he just didn’t want to bother!”
“not like that!” I was just going to raise my tone when I saw the tears started rolling down her cheeks. I swore to myself. Great, now I made her cry at her parent’s home, in front of her mother!
“he just think I’m a troublesome,” Atsuko began to sob.
Pregnant women and her crazy hormones..
“listen, it’s not what I think,” I sighed, I glanced at the mother in law and she just gave me a look sympathy. I was a little relieved because my mother in law seemed to understand that all of this is only because of excessive estrogen in her daughter, “ I didn’t mean it like that..”
“then what do you mean?” Atsuko challenge me still with her tears in her eyes.
I slapped my forehead in my heart and reminded me to be careful when talking to pregnant woman in the future. I can’t deal with woman who was crying. I wanted to smack myself.
“I’m sorry,” I said more gently, “I’m just worried about you. I don;t want anything to happen to you in the street.”
Atsuko turned away but didn’t say anything. Of wrinkles on her forehead I knew she was still not forgiven me. I sighed. Apparently I have to try better.
My eyes met the gaze of the my mother in law who stood not far behind Atsuko. She smiled sympathetically at me as if giving spirit.
I tried again, “I tell you, next time if you want to run in the morning, wake me up, okay? So I can be with you. How’s that? Agreed?” I don’t know what to do if this doesn’t work, “Atsuko?”
Atsuko snorted.
I looked at her.
“all right.”
I looked relieved to hear.
“there, there,” said the my mother in law intervened, “see what time is it? Kai-kun should be getting ready and we have breakfast together! Atsuko, wake up your father for breakfast!”
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I went to school with different paths today. I boarded the train from the station near Atsuko house. Atsuko decided to stay longer at home and spend time with both parents. Before dinner, father in law will take her home by car.
Actually I was happy because Atsuko spent time at her home. At least not at home there are two laws that could watch her so I don’t need to worry. Atsuko is not a feminine girl who can sit still. I always worried about when to leave her alone at home. She could have accidentally burned our home when I left her alone.
I often feel irritated because Atsuko clumsy personality but after the events of the day I learned to be more careful when talking to her. I shouldn’t raise my tone when reprimanded.
When I think of it, before we often fight and she has never cried like that. What might she cry behind me?
Suddenly I was feel guilty.
I sighed as I entered the school gates. It seemed suddenly I felt tired. Being a husband and father of candidates was not easy.
Or rather be the husband of a woman who is pregnant is not easy.
“Takahashi-senseeeeeeeiiiiiiii, ohayou!”
Some girls ran across the gates towards me. They all are student of grade two.
One of the advantages of becoming a teacher at a young age is, I quite popular among students, especially girls. Though because I don’t have such authority like Mario, often times my students prank. I don’t really mind. I think it’s just the way my students showed me their love.
“ohayou,” I said with grin on my students who is now running on the between me with a giggle, “you seem excited so early?”
One curly haired student laughed, “ah sensei, yesterday I saw sensei in Shibuya area during lunch hour!”
I wrinkled my forehead, “what are you doing in Shibuya?”
My students were just laughing, “instead of that, what a beautiful woman who shared sensei then? The short-haired young?”
I nearly choked on my spit myself. I have never hidden the fact that I was married at work, instead of the whole school would always tease me that my status is new bride, but I never even introduce my wife to my colleagues. And now a student of mine saw me with my wife.
I know it will spread throughout the school and become a subject for a week or maybe even more.
“sensei’s face flushed!” my students tease me
I can’t say anything in response.
“so it’s true she is sensei’s wife? Sensei’s wife really pretty, you know!” my students said again, sounding so excited to hear confirmation from me will be the question.
“yes, that’s my wife,” I muttered, accelerating pace, these little devils will continue to ask embarrassing question if I don’t immediately break away from them.
“sensei tastes is good..”
I can’t hear more than that, I quickened my pace almost ran leave are still laughing at my reaction. I was lucky bell rang to mark the beginning lessons so that they are not longer followed.
I know, my quite life in school for a while to be disturbed.
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“Takahashi-sensei, I heard yesterday you skip to date with your pupils, huh?” one of a history teacher who is much older than me tease me during recess and lunch.
I sighed, I knew it. Rumors will spread rapidly in schools. Only I didn’t think that the teachers are using this opportunity to tease.
I tried to hide my red face, “I’m not ditching, sensei, I filed a day off to accompany my wife to the doctor.”
Mario who sat not far from me come to tease me, “hey, next time introduce your wife with us. We’ve never meet your wife, right?”
“ah, good idea, Takahashi-sensei what if the next time you invite us into your home so that we can met your wife?”
“I hear your wife is very pretty, huh?”
“well, you are very lucky, Takahashi-sensei!”
Because it doesn’t take it anymore I immediately stood up and left the room, blushing. If I keep in there I’m sure the teachers will continue fad-kept prank.
I can’t go to the cafeteria to buy bread because there the disciples will definitely tease me so I decide that lunch time is enough to drink a can of red beans.
I bought a drink at the vending machine in the back of the school building to avoid the students and fellow teachers are nosy.
I just took my drink when I saw that someone was sitting reading a book under a tree in the back yard of the school.
Kojima Haruna seemed to be reading a book while leaning against a tree trunk. It seems that she was not aware of my presence there.
I was just going to be turned away before then I remembered what I was thinking last night. Maybe this is a good opportunity for me to know more about Haruna. Who knows slowly she opens herself to me and wanted to tell me about her family problems.
I took deep a breath and counted to ten before i stepped closer toward the quite girl with long hair.
“Kojima-san, what are you doing here?”
Haruna looked startled, she looked up from the was she reading. I smiled at him as our eyes met, her face flushed and she immediately turned her gaze to the book she was reading.
Without asking first I was sitting next to her and see what she was reading a book. Apparently it is a world history textbook.
“at the sixth lesson is the history of the world,” she said in a low tone, I almost have to get closer to her to hear what she was saying, “I have not learned overnight, therefore I learned now..”
It was quite surprising to me. A student like Kojima Haruna not prepare for the exam the next day.
“last night, my parents were fighting again,” said Haruna as if she could read what was on my mind, “their voice too loud. Instead of studying, I also didn’t sleep all night.”
I couldn’t hear her voice. At least this time I was lucky because Haruna didn’t cry when she said this.
For a moment, Haruna is still silent. Her eyes were glued to the existing page lesson book in her lap.
“I heard Sensei’s wife very beautiful.”
I was surprised to hear it, again my cheeks flushed. Rumors are circulating already uncontrollable apparently. If students like Haruna to hear this sort of thing mean the whole school had heard.
“ah” I don’t know what to say, “I think so..”
“how can sensei know her?”
I thought for a moment, I don’t understand why suddenly she was interested in this issue, “uh, she is my playmate since childhood.”
Haruna was silent for a moment. I don’t know what she was thinking. Her eyes were riveted on her book, but I know she was not being read.
“are you love your wife, sensei?”
I don’t know how many times my students this one surprised me with her attitude and her words this week. I never thought that such a question would come from her.
If the question was coming from the other students I could respond with a joke. But Kojima Haruna different from other students. I know, when she asked like this, there are other things in her head she was thinking.
“sensei certainly love her, right?” Haruna mumble again, she was smiling but her eyes looked sad, “lucky.. She was definitely loves you.”
If a different situation I would have laughed. The idea that Atsuko loves me is one of the silliest joke ever uttered on this earth.
“everyone has his loved ones and who love them,” she said, “except me.”
I wrinkled my forehead, for some reasons I don’t like to hear that. I wonder what made her think like that but I knew it was not true. Girl like Haruna inappropriate to thinks like that.
“that’s not true,” I said, “your parents love you.”
“my father has mistress, that;s the cause of their quarrel last night, “ said Haruna surprise me, “last night they quarreled loudly. I heard everything.. My mother also had a special relationship with her superiors at her work.. I heard all the..”
“Kojima-san”
She didn’t say anything more. I can see her shoulders trembled and she bit her lower lip to keep from crying.
I know at this time she was feeling sorry to herself. I know she was alone. I wanted to do something for her. Whatever it is.
“actually,” I slowly trying to make sure that she was listening to me, “my relationship with my wife is not smooth. We fought a lot. This morning I made her crying.”
She lifted her head and looked at me but didn’t say anything. The look in her eyes as if asking me to continue my story.
“our relationship is complicated enough, before this we always fight. I don’t know how often I made her cry, she never cried in front of me. Except this morning,” I sighed, relieved that she was listening to my story, “we got married instead because of love, because it is far too difficult for us to adjust to each other.”
“sensei..” Haruna was about to say something but I cut her off.
“listen..” I said, “my situation is different from your family situation, but please listen to me..”
Haruna nodded.
“my wife and I don’t love each other, but we still try to maintain our wedding. Even though this is not based of love. What your parents do are very reasonable. They try to maintain their household, which is base on love. Because it is hard for them to release all just like that..” I sighed, “may be the way they are wrong. Maybe they failed and in the end all be like this.. I can’t judge them, I don’t understand their situation, but they have tried..”
I looked at Haruna. I wanted what I said really understood her.
“Kojima-san, despite the fact that in the end they hurt you, your parents love you.. Maybe they fail to be a good husband or wife, but they are always trying to stay can be a good parents for you..” I pat Haruna head and grinned, “that they are trying to survive so far, it is evident that they love you. So don’t ever say that you are not loved.”
Haruna blinked
“understood?”
She nodded.
“good!”
I laughed and ruffles her hair.
Haruna smiled at me, “thank you, sensei.”
I smiled, “anytime if you want to talk, you should contact me, okay?”
She nodded.
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“yes, hello?”
I’ve arrived at the station near our apartment when Atsuko call me. I stepped out of the station as I received a call from her.
“where are you?” she asked me without preamble, as usual.
“I just got out of the station,” I said, slightly flinched at the sound of my stomach says, “I’m hungry, are you at home?”
“yes, incidentally, mom told me to bring her cooking, this evening we will eat curry and fried chicken,” Atsuko said, “could you please buy honey in the market?”
I raise an eyebrow hear my wife’s request, I don’t mind at all to stop by the market and buy something, but why should the honey?
“honey for what?”
“for curry.”
My throat, “for what? Curry? Honey?”
Atsuko growled, “I don’t much wonder, but it! I’m not going to mix into yours anyway. I’m going to eat it, don’t worry!”
“that’s not the problem!” I protested, “where there are people who eat curry mixed with honey!”
“then I’ll be the first!” she said curtly, “just don’t forget to buy me a honey!”
Then she hung up.
I often hear about pregnant woman who want to eat weird but this is the first time Atsuko asked for something as strange as this.
I was just going to turn to the market to buy honey surrogate Atsuko when my phone rang again incoming e-mail sign, I thought it was from Atsuko again. I was surprised to see that the message from Haruna.
Today I exchange e-mail addresses with Haruna so that she can reach me anytime she needed someone to talk to. I don’t think she was going to send me an e-mail as soon as this.
‘sensei, thank you for today’
I smiled reading the short message from my students. I felt what I had don was nothing but I’m happy because I have made my student feel better.
With a sense of excitement I typed a reply message to Haruna.
'equally, Kojima-san! Ganbatte!'
I hit the send button, smiling.
The next mission us to avoid anger at my wife with a way to buy honey for her!
TBC
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Great update :on GJ: u deserve this one :on slopkiss:
If there will be a drama, pls don't make them getting hate more each other
Sry for my bad english XD
I really love this story!
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Honey with Curry...
Not looking forward to eat that... But then Atsuko is pregnant...
And they tend to have weird cravings...
Ah.. luckily, Kai able to help Haruna a bit.
Next chapter... would be about the date Atsuko and Yuu would have
What's going to happen on the date?
Can't wait to see
Thank you for the update
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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very interest... harunyan likes kai ? make takanyan sweet momment please xD *run
i wonder if kai have 2 wife ? lol ...
please update as soon as possible....
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Hi author-san!
I think this first time i read ur story so....yoroshiku ne ^^
I just start read ur story today and..... i love it! :heart:
Its been awhile seeing atsukoxkai pairing so im happy u make one :)
Please continue,im waiting ^^
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@ubulubulbilu
thank you for reading :kneelbow:, I won't make they hate each other :on asmo:
@charmingstar
takaharu sweet moment ? I'll think about it later :hehehe:
@ryu201
Yoroshiku ! thank you for reading, I'm happy you love my fic :shy1:
keep reading ryu201-san :hee:
@cisda83
at first, i little strange too about curry mixed with honey hehehe, anyway thank you for reading
here there are, chapter 9. enjoy it
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Chap 9
Atsuko POV
I know what I’m doing, ah exactly ‘going’ I do, this is not true. I mean I was married and over again my husband and I will soon be a parent, but I actually intend to meet my ex-boyfriend today. Of course i don’t intend to do strange things with it, we just met because he wanted to return some stuff left in his place. This is not cheating. Yes, i don’t need to feel afraid or uncomfortable on my husband, didn’t do anything wrong.
I know I’m not wrong but it is also not true. I feel bad to Kai because I see Yuu quietly but I certainly can’t say to him I would meet Yuu right? I mean, what kind of wife asked her husband for permission to see her ex-boyfriend?
Ah no, normally, a wife will not see her ex-boyfriend quietly behind him.
Yuu and I broke up because I have to get married with Kai. When we parted he was very angry at me. I distinctly remember the moment his expression. His face is usually quiet and rarely shows the mean reaction, that day he punched the glass table in front of him until shattered. For the first time since I’ve known him, I felt frightened at the sight.
Yuu is handsome and educated is the ideal figure of a man who always wanted to marry. At the time, when I saw his eyes full of anger at me, I know, he will never be able to forgive me. I know, it’s too late, I could never be with him.
For the first time, at the time, I learned to let go of something so I wanted.
“you want to go?”
I was standing in front of a long mirror in the living room and saw the reflection of myself in the mirror when Kai who was lying on the couch in front of the television and read newspapers take his eyes from the paper in his hand and looked at me.
Typically, before this, he never asked me anything. This is the first time he asked something like this to me. From the look in his eyes I knew he was serious adn want answers from me.
I swallowed. Why should it now. I don’t know if I could lie to him or not. How did he already know me long enough to know the signs when I lie.
But I tried to relax, I must not look suspicious.
“I have an appointment with my old friend,” I’m not entirely lie, Yuu also include old friend, right?
Kai who was lying on the couch and put his newspaper is now sitting on the table in front of him, “where? I’ll drive you.”
I hastily flick of my hands, trying not seem to panic, “no, we’ll just eat cake in the cafe just opened in front of the station next to the city. I’ll be back before dinner.”
Kai frowned but didn’t say anything. Somehow I felt he was considering to let me go or not.
“I promise I will only eat piece of cake to keep my sugar levels,” I said, forcing myself to smile, Kai still looked at me without saying anything, “and I take blood booster supplements the doctor just in case, okay? My friends will teased me if they see me will come delivered by you!” I laughed nervously.
Kai sighed, “well, don’t forget, pick the train at six o’clock to go home.”
I nodded, secretly relieved that managed to go without supervision and felt a little guilty for lying to him.
“well, I go first, okay?”
I hurriedly left our apartment before he changed his mind.
I turned once in the direction of our apartment building and sighed before stepping away from the building that has not been year it has become my home.
Actually, I feel strange. A month ago, I would not feel guilty at all when lying to Kai. I will not bother asking his permission to leave the house.
I think, a moth ago, Kai was not going to bother about where I’m going and what I would do outside the home. It’s was strange, because in a month’s time, we were both changed. It feels like we have ourselves back once while still friends.
I walked to the station while remembering what causes we both changed. I feel that lately I feel more comfortable around Kai. Perhaps now we can begin to make friends again like before.
Friends?
I chuckle with that term. Make friend with your husband is a thing that sound ridiculous.
When I was on the train, I looked at my watch. Time show at half two in the afternoon. Way to the next town take twenty minutes, I will arrive on time. I was relieved because Yuu didn’t like delay. He was always on time and he hopes that everyone around can be just in time to make an appointment to see him.
I still remember when I was delayed half an hour from the time an appointment because my professor who wishes to add our class hours. When it took all our dinner to apologize to him. I really love Yuu but at certain times he almost made me cry with violent attitude.
The first time I met Yuu was when my friend invited to gathering with young lawyers from a firm. That’s where I met him. He looks striking than the other with his dark brown hair and white skin. His face was very handsome and made me fall in love at first sight to him.
I was very happy when he came up and asked me to get acquainted. We then chatted and exchange phone numbers. Three days after the gathering that he sent me a text message to ask me out to dinner. Of course I was very happy!
We ate out a few times. Every time he would take me to a place of luxury and class and treated me like a princess. He doesn’t talk to much, but he listened to me carefully. In our fifth date, he asked me to be his official girlfriend. Of course I don’t have reasons to reject a man like him.
Handsome, rich, have confident and smart, although he little short, but it’s doesn’t matter. What I want from all man it’s in Yuu. I like winning lottery when it became his girlfriend. Many girl jealous of me, I guess I’ve become like Cinderella, managed to steal the heart of the prince.
I snapped out of my reverie when an announcement over the loudspeaker announced that the train will enter the station for a while longer. I was getting ready to go down.
My chest was pounding when I got off the train and walked out of the station. It has been almost half a year I have not met with Yuu, I don’t know what to put face like what is currently dealing with him later.
I took deep breath and prepare myself. I know since I gain weight containing eight kilograms. Suddenly, I wanted to turn away and go home.
I am now definitely look fat at all compared to the first. What if Yuu was so disgusted with me?
Suddenly I panicked but I tried to calm myself. I don’t need to worry. I tried to convince myself that I’m married and Yuu opinion of me doesn’t mean anything.
Place I promise to meet with Yuu just five minutes from the time the train station. In an instant I was in front of the cafe. A cafe terrace with French-style design. The place is quite popular to date.
I saw him.
It didn’t take long to find Yuu. He looks like sparkling among others.
He sat there while drinking a cup of coffee. Black coffee without cream and sugar. I know his habits. He looks very handsome with red polo shirt and faded gray jeans.
My breath as interrupted when he looked at me and waved briefly as a sign that I approached.
Shit.
I swore to myself.
Shit.
Shit.
Shit.
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“What will you order?”
I took the book list the menu while checking the list of menus available while Yuu uses his hands as a gesture to the waiter came to our table.
“can I help you? Asked the young waitress who is old enough and look neat.
“ah, I order beef pepper rice and peach tea.” I smiled at the waiter. Then I turned to Yuu, “you didn’t order food?”
Yuu shook his head.
“let me repeat your order, one beef pepper rice and one peach tea?”
I nodded.
The waiter smiled politely before then asked us to wait a bit before going to leave us.
“long time no see you,” I said, opening the conversation after the waiter was gone from our sight, “how are you?”
“I’m fine,” said Yuu with regular expression alone, he doesn’t look awkward or excited, “how are you?”
“I’m fine, as you see.” I laughed.
He looked at me with eyes seemed dark and cold. For a moment I was afraid that he would say something cynical and sharp, but then he surprised me with a smile.
“your stomach started grow.”
I blushed, I didn’t expect he would say something like that with a smile, “ah yes, has entered five month so it’s starting to look.”
“ah, sou dayo..”
I didn’t say anything else. My fingers are linked to one another and my eyes focused on my fingers it. Suddenly I wanted to go home. I guess come to see Yuu today is not wise.
I bit my lower lip, slowly looked up and stared at Yuu who seemed drinking a coffee.
“err, you say you want to restore my stuff?” I tried not to look panicked. The final thing I want now is Yuu know that I feel awkward nearby.
“ah, gomen,” Yuu said with a sigh, “I was setting up but instead left on my desk. I’ve got here when I realized.”
This time my turn to sigh. The way I came to this place and had to lie to my husband, without anything ?
I don’t think that Yuu would be so careless.
“what do you want to return the goods?” I asked, “if it’s only small thing is not important, just throw it..”
Yuu shook his head, “I can’t throw it away. You remember you lost earring that time ?
I nodded.
“I found it in my room,” he explained to me, his face didn’t show any expression, I can’t read what it currently in his mind, “ you really like that earring, right?”
Again I nodded.
“sorry, I’ll give it to you next time,” Yuu said quietly sipping his coffee.
I stared at him in disbelief.
‘next time’? This means that I have to see him again?
Suddenly my stomach churning, I was feeling bad about all of this.
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Lunch with Yuu initially stiff. I can’t be indifferent in front of Yuu. How was he so upset when we broke up one time. Although today he didn’t mention Kai and marriage at all, I still feel bad.
But after a while, the stiffness of us began to melt. I was relieved that Yuu was no longer angry with me. He is being mediocre to me. He didn’t try to seduce me or ask me to go back to him, or show signs as if he intends to return with me. Not that I expect it.. It’s just..
Yuu offered to drive me home but I refused. I still want to talk to Yuu but I don’t want Yuu meet with Kai. The last time they met was involved in fisticuffs between the two and I don’t want that to happen again.
I sat on the train alone after lunch with Yuu, again, my head filled with memories of the past are suddenly awakened after what happened today. If I had to choose, ah if I may choose, without hesitation, of course I would choose to marry Yuu. I mean, I love him and he has everything I want. Foster home with a guy like yuu, will definitely be better than the joint Kai. I mean, Kai is my best friend and I love him as a friend but I can’t possibly spend the rest of my life with someone who doesn’t love me, right?
I sighed. The return journey by train this time was very long.
Ever since I entered high school I hardly ever hear anything about Kai. Although our house was near but we are no longer adjacent ever met, he was no longer come to my house and I longer ever called him to ask him to play with me. We slowly grow older and getting away.
I still don’t remember what the reasons why we suddenly no longer speak, but when entering university I ever had met with Kai. He decided to get out of the house and live independently since leaving school and since then we have never met at all until five month ago. I don’t think our meeting that night able to change everything.
That day I was the middle of a fight with Yuu. I want forget my problems with drinking, but all of my close friend are busy. I also decided to go drinking alone.
In a state of half-drunk, when out of the bar, I collided with Kai.
Fate began toying us since that moment.
Kai couldn’t let me go home alone drunk, and I didn’t want to go home. After I forced him drunk, he took me to his apartment. There are accompanied me back to drink while listening to all my complaints about Yuu. Starting from there, I can’t remember anything else. I remember, the next morning I suffered extreme headaches and woke up in a naked and Kai in also naked.
I still remember clearly the expression on Kai’s face when he woke to the sound of screams.
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The trains finally arrived at the station where I had to go. With a sigh I rose from my seat. My back sore though I only sat for twenty minutes away. Actually there are many factors that make me feel tired today.
I walked out the train while was thinking about what I’m talking about with Yuu.
We didn’t talk much, I realized that as long as we sat together for a few hours before we didn’t tell each other a lot. We’re just going to eat our order without a lot of talk. Every now and then our eyes will meet and one of us will start a minor topic in few minute will end up just like that.
I feel comfortable when I was near Yuu, rightfully so, right? All because I love Yuu, right?
I shook my head vigorously to eliminate the thought out of my head as I stepped out of the station. Then my eyes glued to the figure of a young man who was standing, leaning on of the pillars of the light that is in front of the station. His hands were in his pockets, his gaze directed towards me. When he notice me, he pulled his hand from his pocket and waved it casually as if it were the most natural thing on earth.
I trotted up to him with an eyebrow interlocked.
“Kai?”
“yo..” he said casually.
“what?” I asked, watching him with a confused, our house is not too far from the station, I don’t see any reasons why Kai to effortlessly come to pick me up. Not that I don’t appreciate his efforts to pick me up, otherwise I actually think that what he did is pretty sweet. Although I feel little guilty, he even bother to pick me up after I lied to him to meet my ex-boyfriend.
I tried to shake off the feeling of guilt. I told myself that I should not feel guilty at him this will not hurt him. I’m sure he will not mind if he knew I went to see Yuu, I mean for what he felt objection?
“I think sometimes we could eat outside, right?” Kai said with grinning broadly.
I wrinkled my forehead while walking two step toward him, “not lately we’ve often eaten outside?”
“I know that delicious ramen shop around here,” he said with a grin as if still not listening to me.
I sighed, “ahh.. Well.. Well... Ramen for dinner huh? On which side stall?”
TBC
I will update as soon as possible
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Did yuu still love acchan and taking back acchan from kai? :V *i hope no*
Please update soon^^
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Chap 10
Atsuko POV
Maybe what I’m doing is wrong, ah no, what I do is definitely wrong. I wonder what’s in my head until I exist in this place at this time... Oh wait, what if Kai know? No, Kai wouldn’t know. Beside what if he knows?
After all, I’m not having a affair.
“so what your order?”
I sighed, since before my eyes on the menu but didn’t really read it. My head is full of the other thing.
Hastily I mention the top menu that are on the list. I’m not even hungry at this time.
Actually, why am I here?
I look at the man in front of me while squinting my eyes. Why would I when he asked me to meet me again today? Ah yes, he said he would return the earrings this time.
I should go immediately after receiving earring but Yuu wouldn’t let me go before eating. He knows i can never resist.
Maybe all sound confusing. It all started this morning, while I was busy watching a morning talk show on TV suddenly my phone rang.
I don’t think that Yuu would call me, saying taht he was around my house and asked me to meet. Again he reasoned want to restore my earrings. I also don’t think, before I had time to think, my mouth already agreed Yuu invitation to meet. And I know, this is not the right thing to do.
We met at a family restaurant within a few blocks from my apartment. I’m little worried that there are neighbors who caught us both.
Somehow I feel guilty.
I don’t understand why Yuu still want to see me. I recall when we first broke up it really upset em. I’m not sure he will forgive me. Today too I don’t know what is in his head. Could he still hates me?
I squinted earring in my hand.
“it’s not my earrings.”
He smiled, “oh yeah?”
I looked at him confused, “it’s not my earrings. I can’t be wrong.”
Yuu just smiled while eating his salad. I still wrinkled my forehead. I don’t understand, what this really is.
“Yuu...”
“it does not your earring, i just bought it.”
I raised my eyebrow, “for what?”
Yuu put his fork. His eyes looked straight into my eyes, “I want you to come back to me.”
I was speechless. Yuu still looked at me seriously. I tried to wait a while, hoping he would laugh and say that everything he said was just a jokes to make me laugh. But unfortunately for a joke, what he just said was not at all funny, and for one thing I also know that Yuu is not the type who like to joke. What he just said was really serious and I don’t know what the response should provide.
I opened my mouth to say something but no single word come out. For a moment my mouth open and close without being able to say anything, to the person at the table across from us I must have looked like a fish that is placed outside the tank. I don’t understand why Yuu can seem so calm during and after saying something like that.
After all this time why should it now?
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“tadaima...”
I took a deep breath before saying, “okaeri..”
I tried to be as normal as possible in front of Kai. I know we don’t love each other but somehow we were married, and I don’t intend cheated on him.
The word ‘cheating’ itself has sounded horrible in my ear.
I walked out the kitchen towards Kai who just threw his body on the couch after release his coat. I stood not far away still thinking how to behave in front of him tonight after was has happened today.
“hhhhhhhh.....”
I looked at each other with Kai. We just sighed simultaneously. I blinked my eyes, as well as my husband’s. He stopped his movements are being loosened his tie. His eyebrows drew together as he looked at me anxiously.
“what?”
I shook my head, brown eyes looked into my eyes, look for signs that I was lying or hiding something , “no... You?”
He hurriedly shook his head but I know that he was hiding something from me. I moved toward him and pointed to his chest with my index finger. He took few step when I forward direction.
“Kai...” I hissed, “you’re hiding something, right?”
“n-not important..”
“oh yeah?”
I knew he was lying with her eyes avoiding my gaze.
“Kai..!”
“w-well I’ll tell you later..” Kai said finally, “only if you tell me what’s wrong with you.”
I flinched.
A pretty dodgy deals. I folded my arms across my stomach bulge that had been thinking that my husband submitted bids. Of course I still have another alternative that is pretending to sulk until he tells what happened to him, in any way to be pregnant woman with her hormones are ready to explode at any time provide a distinct advantage for me, but I dismissed that possibly. The only option if I wanted to listen to what my husband long sigh behind it is to give him reason why I sighed.
A difficult choice. But this is life.
I don’t know how Kai will react later.
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Either I should feel happy or sad. Or both at once?
First person ever taught me that every thing that happens must have positive and negative aspects at the same time, just how we react to it. And this time, how should I respond?
I glanced at Kai who still silent beside me. Apparently I’m not the only one among who lost for words and didn’t know what to do. Actually, I was surprised by what he had just told me. Actually, when asked to tell what he was hiding something from me before, i don’t imagine that it is something like this.
“so...” I swallowed, “you lose your job?”
Kai shook his head, “I was not fired,” he tried to laugh but his laugh sounded not powered, “only ‘rested’ until the new school year in April.”
I wrinkled my forehead, “Okay, I understand. But why?”
Again, brown eyes refuse looked into my eyes.
“Kai.....” I’m getting frustrated because since he had not yet talked with clear and I need to know. When my husband lost a job because something, I as a wife is entitled to know why, right?
Kai sighed deeply. For a moment he hesitated but then finally he opened his mouth to tell me, “there are rumors if I had special relationship with one of my students.”
“what?!” I stood up from my seat.
I looked at my husband who was still sitting on the couch we were in disbelief. I never saw Kai as someone who could be having affair, especially with his students. Kai probably not the smartest man I’ve ever met but I know he was not stupid enough to having affair with his own student. But still, men still male. We never know when they will be tempted by another woman... Wait, of course he would be tempted, wouldn’t he just marry me because he had to. But.... If he thinks this kid certainly he would not do anything like that.... Yeah, right?
“Atsuko... Do you hear me?”
I blinked my eyes and realized that Kai apparently was trying to talk to me.
His eyes looked at me anxiously, “are you all right?”
I shook my head, hand massaging my temples that suddenly felt dizzy. I sat down again, but this time shifted slightly away from him.
“I don’t understand,” I muttered, “why all of a sudden?”
“my students, one of my girl student, is in a trouble...” Kai told me again, “I take the time to listen her problem, and then somehow strange rumors...”
I shook my head, “I still don’t understand, the school can’t go around it..”
“never mind,” Kai suddenly laughing, when I threw an angry glare at him, he looked at me apologetically, “good thing, we can take a vacation as you want it, right?”
He always like this. There is always a ‘good thing’ of all things. Yes it is one of the thing he taught me. I throw breath and shook my head. It seems useless as well to be angry about this.
“so..” Kai looked at me timidly, “what about you? What are the thing that had been bothering you?”
I gasped. Suddenly I remembered about what Yuu had told me. Yet for a while before I managed to forget it as a problem that Kai told me.
When seeing how Kai looked at me, somehow I feel say that is not right to do.
Looks like this time I have to lie anymore.
“ah, I was just thinking about our next vacation..”
TBC
sorry if too short :bow: :bow:
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I want mooreee updaatee. Lol
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Acchan!!!! Please be honest toward Kai!!
Can't you see, that he is trying to be better husband!!? :mon pray2:
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Erm... Kai got suspension until the so-called student graduate I think.
And Atsuko is somehow thinking about having an affair with Yuu?
Eh... Yuu sometimes has violent attitude... is he a DV (domestic violent)
Or Yuu just wanted to get revenge on Kai and Atsuko for making a fool of him, when Atsuko unwillingly cheat on Yuu under influence and got pregnant and married to Kai
What's going to happen next?
Can't wait to find out
Thank you for the updates
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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Sure sure,as long as u update i will keep reading it :on GJ:
But one question author-san,how u get idea for curry with honey? :huhuh
And please make as much as drama on ur story i dont mind :hee:
But remember,dont u dare separate my atsumina or else i will hunt u down :twisted:
Hohoh!
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@Ryu201
actually it based from my mom :wahaha:
I won't separated atsumina, :peace:
I hope this is a good chapter,
enjoy it minna-san :onioncheer: :hee:
sorry for my bad english :kneelbow:
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Chap 11
Kai POV
‘Sensei, I want to meet.’
A short massage which I received a few days ago it was the beginning of all these problems. I know, when I first gave my number to my students that it’s probably not wise enough action for my career. But I couldn’t leave it alone. Somehow, I don’t want to see Kojima Haruna sad. Not only because he is my students, but there are other things that make me feel sorry for her. I don’t quite understand but the day after I received a massage from the girl I wrote back and said I would meet her soon. I told Atsuko that I would go to a convinience store to buy a magazine instead met my student in a family restaurant. I don’t want to lie to Atsuko but I felt, somehow, she wouldn’t like it when I met with my students outside of school hours. I don’t feel that this is true of my action but I can’t leave it alone.
I met with Kojima Haruna in a family restaurant not far from the station. The girl was ordered curry rice and eat without saying anything. Her eyes empty as usual but this time it looks a little swollen like crying. I didn’t ask anything about what happened in her family. He just ate and I sat quietly. Until she finished the meal was neither of us spoke.
She was still wearing a uniform and carrying a bag, I suspect she had just returned from tutoring after school. She was a diligent student.
When she finished eating, for the first time since we arrived on the scene, she said something. Without looking into my eyes she thanked. She said that no one in her house and she doesn’t like to eat alone. I understand her feeling. Dinner alone is no fun because it subconsciously I offered to accompany her whenever she needed a friend for dinner. That night for the first time I saw her smile at me.
Since that night a couple of times I find an excuse to leave the house at night to accompany Haruna dinner. Didn’t happen between us, of course, I just accompany our dinner barely even talked about anything. After she finished eating we will return to their homes and this has happened a few times until today when the principal called me into his office along with several other teachers.
Someone apparently saw me and Haruna dinner together and rumors quickly circulated among the students up to the ears of the teachers and principals.
“Takahashi-sensei, I understand that you don’t mean anything, I believe what you say doesn’t happen,” the headmaster sighed and looked at me from behind wearing reading glasses, “but, if the parents and foundations to know, they would think differently.”
I can’t defend myself because I know what the principal said was true. Since the beginning I already know that I’m doing this is not true, for whatever reasons.
“you’re a good teacher and so far I see you teach well and the students were like you,” said the headmaster again with a frown “but you are young, you have to be careful, your students currently are at the age where they are keen to try a variety of things, if you know what I mean.”
I swallowed hard and nodded.
“although I also know that the Kojima-san is a student with a good record and includes students with above-average achievement, but I had to do something to set an example so that such incidents don’t happen again.”
I flinched word of the principal. For the first time after a while just shut up and listen, I opened my mouth, “sorry, but I beg you to not have impose sanctions on the Kojima-san. Currently her family condition is not good,” I tried to explain, “when parent hear that she was exposed to this kind of problem in the school..”
The headmaster held up a hand to stop me, “I understand your point, but we still have to do something.”
I sighed, I know what I have in mind the principal today, “I don’t mind receiving a sanction for this incident.”
Some teacher are also there in the room was surprise to hear what I said. Mario looked at me in disbelief.
“Takahashi-sensei, what do you realize what you just said,” said Mario, who had been silent, “Kojima who always invites you to meet.”
“yes, and I agreed to meet her,” I said, still staring at the head of the school to show my seriousness, “I think no need to punish two people, just me alone.”
The headmaster again took a deep breath. It releases wears glasses and massage his temples, “you drag me in a difficult position, Takahashi-sensei. You are a good teacher and I don’t want to lose a teacher like you,” he looked at me with a face looks tired, “for a while, you don’t need to come to teach until the new school year. At least I hope this rumor will soon disappear by itself and with this the foundation member will not protest.”
I sighed and nodded. I know that I received the punishment could be worse than this. And as long as they don’t impose sanctions on Haruna, I can be patient with this decision.
I’m just worried about Atsuko’s reaction when she heard about this.
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“well, the what about our daily expenses until April? It’s still October!”
I’m little relieved that at least Atsuko doesn’t make a fuss about these rumors. I don’t know how to explain to her that I’ve been several times to lie to her to meet my student. Although I don’t do things that I thought wrong somehow I don’t want Atsuko to know about this.
I sat on our couch, staring at Atsuko, the size of the stomach, standing in front of me with hands on her hips and frowning. I smiled, “don’t worry, they still will transfer half of salary each month.”
“a half?” Atsuko doesn’t sound relieved to hear.
I nodded, “and even then because they know that my wife was pregnant at this time, but don’t worry, fortunately for the purposes of our baby already has more than enough and we still have saving, right? We still can take a vacation to the onsen, as you wish...”
“forget about the holiday,” Atsuko said as she walked up to me and sat down beside me, I looked at her confused, I thought she was keen on vacation, “we better not to spend money, right? We can still have vacation next time.”
I couldn’t hide my smile to hear what she just said who always been selfish it. I don’t think she would say that.
Atsuko was surprised when I suddenly kissed her cheek at a glance. She holds her cheek that I kissed and turned to me with dilated eyes and face flushed. I laughed and hugged her. I felt guilty for lying to her but I’m glad because her attitude slowly change to me. This is evident when she let me hold her and don’t push me or slap me. I buried my face in her short hair and smell of strawberry mixed with fresh citrus from shampoo uses.
“actually, I wanted to buy a car with our saving money,” I said, still hugging her, Atsuko shifted slightly and improve her position so it is more confident, this time her head resting on my chest, “our saving money is more than enough for a down payment for a car, right?”
“car?” Atsuko sounded doubtful, “is it not a waste?”
I chuckled to hear it, “soon we will have a baby, it would be more practical if we have a car.”
Atsuko sighed and nodded, “okay....”
“then we also have to start thinking about to move a bigger place,” I said, smiling when Atsuko docked at me, I don’t remember we been this close before.
“move?”
“we must have the baby’s room?” I explained, “this apartment only have two rooms.”
“for a while it was enough,” Atsuko muttered, her voice barely audible further, “we could sleep in same room.”
I smiled.
I lost my job for a while today but this time I was the happiest person in this world.
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Initially a bit hard for me to adjust my daily schedule since I don’t have to do to work. I used to get up early and get ready to jostle on the train to the station, because it was when I woke up in the morning and realized that I didn’t need to do anything, i feel strange. It look a few days to adjust to this situation. On the first day I didn’t know what to do at home on weekdays like that until Atsuko are bored saw me lying on the couch, which actually that is her place before, while watching television all day, told me to start preparing our baby’s room.
We decided to remodel the Atsuko room as a baby’s room. We don’t yet know what the gender of our baby so we choose neutral colors as soft green for the walls of the room. Remodel the rooms is not an easy task and takes over all day nut I’m happy because at least I have activities to do. Atsuko wants to help but I forbid it, of course, so she just sat watching me start painting the walls of the rooms.
“you know, I could do it more cleanly than you if you’d let me intervene,” Atsuko said as she watched me paint one wall of the room. Since she was constantly trying to make me change my decision and allow her to go to work painting the walls of the room. Of course I’m not going to let my wife who was pregnant do a job like this.
I know my work is not perfect but I’m pretty satisfied with what I already do, so I don’t think about what was Atsuko said and continue working. I know she just wants me to let her come to paint.
“I told you not to be right?” i muttered, still concentrating on my work, “I will not change my decision no matter what you say. Understand? It’s for you own good.”
Through the corner of my eye I could see Atsuko narrowed her eyes in disgust at me but I pretend not realize it and it makes it even more annoyed. Atsuko quite stubborn but I was able to insist that I want. Especially if it involves the safety of my son.
“I just wanted to help,” Atsuko muttered, her voice no longer curt but I know her well enough to know what is being played. She wanted to make me feel sorry for her. Oh no, it will not be effective ways for me, unfortunately.
I refrain from smiling.
“no need,” I said without looking at her, “since once you want to be a princess, right? A princess doesn’t need to work. It will only sitting quietly and watching until the job is finished.”
“but the price also should not have to work, right? It’s not fair!”
I stop my movement to turn to her who looks as surprise as me. Realizing what she has just said, Atsuko’s face quickly turned red. I was lost for word as she scrambles to her feet.
“I’m going to prepare dinner!” she said as she quickly left the rooms, but I could still see the red coloring ears.
Shortly after Atsuko left alone in the room that I still stood there, didn’t understand what actually just happened. I tried to remember what she has just said in case it turns out I misheard but her reaction just now clearly shows that I hear.
I chuckled. My face began to redden as she realized the meaning of word. There is a warm feeling in my stomach tickle.
“prince huh?” I muttered still grinning.
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After the events of the day, Atsuko never again asked me to allow her to help me. She no longer even see me working and will only come to call me for lunch. I think she was ashamed of what she said at that time even though I think what ift does when it’s pretty sweet.
Finally after a few days, I managed to finish the job. I called Atsuko to see the result of my work at the time and asked for her opinion. From the expression then I can make sure that she quite satisfied with what I’ve done.
The room was large with the same size of my room and Atsuko now. Walls of the room that had a soft pastel now painted light green and white ceiling. At first we intend to let the professionals to do it. I tried to do it myself, but the result are not neat and finally with a heavy heart I gave up and hired professionals. But apart from this section, all I’m doing myself.
White baby bed I put in the corner of the room with a table to change their diapers are not far away at it side. In another corner of the room there was a pile of dolls and toys that I bought for it and white wood cabinets to store baby clothes.
“not bad,” Atsuko said as she looked around her, “I don’t expect much initially.”
I smiled proudly, “I am satisfied with my work this time.”
Atsuko looked like going to say something when suddenly frowning and her arm touch her stomach. For a moment she didn’t make a sound at all just hug her belly with facial expression of pain.
I immediately went over and check it out. When we visited the doctor a few days ago, he said that Atsuko will give a birth to six weeks away but i still feel worry. There are some cases where the baby is born sooner than expect, right?
“what?” I asked anxiously when a pained expression on her Atsuko face began less, both my hand holding her shoulder, “are there sick?”
Atsuko shook her head, “he kicked my stomach hard enough just now,” and then she looked up and smiled even though it still looks a little pain, “it seems he liked his room.”
I smiled. I knelt in front of hem and stared at her stomach enlarged. Atsuko was rather surprise when I touch it, but she let me caress her belly.
“hey, what’s in there,” I mumble as he reply with small kick of my baby, I chuckled, “I’m glad you are healthy and active, but don’t get too excited, you’re hurting you mommy, understand?” Atsuko laughed hear me trying to converse with our baby, “I can’t wait to meet you.”
This time our baby kicked several times.
I looked up and looked at Atsuko who returned my gaze with a smile, “it seems he also can’t wait to meet you.”
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I just finished washing dishes after dinner when my cell phone rang sign an incoming massage. I dried my hands before checking my phone. Atsuko is currently sitting on couch while watching television after dinner. As always, every meal I was in charge of clearing the table and washing dishes. I don’t mind doing it as long as it could ease the burden on Atsuko.
I was speechless when I saw the name of the sender of a massage just receive it. I never thought that I would receive a massage from her again. I looked at Atsuko who seemed unaware of my gaze. It looks fun to watch night talk show that bring her favorite idol. I turned back to my cell phone.
‘Sensei, I want to meet.’
The message was very brief without any slightest emoticons. Kojima Haruna is not like most teenagers. She seemed less interested in things that are popular among children of her age at this time.
I know I shouldn’t ignore that message. If you get to know the school, this time we were both going to be in trouble and I will not be able to protect her from further sanctions. My brain to think hard. Beside that until Atsuko knew, she probably will not like what I’m doing.
But I couldn’t let my student away. Maybe I could use this opportunity to explain to her we should not meet outside school hours. It’s all for good as well. If until the school know, this time I will really miss my job, and she will also receive sanction. I didn’t so long ago to be teacher, but I have a sense of responsibility for my students. While I could I wouldn’t let them in trouble.
I was lucky Atsuko still glued to the television. Occasionally she would laugh to hear the answer given guest star in the show over the host is a silly question. If attention Atsuko is honest with her. And more than that, actually I’m also afraid that until Atsuko knew I had lied to her, this will make her angry. Or worse, make her sad.
I don’t want to make Atsuko sad but I had to do something. Eventually I decided that this would be the last lie.
With a little shaky i was back at the screen of my cells and start typing a reply message to Haruna. I have decided to meet her tonight. This time I will explain to her that I couldn’t accompany dinner again. I will try to explain that this is also for his own good. I know Haruna smart pupils. She will understand when I explained to her.
After sending a reply message to Haruna I was again confronted with one of the worst thing I have to do. Lying on Atsuko to meet my students.
TBC
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Chap 12
Atsuko POV
There are a few things changed in between me and Kai lately. Know since when we started getting rarely fight. Oh well,something I still scream and snapped to my husband, but what do you expect from pregnant woman with a blast hormones? I was little amazed with patience of Kai to face me, which to be honest sometimes a little far. Not only that, our relationship was back as many years ago when we were still good friends. Oh, maybe not really like it considering we now are married couple but still.. Unfortunately I can’t explain very well the changes that happened between us. For example, one of the changes that happened recently is that we are now sleeping in the same room.
Of course, even though we both slept in same bed, there’s nothing going on between us. I mean, we even don’t have such feelings to each other, and besides, I’m pregnant this time. Although from what I’ve heard, there are several ways you can do in order to have sex safely while pregnant.. Okay, forget it. You know, lately my hormones slightly uncontrolled. Sometimes strange thing cross in my head. As sometimes I feel when I looked at Kai...
“what’s wrong?” Kai asked without looking at me, his eyes still staring at the television screen in front f us. As we do usually almost every night, this time we both sat together watching television. I was kind enough to share ‘my lovely couch’ with him.
“mmm,” I said, turning his gaze back to the television screen and trying focus my attention to the middle of the show we watched that night, “nothing.”
I don’t want him to know that in recent times, each time being around him and looked at him, I feel strange. You know, uncomfortable feeling that makes you uneasy, but it also doesn’t make sense. Then, lately also, somehow, I feel that Kai looks bit more handsome.
I secretly returned to steal a glance at my husband. I’m trying to he was not observing her face again because I do it very carefully. I don’t want it to feel big head just because I looked at him silently like this.
From my position at the moment I can see Kai’s face clearly. I had never watched his face like this and it made me realize, Kai is different from what I used to know.
Kai’s brown eyes quite large for the size of a man, and I never realized that turns her eyelashes long enough to cast a shadow as he blinked or closed his eyes. His jaw now looks more powerful as well as the neck is now decorated Adam’s apple that is quite firm. His hair is usually fairly neatly arranged every time he went to school are now to fall apart like when we teenagers. I will not say it directly in front of him, but I liked the hair is left like this.
Unconsciously I licked my lower lip when my eyes riveted on my husband’s lip. Again I can only blame my hormones when I began to imagine what it was like when he kissed me. Of course I slap myself inwardly at the thought of like this. Give me break.. Kai is my friend. Indeed, he is my husband and the father of my baby, but he remains a friend. Friends are not supposed to think about things like this about him.
“mmm....”
I just realize that I had a strange sound when Kai looked at me with a frown. I was blushing. What he knew what I was thinking at the moment? Uh, of course he doesn’t know?
“Atsuko, what is it?” Kai asked, from the look in his eyes I knew he would not let me answer with ‘nothing’
I swallowed hard and tried to smile to mask my nervous. All these one-hormone hormones.
“I want ice cream,” I said, pointing enlarged stomach, inside I apologize to my son for making it as n excuse to escape from embarrassment, “could you but it?”
Kai raised his eyebrow, “instead of in the fridge there was still some ice cream yesterday?”
I hastily added, “banana flavor, I want the taste of bananas.”
Kai sighed, still looking at me disbelief. I grinned at him, feeling slightly guilty for lying to him.
“all right,” Kai said as he stood up, “I change first.”
I followed his figure walking towards our room with my eyes. Again I licked my lips. Ah, even back he also looks sexy.
I patted my cheeks hard to wake myself.
Damn hormones.
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Hormone-hormones kept acting up. I will cry for the little things and hysterical even for things that are not related to me. I became more irritable and angry. I also began to haunted by strange feeling that had never tasted. If you think the moment before the coming months it sucks, period of pregnancy tenfold from coming months.
Of course, now, even I can only blame my hormones. I mean, in normal circumstances I would not feel like this.
So today, Kai visiting his uncle and aunt and I are experiencing cramps since this morning decided to remain at home. Entering the ninth month I could barely move as far more than three feet without feeling tired. So once again, Kai went alone driving our new car that we bought four days ago and I was alone at home.
There is nothing wrong with being home alone. I don’t feel afraid or anxious, I am quite familiar. It’s just that there are other issues that have to face at this time. Creased me staring at small object lying on the table in front of me. Apparently the owner of the object accidentally left it at home.
Colored small metallic object that is Kai’s mobile. Looks like he forgot to take it when he went a few hours ago. I could just sit staring at the phone was with mixed feelings.
I want to see Kai phone.
I know it’s wrong. I would angry if anyone tried to see my cell phone so I understand that I should not to do it but again my hormones make me act by causing a kind of encouragement to see my husband’s phone. Just a little. Kai won’t know if I peeked a little his phone. Moreover,he didn’t hide anything, right?
I bit my lower lip. Suddenly, I feel anxious. What if I find a message from another woman on his cell phone? What if I find a picture of another woman. What if.....
Oh no, Kai is not like that. He is my husband so he would not have to do anything behind me. Although he didn’t love me. Wait, what if he has another woman he really loves? But he was married. He chose not to marry another woman, I have more confidence.. Yes, I have confidence.
But Kai is a normal man and as long as we got married we never...eh, we didn’t even kiss. Moreover Kai is man and he definitely needed....
Damn hormones.
I don’t want Kai meet other woman behind me. After all he is the father of my child, he just may divide his attention to us, me and our son.
I looked at the phone in front of it as if it could turn into giant monster anytime. Should I see his cell phone?
If Kai know I was see his cell phone, he wold be furious. I will definitely be furious if someone casually look at the contents of the phone.
More than that, maybe Kai will feel disappointed and somehow thought that he would feel disappointed even more frightening than he was angry.
But it was only when he knows. He doesn’t need to know if I see the content of the cell phone? I’m just going to see it for a while and then restore it to normal and acting like nothing happen. I just need to see it for a while just make sure Kai associated with another woman or not. Moreover, if indeed there is nothing suspicious in his phone that he shouldn’t mind if I see a little right?
Finally I made up my mind and reached out to grab the phone from the table but have not had time I touched my movement stopped. Suddenly, I have doubts whether I really need to do this. I mean, if I really find anything suspicious in his phone, what should I do? If there is a message from another woman or picture with another woman, what can I accept? What I believe I need to do this? I went back to question myself.
If Kai has relationship with another woman, what can I do? Anyway since the beginning we didn’t love each other. I can’t force his feeling right?
Suddenly for the first time over the past months, I felt depressed. I don’t even understand why I have to feel like this. If Kai doesn’t love me, it’s not unusual because I didn’t love him. Moreover, I see Yuu in tow so I don’t have the right to ban went to meet other woman. I frowned r when the though crossed in my mind. I don’t like it.
I feel like ready to cry anytime today.
Damn hormones.
I decided to go back to the room and leave the phone still sitting on the table in dinning room without I touched the slightest.
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Tonight as usual we sat side by side on the couch while watching television. Only this time even though my eyes focused on the television screen, but actually I don’t really see it. Currently there are many thing that filled my head and distract from around me.
I know this time Kai staring at me. Although I didn’t look at him, I could feel his eyes on me. I don’t lean on him this time as usual. I know I have to be weird but I couldn’t avoid it. Right now I feel weird.
Of course, the cause is none than the hormone estrogen is overflowing in my body. Damn hormones.
“what?”
I have not looked. I just shook my head a little, “it’s okay.”
Kai certainly don’t believe it, “you’re acting like this since dinner.”
“oh yeah?”
I heard Kai sighed. I knew he was trying to be patient with me.
“is there something you want to tell me?” he asked, still sounding very patient. I had held up two thumbs up for your patience, “I will listen.”
I shook my head. My eyes were still fixed on the television screen is actually not at all I’d seen, “it’s okay, don’t worry.”
“Atsuko,” Kai sounded tired, “when nothing has been done and make you angry, you should say that because otherwise I’ll never know what I’ve done.”
I snorted, “you don’t do anything.”
“Atsuko..”
“Kai!” I finally turned to him, ready to shout out a wide range of harsh word that could relieve the tightness in my chest at the time but when I looked into his eyes that stared back at me, the words that had been on the tip of my tongue like swallowed it back. I can’t say anything.
“Atsuko?”
I gulped and hurriedly shook my head vigorously to get rid of all the odd thought that just occurred to me. Something is wrong. I don’t believe, for a moment I was fascinated by Takahashi Kai.
No. I don’t want to admit that someone like Kai dazzling me. Estrogen hormones can be very terrible woman apparently.
I? Interested in Kai? Of course not...
“do you hear me?”
I blinked my eyes and rush at Kai who apparently just said something to me, “uh? Yes?”
“I was wondering, are you okay?” this time there are streaks worried look on his handsome face.
Wait a minute? Who I call handsome just now?
I shook my head, “I’m just thinking.”
“thinking?”
I nodded, “you know, a woman has a lot of things that need to be thinking seriously,” I said, waving a hand a sign that I didn’t want to continue this topic again, “of course, a man will not understand things like this.”
Unexpectedly, Kai smiled. I blushed when I saw him smile like that. My cheeks felt hot and my chest felt tight. Since when his smile looks so handsome? Since when Kai could smiled like that.
Damn hormones.
Kai laughed and patted my head gently. He looked at me jokingly, “well then,” he smiled again show his dimple in his cheeks, “don’t push yourself to think hard, okay?” he teased as he chuckled again, “if you don’t usually think might you can get sick.”
Since when Kai laughter sounded like this. More importantly, since when only hear the sound of laughter as this could make my heart beat so fast?
“Atsuko?” Kai who seemed to expect me to reply his joke with harsh word, looking at me puzzled, “are you okay? Your face is red.”
My heart almost jumped out of my mouth when Kai unfold my bangs and presses his forehead to my forehead. I’m grateful that he was not aware of the increased heart pounding fast.
“you don’t have fever,” Kai muttered as he removed his face from me, “that strange, your face looks very red.”
“uh, hot,” I muttered, laughing awkwardly, I use my hands to fan myself, “this night is hot enough, right? You’re not hot?”
Kai narrowed his eyes and looked at me with a puzzled, “hot?” he chuckled, “in October like this?”
I pursed my lips, in my heart I wish my face not flushed again now, “a pregnant woman is easier to feel the heat.”
Kai smiled hear my reason. I silently cursed the man who married me few month ago. Usually he doesn’t smile as much like this. If it is yes, usually he doesn’t smile like this. What’s wrong with him today? Kept smiling like a fool. What he doesn’t know if his smile was..... Riveting?
Wait, give a break. Kai and riveting are two words that can’t combined in the same sentence. Kai didn’t amazed. No wonder he never did with anyone before me. He certainly was not popular among the ladies.
“hey? You hear me?”
I blinked a few times.
“yes?”
Kai sighed, “what happened to you today?”
Ha! That is same question that should be addressed to you, baka!
“Atsuko?” Kai call again, this time frowning and I could see a bit of resentment began to shine in his eyes, “you sure you all right? You got me worried! Since dinner before you constantly being weird. Did something happen today? You know you can always tell me, right?”
That happened today?
How dare he ask about what happened today after him, and hormones, playing with my feeling all days. First, I made wondered if this time there was another woman close to him. I spent almost an hour to argue with myself just to see the contents of the message on his phone. And at the moment I still feel upset for reasons I couldn’t understand, he showed me that smiled, uh, of course, was not too special just.. Blame the hormones. Under normal circumstances I would be dazzles by his smiled.
“Atsuko?”
Again and again he thrust his face toward me, this time to get my attention.
For a moment our eyes at each other. Suddenly empty head like hypnotized brown eyes looked at me then.
I wonder who started it, knew it, I feel the lips of my childhood playmates was in contact with my lips. It took two seconds for me to realize what was going on. And strangely I don’t feel disgusted with the kiss.
Slowly i closed my eyes and let Kai is hesitant kiss. At first he was shy but when I kissed him back, he began to believe in themselves. Slowly he put his hand around me and held me to be closer to him.
After a while Kai finally keep his face away from me. He looked at me with a look of fear and shame, this time my face blushing like a few moments ago. Looks like he was afraid of my reaction.
I was surprised by what had just happened. I never thought that Kai will kiss me, but I thought better not to mention is that I enjoyed it.
This is certainly due to the hormone estrogen dominate my body.
I bit my lower lip. Kai smiled shyly at me.
Damn hormones.
This time I put my arm around his neck and pulled him toward me to kiss him again.
TBC
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I hate the "TBC" at the moment like this :v
Wkowko
Please update soon author-san~^^
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Kyaaaa!!!
Too sweet!!! Atsumina moment just too sweet!!!
I hope they realize their feeling to each other soon!
I really happy for this chapter :inlove:
Please continue yuko-san :kneelbow: :mon pray2:
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U remind me of this ff http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=33224.0 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=33224.0)
But the Author never update again
Ah~ update soon Author san!
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wooow sexadicchan wake up ~
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Sorry for late update minna-san, :bow: :mon sweat:
here there are chapter 13,
enjoy it :peace:
Chap 13
If anyone says the man is a creature who was lucky not to have pass through the birth process, you should think again this opinion. Because it is, though men don’t know what it pregnant over nine month and pass the pain childbirth, doesn’t mean that men can really have fun when his wife experienced the process. Think, for Atsuko pregnant, I had to do a lot of things to keep her emotions ready to explode at anytime. I had to wake up at midnight and went out looking for pickled radish because she suddenly wanted and when I returned with pickles, she was sleeping and didn’t want to eat pickles again. I also have to deal with all the changes that happened so fast feelings. Sometimes she would put a face like crying just because of one word I said. Me, of course, let her vent her frustration to me and try to be patient to deal with.
Like when he suddenly going angry because I answered her question.
“I look bigger.” she muttered the she looks in the mirror, I was sitting reading the newspaper looked up to see her without saying anything. In my eyes she looks normal, “am I look big?”
I shrugged my shoulders in bewilderment, a pregnant woman look bigger it is reasonable right? There is nothing wrong with a great look while pregnant.
“you’re pregnant, Atsuko...”
“do I look big?” repeated insisted once again. Both her hands on her hips and her eyes looked at me annoyed.
I put my newspaper on the table, “the pregnant woman is great”
Apparently the answer is the wrong answer. For anyone out there, for your own safety, remember this, don’t ever tell a pregnant woman that they looked great. You’ll thank me someday when considering this.
“you say that I’m fat!” Atsuko screamed beginning to tear.
Believe me when it’s like that, is not an easy job to make my wife feel batter. Even say sorry will not solve the problem. And this doesn’t happen once or twice, but almost everyday. I have to think twice or more before answering the question, but when I think too long she will conclude her own and become hysterical.
If anyone asks me how I could survive for nine months and patient enough to deal with the full Atsuko hormone estrogen, I don’t know. Sometimes I feel very angry, there are times when Atsuko , whether intentionally or not, throwing hurtful words to be heard and desperately refrain from yelling yell or reply to her words. Trust me it is not easy. It took every ounce of patience that was in me to refrain from causing unnecessary quarrels.
Usually at such times I would remind myself that Atsuko didn’t really intend to hurt my feeling. That at the time, her hormone is spoke to me. I will count to hundred hearts to refrain. I kept reminding myself that the current state of Atsuko, half is my fault too.
At night, when I fell asleep, sometimes I would be looking at her face. There are days when I lost my patience and we will fight. Of course, all would end up with me apologizing and caving. But I don’t mind to give in and apologizing even though in many cases, I am not guilty at all. When faced with a woman, a man still had to apologize to solve the problem, no matter who is wrong.
Nights like that, after we had a fight and make up, will I spend staring at her face. Doing things like this, oddly enough, makes me feel better. When I looked at her face I like receiving more stock patience in me. I will never get tired of looking at her face that was asleep. I will not be looking at ti like this at the times she woke up. Atsuko would be offended if I looked her like this.
Since childhood, I have weakness in front of Atsuko. I will be made upset and angered by her, we will fight and argue, not infrequently she would hit me when she was angry, but no matter how we quarrel, in the end always me who succumb to it.
Atsuko is like beautiful princess and has everything. She used to be pampered and get whatever she wants. And I must admit that I was one of those who are too spoiled her. Since the first hard to refuse her request. Although it is difficult, for the sake of my friend I would do anything.
In the past we were very close. Since kindergarten we were always together. But when we were junior all began to change and slowly we began to move away.
I still remember clearly the reason why we stay away. Atsuko may have no recollection of what happened that day but I will never forget.
Today is the first time I feel very angry, and disappointed at my friend.
As is usually the day I came home from school and Atsuko together. Although we differ class, me and Atsuko still go to and from school together. Morning I’ll come to her house, or when I oversleep then Atsuko will come to me and kicked me to wake up. Then after school, I would pick her up to her class and will go home together. Routines like this lasted for nearly a half until that day, when I come to her class as usual to pick her up, I overheard a Atsuko conversation with some friends.
FLASHBACK
“you misunderstand!” said a voice which I recognized a the voice of Atsuko, I stop the movement that will open the classrooms door, my conscience tell me to listen further what she would say, “the two of us there was nothing at all!”
“so you are not going out?”
Atsuko laugh, “me and Kai? You must be crazy!”
Hear that it feel like there are filling my stomach with hot water but I still endure to listen further.
“oh yeah?” I don’t recognize the voice said, “but you guys are always together so I figured there must be something in between you.”
“all the people also think like that,” said another voice, “you always come and go home together, right?”
“it’s just because our house close together,” Atsuko said again tried to explain, “my mother asks Kai to accompany me to school. But it was because we were friend since childhood.”
What Atsuko saying its true, that we are friend since childhood, but there is something in word that make me feel uncomfortable. I wonder what it is....
I’m at home before leaving Atsuko. I don’t understand either why the word of the cherry at the time, though not wrong, but it hurts when I heard. I don’t know what I expected but I was disappointed when I heard her word at the time. All the way home I keep thinking about it.
After dinner, Atsuko come to my house. She went upstairs and opened the door of my room without to knock first.
I was lying at the ceiling of my room, still thinking about the incident this afternoon after school when Atsuko sat on edge of my bed and looked at me with an angry face. I don’t look her but I can imagine what the current expression.
“hey,” Atsuko said as she poke my waist with her finger, “why you go home first without saying anything?! I’m waiting you know!”
“sorry, I was another matter.”
Atsuko pinch my waist again, “what matters?”
I didn’t answer.
Atsuko sighed, “okay, but tomorrow we could go home together again, right?”
“sorry, I still have business.”
“uh, how long?” she poke my waist again, “what business is it?”
I tell her to stop pinch my waist and turned to look at her in disgust, “stop poke me okay.”
Atsuko laughed, “exhausted from the earlier you don’t look at me! What is it anyways? Is there a problem? You look weird today, you know.”
“none of your business.”
Atsuko pouted, “then? When can we go home together again?”
“Atsuko, we will not leave and come home together again,” I said as I turned back to her.
“eh?” Atsuko protests, “why do anyway?”
I sighed, “you and I in different class, strange if we were both too close!”
“so what? We’re friends!”
I didn’t say anything else.
END OF FLASHBACK
Since that day I and Atsuko no longer spend time together. Popular Atsuko quickly surrounded by new friends. Even without me in her side, she didn’t look sad at all. It is I who was sorry for being selfish. If only I was satisfied with just being friends....
In high school we chose a different school. Ah, actually I deliberately chose a different school with Atsuko. I want to start something new. I want to point out that although not with her I was fine.
I don’t know what I’m trying to prove and to whom I want to prove. Atsuko looked even thought me in the slightest.
In high school I startled it all back. I dated a few women though never last long. Somehow I never had any luck in establishing relationship with the opposite sex. Know since when unconsciously I always compare them with Atsuko.
After graduate school I got put of the house and live alone. Besides don’t want to constantly rely on foster parents, I also didn’t want to continue to see the short-haired girl who lived next door. I hate to admit it but even when we’ve entered high school I still often secretly watched. By staying away from her, I think I’ll really get over it. Of course I was wrong. I never really got over it. Until one night, by accident I went back to see her.
Atsuko was drunk at the time. Red face and limp her way. I can’t believe she dared walk alone in such conditions. I insist on saying that I will drove her home but she begged me to say that she couldn’t come home drunk like that. I understand how hard Atsuko’s parents for thing like this. I didn’t have any choice but to take her back to my apartment.
Atsuko forced me to accompany her to drink again when we arriving at the apartment. I refused but Atsuko always find a way to force me.
Apparently when Atsuko in the middle of a fight with her boyfriend. My stomach like filled with a hot tin when I heard the story about her boyfriend at the time. My hands grabbed a beer in my hand tightly. I’m little compunction away from her first. If I dared to tell the truth about my feeling might all not going to end like this. My head ached, combined with alcohol and emotions I felt at the time.
Perhaps because of the influence of alcohol, probably due to the surge of emotion that has long been held back. I pull Atsuko toward me and kissed her.
It all started with a kiss and go even father. I was half drunk can’t stop myself. That night I just wanted Atsuko to be mine alone.
I don’t like to hear her tell about her boyfriend at the time. I don’t like to imagine there’s another man who touched as I touched her that night.
Therefore, when later she told me that she was pregnant my son, I don’t want to waste the opportunity and asked her to marry me.
I knew it was cunning way. She doesn’t love me, but she didn’t have another option when it besides marry me. I know I have taken advantages of the current situation but it is the only way and the opportunity for me.
But although I could marry her, this doesn’t necessarily make it have the same feeling with me. Gaze at me clearly shows that she wished she had married me. That she was sorry to have to do it with me. Therefore at the beginning of our marriage I desperately help myself. I told myself that it would be easier if I didn’t love her. There would be how painful if I don’t have anything feeling to her. As long as I have it, I don’t care.
At first I didn’t care if she didn’t love me or even though I have to keep my feeling. At first I though I would not mind even if only to be her friend, but after what happened the night that I find hard to hide my feelings.
I wonder who started it. That night for the first time since we got married, we were kissing. If this also one the effect of hormones as people say, then forget about ever I say before complaints regarding hormonal pregnant woman.
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If anyone says that men are much fortunate than women because they don’t have to feel the pain of childbirth. I must say that it is not true. Although not feel the pain that is felt by Atsuko during delivery, it doesn’t mean I feel better. That day when Atsuko suddenly shouted from the kitchen to call me who was watching television I immediately raced to the kitchen. Imagine how I felt at the sight of my wife who is pregnant my son, sat on the kitchen floor with a pained expression.
“what?” I asked, squatting in front her, my face turned pale look pained expression on her face, I had never seen this before when our baby kicked her stomach, “Atsuko, are you okay?”
She shook her head, “I..... Feel the contraction..”
If my face was pale before, this time may my face turned transparent. According to the schedule should have a new baby Atsuko next week. I tried to calm down and remember what the doctor ever told. Should not panic, so I have to be quite. Pregnant women often experience a contraction hen entering the nine months of gestation, but it doesn’t necessarily mean she will soon give birth. I glanced at my watch.
“when you feel the contraction, squeeze my hand,” I pleaded, holding out my hand to her side. In a instant i felt her grip on my hand. I looked at my watch while later I felt a grip of the second and third.
“Kai....” Atsuko call me, “sick........”
I nodded as I felt her grip once again at my hand. I hate because i couldn’t do anything to reduce the pain in the sense it. We can only wait. When the contraction of the shorter distance, i decided that Atsuko will actually give birth. Carefully I held her and took her into the car. In the back seat of the car had no bag of Atsuko’s purpose in hospital later that we have prepared for a long time. I was relieved because at least I hear all the doctor say.
I don’t remember how to travel from home to hospital. Next I was in the waiting room with both Atsuko parents who came some time after I tell them. There is now more than three hours since Atsuko was in the delivery room and I still have not heard the of a baby crying at all and I am increasingly worried about it. What is the delivery process usually take time for this?
“calm down, Kai-kun,” said the mother-in-law who was sitting on the couch provided for relatives of patients waiting outside the delivery room, it looks like a beautiful middle-aged woman could read was in my head, “when I gave birth Atsuko once, I have to wait for six hours. This first delivery Atsuko, but all will be fine.”
I was still standing with hand folded across my chest could only smile at the mother-in-law. My tongue felt too numb to speak today. I’m afraid if I open my mouth this time then I would throw up so I decided to keep quite and wait. My god, this time is running slow, and I couldn’t do anything to help.
I anyone says the man is a creature who was lucky not to have to pass through the birth process, you should think again about this opinion. Because at the moment i feel very helpless. I can’t even help relieve pain in the middle of Atsuko felt today. I really want to do something but I don’t know what and how. I can’t even imagine what the pain. My face was pale imagine Atsuko should feel extreme pain to give birth to our baby. Atsuko who since childhood has always treated like princess by the people around her.
It may sound stupid but I can’t help, can’t even reduce the pain experienced by Atsuko, deliberately didn’t want to sit for three hours waiting for delivery Atsuko. I just stood and occasionally walked over to the door of the delivery room to try to peek or eavesdrop on what is gong on in there. My feet were already numb but I don’t care. I will continue to stand until our baby is born. Mother-in-law smiled knowingly when I explained the reason for refusing to sit next to her.
I couldn’t feel my legs again when suddenly the sound of baby crying broke out of the delivery room. I immediately turned to the Atsuko’s parents who immediately stood up, looked very excited and relieved. I moved toward the door just as a nurse opens the door with big smile on her face.
“Takahashi-san?”
“yes?” actually I still feel anxious, “how is my wife? My baby?”
“your wife is fine, still exhausted after giving birth and your baby bathed at this time,” the petite nurse it looked almost as eager as second-in-law, “congratulations, you’ve become a father now!”
And my legs feels weak and lose the strength to stand. I fell on the floor sat a hospital corridor.
For the first time since I was growing up, I cried.
TBC
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Wow~~~~ I can't wait for next chapter >>>> >W< :heart: :heart: :heart:
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Finally! Takahashi junior already born!
Yey!
But i salute to kai who can be so patient toward acchan.
I hope thi baby can make acchan and kai loves each other :)
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Chap 14
Atsuko POV
I fell in love.
When I heard the sound of crying I knew I was in love, and when I held him to my arm at his face, I knew I was very, very loved him, and when for the first time he opened his eyes and looked at me with a pair of dark brown eyes, while it also I know I would be willing to die for him. When people hear stories about how the pain of childbirth, especially for the first time, I was scared. When it came time for me to really live it, apparently people are not exaggerating, it really hurts, until there is one point where I thought I would give it up. Where I want to stop trying and feel too tired to continue my efforts. But I’m grateful that I didn’t give up then. I feel grateful that despite tremendous pain I still give birth to my son. Because when I hug my baby and looked at his face, all the pain I had felt forgotten. All fatigue which until then I feel yawn and change the feeling of happiness and emotion are mixed into one.
Little baby in my arms today is the baby for nine months and ten days in my stomach,, in my body. So far I only knew him through ultrasonic image blurry when I gained a doctor checked my womb and through small kick I felt during the last three months before the birth. This time I could see his face, hugging, kissing... I’m the happiest woman in the world while hugging baby/
I looked at the face of the sleeping baby in my arms while Kai sitting next to my bed with his face still shocked in amazement and disbelief. He didn’t say much since earlier but just by looking at his face I could see that he was very happy for the birth of our first child.
The first child?
My face was slightly flushed at the thought of the possibility that one day we will have a child again. I mean, aren’t we both love each other not at all?
With a little reluctantly I keep my eyes on my baby sleeping and switch stared at my husband who seemed to be counting one by one our tiny bay fingers. His face was still leaves a bit of tension but his eyes can’t lie, I could see how he had fallen in love with our baby brown hair to like him when child and have dark brown eyes to like me. I know, Kai will do anything for our baby. Just like me, he has fallen in love and enchanted by the beauty of our baby.
I once read a book that said that a few days since he was born, the baby’s face will continue to change. Whether that is written in the book is true or not, but when I looked back at my baby’s face it I felt that he looked like Kai. Strangely, I don’t mind at all though there is the possibility that one day our baby will grow similar to Kai.
“Ryo.”
I looked up at the sound of my husband, who had been only silence it. I looked at him confused. His gaze still fixed on the baby’s face, our fisrt son. Slowly a smile on the face of Kai before, for the first time since last, he raised his face looked away from our son and looked at me with a grin. His face looked happy and proud.
(a/n: I get the name from young singer name hashimoto ryo who have similiar face with acchan)
“Takahashi Ryo,” he said in a voice that sounded satisfied, “great name, right?”
I finally understand what is being Kai said at the time. Slowly, as contracted by him, a smile on my face even as it expands. Takahashi Ryo, Kai had chosen a name for our son.
Ryo which mean brightness. I don’t hate that name, and somehow I felt the name was suitable for our child’s name. Brightness.
“Ryo,” I repeated.
I smiled when I heard that name out of my mouth. Good name and I love it. I looked at Kai and nodded. He seemed happy to see me agree with the name of his choice. I turned my attention back to my baby and smiled broadly. We have decided to name our baby boy.
“Takahashi Ryo,” I said softly to sleep baby, “welcome to the world, Ryo..”
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Being a parent is a new thing for me and Kai. At the moment we even still unfamiliar with our lives as husband and wife, we now have additional responsibilities, namely as a parent. I know being a parent is not going to be easy but I’m too impatient to begin my role as a mother. Being mother is the new thing that can’t be learned from books, and I know this is not easy, but I know I will slowly learn through experience.
The first time I breastfeed my baby, I don’t think that breastfeeding would be painful for me, but if I didn’t breastfeed my baby, it would be more pain. During this time, I never imagined that something like this would feel special. When my baby to drink directly from my body, there was strange feeling that meets my chest. Feeling proud as a mother and compassion, I will never be able to explain it in words.
One more thing, I’m still not used to breastfeed my baby in front of Kai. I still feel embarrassed though Kai didn’t seem concerned at all. Either because he was a biology teacher so don’t feel uncomfortable or simply because he doesn’t care about things like this. I tried to look casual in front of Kai, of course I don’t want him realize that I was nervous when he was near me when I breastfeed my baby as it is today.
“how does it feel?”
I looked at Kai who was looking at our baby who was drinking greedily. At the age of just a few days, Ryo spent most of his time to sleeping, at the moment when he woke up as he normally would feel hungry and after full he will get to sleep again. Kai seemed to really like to accompany Ryo, when he woke up like this, even though it meant he had to watch me give it to drink at our baby.
“what?” I wrinkled my forehead, didn’t understand the purpose of my husband’s question, “breastfeeding or milk flavor?”
I blushed as soon as the words came out of my mouth. I know what I said was not wrong, but somehow the words sounded vulgar in my ear. Looks like Kai was aware of the hidden meaning behind what I said do in an instant his face was flushed. I was embarrassed and didn’t know what to do so that I turned my face staring back at Ryo are still busy drinking regardless of their parents flushed uncomfortably.
“I mean, feel to breastfeeding,” Kai muttered, his face red and his word sounded sheepish.
I’m not sure how to answer that question. Although he is my husband, he is still a man and talk about things like this with a man feels little, uhmm… embarrassing. We were both staring our baby face to hide our faces were flushed. I don’t understand why sometimes Kai saying embarrassing things like this.
“uh,” I don’t know what to say so I decided to tell the truth, “rather ill at first time, but once accustomed not too sick.”
“ah…” the blond man with flushed cheeks nodded, “souka….”
Then we both are no longer mutually say anything, just looked each other to avoid each other’s gaze. Were both silent until then Ryo squirm away from my chest. We both looked at Ryo are now yawning. Once my handsome baby is apparently ready to sleep. I straightened my clothes, smiling at the baby.
“already full?” I said, touching my nose to his nose.
Of course Ryo didn’t answer.
“I’ll take him to bed,” Kai said as he volunteered with outstretched hands to take Ryo to his arms.
I shook my head while reversing Ryo to the prone body in y arms, I support the body with one hand while Kai looked at me with puzzled look. Kai narrowed his eyes, didn’t understand what was I doing. His face turned panic when I started patting Ryo backs.
“Atsuko, what are you doing?!” Kai looked panicked and tried to grab from me.
I laughed and Kai looked me in disbelief as if I was mad. I mentioned with my husband’s hand in order to wait and see what I would do. With a frown and he stared anxiously watching gently patting the baby’s back until Ryo sound “guu!” mixed saliva. Kai looked scared seeing me reverse back Ryo body before handing him on Kai cautiously hug Ryo.
“Atsuko, what are you doing on Ryo?” Kai said demanded an explanation from me.
“babies like Ryo still can’t arrange reflex esophagus and throat. Ryo still can burp himself, therefore every meal we had to pat him on the back to help him burp. Otherwise, Ryo can throw up later due to clogged his throat,” I explained, Kai smiled amused face looked angry and anxious time, “when he burps, Ryo able to sleep well,” I turned away from Kai to Ryo and kissed his cheek at a glance, “right, Ryo-chan?”
As justify my words, Kai evaporate.
I chuckled when Kai sighed sign to relief.
Ryo seemed to writhe in Kai’s arms before then find comfortable position and started to fall asleep. I stroked the baby brown hair before lifting my face and looked at Kai and smiled. Kai smiled.
“it seems like there are already very sleepy,” Kai chuckled.
I chuckled as he leaned in to kiss Ryo cheek who have fallen asleep in an instant, “good night Ryo-chan…”
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I looked at my cell phone screen with mixed feelings. I don’t know what to do. I don’t understand what is in the head of Oshima Yuu. Since the last time we met at that time, several times he tried to reach me either by phone or text message. I don’t understand what he was thinking when he tried to reach me, I mean, is not it obvious that there is not anything more between us? Is not that time, it was he who decided to end our relationship? Even before I sleep with Kai that night, our relationship is not going well. We have too often quarreled and even though at that time I still love him very much, deep in my heart. I’ve started to feel that our relationship can’t be saved anymore. Therefore, when the present time we have split up and I have been married to someone else, I don’t understand what he was determined to reach me.
Today I received a text message from Yuu again. This is already the third in this month and I have not responded at all. First, I don’t know what to answer, and the second I’m afraid. I know I didn’t do anything wrong at all. I’m not having an affair with Yuu or doing things that are inappropriate. I know I shouldn’t be afraid like this but somehow I still feel scared. If Kai knows, maybe this will lead to quarrels and even though I know I have many reasons to defend myself, but I don’t want him to think that I’m still in love with Yuu. I . . .
I don’t know what exactly I feel today. Maybe I wasn’t in love with Yuu, but I still feel the thrill when I see him at the time, and it scared me. I’m afraid to betray Kai. Know since when I started to feel like to maintain my marriage with Kai, though initially our marriage is not based on love. Although even now we still can’t love each other, but I believe we can learn to live together for a long time. Although there is no love, I feel not mind to spend my life with Kai.
I took a deep breath before returning staring at my phone. Message from Yuu still on the screen, I still haven’t found the right words to reply.
Still clutching my phone, I walked toward the couch where Kai had been playing with Ryo. I stopped and laughed a little while until the favorite couch in front of our little family. Sight in front of me enough to make me smile and shook my head. Kai looked down on the sofa lay sleep with his mouth slightly open and snoring gently. While on his chest, Ryo lying on his stomach with cheek resting on his father chest. His eyes wre closed and his lips parted . at first glance they seem very similar. Kai hugging Ryo’s body to keep it from falling. The scenery is very sweet and make my chest feel warm.
Suddenly I got an idea. I use a phone that I grabbed middle to take some pictures of the blond man and my baby who was sleeping. Smiling, I took a few photos from various directions. Ryo who was sleeping looked very cute in the photo. But this time, I’m not just going to use this photo as a cell phone display images but also for other things.
After taking some picture I chose one that I thought was pretty good picture and start typing a short message below the picture.
‘my husband and my baby was sleeping. I’m happy today’
I also sent a picture message it to Yuu.
Somehow may react, but I hope he understand what I mean.
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A few years ago I found a quote in the book I read about marriage, which reads “a happy marriage is between a blind wife and deaf husband”. At first I didn’t understand the meaning of the words but now after nearly a year of marriage along with Kai, who also a my childhood playmates, I began to understand the intention of the words. To be able to maintain a marriage, a wife should be ‘blind’ and a husband should be ‘deaf’. Of course, this is only a parable. That’s mean, a wife doesn’t need to find a fault with her husband, and didn’t make the little things on her husband, and the husband should be patient to listen to all the complaints of his wife and didn’t enter into the hearts of the word expressed by his wife at the time of emotions. Now, for some reason I began to realize, marriage is not just living together under one roof, or sleeping in the same bed. Marriage is not just sex. Marriage is more than that, marriage is not about uniting the differences but to accept difference.
I looked at Kai who was sitting on the couch with a lap of our boy as he tried to get her chatting. I smiled at the confused expressions on the faces of our new baby was a month old when Kai tried to talk to him.
Marriage is not a bad thing too, apparently.
Now, I and Kai had not awkward anymore when it should be touching the skin. Although we never did more than just a kiss, but I had had enough. As this alone is enough to make me happy. Although he didn’t love me, at least he loves Ryo. I think that’s enough.
We still fight a lot, of course, but all will end when Kai apologized shortly thereafter. Our quarrel with my fault will begin and end with a Kai apology. Although often times all through no fault of which he did but selfishness. I was quite lucky because Kai budge and apologize even though all wasn’t his fault.
I learned that selfishness is not essential to marriage. I realized that I have a lot to learn to be patient and try to better understand Kai. Although all is not easy because even though we are playmates since childhood, but a few years before we meet again, we could not talk to each other at all, and there are a lot of things in themselves Kai don’t know. Kai now is not same as I knew when was child.
I tried to be patient and try to think clearly.
Therefore, when I discovered a suspicious message on the Kai phone a few days ago, I didn’t say anything.
I will address this issue in my own way.
For a happy marriage, a wife needs to blind to the faults of her husband.
Correction, for a happy family, a wife need to pretend blind. And do something quietly.
TBC
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Hmm... Very good fanfic...
Your update is faster! XD but it is better!! :twothumbs
Please update soon! :thumbsup :thumbsup
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yeay their relationship is getting much better now. but it's to smooth isn't it? where's the third person? whre's the trouble? drama? and and and ..THX FOR UPDATE
But, deep in my heart, i i love to see them are getting love each other. lol
YOU ARE THE BEST!
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Aaah yuu why you make acchan confused like that?! But I like it. :twothumbs
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yeay their relationship is getting much better now. but it's to smooth isn't it? where's the third person? whre's the trouble? drama? and and and ..THX FOR UPDATE
But, deep in my heart, i i love to see them are getting love each other. lol
YOU ARE THE BEST!
I totally agree but mou....can u let them happy for a while?
I mean they just have a baby there!
Why dont let them happy and love each other then after that bring the third person to their perfect love :kekeke:
And for yuko-san, thank for updating :kneelbow:
Now u are also one of my favorite author here since u update so fast!
Keep the good work author-san :ding: :on GJ:
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googd and fast continuation! thanx
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Chap 15
KAI POV
“sorry I bother Sensei again..”
I sighed and shook my head with a smile on hold. I can’t say anything. At first I had decided to no longer meet with Haruna outside of the school, but one night she called me in tears and I had no choice to see her that night. That night I also know that Haruna’s father left home to be with another woman and no longer return. That night I had to persuade Haruna to dissuade suicide. Since then I always see her several times a week to accompany her to dinner or doing homework at the time she was no schedule tutoring after school.
Of course we do so with caution, if the school know, I will not be able to do anything else. We were both going to be in big trouble.
Of course, I also be in big trouble if Atsuko to know I spend time alone with my student who have previously been made almost lost my job. I know Atsuko gets mad at me but I have their own reasons for doing this.
“your wife doesn’t know if Sensei see me?”
As can read what is on my mind, Haruna stop the movement to eat her dinner at looked at me. Again I can only smile. I know that the long brown-haired girl knew the answer.
“what sensei’s wife say?”
I sighed, this is actually not a proper subject for a moment like this. Talking about Atsuko at a time like this just makes me feel that Atsuko at the middle of watching from a distance. Although it is not possible but imagine things like that is enough to make me cringe.
“Sensei?”
It seems to make a girl sitting of me stopped to ask, I have to answer the question. There is no other choice.
I showed a plastic bag that had been I put next me.
“I said I was going out for a while to buy Ryo milk,” I said, suddenly feeling more guilty because I use my son to be an excuse, “because I couldn’t stay long.”
Haruna put down her fork, “your child name is Ryo?”
I nodded and smiled, talks about the first child could always make me feel better, “a good name right?”
Haruna smiled faintly as she nodded, “I want to meet your son sometimes, can I?”
I can only smile. We were both out, the current situation is already too complicated without it having to meet with the family. I don’t know if reconcile Haruna with Atsuko is a good idea. But somehow I still nodded, “yes, sometime I will bring Ryo to meet you.”
“with your wife too?”
Again, I’m speechless.
Relationship with Haruna is only the relationship between teachers and students, not more. I just meet Haruna because of my responsibility as a teacher. No more. So I shouldn’t be afraid to bring Haruna to meet Atsuko. Anyway I and Haruna wasn’t having an affair. But, somehow, my instincts say that bringing the two is not a good idea.
“Kojima-san…”
“call me Haruna, sensei…” she looked at me with sad eyes, “please?”
I sigh, for the umpteenth time this evening, “well, Haruna…” I felt a little awkward to call her by her first name, but I tried to ignore it, “I keep us meeting from my wife because I don’t want her to misunderstand. So I cant possibly bringing her to see you…”
“I liked sensei.”
I was speechless.
Haruna looked at me without expression. I don’t know if she was really serious to say it like it or not. But Haruna is not the kind of kid who would joke with things like this.
I really don't know what to do. I just assume Haruna as a student, of course. I love Haruna, but she was my student. I don’t have a feeling more than that.
My head suddenly felt full. I don’t know what to say or do. I know I have to immediately say something, anything. But I couldn’t find the right words. I suddenly lost the ability to think and speak.
I tried to open my mouth, but closed it again after three second and no word came out of my mouth.
I don’t know what made me confused. I don’t love Haruna, but the difficult part is to tell her that I couldn’t accept her feeling because I love my wife. I can’t say that I love Atsuko to Haruna, not when I’ve never even said it in front of Atsuko. I don’t want the first time I expressed my feeling to Atsuko just in front of the others.
Like to know the confusion that was attacked, Haruna smiled and decided to say something to break the silence that surrounds us.
“I understand,” Haruna’s voice soft and barely audible. I need to sharpen my ears to be able to hear clearly what she says, “don’t have to explain to me, I understand Sensei. . I. . I just wanted to say my feeling on Sensei. I don’t expect Sensei to return my feeling. I understand.”
I looked at Haruna but the girl looked down to hide her face from me so I couldn’t see her face at this time.
“I met with Sensei’s wife.”
I shock when I hear Haruna say, “w-what?”
I don’t believe what I just heard back then but I didn’t say anything, just waiting for Haruna to explain further, trying to calm myself. No, I don’t need to panic. Atsuko met Haruna? How can? So far, she has always been mediocre at home, may not turn out right when she met with Haruna secretly? Anyway, how could I? My head was filled with all sorts of things that made me even more frantic but the girl in front of me it still looks calm.
“your wife is very pretty,” Haruna smiled, unfortunately I couldn’t see her eyes hidden behind her bangs so I couldn’t read her expression, “Its natural that Sensei loved her very much. She also looked like a very nice lady.”
If the current situation is not being very serious, I would laugh, or at least not snort, to hear someone say that Atsuko, selfish arrogant woman, it seems like a good woman. But this time I was too shocked to be able to laugh or snort. My wife met a girl who had been secretly met, I can’t imagine what Atsuko would do to me.
“when?” I asked in a hoarse voice, very hard for me to speak with sudden throat dry, “how can that be? I mean. . Argh,” I ruffled my blonde hair in frustration, “please explain to me what really happened!”
“last week, I met with Atsuko-san,” Haruna explained, she still didn’t raise her face but I don’t care, I listened to the story seriously, I need to know what had happened between them, “actually I was also surprise to receive an e-mail from Atsuko-san. And finally we met.. Atsuko-san asked about my relationship with Sensei.”
I cursed myself inwardly. Somehow, how to Atsuko knowing about Haruna but I knew she was not going to forgive me.
“and then?” I asked timidly, “what did you say to Atsuko?”
“I told her that you are a teacher and has a lot of to help me, I explained that I was the one that has forced you to accompany me..”
“but you don’t make me!” I protested.
I don’t want Atsuko mad at me but I also don’t want to Haruna lie on Atsuko because I never felt that she had been forced to meet. I see her as my own will.
Again, Haruna smiled.
“Atsuko-san is a good person, she listened to me and gave me advice,” Haruna finally lifted her head and looked at me, “I feel happy to have the opportunity to talk with people like Atsuko-san.”
‘advice’? I don’t know that Atsuko could give advice to anyone.
“Atsuko-san knew I liked Sensei.”
I swallowed.
“Atsuko-san said that I should like Sensei, and that I must convey my feeling to you,” Haruna explained with flushed cheek, apparently despise earlier statement is the idea of Atsuko, “I have to express my feeling on Sensei, not so you know my feeling to you, but so that I know what your feeling to me. And so I don’t misunderstand and expect too much.”
I wrinkled my forehead even though I could feel my cheeks heat up to hear it, “Atsuko said liked that?”
Haruna smiled, she shipped her drink before giving me an answer, “Atsuko-san just said that I have to express my feeling on Sensei, for my own good. And after I tell you, I understand...”
I don’t know what to say so I just quietly listening to anything that would say that girl. I was hard to believe Atsuko has met Haruna, and more so to say things like that at Haruna.
“from your reaction to my statement earlier, I already know, you doesn’t have any feeling to me,” Haruna didn’t look into my eyes as she said, her eyes staring at the cup in front of her which was almost empty, “ah no, actually I already knew from beginning. Sensei only doing good to me out of pity but I hope so. But now I understand. I’m not going to take advantage of Sensei again.”
“Haruna. .”
“both my parents are getting a divorce, Sensei.”
I was surprised to hear that.
“I’m going with my mother to go my grandmother home in Fukuoka, after the new school year, I will submit a written request to change school,” this time Haruna looked into my eyes as she said, “when Sensei was teaching, I mo longer go to school. Because that, before I go, I want to spend time with Sensei,” Haruna face getting flushed and again she hid her face behind her bangs, “however, Sensei is my first love.”
For the umpteenth time, I lost my word tonight. There are many things that surprised me happened tonight. Lucky i didn’t have a problem with my heart.
“so, are you going to move..” I knew I should say something to cheer Haruna but currently empty middle of my head and I couldn’t think clearly to find the right word to make her feel better.
“yes,” Haruna said in a small voice, “I’m sad, but not because my parents to divorce. I’m sad because I had to part with you. I really liked Sensei..”
“I- I. .” I tried to say something but failed, “ah, sorry.”
In the end I can only apologize. I really suck.
Haruna shook her head.
“Sensei not wrong, no need to apologize,” she said explained, “I’m very happy. In the end there are people who are wiling to listen to all my problems. So far, I have always felt lonely and started hating adults. But then I met adult like you and Atsuko-san who opened my mind and changes my views.”
I smiled, “maybe it was because I and Atsuko was immature too.”
Haruna chuckled, “no, that’s not true. I want to grow up to be adults who like you and Atsuko-san. You want to talk to the kid without condescending.”
I smiled back to her, I don’t think she is thinking like that and I’m glad to hear it.
“thank you, Haruna.”
“thank you too, Sensei,” Haruna said as she reached her hand to shake to my hand, she smiled with tears in her eyes when I shook her hand smaller than my hand, “goodbye.”
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“tadaima,” I muttered, putting a plastic bag containing milk cans for Ryo on the table in the kitchen, I glanced at Atsuko through the corner of my eye as I took of the jacket that since I’ve been wearing.
“ah, okaeri,” she answered without looking at me in the slightest.
I tried to learn it, but the look on her face when I didn’t see anything strange on her. She looks normal and ordinary. No different to her. What she really has to know about Haruna? Since when? Then why did she let me lie to her and act as if nothing happened anything and still look cool? Or maybe this is not significant problem for her?
I swallowed. Somehow I’m afraid to ask her even though I wanted to know the answer.
I was debating with myself to ask her when Atsuko decided to turned to me and surprise me with a question that is actually quite normal if only I didn’t just hear that she actually had to know things that have kept from her.
“you got the milk? You bought that for zero to six months, right?”
I nodded and lifted the plastic bag that had been placed it to show it to Atsuko, “I’ve asked the shop keeper, and he gave a formula suitable for Ryo.”
Atsuko nodded to hear it, she look calm and normal, “I feel guilty at Ryo should give him a formula.”
I was trying to act casual and walk towards Atsuko and sat next to her, “so be it, your breast water doesn’t come smoothly,” I reached the television remote and replace with a re-broadcast television shows football games, “Ryo already sleeping?”
Atsuko reclaim the remote from my hand and went back to change to a romance drama which was being watched, “Ryo rather fever so he was a little fussy but now gone to bed,” Atsuko said as she looked back at the TV screen, she shifted a little to improve the position of the seat and leaned her head on my shoulders casually.
“tomorrow we take Ryo to the doctor,” I said as I flinched, worried about my son, but also feel awkward at the same time as Atsuko leaned her head on my shoulder.
“mmm,” Atsuko muttered while remaining focused in the direction of the television, “hopefully tomorrow morning Ryo’s fever has gone down.”
I nodded even though Atsuko couldn’t to see it, “but we still bring Ryo to the doctor. As a precaution in case there was nothing.”
“mmm,” Atsuko muttered again, but after that she didn’t say anything else and looked serious watch her favorite drama.
Of distance and our current position is so close I could smell the cherry gentle shampoo to use. I don’t know why Atsuko could seem so comfortable with this position and I desperately need to refrain looked uncomfortable in front of her. I don’t want her to know what this time I was nervous because of her.
Know since when Atsuko know about my silent meeting with Haruna. So far, she always looks natural in front of me.
While I’m not sure if I could be natural in front of her. After all I was a biology teacher instead an actor. I’m not good to be pretending. I wouldn’t be surprised if know Atsuko already know about my feeling for her that I keep from her.
I was silent for a moment, suddenly realized that maybe Atsuko indeed have known about my feeling. Atsuko is not a fool and I’m not a person who is good at pretending. Maybe this time Atsuko actually have known about my feeling but pretend not to know.
Wait a minute.
If she did know about I feel to her, and why she didn’t do anything about it? Why does she behave as if nothing happen
I stared back at her, but from a position like this is hard for me to see her expression.
Beyond expectation.
After a long to know all about it, but apparently I was wrong.
I don’t know what came over me. Maybe I was inspired by what was Haruna said to me earlier. Maybe I remembered what Atsuko said at Haruna. Maybe I can’t stand keep it to myself anymore. Maybe I just wanted to say.
Before I could think far I have opened my mouth and call upon the Atsuko name.
“hey, Atsuko. .”
“hm?”
She still didn’t look at me.
Maybe I just wanted her to see, really see.
“I love you.”
TBC
sorry for my bad english :bow:
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Confessing~
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YEAH confession!!
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WOW!!!! sudden confession!!!! :shocked :shocked :shocked
will acchan say yes to kai?
i hope she open her heart for kai :oops:
acchan!!!! open yours eyes and see kai there for u!!!!
thank for updating yuko-san :kneelbow:
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Chap 16
Atsuko POV
“I love you”
Once again he said three words which have never said that to me. I don’t know what to say so I’m just staring at the open-mouthed. I must have looked foolish at this time but I don’t care. Takahashi Kai, my childhood friend, the man who impregnate me and destroy my future. Men who also my husband.
He recently stated in love with me. After a year of marriage and twenty years be my friend, he has say it now. Wait a minute, I never even knew that he love me. I mean, what he really love me? How can?
Ah wait a minute..
Suddenly I lost for words. I can’t even make a sound in the slightest.. Something wrong. Kai loves me? He really say that, right? No, today is not the first of April, this is not an April Fool’s joke, right? If any of this really just a joke, that is not funny. I...
FLASHBACK
“what do you mean send me the photo to me?”
The man sitting in front of me was so handsome. Dark brown hair contrasting with his white skin is not well organized as usual. Under his eyes, dark circles sign of lack of sleep. Today he doesn’t look like as usually. Dimly, I can’t smell the alcohol from him. Oshima Yuu, a man who always discipline on himself, today he doesn’t look like as usual. I don’t want to speculate about the reasons behind his appearance today. My goal is to see him today is want to end it all. Of course, in fact it’s all over between us since last year when I decided to marry Kai and gave birth to my son. This time, I just want to make clear to him that I have chosen and I choose not him.
I tried to smile, Yuu sharp eyes makes me hard to breath, how ever he is a man who ever fill my life before, man I ever loved.
“I think it’s clear what I mean” I said slowly, “I’m happy with my family this time, I can’t see you again. I could be friends with you, but I know that’s not what you want, Yuu, so I was forced to say that I can’t see you anymore.”
It’s first time I saw Yuu’s expression like that. Suddenly I felt free. I’m no longer sure whether this is a decision that I took the right decision or not. . I feel uncertain when I suddenly thought of Ryo, my baby who is currently at my mom home, while I went to see Yuu. No, this is not the time to feel free.
“you don’t love Takahashi,” Yuu said with both hands clenched on the table,”you can’t force yourself to live together with people who are not you love! Acchan, I love you, I will receive you, I will accept your son.. I promise I will treat him like a son to me.. Please, give me a chance...”
I shook my head.
Yuu is a young man who educated and intelligent, but it seems he doesn’t understand. Marriage is not as easy as it could be terminated only because one of the parties was not satisfied. He didn’t understand.. At first I didn’t understand, but after almost a year to get married and have a children, I finally realized that marriage is not just about me. I can’t be selfish just because I don’t feel satisfied.
“Yuu, I’m the one who decided to leave you and marry Kai,” I tried to explain, Yuu is a smart man, he should understand, “if now I’m leaving Kai to come back to you, are you not sure that someday I won’t leave again for with others?”
Yuu paused. His eyes were still staring at me, I know there are many who want him to tell me but he chose to remain silent and let me continue my words.
“you’re right, Kai is not a perfect man. He often pisses me off. He also not the man of my dreams,” I smiled, trying to convey what I mean at Yuu, “we also often quarrel. . Anyway, lately it seems that he often met with his student quietly. .” Yuu seemed want to say something but I hurried on my words, “but, I’m also not a perfect woman. I’m also aware, I was often upset him. Maybe I’m too much of this type of dreams,” I chuckled before continuing, “and I also meet secretly behind him.”
“Acchan. .”
I raised a hand to cut his word off, I’m not finished with what I wanted to say, “listen to me, I’m not satisfied. I knew that I could get more if I choose to be with you, but I’m just a human, I’m will never be satisfied. If I’m constantly looking for better satisfy me, then I will not ever be grateful for what I have today.”
Yuu paused. He closed his mouth that was open as if to say something. Slowly he turned his gaze away from me. Frowned and I could see his jaw. He was holding himself, I know it.
“Kai is not perfect, but I’m also not perfect. Maybe that together we will be able to cover each other disadvantages of each. I want to learn to maintain what I have today,” I looked at Yuu with a look apologize even though he doesn’t see the current middle, “I’m sorry for you, because I feel sorry. I have made a mistake and I don’t want to do it again.”
Yuu finally back looked at me, “you’ll be sorry..”
I smiled, “maybe. .” I stared back at him, “but for now I’m happy like this.”
END FLASHBACK
“Atsuko?”
Kai call me again.
Wait a minute! I can’t say anything, wait a minute. .
I looked at him but my mouth and my tongue like locked suddenly dumb. He was waiting for an answer from me but I can’t say anything. Anyway, what I really need to answer that? What he really serious about what he had just said? The words and the same question kept circling in my head like a broken record. Damn you Kai. This is too sudden. He would have been happy to have succeeded in making me look like a fool today.
“Atsuko. .” this time Kai sounded impatient, “do you hear me, right?”
I took a breath and count to three in my mind.
“yes?”
Kai raised his eyebrow, “what’s the ‘yes’? You haven’t answered my question just now.”
I paused for a moment to think of the word he was saying.
“question?”
Suddenly, as I realized everything was enlightened, I smiled enjoyed Kai expression that change was not sure. My husband seems to have fallen in love with me, this is not bad thing at all.
I decided to tease him a little bit, “which one? You don’t ask any question had been right?”
Kai’s face grew pale, “ah. . What?”
I used my index finger to accuse his chest. His face was staring to panic when I put myself to him. Slowly I leaned toward him, still sticking my finger in his chest. Naughty smile still lingering on my face. Seeing the confused expression that immediately turned to panic gave me satisfaction. When I finally got back to say something I accidentally lowered my voice and wrinkled my forehead.
“you don’t ask any question to me, how can I answer?”
“I-I. .” Kai instantly realized his mistake, he looked at me with a look awry.
Ah, why did I just realized it now?
I love him.
Yes, I’ve been afraid to admit it. I have fallen in love with him, either since when. Initially I thought sucks but slowly began its existence meant to me. I never thought of it before, but this time I always depend on him. From the first, when were children, until now, I still rely on him. I need him. Perhaps our marriage is preceded by mistake but this time, if someone gives me a chance to turn back time, I would keep repeating mistake that time.
It took so long for me to realize it, I had fallen in love.
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There something different from the girl. Her skin was pale and her eyes looked like shrouded in fog, it looks like it has the ability to read what is in my mind just by looking at me. I shudder to imagine what she would say if she finds out what is on my mind today.
The girl look dismal, like the girl who almost never touched by sun. Her face was expressions and her eyes blank.
I find it hard to find right words for her.
She gorgeous. Bleak, but beautiful. Her finger were long and slender, graceful as she holds a cup of tea. Somehow in my eyes it looks like the kind of girl that would make Kai fall in love. Think of like that somehow makes my chest hurts. This girl. . She was young and beautiful. Besides, she also looks elegant and smart, much different from me. Could Kai like her?
“I’m sorry. .”
I was surprised when I heard her voice for the first time.
Her voice was soft and beautiful. I can just hear her swallow. In contrast to my voice loud and high, her voice softer.
“I. . My name is Kojima Haruna, I Takahashi-sensei student,” she said.
She was a smart girl. I think she knows the reasons why I suddenly said that I wanted to meet her. In my heart I feel salute to her because she didn’t refuse to see me. Perhaps it is nothing between her and Kai. Maybe I just worry excessively.
“greeting, Haruna-chan,” I smiled, “I’m Takahashi Atsuko.”
I don’t nee add the words that I was the wife of a teacher, she was a smart girl, I’m sure she could conclude that without me get this straight.
She nodded, “I know. . . I. . .” she looked hard to find the right word to say, “I’m sorry.”
“sorry?”
“because I had casually asked Sensei to see me.”
I took a deep breath. Just by looking at it I know. This girl falls in love with Kai, my husband. For reasons I can’t explain, somehow I don’t feel anxious or scared. Of reaction and expressions, I could see that there was nothing between them. The girl loves Kai but has not expressed her feeling.
“you like Kai?” I said immediately ascertain.
Her face flushed. She was panicked, “I-I. . . No, I. . . I mean, ah, Sensei. .”
I chuckled. Suddenly I felt calm.
“it’s okay. Fair for girl in your age to fall in love,” I said, raising my cup and shipped my tea. When I put the cup back on the table I smiled at him, “I am proud to have a husband who is loved by many people.”
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“I, I love you, Atsuko,” Kai said again, he looked at me as if trying to make me understand, “I have long loved you.”
I smiled, “oh yeah? Since when?”
“ever since we were little,” he finally admitted, “I always loved you. I’m always annoyed because I could never be a prince that you want. I. . When you say that there is nothing between us to your friends, I was disappointed. I always thought special but you don’t think of me like that. .”
I tried to cover my shock. It was the first time I heard about it from him. I never knew that he had loved for so long. I even had forgotten that such a thing never happened before. . I bite my tongue to keep from saying anything, try to give him a chance to explain whatever he wants to explain.
“I decided to stay away from you but I still think about you, I’m always thinking about you. .” the blond man’s face was turning red as he continued, “I love you. That’s why I never could have done with another woman. . That night when see you were drunk. . When I take you to my apartment. .” his face grew red, but he still went on to explain, “i very upset. I’m jealous of your boyfriend that time. I. . That night, we. .uh. . You never said that what happened that night was not based on love, but I . . Uh. . That’s not true, I mean, I love you, so. .”
I could out my hand and wrapped it around his neck and threw me toward him. I held tightly. This man. . He loves me and I don’t notice it at all. I’m the most stupid woman in this world.
“Atsuko?”
Kai looked confused but slowly he put his arm around my waist and pulled me toward him. He hugged me tightly.
“Baka,” I muttered, burying my face in his shoulder, breathing in the fresh scent of his body, “you just say now?”
He sighed and tightened his arms, “I’m sorry. .”
“I love you.”
I could feel Kai’s body stiffened but he didn’t hear him say anything just tightened his arm.
TBC
sorry for late update minna, and sorry for my bad english
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Finally my kaiAtsuko confess them feeling :') I'm so glaad ! Thanks for update author-san can't wait >_<
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Atsuko here is dense but mature enough to handle Kojima.
Yuko and Haruna as the third party. The characters were awesome.
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It's toooo daammmn goooooddd. Uyeah!
this story is too reeeaall for meeee. Ulele ~
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Finally!!!
Argh! I love this chapter!!!
U just too great!!!
Please,please continue.
Now i addicted to this story :love:
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I rather go for the awesome plot but poor english than good english but lousy plot.
You got me reading all the way and loving the characters. It's a nice slow but sweet development.
And the last part... makes me wonder when can I find love like that
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:inlove: :inlove: :inlove: I love you author-san~~~
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Ah.. Been a while....
Yeah... Atsuko loves Kai, same with Kai loves Atsuko
Great Atsuko... break things off with Yuu, no longer hoping to be with Yuu
Poor Haruna for getting her heart broken...and she understands Kai only help her for she is his student
But at least she didn't need to hear her parents fight all the time.
What's going to happen next?
Can't wait to see
Thank you for the updates
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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YEEEA KAI!
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Chap 17
Kai POV
I never thought like that thing would be like this.
Until a one year ago my life was. . Perfect? Ah, not really. With all the boring routine, I almost didn’t feel anything. My life. . Indifferent. I can’t say that my life is boring because I actually managed to get a job just a few moments after I graduate from collage, and again it was a job that long since I want. I was lucky because I have steady job and a quite life. My life is ‘normal’. Nothing more, but I also don’t lack.
At least I try to think like that.
There are lacking in my life, of course, I’m just reluctant to admit it. Something, or rather ‘someone’, which is missing in my life. I didn’t expect too much, I have repeatedly reminded myself not to expect to much. To not expect at all. Because if I don’t wish, then I will not be disappointed. So I said to myself that until whenever the love that was not delivered will never happen.
Of course at that time I didn’t think that one night I will meet Atsuko in front of the bar. I never thought that Atsuko, who was in a drunken state, will come with me to my apartment. That night, I never thought that I would make love for the first time.
I made love for the first time, and I do so with a woman who had been secretly love to her.
Fate like playing with me. I’m married to the woman I love, but the woman didn’t love me. So what a good thing? I love her so much but know that she hated me and loved another man feel very painful. Living together under one roof, but I can’t touch her at all. It was not easy.
I had to use my ability to hold myself. I’m just a normal guy with a woman who has been loved for more than ten years without being able to touch even though we have been in the marital bond is very heavy for me. Let alone to touch her, kiss her, or do anything else to her, even to tell her about what I felt was I couldn’t.
A few months later my relationship with her has improved. We are no longer mutually cursing and yelling at each other every morning to blame each other. We are friends again. I don’t want that everything will turn awkward just because I expressed my feeling to her.
Of course, I have to bear the risk that I must continue to live under the same roof with her without being able to touch her. I think something like this would last forever. .
Therefore, this evening, when at last I could hug her, this time in conscious, i felt difficult to believe. .
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I couldn’t sleep.
No, my body feels tired and my heart feels full, honestly my eyes felt heavy, I need to sleep, but I don’t want to sleep. I’m afraid that if i fell a sleep then I would wake up and realize that this all was a dream. I don’t want to fall sleep, I would like to spend more time looking at the sleeping face of my wife who now sleeping next to me.
I lay staring at my wife who has been asleep since half an hour ago. Still naked wrapped in a white blanket, she was lying her side facing me with eyes closed, beautiful. I watched her face with happy feeling fulfill my chest cavity. She is so beautiful, yes I know I’ve said it many times but it was never enough, she was too pretty. I don’t understand why a woman as beautiful as she like someone like me. I am far from the figure of prince who had been wanted. I who had ‘betrayed’ and lied to her. I am that nobody is.
She was too pretty.
Brown hair straggling touching the shoulder and cheek. Even with her eyes closed as she still looked so appealing. I had to restrain myself not to kiss her. I’ve pretty much kiss her tonight. I don’t want to wake her. She looked tired and she needed a break. Mainly I was the one who had made him exhausted.
My face heated up remembering things we did tonight. This is not the first time we had sex and this time we’ve officially become husband and wife, and we have expressed our feelings to each other. Of course there is nothing wrong with doing that. But that doesn’t mean I don’t feel embarrassed.
This is a new thing for me. Things like this.
Maybe I feel like this just because I’m not used. From now on I will slowly get used to the real life husband and wife.
I couldn’t help but grin when I realized that from now on we will do things like this more often. Once I know Atsuko feeling to me, I felt there was something that changed me. As someone who has let go of a rope that had bound me tightly. I don’t need to bother to hide my feelings. I don’t need to laboriously refrain.
My hand involuntarily moving and touching Atsuko face. Gently I get rid of a few strands of hair from her face. My hands don’t necessarily leave her face. I stroked her cheek gently as possible, I enjoy touching her warm and soft cheek, but I also don’t want to wake her. I was lucky, Atsuko apparently too tired so my touch didn’t make her wake. She still asleep.
“I love you,” I whispered, I still didn’t want to wake her.
Yes, I love her very much.
I finally repeatedly said that while I hugged her. I was finally able to express what I felt to her over the years, through words and action, and I’m happy because she replied..
I was busy looking at the face of my wife sleeping when I heard the cries of a baby monitor. I and Atsuko decided to put the baby monitor on our baby’s room which is connected with our room so we could keep track of our baby to sleep in the room next to it. I quickly turn off the speakers that are on the table next to me before Atsuko woke up. But too late, Atsuko has awakened behind me. She wiped her eyes with small yawn. Her face looked tired.
“Ryo crying?”
“yes, but don’t worry, I’ll take care of him, you go to sleep again,” I smiled at Atsuko.
Atsuko looked at me with a little doubt, “are you sure?”
I chuckled and kissed her cheek briefly before looking for shorts on the floor and put them on, "calm down, Ryo just hungry, his fever had gone down, right?"
I can hear Atsuko evaporate, “milk in the fridge, warm it, okay?”
I smiled, “of course, I know..”
Then I hurriedly left the room before Atsuko back saying something as if I didn’t know what to do to deal with a crying baby. Since I was 'off' from school, I spend more time with Ryo. I’m more than just knows how to take care of the baby.
Ryo still cry when I entered the room. I turned on the lights and rushed towards him. My son was crying loudly, his face flushed and his eyes closed. I chuckled as I grabbed him and lifted him from his cradle. Cries slowly subsides as I hugged him, patting his back gently to calm him down. I touched my forehead with his forehead and was relieved when I felt that fever has gone down.
I looked into Ryo face who still sobbing, “are you hungry?”
Of course Ryo didn’t answer. I chuckled and still hold him while I walked out of the room and into the kitchen. Ryo seemed to open his eyes still wet with his tears, but he wasn’t crying anymore. I hold Ryo in my right hand while I turn on the kitchen lights with my left hand and walked toward the kitchen. There were two bottles of milk that had been Atsuko prepared. Lately her breast milk doesn’t come out smoothly so she had to use a special pump to draw of her breast milk. Atsuko insisted that she didn’t want to give formula to Ryo until he was at least ten months, even more. She bit so hassles, because although it is still a few months old, Ryo has a big appetite. My baby seems almost always hungry.
I heat the milk for Ryo by using the microwave, as the doctor ever remind me I'm not too long heating. See? I told you I was a father figure who can be relied upon. I don’t understand why Atsuko sometimes seem not to believe me. I love my wife and my son, I love my little family, and I will do the best thing I could do for them.
After replacing the milk bottle cap for Ryo, we both went back to his room. Ryo noises like 'Guu' or 'buu' during a trip back to the room to make me smile. For babies age Ryo very chatty. Of course, for me it makes him increasingly looks adorable.
I sat on the chair next to the bed with Ryo in my arms. I touched the tip of the bottle to direct Ryo tiny lips and he smoked vigorously. I watched his face that looked very hungrily drank his milk. His lips and cheek twitching, I couldn’t help grinning happy to see it. The boy who handsome and adorable this is my son, I was the luckiest man in the world.
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Ryo finish his milk in fifteen minutes, but even after he is still not satisfied look sleepy. A pair of brown eyes innocently looked at me as if to say, 'Dad, what we're going to play now?'. I chuckled imagine Ryo actually say words like that. This is not the first time I imagine the conversation with my son. Sometimes I would ask him to talk even though he may not understand what I said to him.
"It's late," I muttered trying to explain to Ryo are still looking at me, "we play tomorrow huh? Now your time to sleep ..."
Ryo didn't answer but he still looks not sleepy at all.
"Look, maybe you not sleepy, but I'm sleepy," I said again, smiling, "so have mercy on your handsome father and go to sleep, huh?"
I was surprised when I heard the sound of laughter from the door that let open. When I turned around I saw Atsuko stood in the doorway with a smile broke across her face still looks tired. I swallowed hard as I realized that she was wearing a shirt that is a bit oversize fro her. She looked sexy like that.
“who’s that handsome?” she asked with a laugh, she walked up to me and Ryo. She knelt beside me and her hand touched Ryo’s forehead. Ryo seemed to not mind the touch of his mother. Atsuko smiled at Ryo and kissed his cheek, “thank God, Your fever gone down, Ryo-chan.”
“is not I told you that you should go to sleep?” I wrinkled my forehead middle chatting with my wife saw our baby was, “I can take care Ryo myself.”
“I know,” Atsuko looked up and smiled at me, “I just miss Ryo.”
I smiled and leaned slightly forward to kiss her lips, “you’re a good mother.”
Atsuko licking her lips as she looked at me with that look tempting, “and good wife too?”
My smile turned into a grin, “of course.”
Atsuko smiled back, “I love you.”
My chest feels warm to hear the words expressed by Atsuko. I’m still not used to hearing it, but every time I hear a strange feeling that meets my chest. I can’t explain with words. I love Atsuko, a long time ago when we were kids, and I really love her. Knowing that she loves me, though not as deep as my love for her. I would never expect more than that.
Suddenly, like realizing that his parents ‘busy’ with themselves respectively, Ryo yawning. I and Atsuko turned toward Ryo which slowly closed his eyes in my arms. Atsuko smiled softly and rubbed Ryo forehead using her thumb.
“good night Ryo..”
Looked at the sleeping face of my son, I was smiling again for the umpteenth time this evening.
I love my family, and it was great to know that they love me..
TBC
sorry for late update
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I can imagine Ryo as a really cute baby.
Atsumina couple, finally together.
I hope you won't break them apart since marriage is full of hurdles.
Thank you for the update. :rock:
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Ah Kai able to be real husband and wife now.
Nice development.
Ryo is such a cute kid
What's going to happen next?
Would their be other troubles coming their way?
Can't wait to find out
Thank you for the update
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I think Kai isn't a father figure but super father figure :)
Great update author-san^^
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super cute ryochan
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Aw.....their family so adorable, i love it!
I want see ryo-chan in real life,is it possible? :P
Well good job author-san,i still waiting for some drama here :hehehe: :kekeke:
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GYAAAAAHHHH~~~!! Asumina it's so perfect! XD XD XD :inlove:
please update soon author-san :bow:
I hope Yuu never comeback :twisted:
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Awww so cure the Atsumina :heart:
I love the story :heart:
I hope you update soon :twothumbs :bow:
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Ryo-chan so cute ::::::: so warm family. I can't wait what happen next ........... XD
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thank you for comment,
I see you are like Ryo-chan ne, :nya:
about the drama, i think i wont put that in the next chapter but soon i will make it.
for now enjoy this chapter, sorry for my bad english anyway :bow:
Chap 18
Atsuko POV
“you know, I’m very lucky to have you.”
Suddenly, the word came out of Kai’s lips, my husband for a year, which is currently being there for me doing Hatsumode. We just finished the prayer beginning of the year and intends to immediately return to my parent’s home where entrust Ryo while. The day was as usual in the first week of the beginning of the year, we visited the temple visited by people who also do their first visit to the temple today, therefore I couldn’t believe my ears when Kai suddenly say it.
I looked at him with puzzled look, but we didn’t stop our step. Kai’s face didn’t turn red or look awkward. He looked straight ahead and kept waling and grasp my hand so that we not separate in the middle of a sea of people today.
Because after that Kai didn’t say anything else, and I don’t know how I should respond, or do I have to respond, so I decide not to say anything and just shut up and let my husband was holding my hand stepped out of the temple courtyard.
We descended the stairs temple without saying anything to each other. I don’t know what is in Kai’s mind at the time, while my own mind suddenly took me back to the past, exactly a year ago when I and Kai met that right. Meeting that ultimately drove us to a wedding. That night the snow also fell like today. I don’t remember what the reasons I fight with Yuu at the time so I decided to drink alone until late at night, but if I think about it now, my encounter with Kai night it certainly was destiny. If only night that I didn’t meet him...
I don’t want to imagine. Then that night I didn’t meet with Kai then this marriage will never happen and then I would never have Ryo. I don’t want to imagine my life without my two handsome man. I involuntarily squeezed Kai’s hand a little tighter that I should until he turned to me and frowned.
“what?”
I lifted my face to look at him and shook my head, I smiled, yes, I don’t need to think about that. This time I was with him, and I love him. I don’t need to think about what might happen if, at the time I didn’t see him. I’m holding onto my hand and hugged one arm while still running. Kai didn’t say anything and let half dragged him to leave the temple complex.
“are you cold?” Kai asked as we drove through a park on our way to the house of my parents. In January the cold garden is not as busy as usual. Perhaps also because this is the beginning of the year so that people spend more time with their family at home or on vacation somewhere, “why don’t we sit down for a while? It’s been a long time we are not alone like this..”
I laughed and nodded again, “perhaps.”
Since Ryo was born, we didn’t never spend time alone together. Especially since we are both aware of our feeling to each other. I guess it doesn’t hurt to spend time alone with my husband a while before we go home. I’m sure my mom and dad will not mind to keep Ryo little longer. Anyway, Kai adoptive parents who lived next door to my parents seemed excited to learn that we bring Ryo come stay to celebrate the new year. At the age of just turned a few month Ryo has become and idol in our big family.
I and Kai walked towards a long white park bench. Like the other benches in the park, it seemed empty bench with a little leftover snow piled on it. Snowfall patter just subsides leaving piles of snow everywhere, including on the streets and in the branches of the trees made me feel as if surrounded by sparkling white color.
Kai cleaning snowflakes on a bench and motioned for me to sit there.
“wait here,” Kai smiled, as he spoke of the white steam seemed out of his mouth today marks the air is cold enough, “I’m going to buy a warm drink vending machine. You want a drink?”
“coffee milk,” I said, smiling back.
Kai nodded before then trot to leave me alone to the nearest drinks vending machine to buy drinks. I nodded at the figure that getting away until it disappeared from my sight. A few seconds later after Kai left, finally I was able to take my eyes off him an d lifted my face staring winter gray sky.
Actually we would like to invite Ryo together we visited the temple today, unfortunately these day the air is too cold to take out the house. The weather forecast this morning reported that the snow will come down quite thick today and we decided to canceled our plan invited Ryo and go alone. Ryo had to wait until next year to make his first Hatsumode. Next year, we will celebrate the new year together. Our little family will be happy like this, next year and subsequent years.
I smiled when I think about it.
Suddenly I remembered the word that had suddenly ejected from Kai’s lips, about now he was lucky to have me. Lucky? Really? I don’t know whether to marry a woman like me can be said to be lucky. Kai is young man who looked quite handsome, has a steady job and a pleasant nature. Only marry a girl who can’t even finish college.. What can he be proud of me?
Slowly, I could feel my smile slowly faded and wrinkled my forehead.
What can be proud of me?
I can’t cook. During this time I made cuisine is never far from nikujaga, curry, and beef stew which is actually processed from the same material with just a little different herbs. After giving a birth. I also feel a lot of changes in my body. Not only some parts turn into bigger but it also become mushy. My body is no longer and will never again strong as it once was. Of course I never regret was pregnant and gave birth Ryo, it’s just that sometimes I wonder what Kai think of me. I mean, I know he loves me. He even said that he has loved since many years ago, but I wondered if he would never compare me with other women.. Does he want me to comeback as it once was, at the time we were not married?
I love Kai. Know since when I was familiar with his smile and I don’t want to lose that smile. Therefore I was little worried what he thinks of me. If we were meant to be with, I don’t want him to feel sorry for having to spend all his life with me.
“sorry to keep you waiting long,”
When I lifted my face, Kai stood in front of me who wear thick greenish brown jacket open and reveal a white sweater he wore in it combined with faded blue pale jeans. He also wore a blue scarf which is a Christmas gift from me. My husband is increasingly looked good while I increasingly look miserable.
I smile as I received the beverage cans are handed to me, “thank you.”
Kai smiled and sat down beside me. He opened the drink and drank it without saying anything. I opened my can drink and shipped it slowly. I can’t feel the drink I drank it because at that time my head was filled with something else that is quite disturbing.
“what is wrong?”
I glanced at Kai who looked at me anxiously.
“since last seem your mind filled with something. Is there something bothering you?”
I shook my head and smiling again. I was stupid, I was worrying unnecessarily. Kai loves me, that’s enough for me. I just have to believe it, right? Then why I can’t stop feeling anxiety?
“there is nothing. .”
“Atsuko. .” Kai sounded not believe it, but he didn’t say anything else.
I am grateful that Kai didn’t ask anything more after that. I spent my drink without saying anything. For a few minutes we both just sat there without saying anything. We spent our respective drinks without saying a word.
“you know, Atsuko, I am the luckiest man in the world.”
It was the second time today Kai spoke the words and surprised me. I didn’t say anything in the hope that he will continue the word this time.
“I love you long before I know what love is,” Kai said without looking at me, “in the end I could marry you. I thought it was I didn’t care, though forever you will never reciprocate my feelings. At first I thought, just to be by your side, even if you hate me, I don’t care. It is enough make me happy..”
“hey!” I protested, “I don’t hate you, okay! I love you.”
Kai laughed, and the he finally turned to me, “oh yeah? But first you hate me, right?”
I blushed, “I feel angry at the time. But actually, I’m more mad to myself...” I finally admitted, “you are my friend, I never hate you. I....I felt very sad when you start away from me first....” I tried to hide my face reddened, “after all, now I love you, okay?”
Kai smiled and hugged me, “I know, that’s why I said that I was the luckiest guy in the world.”
Lucky?
“are you sure?”
“hmmm?”
I closed my eyes, letting Kai tightened his arms. Fresh scent of cologne he wore seemed to put me to sleep. I felt very comfortable being in the arms of my friend since childhood.
“you know, I. . Didn’t finish my college, my body changed after giving birth, I’m not a good cook, and I’m selfish,” I’m lucky because with our current position, Kai couldn’t see my face flushed at this time, “there are many women better than me who deserve to be with you and....”
“sssshhh,” Kai cut my words, “stop, I don’t want to hear it.”
I was speechless.
“listen to me,” said Kai abstain his face from me, “you didn’t finish your studies because to marry me, your body changed since you gave birth to my son, even if you are not good at cooking but you cooked for me, and you’re selfish, but I don’t care. You can afford to be selfish just to me, I love you and I don’t want to split you with anyone, including letting you show your selfish side to other.”
I can’t say anything. I don’t think that Kai would say something like that with a serious face. Dimly, I can see the red hue coloring Kai’s face, and this time I’m sure it’s not because the air is cold enough this time. I chuckled to see it.
“hey, I say seriously. .” Kai said, blushing, “I just said it cool and you’re laughing at me. .”
“sorry,” I said on the sidelines laughing, “I’m not used to seeing you act cool like that.”
Kai put a face as if hurt by my words, but he had to try harder to fool me because I could see that he was faking. I grinned. Kai is failed to be cool in front of me, but that doesn’t mean I don’t feel happy because of his words. I can laugh like this because the words that he spoke had to calm down.
“you know, Atsuko,” Kai said again, “before this, my relationship with my ex-girlfriend always failed. I guess, it’s not just because I’m always comparing them with you. But also because God has destined us to be together. .”
This time I laughed even harder.
“hey!,” Kai protested, “I’m serious!”
“just because you’re serious, this sound more funny.”
Laughter stopped when I felt Kai’s hand touched my cheek and stroked it gently.
“Kai?”
Kai smiled, “I’m glad to see you laugh like this. Earlier, I was anxious to see you looks gloomy.”
This time my face flushed.
“ah, I. . .”
“Atsuko,” Kai didn’t listen to me, his face turned serious in an instant, “marry me.”
Married?
“didn’t we got married?”
Kai shook his head, then pulled my hand and made me stand facing him in front of a park bench where we were sitting there, “we registered our marriage in the civil records, but there was never a marriage ceremony.”
I looked at Kai brown yes and frowned, “you want a wedding ceremony?”
Kai smiled, “you don’t want?”
“now? Here?”
Instead of answering my question, Kai coughed up before then said in a voice that he deliberately made heavier, “Maeda Atsuko, Do you accept Kai as your husband in healthy or sick, poor and rich, until death separated you?”
I returned a loss for words for a few seconds, but the I decided to follow this game.
“yes, I do.”
Kai smiled happily.
I cleared up before the way Kai talked before, “and you, Takahashi Kai, Do you accept Atsuko as your wife under any circumstances until death separated you?”
“yes, I do,” he said, still smiling, and the he suddenly grabbed my hand and slipped something in my finger. I looked at my finger in confusion before then that Kai had just pinned connection can opener that whenever the release of coffee cans bought earlier, “we don’t have a wedding ring. I still can’t buy a real ring, but someday for sure...”
I smiled, “for now, this is enough.”
I then took off the hook can opener drink and wear it to the Kai finger. I looked at him with a smile. I know maybe this time we look like fools, do wedding ceremony in front of a park bench with a can opener instead of a ring..
“then, may I kiss the bride?”
I chuckled, “of course, you may kiss the bride.”
When Kai cold lips touch my lips, I realized. Destiny or not, I’m not going to let go of this man.
TBC
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:twothumbs good good!! :)
I'd like to read more!
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awww silly couple
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So sweet couple :inlove:
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Nice chapter!!!
But gomen yuko-san,i cant give u much comment this time.
My phone on bad condition right now.
So please just continue this.
Love u author- san~
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Where's da update author san??????????? Wheereee are uuuuu???!!!
Lol
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I just open the wrong page for your fic :badluck:
but finally i caught up :nya:
waiting for the next :peace:
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Omg cant wait to see the next chapter
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ano...sorry for distrub but yuko-san doko ni iru yo?
are u going to update this story or not?
i really wait for ur next chapter.
dakara,onegaishimasu!
please continue it :kneelbow:
matta ne yuko-san~
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Pass to much time :(
I hope you continue the story :bow:
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i really like the story, i will wait for next chapter.
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oh my god, this story is just too adorable!
please continue authorsan! i want to see other sweet moments between the little family.
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I absolutely love this fan fic! Atsumina are just too cute.
I hope that you update soon though :fainted:
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I'm kinda miss this fic
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please continue this story author-san :cry:
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well minna-san who's waiting for this fanfic, i really sorry for not update almots 3 years cause my laptop was broken and i forgot my password,
honto ni sumimasendeshita :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :kneelbow: :kneelbow:
maybe after this fanfic i will make another fanfic, XD XD XD so for you guys enjoy this last chapter :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
DOUZOOOO~~~~~~~~ :hee:
CHAPTER 19 (Last Chapter)
"BITTERSWEET UNDERSTANDING"
"Knowing someone and understanding a person are two different things. I knew your father for almost thirty years but I did not understand him yet." – My Mom
A gentle spring breeze carries fallen cherry petals. Vaguely from a high school came the sound of the students singing a farewell song at their graduation ceremony. The spring air with the soft sakura scent mixed with the atmosphere that colored the school environment that day was warm. One by one the third graders who had graduated took to the stage in the large hall and received their graduation marks. Not a few of the students and teachers who shed tears on that happy day.
The graduation ceremony lasted for almost two hours. This time, the lectures delivered by the headmaster and teachers somehow did not sound boring. Perhaps because this is the last time they will have the opportunity to listen to the lecture.
The students waited patiently until the graduation ceremony was over before they then burst into the schoolyard to exchange memories or just take pictures together.
The cherry blossoms falling around them are like congratulating them on their graduation. Some students use the opportunity and atmosphere to express their feelings to the person they have been admiring. Today is their last chance to carve out memories as high school students.
One of those the long straight brown-haired and beautiful faced girl walked toward the school building, with a sad expression on her face. Soon, she had to say goodbye to this school building, to her friends, and to every memory she had made during her schooling.
Including memories of her first love that has ended.
Her footsteps unknowingly took her to a classroom that was on the second floor of her school building. With a smile slowly growing on her beautiful face, the girl entered the now empty classroom. Slowly he walked to the rows of windows on the other side of the classroom. He is very familiar with this classroom. Until a month ago he spent a lot of time in this room, but not because that's what this class meant to him. This room is the place where the person he likes to see is crying. The girl was standing by the window. Out there he could see students who had graduated taking pictures in the schoolyard or cuddling as they would go to a different university. Away from the crowd, he drowned in his own thoughts. For three years he attended this school, he had no enemies but he did not have many friends. His closed nature makes it difficult to tell his problems to his friends. The only person who can make him open up is the person he likes. Though in the end his feelings toward the person are unrequited, he does not regret it because at least his feelings have been conveyed. Moreover, he has learned many valuable lessons from this incident. Smiling to himself, inwardly he wished that he could meet the man once again to say goodbye. And thank you.
"Kojima-san?"
Kojima Haruna jerked out of her reverie. She recognized the voice. She turned to the entrance and fell silent as she saw him standing there. She blinked a few times, if her brain creates a visible illusion in front of her.
The man was s tanding in the doorway, his blonde hair still looking as messy as ever. His lips smiled the usual friendly smile and his brown eyes stared at her. The handsome man was wearing a white suit with a plain black t-shirt in it. A slightly more relaxed appearance compare to the performance he wore whe he taught in front of the class.
Yes, the young man is Takahashi Kai. The biology teacher and the person she loves.
“Takahashi-sensei…” Kojima’s eyes rest on a baby boy in Kai’s arms. For the first time she realized that Kai wasn’t alone then, he took his 6 month old baby with him, “is that…your son?”
Kai smiled
“Let me introduce you, this is Takahashi Ryo” Kai chuckles as he stepped into the classroom, “this is the first tkme you met him, right?”
Haruna nodded. Her eyes still rested on the blonde and brown-eyes man. In addition to his brown eyes, the baby boy looked like Kai’s miniature.
Kai stopped his steps tight in front of Haruna. He smiled before using one hand to pat his student’s head gently.
“Congratulation on yout graduation.”
Haruna desperately refrained from crying. The words were like destroying the defensive wall she had built. In fact, she has said many times to herself not to cry. But this time, She coundn’t hold back her tears any longer.
“Thank you, Sensei,” Haruna smiled with tears in her face, “Sensei has helped me a lot and gave me a lot of passion, I learned a lot…”
Kai just smiled and nodded.
Being a teacher is something he has long desired. He had always dreamed of work like this, surrounded by student and could help solve their problem. Kai realized that there were still many things he had to learn to become a good teacher. His merting with Haruna, not only gave him more lessons to become a teacher but also to be a good husband and father. Kai never expected before that he would get valuable lessons form his student. So in fact, he felt that he was the one who should have bowed his head and thanked him.
Haruna was trying to wipe her tears as she felt a small hand tap the top of her head. Confused, she lifted her face and saw Ryo’s chubby-faced face staring at her.
Kai laughed at the took of confusion on Haruna’s face, “it looks like Ryo wants to encourage you.”
Haruna’s tears stopped to see Ryo laughing at her. As the teacher had just said, the boy seemed to be trying to encourage her. Haruna smiled and patted Ryo’s head gently.
“Thank you, Ryo-chan…”
“Nyaa….” Ryo moved his hands and feet with excitement.
Kai looked at his now rebellious child in his arms and laughed, “Ryo seems to like you.”
Haruna laughed a little, her cheeks flushed, the she looked at Kai with hopeful eyes, “can I hold him, Sensei?”
Kai nodded before handing Ryo to his pupil. Ryo himself didn’t seem to mind being in the arms of seventeen years old girl.
“Uh, Atsuko-san… Does she know Sensei is here?”
“Of Course, She’s waiting in the car/”
For a few minutes they didn’t talk to each other. Haruna is busy chatting with Ryo while Kai looks out the window. Both hands in the pockets of his pants and chest proud to see his students who have graduate today. A smile widened on his face, although he couldn’t attend their graduation ceremony today, he was still proud to have taught them.
“Sensei, what is sensei doing here?”
Kai was still looking out the window, “I want to see my students, although it will be a problem if the other teacher see me here, my punishment ends at a new asmissins ceremony,” Kai added with a smile toward Haruna, “and I also come because there are some things I want to talk to you about.”
Haruna looked surprise, “with me?”
The brown-eyed man nodded, “I realize a lot of things after getting to know you better and listening to your story. the point of view of a child about his parents. When I hear your story I think a lot, about my marriage, about my son,” kai rubbed Ryo’s head gently, “maybe what I’m going to say doesn’t mean anything to you right now, but I hope it will be useful to you someday.”
Haruna nodded and smiled, ready to hear anything. what the teacher will tell her.
“The marriage of your parents may not be saved, but I don’t want this to make you afraid of marriage,” Kai’s tone changed seriously, “love will someday be lost, or diminished. Founded marriage is merely love, it will be difficult to endure. the most important thing is understanding. If you already understand someone, it will be easier to love him, dan to live with him.”
Haruna chuckles at seeing Kai’s face turn red after saying it, “is that Sensei like that with Sensei’s wife?”
Kai, still with flushed face, smiling shyly, “we are still in the stage of understanding each other, it will probably take a long time until we really understand each other, but I don’t care” the father of one child was staring out the window once agin, “I’m a pretty patient person of this kind of business.”
Haruna stared at Kai’s face for few second before starung out the window, “I hope I’ll find someone like youwho will treat me like you treats Atsuko-san..”
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“Sorry to keep you waiting.”
Atsuko smiled.
Kai gets into the car holding Ryo that seems to be sleepy. Atsuko chuckled at the sight of her tiny baby seeming to bend over backward against sleep. still smiling, the young mother held out her hadn to let her husband hand the little baby over to her.
Ryo yawns wide as he ends up in his mother’s arms. the handsome baby leaned his head against his mother’s chest and whitin seconds he had fall asleep. Atsuko smiled at the sleeping face of the only child.
Kai was turning on the engine when Atsuko asked in a quite voice, “how’d you meet Haruna-chan?”
Kai smiled and nodded. Slowly his foot stepped on the gas pedal and the car started walking awaya from the place.
“Kojima-san has decide to postpone taking the university entrance exam until next year,” Kai told her what he heard from his student, “she wants to improve her relationship with his mother for a year.”
Atsuko Nodded, “if that’s the decision she took… Haruna has thought, I guess…it should be all right.”
Kai laughed at his wife’s words, “hmmm, you’re very optimistic, huh?”
Atsuko smiled, “of course, we must remain optimistic in order to enjoy life.”
Kai nodded. His eyes were still on the road ahead of him. Today there are many things to do. He and his wife have decided that from today they will start everything from beginning. They will finish all the affairs they have not had time to complete.
“Hey, Kai, do you remember, back then when we were kisd we used to play along with other, I always became a princess.. “ Atsuko glanced at her smiling husband, “I always wanted to be a prncess.”
“of course I still remember, do you remember? I always be a servant or a price’s horse at the time.”
Kai smiled wryly at Atsuko’s laughter.
“ah, yes, I remember now, Atsuko smiled, trying to stop her laughter so as not to wake Ryo who is now fast asleep, “you always don’t like because you always get that role…”
“I’m not satisfied not because I have to act as a horse or servant,” Kai said as he stepped on the brake pedal when the traffic light was red, he turned toward Atsuko and lokked directly into dark brown eyes, “I fell annoyed because I have to see other people being prince for you.”
Slowly Atsuko’s face turned bright red. Kai’s face looks very serious when he says it and looks a bit more………handsome?”
“From then on, I always try to be a proper price for you,” Kai said, smiling seductively as he realized the red tinge on his wife’s face, “what do you think, my princess? Can I become a worthy price for you?”
With a red face in shame, no matter how unusual she heard such a sentence from Kai’s lips, she hurriedly averted her face from Kai’s gaze.
“Ah, the light is green.”
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The young man was very handsome. Wherever he goes, his good looks will make the woman look at him and look at him with admiration. His eyes and dark brown hair were in sharp contrast to his white skin. Good looking and smart, not only that he also has brilliant career. Everything on him seemed perfect. Oshima Yuu is a very lucky man, born with a face and a much better fate than most people.
He should be satisfied with everything he has. But he’s not satisfied with what he has right now. Not for now, when ehat he wants most in this world can’t be obtained.
Maeda Atsuko.
Nothing special with the short-haires woman. Nothing special except that she has been able to steal a Oshima Yuu’s heart.
The months he had to go after his breakup with Atsuko were the hardest months he had even been through. Never before hand he thought that hwe would feel this way just because a woman who left hi. Previously he had never cared about such trivial things. In her life womaen will come by themselves. He naver holds a woman who wants to get away from him, or chase him back, he has high self-esteen. After all, Atsuko is a special case that happened to him.
The young mid-twenty-year-old lawyer sipped. The coffee he had ordered half an hour ago had started to cool but he didn’t care. He looked at his watch and sighed. There are still ten minutes of the promised hour. He had come early to think of things.
This is his last chance to get it back, or release it.
he doesn’t know what makes him to agree to come today. He does want to meet Atsuko and once again tries to ask her back, but he doesn’t want to see the man. The person who has taken Atsuko from him.
The last time he met with that man, they were involved in a fistfight. One more thing he never did before. As a young intellectual, Oshima Yuu believed that every problem not need solved by violence. But by then he was completely out of control. How come, the woman she had been fondling some time turned out to have babies from another men.
“Sorry for waiting,”
Oshima lifted his face and held his breath as in front of him looked Atsuko standing with an awkward expression on his face. Beside him stood a slightly blond-haired bloke with Yuu’s sharp eyes at him.
Then his gaze fell upon a sleeping figure in a hug of Atsuko. Suddenly a glimpse of her baby figure might be their child if the man who sitting beside Atsuko had not messed thing up
Yuu didn’t say anything when Kai pull a chair for Atsuko to sit down before he pulled a chair for himself. The three were still silent in an awkward mood. No one said anything until a waiter to ask for their order.
Yuu felt sick. Maybe his decision to come is not the right decision. Seeing the little family he could have had in front of him like that only annoyed him.
“So,” he tried to sound calm but his voice actually sounded lower than usual, “what do you want to talk about?”
Atsuko bite her lower lip awkwardly, “I.. I think Kai and me never apologize directly to you, so we… uh, we want to apologize.”
Atsuko hugged her baby with one hand while one arm tucked her hair behind her ear, her habit she didn’t realize when she felt uncomfortable. Yuu realizes that but he decides not to comment on it.
“I know I don’t have the roght to speak like this,” Kai finally ventured to speak, since he had just be silent and thinking about the choice of the right words. He knows how dislike Yuu with him and he doesn’t want to confuse things by saying somethings unnecessary, “nut I know that you love Atsuko, just like you, I love her too. I have loved her for a long time even before that day when I meet her again. At that moment Atsuko still loves you, so I know here I’m the one who’s wrong now, not Atsuko.”
Yuu snorted.
The last thing he wants tight now is to see a married couple defend in front of him. It’s sickening.
Reluctant to stare at both Kai and Atsuko, Yuu’s black eyes are fixated on the baby in Atsuko’s arms at the moment. Even at this early age Yuu can see much resemblance to the baby’s face with his father.
Strangely he couldn’t hate the baby as he hated his father. Maybe because the baby wasn’t at all innocent, or maybe because in the blood of the baby the blood of the woman he loved.
He wouldn’t mind if he had to raise the baby like him own, but it didn’t seem possible.
“I can’t forgive you.”
Atsuko smiled sadly, beneath the table, Kai squeezed Atsuko’s left hand which she clasped silently, “I understand..”
From the beginning Atsuko didn’t expect Yuu to forgive her, however this was all her fault. She was the one who betrayed the man who was his partner and knew all the risk. Kai was so, as man he understood how Yuu felt at the time. He also can’t do anything, even if the drak brown hair man decided to hit him again, this time he won’t fight.
Yuu noticed a small movement under the table when Kai squeezed Atsuko’s hand. Instantly the face of the woman who few years beneath it looked calmer. Such a small thing. He never gave such calm when they were together.
Probably all this time he never really knew Atsuko.
“I will never to forgive you, but I will nevber hate Atsuko,” Yuu closed his eyes for three seconds trying to convince himself that this was the right decision, “I still love Atsuko, even today.”
Kai clamped his jaws tightly to keep from saying anything to cut Yuu’s words. Relizing this, this time it was Atsuko who squeezes Kai’s hand gently under the table to remind him that she was there.
“I love Atsuko, and at that moment, when you did it, Atsuko still love me, I know that, but now she has chosen you..”
Yuu stopped his words for a moment. His forehead was wrinkled as if he were wondering what to say next. Neither Atsuko nor Kai said anything, just waited until the young man in the white shirt continued his words.
“I know I can’t force him to leave you, but I’ll wait until he decides to leave you,” Yuu added in a voice that this time sounded more confident, “but if you are…,” he looked sharply to Kai, “if you dare to hurt Atsuko, believe me, I will chase you to the edge of the world and beat you.”
Yuu didn’t say it but inwardly he realized that Kai is the man Atsuko had chosen. Because that’s means Kai is better that him for Atsuko and he won’t let that blond man fall apart until it hurts Atsuko.
“I’ll wait for you,” this time Yuu gazed softly at Atsuko, “you and your son, if this fool hurts you, come to me.”
Atsuko glance at Kai who looked annoyed before then smiled relievedly at Yuu, “of course, I’ll remember it.”
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“Hey, Acchan…”
“Hmm?”
“Do you love me?”
“Of course I love you”
“Then what makes you love me?”
Atsuko opened her eyes slowly. She lifted her body to turn on the reading lights on the table next to her bed before she turned to her husband lying next to her, with both hands under his head. His brown eyes stared straight at the ceiling.
Atsuko narrowed her eyes, “how many times do you intend to ask that? I’m tired of answering it.”
Still without turning to his wife, Kai sighed, “tired of answering? maybe someday you’ll get bored with me.”
Atsuko narrowed her eyes. Her drowsiness disappears instantly. she knows that sometimes her husband canbecome more sensitive that a woman but she doesn’t understand why he suddenly started this topic of conversation.
“I’m afraid,” Kai mumble again, “someday you’ll get bored with me and leave me with Ryo. Oshima seems to be expecting you.”
Atsuko finally understood. Apparently her husband was still thinking about what Yuu said earlier. She couldn’t help smiling.
“I won’t leave you. Ryo and I will always be by your side.” Atsuko drew closer to Kai before lying her head on Kai chest. “but how about you? I will grow old while you will start teaching again next month and surrounded by girls again, attractive young girl. Are you sure you won’t get bored with me?”
Kai turned to the wife he had been married for a year before staring back at the ceiling with his brow wrinkled. He seemed to be thinking hard.
“Hmmm, maybe I’ll get bored with you.”
“Hey!!,” Atsuko protested, pinching Kai’s waist.
Kas grinned, “I don’t know what’s going to happen in the future,” He turned his body suddenly until his position was above Atsuko’s body, his nose just few centimeters from Atsuko’s nose, “I can’t promise, but I know surely that I will keep trying to understand you, to get to know you, and for that I will be by your side.”
Atsuko pursed her lips dissatisfied. Actually she expect to listen to something more romantic than that.
“I should have known you weren’t romantic.”
Kai smiled, “last time I tried to be romantic you laughed at me.”
Atsuko knows what Kai means. Applications and rings from the lid of the tin at the time.
“I’m sorry,” Kai pressed his forehead to her wife’s forehead, “I can’t say “I love you forever”, I can only say “I love you today,” But I’ll try say it everyday forever...”
Atsuko smiled at him, “I think that’s enough.”
Kai kissed Atsuko briefly before smiling back, “thank goodness, means we can end our conversation here now and start another activity?”
Atsuko laughed a little, but she had not had time to say something to the baby crying from the monitor installed in their room.
Kai growled in disappointment as he knew his plan had to be delayed. And sure enough, Atsuko immediately pushed her husband’s body away from her to get out of bed and head to Ryo’s room.
“Wait for me to take care of Ryo the we continue that one,” Atsuko winked one eye before leaving the room.
Kai waved at his wife hurrying toward their nursery before throwing himself onto the bed.
“Waiting for ya?” he muttered to himself.
He smiled.
He has been waiting for twenty years to make Atsuko reciprocate his feeling. Waiting for a while until Atsuko finished taking care of their baby is not difficult for him.
Of course he hopes Ryo will soon fall asleep after Atsuko finished giving him milk.
THE END
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Welcome back Yuko-san :welcome
YATTA,,!!! Finally update :otomerika: :cow: :panic:
Thanks for your update :heart:
Ahh I'm your silent readers anyway, and still new in here :bow:
Nice to meet you :nervous
Hopefully you will wrote another fic, specifically atsumina or kaiacchan :inlove: :wub:
I'll be loved to read it :deco:
Maybe you should make omake for this fic :yep: :twothumbs :cow:
Thanks :jphip: ,update your another soon :bow:
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Found this cute fic a little while ago and I have been reading it continuously
The cuteness of takahashi’s family
I love how Acchan could be so understanding, like I could see the progression of her turning to be more mature as the story progress
While Kai is always patient
I love all the interactions happening
Great job author-san
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omg a reeaaallly gooooodd fanfic jajajaja.Love it and omg Ryo is sooo cute.Maybe u should do a sequel?wgere Ryo is alreadya big child jjajajaj
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I totally don’t mind that since it’s hard to find one here 😊😊
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Agree :cow: :cow:
I like yuunaa couple also, ikemen naachan and cute yuuiri🤩💕 :wub:
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Their relationship is slowly growing hehe I can't wait for when they will really be together and fall in love *_*
We can acchan becoming more mature which makes their relationship more and more interesting