I’m here (TakaMii)
A bouquet of roses in her left hand and a bright smile on her face Takamina excitedly walk towards the dressing room of her girlfriend.
“She’s going to love this bouquet!” she excitedly talked to herself. Acchan just finished promoting her new album and Takamina was so proud of her girlfriend. They don’t have time to talk to each other because of their busy schedule so she planned to surprise her girlfriend but before she reach the dressing room she saw two girls in front of the room and they are kissing. Takamina scrunched her nose and squinted her eyes feeling a bit odd because the two girls seem quietly familiar to her. She stopped mid-way and watched them. Feeling a bit disgusted because they’re making out in front of her girlfriend’s dressing room. They stopped kissing and broke apart, she squinted her eyes again and it hit Takamina, it was Acchan and Sae who was kissing. She couldn’t move, her eyes began to tear up and she couldn’t breathe properly. ‘Why are they kissing?’ ‘Is this for real?’ these thoughts flooded Takamina’s mind. They talked for a while and Sae opened the door of the dressing room. Takamina remained hard as a rock at her current spot. She feels like someone is stabbing her heart repeatedly. She spaced out and the tears began to fall. Memories of her and Acchan flashed back in her mind and the happy memories slowly fade away. She slaps her cheeks for a few times and wiped her tears but they kept falling. Her feet started to move like it has a mind on its own. There’s no point of giving the bouquet now.
Miichan happily skip through the corridor wondering if Takamina successfully gave the roses to Acchan. She wanted to congratulate Acchan for doing a good job. She already gave enough time for the love birds. As she turned left she bumped into someone.
“Oh sorry didn’t mean to—Takamina?!”
Takamina dropped the bouquet and hugged Miichan. She began to sob uncontrollably like a kid lost in the department store.
“W-what happened Takamina?” she asked Takamina feeling protective to her friend. She will never let anyone make her friend cry.
“Let’s go to my house and talk” Sensing that Takamina can’t speak properly right now.
‘Maybe something bad happened between her and Acchan'
They were sitting on the sofa and Takamina is still crying. Miichan just let Takamina cry. It’s the best for her in this situation.
Takamina hiccupped and tried to speak.
“A-Acchan....kissing” she hiccupped again and tried to continue what she was saying but Miichan stopped her. The first 2 words she heard are enough for Miichan to understand what is happening.
“Is....is she.... cheating on... you?” Miichan said it cautiously so it won’t hurt Takamina more.
Takamina nodded and tightly hugged Miichan. Takamina sobbed loudly while saying incoherent words. An angry frown started to form on Micchan’s face and her fist curled up.
‘No one hurts Takamina. No one can make her cry’
After 20 minutes Takamina stopped crying. Her dress is damp but it’s okay because it’s Takamina. Takamina is still vulnerable and she needs someone to make
her a bit happy. Maybe eating can make her happy?
“I’ll go get us some cake and tea, just sit here okay?”
Takamina nodded her head. Miichan gave Takamina a last look before she goes inside the kitchen.
Takamina’s P.O.V
I feel so betrayed and unloved with all those years I’ve been with her are a joke? Am I not enough for her? I did everything to make her happy but is it not
enough? I’ve seen them before being intimate with each other but I just ignore it because they’re friends. She’s my first for everything. I gave her my life and soul. Is it not enough? I don’t know what I’m going to now. It feels like everything are non-sense to me. I want to die. My heart is not with me anymore. She broke it into a million pieces. I’m tired and sick of this.
“Here eat this it will make you a bit happy. Chocolate cake makes me happy” Miichan offered me a slice. Only Acchan can make me happy..
“I’ll be back, eat it okay?” she patted my head and gave me a smile
I held the fork tightly..I can feel my hands trembling. Maybe I should just die? Maybe if I die Atsuko will finally realize that she likes me? What if she doesn’t? What
if she won’t even realize that I’m gone? Maybe I should just kill myself right now so everything will be fine.
I was about to stab myself but someone slap my hand.
Miichan’s P.O.V
I gave her the chocolate cake and gone back to the kitchen to get the tea. I wish she will cheer up a little. I don’t want to see her crying. She’s just too precious to
be crying. Those tears don’t suit her face. It’s the biggest mistake Atsuko did. Takamina is one of a kind and cheating at her is the biggest mistake that moron did.
I arranged the tea and put it in the tray.
‘I’ll do anything for Takamina’ I was about to call her name but when I look at her she’s about to stab herself. I dropped the tray and run as fast as I can to slap her hand.
The sound of the glass shattering and my heart beating are the only sound I can hear right now. My tears start falling down.
“WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU’RE DOING?!” I screamed at her face. I don’t care if I’m crying right now. Only matters right now is why did she try to kill herself
“ISN’T IT OBVIOUS?! I’M GOING TO KILL MYSELF AND YOU INTERRUPTED IT!” she fired back at me. I can feel myself trembling because of anger.
“WITH A FORK!? ARE YOU INSANE!? DO YOU THINK A FORK CAN KILL YOU RIGHT AWAY?!” I shot back at her. I knelt down and buried my face in my hands.
“You don’t understand Miichan...” she mumbled. I can barely hear it.
I look up and found that she crying too.
‘Why are you doing this to yourself Takamina?’
“Then let me understand it Takamina..” I whispered. This is too much already.
“..................” Silence. It’s killing me. I want to know what’s going on her mind.
“There’s no point of living Miichan...” Did I hear it right? Did she just say it?
“NO POINT?!” I screamed at her and I saw her flinched.
“What about AKB48? What about us? your friends? What about me? What do you think we will feel if you kill yourself?! Do you think it can solve your problems?!
Huh?! Takamina! Do you think it can?! Acchan is not the only girl in the world. There so many fish in the sea! Open your fucking eyes!” I catch my breath. There are many things I wanted to say to her. Didn’t she think that we will feel sad if she died?! Damn it. This is your entire fault Atsuko.
“STOP SCREAMING AT ME! YOU DON’T KNOW ANYTHING MIICHAN! SHE’S THE ONLY GIRL FOR ME!” She pointed an accusatory finger at me. That left me
speechless. She looked at side and sighed. I wiped my tears with my hands and stood up. I turned my back to her.
“You are so blinded by your love for Atsuko, that you can’t see other people’s feelings..Can you please open your eyes and looked around? There are many people that’s going to be sad if you kill yourself...and you don’t see that I love you..” I mumbled the last word. I wish she didn’t hear it. I’m so sick of this. I’m tired of being the 3rd wheel.
“What did you say?” I heard her whispered. I just stood there not caring if she just asked me a question.
I heard footsteps and she turned me around.
“Pardon?” There’s a serious look on her face. I looked down and kept quiet. She tightly held my wrist.
“Ouch! You’re hurting me Takamina..” I heard her gasp and her grip loosen.
“S-sorry”
We just stood there.
“I-I I said..I said..I said...I-I..I like..No..I...I..l-love you” I can feel my tears start falling down my cheeks.
“Miichan...”
“Please don’t talk Takamina..please..” I hiccupped. It’s my turn now to cry. I know that she will reject me. I know that this is not the right time to confess but I just
can’t help myself. The anger and jealousy are building up inside me.
Takamina’s P.O.V
My hands started to move. I just had a urge to hold you in my arms and say sweet things to you. Your confession is so sudden for me it to sink it in my head.
You’re my best friend and I don’t know what I’m going to do if I lose you.
I held you in my arms.
You asked me why I’m doing this but neither do I know why. I looked into your eyes and I never knew that you have a pair of beautiful eyes. My face started to
move like you have some kind of hypnotic powers. You look so beautiful. I didn’t even notice that we’re already kissing. We broke apart and you looked at me with questioning eyes. I wish you can help me to forget about her. I know that you will not do what she did to me. I believe you Miichan. I know that I’m just using you right now to forget the hurt that I’m feeling but I guess I’m releasing all my desires to you when I heard you said you love me. Does it even make sense?
“Takamina...” you said breathlessly. I kissed you once more. I will try my best to love you.
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Sorry I don’t know how to end it
I suck
Thank you for the comments and I'm still thinking if I should write a part 2 of Survivors
Cry baby Alex
I finally posted this and I think that I'm going to disappoint you because I suck and I blame my math teacher
(still blaming him)
Sorry for wrong grammar or anything too lazy to change it
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Tomorrow is her birthday
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