Black Black Heart Part 3
Yuki couldn’t sleep last night. No matter how long she tossed and turned, her eyes just could not let her tired body rest. There was something on her
mind, that night. What Rie said about Mayu being a mess upset her.
It was true that Yuki believed from the deepest part of her heart that Mayu should stay away from her. She deserved a normal life, with a boy, have
children and a real family. Not with a girl, an ex-member of the nation’s idol group that had gone a bit under the shadow. Mayu deserved all the great
things in this world and beyond. That was why Yuki decided to push her away, letting go.
But it also killed her. Like Rie said, Yuki’s decision burned her as much as it probably burned Mayu. Mayu was that thin rope that kept Yuki from falling
apart. After all these years of graduating from AKB48, she was struggling to stay in the entertainment business. She had a major part in a drama which
was good, but then her next drama flopped. Yuki released a few solo albums but they were not really considered great. One time, Yuki played a
supporting role in a movie. It kept her name afloat but just barely. In that depression time, Mayu was there, holding her together.
Now she felt empty. Cold.
Mayu slapped her hard and left without a word.
Maybe this was wrong, Yuki thought, maybe she was mistaken.
The next morning, Yuki went out of her house, drove to Mayu’s house to apologize. She realized overnight that a life without Mayu was simply a life not
worth living. Like an air, Mayu was something Yuki need to stay alive.
When she arrived, Yuki found two cars in the garage. One quite big. Mayu’s family was having a guess. Yuki pressed the door bell and after a rather
long wait, Mayu’s mom showed up with a smile.
“Yuki!”
“Hello, how are you?” Yuki gave her most charming smile. “Is Mayu in?”
“Yes, yes. You come just in time,” Mayu’s mother led her in.
“In time... for what?”
Without even stopping and looking back at Yuki, Mayu’s mom walked further into the house. “She said you wouldn’t come. You were busy. But I know
you won’t miss a celebration such as this.”
“Wha-,” Yuki was confused, “what celebration?”
When she arrived at the dining table, she found Mayu, sitting surrounded by her family and a guy. A guy Yuki never saw before.
“Her proposal!” Mayu’s mom said with a very wide smile. “She’s getting married, Yuki-chan!”
Yuki tried her best not to crumble when Mayu’s eyes touched her own. It was cold, the stare, piercing. Mayu had a kimono on her. Hair tied down in a
bundle like a croissant and her white milky skin shone in contrast of her red kimono.
“Oh...,” Yuki stuttered. “I didn’t... I didn’t know.”
“Oh, come on!” Mayu’s mom playfully slapped her arm. “Go on! Take a seat.”
“Uh, no,” Yuki said, reeling back. “I’m just checking if Mayu’s okay. I think I’ll go home.”
“But-,” Mayu’s mom whined, “you just came.”
“It’s fine, Mom,” said Mayu. “See you, Yuki-chan.”
Yuki felt her inside was frozen by the cold in Mayu’s eyes. “Yeah. See you.”
Yuki excused herself and walked ever so quickly to her car. She drove slow because she was not really paying attention to the road. Her eyes were
blank, staring at nothing. Then, she pulled into a stop right in the middle of a street. Yuki’s fingers started to tremble and then her eyes felt like they
were burning.
She cried.