[My Thoughts, Your Thoughts]Why am I staring at her again?
I follow her every movement with me eyes, watching her walk around the room mingling with almost everyone. She must think I'm such a creep. Just look at how she's acting now, she probably knows I'm staring. Look at the way she shifts her eyes uncomfortably, and tries to have a conversation with Kei-chan and the way keeps giving me weird glances from time to time. But I can't help it, I just can't keep my eyes off of her. She's just too beautiful. The way her dark silky hair moves swiftly to one side when she turns. The way she gives that cute smile and covers her face when she's embarrassed. The way she moves, how she walked in such a poised manner to bring the food over to the table... Its just not possible to not look at her. I have no idea how I've managed to avoid her for all these years, I think I've fallen for her. No wait, I know I've fallen for her. Who wouldn't it's Rika-chan, the sweet, clever, cute, kind Rika-chan.
A sigh escape me as I scanned the room trying to focus my attention onto something other than the girl sitting opposite of me. Half of the Hello! Project girls were gathered here in my little hotel room after our Hello! Concert, well most of the younger ones went back to their hotel rooms first. I sigh again and tried to concentrate on the TV screen which was showing Naki-kun in a fancy tux, SMAP X SMAP was on. I love watching the show, the SMAP guys cooking really delicious looking food for the guest or when they do hilarious little
konto making fun of drama's and stuff. But for some reason tonight, I just can't concentrate on the show.
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God she's staring again.
This is not good for my nerves at all, my heart is pounding so hard I think it might just jump out. I can feel her eyes burning holes against my back! Focus Rika focus. Just carry these boxes of pizza to the table, that’s all I have to do. I pay the delivery man(who seems to be distracted) his money and close the door, walking towards the table I kneel down to put the boxes of pizza onto the table. There job done! Now we can eat. But she's still staring at me! Not that I don't like it of course... It feels nice somehow. She doesn't stare at me like how every other guy stares at me, more like my chests rather then me though. But her stares are different, it's her eyes, it's filled with pride, gentleness, concern and... love. I don't think anyone's ever looked at me like that before, and I think I like that. And whenever she looks at me with those eyes, it somehow never fails to make my knees feel weak.
What's happening to me?
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After 3 large pizzas and loads of beer, soft drinks for those under aged, everyone left the room one by one. With a really drunk Nakazawa Yuko having to leave with Kei-chan and a semi drunk Kaori by her side carrying her out, at the same time Kaori whispering away in the sweet sexy voice she gets whenever she's drunk. Rika was now the only one left in the room since she made it a point to help Yossi clean up the hotel room.
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I know there are maids who would do the job for us when we check out tomorrow, but I just don't like the idea of anyone thinking that the girls from Hello! Project are just a bunch of drunkard party-goers. So while I cleared up the table filled with bottles and plastic plates, I kept turning to take a peek at her. I chucked a little when I saw how she was lazily picking up the litter from the floor. I picked up another litter from the table and found myself taking yet another glance back at her, I just love how Yocchan's muscles would tensed up a little when she'd reach over to pick up the glass bottle.
Yocchan walks over to to me stretching her arms out which held on to the big black garbage bag. I guess she's signaling for me to dump the plastic plates into the bag, the bottles were all thrown into another bag.
"So everything’s cleared?" I asked, and all Yocchan did was nod like she was in a trance, how cute.
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That was fast, why can't there be more rubbish lying around? Then there would be more of Rika-chan to look at.
I wrapped up the bags and dragged the unexpectedly heavy bags towards the door, "erm.. I'll bring down the rubbish." I said, somehow that sounded awfully soft.
"I'll help you."
"Ok!", I replied a little too loudly, Rika gave a slight giggle. Boy, that was dumb of me..
I passed the bag with the plastic plates over to Rika-chan since it was lighter, don't wanna let her do so much work. And I handled the heavier bag with bottles while we both walked down toward the basement side by side.
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Yabai this bag is heavier then I thought, but can't let Yocchan know that. We walked a little further to a small room at the end of the hall way. Wait stop stop stop! Its dark in there... Are you kidding me? The light doesn't work. Must we really go in? Well at least Yocchan's beside me, what could possibly go wrong. Right?
"Rika-chan? Coming?" She asks with her eyes looking into mine.
Dame, can't show her I'm scared of the dark. She'll think I'm such a weakling. Just smile at her, let her know I'm fine.
This is so weird, why am I acting like this? I don't even know if I like the way I'm acting or if I hate it. Everything she does makes me feel all tingly inside, the way she talks, moves, her warm smile, everything.
"Rika-chann", She waves her hand in front of my face trying to get my attention. I was lost in my thoughts while staring at Yossi, how embarrassing. I looked up at her and gave her a smile, "Sorry, I'm fine lets go."
I'm such a dork... How does Yocchan even stand me after all these years?
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We walked back together, after dumping the trash in the little room, I did something stupid and extremely embarrassing! Hope Yossi didn't notice, how can she not notice.. She's already trying not to laugh right now.
"
Naniyo-" , I whined
"I never... knew..... you afraid.... dark." , Yossi struggled with her words as she busted out laughing.
"
Mou.... iiyo!" I stormed away in the opposite direction towards the staircase.
Yocchan no baka! Why does she treat me like this? She always makes fun of me like that... I have feelings too! But then when she looks at me with those big eyes....
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Rika reached her floor and began walking towards her room in a daze while thinking of Yossi. Totally unaware of the figure that was jogging behind her, chasing after her.
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Damn! Why do I always end up doing this to her? Your such an idiot Yoshizawa Hitomi! I ran in the direction where my beautiful princess went to after I stood there laughing for so long, all alone. I just hope she doesn't reach her room before I get to her.. She probably wouldn't open the door even if I try to bang it open.
I see her walking slowly, nearing her hotel room. Run damn it, run! You didn't loose all those weight in futsal for nothing Yoshizawa. I did a full dash sprinted and stopped right in front of her between Rika-chan and her room door. phew.. I made it... now what?
"I'm sorry! Its just you were so cute being afraid of the dark and all and... and I.. I like you Rika-chan" I blurted out at top speed, wait a minute, what did I say? Did I just tell her she was cute? And that I like her?! That’s common among girls right? Oh please don't find me weird, please don't find me weird.
We stood there for quite sometime, she looked so adorable trying to figure out what I just said. At the same time, waiting for her to figure out what I just said is killing me. And is it just me, or are we standing extremely close to each other? She's so close to me that I could smell the sweet flowery scent of her silky looking long hair when I took a deep breath. She also looks even more gorgeous up close, this fact I knew from the very beginning. Maybe I should back up just a tad bit.
'
Gottsun' ...
ite"Are you alright?" She steps forward, diminishing the distance that I had just made between us, and gently places her hand on the back of my head.
Awkward position to be in, considering all the empty space around us. Not that I'm complaining, but fact is, I can feel my heart on the verge of pounding its way out of my chest. We stood in that position staring into each other's eyes for quite sometime, her hand now resting on my shoulder. Should I make my move? Can I make my move?
I bravely, slowly and extremely nervously placed one hand on Rika-chan's hip, and the other hand on her cheek, pulling her slightly more closer to myself. And I slowly lower my face closer to hers, checking her eyes to make sure this was ok. She was staring intently at me, and then.. She closed her eyes pouting her lips ever so slightly, probably giving me the 'OK' sign. My heart raced, jumping up and down and probably even went up to the moon and back just at that simple sight.
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I closed my eyes and anticipated her lips on mine, it took a few seconds before I felt her soft lips pressed against mine. It was a sweet and simple yet passionate and amazing kiss, I wanted more, more of my Yocchan. So I tipped toed, wrapped my arms around her neck and pressed myself against her even more to deepen our very first kiss. During the best part of the kiss, I heard someone giggling.. strange Yocchan doesn't giggle like that.. besides, how could she giggle at this moment when our lips are locked onto each other?
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"look Tan! Those two are finally... finally getting it on!"
"woo! Yocchan
kakkoii~"
Both girls, very startled and terribly red faced, turn their head to see two other girls. One girl wrapped her arms around the other, while they both stared at their little make out session as if watching some interesting movie.
"Wait, how come SHE'S the one pinning Yossi against the door?"
"Who cares? I let you do that to me once in a while too don't I."
Miki argued with Aya facing her companion. Then, not wanting to ruin the(already ruined) moment between Yossi and Rika, Miki turned her attention back to the two..
"Go on go on continue, don't mind us, we'll be real quiet."
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I turned away from the two peeping toms' hiding my face between Yocchan's shoulder and chest in complete embarrassment. Damn Aya-chan! Damn Mikitty! Why did they have to ruin this for me? And why are they here at THIS time anyway?! Hmm wait a second.. there's an empty room behind this door right behind Yocchan.. and the key's already in the lock....
"Want to continue this inside?" I tipped toed yet again to whisper sweetly into her ears only for her to hear. I didn't really wait for her answer, just twisted the key and pushed her inside before she could do anything about it.
"Goodnight girls.." I said as I gave the two outside my most devilish smile while closing my room door.
ENDFuaaaa~...... yikes I seriously had hair on my arms stand on end as I wrote this (in a good way of course)
BTW, Don't know if you guys would mistake this but, Gottsun is a sound effect in japanese similar to 'bang' or 'knock' (not Gottsuan short for Goto Maki) and ite I'm sure you all know means ouch in japanese..