Translation from her Google+
Thank you so much
I'm sorry for crying whole time.....
Sorry for causing you pain....
At last, I glared at the venue... I'm sorry... I took my frustration and disappointment out on others....
I must start over....
I must dedicate more.... dedicate everything to AKB48....
But... I don't feel like I'll lose to anyone from tomorrow.
I don't have any single feeling to lose to someone else.
I give everything to AKB48.
Since she came to the stage with the rest of the kenkyuusei girls, she seemed somewhat upset and distant in my opinion, which made me wonder if she was already aware of the results; considering her roles in ATARU and Bakaleya (plus her gravure shots), probably she thought she would have a chance to rank in the extended senbatsu.
I can understand why she's upset, because she has been promoted heavily and all, but I'm relieved she's not part of the upcoming single; why? Because I think she needs to grow more, and learn to truly love AKB48 if she really wants to be in (and not just because she was transfered from her previous agency).
And just like Mariko said in her speech:
(credits:
sakuranamida)
None in the group is willing to lend their positions nor lose to someone who is having things relatively easily: Kaoru still needs to prove she deserves to be more in the group, because there are many hopeful girls wanting to be promoted to a team, and girls who already belong to a team who are ignored and kept in the backgroud when she gets the pushing just because she was/is a fashion model.
I think she's very attractive, seems like a nice girl and I'm liking her as an actress, but she must work harder to show if she can be an idol at all (at least, in my opinion).