JEALOUS==========
Author: AFLynx
I have a secret… I have kept it locked safely in my heart, throwing away the key. The moment I saw you I knew… no, I felt you are someone special.
Takahashi Minami.
I’ve been too afraid to tell you how I feel until I realized I am too late. You have fallen in love to one of our team members.
"I have something to tell you. Since you're special to me, I want you to be the first to know."
Everyone is special to you Takamina...
"So, tell me about it." I asked, shrugging the feeling of fear of what I'm gonna hear.
"I've fallen in love... With her." What did you see in her Takamina?
I’ve always wondered why not me? I should’ve been in your arms right now. But then again, she always had the upper hand. She has always been honest to her feelings towards you… I on the other hand have been too afraid of telling you how I feel.
I am jealous to the one who caught your eye.
"They look so happy, so much in love." I overheard Haruna looking at the two of you as we practice a choreography for our new music video. I see you laughing with her as she hugged you from behind.
"They are a perfect match... Just like the two of us NyanNyan." I heard Yuko agree. For me, she is the lucky one to have you Takamina.
I remember the Danso a few months back. You look cute fidgeting at the white cloth that you were tying on your head.
"How do I look?" you shyly asked.
"You'll do fine. Even without the wig, you could still pass as a boy Takamina. Lose that white cloth, you're already kawaii without it." I teased. As I look into your eyes, I saw a certain tinge of sadness.
"Nevermind the cloth... I wish she's here to cheer me on..." you sighed. As you heard your phone ring, your eyes sparkled when you saw the caller ID. "Excuse me, I have to take this call. Please help me with my lines after I talk to her." I knew from the way you spoke over the phone, you were talking to her. When you came back, you were hyped up in doing your best as we rehearsed your Danso dialogue.
While rehearsing, are you really looking at me... Or are you imagining that it's her that you're talking to?
When you answered the phone, did you whisper sweet nothings to her? I wish I was the one you were talking to.
Yes, I was so jealous that I feel vulnerable because of what I feel whenever I see you with her.
“Do your best, okay?” I overheard you talking to her as you caress her hand, not minding all the people bustling about backstage during one of our concerts.
“Hai, hai Takamina. You’ll watch my performance here in the backstage, won’t you?” she said, creeping her arms around your neck.
“Of course I will… I love you… Call me a sappy one but I just want you to know.” You said. I wished those words to be directed to me.
“You are my sappy one Takamina and I’m not complaining. I love you too.” She said, as you placed a gentle kiss on her lips.Ugh, I hate getting flashbacks of things I don't want to remember.
All I could do is imagine what might have been if I am her...
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A lone teardrop made it's way down my cheek. I find it ironic that of all the members gathered around waiting for our cue for AKBingo, it's you who noticed me in my misery.
"Are you okay? You don't look so good.. Well, it doesn't seem that you have a fever." you asked, sitting beside me as you placed your palm over my forehead.
Just by that small sweet gesture, you made me blush. If you only knew how you affect me Takamina!
"I'm okay... I didn't have enough sleep that's all..." I lied. "Are you happy with her?" I boldly asked, pointing at her taking pictures with Miichan and Mariko.
You smiled that dimpled smile that seemed reserved only for the one that you love. "Yes, she makes me happy. I am glad I make her happy too."
"If she doesn't make you happy, there are a lot of girls lining up for you. I'm sure I'll be one of those who will fight to be the first in line." I teased. To be honest, I know I will fight for it, and I will fight a good fight.
Laughing at you thought was a joke coming from me, you hugged me using one arm over my shoulder. "You don't have to worry, there are a lot of girls who are lining up for you. If things were different, I'll be the first in line too."
It seems automatic that I placed my head on your shoulder. I sighed as you gently squeezed my arm, savoring the moment that you are solely mine.
"Minami, let me take a picture of you with Miichan and Mariko!" she waved at us, pointing at the duo.
My moment with Takamina ended too soon...
"Okay, I'll be there in a second Atsuko." you yelled back, releasing your arm as you wave at them. Without a thought you hugged me then gave me a reassuring smile.
"Tomochin, I wish that you'll also find the love that I share with Atsuko. I know that you've been busy so always take care of yourself. If you need someone to talk to, you know I'm always here to listen." you said as you made your way to Acchan.
I know you're always there... And everytime, I feel jealous that I'm not the one who holds your heart.
Song: Sorry if it's a short one
this is one of my favorite songs ever and I thought I'll make a songfic.
I'll be getting my laptop on Monday, that's why I haven't updated Love in the Fast Lane (please don't kill me...
) I'll try to post a new chapter as soon as I can.
Hope you'll like my songfic!