Sorry you guys I had some issues come up but here very long chappy!
srry...still crappy
Chapter 3 – Cookie CrumblesRisako sat at the table with her head down, next to her was her father who had a rather frustrated face expression and across from them sat Yuko Nakazawa. “Arhemm” Mr. Sugaya cleared his throat as he began. Risako sat in complete silence with the slightest of breath so it wouldn’t even disturb the two adults or make any sounds that may be misinterpreted later as the voice of a liar. It was like an iniquitous game.
“I’m sorry for the trouble my daughter has caused” Risako’s father casts her a disappointed glance before continuing on with his sentence. “Please punish her according to the school regulations.”
‘I can’t believe I am actually getting blamed for this…’ The pitiful girl sat silently absorbing all that had just happened to her.
“I really didn’t take it Nakazawa-sensei…” Tears began to well up in her eyes as she clutched the side of her face where she had been struck by the enraged girl.
“Stealing Ryosuke-kun away from me wasn’t enough for you was it!” Minami’s accusations continue to attack Risako and nobody in the classroom attempts to help her but only stare on.
“Why the hell do you try and ruin my life all the time?!”
“What are you going to steal away from me next huh Arioka-kun?!”
“That’s enough, Sengoku-san!” Minami’s endless finally comes to a halt.
“Come with me Sugaya-san.”The loud sound of the door sliding open abruptly breaks Risako out of her thoughts and catches the attention of everyone in the room. Lifting up her head Risako finds her two best friends rushing into the room.
“Risako didn’t do it!”
A concerned Airi Suzuki yelled through the room as she struggles to recover her breathing from running with a full stomach after hearing the news of her friend from a classmate. A second voice, belonging to Maimi also spoke. “Risako’s not the kind of person who would do such a thing!” The initial feeling of heart-felt joy came pouring into Risako’s heart. ‘They came together…’ It had been ages since Risako had seen Airi and Maimi standing so close beside each other and to think she’d see them together for her, overwhelmed her.
“That’s enough you two, Suzuki-san, Yajima-san please go back to class this instant or it’s punishment for the both of you”
“But!—“Airi tries again but this time a voice interrupts her.
“They are right it couldn’t have been Sugaya-san” Turning their attention to the owner of the voice, the person slowly makes his way through the door allowing himself to be visible for the group.
“And how could you be so sure of this Yamada-kun?”
Sticking his hands in his pocket and walking in a little further he answers her.
“It’s a cruel prank, Sugaya-san left the room when Sengoku-san was still flashing her necklace around someone must have stuffed it in Sugaya-san’s desk to cause a scene I wouldn’t even have been surprised if it was Sengoku-san herself.”
Yuko leaned back in her chair and crossed her arms with a slightly raised eyebrow before proceeding on with her inquiry. “And you noticed all of this, how? If you did then why didn’t you mention it earlier?” Ryosuke’s relaxed demeanor seemed to have completely vanished as he tenses up and begins to stutter out an explanation for the unexpected question.
“…AHhah…yeah...I...I...tend to pay attention… to a lot of things in class when…I feel like it…and...I wasn’t exactly in the room afterwards so that’s why I didn’t get a chance earlier” Trying his best to avoid Risako’s eyes it seemed as though flame would burst out from his face in embarrassment in realizing that he had just given away the fact that he pays quite a lot of attention towards Risako.
Yuko places a hand on Risako’s shoulder and smiles at the girl. “I want you to tell me honestly again, you are a good student if you said you didn’t take it I trust that you won’t be lying to me.”
Biting her bottom lip she looks up at her teacher and truthfully answers. “It’s true I never took her necklace.”
“Alright I believe you then” She gives Risako a reassuring smile. A sigh of relief escapes Risako and the heavy feeling on her chest has lifted. Jury duty is over and nothing can overstate the elated feeling that Risako is currently feeling.
Arising from her seat Risako bowed to her sensei before completely turning around to face her friends who came running up beside her and then lead her out of the room leaving the adults to discuss a bit further on the whole situation and Ryosuke who’s eyes followed the girls as they made their way out of the room. Before walking completely out of the door Risako glanced back to look at the boy who had just saved her, muttering out a silent thank you and a small nod of gratitude just before her friends lead her out. Ryosuke simply smiled and soon made his way out as well.
As soon as they were out the door Airi yanked away Risako from Maimi’s grasp, moved a couple feet away and completely ignored the death glare Maimi was now giving her. As she held both of Risako’s hands she began her endless number of questions.
"Excuse me," Maimi scoffed. "What the hell?"
“Umm…Risako is fine now you can leave.” Replied a nonchalant Airi.
“What is that suppose to mean” Asked Maimi.
“It means Risako doesn’t need a backstabber like—“Airi began but Risako cut her off. “YOU GUYS!...I’m really grateful you guys came...but please don’t fight...” Although she was happy to see her two friends, being put into that uncomfortable situation didn’t make her feel good she hated it when Airi and Maimi argued, it was always the same exact argument from a few years ago that ended their friendship.
As Risako finished her plea Ryosuke caught her attention as he made his way out of the door greeting them once again with a smile and then turning away to go back to class.
“Well…then” Maimi began as she walked towards Risako. “See you after school just don’t leave without telling me again like last time okay?”
“…Sorry about that…I meant to apologize earlier but I didn’t get a chance to …tried calling you several times but your phone was off.” Risako apologized after casting Airi a downwards glance who in turn rolled her eyes at.
“Yeah that jerk Arioka has been calling me nonstop but it’s okay you don’t have to apologize.” With that said Maimi waved her goodbye and left.
One seemingly purposeful sigh mixed in. “So you are okay now right?...they told me that overmakeuped beast went berserked and attacked you!”
“Oh?…yeah everything’s okay now.”
“No it's not!!”
“Hyan!”
If Risako had been carrying anything she would have dropped them.
“Airiin, don't scream like that, all of a sudden...”
“For cryin' out loud, Rii-chan, you're a little girl without a care in the world, aren't you? You're at that tender age, so you need to develop a sense of danger!”
"Tender age? Airi, we're both the same age.”
“You be quiet!” Airi hushed. “You're in a delicate situation. Even when times're lookin' good, if you aren't too careful, you'll be stripped bare without a penny to your name, you know!”
“Uuuu…”
Sighing with her eyes closed Airi places both of her hands on Risako’s shoulder. “If that happens, Rii-chan, you'll be chased by bullies all over, and you won't even be able to come to school, okay?”
“I'll be careful from now on......”
“That's a good girl. Be wary of the sweet words. There's an underside to any story that sounds too good. From now on stay away from people like Sengoku-san and if you meet a new person, consider them a crook!”
“......I think that suspicion goes a bit too far, but, in the spirit of being careful, can I ask a question?”
“What?”
“Regarding the new transfer, what was her name......Natsuyaki-san?”
“............”
“…Earlier—“ Risako is cut off by Airi.
“Ahaha, well... about that---“
“About that?”
“I completely forgot to warn you. I can tell you she is bad luck, stay away from her. I don’t like her and look she shows up and you get into all this trouble that’s definitely some kind of a sign. Now what was it you were going to say?”
Risako was having second thoughts about telling Airi about her friendly yet odd-feeling encounter with Natsuyaki Miyabi but still she wanted to share with somebody the vision and feelings that were running through her at the time but at the sound of her father clearing his throat Risako turned her attention away from Airi and to her father,
“Risako I need to speak with you before I go.” At his command Risako tells Airi to go back to class and she’ll soon follow once she’s done. Airi nods in agreement and heads off back to class.
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Giving herself a tour of the school since her class had no teacher for the time being, Miyabi skipped around the empty corridors and enjoyed herself while she missed class. At some point she just decided to escape the annoying male population that were constantly annoying her when no one was looking. The corridors were empty which meant her steps were quite noticeable but since she didn’t think anyone would be around to hide from at this time so she didn’t really mind them. It was calming in a way.
Miyabi showed no signs of guilt or regret whatsoever as she continued on skipping class after purposely misplacing Minami’s necklace in Risako’s desk, in fact she felt great pleasure after witnessing the girl’s crushed face expression. Her eyes were sad, angry, nervous and ready to leak out tears. Miyabi wanted to burst out in laughter just thinking about it again. ‘The girl got what she rightfully deserved.’
Looking around Miyabi’s smile soon turned into a displeased look when she noticed that her slippers had gotten dirt smeared all over the right side. ‘Geez what a dirty school…’ She thought but then laughed it off when she realized that earlier she had just ran up the hill outside to catch up with that girl or rather thief now… ‘Thief’ she smiled to herself.
Soon enough Miyabi found herself at the lockers by the front entrance of the school. Walking up to her locker and taking out her set of extra slippers, she took off her dirtied pair and threw them across the aisle and in they went into the trash can. Miyabi rose up her arms ‘Score!’ she was in a good mood today and everything was going according to her plans.
Voices can be heard from the end of the main hallway but Miyabi paid no mind to them as she continued on slipping on her slippers. Rising up and heading out of the locker way the voices became more audible and then as realization hit Miyabi froze, her heart sunk and her smile vanished.
“You know that I am very busy, I won’t forgive you the next time something like this happens again.” The man takes off his glasses and a small piece of cloth and begins wiping his lenses.
“Sorry, it won’t happen again father.”
“Alright I will be going now, eat without me today I have a lot of work to finish”
Miyabi knew this voice…She would know this voice anywhere, she heard this voice everyday, She heard this voice in her nightmares!
“Kaa…” Miyabi’s body grows feverish, and yet she is chilled to the marrow, as she starts to sway dizzily.
Warping, bending, the world distorts…
“No…” She clutches her head in both her arms and tightly shuts her eyes…
‘Drop’
She lifts up her face.
‘Drop’ A drop strikes her cheek.
‘Drop’ A drop strikes her chin.
‘Am I crying?’ Thought Miyabi ‘...no…this is different. These aren't tears.
It's not even thinkable. Since it's falling down, it has to be rain’
The sound of raindrops strikes her ears.
‘Drop’ Miyabi is caught in a spray.
‘Is it rain?’
‘It couldn’t have been…’ Come to think of it, she’s inside of a building and it’s warm. The rain is hot.
The drop slides down her cheek, over the edges of her lips and seems to ooze gradually into her mouth and spread out.
Just a slight, sour taste…
Miyabi begins to choke from the smell that has seemed to fill up the room causing her to tightly shut her eyes and when she opens them again her field of vision is met with a midst of this red, distorted world.
‘This red... these drops of red are...’
Her hands desperately makes an effort to wipe at her lips...Those small fingers, unreliably small, the child's hand of hers that she sees in her dream is...in both of her palms, sticky liquid...
...Shining wetly and red.
“Ah......”
Thin, childish, hoarse, and afraid, like a stranger's scream.
A scream Miyabi couldn't think of as being hers.
“No......”
Images and voices start to invade her mind…
The whole world goes dark…
…A small dark figure of a man with glasses turns into huge monster with a smile filled with sharp teeth… Hands suddenly grip at her shoulders.
Those hands are large, bony…
“You’re such a big girl already, beautiful just like your mommy…”
…A picture with blood and shattered glass all over it…
“Daddy loves his friends the most!”
…A dark alleyway…
“What are you standing there for help me!”
...A man slowly rising up and off a body…
“She… stopped breathing”
“Yajima run… lets go!”The fingers claw their way into her shoulders…
Miyabi shut her eyes once more trying to escape the images that are constantly raping her mind, trying to negate her hands, stained with blood.
‘Help me, mama...’
‘The one who always, always protected me... mama.’
‘But, mama isn't here anymore.’
‘Help me...’
That person's face... softly floats into her memory…
The grip on her shoulders tightens.
As Miyabi opens her eyes to look at the person who is hurting her, a hole gapes open before her with blood flowing out from it, making a big puddle of blood on the ground.
The renewed spouting spray of blood catches her square on the cheek.
Miyabi shakes her body, squirming, and the hands on her shoulders began to loosen.
Limply, the hands that lost their strength fall away. Limply, the body that lost its life lurches forward.
“Miya!” At the last moment, it calls her name and collapses, the only thing is…
“…Daddy?” The blood dripping from her hands... falls into a puddle and makes the sound of falling rain.
Miyabi’s body doesn't hurt…her heart sinks and she begins to panic. ‘The reason it doesn't hurt... is because this isn't my blood.’
”Iyaaaaaaaaa!!”
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Risako almost tripped on the second step of the stairway as she was going up when she was suddenly frightened by a piercing scream nearby. She quickly recovered herself and curious ran over to the front entrance of the school where she had thought she heard the scream coming from. As she peered over to look at the locker aisles she caught quick glimpse of a girl but had disappeared out of sight way to fast before Risako could clearly see who the person was, she did need to wear glasses for a start.
She was curious about the person but the events of today were more then enough trouble for her in one day. After glancing at her watch Risako decided to head back to class.
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“Hah, hah, hah, hah, ---“
Miyabi’s breathing is wild. Forgetting even to wipe the sweat from her eyes, she gasp in rough breaths. ‘This painful breathing... did I really scream out loud?...If I did, what a pain that would be.’
”Ha......”
”Hahahaha......”
At last her breath turns to a dry laugh. It is void, slightly scratchy... a terrible sounding, hateful laugh.
” Ahahahahahaha!”
And it raises into the air hysterically…
For removing that hateful something within her, it isn't much different from a scream.
After uncontrollably laughing for a while, she finally came to her senses.
Turning on the water faucet and moving down to splash water on her face made her feel a sense of comfort as the cool water met with her face. Looking in the mirror Miyabi took a deep breath and ran her hands through her hair.
“Holy crap Miya…you look like hell…” she mutters to herself.
Moving to wipe her face with the two pale palms of her hands, she covers it and casts her eyes downward.
”Nothing happened...” She let out a big, deploring sigh. Even knowing that, she was scared. ‘You can’t let this happen again Miya…’ Miyabi shakes her head. ‘No…it’s not my fault…those bastards…I’ll make sure they pay for everything.’
‘That terrible, red dream I saw just now...’
“Are you alright?” The unexpected voice makes Miyabi jump, turning around quickly she finds herself faced with Yajima Maimi. The girl giggles at Miyabi’s face expression.
“I’m sorry I didn’t mean to scare you” She gives Miyabi a warm smile before taking out a white handkerchief and holding it up to her.
Miyabi slowly grabbed it “…Thanks” Maimi simply nods at this. ‘Shit’ Thought Miyabi as she covers her face from the girl. ‘I wasn’t expecting to meet her here and emotionally I’m not ready to carry out any plans…screw everything if I mess things up here I can fix it later. I just need to relax right now.’
As Miyabi wipes her face dry Maimi stares at her from the mirror and when Miyabi’s eyes lifted up to look in the mirror she quickly looks away and pretends to fix her hair.
“What?” Asked Miyabi.
“Huh?”
“I noticed you looking at me.”
Trying her best to avoid Miyabi’s gaze Maimi’s eyes are cast downwards and her head tilt a bit to the side before she said what she wanted to. “Miya…I can call you Miya right?”
“Sure…” Miyabi replied nonchalantly.
As if hearing wonderful news Maimi’s eyes lit up and a huge grin spreads across her pretty features. “Miya-chan lets be friends!”
Miyabi only stared at her with a poker face to hide the intent and mess with her head, though she was not quite sure if she was able to completely hide the hint of annoyance in her eyes. As if she did something wrong Maimi’s smile and confidence starts to fade away.
“No?...”
Miyabi stares at Maimi for a bit before the edges of her lips lift ever so slightly. With a slight impression of a cat's smile, having caught its prey. “Of course, but I thought we were already friends.” replied Miyabi. At this Maimi’s smile returns.
Maimi thought about it for a moment before confirming Miyabi’s words with an “Oh yeah…” which didn’t sound very lively. Miyabi then walked towards Maimi lifted herself up and sat up on the sink counter close enough to say she was beside her but far enough to make a point.
“Why are you here?” Miyabi bluntly asked. Leaking out as much information as possible from her semi-pro researcher and practically stalking these people, Miyabi had to be honest that it was quite bitter sweet. Prying into their personal lives was only the beginning.
She answered quickly saying; “I just got back from trying to help out my friend.”
And for a moment Miyabi lost her poker composure and harshly countered her words; “That doesn’t really answer my question does it?” ‘To be honest Miyabi was angered by her answer she knew who Maimi meant when she said friend, that thief should get punished!’
“No… I suppose it doesn’t…” she replied, obviously nervous.
“Hmmm…” Miyabi wasn’t sure what to say… she was obviously good at teasing people she knew in the past, but this girl was never on her list.
After a short silence Maimi said; “What are you doing here, if I may ask?”
Miyabi wanted to say ‘no you can’t…’ but seeing as she had already, she might as well say something. Miyabi quickly considered what would be a ‘smart ass’ response which was: “Probably the same thing as you are.”
“And that would be?...” She leaned closer, why exactly was a mystery to Miyabi for only a moment… when Miyabi realized what she was doing she copied her and technically returned the question.
“I don’t know. What are you doing here?”
Miyabi knew she won the moment Maimi sighed. Miyabi watched her as she turned her head towards the stalls and said “Thinking. I guess…”
Miyabi continued to watch her as the light from the small window bounced with a soft gleam from her eyes. She wondered why she noticed that and felt angry about it for a moment but decided the less she pondered about things the better… especially if it’s something that’s not cruel that had to do with Yajima or Sugaya. Yes… that would probably be best.
Then it just slipped out. “Nope! That’s not what I’m doing…” Miyabi planned on ending the conversation and just going somewhere else. But instead those words came out and got her attention.
“Oh?” Maimi said as she turned her attention towards Miyabi again. And Miyabi knew from the look on Maimi’s eyes she wanted Miyabi to tell her what she was doing here without her asking. But of course Miyabi didn’t and wouldn’t… not even if she asked.
“So… what are you doing here?”
Miyabi looked up to avoid her gaze. She hated Maimi’s eyes… Those eyes Miyabi hated to admit but it was the eyes of this attractive girl that made Miyabi want to answer her. And as Miyabi was looking up she wished that the ceiling would all just collapse and bury her right then and there with Maimi of course. But what are the chances of that happening…
“I guess I’m running away from something…” Miyabi answered.
“Eh?” was all she let out as a response.
“Surprised?” Miyabi looked at her again and immediately regretted it… the look on Maimi’s eyes screamed “Tell me about it!” only accented more by her face that had curiosity written all over it. She nodded… once, a simple run of a mill, dull and normal nod… but why did it feel like she was begging me to tell her all about it. For some reason she looked really worried. Miyabi’s mind wondered for a moment only for her to mentally kick herself and stopped the wondering process.
“Kind of personal so…long story short.” Miyabi just wanted to be alone, so she thought of looking for some new place to hang around.
“I see…” Maimi nodded and looked away, seemingly worried or disappointed. Not that Miyabi should care.
“You won’t tell anyone I’m hiding around here would you?” Miyabi asked Maimi, teasingly putting a cute expression on her face.
Maimi simply shook her head no. Staring at the beautiful girl Miyabi almost felt sorry for her... err no, that would be completely false. She felt sorry for her and yet she hated her so much…Miyabi even stopped considering Maimi as a person.
The two girls both looked away from each other and remaind silent. As Miyabi spared a few seconds to take a short look at Maimi, she looked… confused…
Miyabi could understand why. Earlier when Maimi had met her she was a completely different person a trick that Miyabi has skillfully mastered but right now she has a feeling to be bad, Miyabi remembered the pack of cigarettes she had in her pocket and took it out. While Miyabi was rummaging through her pocket for the lighter she noticed that the other party had turned her attention towards Miyabi and her devilishly forbidden item.
“Aren’t you a little too young to smoke?...and where in school you know.” Maimi’s words sounded worried and concerned… and again like Miyabi cared.
Miyabi lit her cigarette and quickly took a huff only to immediately cough the smoke back out. She wasn’t used to it after all… she thought after one pack it would become like drinking a strong carbonated soda.
“Are you ok?” Maimi asked, sounding a little concerned.
“Yeah… I’m just new at this…” Miyabi pounded at her chest a little, which she soon learned doesn’t really offer any sort of relief unless you’re choking on liquid or food.
“How long have you been smoking?”
Oddly enough Miyabi answered Maimi honestly. “This would be the first stick of the second pack of cigarettes I have.” She said before taking another deep huff of smoke. Miyabi counted to three before blowing it out in a long stream of smoke and as she did this she noticed that Maimi was staring at her… or more specifically, her lips. And of course Miyabi wouldn’t pass the chance to make Maimi squirm some more. “They’re dirty… but would you kiss them?” Miyabi said adding a hint of seduction to her voice.
A simple and dumbfounded “Eh?” was her only response. But when her face turned as red as a tomato… Miyabi had to firmly hold her tongue between her teeth just to keep herself from laughing.
“It’s just a question, I’m not asking you to nor do I want you to…” It was more or less the truth. Miyabi didn’t want Maimi to kiss her… she was merely curious if the girl would even if her breath stank of nicotine laced smoke. But to be honest, she had not meant to ask the stupid question.
“I see…” Miyabi was a little relieved. She might just end the conversation… or at least that odd thread. But Maimi just had to follow it with, “Why do you ask?”
‘Why did I ask?’ Miyabi asked herself. I just felt like it? It just came out that way? I had nothing else to say? I wanted to tease her for looking at my lips?... yeah that would probably be the best answer. Not exactly something you says to someone who isn’t close to you nor does it sound nice and in the end Miyabi didn’t say it. Instead this was the answer that passed her lips, “I’ve taken the first kiss of many people.”
Looking at Maimi’s face expression Miyabi burst out laughing. “You know I’m only joking right?”
“Oh? Haha”
Miyabi puts out the cigarette in the sink and then throws is in the trash. Patting on the spot next to her Miyabi gestures for Maimi to come sit next to her and at this Maimi’s happy mood from earlier seems to reenergize her once again. Maimi happily sits next to Miyabi.
“Track practice today?”
“Yeah I have practice today but not for very long I still have to go get my little sister after her club meet is done.” Maimi smiles and leans forward looking at Miyabi.
“Little sister huh…”
“Uhumm”
‘Right…I still have that to take care of.’ Miyabi smiles to herself before looking at her watch and realizing the next class should be starting soon. “Well I’m going to class now and you should too.” Miyabi hops off the counter and walks right in front of the other girl.
Maimi froze in place as Miyabi came close to her face but then moved to whisper something into her ear.
“Seeya track star…”
As Miyabi pulled away to look at Maimi’s reaction she gave the girl a huge grin before waving bye to her and backing away towards the exit.
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Walking out of the school building, Miyabi glances back at it before smiling to herself.
“Well that happened sooner than I expected…” As she said this her chauffeur drove up and opened up the door to her luxury car for her. As soon as both of them were in the car Miyabi spoke up.
“Take me to the school I showed you yesterday.”
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Mai waited impatiently outside the school gates for her older sister for what had seemed like centuries. Her Literature club meeting had ended ages ago and still Maimi was no where to be found.
“Arghh…she’s late again” The young girl knowing that she was going to have to wait for awhile longer opened her book and began reading on where she had left earlier. Everything was going great until…
“Meow…”
Her eyes stopped scanning the text the instant she heard what she thought she heard…
“Meow” A small kitten had started rubbing itself on Mai’s leg.
“…ahhHHH! KITTY GET AWAY FROM ME!” Mai leaped 10ft away from the creature that gave her the worst sleep-deprived time of her life.
Deciding that she was going to have to find another place where she can read in peace Mai starts heading for the park nearby but first she wanted some cookies!
Coming out of the small store she stuffed the small packet of cookies into her pocket and headed to the nearest bench.
‘Finally I can rest and read in peace!’ On the bench an older girl sat beside her, also reading a book and in between they laid the packet of cookies. When Mai took out the first cookie, the girl took one also. Mai felt irritated but said nothing. She just thought:
‘What a nerve! If I was in the mood I would punch her for daring!”
For each cookie Mai took, the girl took one too. This was infuriating her but she didn’t want to cause a scene. Nothing ticked her off yet until it came to only one cookie remaining. ‘Ah…what is this abusive girl going to do now?’ the older girl taking the last cookie, divided it into half, giving her one half.
‘That did it! That was too much! She was too pissed off right now’ in a huff Mai took her book and her things before yelling out “WHAT THE HECK IS YOUR PROBLEM!” and stormed away.
As Mai walked down the sidewalk a hysterical-looking-Maimi and Risako came running to her.
“Where did you go?!”
“I looked for you everywhere!”
Maimi gave her sister a tight embrace.
“You shouldn’t have just left like that it gave Maimi here a heart attack.”
“Geez calm down you guys I was just taking a break at the park until some weirdo ate all my cookies!”
“Weirdo?! They didn’t do anything to you did they?”
“Yeah she kept on eating my cooki—“Mai’s words seem to die away as she stuck her hand into her pocket and to her surprise her cookies were still there! She took them out and stared at them ‘they’re still here untouched and unopened! This means…’
“Oops…”
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Sorry you guys crappy and really rushed chapter -__- it’s like 4:00am and I’m dead…