^ KUUUJJII! ^_^ you're back!
about Maiha, I'm still debating with myself about that.. ^_^
okay! It's already 12:57am here and I didn't have the time to read the whole thing since my brain is in sleep mode. So I am sorry if there are grammar, punctuation, etc. errors. I'll fix them right away after reading.
(Actually, I read all my fics before posting them. But if you see any mistakes, don't hesitate to tell.
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Hoping for Chance
Chapter 7
“Right! So, I’ll be handling Blitz! Shimizu-san, Hagiwara-san, Natsuyaki-san, Murakami-san, welcome to Blitz.” Hideki-san greeted, as she shook each of our hands. I scanned at each of my new group members, but only one made me stare for a long time,
“Blitz was created to sing for various anime’s and if the companies want to, you can also sing for opening and ending songs of live actions, movies, drama’s, etc.” I looked at Hideki-san, taking away my gaze at the person beside me,
“Now, we need to first pick a leader,” I shrugged as Hideki-san looked at me,
“any volunteers?” She asked, scanning each of us, until she looked at her folder.
I wouldn’t want to be the leader. Being a leader means being busy with arrangements and taking care of the members. I started to argue about the leader position in my head when Hideki-san called Captain,
“Shimizu-san,” she looked at our manager,
“yes?” Hideki-san fixed her glasses, taking of some dust that landed on one of the lenses,
“Why are you staring at Natsuyaki-san?”I was surprised and looked at her, as the others also looked at her.
She was looking at me? She shook her head, as she looked down, trying to hide her face,
“No, I… I was just looking at Momo at the other side.” Hideki-san nodded as she looked back at the folder,
“So, anyone who wants to be the leader? If no one volunteers, I’ll be assigning one.” Megumi looked at Mai, Mai looked at Captain, and she looked at me. I shook my head, as they stared at me, telling me I’ll be the leader,
“No, I don’t want to be the leader.” I answered them that made Hideki-san look at me,
“So, no one wants to volunteer?” The others looked back at our manager, waiting for her to say who she picked,
“Okay, since no one wanted to volunteer, I have already chosen one.”She once again scanned our faces,
“Murakami-san, I’m sorry, but you are just coming back and we don’t want to pressure you with more problems, so I didn’t pick you.” Megumi nodded in agreement, then Hideki-san looked at Mai.
Why wouldn’t she pick Megumi? I know she just came back, but isn’t that a great thing to start with? “Hagiwara-san, you are the youngest, so I didn’t pick you.” Mai let out a small smile as she nodded in understanding. Now turning to Captain,
“Shimizu-san, you are the proper one to be the leader,” Yes! Captain is the leader! I sighed, thinking Saki was the one Hideki-san picked as our leader,
“but you are already the Captain of Berryz Koubou Being a leader in two groups would stress you out as you get busy with the two groups.”Wait… So if Megumi, Mai and Saki aren’t the one she picked… That only leaves one person… me! My eyes widened, as I was called,
“Natsuyaki-san, you are the one I picked.” I gulped before answering,
“okay… Can I just ask one thing?” She nodded as she lend an ear,
“why did you pick me?” She nodded, as I can feel she is thinking of a reason,
“no particular reason. I just want you to be the leader.” Eh? That’s it? No encouraging and flattering words? “Okay, thank you.” I looked down, trying to avoid her eyes, not wanting to let her know how disappointed I was.
I felt a tap on my back, a feeling of comfort and care came building up inside me, until I saw the one doing it, and she held a smile, a smile that I haven’t seen for so long, that smile I last saw on my birthday. I found myself staring at her for sometime, trying to enjoy the time where she was smiling genuinely at me,
“It’s okay Miyabi, we will always help you whenever you need help.” I felt warmth on her touch, giving me the strength to believe that I can be a leader. My heart started to change its pace,
why am I feeling this way? Still staring at her, I was finally able to speak,
“T-Thank you.”Hideki came back with a pile of papers on her hands. She handed three to each member. I stared at it, reading each line on all the papers, as I finally understood what they are. The first one is a contract for Blitz, the second was an information sheet and the third is terms and conditions for the new group. Hideki-san also handed us pens to use for signing on the papers. Upon receiving the pens, Megumi and Mai started with the information sheet, while Captain started to read the terms and conditions. As for me, I tried to read the terms and conditions, but after reading half of it, I finally realized that it was just the same as the terms and conditions for Berryz. I then put that paper aside, but was lazy to start with the information sheet.
I stared at the paper, twirling my pen,
“might as well start answering these.” I whispered, taking off the cover of the pen, starting to write my whole name. A few minutes had passed, and I was finished.
Wow, that was fast. I then turned to the one beside me. She was still finishing the information sheet, as I leaned closer, taking a peek on her paper. She didn’t tell me to move away or anything, as she continued to write. I was just reading her answer on one of the questions when I felt a chill run down my spine. I slowly looked back, and saw Momo, staring at me. At first, I smiled at her, knowing she will smile back, but after a while, she didn’t. I waited for a few more seconds, but she still didn’t. I gave up, my smile, fading. As my smile was gone, that’s when she gave out a smirk.
I stared at her confused,
what is her problem? I asked myself, as her smirk suddenly became a smile, before she looked back to Takaya-san. I looked back to my group, still wondering the reason behind, why Momo’s stare and smirk gave me a feeling of fear. I shook my head to forget about what just happened and turned my attention to the one beside me. Once again, I leaned closer, peeking at her paper. She’s really thinking before answering. I was amazed at our Captain, she really got the hang of thinking before answering, which I still need to practice on.
I looked at her serious face, as I slowly hooked my arm on her neck,
“Captain! Everyone is finished already and you are the only one who is not.” I teased, while pulling her closer. She stopped writing, and looked at me at the corner of her eyes,
“You look pretty today Captain.” I teased again, disturbing her once again from writing. I heard her sigh before handing me a paper,
“Stop flirting Miya and finish the last thing you need to answer.” I slowly let go of her as I took the paper and examined it. It turned out, it was my contract and I haven’t signed it. I looked at Captain again, standing up and walking to a farther seat.
I wasn’t even flirting.Ever since I started to have that player image in Dakishimete Dakishimete, I started to flirt with another person aside from Risako, and that was Captain. I don’t know why I like doing it on her, but it is a way for me to tease her. She actually stops me from doing it with her and walks away, but I didn’t stop, until we had our break.
I was brought back to reality when another chill run down my spine, and saw Momo staring at me again. I didn’t know what to do, but gave out a smile and walked to where Captain was,
“Okay, Buono, come with me to the other room, your voice instructor is already waiting for you so she can start teaching the song.” Takaya-san said, as she went out the door. Chisato, Maiha and Airi already took their things and started walking to the door, but Momo came walking towards us,
“Saki, I’ll just be at the other room.” She said to the girl in front of me,
“okay, I’ll just wait for you outside then.” Captain answered, smiling at her as she held the peach’s hand.
Momo smiled back to Captain before turning to me, with a smile. That smile that looked different. It’s like forcing me to lock my gaze unto her, as she leaned down, pressing her lips to our dear Captain. She held it there for a while, as I can see her making the kiss deeper, before slowly backing away. She looked at me again, but this time with a smirk of content, before bidding goodbye to each of us and skipping out the door. I was surprised on the display she just gave.
Why would she kiss Saki in front of me? Why does it feel like she’s challenging me? More questions came popping in my head as I stared into space.
***That was close. I thought I’ll be done for if I let my emotions control me earlier. I thought, signing my name on the contract,
there, finished! I looked at my side, seeing Miyabi signing her name on the contract. My cheeks starting to feel warm as I remember what happened earlier,
we were so close… I could have kissed her. I shook my head, realizing what I was thinking is forbidden. I picked up my papers and fixed them accordingly as I try to control myself. I placed the papers in my folder when my back felt heavy. I looked at my side and found Miyabi at the same position earlier, her arm hooked on my neck. As we stared at each other, my heart started to race, my body, releasing cold sweat as she smiled at me,
“do you have plans later this afternoon Captain?”It became hard to answer as she was leaning closer. I tried hard to look away, and luckily I did,
“I have plans with Momo.” I answered boldly, opening my folder, pretending to read one of the papers. She kept quiet, but she didn’t take her arm off my neck. My feet were trembling.
How long do you want to stay in this position? I asked, yelling at her in my head. I stayed staring at my paper, but I felt her leaning closer as I can feel her breathe near my ear,
“When will you stop flirting with me?”I think I caught her off guard, as she slowly slid off her arm on my neck, looking at me with a surprised look,
“You should stop doing that or else we’ll both get in trouble.” I was surprised on what I said. I know I have been telling her those before, but this feels like the first time I’m saying it to her. She was about to say something when Hideki-san walked towards us,
“Blitz, your start of vocal rehearsing is tomorrow. Actually it’s supposed to be today, but I moved it tomorrow.”Mai looked at us before at Hideki-san,
“why did you move it tomorrow?” Hideki-san looked at Mai with a crooked smile, while holding the back of her head,
“I… I forgot the lyrics at home…” she made a fake laugh, and started to walk to the door,
“Be back tomorrow. After your rehearsals, Berryz and C-ute have their own matters to settle.” We bid our manager goodbye, as she went out and closed the door behind her.
Laughter came after she closed the door, Megumi was laughing, then Mai accompanied her,
“what’s so funny?” Miyabi asked, while I started to giggle,
“Hideki-san forgot the lyrics at home. I just thought it was funny, since she shouldn’t have forgotten.” Megumi answered, trying to stop her laughter. Miyabi tilted her head, smiling a little, but the thought really didn’t bring her to laugh nor smile unforced.
***I waited outside the room of Buono for Momo. It didn’t seem awkward at first, but Miyabi started talking to me. It wasn’t wrong to talk with her, but what we were talking about was about the past. To be specific, her birthday last year, the day I started to suffer.
“So where are you going with Momo after?” Finally, a question not regarding the past
“I don’t know yet, but we will be eating out.” I answered, looking at my phone as she looked at the door of the room.
“So… is Momo really your girlfriend?” I looked at her, not knowing how to answer, even if I already know the answer. I nodded instead, no words coming out of my mouth. She looked down at the floor, nodding, before looking at me again.
“Risako and I have been dating for 6 months now.” So Momo was right. Risako is still not her girlfriend, but why did Risako lie to me?“That’s great… but why don’t you ask her to be your girlfriend already?” My heart got crushed on what I said, but I have to say it. I can’t interfere anymore, and telling her these might make me realize that she won’t belong to me.
She was silent, as I became silent as well. We stared at the door, waiting for the others to come out. A few minutes had passed, and I was getting comfortable with the silence when she spoke,
“Maybe I will…” I could feel she was looking at me, so I looked at her. I was locked on the eyes of doubt and in questioning. Why would she have those feelings expressed when she should be happy, happy that she’ll be proposing to Risako to be her girlfriend.
She should be happy…The door opened, making me face the group coming out of it. I stood, and caught the girl who just threw herself at me. I giggled as I heard her small laughter, as I hugged her tight,
“did you wait long?” she asked, looking at me, her hands around my waist. I shook my head,
“not that long. I’ll wait for you even if it’ll take a day.” I told her truthfully, before leaning in to kiss her.
We continued with our desire until someone disturbed us, clearing her throat. I looked at the one who stopped us. She was not Miyabi, since Miyabi was talking on the phone with Risako. I looked at the other direction, finding Chisato standing near us, with her balled fist covering her mouth. I looked at her confused, not knowing the reason why she was here,
“Sorry to disturb you guys, but Momo, Takaya-san is looking for you.” She explained, before Momo left.
I greeted Chisato and she greeted back,
“So, how long have you been with Momo?” she asked me suddenly,
“about 3 months now.” I answered, feeling a little tension from her,
“then, did you make her cry?” I was surprised, but a little upset.
Why would she ask such a question? “Why do you ask?”She nodded for a second,
“so you did.” She whispered, raising one of her brows, letting out a grin. Her stare made me freeze. I can feel the tension from her eyes.
What does she want? I tried hard not to succumb to her stare. I didn’t look away, giving her a taste of my tension too.
“Why are you asking these Chisato?” I asked, trying to know her true intensions, but she gave me a smirk before turning her back from me,
“Nothing. Just messing with you.” I heard her answer, as she walked towards Takaya-san’s office.
Nothing? I don’t believe it… I need to be careful.