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My eternal blue rose
Chapter 1-The promise of an eternal rose Shanghai, China
It was basically any other day for me. At least, since I was transferred.
I remember that day clearly. When we were all performing together, all as one. Then, we had the biggest group shuffle in history. Takamina as General Director, Rabutan moving to HKT, and Akicha and Harugon transferring to Jakarta. But, I was devastated when my name was called out that way.
"Miyazawa Sae. Transfer to Shanghai(SNH)48."
"Eh?! Eh? EEEEEEEEEEEHHH?!?!?!?! Uso!!!" I heard someone scream.
I didn't really care, it was my decision to transfer. But, I still cried, and I wasn't alone. Yukirin, Tomo~mi, and Suzuki Mariya cried, even though she was going with me. But, the one who I thought cried the most, who'd miss me the most, who would grieve and wait for me every second of every day...
...was Sayaka.
After the concert ended, I searched for her everywhere. She wasn't in the practice room or any of the restrooms, so my last choice was the dressing room. I bang on the door and call for her name. Since there was no answer, I open the door to make sure she's there. I saw her plopped down in a chair while staring up at the ceiling. I also saw her cheeks were still wet from her tears.
Authors' note: *This part will now take on from my fanfic "Those innocent eyes"*"Sayaka?"
She turned and our eyes met. They looked so sad and wet. She gave me a sad smile that only broke my heart to see her like this.
"So, you're really going, huh?"
I nodded. I watched her as she shyly pressed her lips together and got up from her lazy position.
"Don't worry. It's not gonna be forever."
"...I just wanna know why..." she said as she slowly walked towards me. She looks like she's gonna cry again.
Sayaka... Please... Please, don't cry. I don't want to see you sad. Don't shed any more tears. You're beautiful when you cry, but.. you're even MORE beautiful when you smile... When you're happy, laughing... Don't be sad... For my sake, don't cry..."...I think, for me to improve myself in AKB, I need a challenge. That's why I wanna do this."
She gave me a soft smile, but it only broke my heart more.
"..But..." I could hear myself sniffle a bit and my eyes get watery. I can't hold it. I'm gonna cry... "But... "
Our eyes meet one more time and I could tell she was surprised seeing me like this, slowly breaking down in front of her.
"But...I knew it would be a long... long time
*Sniff* b-before I see you guys again."
"Sae..."
I wipe off the tears rolling down my cheek, but they keep coming.
"I-I...
*Sniff* I don't wanna leave if it means you'll be sad."
Sayaka patted my shoulder and tried to give me a happy smile. But, I can tell... Behind that smile, there is sadness... I can't stand it. It only makes me more sad.
"Sae, I really AM happy for you..."
Lies... Sayaka, you're lying..!"Usoda yo!"
I screamed and pushed her away. I can't let her force herself, but I'm unconsciously forcing myself, too.
Sayaka, I'm sorry... I don't want to hurt you... Forgive me..."I'm telling you the truth... I wouldn't lie about something like this. Honest..."
"No... You're just saying that to make me feel better..."
I could see her clench her fist and it makes me worry about her more. But, then I saw a sudden change in her facial expression. She had more worry than ever in her eyes. It was soft and sweet. Something cute, and that was rare for Sayaka. She shook her head a few times and hugged me.
"N-no... No. Don't. Don't look at me with those eyes. Not YOUR eyes."
"Eh?"
"Please..." I felt her hold become tighter as her voice started to break a bit and fade back into her sadness and tears.
"Sa-Sayaka?"
I rub my nose a bit and look up at her a bit. Her eyes were shut tight, as she was trying to hold the tears back.
"Don't make those sad, innocent eyes the last thing I see of you before you come back."
I pushed her back a bit and saw her whole face. Her sad smile, her wet cheeks, her sore from crying eyes.
"W-w-what are you talking about?"
"Those innocent eyes of yours... That kind of sad expression...I can't stand seeing you like that."
Eh? Sayaka, you...This is something I've never heard before. Her TRUE feelings. And, they're for me... For my sake...
"...Surely, you feel the same way, right?"
I don't know what to say. Her honest eyes and her kind voice always overpower me from time to time again, I just can't control myself when I'm around her. I unconsciously bit my lower lip. Then, the unthinkable happen.
Before I knew it, she captured my lips in a sweet, sweet kiss. I could feel every inch of her warmth rush through me and I felt so happy. It was a longing, everlasting kiss. I never want to leave her. I want to stay like this with her forever. As we finally parted for air, we broke down in more tears and held each other close. I softly cried over her shoulder, and she caressed the messy curls in my hair.
"This won't be goodbye, right?"
"....Yeah.
*Sniff* Yeah, I promise...
*Sniff* I'm not saying goodbye to you... Not now. Not ever."
"...Me neither."
"..I...
*Sniff* I love you, Sayaka."
She held my head close to her again and softly kissed my forehead.
"I love you, too, Sae."
A slight smile on my face, I bring her back in for another kiss, to which she made no objection. We kept just like that, forever in our embrace, until we were dismissed and had to leave.
The last day of Team K 6th stage. Also, my last day in Japan for a while. I was allowed to visit a few days, for concerts, the Request Hour, Nama-Uma... But, every day that past, I held my thoughts and feelings for Sayaka in my heart. Now, the biggest part of AKB48 has come. The general elections. I already sent in my application, so has Mariya.
I wonder... if Sayaka's signed up yet...I check the site to see if Sayaka was up yet. But... her name was nowhere to be found. So, I thought I'd look up on her blog if she's made plans. But, instead, I saw something that shattered my heart to pieces.
"I, Akimoto Sayaka, will graduate from AKB48 without participating in the upcoming Senbatsu general elections."
Eh?I could feel tears running down my cheeks uncontrollably. I couldn't hear anything but the echo of my cries in the room. Mariya suddenly came in and tried to calm me down, but I wouldn't stop. The room suddenly went black. ...And, I knew no more.
To Be Continued
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Although hearing this news, I will forever cherish Sayaka and support her until the very end.
I hope she will go down the road she wants and heads toward a wonderful future!
Topic: My eternal blue rose (Sayaka's Graduation fanfic) (Read 47756 times)