Why? WHy would you do that to poor Miki? She has been through so much already! And why couldn't Yoshi be soft with her? Bully! Thinking of Yoshi, I kept listening to I hate everything about you and it totally went with the story.
Boy I actually cried for poor Miki
And Aya FINALLY deciding to be with her and put behind her selfish stubborn fears does not make up for any of it! She was supposed to be her friend! She was suppposed to be by her side, help her, protect her, cry with her and such but she left her there to die! All alone! And she knew! She knew that there was no one else there for her! She knew she had no other friends or anyone to lean on! She must've caught a glimpse of how Yoshi was looking at her! She must've known... How could she not? She has to! She is Aya!
She should know all there is to know about Miki.. In fact I think she does. So knowing all she did, how could she stand by and just watch these things happen? Not only that, but she was the catalyst as well as the producer of the problem.
Not only did she stand by and watch her get lower and lower, but she stepped in and instead of picking her up, she broke her. She threw her away after using her for her own selfish ideas and wants but she gave nothing in return. Out of a whim she stole her and broke her and you just let it happen!
And Miki! Poor poor Miki... She was soo resigned! She was so totally in love and deeply troubled by her afflictions that she did not notice someone who was so close to her was trying to get her attention. She couldn't decode the meaning of those glances towards her and she didn't pay attention to the world around her. She was so unfortunate to have her everything taken away from her and then just like that, the thing she had been saving for Aya was taken away from her too.
She must feel just so alone, small, lonely, afraid, dirty, ashamed, bertrayed and god knows what else. She is going through so much pain right now. It is one hit after the other after the other.
And what will be achieved when Aya apologises? Will they be a normal happy couple? Will Miki even get over this? All of it? Will she even be alive to hear to make amends. I think she is about to kill herself. She seems like she is going to sink just a little lower before Aya gets to her.... and by then it will be too late. I fear.... some kind of horrible thing will happen soon. I don't know what..... But something inside tells me that something big is coming.. Something big and bad.
And what the hell is she gonna say? "Hi, sorry I've been a total bitch lately and I haven't been by your side when you needed me the most, but guess what! I love you too! And I was a bit scared of change so I procrastinated and fucked up your life for about a month only to realise what a huge idiot I was and I am sorry....... for everything. But now I am ready! Lets be together! In a lesbian way!" If I was Miki I would slap her soo hard she'd be seeing stars for a year..
But Miki.... Miki.. she is too kind. I know she will eventually forgive Aya. Not Yoshi, but definately Aya. She will say sorry she will accept her apologies and la dee dah, they are together....
But aren't we forgetting something? That's right, she was raped...... And some huge speech where tells her that and she probably apologises or something. Unless she finds her in the shower going over her mantra of "Dirty....... dirty.......... so dirty" and there is a crying bit and then she's like "Yoshizawa....... she........ she........... she raped me" in a tiny whisper.....
I can see it now....... Or if thats not the case she catches her getting molested by Yoshi again and she either grows a pair and helps her or she stands by and watch then realise what is happening or she watches gets the wrong idea and goes away thinking they are together. Either way this'll either have a tragic ending where at least one of the main characters dies or it will have a sweet sappy ending like we all want to be yet is soo unreachable.
I hope for the latter of course but am not very optimistic at this very moment. I mean let's face it, it's not like Miki has had any luck at all lately and I don't think anyone is gonna drop a tonne weighing anvil on Yoshi so there is that problem, there is also the fact that it is not certain she will even make it alive and right now it seems like she wont and of course who says she will forgive Aya?
Sure in the start she claims she would always forgive her for anything but times and people change and she has been through soo much already that a normal person would have been in their bed, in the fetal position crying right now if they were her. And quite frankly, it is what I am about to go do so I really wont blame her if she dumps Aya.
I mean, the one porrible characteur that she could've been with is such an asshole and the other one that she really loves has done all this to her, I wont blame her if she doesn't ever want to see anyone again... I'm sorry Mikitty, they broke you... Well, I loved the story and am dying to read more because I have to know what happens in the end so I hope you continue this fic, and I hope even though I doubt it that the end will be good to my broken angel.