Hey guys~
I originally posted this on LiveJournal, but with different characters, and I thought you guys may be interested, so I'm going to post it here. I have to warn you that my English is not perfect, so please excuse any mistakes. :nervous
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Warning: Strong language.
Chapter 1
"Ai-chan, I’m so sorry!"
She was standing outside my house, crying her eyes out, hoping for me to open the door so we could talk, but there is no way in hell I’m opening that door for her.
[Flash back]
"Ai-chan, I love you."
"I love you too."
"I'm going to be with you forever no matter what."
[End of flash back]
Ha! Forever my ass! Does she really think that I’m going to open the door for her? It's been two hours already, leave! Dammit, leave! Your crying is not going to make me feel bad. "Ai-chan, please open the door, please please please!" Oh my god, this is really starting to piss me off! Do I really? Why should I? "Ai-chan, I’m going to kill myself if you don't open this door right now!"
"Fine, kill yourself! See If I care."
And then, there was silence...Wait, she didn't kill herself...Did she?
I rushed to the door and opened it just to be jumped on by her. "Ai-chan, I'm so sorry, please forgive me." I didn't say anything, I was just standing there letting her tears soak through my new shirt, I just bought it and it's quite expensive. After maybe three minutes, she finally backed away with her eyes red from crying, she looked scary. I’ve never seen her like this before. "Ai-chan, please say something!" I finally talked. "What do you want me to say? That everything is going to be okay?"
"Ai-chan, I’m sorry."
"Will you stop apologizing? It's really annoying and it's not going to work." I said without showing any sympathy. She's the one who made me like this. She promised that we'll be together forever, and I was dumb enough to believe her. I thought I was in love with her, but I guess I was wrong. Love is not real; you only see 'love' in cheesy Hollywood movies. It’s just a myth. "Ai-chan, I made a huge mistake."
"Yes, you did. Now what do you want?"
And then tears stared running down her cheeks...Oh man, not again! "Why are you crying again?" I said with an angry tone and that only made her cry even more. "I lov-"
"Don't you dare say that!" I cut her off before she could finish that sentence. "Why are you here at the first place? Aren't you supposed to be with him… in your honeymoon?" She looked up and said “....I left him."
I was shocked when she said that, but happy at the same time, I don't know why but I was happy… “I left him because I couldn't live with him for the rest of my life...Ai-chan, I'm still in love with you...I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life by leaving you..." As If I wasn't shocked enough! What the hell am I supposed to say next? I miss you? I love you? I want you back…? Oh hell no! “Are you done? Is that it? Well, you should go home now, because it's getting late." She was about to cry, but thank god she didn't. “Fine, but before I go I just want to let you know that I love you and I'm sorry for breaking your heart. One day you'll find a better person who will treat you right..."
I don't know why, but I wanted to cry...and then...Tears were running down my face like silent raindrops. She hugged me, but I pushed her away because I won't let her play with my feelings again. Never. "Leave!" I said while I was crying. "JUST LEAVE!" I screamed. She had no choice but to leave. "Risa!" I shouted, there was something I wanted to tell her...
She turned to me with teary eyes "What Ai-chan?"
“I hope you die and rot in hell!"
I gave up my career for you; I gave up my whole fucking life for you. Because of you my parents rejected me, they kicked me out of the house, they erased me from their memories, but most of all they hated me! That's all because of you.
You know, 'hate' is a big word, you should never use it, but I mean it when I say: "Risa, I hate you!" I really mean it, and I hope one day you'll feel the same way I feel right now. Heartbroken, lonely, depressed, angry, weak, suicidal, and the list could go on and on...
“Fuck you, you whore, I don't want you back...”
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So...? Did you guys like it, hate it? Do you want me to finish writing it? Do you think my English is bad? I do :(
@Haruka, writerjunkie, SarangAi, fallenxangel24952, rndmnwierd: Thank you guys so much for your replies <3
@Beecubed: Thank you <3 Blackmailed...? You just gave me an idea... :mon evil:
@kano-chan: lol yeah, I had to warn you about the strong language. XD
A happy ending? Well, you'll have to wait and see :D
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Warning: Strong language.
Chapter 2
[Flashback]
“Fuck you, you whore. I don’t want you back...”
[End of flashback]
Ai’s POV
I meant what I said, but why does it hurt so much? I mean, she deserves it. She broke my heart, she left me for someone else…she left me for a guy! She lied to me about who she really is. She told me that she likes girls, but if that’s true, then why was she sleeping with a guy? WHY did she marry a guy? God, I’m so confused…and why the hell Am I thinking about her right now?
Get a hold of yourself! You just ended things with her. You told her that you don’t want to see her again, but why do I have a feeling that I have made a mistake? Screw this. I’m going to bed.
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It was 3 am, she kept rolling in her bed, she couldn’t sleep, she kept remembering what Risa had told her: “I left him because I couldn’t live with him for the rest of my life…Ai-chan, I’m still in love with you…I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life by leaving you.”
Ai finally gave up on trying to sleep. “If only I hadn’t told her that I was in love with her when she was dating that dickwad…”
[Five months ago.]
“ Ah~ I can finally sleep.” Ai jumped on her king size bed happy. She was finally going to sleep after an exhausted day. She started drifting off, when suddenly…
Ring Ring
“You’ve got to be kidding me!” She tried to ignore the sound, but it kept ringing and ringing and… ringing. “That’s it!” She jumped off her bed and ran to where the annoying sound was coming from. She was about to say a lot of things an idol shouldn’t say to whoever was calling her, but when she saw the calling ID, she smiled…
“Hello Risa~.”
“Hi, I’m sorry. Were you asleep?”
“No. What’s up?” okay that was a lie, but whatever. She thought to herself. “Thank god, I’m fine. I just want to talk to you…” She called, because she wants to talk to me. Of course she wants to talk, that’s why people call each other you dumb shit! “Okay, what do you want to talk about?” trying to sound as cool as she could, but failing miserably. “I don’t really know…Do you want to hang out?” Is she asking me out on a date? She started grinning like an idiot. “Yeah, that would be amazing.” “Awesome, because I think it’s been a long time since we hung out." Yeah, it’s been a long time… “Ever since you stared dating that dickwad” She mumbled.
“What was that?”
“Huh? Um, nothing HAHAHA” Ai mentally slapped herself for saying that. “Anyways, how about we go to the cinema?” ”Ye-“ Risa interrupted her, before she could finish. “Awesome! There is this new movie about two people falling in love, and then getting married.” Wow! The story is so not predictable…Ai thought raising a brow.” That’s sounds great!” She answered with a mocking voice. “It’s a romantic movie.” Really? I thought it was horror… “I love romantic movies!” I hate those mushy movies…
Risa and Ai started talking about stuff that neither of them really cared about. The only thing that mattered to them was that there was no awkwardness between them anymore. They haven’t been able to talk like this, mostly because Ai was ignoring Risa. Every time they see each other, Ai would turn around and walk away. It’s not because she didn’t want to see her, it’s because she couldn't. It hurt her so much; knowing that they will never be together hurt her so damn much. Every time Risa talks about him, every time Risa thinks about him, every time Risa calls him, hugs him, kisses him. Every single time, Ai would feel her heart being stabbed all over again. But not anymore, because she has moved on… or at least that’s what she wants to believe.
"Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard."
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To be continued…
@Swtme03: Yay!!! :otomerika:
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Chapter 10
Her phone rang, but she wasn’t in the mood for talking to anyone, she was pissed, very pissed, confused, heartbroken and drunk.
Her phone vibrated, she looked at it, it was a text message from that guy, the guy she loved. The guy that slept with her best friend, correction, former best friend.
Baby, why aren’t you answering your phone?
Everyone is worried, Sayu and I are worried, you haven’t showed up to work today.
Is everything alright? Should I come to your place and check up
On you?
Please reply as soon as you get this message.
- Hitoshi Kei (a made up name.)
“You and Sayu are worried about me? Hah! If that’s true then I’m the queen of Jordan.” Risa said after gulping down another glass of alcohol.
The bar tender was getting worried because she was drinking too much. “Excuse me Niigaki-san, I know this is none of my business, but I think that’s enough for tonight.” Risa glared at him “If you know that it’s none if your business, then shut the hell up!” After realizing what she had said, she immediately apologized. “Gomenasai.” “I’m sorry, it’s just that….” then tears were running down her face, “Does he know how much it hurts?” “Does Ai-chan know that I didn’t mean to make her cry?” she didn’t bother to wipe the tears “Does she know that I might have feelings for her?”
THUD
“Call an ambulance!”
[In the hospital]
“Doctor, Are you sure that she will be fine?” Sayu asked the doctor while crying her eyes out. Isn’t it ironic? How she’s worried. She’s been going out with Kei for the past month without caring about how her ‘best friend’ will feel if she finds out, and now, here she is in the hospital, in the middle of the night, messy hair, no makeup, no stupid ‘kawaii’ smile and swollen eyes from crying.
“Niigaki-san consumed too much alcohol, and that’s not good, but she’ll be fine.” He finally said before a nurse called him. “Don’t worry, she’s strong.”
Sayu was walking to Risa’s room, she reached the door, but before she could open it, she stopped, “It’s all my fault. How can I see her after all the things I’ve done? I’m the one who caused this…” Everything went silent, except for the ticking clock in the background. “Gaki-san…I-”
“Excuse me!” a nurse called, “Are you Michishige Sayumi?” Sayu turned around and saw a nurse standing inches away from her. “Y-y-yes?” She hesitantly replied.
“I’m sorry, but Niigaki Risa-san told us that she doesn’t want to see you.”
“Huh?!” Sayu looked at the nurse with a surprised look on her face. “But, I’m her best friend!”
“I’m sorry…but you have to leave.”
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“What do you want Sayu-chan? I’m busy here.” Kei said obviously irritated by the bunny’s sudden visit to his work place. “We need to talk.” She said firmly. “And I told you I’m busy, or are you just deaf?” Risa, what is so special about this jerk? “Risa has been taken to the hospital.” Miss usa-chan peace waited for a response, but she didn’t get the one she wanted. “And…?” I can’t believe this asshole! “What? Don’t look at me like that. You’re scaring me.” Kei said with a mocking voice, and then he smirked. “I’m not sure if you’re aware of this, but I don’t care about either you or that slut Risa.” How dare he? “Usa-chan, are you going to cry? Your eyes are getting red.” Sayu didn’t say anything; she just stood face to face with him trying so hard not do anything stupid that will get her into trouble.
She gathered up all her courage and spoke. “So, that night…didn’t mean anything to you?” her voice cracked at the last word. “No.”
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Eri’s POV
That night she told me everything. She told me why Takahashi-san tried to kill herself several times, and who was responsible for her suicide attempts…Niigaki Risa.
I made a promise that I will make whoever was hurting Takahashi-san sorry, but after what Tanaka-san had told me, I can’t. Takahashi-san is in love with Niigaki-san, I’m afraid if I did anything to her, Takahashi-san will jump off a building, and I don’t want that to happen. She’s not in a stable state right now.
So after thinking for a long time, I’ve decided that I will let go of Takahashi-san. I know it’s not going to be easy, but I have to. I love her, but she doesn’t love me, and she never will. At least no as much as she loves her. It’s always going to be ‘Risa’. There is no place for ‘Eri’ in her heart. How can she love me, when she doesn’t even know me?
The hardest thing to do is to watch the one you love, love someone else.
Goodbye Takahashi-san. In my dreams you're mine forever...
To be continued...