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AKB48 Fanfics => AKB48 Fanfics => Topic started by: bou-j525 on December 09, 2010, 03:21:30 AM
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List of OneShot
Earthquake (kojiyuu) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg822772#msg822772)
Christmas KojiYuu fanfic (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg830857#msg830857)
Christmas Atsumina fanfic (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg831147#msg831147)
A Day without you (KojiYuu, Haruna version) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg847195#msg847195)
A Day without you (KojiYuu, Yuko version) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg848788#msg848788)
Atsumina random OS part 1 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg859848#msg859848)
Atsumina random OS part 2 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg861158#msg861158)
Puzzle (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg871464#msg871464)
Liar Game (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg883879#msg883879)
Eagle Kite (KojiYuu) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg887300#msg887300)
Time (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg913490#msg913490)
Madness (No coupling) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg916104#msg916104)
Heaven's gonna wait (KojiYuu) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg985151#msg985151)
Accident (KaixRay) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg989025#msg989025)
You just have to ask me (Atsumina) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg1003362#msg1003362)
Do your best (Atsuko's graduation mini fic) (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=27427.msg1019256#msg1019256)
Hello everyone! Here's a little one-shot I made during math class... The teacher was absent this morning that's why XD No, I'm not someone who don't study for exams. I'm not someone who don't listen at class... yeah, anyway XD
I created a "sad" KojiYuu fanfic ( -.-' I don't know myself when I'll finally create a happy fanfic), coz I didn't want to make another TakAcchan one. It's short... and since it was at school, I don't know if it's "that" good, but here it goes! :grin:
And for those who read my other story, I'll update this week-end, sorry about it!
Sorry for the mistakes
OneShot
Earthquake
Wind was slightly blowing dust in her red eyes as she walked in the middle of the ruins. Her arm was bleeding and she was covered by blood, even though she didn’t feel any pain. She looked around, searching for rescue, but all she could see were death bodies, lying on the ground. She stared at the ruins. There was nothing left, even with the protection of the buildings against this kind of situation. Everything was destroyed, electric wires were flying around here and there, a disgusting smell was spreading in the streets… and she was alone, even though she could hear sounds from everywhere. She passed her hand through her long hair. She must not cry… She must not cry… She must keep her strength to find her. She heard an explosion, somewhere far in Tokyo. She could hear an ambulance… and people’s voices, asking for an unreachable help.
She could see there was nothing left… The theatre was… gone. Her friends… What about them? Where were they? Where was she? She couldn’t even think at this place as her home now… How did it happen? When did it happen? She was only talking to her… She was only taking a break… And she was about to confess to her. She was about to tell her how she felt toward her. She was going to tell her… that it wasn’t a joke anymore, that she was serious about them. And just when she had finally been ready to release those feelings, everything had turned black. The ground had shaken, she had heard people screaming around her before she had begun to fall. So suddenly… when she had opened her eyes after what seemed an eternity, everything was gone. She could imagine the front page of worldwide newspapers…
“Earthquake in Tokyo”
“The famous metropolis has been destroyed”
“Japan needs help”
And if they were lucky… maybe the world would have the though to write…
“AKB48: End of a great time”
She was wandering around, hoping she would not be the only survivor. She was looking for… her. There was no word to describe how much regretful she felt. Why hadn’t she told her the truth before? Why had she waited so long? There had been thousand warning about such a catastrophe… Of course, they had never thought it could happen now… Was it too late? Was it too late to find her? She couldn’t even imagine her being… gone. How would she look at herself in the mirror now? She walked hesitantly, trying to control her fear. Another step… Just another one… because she needed to find her. She felt bad… she felt sick… if she didn’t find her… she would die.
She moved her hand, trying to find her cell phone in her bag that was away on the ground, surrounded by debris. It wasn’t broken. She opened it, trying to join someone… but there was no signal. She moved around, despairingly, but no matter how high she raised her arm… there was nothing. And she was still bleeding… She had never felt so alone. She used to be always with someone, asking for hugs and kisses… And now she could not even whisper to anyone.
She walked weakly. Maybe she would feel better if she moved a little… Her head hurt. She saw something similar as she knew before, under a large piece of metal. She looked closely, breathing heavily, fearing what it might be. Scared, she took out the piece… As fast as possible, she turned around. It couldn’t be… She heard a baby crying somewhere under a destroyed building and felt useless to help him. She was about to faint. She was just walking into what seemed to be a war zone. She flinched, hoping she wasn’t searching for nothing. She slowly walked away, leaving Mariko’s dead body behind her.
The girl felt her hear beat harder as she heard a slightly breathe sound under a rock. There was an empty space there, just enough… to help someone to survive from fallen pieces. She had tears falling down her cheeks. Her arm was hurting now. She could feel the pain like never before. Maybe it was broken. She could felt another kind of pain, coming from her heart… She was alive. She was saying farewell to the city she used to know…Her world was gone. Wherever she looked, nothing was similar. Again, she heard this breathe. Slowly, she removed the large rock with all her strength left. She sighed from relief as she began to cry. Not because she felt pain… Not because of Mariko’s death... But because she had finally got her answer. Because… right in front of her, there was the person she had wanted the most to survive. It didn’t matter how much she had lost blood… how much she had felt lost…
“Yuko…”
And as the girl heard her name, pronounced in such a weak way, she cried even more. She was alive… She could start again… as long as Haruna was by her side. She could tell she was afraid. She was covered by dry blood… she was trembling. Suddenly, there was another tremor, less strong than the main one, but enough to make the duo scream. A pipe broke somewhere near and water began to flow on the street.
“I hate earthquakes.”
Her voice was so weak… It looked unreal… Yuko smiled slightly, too glad to say anything. They were both hurt, there was a war scene in front of their eyes, they were living a very bad dream… but at least they were together. As she sobbed, Yuko said softly:
“Then… you must hate me.”
“Why?” Haruna whispered as her head had stopped bleeding.
“My heart… Each time I see you, it makes an earthquake.”
The tall girl didn’t answer. There was no way she could be afraid of such a great friend. She was glad it was Yuko who had found her… She knew she was safe now, no matter how hard the situation seemed to be. Yuko heard her own voice, even if she was half aware of it.
“Before it’s too late, I need to tell you… I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. The jokes… with you and the others girls… It was stupid from me. That’s what I wanted to tell you before it… happen.”
“Everything was a joke?” Haruna asked, feeling a new wound ready to appear. It wasn’t physical… It was deep inside her… something she couldn’t call properly…
“Not… all. Some parts were true.”
Yuko softly hugged her friend, both of them shaking. They were living, together, everything was gone… They didn’t know about the others members… They didn’t know about their families… But they were together.
Haruna could hear Yuko’s personal earthquake now that she was so close to her… This one… could remain forever…
The End
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COOL~!!!!! XD
Want more please~!!! :twothumbs
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE~!!!!!!!!! :bow:
LOVE :heart: YOUR FANFIC~!!! THANK YOU~!!!! :thumbsup
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WOW!More KojiYuu please(http://forum.jphip.com/Smileys/default/mon_lovelaff.gif)
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O Mi Gawsh!!! thanks for the story. I really like KojiYuu fics. I'm soo happy! :twothumbs (And it's my B-day today!! Wow double the fun!!) XD XD
Oh, plz continue to create more fics especially this pairing. Thanks soo much :] :bow: :bow: :bow:
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Happy birthday!
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Belated Happy birthday to you. mine was on the 6th :D
Anyway...
wow, akb48 in a end of the world setting huh. that's kinda new and great! :twothumbs
though i felt sad when i read about Mariko being dead. :(
it's sad because after the earthquake...next would be a tsunami. :cry:
still it's a great read! thanks for that! :twothumbs
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Sorry for the late comment... :mon wind:
I really can't believe that you could write this Fic (You killed Mariko-sama! How could you!! :scolding:)
Anyway, I can't do anything about it cu'z it's your fic (but can't believe you could kill some Akb girls... :fainted:) Your lucky it's a KojiYuu fic (I'll forgive you this time... :mon exhaust: even if I don't want to..)
Anyway, pls... continue writing, I was surprise with the story because it's not really common.. (well, I think you know the reason...) :mon annoy: (one angry fan)
Thanks again for the story... (oh plz, not another calamity like what FoF-sama wrote there...) But really thanks for the story :] :on GJ:
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Hi guys!
School's done!!!!!!! Yeah!!! So I had time to create a short KojiYuu OneShot as my Christmas gift for you! Nothing serious, just something I had in mind XD
Here it goes and sorry for the mistakes!
Christmas KojiYuu Fanfic
It was the night before Christmas. Outside, snow was slowly falling down, covering the ground with a thin white blanket. Light were flashing everywhere in the huge town Tokyo was. It was a beautiful night. Yuko was impatiently waiting for Haruna to come to her house. They had decided to spend Christmas’s night together, as nice friends, without the others. Anyway, the others were busied too. Plus, both of them didn’t want to have a big party this time, and it was one of the rare times they didn’t have to work for AKB48 the night of December 24th. It was the perfect opportunity to share great time together. Of course, they wanted to see their family, but it would be the next day, December 25th.
Yuko LOVED Christmas. When she was young, she had always liked eating cakes with her family and talking happily with her friends. She had great memories about this celebration and wanted to make even more. Sure, she was older than before, but when it was Christmas… She just became a kid again. She had put decorations everywhere in her house, making it the more red and green as possible. There was a little plastic Christmas tree because she couldn’t put a real one in her living room. She was like a little kid in paradise.
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Haruna was walking in the street, heading to Yuko’s house. It was a beautiful night. She couldn’t wait to arrive and have fun with her friend. She was admiring the Christmas lights everywhere, wondering how would be her first Christmas alone with Yuko… After all, they had always being with the others members or their family, never the two of them alone. She couldn’t help but smiled as she knew she would have to avoid Yuko’s skinship at least once during the night. She needed to be mentally prepared. As she was thinking of many ways to avoid her friend’s love, she heard two voices she knew very well, as she walked right in front of a giant Christmas tree.
“Stop laughing!”
“I can’t believe you decided to do this job to help your mother’s friend!”
“It’s not funny! It’s just for little children! Stop laughing, I’m loosing credibility!”
“Since when do you have credibility anyway?”
Haruna smirked as she saw the face of AKB48… laughing at a mini version of Santa Claus. Or at least, that was what it looked like. But she could tell that under this red coat and false beard was no one, but Takahashi Minami, her own captain. Priceless. Maeda Atsuko, her best friend, was by her side, laughing like never before. Haruna could tell that Acchan never knew a thing about Takamina’s Christmas’ job just by the way she was looking at the captain.
“Ah, Santa Claus, you’re so cute!” Acchan laughed as she took a picture with her cell phone.
There were little children pointing at them with questioning looks. It was really funny to see and Haruna just listen their conversation a bit.
“What do you want for Christmas?” Santa Takamina asked to a little shy boy, ignoring Acchan.
The shy boy whispered something into Takamina’s ear who promised him he would get what he wanted. After some others children had come to talk to Santa, Haruna saw Acchan walking nearer Takamina, asking with an innocent ton:
“Will you give me a gift too, Santa Claus?”
Haruna smirked, knowing Takamina hated this kind of… proximity… especially in the middle of the street while she was supposed to play the Christmas idol of all children over the world.
“Of course! I’ll give gifts to all nice children!” Takamina answered, playing her role, knowing there were kids watching her.
“Really?” Acchan asked as she whispered in Santa Claus’ ear what she wanted.
Even with this false white beard covering her face, Haruna knew Takamina was blushing under it and she laughed loudly, wondering what Acchan had asked to her friend. Unfortunately, both Acchan and Santa Takamina heard her and turned their heads, looking straight at the tall girl who quickly mumbled an excuse as she turned around.
“Sorry, I’m late!” Haruna mumbled as she turned and walked toward Yuko’s house, knowing she was really late. She smiled and she knew she would laugh at Takamina FOREVER now.
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The doorbell rang and Yuko answered, all smiling to Haruna. The tall girl smiled back and came in. There was a bit snow in her hair, but she was glad to be finally at Yuko’s home. She had brought a cake that Yuko quickly put on the table.
“I’m glad you came tonight!” The squirrel said happily.
Waiting for midnight with Haruna was the best situation EVER for her. She didn’t want a “friend” to be with her. She wanted HARUNA to be with her. It was completely different from Yuko’s point of view. From Haruna’s point of view, it was more like a nice night with her friend.
The two friends talked together for a bit when Yuko suddenly showed a card to her friend. She had never told anyone about this, but Haruna was special. Yuko could tell her anything.
“Look!” She said with the same childish look she always had during Christmas since she had four years old. “I made my card for Santa Claus!”
It was a really cute card, red with green writing, decorated with sticker and a drawing of snowman. Haruna smirked.
“You what?”
“It’s nice, isn’t it?!” Yuko asked with the same cute voice. “Look! I’ve made a plate of cookies to him when he’ll come too! And some milk too! You know, like in the story!”
At the last part, Haruna laughed as she asked:
“To Santa Claus? You still believe in him?”
“Of course!” Yuko said with a strong voice. “He does exist! Don’t you believe in him, Nyan Nyan?”
Haruna hesitated to answer, wondering if Yuko was really serious when she talked about that. She should have taken her to Takamina… or maybe not since the small captain had already Acchan to mess up with her.
“Well…”
“He’ll come for sure! I made a letter to him, asking for a gift but… I didn’t have time to send it to him since we had to work…” She added with a sad voice.
Yuko looked so serious when she talked about it that Haruna couldn’t help but asked:
“Wait a minute, you’re serious? You still think he exists? Don’t you know that…”
“…he doesn’t?” Yuko completed. “It’s only a story we tell to little kids! But I’m not a kid anymore and I still think he exists! So he’ll come for sure and thank me for thinking he still exists!”
Haruna blinked at her, trying to stay serious. It was definitely something to laugh about, but she didn’t want to hurt her friend. Yuko wrote something else inside her letter, staring at Haruna at the same time, which made the tall girl flinch. She placed it with the cookies plate near the little Christmas tree. She was so cute looking at the plate that Haruna couldn’t make laugh at her. Such a child…
“It’s nice to see that… you still believe in him.” Haruna said, trying not laugh.
Really, she thought Yuko was a bit overreacting with “Santa Claus” since… well… it was only a story.
“It’s nice to believe into something we can’t be sure of, you know?” Yuko said. “It makes you feel less lonely. Like there’s always someone watching for you. And I only ask him things I can’t have by myself! IT’S LIKE WAITING FOR A MIRABLE!”
Yuko was so into it that Haruna took a picture of her. There were stars in her eyes. The others members would never believe that the main Team K member still thought Santa Claus exist. It was cute and funny at the same time. Maybe she should keep this secret for herself… after all, she was sure the others didn’t know anything about it. Here must have a reason why Yuko had told HER.
“I’m glad you look so… happy about it.” Haruna hesitantly smiled.
With a sudden change of conversation, Yuko hugged her friend and asked as she tried to get closer:
“What did you ask him, Nyan Nyan!”
“Nyan Nyan” couldn’t believe what she was hearing. Was Yuko REALLY waiting for him to come?! Was she really asking her what she asked to him?! She couldn’t be so childish… right? She knew Yuko could act in a very cute way sometimes, but there was no way the young adult would be waiting for someone who didn’t exist! Haruna didn’t know what to answer, but she was saved by no one but Yuko who added with an excited voice:
“No! Don’t tell me! It’s supposed to be a secret or else it won’t come true! I’m glad you came here tonight! Let’s do skinship! And then we’ll wait for him!”
What the?! How could Yuko changed so suddenly her mood! One second she was waiting for Santa Claus… and the next one, she wanted skinship?! Haruna moved apart.
“No. Way.”
“Please! No one will see us!”
“That’s not the question! I’m not doing skinship! And doesn’t Santa Claus see everything?!”
Yuko pouted as she wrote something more on her letter to Santa Claus.
“He can see, you’re right, but… it’s not a problem since he doesn’t care if we’re gays or not, unlike in religion, you know? He’s not homophobe!”
Haruna sighed. Why did she want to come here already? Oh yeah… just to have fun. Well, at least she was discovering a new side of her friend.
“Anyway, it’s no!” Haruna replied.
After hearing another rejection, Yuko decided to change mood again and became all happy, acting like she was living a dream since she was still with Haruna anyway. They talked and eat together as great friends, even though Haruna had to avoid Yuko’s skinship all the time. At the end of the dessert, Yuko sighed. They kept talking together in the living room, joking, smiling, getting closer and moving apart… Haruna’s fear of skinship was beginning to become a game. Maybe it was because of alcohol they had drink… Not too much, but still enough to make them dreamy. She had almost stopped avoiding it near ten o’clock, letting Yuko hugging her and putting her head on her shoulder… and even on her breasts. Soon after, they were just sitting side by side, enjoying the other’s presence. When one in the morning arrived, Yuko began to fall asleep. She was fighting her tiredness.
“I want to see him…” Yuko’s tired voiced told Haruna.
The tall girl turned to her, surprised. She didn’t except Yuko to really wait for him. Because… well… Even if it was Yuko… wasn’t it too much for her age?
“Why do you want him to come so much? There’re many younger kids in the world than you.”
Haruna’s voice was soft, even if she knew she was only telling a lie. There was no way he would come here… if ever he existed. Yuko moved her arm around Haruna’s waist as she said:
“Because it’s great to feel like a child once during the year… No more problems… innocence… Nostalgia… happiness… Not that I am not, just… Isn’t it nice to believe in something everyone denies? It seems that miracles can be possible when we do this.”
Yuko’s voice was sweet, cute, not so loud… She was slowly falling asleep. Like a little child in her mom’s arms.
“I want to wait for him…” She added, closing her eyes.
Haruna found Yuko really cute the way she was. What a child… She just put her hand in her head and say:
“Just sleep. I’ll tell him you wanted to see him.”
Yuko smiled. Of course… Deep in her heart, she knew Santa Claus didn’t exist… But it was nice to believe he did, right? Just once a year… feeling like an innocent kid again… being by Haruna’s side like this… it was perfect. She was thankful to Haruna to respect this childish side of hers. She fell asleep as Haruna was watching over her.
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Yuko woke up the next morning into Haruna’s arms. Blushing a little, she moved apart, still looking at her friend. She was a bit shy about what had happened yesterday with her being so philosophic and childish at the same time. She looked at the Christmas tree and narrowed her eyes. The cookies were gone, the milk too… And the letter had vanished. Her eyes moved to Haruna’s face. The tall girl was breathing slightly, still sleeping. She had a mini smile in her cute face. Yuko’s face moved closer. She thought Haruna was really cute, sleeping like this. She knew she shouldn’t do that, but her friend looked so beautiful… She had always wanted to sleep by her side, so close to her… Just to feel her presence, not necessary to make out or anything pervert. She knew it wasn’t the impression she gave to Haruna, but truly, the main thing she wanted was to be with her. She smiled shyly and kissed her softly. The meeting of her lips and Haruna’s made her heart beat so fast that she quickly moved apart, breaking this soft contact, afraid that the sound in her chest might wake her. But Haruna didn’t open her eyes nor wake up… she only reached for Yuko’s hand and didn’t let it go. Yuko smiled. It was the best Christmas ever.
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Unaware of Yuko’s happiness, deep inside Haruna’s pocket, a little piece of paper was hidden, some words written on it:
Dear Santa Claus,
I know I am an old kid now, but I’m still writing to you.
There’s only one thing I want for Christmas this year, but I can’t have it by myself…
I want… Haruna to stop avoiding my kiss!
Please, make it happen!
Thank you!
P.S: Look Santa! A drawing of my dear Haruna! She’s cute, isn’t she?
P.S2. It’d be great if she stopped avoiding skinship too… ”
When Haruna had read it at two o’clock in the morning… She had agreed with the first gift… Not the second…
But she already knew she would give to Yuko next year…
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So what do you think about it? Tell me honestly... should I just stay with sad stories XD Cause I have the impression I'm better with them XD Oh, and MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance TO ALL OF YOU!
I'm going to update a short TakAchan version soon! A double gift for you :)
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OMG, this is just too cute to bear, thanks you so much for this Christmas present >.<, and when I was reading the takacchan (kyaa~, takamina santa :wub:) part I thought about pleading you to write more about it, but when I read that you will actually write one soon I squeal like crazy :inlove:, thanks you again :D
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Yuu-chan SO CUTE~!!! XD
Thank you for the great update~!! :bow: :twothumbs
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Hahaha I have the impression the TakAcchan version sucks XD Maybe it's because it was one in the morning while I was writing it and I was half asleep... Anyways, here it is! And thank you for the comments ^^
Again, Christmas' coming, so Merry Christmas to all of you :thumbsup
Christmas TakAcchan fanfic
Takamina stared at the dark sky as snow began to fall. No. In fact, tonight, she wasn’t Takahashi Minami anymore. She was Santa Claus. Or at least, that what she was trying to show to young kids that were walking in the streets with their parents. It wasn’t like this she had planned to spend her December 24th, but she had to admit it was quite funny to laugh with all the children around her. She had accepted this job only because her mother’s friend had asked them, but she would do it again next year with pleasure. She really liked kids. She thought they were funny, trying to take out her false bear and trying to get her attention. She was almost done though and would see Acchan later. They wanted to celebrate Christmas together. If it wasn’t for that job, Takamina would already be with Acchan, but since it was really a last minute decision, she had just called Acchan and told her she would come later because she needed to help her mother’s friend.
“Merry Christmas!” She said to a little kid hidden behind his mother.
He smiled gently, but didn’t come near her. Takamina just wanted to hug this incarnation of cuteness, but stayed immobile, knowing she must not scare hi,.
“Don’t be afraid of me! I’m going to give you a surprise tomorrow!” She added.
The kid’s smile grew a bit as he nodded shyly and left with her mother, sometimes looking back at the strange white and red character. The false Santa Claus laughed behind his beard. It had been like this all the night. Some kids trusted her more than others, but there was always a smile in their face when they left her.
Suddenly, she flinched as she saw Maeda Atsuko staring at her with a strange look. Santa Takamina turned her head in the opposite direction, hoping her friend hadn’t recognized her, but she knew it was too late as the pretended friend began to laugh walking closer in her direction.
“Takamina?” Acchan asked, smirking.
Takamina, not even a bit credible, answered:
“Takamina? Who is Takamina? I don’t know anybody called Takamina. I don’t know what you are talking about right now.”
Acchan tried to hold herself, but burst in laugh a second later.
“I’m Santa Claus right now, call me like that.” Takamina quickly whispered to Acchan.
The face of AKB48 stared at her friend a moment. Since Takamina had large boots, she was almost the same height as Acchan’s. ALMOST.
“Daddy, look, Santa Claus is smaller than this girl!” A boy told his dad. “Isn’t he supposed to be the tallest?”
It made Acchan laughed even louder.
“Stop laughing!”
“I can’t believe you decided to do this job to help your mother’s friend!”
“It’s not funny! It’s just for little children! Stop laughing, I’m loosing credibility!”
“Since when do you have credibility anyway?”
Takamina didn’t answer, knowing she had to be a perfect model to her young public, even though she just wanted to reply something else. Acchan just kept on laughing, unaware everybody was looking at her weirdly. Really, when Takamina had told her she would come later, she had never expected THIS was the reason! It was just priceless.
“Ah, Santa Claus, you’re so cute!”
It was the only thing she could say before starting to die laughing loudly again. She opened her cell phone and quickly took a picture, wondering why the hell she had become friend with someone like Takamina. It would make an awesome post, she knew it.
“Mama, does Santa have a girlfriend?” A little boy asked her mother.
Acchan suddenly stopped laughing, hoping she had heard the wrong thing. When it came to her relationship with Takamina, it was becoming a “dangerous” zone.
“Of course he does! Look how these two have fun together!” The mother said as Santa Takamina, who didn’t like this subject either, just asked him:
““What do you want for Christmas?”
The shy boy walked closer, but hesitated to say something, thinking he must have done a mistake by talking about Santa Claus having a girlfriend. Santa Takamina encouraged him with a huge smile, ignoring Acchan who was starting to laugh again.
“I want my mother to be happy forever.” He whispered in Takamina’s ear.
Even though Takamina wanted to let out a cute “Awwwwww”, she just promised him his wish would come true. After all, a cute “Awwwwww” would not be like Santa Claus at all.
“I want to ask you something too!” A young girl said.
“What do you want from me?” Santa Takamina asked nicely.
“I want to become an idol when I’ll become older!” She said proudly. “Just like the group AKB48! So I will inspire lot of people too!”
Takamina stared at her with astonishment. She was a bit too young to listen to their songs, wasn’t she? But it didn’t matter, she was so cute… and a fan!
“Awwwwww!” Takamina said with a really girly voice.
She secretly said sorry to her credibility, but it was too hard to hold it. That young girl was too cute.
“Um… I mean, I’ll make sure you’ll become an idol later!” She added as Acchan smirked.
Two others kids went to talk with her before Acchan suddenly appeared in front of her, asking with an exaggerate innocent voice:
“Will you give me a gift too, Santa Claus?”
Takamina sighed, knowing she couldn’t joke or be mad at her friend in front of everyone.
“Of course! I’ll give gifts to all nice children!”
“Really?” Acchan said, surprised that Takamina had answered something like this.
Well… maybe it was the right time to play a bit with her… She whispered something into her ear, half serious and half joking. Then, she looked at her in her eyes, her lips forming a cute smile. Takamina was glad she had this huge beard to hide her shyness. There was two different ways to take what Acchan had told her…. Which one was the good? She suddenly heard a loud laugh and turned her head, breaking the eyes contact she had with Acchan. The two girls briefly saw Haruna’s silhouette before the tall girl disappeared, mumbling something they didn’t understand.
“I guess she’s going to Yuko’s house… They must celebrate Christmas together.” Acchan said.
“Tell me she didn’t know it was me…” Takamina asked with an anxious voice.
“Why?”
“Because now you can be sure the members will never look at me the same way if Haruna tell them… My life’s over!”
Her hands covering her face, she felt something pulling her huge red coat. Her eyes moved until she saw a tiny hand hanging on her coat.
“Why are you sad, Santa?” A four years old girl asked.
Embarrassed, Takamina didn’t answer. How stupid she was to make children believing Santa was sad right on December 24th!
“I am not sad!” Santa Takamina said with her smile back. “Come here and tell Santa what you want this year! Have you been nice with everyone?”
Acchan stared at her friend, thinking she was really cute acting like this. Takamina would surely make a great mother. She looked at her cell phone. If everything went well, they would go to her home in about half an hour. Until then… she had time to write about it in her blog, right?
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“Finally done!” Takamina said as she took out her costume.
It was really surprising to see how much it was hot inside this outfit. If ever Santa Claus really existed… she admired him to be able to stay the whole night with such a big coat.
“Here some cake.” Acchan said as she gave a small part to her friend.
“Uh?!” Takamina claimed as she saw a mini part of chocolate cake in a plate. She didn’t want to be egoist… but she had never seen someone giving someone else so less food. “Let me guess… You ate everything?”
Acchan looked away as she nodded shyly, even though she knew Takamina would never get mad at her for something like that. Her friend pretended to be mad at her for a second as she finished her part quickly. It was a great cake that Acchan had made herself. Takamina was even surprised Acchan hadn’t eaten everything. They talked together all night, joking about what Haruna and Yuko would do together, sharing pictures, drinking with “moderation” and remembering great times. Takamina didn’t want this moment to end. She had never felt so good with Acchan. There was nothing that could break the way she felt now.
“Look, it’s midnight!” Takamina said “It’s officially Christmas.”
“It’s nice we’re able to celebrate it together!” Acchan answered. “I wished the others were here too though… Next year, it’s going to be a huge party!”
“What, you don’t like being only with me?” Takamina joked as she laughed a bit.
Acchan smirked, looking straight at her.
“Of course I like it. Remember what I asked you for Christmas?”
Takamina knew she was blushing even before she could say her answer. Acchan laughed as she saw how shy Takamina was. It wasn’t so much she had asked her after all! Could it be… Could Takamina take it the wrong way? Oh. That would be funny.
“So, when will you give me my gift, Santa?” Acchan asked, moving closer to Takamina.
Takamina avoided her, playing with her at the same time. Everything seemed to be like a joke with Acchan. She could never know when she was serious or not. Sometimes, it was nice, sometimes, like now, it was bothering her.
“Um… never?” Takamina asked.
“Wrong answer.” Acchan smirked, still trying to get closer to her friend.
Takamina flinched. What was going on with Acchan? Oh no, please, it couldn’t be… alcohol? No, Acchan wasn’t drunk. Or at least, she didn’t seem to be drunk. Well, in fact, her friend had always been a bit player with everyone, so Takamina couldn’t help but smile as she knew it was probably just another thing about this. It was becoming dangerous.
“Okay!” Takamina said, still moving apart but smiling. “I’ll come back in a minute, wait please!”
And the small captain went in another room, searching for something. Acchan sighed. It wasn’t funny without Takamina by her side. Her friend was the only one that made her act natural. She didn’t need to be anybody else than Maeda Atsuko with her. She didn’t need to play a role, like she sometimes did with others members. She was herself. And right now, her inner voice was telling her it was Christmas. Christmas, also called “lovers holiday”. It wasn’t a coincidence she had finally managed to spend Christmas ALONE with Takamina. It was because she had planned it. She had told the others members she couldn’t see them, she had asked Takamina’s family to let her go for December 24th and made a family diner the next day instead.
In fact, Acchan had planned everything to make this night as perfect as possible. But, of course, her friend didn’t need to know about it, right?
“I’m here!” Takamina said as she appeared in the living room doorway ten minutes later.
Acchan let out a scream of surprise. Takamina had wrapped herself like she was a giant Christmas gift. She also had the huge ribbon on her head to go with everything. She even had pieces of paper covering her face. She really had become a huge Christmas gift. She was a human gift.
“What are you doing?!” Acchan laughed as she went by her side, trying to tear up the paper.
Takamina’s face suddenly popped out the paper, even though he head was still covering by red and green silk pieces.
“Are you insane?” Acchan asked, half serious.
She found Takamina really cute, unable to move with her new outfit, as funny to watch as Santa Claus one. It made her wondering how Takamina had managed to wrap herself like that. They both stared silently a bit at each other before Takamina shyly broke the awkward silence.
“Didn’t you say you wanted to have me for Christmas’ gift?” Takamina asked, slightly shaking her head to make the ribbons falling on the floor.
Acchan blushed, knowing that Takamina had probably done something like this exactly because she didn’t want to think about another way to understand this wish. She hesitated to say anything, especially since she knew if she did something, nothing would ever be the same. But then again, she remembered how much effort she had put in order to plan everything to have a perfect celebration with her friend, how she had lied to some others members, how she wanted to tell Takamina about her feelings since so long time. So, she smiled back.
“Stupid…” she whispered as she walked by her side.
And before Takamina could answer anything, she softly kissed her, removing the paper on her friend’s head by passing her hand through her long hair. She felt Takamina flinching a bit before her friend answered shyly at what she was doing. From a shy and awkward beginning, they both gained confidence as they became sure of how to act, like they had both waited for this moment since a very long time.
They broke apart, searching for some air to breathe. Acchan slightly smiled as she saw a really shy wrapped Takamina standing in front of her, knowing she had finally got the Christmas gift she had wanted since almost a year.
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Christmas TakAcchan fanfic is so :heart: and takamina - santa claus is really adorable.acchan's gift for christmas is takami :inlove: :inlove: :inlove: i want such gift too :P :P :P
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Whaaa!!! :mon tantrum2:... another late comment from me!!.... :mon waterworks:
Anyway, thanks for the Christmas fics!! (I'll forgive you for the "Earthquake" fic... Just make sure that it's really a oneshot fic... hehe :on lol: Really, I'm serious here.. :mon suspect:)
Thanks again for the cool fics... I like them both :] (Yuuko sempai is sooooo kawaiiii!!! :mon lovelaff: :mon lovelaff: My gosh :mon scare: Kojima san is sooo lucky to have Yuuko-sama as her lover!!! :mon blood: I'm jealous!! :mon inluv:)
I also like the TakAchan couple!! :mon inluv: (but still like KojiYuu more!!! hehe :mon XD:)
Thanks soo much for the fics bou-j525!!! :mon heh: :] (Sorry if I'm soo late for saying this to you, I'm soo happy that you greeted me on my b-day!! I'm sooo embarrassed right now!!! :mon ignore: :shy2:) Really Thanks soo much (I'm soo loving you!!! :luvluv1:) :]
Just keep on writing bou-j525-san!!! :mon inluv: Thanks soo much :] :mon heh:
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Hello! I think this thread will become my "one-shot" thread finally XD
HERE IT IS! My new short and sad creation... inspired from a two-lines text someone sent me from facebook XD (coz I don't have facebook btw)
Hope you'll like it... btw I'm back to sad stories XD
KojiYuu
A day without you (Haruna version)
You always told me your love without hiding your feelings. You were not shy about it and did not feel any fear. You wanted the world to see us as a couple. When I told you my feelings were the same, you wanted to share your joy with the entire universe. Even though I never said it directly to you… I was glad to see you cared so much for me. I couldn’t stop smiling when I was by your side while you were trying to touch me. I had a strange feeling when I’ve accepted this contact for the first time. It was also the first time I saw you really shy about it. We never did more than that. I didn’t want to, at the beginning. And suddenly, I wanted to feel your body close to mine. I wanted to feel you like never before… to fill the desire I had in my heart. I wanted our two bodies to become one. You never wanted. I thought it was strange coming from you… because it was the total opposite from who you were. I thought… it was what you wanted from the beginning, so when you told me it was too soon, I couldn’t believe it. I thought you were joking and that we would do it the first time you came to sleep at my home. But we didn’t. You said we were not ready yet, that we should wait more.
I never understood why you were so distant when it came to do it. I never understood why you, the pervert of the group, didn’t want us to sleep together like real lovers would. I thought you wanted to wait for our one year together birthday, but no. I thought you wanted to wait for my birthday to give me the most beautiful gift I’ve ever wanted, but you didn’t. As times went by, I decided I would wait for you because it was all I could do since I didn’t know the reasons behind your refusal. I decided this side from you was cute. You were acting with me in a different way than with the others. You allowed me to see the real person you were. I never said it to you, but I liked the way you were looking at me like I was a goddess. I liked this special smile you gave to me when we were alone. I liked the smell of your hair when we were close together.
“If you can live a whole day without me, I will love you even more.”
We’ve always been together, never being apart more than half a day. You would always call me when I didn’t have time to. I would always visit you, just to see your smile when you saw me in front of your house. When you told me that, I was surprised. I thought you were just joking. But when my eyes have met your beautiful and serious glance, I knew you were telling the truth. I knew I could trust you this time. There was only one thing I could think about when I heard “I will love you even more”. There was only one thing you could give me to make me happier… I knew it. I accepted your challenge, because even if it was going to be hard, I knew I could do it. And I really wanted to see how much you could love me. I really wanted… to feel your warm body next to mine.
“Don’t try to contact me for 24 hours!”
I did what you wanted. I never tried to call you. I never went to wait in front of your house. I never sent you a mail either. It was the longest day of my life, but I only had to think about my reward and motivation would come over my desire to see you. I spent the day reading and listening to music. I couldn’t do anything more. It was the first time we didn’t talk to each other for a whole day. I’ve never felt so lost in my life. I felt so alone, but it was all right, I could forget my loneliness by listening to your songs. I could forget it a bit by looking at pictures of us, smiling together. Though doing those things wasn’t enough. I needed to have you by my side. I couldn’t wait for the day to end. I told myself I would call you as soon as midnight would arrive. I told myself I would come to your house as soon as this painful day would end… and kiss you like never before. I told myself I would kiss you like if my life were in danger. I told myself… I would make you regret asking me to do such a difficult thing.
“Is it Kojima Haruna?”
I wanted to call you at midnight. But I didn’t have time. At 11:59, someone called me. Someone I didn’t know. A guy, I think, I can’t remember clearly. I told him I was busy. Really, who would call someone so late at night? But he told me it was important. He told me it couldn’t wait. I was mad at him because I couldn’t talk to you as soon as midnight came. I just wanted to hang on and tell him to call later tomorrow morning. I wanted to hear your voice the most. I wanted to hear you telling me it was done. I wanted you to reassure me about it. But it wasn’t your voice coming from the other side. It was this guy’s. It was a professional voice that scared me at first. As I was about to tell him I didn’t want to talk to him, he pronounced your name. I couldn’t answer anything. I was afraid it was your secret boyfriend or something like this. I was afraid he might be the reason why you couldn’t give me what I wanted. I was afraid he would tell me you broke up with me.
And then, my world was destroyed. Everything went black in my mind. He told me something I didn’t want to know about you. He told me… something I should have learned from you, not from him. I hang on as soon as he finished and tried to call you to confirm what he had said. I composed your number twice. You never answered. You never called me back either, even though I waited all the night. This guy… was right, wasn’t he? I called you again in the morning. I knew I couldn’t reach you, but it was stronger than me. I had to try, to believe it was a lie, to still think you were there and that you would call me back. I couldn’t stop thinking about what he had told me. Was it true? If so, since when did you have it? Since when… did you know you had cancer? Since when… did you know it was incurable? Since when… did you know you were going to leave this world in 24 hours?
I went to your house the same day. I wanted to see you. I wanted to hear your voice. I wanted to feel your lips against mine. I wanted to feel your hands passing through my hair like you used to do… You door was opened. Nobody was there. I couldn’t believe that guy was right… I couldn’t believe… you were not here anymore. I couldn’t believe this home would be cold and empty from now on. Your scent was everywhere. Everything here reminded me of you. There were pictures of me everywhere, like you wanted me to live with you but were too scared to ask me to. I would have accepted with pleasure. I wanted you to ask me to move here… I was hoping we could finally begin a real life together. I wanted you… to be mine forever.
I walked everywhere, not touching anything, thinking about nothing. Why didn’t you tell me about it? Why… didn’t you have better treatments or anything you needed to be well again? I couldn’t believe what I was doing here. I was supposed to be here with you. I was supposed to be here to… receive your love. I went in your bedroom. I was not crying. I was not sobbing. My heart was… just incredibly empty. There was a note in your pillow. I thought you had forgotten it yesterday before you left for hospital… But no. It was to me. You had left it because you knew I would come here soon. You wanted me to have it. Why didn’t you tell me about it instead of doing something like this? I took the small piece of paper. I was shaking so much I couldn’t read it properly. I had to go back to the kitchen and opened the huge light to see it better. I could tell you were crying when you wrote it. The ink was not clear at all. You wanted me to spend a day without you, right? Why… did it have to be the last one you were on earth? Why… did you have to be alone the day you needed me the most?
“Congratulation, you did it Nyan Nyan!
Now you will be able to do it everyday…”
My eyes couldn’t look away from the note… I couldn’t believe what was written on it. You had… what? You had left me because… of something like this? You had… make me spend a whole day alone, knowing you were going to leave me, because you wanted me… to be prepared? Was it the reason why you wanted me to live 24 hours without you? How were you supposed to love me more now… How was I supposed to forgive myself from leaving you alone the last day you spent alive? I should never had accepted this challenge.
“Now you will be able to do it everyday…”
You are stupid. Even though it’s been a year today… I’m just living the same 24 hours over and over again…
The End
ENDNOTE: So...?
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THANK YOU FOR YOUR UPDATE~!! :tama-excite:
but . . .
IT'S SOOO SAD~!!! :mon cry: :gmon tears: :pig cry:
PLEASE UPDATE MORE~!! Bye~ :on speedy:
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bou-j525 san!!!! :pleeease:
Huhuhuhu... :fainted: :gyaaah: I still haven't read this yet :mon wind: I'm currently at school...( No I am not skipping classes.. or am I? :mon dunno: I'm not really, for real hehe... :grin: It's just that my class will start later ooOOOOmigawsh!! :panic: got 10 minutes left before class!! :banghead: Darn school!!! Oh, wait, :mon dunno: I remembered.... There's no first class.. Which means..... *wait for super loud fan girl SCREAM*... YAY!!!! I can at least leave a comment here!!!! :mon angel: )
Anyway, haven't read this yet.... :mon wind: I really soo can't wait to read this (even if you said that this is a sad fic.. :fainted: I don't mind as long as it's my precious KojiYuu pair :mon inluv:)
I hope that this fic will not make me tear up and end up doing this :mon cry: (just like what RenaChii did down there :] :lol: I hope not :mon sweat: )
Pls continue and write more about this two!!! I'll read it for sure :] :mon determined: Arigato!! :] :)
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I could feel the heartaches..... :cry: :cry: :cry: anyway, this fic moved me and i suddenly have the urge to write a sad fic between Acchan and Minami.... :( :( :(
why is it so hard to resist the pull of temptation to write a tragedy fic.... :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: Bou-san, it's you're fault :( :( :( kidding :P :P :P though i really want to write one now :nervous
PS: or maybe I still hadn't move on with my last break up.... :panic: more sad fics XD
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:fainted: This story was way too sad!!! I loved it but... it made me sad... v_v;;
i suddenly have the urge to write a sad fic between Acchan and Minami....
:mon wtfmm: DONT YOU DARE!!! lol jk jk.... but seriously! :mon evil: I'll never proof read it!!!
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bou-j525 san!!!! :fainted: I'll take back what I said!!! :err: huhuhuhu!!! :mon waterworks:
Your fic is soo sad!!! :mon cry: WHY?!! :gyaaah: Why did you create such things!! (http://i75.servimg.com/u/f75/15/95/51/13/th/too_sa10.png) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=47&u=15955113)
Huhuhu... Why does my Yuko needs to die... :mon fire: I'm soo crying.. (and to think that Harunya was even willing to do it with Yuko :mon dunno: ... tsk, tsk, tsk )
Ei but that's not the real reason why I'm crying, 'k... :mon ehh: (here we go again... :mon exhaust: )
Pls, I beg of you, pls. do not write another sad fic (for now) especially bout this two... Aww, they both look cute here (http://i75.servimg.com/u/f75/15/95/51/13/th/tumblr10.jpg) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=45&u=15955113) :(
If you'll continue this "SAD" fic of yours and I'm also talking to you, dark-atrox san, (I think that's the reason why I'd confuse your names 'bout my last comment... tsk, tsk, tsk... You two, you're pretty both the same aren't ya' ME Gonna do this to you
(http://i75.servimg.com/u/f75/15/95/51/13/th/12727911.gif) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=46&u=15955113) really, if you're planning to write a tragic fic..... :mon mad:) hehehe :] :grin:
I soo total agree with Keichan ^_^ san.... Hmp... Dunno, but I was soo lonely after reading your fic... I think that's what you want... :smhid (Authors now a days... :smhid) Just pls... write something that soothes the mood (you know, not that kind of fic pls... ) Doing that puppy eye dog look... (http://i75.servimg.com/u/f75/15/95/51/13/th/dog-pu10.jpg) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=48&u=15955113) :]
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But dude you always post before you read LOL what would happen if i write something you dislike one day xD...
Quote this because it's the perfect situation to mention it XD
EDIT: I'm currently writting a YUKO version. Then... I think I'll write something happier.
EDIT2:
I wanted to share this ONESHOT (haruna and yuko version) not to make you sad, but because I wanted you to read about how I think about things like cancer or death or... anything. Though it's only a really short thought. I don't feel sad or anything in my life right now, it's just that I like writing sad stories. I think it's easier to talk about characters' feelings. I'm sorry if you don't like it, then you should just don't read it (logic, isn't it?).
KojiYuu
A day without you, Yuko version
You never knew how much happy I was when you confessed to me. I couldn’t believe it… I wanted the world to see us together. I wanted to travel the world and tell each person that you were my beloved girl. I wanted to see the jealous look from each person living in Japan… because I was so proud of you. I always thought you saw me only as a friend. I always thought… I didn’t deserve to be your girlfriend. I always thought a girl like you deserve more than what I could give to you I couldn’t believe that, with all the girls from the group, I was the chosen one… I couldn’t believe my dream had become true. I could finally feel your body pressing on mine. I could finally reach for your hand without joking or laughing by anxiety. I couldn’t believe it when we kissed for the first time. I still can’t forget that incredible feeling that went through my heart this time. You lips were soft. They tasted great… I didn’t want you to break this precious contact. I didn’t want us to need to breathe. I wanted us to stay like this forever. I needed you by my side to feel good. I couldn’t smile when you weren’t there. I couldn’t act by myself when you were gone… but even so, I was afraid. I was afraid… because I didn’t want to lose you.
I wasn’t the real me. I… was playing a role. I’ve always thought you deserve more than me… so I played a role. I needed to impress you by everything I did. I wanted you to look at me and think “she’s crazy, she’s nice, she’s funny, she’s beautiful, she’s the one I need”, because that was what I thought about you. I needed you to only look at me… because I could never look at someone else when I was with you. I wanted you to smile at everything I said… because whatever you said, pain could never reach me when I was talking to you. I was afraid you might leave me at every little thing I did. I was afraid you might tell me farewell at each mistake I made. So I tried to be perfect. I tried to reach perfection… because I thought the only thing that could reach the perfect person you were… was another “perfect” person. I thought that, if I weren’t perfect, I had no right to be with you. You told me it wasn’t necessary, that we would never be apart, that you would love me forever, even if I became old and ugly… but it was stronger than me. I needed to reach the higher point.
I learned I had cancer two years ago. I don’t know how I managed to hide it from you, but it was a miracle. I didn’t want you to know it. I didn’t want you to see me cry. I didn’t want to share my pain with you… because I could never have supported it. I didn’t want to see your beautiful face soiled by tears. I heard so many people saying they “understood” how I felt… They were all ignorant. Nobody would never understand how someone sick felt. How could they? Words can be really sweet, but sometimes, they don’t mean anything. Scientifics could do a thousand experiences to try to prove something; feelings would never be understood by anyone. As for me, I never understood how I felt myself. It’s not sadness or pain that appeared the first. It’s guilt. I felt guilty because I knew I would leave you alone someday. I hated myself because I knew I would make you sad someday. I wished my own death… because I didn’t want you to suffer more than needed. Then it was frustration. I was mad at myself. I was mad at my body because I got cancer. I was insulting myself, saying it was my fault you would be sad. I was mad at myself to have this illness. I couldn’t realize that, in fact, nothing was my fault. But at this time, I was blind by culpability at the thought I would leave you by yourself. I kept telling myself “why are going out with her if you know that, in the end, there will be only sadness left?” I never knew the answer.
“If you can live a whole day without me, I will love you even more.”
I managed to hide it from you two long years. They seemed endless. Each time I saw your smile, I wondered if it would stay after my life. Each time we spent together, I wondered if you would do the same with another person when I would be gone. Each time I saw your happiness, I wished I could come back to the past and erase my existence from your heart. So that maybe you wouldn’t be sad later. Each time our lips met, I hoped I could disappear from your heart. I wished we would never separate. I didn’t want to have treatment for this illness. I knew I was stupid, but I didn’t want you to see me in a hospital bed. I didn’t want you to see me weak and bald, because if I were going to die, I didn’t want the last memory to be a sad one. When I asked you to live a day without me… I already knew what was going to happen. I was sick often than ever, but I still managed to find excuses about my sudden weakness. I didn’t want you to see me lying in hospital for my last day of existence. I didn’t want you… to look at me the way I was. I didn’t want to see you sad. If fact, maybe I was just thinking about myself. Maybe I was just… selfish. You believed me when I said I would see you after. You were waiting for me… but what you wanted the most, I could not give it to you.
I wanted to give you my everything… but when you decided you were ready, it was too late. Under my clothes, I was pale, weak, we could easily see my ribbings through my skin. I didn’t want to scare you. I didn’t want you to sleep with… what I have become. I didn’t want you to… feel me this way. I tried to do my best and to eat more so I could become better looking… But it didn’t work. I was too sick. I was… condemned to go this way forever. I was hiding it. I was saying I was sick or I had a headache. I told you… I would be ready soon. But everything was lies. I couldn’t tell you the truth. I couldn’t believe… you still wanted me by your side. But my desire kept on growing. I wanted to feel you more. I wanted our bodies to become one, to feel your soft skin on mine. I wanted to feel your hands caressing my weak body, to hear your voice whispering in my ear you loved me the way I was, to feel your lips kissing my body. I wanted your clothes to disappear so you could me mine, even if it was only for a night… but fear controlled me.
“Don’t try to contact me for 24 hours!”
I don’t know when or where I found the strength to tell you these words. I don’t know… how come I didn’t die right after them. I had only a day left. I knew it. I was sleeping all the time even though I wasn’t shut away at hospital. I… was free. I spent my day thinking of you, trying to write you something... but the words didn’t come out. I wanted to tell you I love you. I wanted to write you a whole book where I could tell you everything, what I thought about you, how much I love you, how much I was going to miss you… I wanted to go to your home and tell you to forget about this stupid game. I wanted to listen to my feelings for once and do what I wanted. My desire was stronger than before this day. I wanted to join you and bring you to my home right away so I could show you how much I love you. I wanted to feel you under me, screaming and reaching your climax as we would finally let our feelings show us the way to follow. But instead of listening to what I wanted the most… I just decided to hide, making you believing something impossible.
When I finally finished writing a small note… I knew my time had come. I went to hospital, half conscious. I don’t know what happened next. I remember I screamed your name as the world went black. I remember feeling something piercing my arm, like if they were giving me some drug to stay calm… I remember… tasting something salty on my tongue. My tears, they couldn’t stop falling down. They couldn’t stop… however I wanted them to, they couldn’t. I remember hearing a faint voice asking me if I needed something. I wanted to scream your name once again… but this time, I had a mask on my mouth and couldn’t speak anymore. I was lying on one of these beds I hated the most during the last two years. I remember that, while I was slowly leaving this world, I saw your face in my mind. You were smiling. You were happy. You were telling me everything would be fine… You were kissing me hard… You were everything I ever wanted… and everything I left behind when I finally stopped moving.
I don’t know how you are now. It’s been a year. I’m gone. I’m… nowhere to be seen by your beautiful eyes. I can hardly remember your voice… Because it’s always like this, right? A day, you think you will remember a person forever… and as time goes on, you realize you can’t remember the way she talks. You can’t remember the way she walked. You can’t remember the way she was acting by your side… It’s like… once death come, a huge part leaves with her. But she comes back over and over again, stealing smaller parts from your memories. And the most painful is when you realize you spent a day without thinking about the person you considered like the most important. You suddenly… woke up and see that the world’s still changing. I know you will go on someday. That was the reason why I decided to leave you that day. I decided… my last day on earth would be without you… because I wanted you to remember me… when I wasn’t sick. You tears… would have killed me more than my illness.
But… it’s only after a year… that I finally realized I didn’t need to be perfect to be with you. I realize… I love you so much that I could just look at you and feel my heart explodes from happiness. I’m waiting for you… I’m crying… I’m still thinking about past… but I’m smiling too.
The End
End note: So...?
End note 2: Going to correct my next chapter of Pink Vitriol so I can update tonight ^^
End note 3: I'll write something happier next time...
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It's make me want to cry~ :cry:
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i so wanna cry right now.. this is just... sijerkasf (T^T)
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I'm crying and having runny nose . :cry:
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Hi guys! Here's something I did quickly, so sorry for the mistakes, I didn't correct it! TakAcchan! :heart: :heart: Not dansho though XD
I created this One Shot because... something similar just happened to me like yesterday... I was like Takamina is in this story and we could say that my friend was like Acchan... so I really wanted to write about it. The only thing different was the fact that I'm not in love with my friend... just wanted to make it clear ¬.¬ I modified some things XD
I have only ONE advice, and it's serious... DO NOT read if you just broke up with your boyfriend/girlfriend... or if you do, I am not responsible if it's sad.
So... let's all imagine that Takamina and Acchan aren't in AKB48, but are best friends.
TakAcchan One Shot
I was just coming back from school. It was a typical day, nothing really special happened. I’ve been working all day and everything I want now… is to sleep. I was supposed to have an oral presentation, but one person was missing in our team, so I guess I was lucky. She was not here today… I’m not worried or anything, I called her yesterday night and she said she was going to come… so maybe she’s just sick. Plus, Saturday night was her birthday celebration. We were around thirty friends, just having fun at a restaurant… of course, he was there too. He was here by her side all the time… her boyfriend.
Anyway, let’s come back to the present. We were talking together a minute ago. Right now… I’m just hoping she will come tomorrow at school. I feel like my days are really boring with her by my side. I really like spending time with her… even if it hurts me at the same time. After all… even though our conversations always start about ourselves… they always end the same way too… by talking about him… her perfect boyfriend, Takahiro. It’s been a year a month ago since they decided to go out together… and then, it seems that they never go somewhere without the other. I’m not a bad person, I know he’s nice, polite even with me, sweet and probably a nice guy with her… but I can’t help being annoyed each time I hear about him.
Isn’t it normal? I mean… after so long time… hearing your best friend always talking about the same person, the perfect one, the “omg he’s so nice with me” guy… it’s just… yeah. Seriously, he’s her first “real” boyfriend, so I encourage her and support her in everything… but I feel that even the class is tired of hearing about them. Seriously, they even gave them a nickname like people do with celebrities! They are known as “Takacchan”. Now I can hear you asking me “what the hell is this name?” I know… It’s me who started it, just by joking… and finally, everyone kind of adopted it. The “Acchan” part is for her, my best friend, Atsuko, also called Acchan. The “Taka” part… well, I guess it is “Takahiro”…
But sometimes… I’m secretly hoping the “Taka” part could also mean “Takamina”… my own name. Well, not exactly, my name is Minami, but “Takamina” is my nickname. I know… I shouldn’t say that… but it could be nice, couldn’t it? “TakAcchan”… a name for our friendship… even though I perfectly know that it’s not the only reason…
I know it is forbidden… but… I love her… I love Atsuko… even though she’s my best friend and that… we’re both girls. I will probably never get the chance to tell her since she’s not like me, but I like to imagine the “taka” part could be me… The only thing I can do now… is to support her. I don’t want her to change. This is the girl I fell in love with… I don’t her to become another person just so I could date her. But seriously… why in the world does she have to date a guy whose name is so alike with mine?!
And with time… we learn to accept the facts as they are. I accepted the fact that she’s really deeply in love with him… so it’s okay. I can handle it. And he’s nice… even with me who secretly wish they could just separate… He’s trying to act friendly with me each time we meet after school when he comes to see her… even if I just want him to disappear from her life. I know this is cruel, but I can’t help it. I wish I could make her even happier… but she’s fine the way she is… And after a whole year… I guess it means they really are happy together.
The phone is ringing as I am still thinking about the whole situation. Tomorrow… she will come and tell me how much he is incredible… again. And I will smile and nodded… again. Even if my heart will be bleeding inside of me…
“Hello?” I ask, wondering who could call me.
It can’t be her… since we talked together just before. And my parents already told me they wouldn’t come home tonight. Maybe it’s Yuko who wants to ask me something about Haruna… I envy those two. They are together… They are both happy together… I wish it could be me and Atsuko someday… but she’s not like me.
“…”
I can’t hear anything from the other side. What does that mean? Is it a bad joke?
“Hello?” I repeat, hoping I’ll get an answer.
I’m trying to understand what is happening when reality hit me hard.
“Minami…”
It’s her… It’s Atsuko… and she’s crying.
“Atsuko? What’s wrong? What’s going on?” I asked quickly, suddenly feeling my heart beating faster.
I don’t hear anything. I’m petrified. The way she said my name… was heartbroken. She was almost screaming at the phone… with a destroyed voice. I can hear her crying like… like never before. I can’t even describe it. She’s sobbing, screaming, moaning; crying… she sounds… there’s no word. I think she can’t even talk properly. She’s just trying to hold her tears while I’m listening… but I know it’s impossible. She’s… just trying to catch her breath helplessly.
“Minami…” She tries to pronounce hardly. “Minami… he broke up with me…”
And she starts crying again… but this time if even harder than before. I can tell she’s probably yelling in her empty house… I can tell she’s probably crying her life right now… and there’s no word to describe how useless I’m feeling right now.
“What?” I can’t believe it. “What happened? What’s going on?!”
I am imploring her to answer… I can’t understand anything. They were in love and laughing together… two days ago! It can’t be already over? After so much time! Even our classmates say they are going to marry and have a huge family like in fairytales! She’s trying to speak… but burst in tears again. I don’t want to force her… I don’t know how to handle it… I don’t know… what I can do for her… She’s trying to breathe… she doesn’t get enough air… I can tell her just by the way she sounds at phone…
“He… went to my house… He told me…”
And she begins to talk to me. She begins to tell me everything. The way he went to her house… the way they already had problems together because of some stupid things… Takahiro’s friends don’t like Atsuko. They think he has nothing to do with her. So all the time… he defends her. He rejects his friends when they insult her… I think it’s nice from him. He knows what is really important. And Atsuko knows it too. They way she always talks about him… I can tell she’s truly in love with him, like never before. I can tell… “he’s the one”. But during her birthday celebration… one of Atsuko’s childhood friends insult him… They had a huge fight… and Atsuko never defend him. She didn’t do anything. It was not the first time something like this happen… And if was too far this time. Takahiro just wants to have some times to himself to think about it. He wants more respect… he wants her to defend him like he does for her… even if he knows she can’t do it. Atsuko doesn’t reject her friends… she’s not able to do something like this… she’s just… not this way… but I guess he was tired of being insulted all the time and seeing her girlfriend just stays and says nothing…. It was too far…
“No way…” I say, speechless.
Everything can’t end this way… just because of it! It’s impossible… they still love each other! All the time… I’ve wished their separation… and now that it’s done… I wish they could come back together… because hearing my best friend crying this way… I feel useless. I’ve never had a real and serious relationship… so I guess I can’t say the right things. I can’t help her like I would like to. I’m afraid things might get worst if I speak…
“Acchan…”
I’m trying to support her… but I can only listen to her… crying… destroying… a part of me wants to tell her to forget about this dumbass… but I can’t. I know she’s still in love with him… so I can’t insult him right now… And I know… he must love her too. At least, that’s what he told her when he went to her house. He “needs time”. How the hell can he need time?! I don’t need a freaking second to think about it. I can tell Atsuko is perfect. There’s nothing to argue about! I want to kill him… but she’s in love with him… even with this situation.
I’m staying in silence, listening to her. I don’t say anything. I’m just… here so she could know she’s not alone. It’s the only thing I can do. And as I listen… sometimes she talks about him… about their relationship… about how she feared it could happen… about how regretful she is. Sometimes she stops talking and just cries loudly… I can feel my heart breaking every time I hear her. And then she starts to talk about him again, how much it’s unexpected, how much she hates him… how much she thinks he’s the worst guy on earth… how much she still love him…
“He loves you, right?” I say softly. “I… think he shouldn’t try to change the way you are.”
“I know… but… I can’t help it…”
I can tell she’s not ready to talk about it. She’s just… empty. She’s in shock. She can’t realize it… and I’m pretty sure none of us, nor our classmates can realize it. I’m glad to be her best friend… but I hate myself to just stay in silence and say nothing. But I guess… she can feel I’m really listening to her… even if she’s not talking or anything. I’m just listening to her breath… to the sounds she’s making… to her sobs… to everything she’s doing right now. I can’t believe he’s leaving her… the same week as her birthday…
“I’m sorry Minami… if you want, I can call someone else… I don’t want to bother you…”
“What are you saying…” I say really carefully. “It’s okay… don’t try to hold yourself… When something like that happens… don’t try to hold yourself…”
“Thank you…” I hear her whispering before sobs take control of her voice.
I’m looking at the clock. The night will be long… I have work to do… but I will always listen to her silence. Work isn’t important compare to her… Nothing is. I will be there for her… and try to comfort her… as her perfect best friend.
***
The classes end. I’m on my way home… but I will see her first. She didn’t come today. I was not surprised. Others were asking me about that. I couldn’t say anything. I can still hear… her crying in my head… like her world was gone… I’m glad she’s aware that she still has friends… and I know she’s not stupid enough to kill herself just because of it… I just want… to see her right now. I hate this guy more than ever… I hate him for making her cry this way… I hate him… because he stole her from me… and now he’s giving her back to me… but in pieces… broken…
“Acchan?” I ask as I’m coming inside her house.
I have the key. I can come whenever I want… I guess it’s due to our close relationship. Thank… maybe I will be able to support her better then at phone.
She’s in her room, lying on her bed, her eyes looking at… nothing. She’s… horrible to see. She sees me coming in and I can see I small spark in her eyes, saying she’s happy… but it doesn’t stay long time. It’s gone already. I’m just staying by her side all the time. She’s crying again… she’s whispering things I can’t hear… I’m just supporting her…
“Thank you for coming…” She manages to tell me after a short time.
I can’t answer anything. I can’t support this view… My best friend… the one I love secretly… I can’t see her this way. We just stay together… doing nothing more than enjoying the other’s presence. I’m sorry, Atsuko… I’m sorry I can’t do more to you. I’m sorry… for being so helpless to protect you from this kind of sorrow… but I’ve never been in love with anyone before you… I don’t know what it feels to have a heart broken by the one we love… I feel a bit similar because I know I will never feel your lips against mine and it’s painful… but I guess what you’re living right now is a thousand times worst. You’ll be missing something you know… while I’m missing something I can’t have. It’s similar… but so different at the same time… so I can’t help you properly.
After a moment, she turns to me. Her cheeks and eyes are red… she’s still crying, but at least, she’s smiling a little… even though I know it’s false.
“Thank you…” She whispers. “I don’t know what I would do without you… you’re so nice with me… even when I’m looking this way…”
I want to tell her that… everything will be fine. That I will always be there for her, no matter what happens… but I can’t. The words won’t come out… It’s like… I’m just staring at her face, trying to reject this desire I have inside of me…
“Boys are cruel…” I can just answer. “But somehow… we need them…”
It’s a lie. I don’t need boys. The only person I need… is her. I’m only saying this… so maybe I could help her… but I guess I failed again… I just want to tell her I love her more than anybody will ever do.
“I know…” Acchan sobbed. “I don’t want to love if it’s so painful… Maybe next time… I should date a girl… then I wouldn’t be so hurt…”
I’m staring at her in the eyes, trying to understand what she means… Does she think that… if she dated a girl, then she would never really love her, so she would not be sad when the girl would leave her? Is she saying that… only girls can understand this kind of situation?
“I don’t know why I love him…” She cries. “I should go out with you instead… you’re so nice with me… since so much time… thank you…”
I don’t answer anything. I’m just holding her hand silently, hoping maybe… someday it could happen. Maybe what she’s saying right now… will come true later… I know it’s useless… right now, she’s still madly in love with him… and she isn’t ready to think about something else… but hope is the only thing I have now to stop myself to burst in tears too. And I know I must not cry… because I need to be strong… so I will be able to help her too.
“But two girls can’t be together…” I answer.
I didn’t want to answer something like this… I wanted to kiss her instead… but we must face reality. And I must tell her the truth too. Even if she will just take it as a joke… I need to tell her this… or maybe I’m just trying to convince myself nothing can never happen between us.
“Who knows…” She says while crying.
I’m looking at our hands… I’m looking at her… I’m trying to convince myself I will be able to help her to surpass this… But these two words… they give me hope… more than I’ve never had during all those years of friendship… I squeeze her hand, half smiling at her, trying to support her as much as I can. Maybe… the “Taka” part of “Takacchan” will become me someday.
Who knows…
The end
Still not sure if I should make it a Two Shot instead... What do you think?
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woahhh Takaachan one-shot!! :)
that was sooo sad for both of them :cry: poor Aachan got dumped SHE'S BETTER OFF WITHOUT THAT GUY :angry:
omgg That last sentence totally gave me some hope that they could be together :D
you should make a part 2! unless you're gonna make it heartbreaking :smhid
Update soon!
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YES! 2-shot please!! If it's not too much trouble (though, Pink Vitriol comes first... :ph43r:). XD
...And only if it's the right kind of "TakAcchan" in the end...yeah, I'm greedy. :P
You made me sad for them...now I need something happy. lol.
But you know I'll think you're awesome either way your fics turn out. <3
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What kind of guys wouldn't like Acchan 0.o They're messed up in the head. Her ex-boyfriend's friends must of been jealous.
I think you should follow this up.
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Ei!!! bou-j525 san!! :on gay: (hope your not mad at me... :on freeze: hehe :mon lol: :nervous bec. of my last post here... hehe *getting nervous :nervous *shaking right now...)
Anyway, I really like this one shot of yours. It's kinda sad (I think that's your forte, isn't it? :kekeke: :smhid)
Bec. of this, I realized that I'm falling for the both of them (am I becoming a Takacchan shipper instead of Koji♥Yuu :mon scare:
I still love my Yuko sama that's for sure!! :bingo: ) Anyway, I think that wouldn't be a prob wouldn't it? Yey!! Takacchan 4 ever!!! :mon XD:
Anyway, hoping you'll continue this one bec. you'd made me cry for the 3rd time (the 1st and 2nd time was your fic bout my Kojiyuu.... :mon waterworks:)
I'm still crying.... :pleeease:
PS. that "guy" doesn't deserves Acchan's love 'cuz it's Takamina sama who's the one for Acchan and she'll show her what love really is (becoming a little bit cheezy right now :mon scare: w/c I don't really do... really, you're changing me a bit... *shy* :shy2:)
Just pls... pls... pls... pretty please continue this!!! :mon innocent: :mon pray2: :mon cute:
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Yeah I know, I should work on Pink Vitriol instead of making you wait more... but you know it is pretty long to work on it, so I'd rather post this short Two Shot before, so it can help you waiting a bit more... No? hehe... Anyway, DEAL WITH IT. No seriously, sorry for my other fic, I'm kinda stuck with a sudden lack of inspiration...
Thank for your comments! :theking
you should make a part 2! unless you're gonna make it heartbreaking :smhid
It's kinda sad (I think that's your forte, isn't it? :kekeke: :smhid)
The reason why I'm always writing sad things is because I think I totally suck at happy ending XD As simple as that XD YES I SWEAR! I'M HORRIBLE AT HAPPY ENDING TT_____TT
So yeah.... Is this fic going to be a sad ending too? Read it and find out about it! Sorry for the mistake... Haven't correct it either -.-'
Part 2
I think I’ve never cared so much for someone in my life. The day after their sudden separation, when I went to see her after school, I’ve never feel so useless ever. I had a devastated person in front of me. I never want to see her this way. It was painful for me to watch her. It was painful because I knew that, no matter how much I tried my best to help her, I couldn’t make her smile.
I remember the first day she went at school after her rupture. I called her the night before, asking her if she was going to come… She said yes. The day after, I went sooner at school, just to be sure I would be there when she would come. I sent the whole day by her side. I didn’t want to leave her. I didn’t want her to be alone. I wanted her to know that she would never be alone… So I never left her. I was too afraid to find her crying in a dark corner. I talked to her about everything but the guy. I waited for her to talk about it first, and when she did, I was already ready to listen to her… as her loyal best friend. When she talked to me about him, about how she still loved him and hoped he would come back… I still don’t know how it was possible for me to stay alive.
The month after their separation was hard, not only for her, but also for me who had to support her all the time even though I wanted her to forget about him. She was always comparing everything to him, always talking about him, always saying he would like this or dislike that… I couldn’t tell her to stop, it would have been heartless from me… but seriously, I wanted to kill this guy. I wanted him to give me back the real friend I had before… everything. The friend I could see a real smile on her face, not a fake one all the time. I wanted him to bring me back the real Atsuko, not this sad person standing next to me in the street. But I had to face reality… this person… was still the one I loved.
After three months, she started to forget a little about him… or at least, she started stopping talking about him. I was able to have a conversation with her like before. She was smiling for real, I could see it in her eyes. I was thinking everything was slowly coming back like before… The Atsuko I knew before… was coming back home. I could see her far, walking toward me with her beautiful smile, stars shinning in her eyes… the girl I knew before he broke up with her. I was ready to take her, to bring her to a better world. And guess what, she reached me. The Atsuko I knew… was back… after so long time. Hope had never left me, not even for a second. I knew my best friend my strong enough to surpass it.
We’re now at the end of the year. Six months has passed since Takahiro broke up with her. I can tell she’s still thinking a bit about him, even though she’s not talking about him anymore. I surprised her looking at his picture a month ago… I know she still hasn’t forgotten about her first “real” love relationship… I guess I can’t understand since… I never experienced it. I’m still hoping I can find love someday… even if it’s not with her. I guess… even though I never stopped being with her… I never really understood how she felt. I can’t.
It’s really funny how things are now though. Our classmates know about what happened. They don’t talk about him either, knowing it may make cry. Or at least that’s what I told them. I just want her to be able to think about something else at school since she can’t do it at home. I was taking care of her so much that the “TakAcchan” name started again. But this time, the “taka” part was me. Not as her girlfriend… but as her friend. I’m glad about it. At least… that’s a beginning, right?
“Minami!” Atsuko says as she comes outside.
I smile at her. We’re eating together right now. It’s been like this everyday since he left her. Just for that, I’m thankful to him. I know I’m being cruel again… but I’m really happy to share more time with her now, even if I know she suffered a lot just some months ago. We start eating. I’m nervous. I keep glancing at her, smiling awkwardly. In fact, there’s something I want to ask her, but I don’t know how she will take it. I want to make sure she doesn’t misunderstand me.
“Hey, you know… soon it will be the prom… for our graduation…”
Great, I managed to say it without looking suspicious. In fact, I’m just smiling and talking as usual. I don’t know where I found the strength to say it this way… but thank.
“You know, we could go there together… as friends of course.”
I don’t think I need to add anything else. I don’t have bad intentions. I just know that… she will be sad if she goes there with another guy than Takahiro. I know she will be sad, thinking she might stay alone all time if I go with someone else. So at least, I want to go with her as her best friend and make some good memories. And I have to admit, I don’t want her to go with one of our friends… I don’t want to take any chance.
“Of course!” She says, smiling at me. “Thank you for inviting me… I was thinking I should just stay home.”
I look at her surprised. I knew she was still sad… but I didn’t expect her to think about just avoid it. I can’t help sighing, thinking we will have fun instead of staying home.
“I don’t know what I would do without you.” She adds, stealing a piece of fish from my bento at the same time.
“Hey!” I growl. “Don’t steal my food!”
She laughs. I like the way she laughs… I want her to be happy forever… even if she doesn’t need me to. But seriously, I’m not stupid enough to let the person I love being alone during that special day. I’m not like this Takahiro asshole… I will never leave the person I love. I know that… when I will leave her, it will be only because she would have asked me to. Until this day… I’m just dreaming about her day and night.
***
One week later, there’s only one week left before the graduation. I feel like we’re even closer than before since I asked her to go with me. Sometimes… I feel like I could kiss her and it wouldn’t matter. Of course, I never do it. I’m just thinking about the graduation prom… I can’t wait. Atsuko and I are going to celebrate it together, it will be awesome! I am currently waiting for her to come so we can just walk home together. I like being with her. I enjoy every time are together. I wish I could confess to her… but I don’t want to loose her. So I guess I’ll just wait more. I just hope… I’m doing the right thing.
I see her leaving the school and begin to walk toward her when another person arrives and talks to her first. I stop as I recognize his ex. His freaking ex I wanted to kill so much each time I saw Atsuko’s tears. I don’t know what hold me, but I walk calmly toward them and just frown at him.
“No.” I hear Atsuko saying as I approach them.
I know she tries to sound strong, but I can tell she’s moved by his sudden appearance. What the hell is he doing here anyway?! He sees me and smiles. I don’t know why, but I feel that my murderous intentions are coming back…
“Hello, Takahashi-san.” He says politely.
If he knew how much I want to rip his head off and give it to wolves, I don’t think he would be so nice with me.
“I was asking Atsuko if she wanted to go to the prom with me.” He keeps saying.
Excuse me?
“And I was answering that I don’t want to.” Atsuko frowns.
I wonder… if she can see that I’m about to stop breathing right now.
“Please, give me another chance.” He says with a sad voice. “Can we talk about it… just in private?”
He’s looking at me, like he’s asking me to leave. But I’m not moving. I’m just staring at Atsuko. If she wants me to leave… I will go. Can she tell… that my pain is about to come back?
“I don’t want to.” Atsuko answers.
My best friend… I know her so much that I can see the tears appearing in her eyes. I can tell… she has no idea what to do right now. I guess we can’t help it. Maybe I should leave them alone so they can talk… but I’m too scared to find a destroyed Atsuko when I will come back.
“Please…” He begs her. “I know I’ve being really stupid but…”
Of course he was stupid. And he still is. He’s taking her hand nicely, trying to act nice, but I want to kill him. I can tell… Atsuko is already destroyed just because he touches her. And I don’t want her to cry… not now… not after so much time… not after everything I’ve done to make her happy.
“Leave her alone.”
I don’t know why I said that, but I’m already pushing him back from her. I’m between them, ready to protect my best friend. I don’t want him to even look at her now. I can tell she’s ready to burst in tears, and I don’t want it to be here. Not when everyone is looking at her.
“But…” He says.
“Shut up.”
I’m stronger than him. I can kill him if I want, and it is with this though that I just pronounced these words. In others words: don’t even say something else if you want to stay alive. I can feel Atsuko holding my shirt. Damn… she’s probably holding her tears now… I grab her arm and leave, not turning back to look at him.
We are in front of my house. I don’t know what to do. We are sitting on a bench, waiting for something to happen. I don’t know what to say. After so much time… I thought everything was fine… but this guy just brought everything back to the start point. I guess I still can’t understand. What does Atsuko feel? Does she want me to leave her alone? Does she want to talk to him? But I don’t want to! I want her to be mine…
Why am I so selfish?
Maybe it is not what she wants. She probably wants to talk to him… to go with him… she probably still loves him! I ruined everything again. I’m stupid. I’m… thinking about myself. Maybe she really wanted to go with him…
“I’m sorry.” I whisper.
To my surprise, she’s not crying like I thought she would. She’s just smiling at me.
“Don’t… I’ve found someone better than him anyway…”
I can’t answer anything. Who is this “someone” she’s talking about? Is it another guy? I don’t think it’s me… it’s impossible. What if she told me she doesn’t want to go to the prom with me anymore? What would I do? I don’t want to go with another friend than her… she’s probably the most important person to me…
She’s just staring at me.
***
“Congratulations!”
This is it. The end of a chapter of our lives. The beginning of a new step in our lives. The prom just ended. Some of us are still there, ready to leave soon. I don’t care about them. I’m just waiting for Atsuko to come back. We danced like crazy tonight. We were together all the time. Or at least, I tried to be with her as much as possible. I knew Takahiro was there too. I didn’t want them to meet. I wanted Atsuko to have fun. And it worked.
The only problem is… she’s a bit drunk now. I don’t know exactly how it happened… I guess she can’t handle alcohol like me.
“I’m sorry, Minami…” She says as she walks out of the bathroom. “I’m ruining your night now…”
I want to tell her that as long as she’s with me, everything will be fine, but I can’t say anything. I know some students from our class are still looking at us. I don’t know why… now they are talking about us as a couple. The “TakAcchan” pairing is back… this is what they said. But I don’t want Atsuko to be sad because of rumours. So I have to deny them everyday. Deny the fact that we’re together, deny the fact that the “taka” part has become me… deny the fact that I love her.
“It’s okay.” I answer, wrapping her shoulder with my arm, staring at the others to look at their reaction.
I guess it is alright. They are not laughing… I think they are really seeing us as a couple. And I also think they accepted it. How can they accept something that is not true?
We’re heading outside. We sit together somewhere where nobody is. I feel the wind caressing my face. It’s good. I feel… relaxed. Music is still playing in my mind… and my eyes are still staring at her beauty.
“Tonight was fun…” She sighs.
Yes… I will remember this night all my life. I’ve never feel so close to her. Even if we’re only best friends… I feel like we are dating tonight.
“Thank you. I know you invited me… because you wanted me to have a nice time.”
No… you’re wrong. I invited you because I’m in love with you… but I guess I can’t say that, right? I can’t say… that I want you to be mine… I’ve never been really good with words anyway. I’m sure it would look strange and that you would just laugh at me, taking it as a joke.
“You know… during all that time… you never left me. Thank you.”
She’s so cute when she’s thanking me. She’s so cute when she’s nice with me, telling me I am important to her… I wish we could stay like this forever. Or maybe not… because if time suddenly stopped… I would feel pain in my heart for the rest of my life. Because I know what I want… and I know I can’t have it.
“You know… the thing I said before… when you were encouraging me after… you know what…”
… What?
“You have answered me that… you didn’t think two girls could go out together.”
… Eh?
“And I’ve answered “who knows”?”
… I’m not sure… what exactly does she mean by this? Why does she bring such a strange subject right now? I don’t want to talk about it. We’re fine right now… even if I love her… we’re fine. I don’t want her to suffer anymore…
“I think I know the answer.”
What… is she talking about? Is it because she’s a bit drunk? I don’t know what to do… should I say something? Should I just laugh? Should I… ignore it?
We are staring at each other. I don’t know what kind of message she’s trying to tell me… but somehow… there’s something new in the way she looks at me. I smile. I think… maybe I know what she means by this.
But I’m afraid. What if I’m wrong? What if… it is not what she means? Will she think I’m some stupid pervert just staring at her without saying anything? There’s no way, right? We’re best friends… She knows I would never do that to her…
“But if we date…”
What? Did Atsuko just…
“… then… it would be two girls going out together, right?” She smile cutely.
Eh?
Did… the “taka” part just become me? I… don’t want to talk about this subject. It is just… too awkward… I mean… I do love her… but to me, Atsuko could never see me as more than a friend. But… what is happening right now?!
“Hey, Minami…” She says innocently, a pink color appearing on her cheeks. “Do you think two girls can do… you know… do you think they can?”
EH? Did she just say… what I think she just said?! I’ve never thought about… this. I mean… I love her since a long time… but I’ve never thought about… what would happen if everything came true. I’ve never thought about… the others levels of a relationship.
She takes my hand softly, like it was the most fragile thing in the world. Didn’t she love this asshole just a month ago? Or maybe… I’m just imagining things.
“Who knows…” I answer awkwardly.
I’m looking at her in the eyes and she says innocently:
“I do…”
Oh God.... Is she really... Is Atsuko really talking about doing... And suddenly, everything becomes black.
It’s not that I fainted or anything…
It is just that… I closed my eyes as soon as I felt her lips on mine.
The End
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HELL YEAH!!! That's the TakAcchan I'm talking about! :heart:
Don't worry about Pink Vitriol; this makes up for it for now. XD
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YAYAYAYAYAY!! gooo happy endingss! :twothumbs
lol i don't think you're bad at writing happy endings at all this one was awesome :)
I was sooo worried that Aachan would go back to that STUPID GUY when he appeared
TAKAACHAN FOR THE WINN! and so is perverted Aachan :lol:
I guess this satisfied me for a while, but i'm still waiting for Pink Vitriol!
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Nice work. :thumbsup This happy ending seemed pretty good to me. :lol:
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Takamina thinking she can't be with acchan is so cute x3
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bou-j525 san!!!!!
Thanks really for creating the 2nd part of this :] (Actually, I'd felt the same way as you did since my friend also broke up with her ex boyfriend... tsk, the pain I'd felt when she cried... )
Anyway, really like the ending (but I think i want more... hehehe... Takaachan make out perhaps :] :on bleed: just joking :on lol: :lol: :lol: )
Thanks really for the story :] Want more!!!! :mon star: hehehe XD
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hi there bou-j525 (http://www.laymark.com/i/m/m149.gif) (http://www.laymark.com)
well sorry for the late comment.... (http://www.laymark.com/i/m/m048.gif) (http://www.laymark.com)
I like this 2 shoot.... :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs :thumbsup :thumbsup as usual I like your writing... (http://www.laymark.com/i/m/m087.gif) (http://www.laymark.com) actually somehow I have gone through situation like this too. It really annoyed when your bestfriend always talk about her boyfriends and when they broke up I just wanna give her ex a punch everytime I saw him. :smhid :smhid
make another one shot.... :yep: :yep: :yep: I'll be waiting... :grin: :grin: :grin:
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Hey guys! Thank you all for your comments. As usual :nervous I can't update Pink Vitriol until next week end because I've been really busy this week --> NOT A SINGLE MINUTE TO WRITE. And tonight, I've written this 2 pages story in fifteen minutes before going to sleep. Hope you will all forgive me :bow:
Now I know what happened to Japan is horrible. I'm glad everyone is safe, but still feel sad for everyone who lost someone of his family, especially people living in Sendai. I'm praying for the nuclear problem to be solve soon.
I know I should write something happy. You know... with everything that happened, I guess everyone needs to laugh. But I can't help myself. The only reason why I wrote those 2 pages tonight was because I was suddenly inspired.
It's short and sad though. I believe it doesn't need to be long in order to be good.
The only thing I can tell you is, do not read if you do not want.
The next update will be a happy one... I know it since I already have the idea in mind.
I don't know if you understood it, but I really like writing about situations that happened to me. This one is kinda the same... of course, not exactly, but you'll get the point at the end. I'm not trying to have your pity or anything about my life. It's just my way to... how do we say that ¬.¬ express my feelings? Maaaan.... it sounds weird :smhid
Again, sorry for not updating something longer, let's all hope Japan's situation will get better soon and sorry for the mistakes.
TakaminaxAcchan
Puzzle
When you get older… everything changes. Even the smallest thing you know will eventually begin to change before you notice it. That’s how life is. Nothing can remain the same forever… and it’s the same for humans.
We’ve known each other for so many years. We’ve grown together, sharing joys and pains, supporting each other. You were the shoulder I was crying onto when I was sad… I was the one making you laugh when you were depressed… I can’t remember a day when I wasn’t thinking about you. I can’t remember just being a minute without wanting to be with you. When we were apart… I couldn’t concentrate on anything. I couldn’t work properly. I was negative, thinking it was impossible for me to not be with you. I guess… it’s the power of love.
I remember sharing everything with you. We were both famous. We were both living our dream like nothing else mattered. What am I saying… we still are famous, aren’t we? Not only as actress and singer, not only as the ex-AKB48 best friends, not only because of our relationship… just because nobody has ever forgotten about us. We are still known as… us. We never had a really private life, right? But… it was fun. I guess it just helped us to be stronger.
Now… why am I talking about us by using the past tense?
You’re not dead. We’re still together. I’m still making you laugh when you feel bad, joking with you, still supporting and encouraging you…
It’s not me who has changed… it’s you. I remember times when you were talking to me with your huge smile on your face, the one I was the one who could see it… I remember you were always at home waiting for me to come back when I had a concert late at night… But I guess now… everything has changed.
Bit by bit… everything has started to be different. I thought it was only temporally. Only… something that would piss me off for a while. But it wasn’t. Day by day… something disappeared. It was like… the complete puzzle of our life was loosing his pieces slowly, but surely. It was like… this puzzle we used to achieve proudly together… was vanishing… and… I was the only one trying to keep it safe. You… you were just spreading pieces here and there, destroying everything we did as a couple.
I know, I know… it has never been your fault, and it’s still not yours today either. From the beginning of everything, when we learned the new together, I knew we were going to need more strength than ever. In fact… we did it. We went through this hard thing together. Each time a piece was lost, I told you about it. At the beginning… it was useless things and we laughed about it. But suddenly, everything went worst. Suddenly… you’ve lost your mind…
Don’t worry, Atsuko, I will always be there for you, no matter what happen.
That’s what I told you, remember? No… I guess you don’t remember this now. But don’t worry, I’ll keep my promise until I die. I will never forget you… I will never let you down… I will… love you with all my might until the very end, even though I know those pieces will never come back.
You know what? You are still the girl I’ve fallen in love with. You are still… the girl I love. The joyful and happy Maeda Atsuko, the face of AKB48, the number 1 actress of Japan… the one I love. To me… you are still the same… even though the puzzle is incomplete.
I am on my way to see you. I can’t wait to show you what I did today. I took all our videos and did a nice BEST OF. We’re old now… I guess it would make you happy to see what we did together since we’re fourteen years old. Maybe you won’t remember… but at least, you will still smile. Maybe you will ask me thirty times the same question about the same video during ten minutes… but at least I’ll see you smile. I’ve never needed to learn to be patient. With you, it’s easy. I only need to think about your smile… and it’s impossible for me to get upset. And you know… the thing I hate the most is seeing you cry. So I will never hurt you. I will keep answering your questions… and I will keep supporting the pain in silence… because I know now… you are not aware of it.
I hate this building. I wish I could get you out of here. It smells bad and there are too many people… I wish we could get back to our peaceful life. I wish… nothing has changed.
From where I am, I can see you. You’re smiling. You’re talking with someone I don’t know. One of your new friend maybe… But now, I’m just going to take you in your bedroom so we can watch the video together…. Like we used to do before.
I’m walking toward you, smiling, holding the video in my hand. I can’t wait to see your reaction. I’m sorry I couldn’t see you yesterday… I was busy… and I didn’t have time to see you. This is the last time I’ll ever do it, Atsuko. Because yesterday was as painful as each day I’ve spent away from you. I know… that I can’t live without you by my side. Two days ago, you were so happy to see me. You told me “Hey, Minami, thank for always coming here”. I was happy… At least, you know I will always be there for you.
And most of all… you knew I was Takahashi Minami.
I’m standing in front of you, opening my mouth to talk to apologize for not coming yesterday, but you speak first.
“Hello, who are you?”
My heart breaks at the sound of your voice. You’re still… the girl I love… aren’t you? It’s so painful… because I knew it would happen sooner or later. I drop the video. It fells on the floor and the sound wakes me up. It sounds like hell calling me. The day I fear since the announcement of your illness finally arrives.
Today, by forgetting me…. You’ve lost the last piece of the puzzle.
The End
This story is for everyone knowing what "Alzheimer" means.
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Ei bou-j525 san.... :mon dance: WAZZUP!!! :mon lol:
I really do like the story even if it's a little sad... (http://i65.servimg.com/u/f65/15/95/51/13/b0410.gif) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=58&u=15955113) (http://i65.servimg.com/u/f65/15/95/51/13/07-msn10.gif) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=59&u=15955113) (http://i75.servimg.com/u/f75/15/95/51/13/th/bg00410.gif) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=51&u=15955113)
I remembered 2 flicks in this story, 1 was "The Notebook", the other one was "50 First Dates"....
But this fic really resembles more like The Notebook.... I don't even want to watch that movie again.... I made me look like (http://i35.servimg.com/u/f35/15/95/51/13/th/omigaw10.jpg) (http://www.servimg.com/image_preview.php?i=9&u=15955113) ..... oh, wait... that's what I really look like..... hehehehe :rofl: ) A little bit humor to lessen the tension.... :)
Umm... After I read this, I realized that I'm really so blessed since I haven't experience this kind of situation before.... This is really difficult to bear especially if that someone is really special to you...... (being somewhat serious right now... hehe..)
But really, bou-j525 san, hope that you're strong for that person... yeah... be strong for the both of you :] Ganbatte bou-j525 san!!! :mon yeah: :mon yeah: (I hope that helps a little.. hehe :mon sweat:)
Thanks really for the story, it moved me soo much :]
Quote :]
"Love comes to those who still hope even though they’ve been disappointed, to those who still believe even though they’ve been betrayed, to those who still love even though they’ve been hurt before." - don't know who said this but I really like it :]
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Thanks for writing this!
man this was very heartbreaking seeing Takamina going through this :cry:
I kinda had a guess that she had Alzheimer since she was being more forgetful :(
i love how much emotion you put into it i totally felt Takamina's pain, which is a good and bad thing :P
Glad to know that the next one is gonna be a happy story :)
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.........WAAAAH!!!!!!! :cry: :cry: :cry:
Takamina :cry: :cry: Its so saaaad!!! :cry: :cry:
But thanks to your fix i got inspired to write a fic~ so thanks :D :D :) :)
Anyway...WAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!! :cry: :cry: :cry:
Please (sniff sniff) update (sniff sniff) another one soon (sniff sniff pout)
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@alexiel17: I saw those movies too! Though I didn't think about them when I was writing... but now that you say it... Yeah, it kinda looks like "The Notebook". And yeah, you're blessed. XD As for me, the mother of my grandmother had it. My grandmother's sister had it too. My grandmother's two brothers had it. My grandmother currently has it. And I'm freaking afraid that my mom could have it one day ¬.¬ And holy sh*t there are so many people I know who has it that I'm wondering what the hell have I done to God O_O "At least" since I'm adopted, I don't have as much chances as her to have it someday. Thank for the encouragement and quote! Nice one! :) Though I still believe that right now, Japanese people need to be stronger than anybody else.
@mangobanana15: I'm glad you felt Takamina's pain even if it is both a good and bad thing like you said XD But that's what I'm trying to do by writing, so I guess it's a good thing for me that you felt this way XD The "happy story" will arrive later though. Now I'm trying to concentrate on my other fic... which is kinda impossible XD So yeah... who knows... maybe I'll have another revelation about a heartbreaking story before the happy one :P
hott3stson3: I wanted to answer your comment, that's why I'm answering to everyone right now XD So I was randomly doing things on computer and went on Nihongogo this morning, thinking there would be no update anyway :P And oh surprise I found your fic! And since I haven't read the comments I received on JPHIP first, I was like "omg it looks so similar to mine O___O WAIT... WHAT?" Coz this part from your story "My heart breaks at the sound of your voice. You’re still… the girl I love… aren’t you? It’s so painful… your voice sounds like hell calling out for me to come." and this part from mine "My heart breaks at the sound of your voice. You’re still… the girl I love… aren’t you? It’s so painful… because I knew it would happen sooner or later. I drop the video. It fells on the floor and the sound wakes me up. It sounds like hell calling me. " are so similar! Hehe I was a bit overreacting thinking it might be the same, but after reading it carefully, I can see a different storyline :thumbsup So I'm glad this inspired you for your own story! :grin: It's the first time I inspire someone... I feel proud XD Hope to read more from you!
@everyone reading: Thank you! :bow:
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wow usually I don't like sad story but I don't why I like your fics xD
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Seriously? Thank you :) I do my best to write sad stories XD
(To those who would ask, currently working on the next chapter of my other story... 3 pages written so far! xD)
Hello guys! I know I said this was going to be a happy fic... but you know me, I couldn't resist :roll: No seriously, I changed my mind at the last minute because it sounded better to end it this way. It's not really extremely sad to the point of making you all die... but it's not something that will put a huge smile on your face.
Have to admit this is a really weird idea I got to write this OneShot because... I don't know, I don't like how I explained it :smhid But anyway, I'm never satisfied of myself so XD
Btw, the title has nothing to do with the manga ...
Still TakAcchan, I promise the next one will be KojiYuu... This time, I will respect my promise XD The reason why I wrote it a TakAcchan story is because I thought it was better with Takamina and Acchan, that's all. Trying to find an idea that would fit KojiYuu :mon dunno:
Sorry for the mistake :nervous
TakAcchan OneShot
Liar Game
If there was a prize given to the biggest liar in the world… I think I’d win it right away.
Seriously, usually I am bad liar. People can easily see how unusual I act when I’m not telling them the truth. You know, the typical shy girl, becoming red as soon as she lies, trying to hide it and stammering all the time…? So in fact, I’m just joking around. I love pretending something that is not true, just to laugh at everyone’s reaction at the end. I am not looking for trouble, of course, and I don’t want to hurt anyone. I always tell the truth at the end and apologize. Usually, we all laugh together. I don’t know why but when I lie, it’s like… I’m not myself anymore. And I actually enjoy it, being someone else. That’s why… I gave myself a challenge. Creating the biggest lie I’ve ever told someone… becoming entirely another person. But where could it be possible? There was only one answer: virtual world.
But even in a virtual world, I guess a lie can’t last forever. Someday… guilt takes you over… and you realize there’s definitely no escape from the truth.
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I’ve met her two years ago. It has been the strangest meeting ever. I remember it like it was yesterday. I had decided to create another me. I would be someone else… and see how far I could lie virtually to someone. I created the new me on a pretty popular chat. I know, it’s something that can’t work usually… but for me, it did. She was not the first person who had talked to me. But… she was the first one who hadn’t stopped after a week. She had asked me what my name was… and that was how all started. I still hadn’t realized how stupid I was back then.
“She doesn’t know you.” That was what was on my mind each time we spoke together. “She doesn’t know you, even though it’s been a long time you talked to her.”
At the beginning, I was trying to not laugh in front of my computer at this girl’s stupidity. I was taking it as a game. But after a month, I’ve started thinking that I should stop it soon.
“She thinks you’re a guy, don’t forget it.” I was telling myself each time we were talking.
This is the truth. When I introduced myself, it wasn’t as Minami Takahashi, it was under a guy’s identity. I had created him, his name, his age which was the same as mine, his style, everything. Her? She was Atsuko Maeda, same age, at least that’s what she told me. But I knew she was telling me the truth because... I felt it. I’ve never thought this joke would work… but the craziest thing was that she believed me… and still believes I am a guy today, three years later. And… I found myself falling into this game too… a bit more than I expected at first.
Atsuko Maeda, 17 years old. I don’t know anything else about her, even now. I’ve never seen any pictures of her, nor heard her voice. I guess… because of it, she was different from the others girls I had spoken to. Unlike them, she wasn’t trying to seduce me. She wasn’t asking any pictures of me. She wasn’t waiting for anything from me. And I could tell that… she was waiting for me to reject her. She visibly had a huge lack of confidence. I didn’t know if she was serious or not, but she was always asking me “when are going to be tired of me?” I was laughing at her at the beginning. I haven’t realized how important her lack was. She was so funny yet ridiculous asking me this that it motivated me to keep talking to her.
But… maybe I was afraid too of what could happen to her if the only person she believed in left her…
When we exchanged mail, I knew something was wrong. I had accepted it, because I kind of had pity of her. She was so unsure of herself that I told myself accepting would not change a lot between us. But… since I’ve started to pretend being a guy, it had never gotten so far. NEVER. Atsuko Maeda… why did I accept to give you my mail? Not only did I pity her… but I think the real side of me, the girl one, was really appreciating her as a friend. In fact… I was considering her as a close friend, even though I didn’t know her for real. I’ve told her a lot about my life, trusting her. Her answers and encouragements… were those of a real friend.
But I knew that, sooner or later, I would have to tell her the truth. But since she was important to me as a friend… I couldn’t really think about it now. And still now, I can’t believe I have to let her go after three years of great friendship.
Friendship? I guess… If I had introduced me as a girl, we could have been best friends.
In three years, many things happened. We were talking together often than ever. I was always careful to hide my real identity. Once, I have written my real name, Minami, but… you believed the lame excuse I gave to you to explain it. I still can’t believe it. You should have learned the truth, so everything would have been easier now. I was taking care of everything, the way I answered, the way I wrote, the way I reacted, there was no way you would find out the truth. And most of all, I gave you confidence.
But that was when I was starting to realize that everything was getting out of my control.
Atsuko… I was really considering her as a friend I would keep forever. The girl side of me knew she was slowly becoming my closest friend, even though I haven’t met her. I could tell she felt the same toward me… She was talking to me about her fears and hopes, about how unsure she was of herself… and me, I was scared she might kill herself, so I decided I would never leave her, no matter what. Somehow, I just didn’t want to make her sad.
Our conversations were even different from the ones I had with my real friends at school. It seemed that we always had something to say… and it was usual we stayed until 2am just to talk together. Virtual world… was slowly taking more place in my life than real one… It was becoming dangerous. I was becoming dependant of our conversations. Day and night… I was waiting for her. I wasn’t negligent about my real life. I still had the same results at school, still had my friends… but each time I had free time, I had to check if she was online.
I was totally spending all my time waiting for her.
Something, a little voice in my head, told me I had to stop talking to her before it was too late. But I kept ignoring it… because I knew she was also looking for me. I was glad, yet scared at the same time. I was even more careful to not let her discover the truth. She was… my first real best friend… even though everything was a lie.
Six months after our first conversation, she told what I had been scared of since the very beginning, since I had decided to create this new me.
“I don’t know why… even if I don’t know you… I love you.”
Those words appearing on my screen were like a thunder shock to me.
It couldn’t be true. It couldn’t be true. IT COULD NOT BE TRUE. But the little voice in my head had always known it would happen… because I, too, had started to fall into the trap of love. Or at least, I thought it was love… because I couldn’t get her out of my mind. I was beginning to forget about myself… about my life… about the fact that I was a girl.
She made me smile, laugh, she helped me each time I felt bad. How did it happen? When did it happen? When did you start falling in love with me? I felt like we could talk together forever, but… why did it have to happen? Atsuko… you love someone who doesn’t even exist.
“Me too.”
I am definitely the stupidest person living on earth. Until when exactly was I going to continue this? Why? Why did I answer that? I should have left you before… Now it’s too late. Why did it have to be you? I can’t believe you didn’t discover my secret… like I couldn’t believe we were “dating”. But… were we really dating? Talking to someone on the net, isn’t it just like a close friendship? But I’d stay up all night just to talk to you, I’d never let you go… there was something special between us.
Fortunately, we suddenly stopped talking together after a while, or at least, we started talking less than before. I guess… everything was becoming too awkward, dating a virtual person you’ve never seen and so on. I mean, we couldn’t be sure it was love, not me, and of course, not her. I never did effort to talk to you again. I totally stopped doing anything that would be linked to you. I just… disappeared from your life, because I knew I had to size this opportunity. About a month passed before you talked to me again.
Why?
Why did you talk to me? Even though I was happy to find a friend back in my life, I was secretly hoping we could just forget about each other. I wished I had never lied to you… but no matter what, you still trusted me. No matter how much I suddenly wished to become a guy, I was still a girl. I was still talking to you… without telling you the truth.
It didn’t take a long time before we started talking like before. Our complicity was back after two conversations. You’d tell me you hate me, than insult me… and I would do the same… and we would just end up laughing. You’d be the worried girl again, I would just reassure you, telling you I wouldn’t leave you soon.
I wished I could tell you who I truly am… but I was too afraid the confidence you gained by talking to me… would vanish and never come back. You were always joking about how people hated you… about rumours and so on… But I knew it wasn’t joke. Your worries… were real. And the fact that you were scared I might leave you was just your way to tell me you wanted to stay with me forever.
In fact, you made me fall in love with you again… or maybe I’ve just never stopped being in love with you. But… I’m not the one I pretend to be.
So I decided to be cruel. A year and half after our first conversation, I told you:
“I will stop talking to you. I can’t talk to you anymore.”
I was being really selfish. I’ve never thought about your feelings, but I knew it was the best solution for the both of us. I didn’t give you more explanations, yet you answered:
“It’s okay, I need air too. It’s becoming painful to talk to someone this way.”
I knew then… that you too wanted to avoid love.
I wonder… if I had never lied to you, would you have loved me? Would you love me this way? Or was it only the fact that I was a guy that… completely modified your way of thinking? If I had told you I was a girl… you would have probably called this feeling “friendship”, because this is the mentally people has. But thinking I was a guy… you were interpreting this as love… and knowing this, I knew it was better if we just forgot everything. I was wrong since the beginning. Lying is not funny anymore. Lying… had never been funny.
I wonder… who was sadder about this separation between you and me. Me, the one who knew the truth behind everything… or you, who thought about loosing a precious friend? Sometimes, knowing the truth is more painful. But I was thankful. Now, I wouldn’t have to lie anymore. I wouldn’t have to find excuses to avoid sending a picture of me.
But I was sadder than ever. I still thought about you all the time. I hoped nothing of this had happened. I was stalking you on the web, hoping someday I could find the opportunity to talk to you again. I couldn’t get over you… because it was too late. In the end… I couldn’t help being in love. Maybe it was a virtual broken heart… but the pain was real.
“I know you don’t want to talk to me anymore…”
Atsuko… I almost had a heart attack when I saw your name appearing on my computer screen, two months after having stopped talking to you. Two months… and you had suddenly started to talk to me at the exact time when I was finally starting to forget.
“Then, why are you talking to me?”
I was smiling in front of my screen, I remember it like it was yesterday. I still can’t understand why I had answered to you… It was dangerous, because I knew I had to act coldly… in order to avoid having fun with you again. Why did I answer? Did… I miss you THAT much?
“I don’t know… sorry, I will leave.”
I knew… you had no idea how to react. I knew you missed me as your friend since I was always helping you. I knew you wanted us to talk again… like we used to do before the confession. In fact… I think everything had started to change right after you had told me you loved me. It’s impossible… to keep ignoring someone loving you.
“No, I don’t care.”
I answered this just because I knew I didn’t want to let you go either. Just because… I still wanted to talk with you. And it worked. Even though we had hard times… our complicity and friendship were so strong that everything came back to normal a week later. Like a miracle… my life was getting better. We were true friends… friends who can’t forget about the other… friends who are able to start from the beginning and still act like usual.
“I want to see you.”
You had to ask it, right? You just had to ask this question I’ve heard so many times from you... You had to remind me that… I wasn’t a guy. I’m just a liar… but I regret everything. A liar who wanted to joke at first… but who found a nice friend in you… and who fell in love against his will... A liar… who just would do anything to stop lying.
But still, I accepted, because I knew I couldn’t lie anymore. I knew that, even if I could still give you lame excuses, I would not be able to hide it any longer, not after three years. You would have doubts anyway.
“I can’t wait to see you!”
Atsuko… even though you said that… you will never see me. I will never let you see me, no matter what. I know this is a stupid reason… but right now it is the only thing I can do. I can’t help falling in love with you each time I talk to you… It’s not just painful, I’m dying on the inside. I have to stop it before my heart gives up. I can’t live with this lie forever. Today, the day of our meeting… I will definitely say “farewell” to you.
***
I told you to wait at Shibuya Station. You showed me a picture of you… so I can recognize you. But… you will never know that the person you are waiting for… is actually already there, looking at your pretty face. I don’t need to hide. I’m just staring at you, engraving your cute look in my mind for the rest of my life. You don’t seem to notice me. I bet it’s normal… I told you I was a tall guy, but in fact, I’m a really short girl. 1m48.5, to be exact. So… it is impossible you know me. You’re cute. You’re the perfect best friend I would want to have… I understand now, why you were so unsure of yourself. There are many older men looking at you like they want to kidnap you. And there are girls laughing at you, probably because they are jealous of all the attention you have.
I guess… sometimes being cute can complicate a life.
I sat on a bench. Fifteen minutes after the hour I gave you for our meeting, you’re still here. I can tell you’re starting to be nervous. There’s this old man I saw before, still there, eating you visually. It’s scaring. So… you are the girl I fell in love with? I’m glad I’ve seen you today. I want to come back to the past… and introduce me as a girl.
“Sorry I can’t come finally. I will explain you tonight.”
I closed my phone and stared at her receiving my mail. She seemed sad. I have a broken heart. I know now… I must pay for the huge mistake I made years ago when I started lying to her. I am the only one knowing the truth… I will never make you suffer again. I will disappear from your life for real, at least… as a guy. This mail you just received… will be the last one.
This strange old man is approaching you. He follows you while you leave. I’m scared something might happen to you. I don’t want to leave you… this way. You don’t know me… but let me at least protect you one last time. I walk by your side and whisper:
“Pretend we’re friends, someone is following you.”
She stares at me, the strange girl popping out from nowhere and nods. She might be used to this situation. She starts talking to me about something I don’t understand, just pretending we’re having fun. I can tell now… that you would have been a really good friend to me. I like the way you talk, the way you smile at me, even if it’s just to make someone stop following you. I like the way you laugh… This time, I feel like we’re real friends.
We turn the corner. The man is gone. I sighed, relieve.
“Thank you.” You say. “I’ve been through this situation before, but you’re the first one helping me.”
Atsuko, I’ve helped you before… a lot of times. Right now, you’re seeing the real me, there’s no way you’re going to know who I truly am. Just by being by your side right now, I can tell how it is to be with you. I don’t want to leave you, but I know I have to.
“No problem.” I say before leaving her.
But she calls me back and asks me for my phone number so we can stay in contact. There’s no way I’m going to tell you my number, you must recognize the one I gave you as a guy.
“I’m sorry.” I bow before starting to run away.
I feel like I’ve done what I had to do by helping you one last time.
Tomorrow, I will be back to my real life as Minami Takahashi… and unfortunately you don’t know her.
The End
I just had get this out of my head... :smhid
I'll come back soon with a KojiYuu update.... I hope :tama-uhh:
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i want a happy ending for Takaachan, seen too much sad from you :smhid
man if only Minami hadn't lied about her identity then maybe they would've been together! :(
*sigh* and Aachan trusted her so much, not very happy with the ending but its ok i guess :sweatdrop:
the story was very well written to me though with all the emotions, and i'm happy that Takamina helped Aachan get away from that old man :)
Update soon!
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:| Kinda sad fanfic but i enjoyed it!
Thank you for the update!
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Seriously? Thank you  I do my best to write sad stories 
You're welcome ^^ yep I like your style :D
I like the last scene but it's sad they could'nt be together T_T
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To make things clear: I am not pretending to be a girl/guy/whatever else -.-' It was just a STO-RY. XD
mangobanana15: Thank you ^^ I'll do my best and update a happy story about them next time coz it's true I'm really cruel with them :nervous
TakahashiJ: Well, most of the stories of this OS thread are sad :nervous But I'm glad you enjoyed it!
kahem: Thank you ^^ I don't know what my style is, but I'm glad you like it :)
So since I had no time during day, I wrote until 2am last night and was really proud of myself because I was all "omg I will be able to update soon Sunday!" And this morning until now... the website wasn't working :smhid So yeah :smhid
And here's a KojiYuu update like I promised! It's been a while, sorry, but I'm back with this pairing for this time. It may sound a little sad, but the end is not! It's been while since my latest happy ending story, right? XD Well, I didn't want to depress you even more this time I guess... <-- Talking to Alexiel So enjoy! It was inspired from a French book I read :)
Eagle Kite
A young little girl was running, smiling, facing the sea. She was twelve and on vacation with her mother for a week. Right now, she was alone since her mother had stayed at their hotel. The sun was high in the sky and its rays were kind of blinding her view, but she kept running on the sand, heading toward a small old headlight. Her brown hair were floating on her shoulders as she was looking everywhere at the same time. The sea was beautiful and the sound the waves made was taking her to another world.
This escape from the huge city of Tokyo was like a soft bandage on her psychological wounds from the hard work at school. She felt like she was free and that she could do whatever she wanted. She arrived to the headlight. Its light was broken, but under the blue sky and bright sun, it didn’t matter. There was another person waiting for her, waving her hand. Another little girl she had met the first day she had come at the sea.
They had met and had immediately become friends. They had the same age and were both looking for something to do. The first one, Yuko Oshima, was the girl on vacation. She was a joyful child, talking a lot and smiling all the time. The other one, Haruna Kojima, lived there. Since there were not a lot of people living around there, she was a bit loner, but still thought in a positive way and her smile was the cutest thing in the world. She had been really glad to see another child like her coming at this place.
As soon as they had met, Yuko had known nothing in her life would ever be the same. She felt proud thinking about the head her friends would make when she would tell them she had met a very cute girl on vacation. Boys would probably be jealous and even girls would! She was twelve… but she already liked to be the center of attention.
Haruna welcomed her as she reached the top of the headlight. She was not the type of person that talked a lot. Sure, she could have a conversation, but what she liked about Yuko was that she was respecting the fact that she talked only when it really was necessary. Most of the time, she was drawing invisibles letters in front of them. It was a silent way to communicate. This place was their secret meeting place, the favourite of Haruna. She had shared it with Yuko because the other girl was actually her very first best friend.
When the sun was starting to disappear far away in the orange sky, Yuko and Haruna often stayed there until they heard their mothers calling them. It was like they were alone in the world. A strong friendship was born between them. A strong friendship that only innocent child could have. Talking together, laughing about nothing, staying in silence looking at the sea… there was actually nothing else to care about.
But this day was different. This day, the young girl Yuko was feeling a bit sad and Haruna could feel it. They had already spent ten days together and it had actually been the best time of her life.
“Why are you sad?” Haruna asked as they were about to leave the headlight to come back to their respective houses.
Her voice was clear, peaceful and sounded like a melody to Yuko’s ears. It was so rare she could hear it that she was cherishing each time Haruna was talking to her.
“Because vacations will come to an end and that I will miss you.” Yuko said with a sad voice, a child’s scared voice.
“We still have one week. And when you’ll come back next year, you’ll know where to find me.”
“Yes… at the headlight’s door.”
“I’ll be waiting for you the first day of the summer.”
“You promise?” Yuko’s voice asked, slight hope in it.
Haruna just drew a promise with her hands. It’s way more beautiful than words. The sun was almost gone from the sky and stars were beginning to shine over their heads.
“Come near me, there’s something I want to show you.” Haruna said with a little voice.
Yuko hesitated, but didn’t want to make her friend sad. She walked near her in silence. It was late. She had to come back home or else her mother would be angry. She didn’t want her mother to be angry at her. Haruna put her hands on her shoulders and moved closer. Yuko’s attention was completely stolen by Haruna’s beautiful eyes, approaching her face more than ever before.
At twelve, children sometimes think kisses taste honey or lemon… but between these two innocent girls, it tasted more like strawberry, the same taste from Haruna’s candy she had ate a few minutes ago. And Yuko’s heart was pounding so hard she was wondering if it was possible to die from a kiss… but even so, she wanted her to do it again, but Haruna only moved back, staring at her.
“Wherever you are, I’ll always think about you.” She said with her softness voice before leaving the place, running.
***
The following day, Yuko did ten times the way between the beach and the small headlight, but Haruna was nowhere to be seen. From her small height, she was looking down at the water, scared something might have happened. Slowly, she was starting to understand what it meant to care so much about someone… that it was becoming love. With her, everything was different. It wasn’t the same when she was with her friends at school. It was just… brighter when she was with Haruna. Yuko was walking around when she heard Haruna’s mother calling her. She turned around and saw her friend with her family, laughing. Yuko just waved her hand because walking in the opposite direction.
Slowly, Yuko was starting to understand what it meant to miss someone so badly that it hurt someone’s heart. Just a few days before and she would have never needed her. But now, without Haruna by her side, life was grey, without any significance. To a child, discovering that love hurts is a hard revelation, but it was what Yuko found out that day, when she spent the first day of her vacation alone… and the second one too.
***
Two days after, Yuko’s mom gave her a beautiful kite. It represented a wonderful eagle, his wings open. It was a beautiful animal and Yuko immediately went to the beach to play with it. The eagle was going higher and higher in a beautiful way. He was flying proudly in the blue sky. Yuko was wondering how it felt to be so tall and wished she could become a kite, just to see how the world looked like from over there. The wind was strong and Yuko smiled proudly when she almost managed to create her first figure, tracing the number “8”.
Suddenly, she almost dropped the kite as she saw a familiar shadow standing by her side. Haruna was by her side. She put her hand on Yuko’s, taking the kite too. Yuko soon gave it to her. Haruna’s smile was, to her, the most irresistible thing in the world, and she couldn’t say “no” to anything she would say.
Haruna was an expert with the kite. Her agility was great as she was tracing “s” and “8” in the sky. She had a special skill for the air poetry. When Yuko finally understood what she was doing, she read:
“I missed you.”
A girl having the ability to write “I missed you” with a kite, we can never forget it.
They spent the rest of the holiday this way. Each morning, Haruna was joining Yuko at their secret headlight. Yuko always had the kite and they spent the whole day at their place, playing and talking together, sometimes sharing a shy kiss only children could do. At midday, they ate the lunch Yuko’s mother had made for them. Even if they never talked about it, Yuko knew her mother knew there was something special between Haruna and her. She possibly knew about their strong complicity. Sometimes, in the afternoon, Haruna placed her head on Yuko’s shoulder and started to sleep a little. Then, Yuko would just look at her until her eyes open again. Those last days were unforgettable.
The last day finally arrived. Yuko had asked her mother to stay longer a hundred times, but it was impossible. After all, a child’s power is useless against adults. They were soon going to leave the hotel. Yuko went outside, walking toward the headlight, her kite in her hand. As she arrived to their secret place, she saw Haruna was already there, waiting for her.
“Nyan Nyan…” Yuko whispered, afraid to loose her friend, using the nickname she had given her a few days ago.
Haruna didn’t answer. She just made a gesture, saying to her friend to leave. She didn’t want them to go on the top of the headlight. Yuko picked, from her pocket, a small letter she had written the night before. Haruna didn’t take it. She didn’t even move. So Yuko, not really knowing what else to do, went upstairs and left the kite there. Then, she just held her hand and walked with her at the beach. There, on the white sand, she traced the first half of a heart, rolled her letter and put it on the sand. After a final look at the girl she liked, she left.
Yuko never knew if Haruna had changed her mind and had taken this letter. In fact, she never came back to see the sea, not the following year, not the ones after. She never had any news from Haruna. She had thought about writing to her, but she didn’t know her address. She would have written “old headlight near the sea”, but that would have meant betraying Haruna’s secret.
Fourteen years later
“It’s the sea~!”
I turn my head and smile at the person who just shouted this.
“Atsuko, stop it!” I say at my friend. “You’re acting like a child!”
We just arrived at the sea. It’s dark, we cannot see a lot, but the salt smell is surrounding us, as well as the sound from the waves. The only light is from the full moon high in the sky. I can’t blame her… she really wanted to see the sea. That is the main reason why we decided to come here. Atsuko and I are actresses. I don’t want to sound pretentious, but we are both really famous. We’re working like crazy and… since we really needed some vacations, she decided we would just go to the sea. At first I didn’t want to, but now I have to admit it was a nice idea. With the salt smell around me and the wind caressing my face, I can tell I really need to rest a little from this media world.
“You two, what are you doing?! Help me!”
I laugh and help Mariko to carry some luggage. Mariko… a tall and sexy model. She has decided to come with us as soon as I told her about this journey. This girl is really sexy, I’m serious about it. People, just by looking at her, can tell why she is one of the most famous models of the country. I’ve met her once during a shooting… and I’ve never forgotten about her. I don’t know what kind of relationship we exactly had… but I can tell there’s something special between us. I think she loves me… but I’m not sure if I feel the same. We’re always together. We’re always having fun. I can’t find what is missing in my head to admit I love her too. Somehow, I know I make her suffer because of this, but I can’t help it. I can just hope she’s ready to wait for me.
Right after we went to the hotel, we decide to go back at the sea, even if it’s darker than before. The moon will be our guide for tonight.
“Do you hear the waves!” Atsuko claim excitingly. “And this smell… and this feeling of freedom, isn’t it wonderful?!”
She doesn’t even wait for our answer and runs toward the water. Mariko stares at her before blinking at me. Then, she smiles and begins to run too. They start laughing loudly together, playing around with the water. I step forward too. The moon is higher than ever and I see my shadow growing in front of me. I begin to run with them, not knowing why I feel so familiar about this place. I swear, while running, I have seen a small girl’s shadow looking at me. But I join them, and even though the water is icy, we enjoy ourselves.
***
I wake up the next morning, sleeping into Mariko’s arms. I can’t really remember how we end up this way, but I don’t care. Somehow, feeling her presence close to me help me to calm down. There are two beds in the hotel room. Mariko and I are sharing one while Atsuko has the second one. She says she doesn’t care. I think she, too, wants me to realize how I feel.
“Breakfast!” Atsuko screams as she realizes how late it is.
We all come down to eat. While Atsuko was finishing her third plate, she asks:
“How about we go to see how the sea looks during the day? I want to take pictures for Minami!”
Seriously, how can she eat so much?! I and Mariko haven’t even finished our second plate and we’re already full! Oh, and Minami is her girlfriend… I guess. I’ve never seen her before, but Atsuko tells me so much about her that I feel like I know her anyway.
“Wait a minute.” Mariko said. “I don’t think it’s good to go to the sea after eating so much.”
“I don’t care!” Atsuko answers. “I want to show this beautiful place to Minami!”
And with that, she takes an apple, doesn’t wait for us and goes outside. We stare at each other and laugh. I don’t know where our complicity comes from, but somehow I like to laugh with her, even if it’s not really nice to Atsuko.
We soon follow her while talking. I don’t know how it happened, but once we’re walking on the sand, we’re already holding hands for a while. I don’t want my hand to be free from hers… is it love?
But reality soon hits me as I realize the reason why I felt so familiar about this place yesterday. I have forgotten about this place… but now that I see a familiar old headlight in the distance, I’m sure of it… it’s the place of my first real love. It’s exactly like in my memories… Even if it’s far, I can easily see that the light must be broken too.
“You’re coming?” Mariko asks as she glances at me.
“What?”
I guess I’m being distracted by this memory…
“There’s a nice place over there.” Atsuko screams at us. “Come on!”
“Go on, I’ll come later. I want to see something.”
Mariko doesn’t seem to understand but nods. Somehow… when she lets my hand go, I can’t help feeling relieved. I feel like this little girl’s shadow is still looking at me, and I know I don’t want her to see me holding hands with Mariko…
***
I’m climbing the familiar stairs. They look smaller than in my memory. I go to the top. There’s nothing but dust everywhere… probably covering a part of my childhood under it. I can barely see the see through the window. This place must have been left a long time ago. I trace two circles on the window so I can see outside. The view hasn’t changed at all, except that I feel taller now. I can see farther… My foot hits something and I glance down. There’s a tall box. I don’t know how I did to not see it at first, but I guess I was too concentrated to look on the outside of the headlight.
I don’t like the sound of silence. It makes me feel like there’s a lot of pressure on my shoulder. In the inside of the old box, there’s a very old kite. Its wings are broken, but I can easily recognize the stature of an eagle. I take it and caress it with precaution. It seems so fragile. I glance down in the box for the second time and stop breathing. I can still see a line of sand creating the first half of a heart. Just by its side lays a small rolled paper. I take it and read, trying to calm my heart. It sounds like the waves are stronger… because I can hear them better now.
“I waited for you during four summers. You didn’t respect your promise, you never came back. The kite is dead, I left it here. Who knows… maybe you’ll find it someday.”
There is only a small name at the end.
Nyan Nyan
I can’t believe she used the nickname I gave her so many times ago… I thought these memories were lost forever… but it seems that I was wrong.
***
The kite is mine. I bring it back with me. Mariko soon joins me, asking me what I am doing with such an old thing. I just answer it’s an old memory I want to keep alive and she nods. She knows since a very long time that I hide something from her. It is useless to explain anything. I don’t know what kind of face I am doing, but this time, she doesn’t even try to reach for my hand. I guess… I might look sad, lost in my memories, trying to remember the voice of a young innocent girl calling my name…
Atsuko suddenly arrives in front of us, smiling with her camera. I don’t know if I’m wrong, but I think she’s the only one between us three who’s really enjoying herself right now. I’m smiling at her, trying to hide the fact that I just made the most important discover ever. The discover of my past.
“Let’s take some pictures!” She smiles happily. “I will send them to-”
“Minami, we know!” Mariko sighs.
I laugh. Atsuko must have talked only about her precious friend when I was gone. I can tell Mariko is a bit tired now… but I understand her. It happened to me to, to spend an entire night hearing Atsuko talking about this mysterious girl… I guess it’s love. It makes me wonder… would I do the same about Mariko?
Soon after, I excuse myself. I want to do something… I know the owner of this hotel never changed. I want to talk to him… and see if he can give me some useful information. Does he know where she is, the girl from my memory? Does he know on which beach you are running now? Does he know what she is doing? I hope.
I come back two hours later. My friends are looking at me strangely, but I just smile. I got the information I wanted to have. This girl, Haruna Kojima, left the place ten years ago. It was… exactly at the same time she stopped waiting for me. She then went to a special fashion school. The owner gave me the address. He is a nice friend of hers. I envy him. I wish I had stayed friend with her too… But I guess I can give a try… as soon as we’re back to Tokyo.
As we are about to leave the place, Atsuko comes to talk to me. Since my meeting with the owner, I’ve kind of stopped being with Mariko and her. I’m alone by my side, fixing the kite. I want it to look like the first day I saw it, even though I know it is impossible. At least… I want it to be able to fly. I want to give its liberty back. But this has consequences. Mariko doesn’t talk to me as much as before. I don’t know… maybe she’s mad at me. I don’t want her to be sad, but I don’t know what to do to make her happy. I’m not the same joyful person as I was before, I know it. Everything changed… when I first left this place. I think I’ve left my true self with this girl I’ve met… and I’ve never come to take it back. I’m still smiling and enjoying myself, of course, but I feel like there’s something missing. Trying to see her again… must be the only solution I have to resolve my problem. I’m sorry, Mariko. Sorry for making you believing something might happen between us…
“Yuko… Are you alright?” Atsuko asks me, a worried look in her eyes.
I nod and keep working on the famous eagle kite.
“Mariko… is sad, you know?” She says.
She’s about to continue, but before she can add anything else, I decide to tell her everything. I trust her, she can find a better way to tell Mariko about it than I would. I can tell she hardly believes me.
“Yuko, are you sure you’re not dreaming? I mean… you’re making her suffering.”
I don’t answer anything. I know this is cruel, but this is the only way. I want… to meet the girl of my childhood.
“Do you love her?” Atsuko asks me. “Because… I can tell it’s not the same love I feel toward Minami. Yours… must not be as strong as hers.”
Here it goes again, talking about Minami. But somehow, I’m glad she makes this comparison because it makes me realize that, no, I don’t love her as much as she does. But I can tell that my answer was not the good one. There’s something special between Mariko and I, Atsuko knows it… and supports it.
“At least…” Atsuko says after a moment of silence. “Promise me you will forget about it if she doesn’t recognize you.”
I hesitate. After so much time… there’s a high possibility she can’t recognize me.
“There’s someone in the present that cares about you. If this unknown girl doesn’t recognize you, forget about her.”
I know Atsuko is saying this because she’s worried about us. She doesn’t want our perfect friendship to break up… and I still have to meet this mysterious Minami too. So I promise her. But I know now I will do all I can do to make her remember me.
***
It’s her. I’m sure of it. She has beautiful long hair. Her eyes and smile are enough to make me faint. Her laugh, I can hear it from where I am, sounds like crystal. She’s… even cuter than from my memories. And, oh how I feel sorry about it, I think her boobs are perfects… so perfect I just want to touch them right away. Well, not “right away” but… I have to admit I’m a bit pervert now. But it’s not the only thing I love about her. It is not because you are a child… that love is meanness. This memory from this summer, I know it now, I have never forgotten about it. That is why I’ve never fallen in love… and that is the reason why I was so unsure about Mariko. I’m in the middle of the road. I know she can see me… and from the look she’s giving me, I can tell she doesn’t recognize me at all.
“Hello?” She asks me as I stop in front of her. “What do you want?”
I like your voice. I like your style. I like the way you look at me. I can’t tell you anything.
“Nothing.” I just say and leave in the opposite direction. There’s nothing more to add.
We were such innocent back then… I want to tell her how much I am sorry for not keeping my promise, how much I want her to forgive me… how much I think I just fall in love again at first sight. I know it sounds weird this way, but I feel like there’s really something special between us, something that even time can’t erase. And just because of it… I want to take a chance. I stare at you… you’re talking with a guy and laughing.
I stop breathing. What if… you really forgot about me? What if… you love this guy? I haven’t thought about it, but you might not love girls anymore now. When we were young, it didn’t matter, we were alone in the world. But now that we’re older, we are aware of the look others are giving us… and maybe you’re not attracted by the same gender anymore.
I am sorry, Atsuko, I can’t keep my promise to you. I can’t forget about her just because she doesn’t recognize me at first sight. I’m sorry Mariko, for making you suffering so much. So I wait until her classes end. Then, I follow her. Quietly, around the city, trying to hide as much as possible, I’m following her to her house. It’s in a small building. I see her walking inside, closing the door, opening the light… She lives around the third level.
I’m waiting though. I can’t do anything right now. The night’s coming. Around midnight, I can finally feel pressure leaving my shoulder. She lives alone. I’m staying awake all night though, just to be sure. When the sun is slowly appearing in the sky, I already got three mails from Atsuko. I can tell she wants to talk to me about Mariko, but I can’t think about this right now. My priority now… is to make my plan in execution. Silently, I take the kite out from my bag. It’s fixed, but I don’t know if it can fly. I’ve never tried it until today.
My heart is racing as I feel wind blowing. It gives me strength. I try to make it fly. It doesn’t move, just staying on the floor, no matter how hard I try. I move my arms, my body, shake it with all my strength… but there’s nothing. I am about to give up when I see light coming from what I think is her living room. This time, I know I have to hurry. From where she is, she can probably see through the window…
I don’t know by which miracle it happened, but the kite suddenly begins to move. At first, it stays lower… but it finally get higher as the wind is literally encouraging me. I hope it will be enough. I’m still not good… my “8” and “s” are not good at all… I can’t even make it stays in the sky… but she must have seen this familiar eagle kite from our childhood because the front door suddenly opened quickly.
She’s there, staring at the kite, not even at me. She’s beautiful. She’s gorgeous. She’s… there’s no words to describe how much my heart hurts right now. She slowly walks toward me and her eyes finally met mine. I don’t know exactly what she thinks about, but it must be positive… I know she can’t believe… because I can’t either. She smiles. I can’t believe I get to see her smile right now. It’s like the whole world stops just for us.
She slowly put her hands over mine, taking the line guiding the kite. She is an expert with the kite. Her agility is awesome and she draws “s” and “8” in the sky. She has a special skill for the air poetry. When I finally understand what she is doing, I read:
“I missed you.”
A girl having the ability to write “I missed you” with a kite, we can never forget it. Somehow… it’s a bit similar to one of my old memories. Subconsciously, I’ve been waiting for this moment during fourteen long years…
I heard by the owner of the hotel that, like a miracle, the broken light from this old headlight suddenly opened the same morning. I don’t know if it’s true… but I know now that I’ve finally found back the way to truly love someone.
The End
And that's it! I don't know for you but I think I did a great job... with this horrible happy ending :P I hope you enjoyed it because it will the only story you'll get from me. I have work this week and can't update another OS or chapter. I'm sorry :bow:
Going back to work! -.-
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VERY GOOD JOB~!! :on GJ: THANKS~!! :on woohoo:
It's very touching~ :luvuluvu:
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Great I see that Kojiyuu can get a happy ending but Takaachan gets sad and pain :smhid
OMG HARUNA IS SOOO COOL she can sky write with that awesome eagle kite :twothumbs
I'm glad that they finally found each other after 14 years of being separated
feel a bit sad for Mariko but Yuko wasn't meant for her
lol I like how much Aachan mentions Takamina and her love for her :D
darn work. keeping you from writing your stories :smhid
Waiting for your next update! :D
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. sugoi!!!!!! :shocked:....., very nice kojiyuu fiction....... :farofflook:
. i'm very sad for mariko..... :gyaaah: why minegishi is not include in this fic..... :err:
. takachan!!! :shy2: i love takacchan!!!!!
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waaaah, i really like it :w00t: :w00t: kojiyuu :twothumbs
young haruna and yuko is just cute :inlove:
but i feel sorry for mariko-sama :cry: but overall it was really good :bow:
thanks for the update :cow: :cow:
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OMG SO GOOD.
GREAT UPDATE (Y).
...More fluff at the end woudlve been good too ;p
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GOOD JOB!!!! REALLY!!!!!
But I can't figure out the meaning of "s8" lol
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i really like the takaacchan and kojiyuu fanfic!! :twothumbs
your good.. please write more touching fanfics.. :inlove:
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THANK FOR READING!!!! :heart:
Sorry, but this time I can't answer all comments... It's been too long and I'm too lazy XD
Oh well... it's been over two months since my last OneShot, but I wrote this quickly so I could bump my thread XD But with all the turtles here, I doubt it will stay in the first page any longer XD
Anyway, enjoy ^^ It's kinda weird, but yes, was inspired from Vincent Vallières' song: On va s'aimer encore. (It's in French and really good, if you can possibly understand, this is really a cute love song)
Short TakAcchan One Shot, and not a sad ending! YEAH! :lol:
TIME
Two young little girls running and laughing in a park. Anyone would smile in front of this innocent spectacle. They had just met, but since they were really young, around five years old, it didn’t matter who the other was, as long as they could play together. It didn’t matter if they didn’t know the other’s name, as long the other seemed nice. It didn’t matter if they were sure they wouldn’t meet again, only the present time was important. Because children are supposed to play… and adults’ problems were not important enough to stop playing…
“Try to catch me!” The smaller laughed at the second one, under the protective look of her mother.
Being a child seemed like the perfect life.
But unfortunately, children had adults to watch over them, so they couldn’t play forever. Adults aren’t always funny, right? No, they aren’t. So, children cry because they want to keep playing. But adults never listen because time’s missing and they have a lot of more important stuffs to do in life. Time is important. Time is the most important thing to them. Sometimes it’s too slow, sometimes they want it to slow down a little so they can relax… They have work and money to gain, they have responsibilities and a time limit to do them… so in fact, the children can only play when their parents want them to play. When parents don’t have any free time left, children have to follow them.
“I touched you! Now YOU try to catch me!”
But right now, the two mothers of the two kids were running in the huge Tokyo city, buying things here and there because they “needed” it. And time was missing already, they had to go back quickly home to do something else. So the two kids couldn’t play together anymore.
It took a while for their mothers to call their children back, since the two little girls were gone somewhere else in the park, too busy running everywhere to even think their parents were worried about them. When they both came back, they were holding hands innocently, like they had found another “best friend forever”. They were cute and innocent… they were just playing…
“I want to stay here and play with you… but I can’t. Mommy doesn’t want me to…” The smaller girl said.
“I want to play too!” The other answered. “I want to play with you forever because it’s funny!”
“Leave her…” The first mother said. “We have to go now.”
The two little girls stared at each other, innocent sadness in their eyes. All they wanted was to have fun, why couldn’t their mothers understand this? A happy spark suddenly appeared in the tallest girl’s eyes.
“You will come back tomorrow, won’t you?” She said, excited. “Then we can play again together!”
The other girl immediately smiled back and nodded.
“I will come back! I promise!”
Just like kids did, they made a promise with their little fingers, smiling like it was the most important thing in their life. To them, nothing else was important.
“Tomorrow, don’t forget!”
They both nodded at the same time, really believing in their words. They were sure they would still see each other tomorrow, and start running like today, like they had never been separate by time. After all, they had found a new “best friend forever”, right? This kind of promise was all they could think about to be sure they would still play together later, when their mothers wouldn’t be as busy as now.
“See you tomorrow!” The two said at the same time as they started walking toward opposite directions, following their respective mother.
At that time, when they were too young to understand what real friendship meant, when they were too innocent to face the world’s problems, when their life was resumed to play with someone else, they couldn’t really understood they would probably not meet again.
And so, when they left the other, they still ignored that one was named Takahashi Minami, that the other was named Maeda Atsuko, and that they were both going to break their promise the next day since they wouldn’t be able to go to the park because their parents didn’t have time to bring them there. The two innocent girls couldn’t know that, after many years, they were going to meet again, without any memories of this first innocent, useless… and forgettable meeting.
All that mattered… was that they had had fun with someone this day.
***
“Don’t forget to study hard for you next evaluation…” The teacher said as he dismissed the class.
The students nodded and started leaving school. Only a few stayed. Some had club meeting, others were just taking time, but they all had on mind that they had work to do until late this night. It was school. The time when young people started to learn about life and about its problem, where they learned about respecting their responsibilities, where they developed their knowledge, where life was not about playing anymore. It was also where they learned that time was limited and that they had to take care about it. Time was precious… it wouldn’t be long before they started being adults.
In the large classroom, there were two groups left. Two girls were talking at the same time, but not to the same persons. One was popular, a bit shy, but appreciated by everyone, especially girls. She was cute and many boys were looking at her wherever she went. She liked talking with people she knew only, but it wasn’t a problem since she had many friends.
The second was still popular too, but mostly with boys since she was a bit boyish. She didn’t care too much about not having girls for friends. She didn’t like wearing too girlish things, but she wouldn’t wear boy clothes. She liked talking a lot and didn’t care about looking stupid. She perfectly assumed herself, even if she could totally be a real dork.
Without really knowing why, they were always searching to speak to the other… but they still ignored each other. Each time they wanted to speak together, they were interrupted by something.
“Excuse me…” The boyish girl said when they were left alone in the classroom.
Somehow she knew she wanted to speak to this so mysterious girl… They had been in the same classroom for three years already, but they had never spoken together, except for a work… but it had been the teacher’s fault if they had been together. Even so, they had only talked about work. Somehow… she really wanted to get to know her better, because there was something attracting her, like if she was sure they would become great friends if they knew each other… but she was afraid she might look ridiculous if she suddenly wanted to talk with her.
“Yes?” The cute girl asked, frowning. “What do you want?”
It wasn’t like she was mad at the other girl talking to her, but since she was good at school, she was probably thinking she wanted to have some notes or something. It was the problem when she spoke to others… she always had school problems on mind, even if she tried to ignore it. She ALWAYS thought about what was going to happen, and about how she should leave as soon as possible to study.
“Can you hurry, please?” The cute girl asked in a very nice way. “I have to go somewhere for school… so I don’t really have time to talk a lot.”
“Ah, yes!” The other girl mumbled. “I just wanted to know-”
“Acchan, we need your help!” Someone screamed from outside.
“Coming!” Acchan said as she bowed and apologized to the other, leaving the room, running. “I have to work, sorry…”
The other looked around her, emptiness was everywhere. Well… maybe later she would talk to her… maybe later she would have time to think about something else than work, studies, exams, evaluations, oral presentations, her future… Maybe someday, she would have less in front of her… and time to talk without being stressed subconsciously.
Because she knew that even if she managed to talk to this “Acchan”, known as Maeda Atsuko, she would still have this alarm in her head telling her she had to hurry… And how could she even think that this Acchan had been someone she had played with, years ago… it was already forgotten.
***
The whole AKB48 group was practicing for another Shibuya AX show. Just before, they had released another single, so they had been really busy recently. The senbatsu members had not had a lot time to relax, and when they were talking, it was always about work. Acchan couldn’t remember the last “normal” conversation she had had with her closest friends. Even with her best friend, Takamina, she couldn’t talk about anything else but work.
They both acted like… they had too much to do, like they would never have any time to do anything else than work… like they would soon do a “burn out”.
They were both stressed by life and by AKB48’s future. They had many things scheduled, and they couldn’t even foresee the next time they would be able to see a movie together. They were anxious, yet excited about the recent popularity of the group. As the “captain”, Takamina felt like she had a lot of pressure on her shoulders, but she wasn’t alone to support it. She knew she would always have Acchan by her side, and just thinking this made her happy.
They both couldn’t believe it had taken so much time for them to speak together. The first time, they had both been shy, not really knowing what to say. After all, they had known each other since a long time, but had never spoken together, so it was totally new for them… it was like talking to a new person, like meeting a new friend. But their shyness had soon been forgotten as they had started to laugh together and get to know them better. Both of them had known they had found a great friend in the other… a friend they were sure they wouldn’t leave soon.
“Takamina!” Acchan smiled as she approached her friend.
It was dinner break and they were both eating their bento. They were finally alone, a bit apart from the rest of the group. It had been more than two weeks since their last “private” conversation. Takamina missed it, but she knew time was limited, and they shouldn’t waste it talking about useless things.
“Acchan! Not too tired?”
The ace shook her head and sat by Takamina’s side. She was dead tired, but strangely, when she was next to the captain, she was full of energy again. And there was this strange feeling in her heart too… she just couldn’t figure out its name, but when she was with Takamina, it seemed like life could never get better.
“I was wondering if we would ever be together again.” Acchan laughed. “I miss talking with you like this!”
She was acting all cute, like Takamina was the most precious thing in her life, and somehow, the leader couldn’t help but smile at this thought. To her, Acchan was really important too.
“We’ve been busy recently… and I think we’ll be later too. AKB48 is finally becoming the number 1 group in Japan… we have to work harder!”
“After five years…” Acchan whispered.
“It went fast… so fast that I feel like those five years started yesterday… I can’t believe so much had happened until now… I feel like we’ve known each other forever too… but that we never took time to speak frankly together.”
She wasn’t totally wrong about it. They had known each other for a long time, of course, and yet they didn’t know everything about the other. Each time they spoke together, they had work on mind, they had what they had done the day before, they thought about what they were going to do the next day… they thought about their mistakes… they thought about their performances… Even if they tried to ignore it so they could have a nice conversation, their mind was always thinking about work. Their head was never empty from this subject…
“It’s because we have so many work… But now, we have some free time, right? So let’s just eat happily together… because I really like being with you.” Acchan answered, though thinking about her upcoming drama at the same time.
They had both had to grow faster than others girls of their age. They had both learned to deal with daily practices, lack of motivation, hard work and more responsibilities than everyone else they knew from school. They had both left a part of their childhood, scarifying some nice moments of their youth in order to do this job. They had both… a different perception of time compared to some others. They had learned very soon that every second was important.
“I like being with you too.” Takamina smiled. “I wish we could have more time to go out together too… but I guess right now it’s impossible, right? I’m sure later we will be able to! Someday, we will have time to do everything we want together… and I think I’ll never get tired of you…”
“Same here…” Acchan blushed.
Living this life, a hundred miles by hour, always faster than the day before, always running everywhere, scared of missing something, scared of missing time to do what they had to do… They were really happy to share this short moment together.
Silently, they both reached for the other’s hand, but just before they touched, someone shouted Takamina’s name, asking her to come to talk about NO3B’s future single.
“E-Excuse me… I have to go…” Takamina quickly said, not really knowing what she was doing.
“F-Fine…” Acchan answered as she saw her best friend walking slowly toward an office’s door.
It hurt her heart to see Takamina walking away from her… It hurt her soul thinking they would always have this life style, busy, anxious and all… She even had the feeling that her hand was colder because it hadn’t touched Takamina’s. She still didn’t know why she was feeling this way… why it was so important to be with THIS girl, and only her.
Somehow… she was slowly falling in love with Takamina… but she didn’t have time to realize it: She, too, already had to go back to work.
***
They weren’t in AKB48 anymore. They were working separately, one working hard to become a great actress, the other trying to create her third single as she realized her dream to be a singer. It was useless to say that they didn’t see each other a lot. What happened often was that when one was free, the other wasn’t. It was as simple as this, but it always happened. Conclusion: they had not been able to spend time together for more than an hour in the latest month.
And that was without their travels. Acchan had always to travel in Japan to film her dramas/movies in different regions while Takamina was more often in huge cities such Tokyo, Kyoto or even Osaka. Sometimes, Acchan left to some others countries, such Korea or Thailand, and even if the time zone wasn’t so different, it was enough to make them missing each other from little. And since Takamina was starting to become more popular, she, too, would have to left to others countries sooner or later. Being always far from the other… was not the ideal condition to confess one’s love.
Because Acchan was in love with her best friend… and Takamina was too… but they were always busy… so confession wasn’t possible. They both wanted to talk to the other live… but they couldn’t. They didn’t have enough time… they had to hurry from a place to another… Life was getting too hard for them. If only days were longer… if only hours were slower… if only life was not as stressful as now… if only they had time to meet for awhile… if only work wasn’t killing them…
They could have stopped working for a while… but Acchan couldn’t even think about this possibility. She had just bought a new house, and she needed money to pay it. Her parents could have helped her, but she didn’t want to. She was independence now… she wanted to prove her parents that she wasn’t a little child anymore, that she was able to survive by making money by herself… She had done that when she had been in AKB48, so she could do it once she was an adult, there was no problem.
As for Takamina, she wanted to become better. She wanted to sing better, to sell more… it wasn’t about being popular, it was just that… she felt she needed it to really reach her dream. It had always been on her blood, working hard and doing her best, so there was no way she was going to change this side of her personality, even if it meant leaving her best friend for a long time… Being a singer wasn’t only about singing… and in order to discover what was missing for her, she needed to work without stop, no matter what.
If they could at least be sure that time wouldn’t be missing if they took time to speak…
But they couldn’t… so they kept running everywhere, passing by the other without stopping to say anything, not even a simple word like “hello”.
***
“Someone is waiting for me, I can’t talk to you now…”
Takamina sighed. She couldn’t remember the last time Acchan hadn’t told her something similar. But her girlfriend, because they had finally managed to confess to the other, had been really clear about it: There was ALWAYS someone waiting for her somewhere. The singer was sad about it… even depressed. Couldn’t Acchan see that, she, too, was waiting impatiently for her? Couldn’t she know her heart hurt each time they stopped talking together? Why was everyone waiting for her, whenever Takamina called? When it wasn’t someone waiting for her, it was an appointment, a recording, a meeting… there was ALWAYS something she had to do. Sure, she was busy as well… but she would have cancel anything just to have time to speak with her… but it seemed Acchan didn’t think that way.
“I don’t have time… I’m sorry.”
The singer had even thought about leaving her because it hurt too much to be far away… but she had resisted. She had resisted, thinking someday they would have less work than now, thinking they’d get older and older… until the only thing left they had to do was to be in love. She had not broken up because she knew someday, their schedule would be empty… When? She didn’t know… but someday for sure… the only important thing would be… love. When they’d get older, when they would have many experiences… when the house would be paid, when no one would be waiting for them, when work would be done… when they would have nothing in front of them, unlike now… when time would not be missing anymore, then everything would be fine.
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“Finally… I finally managed to have some free time!” Acchan smiled at Takamina as they both were lying together.
They had spent the week together, traveling everywhere in Japan as a couple. Takamina could never be as happy as she was now. Acchan’s agency had finally decided to give her a break from her job, and as soon as she had finished her last recording, she had called the singer. She had hoped it wasn’t too late to be forgiven from what she had done to her, ignoring her calls and avoiding her because of her work. But Takamina’s excited voice had been enough to make her understand that her girlfriend had only been waiting patiently for her…
They had immediately decided to leave together, before it was too late. They didn’t want to take any chance, they had hurried so much that, again, their only conversations had been about what they were going to do during their trip. It was only once they had arrived somewhere far from Tokyo that they had had their first “real” conversation, about nothing else than how they missed each other.
“I missed you so much…” Takamina whispered.
“You’ve said that so many times…” Acchan laughed.
“But it’s true…”
Their lips met, making them sharing a short but cute kiss.
“I will never say it enough times.” Takamina said. “Work is hell… Why can’t we have more free time…”
Acchan sighed and embraced her girlfriend warmly.
“We have time now.”
She was right. Nobody was waiting for them. Nobody was there to tell them to go somewhere… No one was calling them… They had nothing scheduled for the next few weeks… Even their work seemed far away in the past… Even the time when they had been in AKB48 seemed gone somewhere far… For the first time, they had the feeling that… they could take their time… that time wasn’t missing anymore.
“I know…” Takamina murmured. “And I want to be with you each second of my life…”
“Don’t you think you’re overreacting?” Acchan smirked. “What if I want to go to the bathroom?”
“Um… then you better hurry.”
She felt so good in Acchan’s arms that she couldn’t even imagine the moment when they would move apart. It seemed impossible.
“I love you… I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you before.” Acchan apologized.
“Don’t say such depressive things. We’re together now… I don’t care about anything else.”
They both sighed, relieved to be together now. They had waited so long just to share moments like this… They had waited all their life to have time together… Since they knew each other, they had always been interrupted sooner or later, but now it seemed like they were alone in the entire universe… and that they could do whatever they wanted.
“I love you…” Acchan repeated, starting to kiss her girlfriend.
The few quick kisses she gave her soon transformed to something deeper. She opened her mouth and Takamina, without opposing any resistance, did the same, tasting Acchan’s sweet taste. When their lips finally moved apart, the singer was trying to control her heartbeat and breath as Acchan was still caressing her neck with her lips.
“I don’t want… anyone else… to have you…” The actress whispered at her girlfriend’s ear.
She was breathing Takamina’s scent everywhere, making it hers, giving her sweet and tender kisses everywhere, on her neck, her shoulders, her face, her arms… coming back slowly on her lips where their tongues started dancing together as she slowly took out her shirt. Moving her lips all over her body, still holding her hand preciously, Acchan soon managed to free Takamina’s cute body from her clothes.
Tracing invisibles lines on her girlfriend’s soft skin, Acchan kept the eyes contact between them, knowing perfectly she was being really slow just to increase their desire to go farther. There was no need to hurry… and this sensual atmosphere was everything she ever wanted.
She shivered as she felt Takamina’s hands on her back, taking out her own clothes. She felt Takamina’s hand passing through her hair nicely as they shared another kiss, longer and definitely more passionate than the others.
When they both tried to catch their breath, Acchan suddenly moved, pulling Takamina under her, moving as close as possible, starting intensely at her, like she was waiting for a possible stop… but nothing was said.
“Acchan…”
The actress had stopped moving, looking Takamina’s entire body, admiring it, caressing it, thinking that what she desired from the bottom of her heart was lying under her own body…
She didn’t want anyone else to touch this person. She didn’t want anyone else to look at this person… She wanted her to become… hers, entirely.
Tonight, she wanted Takamina to repeat her name over and over again…
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When there’s nothing to do anymore… When time’s isn’t missing anymore… When there’s nothing in front of us… We feel better. We think we can finally live normally… But it fact, time is not missing, it’s only us who use it in the wrong way because no matter what…
There is always time for love.
The End
Just wrote this when I was wasting my time :D XD God, feel glad I haven't killed anyone, I was in a bad mood -.-'
Yes, I'm still trying to find ideas for another possible long story... Just wait... Btw... any problem about me writing another sad story? :nervous
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It's deep wow
I don't like sad fic but if it's you, I think it could be ok lol please no too sad xD
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^ Thank XD I create deep things without really knowing it (according to others) :nervous
Not too sad........ Eh.................................... *No comments/run away*
Thank to everyone reading :grin:
Two happy stories... ENOUGH XD
This short one-shot has no pairings... coz... Well first I couldn't choose... and yeahhhh... let's just say it's a crazy idea I got... The story line may not be clear, but it goes with the title.
Advice: Don't read :nervous
Sorry for the mistakes!
Madness
Silence.
Why have I done that?
What exactly happened?
Why is it all dark around me?
Please, someone, tell me this is not true… Tell me it’s only a bad dream right now… Tell me this substance at my feet isn’t really blood… Tell me… to wake up…
Why do I suddenly remember everything? Why can’t I forget it… Am I really that mad? Have I lost reason so much? Looking around me, there’s no mistake. There’s only one way to interpret this situation… and it’s the worst.
I know what happened. I’m aware of everything I did. I remember screams, tears, blood, punches… I still hear your pleading voice supplying me to stop, to move back… You told me I’ve become a monster… I remember the way you tried to protect yourself, I remember the way I cried too… I remember everything… especially the look you gave me. But I also know I haven’t stopped. I was sane when I did it, and it is what scares me the most. I… totally knew how it was going to end.
“STOP IT!”
This voice still echoes in my head, like an endless nightmare. It’s like the ultimate warning… something to stop me from doing this… but I haven’t listened to it. I haven’t listened to anything, and now I’m stuck in this situation… How can I disappear now? How can I leave this world? Is it possible for me to… close my eyes and forget? When I close them… it’s worse. The whole scene is on replay in my head…
There’s still the sound of drops falling on the floor… There’s only this sound to remind me I’m not dreaming. This… and the emptiness in my heart. Why can’t I wake up? Is it already that late? Probably not… it’s just that I’ve already reach the point of no return. I have to leave this piece. I have to run away… I have to hide myself from reality… I have to protect my heart from the pain.
It’s too late, right? For the both of us, it’s too late. We can’t be saved. I condemned you… and myself to a horrible fate.
I leave the piece… and I know it’s only a matter of time before something else happen. As I walk, I’m looking at many pictures here and there on the wall. It’s my house after all, I know exactly where to go… The pictures are all the same. It’s you and me, smiling, our eyes showing happiness. Why couldn’t it stay like this? Why did it have to change? Why couldn’t you be more serious about us? These pictures and memories… I treasured them more than anything else… and you just had to destroy everything.
I told you I loved you more than anything… and you stabbed me in the back in exchange.
Who was she? I never knew it… but you suddenly left me without saying anything, taking your things and disappearing from my life. The last time I’ve seen you… you were in someone else’s arms… and you seemed to have totally forgotten about me. I still can’t believe it each time I think about it.
I did my best to talk to you again, to make you fall in love with me again… but you just rejected me heartlessly. What have I been to you? Nothing? A pure joke? At least, you could have been honest with me and tell me how you felt… but you preferred to betray me secretly until I found out about it. It’s always the way people suffer the most, right? Did you do it on purpose? Tell me yes, and I would have died… tell me no, and I would not have believed you.
We were perfect together… until there.
You could have given us another chance… I would have proved you everything was fine, that I loved you more than anything, that I was ready to die for you! But instead, you just make me believing something that wasn’t true. I can’t remember how many nights I spent alone waiting for you, only to realize you were gone at someone else’s home. You can’t imagine how much it hurts to see someone else taking care of the one you love… I don’t even remember the last time you kissed me… the last time you told me you loved me honestly… the last time I held you in my arms… The last time I felt your body by my side...
“STOP IT!”
In my head, these words are still there… Am I talking to myself, or am I talking to you, even if you can’t hear me? I just… want to go elsewhere… I just want… to save myself, even if I know it’s useless. I want to save myself… but this scent follows me everywhere… The scent of death.
I hear sounds outside. I hear voices… and people trying to come inside. But no one will. No one will come in and find me… right? You are there but you can’t do anything…
My heart hurts. My soul’s broken. My mouth’s dry. I can't breathe...
I didn’t want this to happen. I didn’t want to do it… I didn’t want to make you suffer this way… I didn’t want to see this painful look you gave me… But no matter how hard I try to escape it, I know… I know what I’ve done… Blood’s there to prove it. Blood… and this soiled knife I’m holding right now. It fell. The sound it makes is horrible… The silence soon comes back… and the fear too.
I’m scared of myself.
Am I alone? I don’t want to be alone… I’ve never wanted to… Why did I do something like this? Why… was I aware of what I was doing? Why… my body did kept moving when I should have stopped? Why did I do that if it was only to make me suffer more? I guess frustration was too important… and hatred had taken more place than love… You were gone. I didn’t want to be the only suffering. I didn’t want to be left behind… I didn’t want… you to be to someone else than me… You were mine… and if you couldn’t be mine, then you couldn’t be anyone else’s.
Someone please… tell me I’m not here…
It’s not me, right? Tell me… It’s not me… People know who I am… they know I would have never done that… I was respected and loved… I respected anyone… I had a beautiful life… money, friends, even unknown people from everywhere around the world loved me too… I know that! I know people love me! I know I am respected! I know I have true values… and even so…
It’s dark. There’s no light on, but I know you are here… in the room I just left. I know… you’re breathing. I know… you’re living… But not for long. It’s impossible for you to survive… I know… that I hit you more than needed…
Revenge… You have no right to be with someone else.
I can’t just wait here… Whoever the other person you love was… she will suffer. No one can have you except me. No one can make you smile like I did… YOU CAN’T BE HAPPY WITHOUT ME.
I hate you! I hate the way you left me! I have everything about you! What I did, I don’t regret it! You have no right to live without me! I can’t let you live this way! I hate you so much right now… I can’t believe I even loved you for a second! No one can! You’re the worst, the most horrible person living on earth right now! But not for long… I wish I could come back to this damn room and rip your head off!
…
I love you…
“Why…”
I don’t know! I couldn’t answer to your last whisper, and I still can’t! I don’t know what the answer is… Even if I’m trying with all my might, I can’t find the right answer… I’m lost. I want to erase everything… I want to come back to the past… I want this heavy atmosphere to leave… I want… I don’t know anymore.
I hear steps… I have to leave this place… I have to leave this damn house… They’re closer… They managed to force the door… I can hear them… screaming… They finally find what I did. No… I don’t want to face reality… I know what I did… I know how I did it… I know why I did it… but I don’t want to face reality… They’re in front of me… I’m lying on the floor, almost unconscious…
“It’s me…”
My whisper can’t be heard by anyone except me… My apologized won’t ever be heard by anyone.
“I killed her…”
I’m not crazy, am I? I’m not mad, am I? I’m a good person… right?
“Leave me alone…”
Why can’t they leave… I’ve never done anything bad… so let me do it at least once in my life! Let me finally do what I always wanted to do! For the first time, I don’t want to hide it anyone… I can’t hide it anymore… Once in my life… let me do what I want!
“I killed her… the girl I love”
Everything... is dark…
I am... alive...
The End
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Sorry for the late comment.. but Oh God :cry: :cry: , you made me cry so much, FOR REAL! so much in pain inside! ughhh :cry: :cry:
It made me punch my brother for making fun of me 'cause i'm crying like hell! :angry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
You know i hate to cry, but your stories are just so sad :cry: :cry: :cry: , i wanna scream!! i wanna hug someone! someone that i love so much!! :cry: :cry:
You're great when it comes to sad stories, you can able to write a whole book with it! If you will be a succesful author someday, i will totally buy all your books!! :) :)
please update soon!! i love you already!! :) :heart:
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Takamina killed Acchan????
Bou, it's so sad!
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I really like your One Shots :heart:
Although some are really sad... :cry: and I don't really like sad endings :(
Because it made me sad too :fainted:
But the one with the happy endings made me happy too :nya:
And :luvluv1: :luvluv2:
I'll be waiting for your next One Shot :hee:
Thank you for the update :kneelbow:
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LOL I feel bad for answering comments when I don't even remember the last time I post here :nervous
@haruhi16: Oh my, sorry for making you crying! I didn't mean... well, okay I mean to shock people, but not to the "crying" point! I'm happy you enjoy my fic though :nervous Sorry... and well I still need a lot to become a real "author" XD
@Kahem: I didn't put any name :P so it's your fault if you interprete it this way :P Yes it's sad, sorry XD
@skytsuna: Oh LOL I don't know if you're still waiting... It's been over 5 months :nervous Hum... thank for supporting me :D I'll try to write more happy ending :thumbup
I'M BACK :grin: Wonder if my readers are still there or if most of them just gave up on waiting....... After so long time :huhuh Well...hehe... I'm sorry?
Fine, I know. There's no need to apologize because you are all going to forgive me!!!!!!!! No? No. :nervous
I wrote a lot recently. Over 30 pages for 2 one shot, in two days. That was how much I missed writing :heart:
But you know, I believe that writing is not easy. You can't just write non-stop, update like there's no tomorrow and just fck the quality of your fic. You can't write a chapter/one shot in less than 1-2 hour either. It's like... well my opinion is that, it just doesn't work. Idk if it is because English is not my native language, but when I write a One Shot, I plan the story line, often from the beginning to the end. Then, I decide the coupling who fit the story the most. Then, make some modifications, add or remove event, so that it will be more credible. Then, write some notes on a note book about it, some ideas I could include, some things I think would fit and after only, I start typing in microsoft word. When it's done, I do all modifications and think a lot about what is not well said, what can be improved, and the end. In fact, it's longer than just sitting and waiting for inspiration. Some people are able to do it this way, and it's admirable, but I'm not this way :)
So I think to stop writing helped me to think about fics and ideas, and what I could do with this. Of course, I couldn't start writing the PinkVitriol sequel already, when it has been over 5 months I haven't written anything. It's be like... I'm not used to write anymore, I'm not going to start with the huge thing already. It'd be suicide :lol: Therefore, I wrote One Shots, so I can get used to write again. (THE AWESOME EXCUSE TO EXPLAIN WHY I'M NOT WRITING P.V. ALREADY LOL)
I'm posting one today (KojiYuu), another one next week (RayxKai), and a third one (AtsuMina) I'm going to write the following week. I hope it will be fast enough for you :)
All this to say that I'm back in JPHIP again, and I hope I will still be able to write after vacations (but you know I don't want to think about it LOL)
Enjoy, and as usual, sorry for the mistakes (can't help it XD)
Heaven's gonna wait (KojiYuu)
They were only eight years old when they met for the first time. They didn’t know each other and act in opposite ways. While one was rather shy and playing by herself, the other was very sociable, talking and joking with everyone, spreading the “happiness” virus around wherever she would go. They never talked to each other more than a few minutes though. The sociable little girl thought this loner was too strange, and the loner was… loner. They would often look at each other, not really knowing why they did so. In their little children’s heart, they just felt the other person may be someone good despite the appearances.
The incident happened a few weeks after the beginning of the class. The two girls were playing outside for dinner break. A bit airhead, the loner went walking apart of the others, eventually leaving the place. The teachers didn’t give enough attention to her, and she managed to go walking alone in the streets. This city was huge, too big for a little child like her, but she was not afraid. Her parents had always told her not to talk to strangers and she would rather listen to them than try and regret it. However, she was very prudent by herself. She only walked around where she could still recognize the places.
Sometimes she felt bad to be alone all the time. Sometimes she felt like she wanted to have a circle of friends like the other girl she had often looked at. However, she didn’t feel like talking to everyone. Too much attention made her sick. She would never be as sociable as her opposite, the perfect other little girl everyone even the teachers adored. She was a bit jealous, but she would rather walk in the street by herself than being surrounded by friends she would probably lose after school would be done. Plus, she didn’t care about her reputation more than needed. The opinion people have about her didn’t bother her at all.
She progressively heard noting but silence. She was deep in her world and nothing could get her out. She was walking in empty streets with nothing but emptiness around her. She started to imagine a world where there would be nothing that separated her from others. A world where she could walk free from all the prejudices, because even if she was young, she knew some people didn’t like her character. A slight car sound could be heard far away in another part of her mind. She could almost be invisible in the middle of everything. Nothing could disturb her…
“WATCH OUT!”
A little ball of energy ran into her, making her falling badly on the side of the road. She heard a loud sound passing by as a huge truck almost hit her. The whistle echoed in her ears as she watched the other person who had literally jumped on her a few seconds ago, saving her from an inevitable collision. Panting, the other girl glanced at her like she was mad.
“You’re stranger than I thought.” She said. “You didn’t even hear the truck coming! It was so loud! It almost killed you!”
“R-Really?” The shy girl asked, sobbing.
It didn’t take long for her to start crying, as the shock was slowly leaving her small body.
“I-I did?” She whispered. “I didn’t want! I didn’t want it! I was just thinking! I didn’t want-“
“It’s fine!” The other girl smiled, almost praying for her to stop crying and stay calm.
Even if she was really sociable, she didn’t know how to deal with crying people for sure. She didn’t know what she would do if her comrade didn’t stop crying. She felt bad now. She hated when people cried… and adults were looking at them weirdly, like they had just committed a crime or something.
“Y-You saved me?” The shy girl sobbed.
The “hero” denied it.
“Of course no… I just… didn’t think.”
She had been really surprised when she had seen her leaving the school. She wondered where she was going and had decided to follow her. Seeing the truck coming right after her, faster, bigger, dangerous shadow… she had had no choice but to push her hard. To her, it was just a natural reflex.
“You know”, the other girl said as she stopped crying, “I’m not afraid of dying.”
She wasn’t afraid because she knew it wouldn’t change a lot for her. Being alone and walking on earth or being alone and walking somewhere else, there wasn’t any difference. Moreover, she didn’t believe that there was anything after life.
“How can you say that?!” The joyful girl said, surprised. “We’re young and alive! There’s no way we’re going to die now! Don’t you think it’d be really a shame to die so young?”
The shy girl shook her head. She had been looking at the world long enough to know it wasn’t a shame to die. She lived a beautiful life compared to some other children stuck at the hospital for mysterious and incurable illnesses. When she thought about death, she thought about a big blue sky with a sun that would always be present. She didn’t think about some dark place without any life. Only adults thought it was this way because they were afraid of dying. But she was innocent, and her airhead character helped her to believe if she had died, it would have only been the end of her life nothing more, nothing less.
“I don’t think it is a shame.” She just smiled shyly. “I don’t mind dying if it is inevitable. Look, if I walk in the streets again and that some accident happens, I can’t really help it. And it’s not like anyone would really care ab-”
She was interrupted by a move the other girl did: A big “X” with her arms.
“Heaven will wait for you.” She winked. “You’re not going to die now, aren’t you?”
There was no answer.
“Come on, it’s not like angels were waiting for you, you know? Follow me! We’re going back to school. You shouldn’t be there first!” She frowned.
The shy girl looked around her. She was back in the city, in the middle of a giant intersection with many cars crossing it every minute. The emptiness feeling was gone… everyone was back. She was back to reality again… The hard reality of a loner.
“I wanted to walk around, there’s nothing bad about it!”
Seeing the little kid she had just saved pouting so cutely, the sociable girl couldn’t help smiling. She thought that, despite her shyness, she was really cute and that she would totally love to become her friend.
“There’s nothing bad, but not now.” She said, trying to be friendly. “If you want, I’ll go with you someday and we’ll go eat some ramens!”
The loner shook her head. She didn’t want to be part of the huge circle of friends of the most sociable child she had ever known. She didn’t want to be “one” amongst so many people. Being “one” just made her like everyone… and she wanted to be unique.
“Thank for saving me, but I’d rather walk alone.” She smiled shyly.
“You’re really cute! Why are you always alone!” The sociable girl said, not shy at all. “I think I already love you! You know we could become great friends!”
There was an awkward silence between the shy and the sociable girl. The first one didn’t know what to say, and the other one was smiling as much as she could.
“Hey… I like your eyes too!” The second one said, moving near the one she had helped a minute ago. “And your skin seems so soft… And your face is so cute… And-“
“Too close!” The other girl screamed as she moved back. “What are you doing?!”
A bit surprised by this kind of reaction, the excited girl moved back too. She stared at her. None of her friends would reject her for such a small thing. She only complimented her, there was nothing bad about it! She felt a bit hurt, but didn’t show it. At least, she had saved a life today, but still… What had she done? They were just playing together, weren’t they? It was a game only…
“Thank for saving me.” The shy girl said. “I’m going back to school.”
It was the last time they talked together. When they came back to school, the teacher was waiting at them, not really happy.
“Yuko, Haruna, where have you been?! I even called your parents!”
“I saved her.” Yuko said proudly. “She was about to get hit by a car and-”
“WHAT?!” The teacher screamed as he called another adult while he would bring them to the nearest hospital, even though they had nothing.
As soon as Yuko had said what had happened, the other children all came and congratulated her, like if it was the only thing to do. No one asked Haruna if she was hurt. They only talked to Yuko, the superstar who had saved someone. The teacher made them stop and took them to the hospital. In the car, there was nothing but silence. Haruna and Yuko just stared at each other for a minute, but knowing the shy girl would rather stay quiet, Yuko didn’t insist.
“She could at least be less cold with me…” She thought sadly. “I really think she’s cute… maybe the cutest amongst my friends…”
After the short examination by the doctor, the teacher didn’t take any chance and ask their parents to come take them. He didn’t want to bring them back to school since the other children would be even more excited.
They never spoke together again, even if Haruna owned her life to Yuko. Maybe they were just not at ease together… or maybe they just didn’t feel like talking together. What had happened was an accident, an accident only. They acted like if it had never happened. But truly, Haruna was really thankful to her comrade. She just didn’t feel like being the first one to talk to her, not after the way she had scared her last time. She didn’t have the intention of being so rude, but she would only allow her parents to be that close to her. It was just… another cute part of her shyness.
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“Another beer here please!” The customer screamed.
“Coming!”
The restaurant was full. It wasn’t a chic restaurant, more like a bar, where customers could talk loudly, where everyone liked to drink and where there was a joyful atmosphere. In the middle of a passionate conversation, Yuko didn’t really pay attention to what was happening around their table. She had just being promoted in the company she worked in, and they celebrated her new nomination.
Many years had passed since this event. She had lost contact with her friends from this part of her life. Her popularity had been ephemera. Soon, she started working as a child actress before stopping suddenly after her family had some problems with media. She didn’t even remember the face of the girl she had saved years ago. She remembered she had thought she was cute, but it was the only thing she could remember. She didn’t even know why she had thought she was cute… it was just like an evidence, a sentence, prisoner of her soul. Now, she was an adult. She had a new life. She had responsibilities. She had everything. The only missing thing she was still looking for was love. Sure, there were some good guys at the place she worked. Sure, there were some potentials boyfriends among her friends… but she didn’t feel anything toward them. And it wasn’t like if marriage was her priority.
But she had to admit that, despite her nomination, her life was quite boring. There was nothing new. Nothing ever happened. Her world was the same. She was joyful and loved her life, but it was the same routine over and over again. She would do anything to have a special event popping out of nowhere. She wanted to meet new people, travel around the world, live like a celebrity for a day, fly… She had an endless list of things she wanted to do before dying, and though most of them were not realistic, she believed she could do it someday.
She was a dreamer.
“So, any plan for the future?”
She stared at her coworker and smiled. He was the one she liked the most. Never too serious, he knew how to make her smile even if the hardest times. If one guy had some chances with her, it was definitely him. Plus, he was great looking. However, she had “friendzoned” him, knowing she would never really love him the way he did.
“Eating?”
He smiled back.
“Of course! Another plate here, please!”
They were all enjoying themselves. Some songs were playing at the radio, and when the most popular song of the moment played, Yuko forgot about the fact that she was an adult. She started dancing in the middle of the restaurant, without caring if some people couldn’t handle her craziness. The place where she worked already knew how she was, so she was not scared of being fired about that.
The waiters and waitresses did look at her like she was a fool though.
“It’s AKB48!!! I love their songs!” She said happily as “Heavy Rotation” was playing at the radio.
Her friend, the “almost-perfect-potential-friendzoned” boyfriend joined her and they started dancing together as the chorus played. The other coworkers just looked at then, though laughing a lot.
“I want you~ I need you~ I love you~”
“Why do you like them so much?” Her friend asked.
“Their songs just make me feel better. They make me feel like I always have something to believe in! I wish I was part of the group! There are some really cute girls there! And I respect them a lot, especially their captain. I mean, have you seen the work she does! It’s like… Oh, and have you seen the relationship between the girls! I’m sure some are totally in love with others! I don’t care if it’s fanservice, it is really-”
And she kept talking, in front of a smiling guy. He loved how she would talk about AKB48 for eternity. He had heard those words so many times, but seeing Yuko so happy when she talked about it made him feeling like he could listen to her forever. He had to admit he liked AKB48 too. They had great songs and some girls really had talent. Of course, he thought, too, that some were really beautiful and cute. Seeing Yuko “fangirling/ that much, even more than he did, just amazed him.
Some others songs played and they kept dancing in the middle of the tables for a moment until a tall waitress asked them to stop.
“She’s boring.” Yuko pouted as she sat back at her table. “We were having fun! And it’s my favourite group, seriously!”
“Are you sure you don’t start to be drunk?”
“NO!” She yelled. “Look! I’m eating, I’m not even drinking now!”
As soon as her sentence was done, another plate of delicious food appeared in front of her magically. It was the same waitress who had asked them to stop because they disturbed the other customers.
“Fine, maybe she’s not that boring…” Yuko smirked as she started eating quickly. “It’s so delicious!”
While she was eating, she surprised herself as she realized she couldn’t stop looking at the strange waitress. She was tall, thin, cute, polite and her laugh, coming from the other side of the room, sounded beautiful to Yuko. She was dressed in a nice way despite the fact that the restaurant was quite normal. She, too, stared a minute at Yuko, and they both travelled back in the past as they swore this moment was familiar.
“She’s sooooo cute!” Her friend said.
“Don’t look at her, pervert!” Yuko joked, though she really meant those words.
“What?! You were doing the same!”
Yuko denied it saying that, because she was a girl, it was normal, that she wasn’t looking at her in a pervert way, that she was just looking at someone like she would do for anyone else… but she knew he was right. She was cute… even… sexy. She was the kind of girl Yuko could clearly imagine being part of her favourite group. Her eyes crossed hers for the second time of the night and she knew this situation was familiar. She just couldn’t remember where she had seen them. This woman… was just perfect. She was working, fine, but even if she didn’t wear make-up, even if she wasn’t perfectly dressed, even if it wasn’t the proper place, Yuko felt her heartbeat increased, just a little bit…
The reason why she hadn’t found anyone to love yet… was it because she had been looking at the wrong place all this time? Maybe she was just not looking at the right… gender. She had been blind by her beliefs that she could only be in love with a man… but what if it wasn’t right?
She looked once again at the waitress’ direction, only to find her talking with some other customers. She could see her clearly, and she knew she had never found someone like her. She was beautiful, pretty, gorgeous… Yuko knew it was insane, but she would suddenly be ready to give anything just to be able to taste her lips…
“Day dreaming again?” Her friend asked.
“No! I’m eating! See?!” She replied harshly as she took a HUGE part of the food.
While she tried to swallow her pride, she looked once again at “her” direction. The waitress was also looking intensely at her. Yuko froze. Those eyes… She recognized them. She could recognize them amongst thousand… but then, she started choking.
She coughed a little at the start, but soon, she realized she couldn’t breathe at all. She was choking… she coughed, moved her arms, asking for help. She shivered, thinking it might be the last thing she would do. The air was surrounding her, yet not even one little particle of oxygen would join her lung. She was literally dying in this stupid and ridiculous way!
She felt trapped in her own body. She felt like there was nothing she could do to get freedom again. She didn’t want to die yet! Not when she had finally found what she had been looking for! She was prisoner of this physical burden… She couldn’t swallow, she couldn’t breathe, she couldn’t even see clearly around her as everything went blurred. Her friend tried to save her, but it didn’t work. She felt many people slapping her back, but it was the wrong way, and she hated them for hurting her even more.
She felt like she could die, not because of the food, but because of the shame of this situation. She didn’t want the waitress to see her in this… humiliating situation.
As her eyes started to close due to the lack of air, she felt a soft touch on her. Someone was wrapping her with their arms. She felt good in these arms… Even if was going to die, she felt the warm of the body right behind her made her feel really good. Then… it hurt. She felt a hard punch in her stomach, right next to the diaphragm. She felt like she had some broken bones in her chest. She still couldn’t breathe and this time, it hurt even more as the person behind her started again.
“She’s breathing!” Someone screamed. “Call the hospital!”
Yuko had never wanted air that much. She breathed like there was no tomorrow, ignoring the crowd around her just to get some oxygen in her blood. She was covered by sweat. She had never been so afraid of dying.
She closed her eyes and lay on the floor for a moment. She could still see stars flying around her head.
“Are you alright?” A cute, yet worried voice asked.
Yuko opened her eyes slowly just to face the waitress she had been staring at all night. There were two centimetres of distance between them.
“Cute… an angel…” Yuko thought as the waitress moved back, visibly reassured that she was going to be fine.
“That was so cool!” Yuko’s friend said.
“You saved me… Thank you very much!” Yuko said as she bowed politely once she was able to stand on her feet.
Everyone was surrounding the waitress by question. Only Yuko’s coworkers ask her if she was fine. They made her sit despite her insistence of wanting to talk to the woman who had saved her. It seemed to be the exact opposite situation of what had happened years ago. Yuko’s eyes were totally glued at the woman. She couldn’t move. It soon became uncomfortable to her and she asked to talk to her in private, which the waitress accepted, impatient to leave this piece where everyone couldn’t stop looking at them.
“Thank you…” Yuko said as they were alone.
The waitress smiled politely, like she would do with anyone from the restaurant.
“It was nothing. It was only a way to thank you for saving me before.”
“I knew… it was you…”
The two women stared at each other like they used to do before. It was faith for them to meet again, especially in these circumstances. Yuko had saved her life before… and now it was the opposite. But they had totally forgotten about it until today… Was it their destiny to meet?
“Like you said, you’re not going to die now. It seems heaven will have to wait for you to come there…” Haruna smirked. “I remember everything now… what a meeting. I didn’t expect to see you again.”
“No really?!” Yuko was super excited. “I can’t believe it! You remember me! You even remember what I told you! I’m so happy! You’re Haruna, right? I knew it since I started looking at you in the restaurant!”
She was totally over reacting. Maybe she just couldn’t stand being next to the cutest girl she had ever met in her life, but in any case, Haruna’s character was still the same. She had grown in a beautiful way, and Yuko felt like she couldn’t let her go this time.
“You’re strange…” Haruna said slowly. “And you’re lying! There’s no way you would have recognized me!”
“Really? I knew it, because you’re cuter now… No, wait, you’re really beautiful!” Yuko said as Haruna frowned, not used by this familiar tone when they had never been friendly together. “I mean it! Don’t be afraid of my words… I really think you are.”
They had always ignored each other after the incident… Why was Yuko acting like they had been best friends?! It annoyed Haruna a little bit, though she liked the fact that Yuko was almost talking to her like she was a model. For once, she felt a bit superior to the girl she had admired secretly in her childhood.
“In any case, I have to go back to work now. I’m glad I saved you. You scared me.”
Yuko flinched. She didn’t want her to leave her now that she had found her! And it was sure faith! It couldn’t just be a random meeting when they were related this way in the past! She really meant those words. She really thought she was beautiful. She really… even though they had just met again and they weren’t that close, she really felt something special in her heart when they eyes would meet. There was no way she could just go back to her table and do like if nothing happened. If the present was alike to the past, then it was because she had the chance to start again and to create something new.
“Can I have your number?” She asked, insisting. “It’s just… I want to keep in touch… I think we could become great friends.”
And maybe more, who knew. Yuko now knew why she had never fallen in love for real before. She knew why she couldn’t fall in love with her closest boy friends when they were so nice with her. It was a damn evidence she had never paid attention to… but Haruna’s presence had light up everything in her mind.
“Please?” She repeated. “Don’t tell me you don’t think our meeting isn’t special! You saved me! You saved my life! I did the same before!”
Yuko had not changed at all. Always excited to meet new people, always sociable, always happy… Even Haruna knew it. She had recognized her funny character… Haruna had changed too. Not only was she a beautiful woman now, but her personality had changed too. She was open to everything and anyone’s ideas. She liked to hang out with her friends, and she was not alone all the time like she used to be. She had learned to open her heart. And her inner voice told her that she, too, wanted to meet Yuko again, in another context.
“Fine…” Haruna sighed, though smiling.
They exchanged numbers and when they were about to go back in the main room, Yuko couldn’t help saying:
“You know, I really do think that you’re cuter… I would marry you right away if I were a man.”
This funny yet serious sentence made Haruna laughed and blushed.
“Then, I’m lucky you’re a girl…” Haruna said awkwardly.
“What?! But two girls can get together too! Don’t worry about that! We’re meant to be together!” Yuko said happily. “I’ll find a way, you’ll see!”
“What?! But-”
But the woman was already back in the main room, leaving a speechless Haruna behind her. She didn’t really mean what she had just said, right? She didn’t, RIGHT?! They were not even friends, how come she could already think this way?! That was way too fast for the poor waitress who just didn’t know what to think anymore.
“Meant to be together? What was that?!” She thought as she received a text.
“Come back soon! There are a lot of customers and I want to see you while I’m eating!”
Haruna sighed… Was it really a good idea to give her number to this crazy woman? Though… she had to admit she wanted to be her friend too… She started walking to the room when her phone vibrated a second time. She sighed again, louder. She started regretting it already.
“I miss you already!!!”
She frowned. It was a very bad idea indeed… but she enjoyed this attention. When she walked in the main room, coming back and hiding her cell phone, she did her best to avoid Yuko’s eyes on her while she was working. However, she soon felt that she couldn’t resist the tension for too long. She resisted, trying to be busy as much as she could, but as the restaurant was slowly becoming empty, she realized she couldn’t avoid her forever. The group was still at their table, and even at the very end of the night, they stayed, talking and laughing. Not once did Haruna look at them. It was probably the hardest thing she had ever had to do, and she couldn’t believe the power Yuko had on her, a few hours after their meeting.
When the place closed, she felt relieved. She had managed to avoid her the whole time. She had managed to ask someone to take the table at her place. She had managed to ignore the constant vibration of her cell phone in her pocket, though curiosity killed her.
She was about to go home when someone jumped on her as soon as her feet went outside.
“Finally!!!” An excited voice said. “I was waiting for you!”
No. Way.
“Are you stalking me?!” Haruna protested, thinking it was a really bad idea to accept Yuko’s proposition to become friends.
“I’m not! It’s normal to protect my future wife!” She declared proudly in front of a troubled woman.
Future wife? Future wife?!?
“What?! But I’m not going to-”
“Of course, we will start to be friends, but you will learn to know me and I know we will have a stronger relationship. Plus, I know that I don’t need to know you more than now. I really think you’re- Oh, is it your normal clothes? You’re so cute! Let me take a picture! Why aren’t you smiling?! Please! I’ll leave you alone after, I promise! Please!”
As Yuko continued her speech, Haruna didn’t know how to act. She had never been friend with someone like… like her! How should she act? Should she just smile? Should she pretend to be excited too? Should she ignore her?!
The last point was the best idea to her. She started walking in the opposite direction, rolling her eyes, though trying to hide a small smile at the corner of her lips.
“Wait for me!”
She saw Yuko literally running toward her and screamed.
“Are you crazy?!” She screamed as she started to run away, only to be followed by a laughing woman behind her.
She ran as fast as she could… but slowly, the craziness of the situation joined her and she started laughing too.
“Stop running!” She heard Yuko yelling.
“If you want to be my friend… You’ll have to catch me” She thought, though Yuko’s energy was enough to make her believe she was going to catch her in the next few minutes.
Maybe Yuko’s appearance… would be enough to bring a bit more fun in her life now…
“Got you!” She heard Yuko’s voice whispering in her ear. “Now you can’t escape from me anymore!”
Maybe…
The End
EndNote (They're back yeah!! XD): I don't believe in Heaven or God or whatever. It's just the concept of the story. No religion war, please XD
EndNote 2: It's been a LONG time I haven't written and this is actually the very first thing I wrote when I started writing after a 5 months break, so of course, IT'S NOT PERFECT, and it is like... a practice XD I hope you enjoyed though. I think the three OneShot will have some sad parts... but happy ending. The last One Shot (madness) I wrote was quite intense. I need a break from all this depressed atmosphere. Love is great, people :heart:
EndNote3: This OS is inspired from a real life event (not mine of course though it would have been quite nice O_O)
Happy new year in advance!!! LET'S ALL BE HAPPY FOR THE NEW YEAR!!! Don't drink too much :grin: And don't worry too much about life guys, we'll die on 2012, December 21 LOL XD #Can'tWaitToSeeEveryonePanickingAtThePretendingEndOfTheWorld
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Bou-j525, you're back. :twothumbs
Love all the fics you had written previously and now KojiYuu (my fav OTP :twothumbs :inlove: )
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Heaven and God, which is which, it doesn't mind. As long as one believe there is there will be. (Just happen, I was talking with my friend, regarding this)
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Always like the way you protray the characters.
Waiting for your next one-shot. :w00t:
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Yuko ow~ I like her character in this fic^^
So sweet and clinging as usual. And the mini-stalking part is funny
Hum 2012? We will see
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Whaaaat? You just end it there?!? I was enjoying reading this one!! YOU NEED TO CONTINUE THIS!!! SERIOUSLY!!!
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Aww, Yuko is just -- i love her character here. :heart: you made my love for kojiyuu pairing come back :deco: thanks for the update. can't wait for the next OS. :heart:
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@luckymmsg: Thank you :grin: And yeah, I wanted to update a KojiYuu coz I missed them XD
@kahem: Mini stalking part was fun to write at least XD I wanted to add more... but it turned out I was only repeating the same thing so I gave up :P
@haruhi16: Oh well, I felt I had to end it there :nervous I could have continued, but I like to cut suddenly in my OS so people can just imagine the rest... and well, as I said, I was only repeating the same things so :/
@crazywota: WHAT??? Your love for KojiYuu was gone? Hard to believe XD Here's the next one, enjoy ^^
So. I'm a bit "late" of 2 days, so I don't think you guys will be mad about it. The only thing is that I'll probably not be able to update my third OS next week because I'm too busy writing the first chapter of my other story sequel and I want to finish it before I leave for Paris. :nervous At least you'll have chapt 1 before I leave, I promise *superhero mood*
Also, I wanted to update this OS last Thursday... but then FOF updated... And I really didn't feel like updating a KaixRay story at the same time because I was too busy fangirling about reading FOF's end XD Yeah whatever, let pretend I didn't say anything :nervous
Here's my second OS: A KaixRay story from Mendol! Oh how it's been a loooooong time!!! I only wrote one story about them... At the very beginning of my AKB fandom here... and Nami ended up with Acchan LOL Guess that was my hardcore Atsumina phase back then :lol: Still there, but not as "hardcore" :nervous But now it's KAI, not Nami in this story :P
I made an index at the first post so if you want to find one OS in particular, it'll be easier.
I wanted to updated a OS for Christmas, so it's a bit "christmas" theme, not much though. I had FUN to write this one... especially Ray's reactions :theking
Sorry for the mistakes.
Accident
I’m alone.
My soul left the earth a week ago, leaving my empty body behind.
Everyone has problems. Everyone has, so people probably think I’m suffering from a temporary depression. Why can’t I tell everyone about it? The answer’s simple. When I tell other people, they would start listening for the few first seconds before leaving me or pretending they listen to what I say. Why would they pay attention when they have so much to do? Always forcing us to do everything faster, our society makes us individualist. Some would listen to my problems, but as soon as they have something more important to do, they leave me. Some would pretend they care, and as soon as someone more interesting to talk with appears, they leave me too. Being the diva doesn’t mean being listened. There is always a person more important than you in your friends’ heart… I used to be important to someone too… but I’m not sure if I still am now…
So I’m sitting there, waiting for an angel to appear, waiting for you to come and bring me where you are… wherever you are. I used to be important to you… right? Then why did things turn out like this? I must look happy and all for my next show… but I swear, I’ve never been that sad before… Of course, fans will never understand. They need to see me smiling… If they knew about my weakness, it would be such a shame. There is only one person in the world able to see my weakness… and I wonder if I will ever be able to see this person again… And it will soon be Christmas… the most beautiful time of the year for lovers…
Lovers… I guess I will spend the Christmas night alone this year. And to think it would have been our first Christmas together… We had talked about it so much… You had promised me it would be the most beautiful Christmas ever. You promised to be there with me… I was so happy… I was so excited… I wanted this night to be our night… I wanted to give you everything I had… I wanted us to spend the best time ever…
Why… am I trapped in this world? Without you, I will never be able to do anything… Come back… It’s just… I can’t live without you. I’m loosing control on everything now.
I take a deep breath and stare one last time to the newspaper article. Then, I slowly walk away… because I would never forgive myself if someone saw me crying.
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In the night of December 10th, a tragic accident occurred in the North of Tokyo. The charismatic diva, Ray, was one of the victims of the scene. No one exactly knows what happened, but something is sure, the Diva is lucky to still be walking on Earth today.
It happened around 9pm. Ray and her lover, the well-known Kai from Persona, had left to the north of the country for a short trip. They were riding Kai’s motorbike, and it seemed that the most famous singer of Music 10 was the only one wearing a helmet when Persona’s singer lost control of the vehicle. Another car was in front of them, and the motorbike smashed on it. They literally crashed on the road. Some witnesses mentioned that the motorbike broke in pieces as the two bodies were violently thrown on the road.
The motorbike went on fire, but “luckily”, the two lovers were already ejected from the vehicle. According to the man who was following them when it happened, Ray was the one wearing the helmet, and it seemed they didn’t have another one. However, he mentioned that when he started following them, Kai was wearing it. Just before the accident occurred, though everything went really fast, it seemed that Kai had given his helmet to Ray and that she had embraced him very tight. In the next minute, they were both lying on the road, unconscious.
When he tried to help them, they were both covered with blood, so he panicked and just called the police. This view was not really clear; the visibility was bad. There was a lot of fog and Kai had probably just been victim of the speed of the motorbike.
While the police are still investigating on this case that almost stole the life of two famous people, Ray’s fans are really relieved that the famous helmet saved her life. As for Kai, he is still in the hospital, and his fans are waiting for a miracle to happen. According to the doctors, this accident was fatal to him, and the chances for him to wake up are closer to zero than to any other number.
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“There is absolutely no way I’m going to ride this!” Ray growled as she saw Kai coming on his new motorbike.
Kai, member of the famous group “Persona” had a big smile on his face when he stopped near his girlfriend. He was a nice boy, with a “rebel” attitude when he wanted. He hated to show his affection in public, especially with Ray, knowing the Diva could think farther than him really easily. He had this “I don’t care” attitude, which could make him really sexy some times. He would often smile at his girlfriend, which was enough to erase all the little fights they could have. In fact, he really cared about her. He would do anything for her.
They had been together for almost two months already, and they definitely described themselves as the happiest couple living on earth. At the beginning, Kai had really thought the Diva would never date a newbie and short guy like him, but in the end, it seemed that she didn’t care too much about it. He had clearly told her that she might get problems if she dated him, but she didn’t care about that either. In fact, no matter what argument Kai told her, it seemed it was only making Ray falling more for him.
And he had to admit he was happy this way. He never said it, but Ray’s rejection would have depressed him. A lot. More than he wanted to admit it himself.
“Look Ray! It’s really cool, isn’t it?!” He said, excited at his new vehicle.
It was definitely the kind of vehicle people could see from really far away. A bit more, and Kai would have looked like a little kid next to this huge motorbike.
“Are you saying we’re leaving… on this?” Ray hesitated.
“Of course! It will definitely go faster! And I thought you would like it too…” Kai answered, as if it was totally obvious that he liked extreme sports.
Ray frowned. She had thought they would go there… in a limousine or something! She had prepared an excellent bento they could share together while the driver would lead them to their destination. Now… where the heck was their romantic week-end? There was no way she, the charismatic Diva, would EVER ride this… thing. If ever they fell?! It wasn’t protected at all! And wasn’t Kai the one saying they should not been seen too much together?! Now, there was no way people were going to miss them! And she HATED wind! It would DESTROY her hair! And her make-up too! It would never resist to the speed! She was going to look HORRIBLE if ever she rode this motorbike! She wanted to look PERFECT for Kai! Was Kai trying to tell her that he liked ugly girls?!? Well, she didn’t like being UGLY. She didn’t even want to think about how she would look.
“You don’t seem happy…” Kai said.
Ray was so busy thinking about how hideous she would look after riding this vehicle that she didn’t even hear Kai’s words.
“Ray…?”
Not only was she going to look horrible, but she also was in a beautiful dress just for Kai! How could she go on this thing in a dress?! Yes, she would definitely stay there. If Kai really loved her, he would never force her… right?
“Ray?” Kai repeated for the second time. “Is everything fine?”
“I’ll call my personal driver. There is no way I will go on this!”
No. Kai didn’t want this. He didn’t want to be in her limousine… He always felt like he had something to give her in the end… He always felt like he was inferior to her… like he didn’t deserve her. He felt like he could never do enough for her… It was always Ray’s driver, Ray’s house, Ray’s limousine, Ray’s bodyguards, Ray’s everything… He could not just… let her do everything for him forever! He wanted her to trust him enough to try this…
“Please! I know you will like it! Trust me! I’ll ride slowly… you don’t have to worry. I would never do anything that would threaten your life…”
Kai already knew Ray would never want to go with him. So he had been prepared mentally to any argument his girlfriend could tell him. He had chosen answers carefully, and was ready to prove Ray that a little craziness was not that bad. Plus… he thought he looked really good on his motorbike. That was so cool.
“No! I’m going to call my driver. You can follow on your dangerous thing if you want, but I will never EVER ride this. Dying is not on my “to do” list.”
Kai sighed. He knew his girlfriend was totally extreme. There was no way he was going to let her die in whatever manner.
“I will be really careful… Please?”
He stared at the pouting woman for a while. He smirked.
“Please?” He repeated. “I really want to show you a bit of my world…”
“Your world?!” Ray falsely growled. “I thought I was your world. Don’t tell me you prefer this… thing to me?!”
Even thought Kai knew she was joking, he could feel he was slowly entering a sensible area. He knew how Ray loved him, and joking about him not being in love was dangerous. Ray would take EACH of his words seriously. If he joked saying he preferred his motorbike, he could be sure he would ruin everything.
“My second world then…” He sighed. “I will be really careful! REALLY!”
Ray ignored him like a real queen ignoring her servitor. She was obviously waiting for her driver to arrive as soon as possible.
“Ray… It would really make me happy if you tried…”
He was really trying to make her change her mind. He was talking with a gentle, slow, sweet tone, choosing carefully his words, not making any joke that would change her mood… He was smiling cutely to her, leaving behind his “cool” attitude he really liked to have. He was looking at her in the eyes… a sweet look that showed what he wanted.
“Kai… It would really make me happy if you stopped trying to convince me.” Ray answered harshly.
The little blonde rolled his eyes. He needed to stay calm, but it seemed his girlfriend would never change her mind. It pissed him.
“Don’t you trust me?” He asked.
“It’s not you I don’t trust… it’s this thing.”
At the same moment, Ray’s limousine arrived. The vehicle stopped in front of them, and the driver politely opened the door for them. Ray was about to go inside, expecting Kai to follow her, but it seemed her boyfriend was not going to do so.
“Fine. I’ll go then. We’ll meet there.” He frowned, ready to leave on his motorbike.
“Kai?!” Ray asked outrageously.
She was expecting him to follow. She was expecting him to give up like he had always done most of the time. She was expecting him to… well… obey her? But Kai was not her dog, and obviously, she needed to understand it. Kai was not going to follow her. For once, he wanted to be free to do what he wanted. She loved Kai… but she still had many things to learn about a relationship.
“We’ll meet there.” He repeated as he left.
Less than a second later, Ray’s limousine was following the small motorbike on the road. Kai was driving way too fast for the Diva, but she couldn’t help feeling bad about it. She didn’t want to fight when they were about to have great times together. She didn’t want to fight now… because if they couldn’t be happy now… then how would they be in a few years? Was it her fault again? Should she stop being so worried about what Kai like?
Maybe she was just worried Kai would find something he liked more than her… She was jealous with some objects and hobbies Kai had. It was stupid, but that was how much she loved him. She wanted to encourage Kai to have fun… but she didn’t like when he wasn’t with her. No… she HATED it. Kai couldn’t have fun without her… it seemed impossible. Even her singer career seemed brighter since Kai was part of her life. If they stopped being together, she would definitely not be the same on stage… There would be no life anymore in her voice, her movements, her everything.
He was faster than her, and stopped at a gas station. He waited for her to come, but her limousine was far behind, and he was about to leave when they finally joined him.
“Well, was about time.” He laughed. “Are you sure you don’t want to-“
“I want.” Ray interrupted him, surprising the popular blonde singer.
“W-What?”
Kai was ready for anything but that. It was rare Ray would give up this easily. Ray… the Diva… on a motorbike? Something was definitely going on. He just couldn’t believe it.
“I want to be with you.” She just said to explain her decision.
She trusted him. Kai knew that. She trusted him, and she was proving it. He was so happy he had a lot of difficulties to hide his huge smile.
“Really?! You’ll not regret it! I swear! Do you want my helmet?”
He didn’t have two. He had forgotten about it, yet he was ready to sacrifice his security for his princess. He knew it wasn’t really prudent from him, but he had never had any accident and was really careful this time. And he knew that, considering the fact that Ray was crazy about how dangerous this “thing” was, well he would have no choice but to give her-
“No way!” She answered proudly. “My hair is going to be even more horrible! The wind will already destroy them, there’s no way I’m wearing this thing…”
“But it will be even more dangerous…” He started before being interrupted by his girlfriend.
“If you want me to ride this thing, forget about the helmet.”
Kai wanted her to accept, but at the same time… her security was more important… BUT STILL…
“Ray… It’s your security I’m talking about. I want you to have it… I know it’s really stupid from me and I should have taken the other one… If you don’t wear it, then I don’t want you to come with me.”
It was cheesy, really not what he would say usually, but he cared too much about his girlfriend to care about being ridiculously cute.
“If I wear this thing, you can be sure I’ll never go with you.” Ray confirmed.
Kai wanted to insist, but he really wanted her to try at the same time… It was a hard time for him to think about all the possibilities.
“Fine. I’ll go slower then. And at the next gas station, we’ll go in your limousine, I promise.”
“What?! But the reason why I will go with you is because you’re faster than me.”
“That’s all?!”
“Of course!” Ray said. “I don’t want you to arrive before me…”
Kai sighed.
“I thought you would at least…”
But then again, he was interrupted by a seductive woman walking toward him. He didn’t have time to say something as his lips met hers for a deep, sudden and passionate kiss. He tried to breathe, but Ray was holding his head as she was driving him crazy. When she suddenly released him, the young man couldn’t make a move.
“Well? Are we leaving tomorrow?” Ray smiled proudly at Kai’s face after her move.
She really did enjoy when he couldn’t resist her charms. She liked it even more now that she could freely kiss him without being rejected. And she adored the fact that she had that much power on him… She couldn’t wait to see how far her power could lead them… Maybe during their vacations, when they would be alone… Just thinking about that made her blush and smile shyly. To think about Kai… and her… and a comfortable bed… the two of them alone… starting with a few passionate kisses… feeling his body close to hers… holding each other preciously…
“Hey! We’re leaving now!” Kai interrupted her thoughts.
It seemed he was finally back to reality.
“Wrong timing…” Ray thought. “I was about to think about…”
“RAY!” He almost screamed.
It also seemed that he knew what she was thinking about, because he looked like they needed to hurry and drive as fast as possible.
“What?” She pouted. “I’m coming…”
He waited for her and told her to be really careful as the motorbike started to move. He hated to admit that he loved this close proximity with the Diva. Ray was holding him tightly. He could feel her head just near his. He could smell her scent as the wind moved her hair… He seriously needed a lot of effort to keep his concentration on the road. He needed all the strength he could have not to turn his head and kiss his lovely girlfriend.
“Everything is fine?” He asked as he was driving as slow as possible.
“I… I’m a bit scared…” He heard Ray whispering.
Kai knew just by her voice that she wasn’t “a bit” scared. She was terrified. She was almost praying for everything to stop. She was praying to go back in her limousine. But why couldn’t Kai go with her? There was actually a way for him to go with her on the limousine while one of her bodyguard would carry the motorbike…
But now that it had started, he was too proud to stop. He really thought he looked great on this vehicle… He wanted to show Ray how great he looked… He wanted her to see him doing something special… He wanted to show her he was independent too… It could sound stupid and selfish, but he couldn’t help it. He wanted her to have fun with him…
“Here…” He said as he stopped on the side of the road.
He turned to face her as they were immobile. He was right. He could clearly see terror in the Diva’s eyes.
“Feeling better?” He asked after a few minutes. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have insisted.”
He held her hand gently as his eyes locked on hers.
“It’s fine…” Ray shook proudly her head, trying to be strong. “If I’m with you, I can do it.”
Kai smiled and looked uncomfortably at the cars passing around them.
“Don’t say such movies “cliché” phrase… It’s fine if you don’t want to.”
“I want to go with you…”
“Ray… I don’t want you to come with me if it makes you look so bad… Plus, you’re right, you’re not really protected. You should go back in the limou-”
“I want to go with you.”
There was an awkward silence as Kai didn’t know if he should listen to his inner voice telling him not to terrify his girlfriend… or if he should respect Ray’s pride.
“Ray… I will probably drive faster now…”
She embraced him slowly.
“I’m going to be fine. I want you to show me… your second world.” She smirked.
“Ray…”
He stopped as he saw the look the Diva was giving him.
“Fine…” He gave up. “But if you’re not feeling good, just tell me.”
***
They had been driving for thirty minutes. For each ten minutes, Kai would increase the speed a little, just so Ray would not notice it. He was regularly asking her if everything was fine, and the answer was always positive. It seemed there was more conviction, like if Ray was actually really starting to enjoy it. Ray… enjoying it?
“Everything is fine?” Kai asked after increasing the speed for the third time.
“It’s fine…” She whispered in his ear.
He asked the same question a lot in the few first minutes, being careful about the one he loved.
“It’s fine!” Ray excitedly answered after the fifth time. “Actually, I think I’m starting to like it!”
Kai did his best to try to discover some hidden feelings behind these words, but it seemed she was being totally honest. He couldn’t really believe it, but hearing her slight laugh in his ear made him relieve. He had thought he would never make her enjoy the trip, but in the end… he was just really happy she had given him a chance.
“Faster!” Ray said after a few minutes. “I want to go faster!”
Laughing, Kai obeyed. He could tell the Diva was not pretending to be happy… He could tell he had managed to make her discovering a part of his world. Having fun this way, on a motorbike, laughing like teenagers would do, ignoring the cold wind on their face, smiling cutely as they looked straight to the future, they just seemed to be a couple of lovers going in vacations. They wanted, just for once, to be normal people, to be invisible amongst the crowd, to act like they weren’t celebrities…
“It’s really fun!” Ray screamed with joy as they were driving as fast as the limit would allow them to go. “I can’t believe I didn’t trust you at first!”
She let her head lay on Kai’s shoulder. Who cared if she looked ugly at the end? Who cared if she was not acting as a Diva? Who cared if she was just being… herself? There was only with Kai she could act this way. It jut made her feel better. It made her realize she could be someone else, someone different… but someone closer to the person she really was in her heart.
Only Kai… could make her feel this way… No one will ever be able to do it…
“See! I told you!” Kai laughed.
She punched him slightly, not enough to make him lose control. Maybe she was acting different now, but she still didn’t need him to remind her how scared she had been before.
They drove for a long time. They drove freely, with no one telling them what to do or how to act. They act like if they were alone in the world, despite the loud sound of the cars passing by them. They drove ignoring the society’s principles and rules. Nothing else mattered than to be with the one they loved, and even if it’s wasn’t the most romantic situation, they both enjoyed this moment as one.
Even with Ray’s voice surrounding him, Kai was really prudent. He still had on mind that Ray was not protected if they had an accident. Because of this, he slowed down a little. He really liked to go as fast as possible, but now he just wanted to protect her.
“See, Ray? When we will come back, you will-“
He suddenly went silent in the middle of the sentence. He slowly swallowed as he realized the hard reality. Something was wrong. Something was definitely wrong…
“Kai?” Ray asked despite the strong wind. “Are you alright?”
“Yes, don’t worry! Everything is perfect!” He smiled.
No… this couldn’t happen. What was he going to do now? He panicked, but he didn’t show it. He couldn’t show it. He needed to keep this reassuring look. He tried to push the brake as far as possible…
But it just didn’t work.
They wouldn’t stop moving faster… the speed would only increase…
“Kai?”
Ray was worried. Kai felt it at the second she had pronounced his name. He knew her that well… It wasn’t the time to make her afraid… It wasn’t the time to show her that she had been right to be afraid at the beginning. All they needed to do was to find a place to stop… All Kai needed to do was to stay calm and find a way to decrease their speed as fast as possible, because at that rhythm…
“Isn’t the speed increasing?” The Diva frowned. “I thought we had reached the limit…”
“No!” Kai said immediately, trying to control his anxiety. “We didn’t. You like it, right? You trust me, right?”
He was trying to sound as normal as possible, trying to show he had fun too, when in fact his heart was racing and his senses were working at 200% of their capacity to find a proper solution.
“Of course I do!” She smiled. “Kai is the person I trust the most in the world!”
Great… now… what could he do? He couldn’t do anything. He couldn’t change anything. No matter what he was doing, no matter how much he was trying to slow down… it would just not work… He looked around him, trying to look confident whenever Ray would stare at him. He slightly punched the board of the motorbike, but it didn’t change anything. He couldn’t believe it. He had used it so many times already, why did it have to break now?! Why?!? He tried… again… again… again… ignoring Ray’s questions… ignoring the part of his brain that already knew the truth… ignoring the fact that their speed was way too high already… All he wanted was to stop this bad dream he was living right now.
There was nothing he could do. As soon as he finally realized this part, he concentrated all his efforts on avoiding the cars in front of them. Literally sliding, moving in zigzag between the cars, he did his best to avoid them. He looked at the road like if it was the most important thing of his life. He turned quickly to the left as a slow car went too close to his motorbike. All he wanted was to avoid a collision.
“Kai… it’s too fast…”
He ignored her. All he saw was the road… and possible dangers… All he saw was that he could lose control of his vehicle anytime from now on.
“Kai… I’m scared…”
He wanted to focus his entire attention on the road… but Ray’s words froze him.
“I’m scared… Stop increasing the speed please.”
Ray’s terrified voice was like a shot right in his heart. It was like a hard proof of the reality of the situation. What could he say now? What…
“Ray…” He asked after making sure there were no cars in front of them. “Can I ask you a favour?”
“It’s too fast…” She repeated, obviously understanding that they had crossed the limit. “Slow down!”
“No! It’s cool!” He said, pretending he liked this situation.
“Kai! It’s not funny!” Ray screamed to be heard. “I’m really nervous now!”
Persona’s singer sighed. He was playing a role. The one of the rebel boyfriend who wanted to look cool and confident when everything was out of his control. He was just playing a role… because if he didn’t, everything would be over.
“Fine…” He said. “Tell me you love me first.”
Ray was surprised by Kai’s words. Why did he want that, especially now? And this tone in his voice… what was it exactly? Fear? Love? Sadness? Happiness? She couldn’t tell.
“I… I really… I love you.” She whispered, thought Kai heard these words over the wind and motor sounds.
It made his heart beat even faster than ever before. It made him feeling way better. It made his world brighter… Just these three words… It made him have so much power… He felt like there was a solution right in front of them…
“I love you…” She repeated, like she couldn’t believe herself she was saying it without being interrupted.
“Hold me thigh…” He asked after.
She didn’t ask any question. She was too scared to do so. She did what Kai was asking her, embracing him like there was no tomorrow.
“Take it.” She heard Kai’s voice said slightly.
Now she could tell the tone. He was anxious… yet he was sad. Why was he sad? Didn’t he enjoy being with her? Didn’t he… love her too?
“What?”
She moved back a little.
“The helmet. Take it.” He said without even looking at her as the motorbike passed two other cars.
“What? Why? Is someth-“
“If you don’t, I’ll increase the speed.” He said rudely, almost threatening her.
It didn’t take more though. In less than two minutes, Ray was wearing the helmet, even if she hated it with all her heart. She thought about how she would look when they would arrive, and it almost made her sick. Kai would never want her if she looked like some… strawman. The speed remained the same for a moment. Kai thought he had taken back control, but a slight acceleration made him realizing how wrong he was and how wrong he had been insisting for Ray to go with him. Now, all he had to do was to fight with his motorbike… to fight so they could arrive safely at their place. He hated those STUPID BRAKES.
“Ray?” He asked in a softer way, even if the Diva knew the sad tone was still present.
“Yes?” She smiled. “What’s wrong?”
“The helmet… was just in the way. I couldn’t see well.” He lied. “I’m sorry to make you wear it, but I can’t stop now. Would you… hold me and never let me go?”
She did as he told her. She felt in her heart something was wrong… She felt in her heart she had to obey… Something was wrong… and the increasing speed was only making her have more doubts. Despite her confession, Kai’s heartbeat was too fast. He was nervous. Kai would never scare her for fun by increasing the speed when she had clearly told him to stop. What exactly was happening?
“Kai…?” She said hesitantly.
But it was already too late. The speed was too high. Kai was not fast enough to avoid all the cars, and soon… he just had this panicked look on his face. He couldn’t stop it… He couldn’t move slower… he couldn’t avoid them… he couldn’t find a place to stop…
He was sad…
He couldn’t protect her… and it was the point that hurt him the most.
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A week later, Ray had woken up alone.
Ten days later, December 20th, she was still alone.
No matter what the media said, she knew the truth. She knew Kai had saved her life. The helmet had saved her life, that was what the doctor had told her. Without it, with the way she fell, she would not be alive today. She knew without him, she would not be there… but what was the point of being there if Kai wasn’t with her?
He had asked her to tell him she loved him… He had asked her to hold him… He knew it was going to happen… He had thought about her until the very end.
She didn’t have any reason to celebrate Christmas this year… All she did was waiting…
And when December 25th finally arrived, she only stared silently at an empty Christmas tree she had installed in her house. She was still alone… It was the saddest moment of the year. The only decoration she tried to put into the tree fell on the floor, making a loud sound, breaking the deep silence. The second one broke in shining pieces… She didn’t even clean up. Anyone spending Christmas alone… now she could understand perfectly how it felt… She could understand perfectly what it meant to be alone despite being loved by so many people worldwide. She didn’t need her fans. She didn’t need her career. She didn’t need all she had now… What she needed the most, she had lost it.
How could it be possible to feel so alone when, in fact, there were so many people around here. Even though she was sad, how could she feel so lost when everyone was encouraging her? How could she live this way when she had all the help she needed…
Why was it so hard to be.... alone?
Christmas flew away as fast as it had come. The tree was soon removed from her living room. Christmas songs stopped playing at the radio. People did like Christmas had never happened. A whole month of preparation, of scheduled parties, of food, music, drinks, gifts… it had disappeared in less than a week. Soon, another year started. New concerts were scheduled. New meeting were planned. New songs were created… Persona had stopped their activities until Kai’s situation would be better. The two members left had talked a little to Ray, but then, they had vanished. They would rather be alone to deal with the pain.
Life had not stopped yet. It was the total opposite.
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Ray was running. She was running like if her life depended on each step she made. She was running like she had never done before, totally ignoring everyone glancing at the supposed Diva. She almost got hit twice by cars, but it didn’t care. She avoided them. She had this new power in her heart that made her cross all the obstacles between her and the hospital.
Three months… An eternity.
He was finally awake.
The way to the bedroom had never seemed so long to the singer. She couldn’t help thinking about the worst scenarios. What if he had forgotten about her? What if he would ignore her? What if he had changed? Anything could change after so long time… What if he accused her for what happened? She would never forgive herself. She wanted him to love her. She wanted him to be hers. She wanted them to have their happy ending… She was scared. She was more scared than that day on the motorbike. She was more anxious than the day she had done her first performance.
What if Kai… was not Kai anymore?
She opened the door. He was there. Awake… and looking at her. At this moment, Ray would have done anything to know what he was thinking about. Did he regret? Did he forget? Did he live in the same world as hers? Did he recognize her? Was he actually… more than physically awake?
She stepped forward and waited. If Kai didn’t recognize her… she would walk away. It would be too painful to just try to make him remember her. If Kai didn’t want her in his world…
“Merry Christmas.”
His voice was the same. His eyes locked on hers, his smile on his face… The only thing wrong was his words. Christmas was done since three months already. Ray started to breathe quickly. She felt bad. She felt it wasn’t right. If Kai was saying that… what did it mean? He was lost in the past? He thought it was Christmas? He didn’t know the time? He had a problem with his memory? Something was wrong in his brain? He had…
“I should have been there to tell you that at the right time…” He said slowly. “I’m sorry, Ray. It seemed I didn’t make it at time… You were so happy about it.”
The Diva’s eyes went wide open. Was it real? She was proud… She was the Diva… She was Ray… She was… Kai’s girlfriend… and Kai’s girlfriend was not as proud as the character she played in front of her fans. Kai’s girlfriend… had the right to cry…
“Don’t-“
But it was too late already. Tears were running down her cheeks. She wanted to hide… She didn’t want Kai to see her when she looked so ugly with her make up ruined by this salt water…
“Ray?” He said with a little shy voice.
She looked at him. It was really Kai… It was real…
“Come here…”
She approached him. She was scared he would leave her now that he was awake and that he could really understand what had happened… She was scared he might find her ugly with her face covered by tears… But it was the opposite. He put his arms around her and whispered:
“I was scared to lose you… I couldn’t protect you…”
The Diva shook her head. She should be the one saying that. He was the one laying in this bed… he was the one hurt the most… But why couldn’t words leave her throat! The Diva was NEVER shy to talk! She was never shy to show her feelings, yet not it seemed impossible for her to say anything.
“When I’ll get out of here, we’ll buy a Christmas tree, okay? We’ll celebrate it, even if it’s late. I’ll make you remember this celebration… You deserve something grandiose…”
“Don’t say stupid things!” She managed to answer. “There’s no way we’re going to find a Christmas tree at this time of the year…”
“I’ll go on my future new motorbike and cut one by myself then.”
“Kai!”
He smiled sadly.
“You were right, Ray. You have always been right… I’m just…”
He couldn’t say anything. He had been so scared… When he had opened his eyes, realizing where he was, his first reaction had been to ask about her. If he was alone in this world, then there was no way he could suddenly wake up. There would be no point anymore… And how good he had felt when he had learned she was fine…
“I’m sorry…” He added. “We’ll go together… In your limousine.”
She laughed a little, stopped crying and sighed. If they weren’t in a hospital room, she would totally-
He moved toward her and kissed her softly. He kissed her for a long time, taking all the time to plenty appreciate this moment. He had never kissed her this way. It’s wasn’t this shy first kiss, it wasn’t the passionate type either… It was just… like if he had nothing else to offer her to reassure her now… He had nothing else to do to be reassured that this moment was real and that he was not going to lose her. Ray even had difficulties to breathe when they moved apart. She needed all her will to remind herself it was not the proper place to… do things.
“Then you better leave this place soon…” She smiled. “I’ll call my driver right away.”
He smirked. Like he could leave this place already… but he was Kai of Persona after all… He could do anything he wanted…
“I’ll prepare you some food so you can heal well!” Ray said excitedly.
Kai’s smile vanished. He could do anything… except eating his girlfriend’s food.
“You… know… I’m still hurt, so I think I will not be able to eat a lot…” He said, thinking about his poor stomach.
“I’ll not make a lot! It will help you!” She smiled. “Trust me, okay?”
She looked so happy that Kai could only nodded silently, smiling back, though he had a damn headache.
“Ray… I’m going to fall asleep now…” He said.
It was true. He was tired. His brain had moved when he had crashed on the ground and he was really lucky to still be able to remember everything. He had to be really careful from now on if he didn’t want things to get worst. He was traumatized… He would never ride a motorbike again… because it only reminded him how powerless he had felt in front of Ray.
“Don’t!” Ray said, almost pleading him. “Don’t sleep!”
He stared at her for moment. His eyes just wanted to close… slowly…
“I’m afraid you will never wake up.” He heard Ray sobbed as he had just closed his eyes.
He opened them, held her hand and squeezed it.
“I told you we were going to celebrate. If I don’t wake up… that would be really stupid from me… So don’t be worried, it will be fine.”
She looked at him. He sighed. The only thing he could say to make her, at least, smile a little…
“I have to stay awake if… I want to taste your delicious food again…” He whispered, though he was secretly regretting it in his head.
She smiled widely, and as his eyes locked in hers, he knew he would never force her anymore. She was too precious to be lost for something as stupid as his pride…
“I’m going to make some now so you will feel way better!” She exclaimed as she almost ran out of his room, leaving him speechless behind.
He smirked. He needed to prepare for the worst. A motorbike accident was nothing compared to his girlfriend’s poisonous food… but her smile was definitely worth it.
When he heard her coming back a moment later, he smiled and closed his eyes. First, he didn’t want Ray to feed him now, especially since he was still too weak to eat her food… and second, he wanted to taste her lips a second time… He knew Ray would kiss him to wake him up…
And it was exactly what she did.
The End
Remember what I said: for the three OS I planned to do, there would be no sad ending for once....... FOR ONCE :twisted: Naaahhh just kidding, sad stories and happy endings, is it fine? I wonder :P
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thank you for update............
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Yeah whatever, let pretend I didn't say anything :nervous
I'll pretend I didn't read that as well, though, thanks for that thing we're pretending that you didn't say. :nervous
Thanks for writing this!! :bow: :bow:
Kai/Ray pairing got me into AKB48 fandom so that pairing is important to me.
You could say that it's one of my OTP(s). hehe.
I honestly got goosebumps when I read this you know. Especially when Kai knew that the brakes weren't working.
And she saved the diva by giving her his helmet...that's just... :cry: :cry: Seriously! :cry:
Good thing you didn't kill him! I honestly thought you were and was thinking of what I'd write in this comment if you did kill him off. :lol:
Thankfully you didn't...so thanks for that! XD
Thanks for the update! Have fun in Paris! Bring us back something, yeah? :lol:
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:mon bat: WACHA!!!!!
POW POW POW!!!! I fell happy nowadays as you and FoFchan are updating again.
Reminds me of the days were my AKB loveness began... (its kinda ended now...)
Anyway I miss reading both of your fics and I have to agree with FoF that Kai X Ray is one of my OTP as well.
Keep updating. Despite the fact that I hardly have time to read fanfics I will make time for yours!
Anywho it was a delightful fanfic! Keep updating!
Cheerio Candle!
Keichan ^_^
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:farofflook: Perfect!
First FoFsan updated the epilogue and then you with this...
My favourite part
“Fine…” He said. “Tell me you love me first.”
Ray was surprised by Kai’s words. Why did he want that, especially now? And this tone in his voice… what was it exactly? Fear? Love? Sadness? Happiness? She couldn’t tell.
“I… I really… I love you.” She whispered, thought Kai heard these words over the wind and motor sounds.
It made his heart beat even faster than ever before. It made him feeling way better. It made his world brighter… Just these three words… It made him have so much power… He felt like there was a solution right in front of them…
“I love you…” She repeated, like she couldn’t believe herself she was saying it without being interrupted.
“Hold me thigh…” He asked after.
She didn’t ask any question. She was too scared to do so. She did what Kai was asking her, embracing him like there was no tomorrow.
“Take it.” She heard Kai’s voice said slightly.
Now she could tell the tone. He was anxious… yet he was sad. Why was he sad? Didn’t he enjoy being with her? Didn’t he… love her too?
“What?”
She moved back a little.
“The helmet. Take it.” He said without even looking at her as the motorbike passed two other cars.
“What? Why? Is someth-“
“If you don’t, I’ll increase the speed.” He said rudely, almost threatening her.
It didn’t take more though. In less than two minutes, Ray was wearing the helmet, even if she hated it with all her heart. She thought about how she would look when they would arrive, and it almost made her sick. Kai would never want her if she looked like some… strawman. The speed remained the same for a moment. Kai thought he had taken back control, but a slight acceleration made him realizing how wrong he was and how wrong he had been insisting for Ray to go with him. Now, all he had to do was to fight with his motorbike… to fight so they could arrive safely at their place. He hated those STUPID BRAKES.
“Ray?” He asked in a softer way, even if the Diva knew the sad tone was still present.
“Yes?” She smiled. “What’s wrong?”
“The helmet… was just in the way. I couldn’t see well.” He lied. “I’m sorry to make you wear it, but I can’t stop now. Would you… hold me and never let me go?”
She did as he told her. She felt in her heart something was wrong… She felt in her heart she had to obey… Something was wrong… and the increasing speed was only making her have more doubts. Despite her confession, Kai’s heartbeat was too fast. He was nervous. Kai would never scare her for fun by increasing the speed when she had clearly told him to stop. What exactly was happening?
“Kai…?” She said hesitantly.
But it was already too late. The speed was too high. Kai was not fast enough to avoid all the cars, and soon… he just had this panicked look on his face. He couldn’t stop it… He couldn’t move slower… he couldn’t avoid them… he couldn’t find a place to stop…
He was sad…
He couldn’t protect her… and it was the point that hurt him the most.
Kai cared for Ray until the end...I tough that it going to be a really sad ending...but sad fic with happy ending is totally fine XD
And i Loled at Ray making food for Kai that was just so hilarious! Hahha poor Kai will he really recover fully with Rays love and her food poisoning?! :rofl:
Thank you for your update there seems to be a lot of old writers coming back and I'm totally happy...
Arígatou! :kneelbow:
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*phew* I thought it was another sad fic again. Kai and Ray on a motocycle must be so cool but like my mom says "a motocycle is the skin which protects the metal and not the metal which protect the skin" lol
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I was spazzing yesterday when i saw an update. XD
i really love the part wherein kai was asking for Ray to say i love you.. hold me tight and never let me go.. kai doesn't wanna make ray nervous and protected her in any way he could even though he doesn't know what to do anymore. :cry:
... and i thought he was gonna die!! i was really glad that you didn't let him. :nervous Hoooray for this update. :cow: :cow:
so next is atsumina?? .... next week please do come fast :bow:
Thankyou very much for the update. imma gonna comment on every update that you'll make :P i love you that much :heart:
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FoF-san, Keichan-san, n now bou-j525-san updating KaixRay fics, this is HEAVEN! my world is spining once more :bow: :bow:~
you guys don't know how i love this pairing, my OTP~ :deco:
the part where kai gave his helmet to ray, i was like "No~ kai going to die and leave ray :cry:"
but thank god you didn't end it in a sad way XD
another great update from you :twothumbs
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@Sydney W: Thank you...............
@FoF: I wouldn't dare killing my dear Kai :wub: Okay, that sounded wrong coming from me :nervous But it's Kai :wub: Naaah really, didn't have any time to write when I was at Paris, that's why I totally rushed this one >.> But yeah... where's my mendol 2 where Kai saved Ray in a cute way from whatever problem >:(
@Keichan ^_^: Kai & Ray is really a popular OTP :thumbup Now... where's that OS I've been waiting for :theking
@Megumi: Why does everyone think I would have killed him.... I wonder kekeke :twisted: But no really, I love them ^^ And yeah glad some authors are back to life... but some are leaving too ;_; Errrmmmm Thank for the comment :nervous
@kahem: Ohhh what a nice phrase :P AND NO IT'S NOT A SAD FIC, I SAID IT but no one listened X_X XD
@crazywota: Aww thank you :) BUT NO FOR THE 2975295 TIMES I DIDNT KILL HIM XD And yeah, well have to admit this one is kinda late right? I'm sowwyyyy :cry:
@CrimsonGrxy: I saved him ^^ I wouldn't let him die of course :thumbsup It's one of my OTP as well... but it seems less people write about them now :/ That's bad -_-'
@Everyone reading: thank you :bow:
WOOOO it's still Valentine's Day here, so I'm not late :nervous No really, I wrote 25 pages in two days, and I just finished :rock: And guess what? I've never hated writing that much in my life XD No, really, this afternoon, you had me+my computer+my mother yelling at me because I didn't want to leave computer XD I wrote 11 pages yesterday and 14 pages today :shocked So yeah, if it's a bit rushed, I,m sorry :catglare:
First, I thought I'd kill everyone :grin: Then, I wondered... why not just write a good, old cliché, classic everyone enjoys to read once :thumbsup
Go for the cliché! XD It's Valentine's day after all, which is a day of cliché anyways :smhid I love you, my readers <3 Yorosiku~~
Cliché fic is mostly inspired by a fic from Yvyleewoods, a really great French author who wrote really nice fics ^^ It's in French, but here's the website so I credit some parts of this OS :) http://yvyleewoods.xooit.com/portal.php (http://yvyleewoods.xooit.com/portal.php)
NOW FINALLY. LET END THIS TWO DAYS MADNESS. Oh by the way... OOC for the main character XD
AtsukoxMinami
You just have to ask me
“It’s not because we have the same friends that I’m going to respect you!” A voice screamed.
“Same goes for you! Like I would ever pay attention to someone like you!” Another one replied harshly.
The two voices kept on going, though no one listened to them anymore. It was another usual fight in this school. Since the first day they had met, even if they were in the same circle of friends, Minami Takahashi and Atsuko Maeda spent their time fighting. It wasn’t really surprising, considering the fact that they were total opposite. Their friends were used to it. They would just ignore them each time a fight started, even if they would rather have then stay quiet. There would be no death anyway. At least, that was what they had promised them… Who knows what was really going on with them?
“If you keep acting like this, no one will want to date you! EVER!”
“I’d rather be alone instead of changing partner each week! I mean, seriously, a player like you will never get into a serious relationship! That’s ridiculous!”
People started moving away as the voices got closer to them. They didn’t want to block the way of the most popular duo of the school. They were legend. Students would often bet on who was going to give up first, but so far, they didn’t know the winner. The two were always stopped by their friends. It was a real game, even a competition, to try to figure out who would find the most colourful insult to describe the other. Their war had the reputation to be the greatest fight in school’s history.
“At least, I’ve known love, unlike you!”
“At least, I’ll know REAL love, unlike you!”
There a short silence between the two before they started even louder, as if this simple sentence had been a provocation. The “love” subject would often appear in the fight, because they had different perception of it. Therefore, they could find even more insults to the other. This subject was enough for them to fight an entire day about, if not an entire week… or even more, if it wasn’t for everyone trying to stop them. They would always end up at the same point though… with different words, but the meaning was still the same.
“Go get some make-up to cover your horrible face already!”
“Yeah? Well how about you go get some make-up remover so people would be able to see who you truly are for once?!”
Atsuko Maeda was a player. The entire school knew her reputation. She was a great friend, not pretentious, superficial or anything but she couldn’t stay single more than three days. She needed someone in her life, and she didn’t have any difficulty to seduce people around her. She would even go farther by dating girls, even though it was quite rare. Her friends loved her, even if they sometimes wished she was more… less… well, not a player. She had everything to find love, but she would just rather not get too serious about it.
Minami Takahashi was the total opposite of her loyal enemy. She had never dated anyone and it was obviously not her priority. She cared about her appearance, but not enough to be called “cute” by guys. She would rather concentrate on her singing skills because her dream was to become a popular in Japan. She, too, had the qualities to be an amazing friend, but Atsuko’s comportment disgusted her. She didn’t like the way Atsuko was dating everyone. It seemed she only cared about breaking everyone’s hearts by playing with their feelings. She also had everything to find love, but since she didn’t care about it…
“Stop talking already! People are annoyed of your harsh character!”
“SHUT UP! You’re only jealous because you can’t have the entire attention focused on you!”
The duo, followed by the rest of the group, appeared, turning a corner of the hallway. They were eight, always together, though they still have friends amongst other crews. Minami Minegishi was known as a loveable and sociable girl, who would always enjoy trying to find a solution to everything. It seemed the infernal duo’s case was unsolvable though… Next were Yuko and Haruna, the “gay” duo of the group, and also of the school. They were always whispering sweet things to each other and everyone, no exception, even the teachers, knew their relationship was deeper than they pretended. Sae Miyazawa, another close friend, was a little ball of energy to everyone. She was smiling most of the time and nothing seemed to be able to stop her. She was with this group, though her best friend, Sayaka Akimoto, was not part of it. She didn’t care about Atsuko’s reputation, but she had been alike until she found true love with a girl named Yuki Kashiwagi. Last was the Tomomi duo, best friends, probably closer than anyone in the school in friendship term. They didn’t try to date as many guys as possible, but they would rather be in relationship than single. They were also known as fashion expert and they would often help others about it.
“Why are we always with her?!” Minami shouted to her proclaimed sister, Yuko.
“Why can’t we just leave her?!” Atsuko complained to Minami Minegishi, her best friend.
They stared at each other for a few second until they started fighting again, under the look of everyone else.
“Don’t you dare repeating what I said first!” Minami growled.
“WHAT? Just know that I said it in my head first, so YOU were the one repeating what I said!” Atsuko replied.
It seemed their fights were getting even more interesting, with more insults than ever. The entire school knew the reason though. The school had an annual dance to respect an old tradition and it was coming really soon, next week, to be more precise. Their fights were more present than ever, because Atsuko loved to remind Minami she would go alone while she had a list of potential boyfriend waiting at her feet. On her side, Minami spent her time teasing Atsuko, saying that tt would never work anyway if she invited so many desperate guys.
In fact, they just wanted to go there in a better situation than the other. However, Atsuko was right about one thing: Minami didn’t do any effort to find someone to go with her. Secretly, the shortest girl didn’t care about it. She really didn’t find it entertaining to dance with everyone, showing to the world how bad she was at dancing. Sure, it could be fun… but it was even funnier to make sure Atsuko’s night would be destroyed thank to her cruel side. She wanted to have the pleasure of seeing the player falling in love for real, just to be left after. This way, maybe Atsuko would be able to understand what she did to everyone.
“Enough already! Just die and go to hell!” Minami yelled, starting to ignore her.
“Oh, sorry but I wouldn’t dare go there.” Atsuko smirked. “I’m sure you already have a reservation to your name.”
“I wonder who would want to go to the bal with them…” Someone said in the crowd. “They will just ruin each other’s night…”
He was so right the two girls just had a staring contest before being interrupted by the bell announcing the end of the day. Even though they were both ready to leave each other as soon as possible, they had a lat exchange before moving apart.
“Fine then. I bet I can find someone to go with!” Minami said proudly.
“You? Find someone? In less than a week?” Atsuko asked, not believing a single word of what she had just heard. “Like that will ever happen… Fine then, if you find someone, you win this time. But if not… you just go alone and dance by yourself without coming near us of the entire night!”
This way, Atsuko could have a peaceful night, Minami would be alone in front of the entire school and she could have fun with people she considered as her friends. There was no way Minami would find someone, so Atsuko already tasted the victory in her mouth.
“Hey wait!” Yuko frowned. “It she doesn’t find anyone, you will go with her! So that it will be fair for the both of you!”
“FAIR?! I’d rather spend the night alone than going there with her. Are you mad?!” Minami screamed.
Yuko was her proclaimed sister, fine, it was normal she wanted to protect Minami’s pride, even just a little. Plus, she didn’t want her to spend the night alone! It would be so boring! If she wanted to two of them to taste their own medicine, she had to force them to change their mind by, at least, supporting each other for one little night.
“Hum… Are you sure it’s a good idea?” Miichan interrupted as the two enemies were about to kill each other. “I think it will just-”
“Make things more interesting, exactly Miichan!!” Sae said excitedly. “That would be so perfect!”
They both didn’t want to look like cowards in front of their friends, but they couldn’t help thinking it was definitely the worst idea ever. Minami suddenly doubted about her chances to find someone at time, while Atsuko was sure she would never find anyone. In both cases, they would end up going together… as a couple… Ewwww no!
“What? Afraid?” Sae smirked to her old “player partner”.
Atsuko frowned. Like she would ever be afraid…but it was Minami they were talking about ! There was no way she would find someone… and she didn’t want to go with her! She was the last person on earth Atsuko would ever accept to date! She’d rather go with a tree instead! Anyone, anything but her! Even some imaginary friends would do!
“I accept!” Minami surprisingly said, totally trying to pretend she could find someone for sure.
“WHAT? I DON’T!” Atsuko screamed.
Once again they disagreed with each other. However, since they all had to hurry, Yuko put an end to this and decided that if Minami didn’t find anyone, they would go as, according to Yuko’s perception, amazing greatest friends ever.
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“Please! Would you go with me to the bal? I know we’ve never really talked to each other, but it doesn’t mean we’re complete strangers! I look at you sometimes!” Minami begged a random guy in front of her classroom.
The bal was the next day, and so far, she would with her worst enemy. She was asking so many people now, not caring about the way she did it, desperate to find someone at time. At first, she had made efforts, trying to be careful about appearance… now she was just making people avoiding her. Even her friends started to pity her. Atsuko was so afraid that she was even helping Minami to find someone. She would often skip class just to ask people from other classes. Soon, the duo was feared by everyone.
“Oh my god! Just accept to go together! Everyone’s avoiding us like we’re sick or something!” Yuko sighed loudly as they were eating together.
“Kill me instead, that would be less painful!” Minami said.
“I’d rather die.” Atsuko muttered.
“How can you be so mean with each other?!” Haruna asked, shocked.
“Her name is Minami Takahashi.” Atsuko said.
“She is Atsuko Maeda.” Minami answered.
They didn’t expect the hatred to be so powerful. Yet it seemed they finally agreed on something. Sad it was about each other’s dead though… but Haruna and Yuko exchanged glanced. Their voices’ tones were different. They were slowly giving up, they could feel it.
“Come on, Atsuko!” Sae laughed. “Just one night won’t kill you… and I would stop being avoided too! I mean, Yuki doesn’t even want to talk to me anymore because of you two!”
Atsuko totally ignored what she said. If the school saw her with Minami, she wouldn’t even be a player. She would be… associated, linked, related to her! Though she was already because of their legendary fights, but being related because they went to the bal together?! Just to think about it…
“I hate you…” She said suddenly.
She couldn’t stop herself on this one. Thinking about the consequences of everything.. she had so many problems now just because she had tried to help her to find someone… she just couldn’t stop complaining and blaming her.
“I was thinking the same thing about you.” Minami muttered.
“FINE! You two go together!” Miichan exclaimed. “It’s the final decision!”
On those words, she grabbed Haruna and Minami arms, kidnapping them. Atsuko wanted to stop them, but Yuko, who had stayed by her side with Sae, Tomochin and Tomomi, put her hand on her mouth, waving at the trio leaving them.
“I need to teach you a few thing if we all want to have a great night!” She said. “You know, things like not fighting with Minami and stuffs like that…”
“FREEDOM!” Sae claimed. “If you ruin my night, I will never forgive you! I’ve been chasing after Yuki for so long! Do you know how long exactly! ETERNITY!”
She had this sparkles in her eyes, making the two others believing she had really found the right one. On the other side, Yuko just wanted to avoid a murder. If her two friends could spend a great night, then she would have time to give all her attention to Haruna. Of course, they had decided to go together, as great friends… at least that was what they told everyone.
“First thing you need to know…” Yuko said, thinking about a great strategy to make the two of them survive. “Have you ever said “hello” to Minami in a proper way?”
Atsuko sighed loudly. She really didn’t need that. She would have her life ruined. If anyone tried to take pictures, she would kill them.
***
“Ok… now, what will you wear tomorrow night?” Miichan frowned as she was searching for something great in Minami’s closet.
“I’m not going.” Minami mumbled as Haruna just sat on a chair, watching them.
The tallest girl didn’t seem to care about it. She would just watch them, hoping none of them would get killed. She really wondered why this decision had been suddenly made, even if she was impatient for the next day to arrive. Maybe this night would be the best opportunity for the two of them to get to know each other better… if they ever accepted to go. She believed in miracles anyway… Who knew, but seeing how close Minami Takahashi was to kill the girl looking in her closet…
“How come you have so many dresses?!” Miichan, Minami’s nickname, sighed. “You have even more than me and you never wear them! What a waste!”
“I got them from… I don’t remember.” Minami sighed, totally not caring about it. “I don’t like them. I look horrible wearing them…”
“But this one is beautiful!” Miichan said. “If you don’t wear it, why don’t you give them to me?!”
“GO FOR IT!” Minami encouraged her. “I don’t need any of them. I would be even more then enchanted if you took them! Gift!”
Haruna had to stop Miichan, who had totally taken those words seriously. She was about to take them all, under Minami’s encouragements, forgetting about the main reason why they had come here: help Minami to find the perfect outfit for tomorrow night. They both didn’t care how stubborn the small boyish girl was, even if it took all night, they would find something. Maybe they didn’t say it loud, but they were actually really worried about it. Knowing the strong hatred between the two, they had to make sure no blood would be spread that night. Even despite saying the opposite, they knew Minami wanted to spend a nice night, especially if the whole school was going to look at them. They knew Minami wanted to have a great memory of it… She just didn’t want to admit it. She was way too proud, right?
“This one is really nice.” Haruna said, pointing at a short, cute, black dress.
“No.” Minami answered.
“And this one?” Miichan asked, holding a beautiful red dress.
“No.” Minami sighed.
“Or this?” Haruna went on with another black dress with some sparkles.
“No!” She frowned.
“THIS ONE!” Miichan said with a purple dress in front of her.
“Would you stop?!”
“A pink one?” Miichan continued as Minami was being ignored. “You wear pink?”
“How many do you have?” Haruna smiled. “You should try all of them!”
“LOOK!” Miichan screamed. “I found a ribbon! I don’t think you will wear it for the bal… but I can’t believe YOU, MINAMI TAKAHASHI, HAVE SO MANY GIRLY THINGS!”
She heard the door slammed behind her back and turned around, surprised, only to find Haruna sighing. She had been so concentrated on looking for something that she had not even noticed Minami was gone, probably because she couldn’t support this kind of activity anymore. She hated when people saw this hidden part of her. Fine, she liked ribbons. She would wear them all the time, but it was so… so… so embarrassing! She should have burned them! She should have hid them! She would never, ever, EVER, let her enemy see them. That would ridicule forever! Why did Miichan had to find them?! Yes, it was a cute part of her… but she didn’t want them to know about that part, that was why she would never wear it!!!
“Minami, we’re not done yet!” Haruna called.
“I don’t care!”
“I’m sure you don’t want Atsuko to look better than you… After all, you’re going to spend the night next to her… people will never stop comparing you…” Miichan said.
There was a long, very long silence before Minami suddenly came back in the room.
“Where’re the clothes?!” She growled.
Haruna and Miichan high fived and laughed. They knew her so well. Now all missing was to give a call to the Tomomi duo and asked them a few fashion questions.
***
The night everyone was waiting for finally arrived. Miichan went alone, but she didn’t care. She would take pictures all night. Sae was with Yuki, looking happier than ever, while Haruna and Yuko just tried to avoid everyone’s eyes. The two Tomomi had found a respective ikemen to go with them. Amongst this happy crew stood one really nervous girl, Minami. She wore a beautiful, short, white dress that fit her body very well. Her hair was down, curly, and a slight make-up made her skin looked perfect. Atsuko arrived soon after in long black and a bit sparkling dress. Her short hair just fell on her shoulder in a beautiful manner, and her figure was even sexier than ever.
Their eyes met first. Then, slowly, they examined the other from head to toes, looking carefully at everything, as if they were sure the other “deserved” to go with them. Minami couldn’t help thinking the dress was perfect for Atsuko. She felt a little happy inside though, because she knew everyone dreamed to go with Atsuko, and she was the one going with her. People would look at them. It would be the perfect occasion to show them she could be a lady when she wanted… if she wanted. Atsuko had a shock when she saw the little girl for the first time. She had never seen her this way… Now that she looked carefully… she could almost think she was cute… but she erased this thought quickly. She was not. But… this dress… this make-up… the way she was right now… maybe this night was going to have an acceptable level in the end.
“I can’t wait for this night to end…” Minami thought as they started walking toward the buffet.
The night went well. They talked and laughed, even though Minami and Atsuko were never talking directly to each other, always asking someone to “tell the other” something. At least, to everyone’s relief, they didn’t fight, except a few glares. When they finally separated into two distinct groups, Atsuko stared at Minami from a certain distance. She was beautiful, there was no doubt about it. She hated to admit it, but the boyish girl, the cold heart enemy, the asshole she had fight with all year was… really pretty. It was the first time she saw her as a… woman. Not just an immature kid, not an enemy, not just a little annoying girl… a woman. Honestly, she hated thinking this way…
“Damn brain.” She thought as she turned her attention to a group of ikemen laughing. “This one will be my next target…”
On her side, Minami would just ignore the world. She knew everyone would often look at her. It was quite normal though, because it was so unusual to see her this way. She was even surprised of the way she looked. She had to admit Miichan and Haruna had made a real miracle. She could even compete with her enemy at that point! She felt a bit uncomfortable, but still, it was fine for one night. She just didn’t want it to repeat. Of course… She passed her hand in her hair. She was nervous. The night was still long… a lot of thing could happen.
“What are you thinking about?” Miichan asked as she saw Minami was deep in thoughts.
“I can’t wait for this night to end.” Minami said.
There was a part of truth in these words. Even if it wasn’t as horrible as she thought it would be, it was still really unusual for her, and she sure felt better in her running shoes instead of those high heels. She thought the perfume was too much too, but Miichan had insisted for her to have a little spray.
“Come on…” Sae passed by with her girlfriend. “It can’t be that bad! Yuko and I told Atsuko to be nice tonight, why don’t you try to talk to her?”
“No.” Minami answered at the speed of the light. “There’s a limit of what I can do.”
“You are really pretty tonight, Minami-chan.” Yuki smiled. “I’m sure Atsuko would like to talk to you too.”
“Too” Minami thought. She had never said she wanted to talk to Atsuko… Must be Sae who told Yuki how to act.
“Thank you.” She said.
Sae and Yuki started to dance together, far from everyone’s look. They looked cute together. Since a theatre show that occurred last year, Sae and Yuki had gotten really close. There had been a kiss scene in the show, and right after, everyone had started speculating about them. When it had become official, it was not a surprise anymore because everyone was used to it. However, they had to admit they were happy for them. Elsewhere, Haruna and Yuko were laughing together at another table, alone in the world. Anyone passing in front of them was ignored with a great indifference. They were under the look of many people though. Some liked to take some pictures of them, just to show them later and tease them about their relationship. They were so close… they couldn’t just be friends, right? Just like Sae and Yuki had been under the projectors last year, it was their time… and there was no doubt it would end the same way.
A love song started to play, and immediately, many couples started to dance, including Miichan, invited by another cute boy, leaving Minami totally alone. She didn’t really care though. There was no way she going to dance with-
“Hey… want to dance?” Atsuko asked, popping out next to her.
“Don’t you dare freaking me out like this!” Minami muttered.
“Well, excuse me if I’m being polite.” Atsuko frowned.
“Excuse me if I ignore you then.” Minami sighed.
They both stopped talking, though they could feel their friends’ look on them. They must not fight, they knew it… but it was so hard. They wanted to… just yell at each other! It was a dependence! They couldn’t spend one day without fighting or else they would become insane! They just NEEDED to insult each other! It was a game! It was a drug! It was their reason to LIVE!
“So… dance?” Atsuko repeated after a few minutes.
“What?” Minami frowned.
“Oh my god, just come!” Atsuko rolled her eyes, grabbing Minami’s arm and finding a great place to dance.
Seeing how awkward it was for Minami to dance, Atsuko just lead them through the crow, following the music. She took Minami’s hand and felt the little woman froze at this contact.
“I’m just telling you were to place it.” Atsuko rolled her eyes again. “Don’t be such a kid.”
She placed Minami’s hands at the right place, and started dancing. Minami was at a certain distance, making them looking very bad from everyone else’s perspective. Whenever Atsuko would try to reduce the distance, Minami would move back again. It was beginning to be annoying as Atsuko just pulled her closer and hold her. Minami wanted to lead the dance, but she had never danced! It took a bit of time, but as soon as Minami understood the secret message sent from Atsuko, they both added a few centimetres between each other and dance “normally”.
“Why so close…” Minami asked after a few minutes. “And why dance?!”
“Can you please just stop complaining?!” Atsuko sighed. “I’m just trying to prove Yuko I can support you for once…”
The proximity between her body and Atsuko’s made Minami’s heart raced. Without her will, she stared at Atsuko’s eyes. She wanted to look away, but it would only make the dance harder, and she was already bad enough this way. She surprised herself smiling to her, like if it was the only thing to do. Surprised at first, Atsuko awkwardly smiled back. She didn’t really like their situation, but if she had to be polite, then she should just go for it. Seeing Minami this way, so delicate, so… different made her wanting to care about her. She was so innocent. She wouldn’t dare hurt her tonight… she really didn’t know how to act. It was like she was under a spell. She thought about it. She could just put an end to everything… but somehow, she couldn’t. She just realized she didn’t know Minami. There was someone else under the harsh character she yelled at everyday… There was a complete different person…
As for Minami… she was looking at Atsuko in an intense way, as if she just couldn’t believe what was happening. She felt presences around them, but couldn’t notice them clearly. She was lost somewhere with Atsuko next to her. She could understand now, why people admired her and wanted to date her. She was beautiful. She could attract people in less than a second just by looking at them. She had a power… to make people fall for her. Minami could understand it now. She could understand how it felt now… She felt her heart and her mind just thinking the same thing and thought about it. Was it the reason why so many people couldn’t be single for a long time? Was it the reason why people were scared of being alone? If so…
They danced together, the two opposites, for a really long time. Black and white… now reunited.
Suddenly, taken by the magical atmosphere, Atsuko just move closer, making the space between them disappeared. She kissed her without hesitation. Half aware of the situation, taken over by the feelings she felt in her mind, Minami closed her eyes. This contact was sweet, great, slow, nice… and when she got back in the reality she wanted to punched herself. She looked in an empty direction, not knowing how to react. There was no doubt she had loved it. There was no doubt her first kiss was… forever graved in her mind. But soon, many questions appeared on her mind. It wasn’t real. She was just another prize amongst many others. She was just another prey to Atsuko. She had been blind by this situation. How could she have let her hatred for this girl disappear? How could she have been so stupid and not reacted? How could she have been so stupid to accept this dance? Why was she here tonight, with her worst enemy, when all she wanted two days ago was to kill her?
She finally met Atsuko’s eyes, only to see confusion and… something else she couldn’t describe. Mad at her own weakness, she moved back from Atsuko’s arms quickly. There was no doubt she loved this contact… but there was no doubt it was impossible for her to accept this. She could feel some tears in her eyes, but she stood proudly in front of her enemy. In the blink of an eye, she slapped Atsuko in the greatest way possible.
“DON’T YOU DARE DO THAT AGAIN!” She yelled at her in a very serious way before running away, followed by Miichan.
Atsuko slowly put her hand on her burning cheek. Like if she was coming back to earth, she couldn’t understand what had happened. She had been in tons of relationship, including girls. She had known what to do, and when to do things. She thought she was perfectly able to understand signs from people she had in front of her, and Minami definitely had sent her some. Sure, it might not be the best idea to kiss her now, but she didn’t have to try to literally destroy her face either!
She couldn’t find any explanation for this reaction except one: Minami had planned to humiliate her now, tonight, in front of the entire school. She wanted her to be humiliated in front of everyone… teachers, students, ex… there was no other possible situation. She muttered indistinct words and went to sit at her table, under the silence of everyone. She was already planning her revenge in her head. There was no way she would just stay there now. It was war, forever and EVER. She would never forgive her! If Minami thought she would accept that, she was totally WRONG.
“Are you alright…” Miichan asked, coming back.
Minami wanted to be alone.
“Perfect.” Atsuko replied, not even looking at her.
“She said… it was a mistake and-”
“A MISTAKE?! REALLY?! WELL, I’M GOING TO MAKE A MISTAKE BY KILLING HER THEN!”
The loud words were heard by everyone and even the music stopped. Feeling bad for interrupting the bal this, Atsuko just left the place, with what was left as her dignity. She could feel the rage inside of her, and she needed to concentrate a lot just to be able to walk straight, not going in a certain bathroom where she would sure she could find her next victim. Now, everyone knew the greatest duo was going to have one ultimate battle the next time they met, and they would be happy not to see it for once, knowing there would be blood everywhere.
Atsuko was mad. There was no better direct way to explain how she felt. She would easily punch someone if it wasn’t for her beautiful outfit she didn’t want to ruin. She was ready to go home. She wouldn’t stay one second more in this school. She wanted to avoid this place forever. How was it going to be tomorrow? She would never be able to face everyone’s look this way! There was only one way to have her dignity back. She would have revenge. She wanted to… she didn’t know what she was going to do, but she would put all her hatred inside, throwing it to Minami and she would be K.O.
A mistake, right? Just a damn mistake, RIGHT? That was not a mistake, Atsuko was sure of it. Everything was there. All the signs she used to know if she should kiss someone or not were there. THAT WAS NOT A MISTAKE. Minami had attracted her on purpose only to reject her better after. Atsuko was sure of it, and the more she thought about it, the more she wanted to throw her from the top of Tokyo Tower.
***
The next day, everyone was waiting for a confrontation between the two enemies. They all knew what had happened last night. They feared both of them, ignoring Atsuko when she would walk in the way, avoiding Minami by trying not to cross her way. They knew Minami could have a really bad character when she wanted and most of the time, they would just avoid to talk to her. The only one who dared provoking her in these kinds of situation was Atsuko. However, since they were both madly angry at each other, there was a glacial silence everywhere in the school. They didn’t hear anyone screaming or insulting each other, and it was during these times that it was the most dangerous.
Even Sae, Yuko, Haruna, Miichan and the two Tomomi were walking alone. Atsuko was nowhere to be seen. Minami seemed to be gone as well. It was only at the end of the day that every student learned they had feared for nothing, since the two had not come today at school. It seemed they were both too busy hating the other to come today… or maybe they were both busy to plan something worst… which their friends refuse to think about.
The second day, Minami was back. Avoiding everyone’s look, terrifying anyone who would dare reminding her that night, she was by herself most of the time, except at lunch time when she would finally talk to Yuko and Haruna. But except a few words, that wasn’t a long conversation, only the forbidden subject finally came out from Yuko’s mouth. The “KojiYuu” duo couldn’t stop themselves from asking.
“You know… you should try to calm down maybe… I mean, she’s not here now…” Yuko said carefully, watching Minami killing her plate at the “she” mention.
“So what?” Minami growled.
“Well… when we’re together now, you can smile…” Haruna tried to say.
“If ever she suddenly appears and sees me smile and thinks I’m happy, I’m going to kill myself.” Minami replied.
“Minami~!” Yuko pouted. “You can’t just keep on pretending this forever! I saw the ki-”
“You didn’t see anything!” Minami shouted. “NOTHING!”
There was silence amongst the students. They all noticed how… volcanic Minami’s personality seemed to be now. In less than a second, she could explode and kill whoever she wanted with her eyes.
“I saw the… the… incident then!” Yuko said, desperate to pierce Minami’s shield. “You took a few seconds to reject her, you know!”
“Me?! No!” Minami said. “I was surprised! It doesn’t mean anything else! Ah, I hate her!!”
“Minami…” Haruna said, slower than her –we-re-not-in-love- friend. “You know… I saw it very well. I think that…”
“NOTHING!” Minami screamed before leaving her friends. “I’m tired of this! She’s so desperate! Who cares if I rejected her?! I’m the only one who can do it! If she wants to find anyone to kiss and then just leave because she has enough of it, she has plenty of foolish boys, girls, whoever, waiting for her! I don’t want to just be… a prize or whatever!”
On these words, she looked deep in the eyes of Yuko, showing her how serious she was, and left the place. From now on, she didn’t want to be around so many people. Atsuko’s kiss had just… made her lost her identity! Now she wasn’t “Minami”, noooo, she was “Atsuko’s new unreal crush!” If she was going to have this kind of reputation, she’d rather leave the school already! And why was Atsuko always on her mind?! She would never accept to be a “prize” to her! She would never accept to fall in love with her if it was only to be hurt in the end.
***
The following month was quiet. Atsuko was back at school the fourth day, ignoring the world, especially one person she hated even more. Her cheek still hurt, reminding her the humiliation everyday. One thing though… the bal had made her even more popular. She would now date many people a week, flirting and kissing anyone on her way. No one from the popular group understood why she was acting this way, it disgusted Minami even more to see so many people being manipulated by Atsuko. However, she started to feel bad about her magisterial slap… Maybe she should have done something else… like talking to her, and then slap her…
“I can’t believe it…” Minami whispered, avoiding another way to her class because she saw Atsuko kissing a boy from the corner of her eye.
Just by seeing it, it seemed a storm started in her heart and she became mad for the rest of the day. Without being totally aware of it, she would insult anyone, for anything, even smallest information received by others. She would yell at teachers, punch the wall, at the point of non-return, when the director decided to suspend her for a week. She accepted it without any problem, saying she couldn’t stand being in the same school as her worst enemy. No… that wasn’t the point… it was more that she couldn’t resist the point of seeing her kissing… whoever else. It just made her frustrated without really having a great reason to feel this way.
Why was she so mad about it now?! She had no idea, but she knew one thing, Atsuko was always on her mind, even in a negative way. Before, she would often forget about the existence of this enemy, but now, since the incident, she couldn’t get her out of her mind. She would think one time about her per day… And that one time last 24 hours! Minami started to wonder if it was because of all the kisses… and shook her head. She was not going to be jealous just because Atsuko suddenly had on mind to kiss the entire school.
Atsuko had a great reason though. She was searching something. She was chasing after this indescribable feeling she had felt when she had kissed “her”. She was literally forcing everyone to kiss her just so she could feel it again. This heat, this passion, this desire even though it wasn’t the deepest kiss she had had… She couldn’t believe “she” was the only person that could make her feel this way. She wouldn’t accept it! Never! She was never going to accept it! She would kiss every single person of the school if she needed it, but there was no way “she” was the one!
“Minami!” A voice shouted as she was leaving the school for the first day of three.
She turned around, only to see Miichan. Farther behind was Atsuko, who would obviously stay at this distance, giving her mortal glares, waiting for Miichan to leave her as soon as possible, like if she was a virus the earth needed to exterminate.
“You’re stupid.” Miichan said, slapping her head from behind slightly. “How can you miss three days! The exams are coming!”
“I’m going to be fine.” Minami said. “Plus, I don’t want to stay either.”
She stared at Atsuko a moment, ignoring Miichan, until her friend brought her back to reality.
“Are you two seriously going to keep ignoring each other forever?!”
“That’d be a great idea.” Minami confirmed. “At least until our graduation.”
Miichan was about to facepalm herself, but managed to hold it for longer.
“Plus, have you seen all the sudden lovey-dovey couples these days?! I can’t stand it! It’s like they all want to kiss in front of me! It’s disturbing!”
“You’re jealous?” Miichan smirked.
“Ew… never!” Minami frowned. “I’m glad I can go home and think about more important things THAN KISSING EVERY LIVING THING ON EARTH.
She had said the last part louder, provoking Atsuko who just rolled her eyes. Taking it as a victory, Minami smiled and left the place. Miichan sighed and went back to where Atsuko stood.
“I can’t believe you didn’t reply…” Miichan said. “You’re sick or something?”
Atsuko looked away, shaking her head.
“Oh please, no…” Miichan whispered. “That’s the same look Yuko has when I ask her something about Haruna…”
Atsuko froze.
“Something?!” She asked. “If that something includes something totally irrational, forget about it!”
There was a silence between the two until Miichan broke it.
“I think she left on purpose.” She said, not looking at Atsuko’s questioned face. “Minami wanted to leave school for a while.”
“Glad she did so… I was about to take revenge…” Atsuko said, even though she had no idea of what the “revenge” could be.
She just didn’t want Miichan to think she was suddenly going to be nice just because she hadn’t reply to Minami’s provocation. She didn’t want Miichan to think she wanted to be friend with that girl, please! She didn’t want her to think Minami actually had made her way to Atsuko’s heart recently. Wait… the last sentence was pure madness, she should erase it from her soul.
“A member of her family died recently.” Miichan continued. “I guess she wanted to think about it by herself…”
Atsuko didn’t answer. Was that the real reason then? She felt a bit bad she had not seen the sad omnipresent look in Minami’s eyes for all the time… though she had to admit Minami would have an angry look whenever they would meet so that didn’t help…
“Great then. I won’t be able to see her face for long.” Atsuko answered, leaving Miichan alone.
Miichan stayed there for a moment, then smiled. She may not have been able to pierce Minami’s shield, but she had been able to totally break Atsuko’s into pieces.
***
Even though Minami’s suspension lasted only one week, the girl seemed to have stopped going to school. Three weeks after the incident, she was still not back. What was strange though, was that Atsuko didn’t seem to be happier of this sudden change. If they didn’t know her so well, her friends would thought she actually… missed Minami, which was totally impossible! Plus, since Minami’s suspension, she had not kissed one single person. She had not even dated anyone. She had totally… stop being in any relationship!
“I don’t get it…” Miichan sighed.
“I never got it…” Yuko frowned. “What’s wrong with these two?! I thought Atsuko would be more than happy… but she’s like… gone in another world since Minami left.”
“I hear you.” Atsuko said. “I’m not gone… I’m just taking a short break from love.”
“Love?” Itano tomomi asked, raising an eyebrow.
Atsuko didn’t answer. It wasn’t love. Love was… this lost feeling she had tried to find by kissing everyone… Love was the way she had felt when she had kissed the person she hated the most. Love was… lost. Minami was right. It wasn’t by dating so many people she was going to find her true soul sister. She hated to admit it, but Minami had told her the truth from the beginning… and now she had probably lost any chance to get this feeling back.
***
Atsuko walked in front of Minami’s house. Not that she knew exactly where she lived because she once had the crazy idea to murder her while she was sleeping… but she knew where she lived. She walked slower… slower… slower… and without being totally conscious of it, she just stayed immobile in front of the house until she saw Minami leaving it. She tried to hide, but it was too late.
“What’s wrong with you?!” Minami growled as she saw the one haunting her thoughts since she had left the school. “Following me?!”
Atsuko stayed quiet. Traces of tears could be seen on Minami’s face. Even to Atsuko, she had never seemed so weak, lost, without protection. Atsuko shivered at the look Minami had. Maybe she should have gone directly at her house in the end. She should have just ignored her thoughts saying to go and see her… She didn’t want Minami to think that she pitied her or something…
“I’m not…” Atsuko said. “I was just passing by…”
“Your house is not this way at all…” Minami sighed.
“How do you know?!” Atsuko answered, surprised.
“Never mind…”
Minami seemed to ignore her, but as she wanted to go back into her house, Atsuko called her again. The two enemies fixed each other, a strange atmosphere between them.
“What do you want?!” Minami sighed. “You’re worst than a stalker!”
“Oh well, excuse me if I just wanted to walk!” Atsuko frowned.
“Excuse me if I need some privacy!” Minami replied.
“Excuse me if I’m trying to be nice!”
“I don’t want you to be nice! You annoy me.” Minami said.
“YOU annoy me!”
“SHUT UP ALREADY!”
“BYE!”
Atsuko sighed and started to walk away. Minami followed her for a short distance before finally accepting the fact that she should just apologize… or maybe not… It was Atsuko they were talking about after all… but this was starting to be ridiculous. They couldn’t just fight over… this stupid detail. Now she realized it. She realized… life.
“Hey…” Minami called. “I’m sorry for the… the… what happened.”
She had said it with a very small voice, totally discrete and hoping she would not be heard by anyone around them, but Atsuko heard her very well and looked at her, surprised. She just nodded though. She didn’t want Minami to think she would forgive her that easily. It had hurt so much! She was sure it was still pink on her cheek! Damn… she could still see Minami’s hand literally flying and crash on her face! Deep inside, she was happy to hear that… not because she had apologized… but because if Minami apologized, it meant she had won this time. And apologizing like that, all shy… she just discovered another part of her enemy… She knew it must have taken so many efforts just to say those words…
“Then… I just wanted to tell you that… I’m sorry for… what happened to you.” Atsuko said, talking about the tragedy in her family.
Minami didn’t react to this one, though Atsuko knew she was about to let tears fall down again. She stared at Minami for a moment, not knowing what to do. Should she comfort her? Or was it too fast? Or was it the best thing to do? Would Minami be afraid if she approached her again? Would she run away? It was too fast probably… They were still not even friends… Discovering a, she hated to admit it, cute and sensible face of Minami didn’t mean they would be friends… Discovering this new face of her, a loveable part she couldn’t hate no matter how hard she tried… but still, they had wished each other’s death not so long before!
There was nothing else she could add. She still felt angry about the night she had received the slap… but she couldn’t take revenge when Minami seemed so down. She didn’t want to rush things… but thinking about it, she would do anything to feel this way again, even if it meant kissing her again… If it wasn’t for this heavy atmosphere, she would have done it… Seeing Minami looking in her eyes this way, so intense… she could just move forward and capture those lips if she wanted. The fact that Minami was standing in front of her this way, without them yelling or screaming, proved that something had changed. There were the signs that she could kiss someone… but last time she had tried to kiss Minami, she had received the worst result ever, so she didn’t dare try again, even if she was sure… she could see desire… no, she must be day-dreaming.
She felt good being there… even if there was still a part she couldn’t understand. While kissing so many people, she had never been able to feel the same way, so why…
Why were they enemies already? What was so fun at teasing someone to the point of wishing they died? When in fact… it was the total opposite happening now.
“What are you looking at me like that…” Minami asked. “I have something on my face or what?”
“Maybe.” Atsuko said awkwardly, trying to avoid her eyes.
Minami just rolled her eyes. She couldn’t believe she had thought THAT girl was “nice and sweet” and everything on that night. It was just a wrong time.
“Can’t I look at you?” Atsuko asked, surprising the little girl.
“No, it’s fine… It’s just… strange.”
“I’m leaving now…” Atsuko said, leaving the place, almost running.
“WAIT!” Minami screamed one last time. “You’re different.”
“What?” Atsuko frowned.
“Usually, you would have insulted me. You would have yelled at me. We would have fight. You would have been so happy for me not to come at school… Now you’re here, in front of me, apologizing for whatever… not even trying to avoid me… what’s wrong with you?!”
Atsuko wanted to answer honestly, but instead, she decided to go with another way. A way to prove Minami that what she was saying was true… but that there was also something more that she didn’t seem to realize.
“And you?” Atsuko asked. “You’re not avoiding me either. You apologized. You didn’t yell at me like you used to do just when you see my face. If I’m strange, then what are you?”
“What are YOU?” Minami frowned. “What have you done with the popular player? I heard from Yuko you stopped dating people. I heard you stopped asking everyone out. I heard you don’t even try to be popular anymore. What happened to Atsuko, the serial lover of our school?”
There was a short silence. The tension was at the maximum level, but Atsuko knew she couldn’t move back anymore.
“She fell in love.”
Minami, shocked, didn’t answer. These four words had… just pierce through the barrier she had built around her heart, making it hurt a little. One question remained: who? The silence made Atsuko run away. She didn’t want to talk anymore anyway. There was nothing she could add to explain herself. Just this short sentence was enough to explain the whole situation to anyone.
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It took a long time for them to talk again together. When they did, they would often just say “hello” to each other. When they were with their friends, they would just answer to others, not directly at each other. When they were alone, they would pretend to text someone or add someone in the conversation, just so they could start avoiding each other again. They didn’t fight anymore, which made some students wondering what exactly had happened. The bal was done for a long time already. It had been over four months already, but it seemed this short experience had been enough to mess their thoughts for their entire life.
Minami didn’t yell at Atsuko and vice versa. They would rarely have long conversations… but still! It was a huge progress considering the fact that Atsuko had never “had revenge” for the humiliation. Her player status was now almost only an old past. Her player status still remained in some immature boys, but most of the students had come to realize she had changed. Even Sae had admitted the fact that Atsuko had finally move over the “player” status. Sae had tried to find the cause of this sudden change, but Atsuko wouldn’t say anything to her. She didn’t want to pronounce one single word about the fact that “speed dating” every week was enough to her now.
On her side, Minami was back to ignore Miichan, Yuko and Haruna thoughts. They would often pretend she had a “thing” for Atsuko, which she would strongly deny. She might not hate Atsuko as much as she used to, there was still a limit to what she could do… right? IF, only IF, she really thought of Atsuko this way… maybe it was the reason why she had once been so frustrated to see her kissing this boy. After all, it could be… no, not jealousy! She had heard about this word… It was the worst thing she could get! She didn’t want to be jealous! Being jealous was just… a prove she was in love! She wasn’t in love! At least, she thought she wasn’t!
“Hey!”
While she was deep in thoughts, Minami didn’t realize Atsuko had joined her. It was the end of the day, and they were going back to their houses. It surprised Minami though, because now she really knew Atsuko lived at the opposite of her.
“What?” Minami mumbled, still not used of being friendly to her.
Atsuko really made efforts to talk to her more often. It was nice from her to try to make things better between them… but really, why?
“Do I really need a reason each time I want to talk to you…” Atsuko sighed, a bit sad by Minami’s cold character.
But she knew this cold character was not everything about Minami… knowing this, it just made her wanting to know more and more about her…
“I’m not used, that’s all. We’ve never really talked to each other.” Minami said, wondering if the player was still in love with the same person.
She couldn’t help wondering about it since the day Atsuko had told her she loved someone. She couldn’t help wondering “who” it was. Someone she knew? A friend? A boy? A girl? A person from another school? The possibilities were unlimited.
“Look, I don’t think it’s a problem if I want to have a conversation with you sometimes.”
“I think it is.” Minami joked. “We can’t have a conversation without killing each other, admit it.”
“Can’t you be a little more optimist? I get to know you better, you know!”
It was exactly what Minami didn’t want to hear. Recently, she had thought a lot about how much she knew about Atsuko now. It was like she was just meeting a total different person from the one she knew! And knowing that… she was afraid she might fall in love with her… She didn’t want that to happen, and it was the main reason why she would try to avoid long conversation with her. She would avoid her at school, or anywhere else. She didn’t want to fall in love for her, because she knew she loved someone else. She knew she would only get hurt in the end, so she wouldn’t allow her to feel this way. Why would she fall for her anyway? Sure, Atsuko was nice with her now, sometimes funny, sometimes she would act like she cared about her… but why would she fall for someone who would reject her in the end? It made no sense to her. She didn’t want to get hurt…
Plus, since Atsuko had visited her at her home… she couldn’t help thinking that they could have kissed at that time… How would she have reacted? She didn’t know… but she wouldn’t have hurt her for sure… Why hadn’t Atsuko tried to kiss her this time? It was clear to her: Atsuko was not in love with her. Atsuko had kissed her at the bal because she pitied her, that was all.
“I don’t want to be optimist. Everyone hates me…” Minami sighed.
“What? No!” Atsuko frowned.
No? Minami couldn’t help just raise her eyebrow. NO? Coming from Atsuko, now that was the most stupid thing she had ever heard.
“Come on, you know what I’m talking about. You get to know someone better, you fall in love with them, and suddenly, they just decided to leave because they find someone better. Look, you tried to… well, you know what happened, last time. You’re the only one who ever tried that, you know? You were the first… and probably the last one.”
Atsuko couldn’t help thinking about her player reputation when she thought about it. Minami was right. She was like that… No, she had been like that. She wasn’t anymore. And Minami knew the reason!
“It doesn’t mean everyone hates you.” Atsuko sighed.
“I don’t care now…” Minami just said. “I’m not “enough” for anyone to love me, right? Seeing our friends so happy in love these days just made me realize that… maybe I won’t be able to live this.”
“Not enough?” Atsuko laughed. “I think you can be beautiful… sometimes… when you smile.
“Really?” Minami frowned at Atsuko’s sudden sweet tone. “No.”
“Sure…” Atsuko whispered, unsure of what to say. “It’s true.”
Why was she so nice with her so suddenly? Was it so she could hurt her more after?
“I would have… never mind.” Minami said, walking faster so she could avoid Atsuko’s look on her.
“What? What did you say?” Atsuko asked, thinking she might get something from that.
There was this tone in Minami’s voice… One of the sign she could so easily recognize when she was with someone special… One of the sign she had noticed that night, one of the reasons why she had decided to kiss her at first… If she could just…
“Nothing. It doesn’t matter now that…”
“Now that?”
“That you’re in love.” Minami finished, avoiding her.
“What’s the problem?” Atsuko asked, knowing very well where the conversation was heading.
It was dangerous though. She knew their relationship was not even at the “friendship” state, so she had to be really careful not to rush things. If she did, it would be over. And if it was over, God knew she would feel so bad about it she wouldn’t even be able to look at herself in a mirror.
“Nothing.”
“Nothing what?!”
“It doesn’t matter. Just saying that… I wouldn’t… last time…”
“Yes?” Atsuko asked, knowing what was going to happen.
“I wouldn’t have slapped you last time if you… if you had tried to… to kiss me.”
Minami was looking at the floor, though she secretly hated herself for saying such words. Atsuko would never take them seriously. She would laugh at her, she would say it to everyone at school, she would hit her to death, she would…
“Damn… I almost waited.” Atsuko smiled.
“WHAT? HOW DARE YOU!” Minami screamed, suddenly finding this yankee energy in her heart.
She felt so bad now. Atsuko was waiting for it?! She had planned it?! She had planned to make her fall for her and leave her after?! Was that her revenge?! SHE HATED HER.
“You know… you only have to ask me…” Atsuko whispered, moving closer, making Minami moving back.
“What? B-But… You’re in love.”
“You only have to ask me.” Atsuko said nicely, looking at her in an intense way, a way she wouldn’t give to anyone else.
“B-But…”
Minami didn’t say anything else. She couldn’t. She was not really… Her feelings could not really…
“W-Well… It’s just that… I mean, if the situation was different… I mean, if you don’t care… Let’s say that… I would like to try… I mean…”
Atsuko thought Minami was so cute she couldn’t resist anymore. She knew very well what Minami wanted to ask her anyway, so she did so. She erased the distance between their lips, kissing her like the first time, at the bal. she didn’t rush it, taking all the time in the world to make her understand this kiss meant everything. This time, nothing bad followed, but a sweet answer from the girl she held in her arms. When she stopped the gently contact, she made sure to keep Minami in her arms, just because she was afraid she might leave.
“I thought you would never ask me…” Atsuko sighed happily. “It’s you I fell in love with! No one else… you…”
“Me?” Minami asked. “We… we hated… each other…”
She couldn’t believe it.
“Not anymore…” Atsuko smiled. “There’s only you to make me feel this way…”
“Which way?”
“The feeling… that I’m alive.”
Minami didn’t know what to answer. Her first love… was not rejecting her? And her first love was… her worst… no, her?
“Are you sure… you didn’t… you’re not… like… are you sure?” She stammered, afraid it might just be a dream.
“I’ve never been so sure in my life…” Atsuko smirked. “And… now… can I do it again… or are you going to slap me?”
Minami couldn’t help thinking the girl she had in front of her was the same as the one she had had in front of her at the bal.
“No need to ask me…” She murmured because her lips met Atsuko’s for the second time.
Her heart was racing. She didn’t know where she was anymore. She had totally lost the control of her body. All she did was to answer Atsuko’s kiss, hoping it was only the beginning. This time, she thought that if she was going to be hurt in this relationship… no, she didn’t want to think about it. She felt good now. Even though things were too fast… she had to admit she liked it. She liked Atsuko’s lips, Atsuko’s arms, Atsuko’s voice… The player… had gotten her. Honestly, she didn’t care too much… but still…
That time… she thought that if ever Atsuko really killed her… that would be by love, not by hatred.
The End
End note: Thank for reading and Happy Valentine's / ForeverAlone Day XD
By the way, I want to thank everyone pm-ing me to ask me the permission to translate my OS. I'm really happy to know they are translated in others languages as well :) If ever some just took my fics and change character/names... well... :thumbdown: I don't bite, just ask the permission or credit (keichan experiences made me think some of my fics might be on other website & I don't know it... gonna check that ¬.¬)
Now I have to study for the two days I haven't done anything XD Argh but there are so many V day fics =_= Cant read now =_=
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Funny that after reading this OS, I just read your comment and I was like "gee-thanks-for-reminding-im-behind-my-updates" :err: anyway...
I LOVE YOUR OS!!!!! :wriggly: I've always liked your writing style and you never failed to keep my imaginative gears in my head running. :hee: I love how the pairing's relationship progressed even though they really hated each other at the beginning. :nervous Now I'm really beginning believe about the saying 'The more you hate, the more you love.' XD
Thanks for the great read Bou! I hope you'll find the time to read mine as well. :) Good luck with school work or whatever you're busy at. :whistle: :luvluv2:
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You know that I've been waiting for your OS on valentine :wub:. I just had the feeling that you would write one and you actually did :nervous. That's a nice treat, different from usual as I don't remember having read any Atsumina fics where they started out hating each other like that.
And Happy Forever Alone day too XD. It seems that most of us are fated with being alone to stalk on our OTPs XD
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Finally, I have time to start reading all the fics on forum.
But chose to read this first.
Really like your fics so much. :twothumbs
Love really has no reason behind it, once your feeling for love grows it just happen. :heart:
It's such a sweet moment.
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love all the couples stated too,
especially kojiyuu :heart:
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Happy Saint Valentine's Day / Friendship's Day.
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Ganbare on your study. :twothumbs
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YAY a Bou-J update!!!! :wub:
Love the way you write! :bow: :bow: :bow:
I saw it earlier when I was checking at work during break but then got called away and didn't get
a chance to read it until now. :twothumbs
You there is a saying that you keep your friends close but your enemies closer keke.
Seems like Atsumina was able to pull that off flawlessly to perfection haha
Thanks for the vday update :lol:
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This may sound unfair to other authors (for all the hard effort they've done and still they're so enjoyable to read too), but I can't hold myself to say this is this year's best Val OS I've read so far. :yep: *no other words left*
Sasuga~ Bou-san :twothumbs Thanks a lot for this OS! :D
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awwwww so gorgeour and sweet :D fic thanx for make my heart jump.. and feel alive :D too my atsuminaaa
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She was the last person on earth Atsuko would ever accept to date! She’d rather go with a tree instead!
LMFAO this line got me laughing really hard. :hiakhiakhiak: Anyway this is the best OS i've ever read.. :shy2: i was so into it .As a matter of fact I didn't want the fic to end at all, lol. But omg omg i love it!! :inlove: :inlove: you're an amazing writer!!
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I love your writing style and the progress between atsumina :heart: :heart:
From enemy to lover~ from hate to love~ :wub:
Thanks for this valentine fic :heart: :heart:
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OMG!!! It's a awesome valentine fic!! Really good job!
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:cathappy: wah!! Such a nice bitchy valentines one shot! Don't stop writing!! (I refuse to do the same thing) and thanks for helping me notify people about my fanfic killing! I'll update my last os later today! As for now I'm just gonna chill out... Love you bouchan!!!!!
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Ohmygawd. This fic is worth the wait.. ; A ; I love it so much.. so damn much. :heart:
I feel like crying because of the awesomeness. This is just perfect. Added on my favorite OS list. Because of the massive atsumina updates coming from the different writers/authors, … there are only FEW stories that could make me go doki doki and shit while reading. And this fic really made my hatto doki doki and shit, totally. :deco:
Another wonderful masterpiece coming from my most favorite author .. Thank you very much for this genius Valentine OS update. :bow: :bow:
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Thank you for :thumbsup Long sweet Valentine OS!
LoL they usually say that love usually begins with quarrel
Like Yin&Yang they compliment each-other..
Arígatou! :kneelbow:
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OMG! It's Super-Long Valentine OS! But, I LOVE It! Because, I got to read many AtsuMina's moments! (http://i1048.photobucket.com/albums/s376/Nakamii_Eririn/GIFs%20Decorations/o0020002011706906361.gif) Keep it Up! I'm waiting for more AtsuMina's OS! (http://i1048.photobucket.com/albums/s376/Nakamii_Eririn/GIFs%20Decorations/o0020002011703825464.gif)
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From enemy to lover !!
Atsumina ><
ohhh love this kind of fic
thanks so much for the fic
fighting ! im waiting for the new one shot :D
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Love-hate fic! HELL YEAH! :twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
I love fics that have a love-hate theme. Don't know why really. :lol:
Atsuko as a player huh. That's a new image of her I've never though of. But when I think about it, it actually fits. :lol:
Because of the massive atsumina updates coming from the different writers/authors, … there are only FEW stories that could make me go doki doki and shit while reading. And this fic really made my hatto doki doki and shit, totally. :deco:
Thumbs up for that! :thumbup Though in my case, there are only a few Atsumina fics I read. Your fic Pink Vit is one of them. XD
About Mendol 2... :nervous :nervous
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COOL FIC !! :on asmo:
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@AFLynx : No more comments about updates, I promise :nervous Thank for the good comments about my writing style :) I don't really know what my writing style is, but whatever XD And I initially planned it to be longer, but I didn't want to be late... and seems it was enough in the end ^_^
@Tanchan : I couldn't just skip Valentine day ^^ As long as I have fun writing about them, there will be a OneShot about AKB here on Valentine day :theking
@luckymmsg : Aww thank for reading my fic first :) I'm glad you enjoyed it ^^ I'll try to make more kojiyuu in the future :)
@immortal_K : Of course, enemies closer :twisted: Why hate someone when you are mean to be together :P Thank for the comment ^^
@aruka : :shocked What? :shocked Wow thank you :) That's the kind of comment you don't get often, but when it happens... THANK! I'm really happy :grin: When I read your comments for the first time I was like ;__;
@Haruko : Atsumina can make people feel alive :P There's so much to tell about them :P
@Loveforever : thank you =D I'm really happy you liked it, but to the point of "the best I've ever read" :shocked Thank a lot :bow:
@ichikawa : Thank :) Yeah I like this kind of progression too ^^ It's a great classic ^^
@kahem : Thank you ^^ I worked fast on that one xD
@Keichan ^_^ : I wonder if you're still there to read my answer :? In any case, you just died on JPHIP so I don't feel I have pressure to update now ^^
@crazywota : "doki doki and shit" LOL Thank you for always encouraging me :oops: But please, don't cry, I'd feel bad XD I will try to create good stories again :grin: And yeah that's right, so many atsumina fic recently that I have to be more prudent not to copy anyone :panic:
@Megumi : Eheheh... I love when love starts with hate XD Thank for your comment ^^
@Nakamii : I'll try to write more Atsumina in the future then XD I have many efforts to do though so it won't be always the time, but I can do it :thumbsup
@meuytato : Thank =D Love this kind of fic too :grin: I hope you won't wait too long... but I'll try my best!!
@FoF : Everyone loves these kind of fic because it's so funny to read :P Atsuko as a player, I think it fits her... maybe. Anyway, I couldn't put Takamina for this one ;) Errrmmm about Pink Vitriol... well... *run*
@pamela89 : Thank you :)
@Everyone reading : :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow: :bow:
God I don't think I ever receive so many comments for a fic... I wonder if even half of you will read the answer to your comments XD Coz it's been such a long time... :shocked But thank you all! Your comments really made me happy because I did work really fast/hard on this one :grin:
First: This "one shot", I don't even think it is a one shot, is not about a pairing. It's just my "perception" of... the recent new of Acchan's graduation. It's not sad... well, I mean, I didn't describe it to be sad unlike many others fics I did.
Many of you, on jphip, facebook, twitter, mentioned that they thought about Pink Vitriol when the news was announced... O.O;; Fic happened =______=
Well to those reading it, about Pink Vitriol, I think you won't be surprised to hear that this fic is on hiatus... for an unlimited time? …? :nervous I had started the next chapter but suddenly... I don't want to bump the thread :fear: Keep it hidden :nervous
End note2: If Maeda ever decide to graduate while I'm writing this story, I'll stop it right away -_-
Ahhh XD Two years ago... not bad :nervous Had never planned a part 2 :nervous
Sorry for the mistakes. It’s been a while ^^;
Do your best
No need to use complicated words to describe her story. No need to try to feel intelligent while explaining her evolution. No need to write an endless text, trying to add more information than necessary. Just simple words were enough to tell her influence.
She was only fourteen years old when she made an important decision. She could have decided to do just as everyone did, going to school, studying, trying to have good grades for the future and so on. Just because, suddenly, she had enough of this life, she decided to try something new. Something that would change her life, that would make the shy little girl eventually hid behind the face of someone stronger, confident, happier.
“Do your best.”
She had heard those words so many times she couldn’t count them. They almost became useless. It was just another expression. She had heard them when she went to the audition for the first time. All she could think about was… that she just had to pass if she wanted something to happen. She had to give her everything. It was kind of frightening to her. It was all about a new group no one knew, a group that would have to make its way to the top, starting from absolutely nothing. It was quite a challenge.
For someone like her, “being popular as a group” was just a sentence without deep signification. It was just five words put up together to bring them a little hope.
It was only when she passed the audition that she realized how much it meant to “work hard”. When no one supports you, when no one trusts you, when you feel like you’re all alone and you’re scared of making even the simplest mistake because the world might crash on you… then “working hard” seems to be the only solution left not to fall into depression.
She heard these three words again, this time because it was harder than expect to debut, especially in Akihabara, where everyone thought it was “otakuland” after the success of “Densha Otoko”. A group of idols, dancing in uniform, in Akihabara… no wonder people looked at them like they were nothing but trash. In fact… she even considered themselves as nothing. A group? No, they were not even a “group” at their debut, because there was no complicity at all. Many members left, speechless in front of this huge mountain stuck before them. Many others just regretted their decision.
She was not in a particular category, even though she had never felt so powerless in her life. No matter how hard she worked, no matter how hard she “did her best”, it didn’t work. Why should she “do her best” when she had no idea what was going on?!
Tokyo Dome? That was never going to happen.
Later, when the group started to get known, she had cried. Not because she was happy, because she was sad and terrified. The producer wanted her to sing a song, mostly by herself, in front of the crowd.
“Do your best!” He encouraged her.
She didn’t want to do her best. She didn’t want to have the weight on her shoulder. What if the song wasn’t good enough? What if the audience didn’t like her enough? Why her? She didn’t have anything special, did she? Even some others members were mad at this decision, but she couldn’t change anything… She had realized it was too late the following days. The decision was made.
She still didn’t know the reason, but that day, she became the face of the group.
And that how it all started. Little by little, people knew her more than anyone. Slowly, she was known by everyone knowing about the group existence, while some others were still ignored. It was cruel, but it was her responsibility.
Though she wasn’t the leader, no one really was at that time, she… she had to bring the group to the top, just because… she was told to do so.
Dancing, singing, appearing on tv shows, practicing all time, lacking sleep, being weaker physically and mentally… she endured everything in order to respect the “do your best” rule. Still, it didn’t feel enough. The group’s popularity was still low. No matter how long she was in front of everyone, she felt she wasn’t the one able to bring them higher.
Despite the encouragements, despite her cute face… despite her efforts… nothing. But still, she smiled in front of the crowd, because it was her job, because she had to be strong. She didn’t leave the group because she was already known enough by fans to be the center for all singles. She was afraid to deceive them, and herself at the same time.
She was like a light in the dark shadow, ready to guide new fans in the discovery of the idols group until they were able to find the one girl they would truly prefer.
Some stayed with her, some moved to someone else, but in any way, they always knew who she was, they always recognized her, they always supported her.
Only after did things started to move.
Though she was the one people knew the most, the group finally reached the million sales. With her friends by her side, with fire in her heart and hope in her soul, she realized being center was a difficult responsibility, but that she was not alone. Now that the group had more fans, she knew it was not all about her. It relieved her. It relieved her so much she wanted to cry forever. She wasn’t “the group”.
“Do your best!!!” Fans would often yell.
Now, those three words meant a bit more to her. They could go farther. They could climb this mountain even higher. Though her role was important, she accepted it as a part of herself. Now she was the ace, totally. If it was what fans wanted, then she would accept it. If it was what the producer wanted, she would do it.
This shy little girl, looking innocently at a poster without knowing its true value had changed a lot. She had learned how to deal with all the negatives sides… but also the positives sides.
She knew now, what it meant to be important to others. She knew how it felt to save people’s lives just because she was a part of their lives, even though she didn’t know them intimately. She knew some people would just look at her and the group, and have their smile back in the blink of an eye. She knew how precious this power was to her…
The power to make people happy, to give them hope in a better tomorrow.
Though she had haters… she cheered every important moment spent in front of the camera. Though sometimes she would rather leave this group, she stayed. She stayed… and faced haters with a smile on her face. Though she would sometimes rather sleep instead of performing, she danced, because she knew some people could go and “sleep forever” if it wasn’t for the group’s existence in their lives. She knew that, for some fans, she and the group had appeared to save them from all their problems.
She saved lives. Not only her, but the whole group as well. They all, as a family, saved people’s lives and cheered other’s ones.
Hopeless in front of a situation, some fans had learned to fight because of some of their songs. She knew the true meaning of loyalty from their fans, and just because of that, she wanted to continue her journey in the group.
Now, she would be the one to scream “Do your best” to fans. They had supported them so much… now it was her turn to give back what she had taken for more than seven years.
When she heard “Give me five” for the first time, she had a shock. She couldn’t bear with it… She cried for a moment… She knew this song could be the one on her mind when she would be graduating. Even though it fit more for high school graduation, it was almost the same. She had grown surrounded by them, her friends. She had learned about everything with them. Love, friendship, what it was to care about other… Her first dream, her first love, her first discovery of the world... She had become the way she was now, because of the group. It was this environment she had learned to live in the entire time. Give me five… just showed that graduation was neither an exit nor a farewell. It was… the beginning.
Tokyo Dome performance was finally part of reality. It was not a dream anymore.
She might haunt people’s dreams… she might bring happiness in others’ lives… she might be the face of the current most popular group of Japan… but now that the group had reached their dream, what could she do? She had had a solo debut, a chance to play in different drama, opportunities to touch every sphere of this entertainment world…
Now what? As the ace, should she stay forever in the group until its popularity fade away again?
No. She didn’t want to live this again. She didn’t want to live rejection and hard times again. New members couldn’t truly understand what it was to be unknown. They had arrived when the group was already popular enough to avoid those dark times. At the opposite, she could still shiver when she thought about their debuts. She could still cry when she looked back at their old path. They had managed to reach the top… now what? Now… she had learned. She would walk on her own path from now on.
It was painful, difficult. She had thought about it for so long… But she knew now… it was about her own choices. She couldn’t depend on the group forever. She needed to learn how to live by herself. She knew she was strong enough to overcome anything that would cross her way. Just like the producer had told her, it was her choice. Not to tell the others was painful. She had talked to them about it… but maybe they really didn’t expect her to announce it for real.
However, because of the ace role, her self confidence was deeper than ever. She was thankful to everyone for this. And it was also one of the reason why she felt ready to leave her second family.
Seeing her friends crying for her this way… it was painful, but she couldn’t back down. She made the right choice… the others knew it deep inside… sooner or later, they would accept it. Again, they would encourage her… They would cheer for her…
Everyone… they used to tell her “do your best” so many times in the past…
When she was young, it was for small matters… It was the three words that cheered her anytime, anywhere. Just to win games, to be good with others or even to walk in the street without holding hands.
When she grew up, it meant to dance and sing with all her might to please the fans. It was to reach this far dream named Tokyo Dome. It was to give a certain meaning to her life. It became a normal expression she would use to motivate her for anything, at the point she wasn’t sure it they held a true power on her mentality. As soon as she felt bad, these three words would appear magically in her head…
Now, the young adult who stood in front of her loyal crowd knew those three words had a whole new significance. It defined the capacity to reach a dream… because now, she felt she could reach any dream she wanted. She knew these three words had some power.
Everything she wanted to learn in this group, she now had control on it. The other things, she would learn them by facing her problems without the group… group that had seen her become the pretty woman she was now. From the little unknown girl, just as a flower would grow up under the warm sunrays, she ended up becoming someone with the ability to make people feel alive.
A young woman, facing her life with a new look.
The group? The legendary AKB48.
The producer? The ambitious Akimoto Yasushi.
The woman? The beautiful ace Maeda Atsuko.
Despite fear, tears, frustration, incomprehension, hatred, love, confusion, optimist…
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Despite everything, today, “do your best” were three words, shouted by the fans to wish her good luck in everything she would do in the future.
The end
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Even it's not a sad fic, I can't help but feeling a bit sad
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I always, always, always love your fics Bou-san.. :bow:
Please don't stop writing! XD
Even it's not a sad fic, I can't help but feeling a bit sad
Me too~
My eyes got teary after read this.. :cry:
GJ :thumbsup
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I just found this thread last night (yes, I know quite late lol), and begun to read them and managed to finish today...
Gahd you're such an amazing author, I really love the way your fics make me feel mixed emotions as I read them. There's sad, happy, sweet ahh everything! I love every bits of your stories!!! And oh I love sad stories too.. but of course with happy ending or NOT? lol
I can't express more how I feel lol I'm sooooooo affected with your stories, hahaha I almost cried reading some especially the Atsumina valentine fic you've written... Geez I'm proud to confess you're one of my "most favorite" (if there's really something like that) author by far. :heart: :heart: :heart:
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thanks kei that you found this thread
im able to read it too
nyahahaha
My sunday thread fic!
*reading now*
P.S.
Im grateful for your Pink Vitriol fic also so awesome! :farofflook:
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Interesting story....
Hope to see the update... it's not here.
Thank you for the story
:twothumbs :twothumbs :twothumbs
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I just joined and saw this OS...
It's really sad but awesome!
The burden she carried as the Ace couldn't be compared to what any of the other members went through Q.Q