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A/N: This is a SayaMilky FanFic.
And, um, well I had another account but I decided to start afresh so yeah...
Hope, you enjoy it~ :D
CONTENTS
PART ONE:
Prologue: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1121819#msg1121819 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1121819#msg1121819)
Chapter One: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1122620#msg1122620 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1122620#msg1122620)
Chapter Two: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1123648#msg1123648 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1123648#msg1123648)
Chapter Three: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1124844#msg1124844 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1124844#msg1124844)
Chapter Four: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1126621#msg1126621 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1126621#msg1126621)
PART TWO
Chapter Five: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1187859#msg1187859 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1187859#msg1187859)
Chapter Six: http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1189826#msg1189826 (http://forum.jphip.com/index.php?topic=34384.msg1189826#msg1189826)
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00: Prologue
“I feel like I can do anything with Mayu, like kissing and hugging”
Your smile was as big as ever. That wide grin of yours that caught me off guard; you’re always so positive that you’ve slowly become my moral support without me realizing it. You always say how I’m negative and that it won’t do in the entertainment industry. Little criticisms here and there are what built our relationship. We bicker but we have never hold it against each other. Big fights and small fights; we’ve done it all.
“If I were to date a girl, I’d say Mayu is my first choice”
I always turn to you for advice, because we basically in the same situations half the time. We’re both the aces of our group, and we always end up together. My troubles end up as your troubles and vice versa. It’s always being kind of hard describing our relationship, even fans misunderstand. Some think we hate each other’s guts, while others think that we’re just on humble terms. But, that’s all wrong… right?
“I really like her lips…”
I smiled and playfully hit you, who were sitting next to me. “Lips? What do you mean?” I said and you just smiled back sheepishly. I blanked out for a second. You really did love to smile. I sometimes forget because it’s such a natural action for you to have such a childish smile. The innocence that seeps through and how your eyes would turn into crescents, really makes me feel out of the world. How can someone have such a perfect smile?
“Mayu’s lower lips, the inside, is really nice” you replied as you looked at the MCs of the show. Mayu just laughed, clapping her hands beside you. And, so did everyone else. They all laughed at the strange fetish of Mayu’s. I admit it is funny and strange, but why is it that I can only smile. Why can everyone else laugh about it?
I glanced to the side and saw you cuddling up to Mayu’s arm. My smile never really left my face but I lost focus instantly. The MC’s words become fuzzy, as I just watched your intimacy with Mayu wearing your usual cheerful grin.
“Sayaka, Sayaka…” the MCs called repeatedly.
Some nudged me from behind. I snapped out of my little trance and turned to the MCs. “Hm?”
“What happened something interesting over there?”
I just smiled, and shook my head. “I spaced out” the people on set just laughed and continued with the show. I promoted our new single ‘Kitagawa Kenji’ as requested around the end of the broadcast. The members stood up and started to move out to change and get to the coach to go to rehearsals. I just sat and decided to wait for everyone to leave first so I won’t be squeezing with a bunch of people. Soon, I stood up and bowed to the MCs and staff members. “Thank you for the hard work” I said with the smile I had being showing for an hour straight.
“Sayaka can pass over my mascara on the table over there?”
I nodded at your request and went over to the table. There were quite a few bits and pieces of cosmetic products on it, but it only took a second for me to find yours. I grabbed it and walked over to you. “Here”
“Thanks” and there’s that bright smile of yours again.
I look away and nodded. “Ah… no problem”
You tilted your head to the side and looked at me. “Hm, something wrong? You look a bit flustered. Is it stuffy in here? Are you sick?” your tone was filled with concern. That’s a habit of yours; you worry a lot about your friends and family. I’ve always liked that about you too, it’s nice knowing your bond is strong with family and friends.
“No, I’m fine” I said as a shook my head lightly from side to side.
You just looked at me even more, “Are you sure? Let me check if you have a fever?” you reached your hand out to touch my forehead.
That one touch made me realize, why it was hard for me to laugh with everyone, why I could never offend your personal attributes, why I would always rely on you, why I felt so comfortable around you, and why I’m relieved that it was you who I share the ace position with. All this time, I’ve being blind and ignorant.
When this whole time, I’ve actually being…
In love with you…
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I saw this in tumblr! :cathappy: I'm glad you posted it here, its more convenient for me to follow your story this way. :)
I have to say, I am intrigued with your use of POV, its 2nd Person POV isn't it due to the "I" and "You" used rather than the 1st's "I" and the name of character or "She/He". I haven't seen that much authors using this style of POV since its usually 1st or 3rd POV so I'm really ecstatic to see how you'd write the following chapters especially when you started the prologue in a really really interesting way. I'm really curious how this would develop, I'd sometimes like to see Milky's POV, but then that spoils the mystery of what her feelings are, aren't they?
Anyways, thanks for sharing this here and in tumblr~
Looking forward to your update. ^ ^
Oh right, the title of your fic, is it inspired by DBSK's song? :3
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thank you for this super amazing sayamilky!!! i don't even know how to read the title but who cares cos the prologue is so nicely written! really!!! and the fact that its sayamilky makes it 10x more interesting >.< please update soon!! :cow:
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ERMEHGERD! PLEASE UPDATE SOON! > w <
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This sounds really good so far! I'm looking forward to the next chapter :D
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A/N: Thank you for all my readers so far.
If you would like, I have left some replies for you all at the end!
Even though, there isn't much to respond to yet. I'd like to be more interactive with all my readers so be sure to leave a comment! :twothumbs
01: When you told me I was a liar.
[Present]
Yamamoto Sayaka felt like it was the end of the world. The pain she’s suffering through is indescribable. It’s already being such a long time, yet still, she was given no time to breath. All she could hear is the tapping and gliding of shoes on the timber material below her and the members. Honestly, she probably felt like collapsing more than anyone else but being the ‘captain’ that’s not a smart move. She just looked at everyone behind her through the mirror that was built in the walls as the music echoed loudly through the room. The rest looks just as dead.
Silence. Everyone stayed in their ending positions waiting for their instructor to end this rehearsal. No one even dared to breath because of the fear that the instructor will take it as imperfection during a concert. It’s equivalent an orchestra, where the players can’t move their bows after a piece. One inch and picky conductors or viewers will find it a disruption that ruins everything. No sounds were made in the dance room for exactly seven seconds, before the instructor clapped her hands. “Okay, this will be the end for today”
Everyone stood upright and bowed to the dance instructor. “Thank you,” the group of girls said in unison. They huddled up and walked to their belongings in silence as well. No one wanted to speak within the presence of the strict instructor. Just as everyone grabbed their bags and bottles, they hurried out and walked a few meters distance from the practice room. All the members looked back and saw no commotion. They all turned to face the front before heaving a sigh.
“That was deadly man,” one of the younger members, Kinoshita Haruna, said with her arms crossed behind her head. “I wonder what she’s like with her husband…”
“I know right,” Ogasawara Mayu said as she jumped next to Haruna. “She must be the like those alpha females in a relationship. I’d hate to have a girlfriend like her,” she said with shivers just imagining a life with someone like the instructor.
“Hey, she’s probably just like that for work” Sayaka said as she hit the two girls across the head. “Plus, there were times where she was nice and encouraging”
“Ah, Sayaka, always defending others” Watanabe Miyuki said from behind. “I wish she’d do that for me though…” she said playfully.
Sayaka turned around and cleared her throat. “I’m just trying to tell you guys that not everyone’s how you perceive them to be”
Miyuki just raised her eyebrows. “Yeah, yeah. I never get such protection from you… I wonder why?” she jumped onto Sayaka and went on her tippy toes to whisper in the slightly older girl’s ear. “Could it be you’re too shy?”
Sayaka blushed. “No, if I needed to then of course I’d protect you”
“Oh... Saya-Man has appeared” Mayu said from the front with Haruna. “You two would actually make a cute couple,” she stated casually, as Haruna nodded in agreement beside her.
Miyuki just looked at Sayaka, and Sayaka looked back. Their eyes met and the two of them blushed. “There’s no way I could be her girlfriend” Miyuki said as she looked away and rushed to Mayu’s side. “I have you”
Sayaka just continued to walk quietly and watched Mayu and Miyuki’s interactions from behind. She sighed. “True… You can’t be with me” her whisper disappeared within the laughter from the rest of the girls. No one heard her hopelessness and suffocation. She had no more routes; she was at a dead end. If only she didn’t get tied into this emotion called love, and get tangled up in it.
Miyuki quickly looked back at Sayaka, her eyes softened at the empty figure. The older girl just walked slowly behind the group, looking towards the ground, thinking perhaps. Miyuki wouldn’t know what Sayaka was really doing though, maybe spacing out. But, that option was erased immediately when Sayaka looked up and caught Miyuki’s eyes. That bitter smile she gave made Miyuki cringe inside.
“You liar…” Miyuki whispered.
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[Past]
“Sayaka, you pay!” the younger members shouted with smirks on their faces as they jumped up and down, trying to scam off their leader.
“Eh?” Sayaka looked at them surprised. “Why do I have to pay for your dinner?” she already started to take out her wallet though, she’s always had a soft spot for the members. They were family to her and she cared for them all deeply. The others just giggled at Sayaka’s surrender. “Fine…” Sayaka said.
Miyuki just watched from the distance, before making her way over to Sayaka. She took out her wallet too and handed her around the amount that needed to be paid, maybe a bit more. “Here, you still need to save up for your grandma’s hospital fees right? You shouldn’t be too kind, there are times where you need to let go”
Sayaka just looked at the usually cheerful girl and politely took the money. “Thanks…” she counted the money and handed a bit back. “But, I’ll still pay for some. I’d feel bad using your money”
Oddly, Miyuki felt a rush of frustration. “It’s not even you who should be paying” she said her usual carefree voice vanishing into thin air. “I know you’re the leader and all, but sometimes you’re being too generous. What’s more important, a bunch of kids trying to save money for a DVD or your grandma’s health?”
There was silence for a second before Miyuki just grabbed the money she gave to Sayaka and paid it herself. After receiving the receipt and smiling with a slight bow to the cashier, she paced herself casually back to Sayaka’s side. “Here, have the receipt. If, you’re that worried pay me back after the procedures your grandma still needs”
“Ah…” was the only thing that came from Sayaka’s mouth.
“You shouldn’t take all the responsibilities. Even if it’s not me, you should rely on others sometimes” Miyuki looked at Sayaka with all seriousness, different from her typical self. “Everyone has their breaking points. Even you and me…”
“You and me…?” Sayaka did question that last part, why the specifics? Are they in a critical moment of their career right now? No, she thinks that every moment is somewhat critical and Miyuki even agreed on that. She soon dismissed it and turned to the group. “Okay, let’s go then!”
Everyone cheered and left the restaurant. “Ah, that was fulfilling” Yamada Nana, the eldest said with a large exhale. “Nice restaurant, we should get coupons”
“Like an old lady” Fukumoto Aina commented from the side, only to be met with a fatal elbow to the side. “Hey, that hurt you know”
“That’s the point” Nana just laughed and turned to Sayaka. “Hey, I’ll head home myself then. My parents want me back earlier today”
“Cool” Sayaka said.
“Me too, since I need to go to Nara” Aina said. “Miyuki, coming with me?” she asked since they both lived in the same city. They usually go to rehearsal together if they happened to be in Nara at the same time, but sometimes Miyuki would be in Tokyo rehearsing for Team B, so they don't get the chance to meet up. Miyuki’s schedule really is hectic; Aina really admires her organization skills and it’s no different for Sayaka. They’re both amazing.
“Ah, it’s okay. I’ll stay with Sayaka tonight. Help her take care of the kids” Miyuki responded with a warm smile.
“Okay then, bye” Aina waved her farewell and caught up to Nana who was already well ahead of her. “Hey, wait!” she shouted.
The rest of the group just chuckled at the scene. “Well, then let’s get you guys home,” Sayaka said with her hands clasped together. Miyuki nodded beside her. The older girl shoved the youngsters and told them to hurry up, in case their parents were displeased with her caretaking and wants to hunt her down for causing concerns. Confrontations were never her thing, she’d always be the one who gives in first and apologizes even if she did nothing wrong. It’s just a bad habit of hers.
“Hurry up!” Sayaka yelled.
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Sony.
Nikon.
Canon.
Epson.
Takoyaki.
Toyota.
Why was she reading every sign that passed her sight of vision, she wondered. The silence was comfortable because Sayaka and Miyuki’s relationship was quite close. So, silences were always comfortable. But, like any silence it’s dead boring.
Fast Delivery.
Sayaka nearly scoffed at the sign she just saw. That’s what they all say, she thought. The last time she wanted something delivered through a small delivery company like the one she just saw, it took months for it to just get tracked. She swore that the little company forgot that her package was even sent because once they tracked it down, it was in their storage. They just explained that some technical difficulties occurred, but she knew it was rubbish.
Christmas decoration sale, she read.
Christmas is coming up she nearly forgot. “Hey, you doing anything for Christmas?” Sayaka asked turning to Miyuki who was slowly dozing off onto her shoulder. She just watched the girl slowly fall asleep. Miyuki’s head bobbed up and down, side to side, until it finally softly landed on Sayaka’s shoulder.
Sayaka was slowly mesmerized by the face of the sleeping girl and once again felt that perfection like her wasn’t allowed. It was unfair, because it traps people into a maze of charm. Her eyes slowly trailed down the younger girl’s flawless facial features to the lips. There was no one on the carriage they occupied, it was a women only train and not many women stay out until this time.
She gulped as a temptation rushed through her system. The lips looked so soft. Her eyes were stuck, and her urges became stronger. She slowly, subconsciously leaned in towards the younger girl without moving her should and just her neck so that Miyuki’s sleep won’t be disturbed. Sayaka found herself only a few inches apart and paused for a second, her lips parted a bit and she leaned in more. And, little by little their lips met.
Time seemed to have stopped just to capture this moment. Sayaka backed off and sat up, processing what just happened. She didn't mean to kiss her friend, but it just happened. Glancing back, she sighed in relief. Miyuki was still sound asleep.
‘And, just like that… I kissed you’
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[Present]
Sayaka’s eyes snapped open, and she found herself staring at Miyuki who was right in front of her. Miyuki just pouted, “You should respond faster next time. It took like a minute to hear me”
“Sorry…” Sayaka said.
“Hey…” Miyuki began with a soft voice. “Do you love me?”
Sayaka froze. Her brain just blocked every thought of telling the truth away. “Why the sudden question?” she asked with a nervous smile.
“Just wondering…”
“Why would you start thinking about something like that?” Sayaka continued to reply with questions. But, soon her confidence of running away slipped from her grasp. Miyuki’s expression fell and the atmosphere around them dropped. The empty train station didn’t help back it feel any better either. Sayaka just closed her eyes. “… No, I don’t”
Miyuki just nodded, as the train she was waiting for started to stop in the station. She looked at the incoming train and spun around. Sayaka watched the beauty walk towards the edge of the platform to board the train. Miyuki entered and the door shut behind her. She looked at Sayaka one last time and opened her mouth. Even if, she was indoors, Sayaka could hear her loud and clear.
Liar…
Then, deep down buried within her subconscious a whisper echoed in Sayaka’s mind.
‘She knew…’
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“You asked me if I loved you…
I said, that I didn’t know.
But, if I said yes...
Will you love me back?”
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@Sieka : With the POV it was actually just the prologue that I decided to make 2nd person. Sorry, if it came to disappoint you in anyway. But, I am glad that you are interested and enjoying it so far even. And, it's also good to know that posting it on here is more convenient but just in case, if you would like to know. I will still be posting FanFics on tumblr so be sure to check it out from time to time :). And, yes I received the title from the song but didn't really get inspired. But, yet again, now that I read back it does seem to be turning out like the song. Isn't it? Haha
@dirtydeeds : It's great that you think the prologue is written nicely, I was actually a tad bit worried. But, I'm relieved. Thanks for ready by the way too! :D
@Amakuchi : Well, here's you're update! And, if you would like to know. This FanFic will probably be updated within a three day interval, around.
@Sasshii : I'm glad you like it so far. Thank you~ :D
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So while I am doing my projects (tons of them actually) I was reading this. I'm currently multitasking right now, and thank you because your fic was a wonderful distraction to me who is a bit troubled with my projects. Thank you. :) Also, what can I say, you update quite fast, also, I'll try checking your tumblr again, thank you for telling me. :)
Anyways, moving on...
Nyahaha, your fic never fails to entertain me. I don't mind if it isn't 2nd POV. I like any POV as long as I can read it. ;)
Seems like there was more to that prologue than what it had showed us...hmm, seriously, that's quite bitter. I feel bad for Sayanee, but she's awfully too kind and awfully cowardly. Too kind because she just treated the younger members before even though her grandmother has an operation/procedure/whatever that is, I just can't believe her...she should save up more though for important things than spending them to treat the member's meals since I agree a lot on Milky's statement. She doesn't have any obligation anyways to pay for them too even though she's the leader. And she's cowardly too, weak even, why can't she just refuse them just for once and reason out that she had something she needs to save up for, I don't understand why, is it just because she's weak against them, or because she doesn't want to hurt their feelings or whatever? Also, why can't she just admit she likes Milky? It's complicated yes, but she could have said she liked Milky, and then hint next time that its just of friends if ever the atmosphere gets too thick.
I like how you portrayed Sayanee here, its very realistic for a person to be like this, but then, I don't like one thing about her. She lied to Milky, though out of fear and nervousness and also by trying to protect herself from getting hurt more fro rejection or the possible kind reply from Milky that she had done that. It's not good that she did it just so she could hide her feelings. She's too obvious anyways...why bother hiding? Milky knows...since she told Sayanee that she's a liar, so now, what is she gonna do?
Things will surely become awkward between them...unless Sayanee or Milky shrug it off and just act dumb and be normal around each other....though again, that's quite bitter. Hahaha, angst much? I quite like how its going though. Pretty much realistic with all the feels and the happenings. :cathappy:
I'm again ecstatic to see another update from you. Take all the time you want though and don't rush.
Thank you for sharing this, and also, I must say, I love you for making such a great SayaMilky fic. :)
And this just piled up to the list of I love yous I gave to a lot of awesome authors. XDD
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Ahh this is so good. I really love the way you write and I love the way you portray Sayanee, it's very realistic and I can actually imagine her being like this. Even though it's only the first chapter you have definitely gotten me beyond interested in this. I look forward to the next chapter :)
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I don't know. I don't know why my heart started aching at the 1st part of the Present. ; - ; *sniffles* Ahhh...~ it hurts.
I like it so far. ;w; ♥
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Sayaneee :cry:
I like this fic!! I start liking SayaMilky and I found your fic interesting!! :thumbup
pls pls continue this! update soooooon :panic:
thanks :love:
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i love this story!!!!
sayamilky <3
it seems like milky know sayaka like her but she wait for sayaka to tell her feeling. i wonder how long sayanee will hide her feeling..
please update soon :bow:
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HO~ HO~ HO~! SUGOI! 3 DAY INTERVAL!? XD Anta sugoi ya!
I love the update! Please update soon! XD
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Here's the next chapter everyone! :D
As, usual replies are down the bottom. So, look out for them~
Enjoy~
02: When silence turned into distance.
[Present]
“How’s your grandma?”
“Still recovering, but fine overall”
“That’s good to hear…”
The conversation got nowhere, even though Miyuki tried hard to keep one. The amount of topics she went through was abundant and none lasted more than a mere ten seconds. Maybe last night was a bit too intense for Sayaka to handle. Maybe Sayaka’s currently in the state of a panic attack. But, Miyuki didn’t like it. She didn’t like how they weren’t talking, as much, and she didn’t have the patience to wait for Sayaka to catch up either.
“You know…” Miyuki tried again. “I might be getting married soon”
Sayaka’s eyes widened in shock, as she turned her head away from the polished tiles of their talent agency, the news was quite sudden. She didn’t know how to take it. Is it a lie to grab her attention or is true? Either way, she didn’t know how to react. “Really…?”
Miyuki just grinned. “No… But, I caught your attention”
“Ah, don’t joke about something like that” Sayaka said in a firm tone. “I got worried for a second” she said as she went back to examining the tiles of the office building. Why was it that it was only her and Miyuki who arrived early? Could it be karma?
“I would like to marry someone not in the entertainment industry though” Miyuki commented as she looked up to the ceiling dangling her feet from the bench they were sitting on. “It’d be so much more easier I reckon…”
“Really?” Sayaka responded. “I’m not sure, never really thought about it yet”
“What’s your ideal relationship then?” Miyuki asked twisting to look at the older girl.
Sayaka thought for a while. “One where there’s mutual respect and understanding of each other, I guess…” she looked at Miyuki and asked the same question. “How about you?”
“I’d like one where I love and am loved”
“That sounds like you” Sayaka said with a chuckle. “So dreamy…”
“Hey, it’s not like it's a bad thing” Miyuki said as she puffed her cheeks up.
Sayaka just smiled. “It’s not bad. It’s cute,” she said softly filled with sincerity.
Miyuki just blushed at the genuine comment and looked away. “Gosh, you’re always so random. Saying such things out of the blue with that calm voice of yours”
“Sorry, you don’t like it?”
“No…” Miyuki said in a quiet and timid voice. She looked down, “I like it” she mumbled.
“Huh? Stop mumbling”
“Nothing” she said. “Forget it”
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[Past]
“Ah, Miyuki, you’re back” her mother called from the living room.
Miyuki walked in politely with a slight bow, “Yeah…” she knelt down and saw an unfamiliar figure sitting with his father and having a friendly chat. “Hey, who’s that?”
Her mother looked over. “Oh, that’s Tanaka Atsuhiro. He’s your father’s friend’s son” she went back to preparing tea and continued doing the little introduction she had of Tanaka. “He recently came back from study abroad. He’s a smart kid, and he’s a fan of AKB”
Miyuki just nodded. She went to her room to change and put her bags and other belongings away. After all that, she went to the bathroom to wash off her make up and decided to go down and help her mother out.
“Darling, can you help me set the table?”
“Sure” Miyuki headed to the dining table and grabbed the nicely folded table linen that was sitting peacefully on a stand nearby. She opened it up and spread it across the table, and patted it down. Happy with the result she skipped back to her mother. “All done”
“That’s fast”
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“Thank you for the food” Tanaka said as he bowed his head towards Miyuki’s parents, who were sitting opposite with Miyuki next to him. He smiled and carefully picked up his chopsticks and began to eat dinner with the Watanabe family. The dishes before him were varied but stuck with the traditional Japanese cuisine, such as fish with rice and many other side dishes.
Miyuki just silently sat next to Tanaka and ate her food. She didn’t join in any conversation because all they were talking about was how his time was in America. There was nothing to say, because frankly, she just wasn’t interested. She knew nothing about this man and is just treating him like any other guest.
“Miyuki I heard you’re a member of NMB48” Tanaka said, trying to get Miyuki to talk more than she is pulling off. “And, a member of team B, right?”
Miyuki nodded.
“That must be tough, going back and forth from Osaka to Tokyo” he said.
“Not really…” Miyuki said. “I have Sayaka with me anyways”
“Yamamoto Sayaka?” Tanaka responded. “The leader? Ah, she really talented isn’t she?”
Miyuki really didn’t want to talk now. Why was he even bothering? And, why is he complimenting Sayaka? Somehow, she felt strange hearing him saying stuff like that about Sayaka. It didn’t seem right; it should be her, and the other members. It’s not like Tanaka knows Sayaka personally or anything. “Yeah, she is…”
“Ah, aren’t you two getting along…” Miyuki’s mother commented as she watched their conversation. “But, Miyuki seems a bit shy” she said with a chuckle.
No. They’re not getting along. And, Miyuki hasn’t even thought of knowing him better than a family friend’s child. Basically, a stranger is the level she’d like to keep it at. There’s no need to know him better. She continued to eat quietly, having no intention to involve herself anymore. And, if Tanaka decided to talk to her again, vague answers shall do.
“By the way Miyuki…” her father began. “You’re nearing your twenties aren’t you?”
“There’s still years” she replied nonchalantly.
“Years go by in a flash you know?” he sighed, “Have you ever thought about marriage?”
Miyuki nearly choked on her food at that question. Who gets married that early in this day and age. True, and traditional Japanese parents she thought. “No… Why?”
“Why not try Tanaka here?”
‘They’re getting me arranged…?’
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[Present]
“Watanabe! Concentrate!” the dance instructor yelled with fury.
Miyuki snapped back to reality and nodded. “Sorry”
Sayaka watched the girl with concerned eyes. The whole morning Miyuki’s being weird, bringing up marriage and stuff. And, now she’s not concentrating in rehearsal, which is a rare sight. Miyuki’s determined and never loses focus in practice even if she’s running a fever. Then again, this is probably just reading too deep into the situation, Sayaka thought.
But, after the thought it wouldn't leave her anymore and all her memories flashed back.
Do you love me…?
I might be getting married…
I’m joking…
Sayaka abruptly halted to a stop in the dance routine. Everyone paused and looked at their leader. The older girl turned to face Miyuki who was beside her. Miyuki just looked back with her dark orbs. Sayaka stepped closer, slowly and gulped as she realized what she was about to do. But, she has decided to face reality. This is what she needs to do.
“Miyuki…” she began with hesitation. “I… I’ll stop lying”
Another step.
“I’m dying ever so slowly inside. I don’t think I can handle it”
Another step.
“I don’t know what will happen, but…”
This time Miyuki gulped, knowing what’s about to happen. “Sayaka…” she whispered.
“You knew all this time didn't you? That night. What I did”
Another step.
“Well, I’ll bring it all to light” Sayaka leaned in and kissed Miyuki again. But, this time it was very different. First, Miyuki is wide-awake. Second, everyone is there to witness.
The room fell silent as their lips pulled apart.
“I can’t…” was the only thing that escaped Miyuki’s mouth after that kiss.
‘I’m sorry…’
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“I’ve always being afraid.
Afraid of facing my feelings,
But once I realized that we were drifting apart.
I’d prefer being hurt than not being able to see you smile”
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@Sieka : It's great that the characters seem realistic, and that the story is interesting. Haha, Sayaka hasn't confessed? Well, maybe there's a turn of events, no? They're both still trying to stay close obviously, trying not to strain their friendship and all. But, who knows... What will happen I wonder? Things will start to take shape soon, as they try to figure things out. Hehe :)
@Sasshii : I'm glad you like my writing, it's good to know :) And, I hope you're interest will continue throughout the story!
@Crossing Crossroads : Thanks for reading~ And, I'm glad the emotions are getting across. Haha XD
@moekare : I'm glad you like it so far, and thanks for reading!
@yukofan : Well, one thing's for sure now. Sayaka has spoken! She's no longer holding in anything.
@Amakuchi : Yep, I'm trying my best to make it around three days for each chapter. And, thanks for reading!
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Good sir/ms....you are such a tease. Actually, I like what you did. :lol:
Clearly though, Sayanee didn't confess via words, but via actions, still worth something...just that she had to do it at such a bad time. Looks like a rift will appear between their relationship now and clearly NMB would be affected since its between their two aces, also one is the leader too. That's gotta hurt big on them if one of the two just suddenly disappears...or worse, one decides to graduate. I don't know how Milky would do with that arrange marriage, will she accept and do as her parents what her to, or rebel against it. Its her's to decide, not her parents, but then, if she just lets them...then that's the end for Sayanee.
I can't help but be more sympathetic for Sayanee since I feel like Milky is taking Sayanee's feelings for granted seeing as how she knew already of Sayanee's feelings and still...she wants to be close to her and maintain their friendship...but then Sayanee wouldn't want their friendship to break up either...so I guess that's also understandable. But seeing as how this happened, I don't think they'll be any closer than before...more like, apart now and I guess...the only obvious routes that I know Sayanee might do is to withdraw completely and avoid Milky OR to still be her friend, but not that entirely the same as before.
Kinda hurts thinking of it that way....and even with Milky's situation being tangled up with Sayanee's feelings and that arrange marriage, I sympathesize Sayanee more. XD
Great chapter, that cliff hang was really fantastic. :)
Quite a teaser, author-san. :lol:
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ah.. AHHHH~ No. Bad parents. D:<
Mn... >: Sayanee is finally honest and *dramatic fall to the ground* Miyuki said no! *dramatic bawling* Sayanee *wipes tears away* so brave... ; w ; *sniffles*
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it such a good story with a great storyline.. and you make my emotion being upside down while read this story..
now my mind just blown up :( this is so sad for Sayanee, the rejection(?) if it's true, and Mirukii's marriage arrangement(?)
I just hope it won't end in sad ways >,<
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Ahh, another great chapter. Arranged marriage? Oh god I hope not. I have a feeling this isn't going to end happily without a few heartbreaks along the way. I'm glad Sayanee confessed, but what an awful time and place to do it.
I look forward to the next chapter :)
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Oh! OH! you can turn me in Sayamilky shipper!!
Really Really great fanfic and chapter!!!
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CURSE HER DAD IN THIS FIC :angry:
Sayaneee :bleed eyes: pls update this asap!
Thank you :panic:
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Wow! Sayaka was so brave!
Traditional parents suck u.u
I really like you fic, it have such a great atmosphere, also bit sad. And this is really intersting o/
Thank you! Can't wait next chapter o/
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I love the way sayaka confessed to Milky <3
But, why milky responed like that T_T. I wonder f she live sayaka or not. Although milky's parent wanted to arrange marriage, but milky can say "no" to her parents, right?
Please update soon :bow:
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Yay! New chapter guys~
And, thank you to all my readers up to now! :D
Replies down the bottom as usual :)
03: When I began to hate society.
[Past]
“Hi, my name is Watanabe Miyuki. Nice to meet you”
The girl introduced herself with great enthusiasm, as she smiled from ear to ear. It was even possible to imagine little sparkling effects in her eyes. Sayaka was foreign to such personalities. She wasn’t use to the cheery, bright, and bubbly type. Most of her friends were average. Not too cheery, yet not all depressed and antisocial.
“Ah, hi, I’m Yamamoto Sayaka. Nice to meet you too” her voice was more soft compared to the other girl. It was obvious the moment they met each other’s eyes that one was more introverted while the other was more extroverted.
“Oh, weren’t you in a band before? ‘Mad Catz’ was it?”
Sayaka looked at bit surprised. She didn’t expect anyone to know that, especially when they’ve only just met for a week. The band wasn’t even that famous or popular anyways. It was more of a way to gain some experience and have fun with friends at the same time.
“How did you know?” Sayaka asked.
“I know many things, but I heard from the staff” Miyuki just looked around and searched for a clock. “What time is it, I wonder? Do you know?”
“Um…” Sayaka patted herself down a felt no phone. “Sorry, forgot to bring my phone with me”
“Same” Miyuki said with a laugh. “We’re both somewhat clumsy aren’t we?”
“Yeah…”
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Sayaka walked into the theater. It was empty, she thought. Guess she was the first member to get there. She went and took a seat and waited for the rest of the members and the staff to arrive for the meeting they set up. Just a brief meeting informing us of the members getting into ‘Team N’, and how it’s going to operate.
A creak echoed in the room. Sayaka looked over.
“Ah, you’re here” it was Miyuki. “I was getting bored and went to the bathroom”
“Oh…”
Miyuki skipped over and plopped into the seat next to Sayaka. “Hey, who do you think will be leader?”
“Wouldn’t it be the oldest?” Sayaka reasoned.
“Nana? No way, no way” Miyuki rejected the idea straight away. “There’s no way she can be a leader”
“Why?”
“There are better candidates,” Miyuki said.
“Like?”
“You”
Sayaka blinked a few times wondering if she heard it right. Where did she get all that confidence to say such a thing? “Me…?”
“Yeah, you” Miyuki said dangling her feet around. “I think you’d make a really good one”
“Really?”
Miyuki pouted. “You doubt yourself a but much though. Why not be more confident, and comfortable with whom you are? But, if you were leader I’d listen to all your opinions and take it to heart”
“Why? We hardly know each other”
“Hm…” Miyuki hummed as she thought for a decent explanation, but gave up. “I don’t know… I just feel like I can believe you” she turned to look at Sayaka. “I think you’re someone I can trust”
‘That’s the first time someone said they wanted to believe in me…’
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[Present]
Everyone was still frozen in their spots, as the shock on their faces could not be described. They were very shocked. The two aces just kissed each other. Who wouldn’t be shocked? Sayaka stepped back and looked at Miyuki, who was looking at the ground.
“I can’t…” Miyuki repeated.
Sayaka knew, “Why not?”
“I just…”
“Why not!” Sayaka repeated but this time her voice rose. It was frustrating. “You’re the one lying now, aren’t you?”
“I…” Miyuki couldn’t say anything.
“When we first met, you said that I’m someone you can trust and that you believe me, right?” Sayaka said. “I was so happy at that time, because you see, I’m not good around strangers”
Miyuki looked up. “Sayaka…”
“If, everything you said back then is still true. Then, please answer one question I have for you” Sayaka gulped and looked Miyuki firmly in the eyes. “Are you getting married?”
The world just stopped for every single person in the room. There’s too much shock within such a short amount of time. Nobody was keeping up with the two, and frankly, the two didn’t care about anyone else right now.
Miyuki was at a lost of words. “I don’t know…” she didn’t, her parents knew her love of NMB and that she won’t graduate anytime soon. They just brought it up. But, her guts are telling her that they have her set up with Tanaka so that after graduation she can go straight into it.
“You’re getting arranged…” Sayaka whispered in realization. “That whole conversation we had back then. You never think about marriage, you’re a ‘now’ type person. But, because you were pushed into the corner you were forced to face the topic”
Miyuki stayed mum.
Sayaka looked towards the ground. “Have you met him?”
Miyuki nodded.
“You know I love you, right?”
Miyuki nodded.
“Do you love me?”
‘You don’t need to answer… I’ve already made up my mind’
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[Past]
“Sayaka you will be the leader”
Miyuki smiled at the older girl. “Told you”
Sayaka smiled back. “Thank you…”
The results were generally good, it made everybody work harder whether they made the cut or not. They were given a second chance anyways. These weren’t the finalized members that will be in the team officially. There’s going to be another trial to see how it goes before finalizing anything. Basically, everyone got pumped up.
“Hey, Sayaka” Miyuki called. “Do you want to hang out afterwards?”
“Sure, why not?”
“Cool” Miyuki said her eyes beaming with happiness.
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“I’m really glad you were selected as the leader,” Miyuki said.
“But nothing’s finalized”
“No worries, you’re way too fitting for them to kick you off the title”
Miyuki just walked side by side with Sayaka, and been someone who enjoys PDA, she casually caught Sayaka’s hands. Sayaka felt a rush as their skin touched. But, she just played it cool and didn’t react much on the outside. Then, she felt Miyuki wrap herself around her arms and felt an extra amount of weight on her shoulder. Sayaka looked over and saw Miyuki resting on her shoulder with her eyes closed.
“It’s such a beautiful night,” Miyuki whispered. “The breeze is so refreshing”
“Yeah…”
‘Since when did we become so intimate…?’
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[Present]
“It can’t be helped, because it’s not a public scandal or anything,” the manager explained. “We should just split them for the time being”
“Will that really help?”
“What else are we supposed to do then?” the man retorted. “They’re in love and need to be apart. Maybe the whole love banning got to them. They’re starting to love the other members now” he shook his head. “I still can’t believe it happened”
“Fans will be displeased”
“That’s their problem. My job is to manage the group to the most profitable shape, and if one of those two leaves… I would not have completed my job. We need the both of them for NMB” he reasoned. “It’ll still need time to breed new aces to take their places”
“When are you going to tell Akimoto?”
“I’m not sure… Maybe in a week or so, we need to get it done quickly” the manager played with the pen he had in his hand and spun it around. “Do you think it’s real though?”
“What?”
“Sayaka’s feelings, and everything she said”
“I don’t know. Honestly, we know nothing about the members. We have it off so much better than them to understand what they go through and all the mental rollercoasters they encounter”
The manager just nodded, “You’re right. I wonder if they’ll ever find true love…”
“What do you mean?”
“You know, they have dating banned and everything right? So, if they were to graduate with the feeling of finally needing to move on like Maeda. Then, by the time of marriage they’ll either be disinterested, arranged, or just marrying for the sake of marrying. There’ll be hardly any emotions. Love and marriage are very different after all,” the manager said rocking in his seat.
“And, the love they feel now will only be painful”
“Exactly…”
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“I would remember when our lives weren’t as complicated.
Everything was simple.
Now, it makes me miss those days.
Back when I could hold you freely without any worries”
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Replies:
@Sieka : Hm, I think that Miyuki is just in a situation where she needs to choose between family or herself... And, that can be hard sometimes. And, I'm glad you enjoyed the chapter~ :)
@Crossing Crossroads : Haha, just when Sayaka confesses. Miyuki's family does something. Oh, bad timing... Lol XD
@KristenJo : Thank you for reading! :D And, glad you like it. Sadly, I the arrangement is undecided at the moment for Miyuki. It could be real or it could be a misunderstanding. Hm, I wonder...
@Sasshii : You might be right about it ending badly, but it depends who's perspective you'll use to judge that. The character's, or your's (a fan's)?
@Chanaline : Turn you into a SayaMilky shipper? I would love to be able to do that. Is it still working? And, thanks for reading :D
@moekare : Ah, fathers in traditional families. Always thinking ahead... Lol
@BbSis : Thank you for reading, and glad you're enjoying it :) Traditional parents do suck don't they. We're in the 21st Century after all. Haha
@yukofan : I'm glad you liked Sayaka's 'style'. And, Miyuki is just in a 'situation' but she might say no. Yet again, she might agree with her parents.
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I smelled more trouble will come :banghead:
I just hope they'll be together in the end :(
and btw nice chap! can't wait for the next chapter :D
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Oh! Why couldn't they let it pass? Like they said it wasn't even a public scandal ><
What is going to happen with SayaMilky now? ;.;
I think Milky's parents should learn about 21st century ><'
Thank you for the update o/ I really liked I :D
Ah! Could you tell me what the title means? My japanese is too lame and I'm no sure if I get it wrong ><"
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wwo wow wow wow what did i just read now what is this awesomeness
its crazy how good your writing is it just gets better and better after each chapter!
i ABSOLUTELY love how realistic the plot is and i love how you're not making it too draggy. the pace is just right for me >.<
i think you just became my new favorite author here :twothumbs
keep up the good work!
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Hmm...I was kind of expecting more drama on Sayanee's side you know...like, BAM, REJECTED. Silence. Pain. Awkwardness. Flat out run away/storm off. :bleed eyes:
YET, you kind of avoided that drama through Sayanee being courageous enough to ask Milky, and I think a mutual understanding between them is formed after that. I don't know what to say though, or maybe I do, actually this has been on my mind...something like this:
Maybe Milky already had some feelings for Sayanee when she first saw her, considering the conversations they had set in the past and those feelings continued to grow until the present but she just avoids trying to let Sayanee see it by being close and flirting with other members like Maachun just to cover it up, maybe she had a bit of clue or sense that Sayanee likes her but then its kind of blurry anyhow since Sayanee cares about everyone...anyways then the kiss-in-the-train scene happened so likely, she became aware of Sayanee's feelings but did not do any actions and just continued to look at Sayanee, as if searching for something from Sayanee to be more sure and then, we got Ch. 1 end scene in the train again (you sure love the train) where Milky calls Sayanee a liar because she already had an evidence enough to truly believe the existence of Sayanee's feelings for her.
And the reason why the rejection scene happened in Ch. 2 is more likely because Milky is aware that Sayanee would just get hurt if the marriage arrangement is going to proceed or something more than that. I think Milky has been aware of her situation enough to reject Sayanee on Ch. 2, but mah...she loves Sayanee, I do believe so, especially from what I have read in this new update, I am more than enough convinced that the love between them is mutual but sadly, its complicated and painful for both of them if they proceed to delve more into the mutual feelings they have for another, hence why I think Milky rejected Sayanee there. I could be very much wrong though...puahaha. XD
So now...looks like the management might tear them apart now that they know this issue. Private scandal or public scandal, a scandal is a scandal and once it gets out, it'll be messy, so I kind of understand why the management would want to tear them apart....its for their well being to, and also for the management's sake. Hahaha, I do however don't like what they are planning to do, it seems unfair, especially since they make profit from the girls and the group itself, can't they just leave the two to do what they like with their private lives? Geez, sadly a lot of people like to be nosy when its the entertainment business, especially those paparazzi and reporters. :lol:
Nice chapter, I still really really really expected some drama though in this chapter...must be because of the rejection scene at the end of Ch. 2. :lol:
Oh well, angst or drama can come later on...I'd probably enjoy it more when the tension rises and more problems arise...quite a treat to read something like that. :rofl:
Thanks for the update.
You surely do fill up my SayaMilky craving with your fic and updates. :cathappy:
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I like the way you handled the whole after Sayaka confessed thing. It's different from how most writers would write it and its refreshing to see something new. Also the ending of this chapter really is true, at least I think for a lot of the members. Even if they do fall in love while being in the group, it'll only be painful for them because of the no dating rule. Probably even worse if some of them fall in love with each other, which I'm sure has happened before. Ah the joys of being an idol haha.
Anyways, I'm looking forward to the next chapter as always.
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Sayanee's confession! :banghead:
more troubles will come, and the manager wants to separate them ooooo :panic:
I want the next ch please, thanks for your update! :bleed eyes:
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I love the early days of sayamilky scene..
I want to know what the management will do to sayamilky :panic:
Please update :bow:
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A/N: As usual replies down below, but today there's more important information.
Well, I'm here to say this FanFic has FINISHED!
I'm kidding, well, this is like the part one of volume 1, if you know what I mean.
And, I will be moving on to part two next time, which will start still start under chapter five. But, under a part two in the contents.
And, guess what. Part two will be the sequel, which means they have grown up but still struggling with their love for each other.
Well, look forward to that and enjoy this last chapter of their lovely youthful days~
04: When I forget my purpose.
[Present]
‘There seems to be tension between you and Milky, what happened?’
Scroll.
‘Hey, why aren’t you and Milky at the same stages anymore?’
Scroll.
‘Are you and Milky fighting?’
Scroll.
‘You and Milky seem distant lately, is it just my imagination?’
Sayaka literally chucked her phone. The sound of her phone crashing onto the tiles of the TV station was heard loud and clear as she broke the icy cold silence of their waiting room. She abruptly stood up and walked out the waiting room. The little pieces of the phone’s cracked screen slid across the room and spread everywhere, and the back of her phone snapped off. Just like Sayaka, the broken phone lay alone in the corner of the waiting room. Everyone just stared at the phone and its fragmented pieces that flew everywhere in the room. But, soon their eyes all diverted to their leader who just left the room in a hurry.
“Hey, Miyuki…” Mayu said as she tugged the girl’s arm. “Shouldn’t you talk to Sayaka?”
Miyuki just stared at the empty space at the door, where Sayaka stormed off. She looked down feeling guilty. She didn’t mean to hurt Sayaka. The distraction of marriage just had to happen after she confronted Sayaka at the station. If she knew that were to happen she wouldn’t have said anything that night. “I don’t think she wants to see me anymore…”
“Maybe it’s closure,” Mayu said.
“No…” Miyuki shook her head. “I hurt her, she’ll need time before being able to talk about it”
Ever since the incident during rehearsal, the members were trying to be as supportive and considerate as possible. But, they can only do so much to help the situation. The staff is even trying, but their manager and producer obviously went for the more practical approach to the matter. The dance instructor has suddenly become lenient too, and that says a lot because she’s never lenient. She never shows emotions, apart from an angry face. But, recently she’s being giving sympathetic eyes to Sayaka and Miyuki. A rare sight that should be embraced if it was when times were normal and casual, however with all the tension no one could care less about embracing the instructor’s kindness.
“I think we both just need some time,” Miyuki stated. “Take a break from each other”
Mayu just looked at her good friend with a concerned expression.
“It’s what the manager told me, told us,” Miyuki continued.
“What do you mean?” Mayu asked. “I know there are plans of lessening your stages with each other though”
Miyuki just gave a faint smile and whispered, as if she was breathing out her words. “It’s being officially decided that I will be transferring to AKB’s Team B”
The waiting room fell quiet again as everyone wore shocked expressions of disbelief.
“No more NMB…” Miyuki said.
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[Past]
“This cake is really good” Miyuki said as she happily took bites of the cake she ordered.
“Same” Sayaka said as she ate hers happily too. “This café’s quite good actually, we should come so often we get coupons”
“Ah, turning into Nana” Miyuki said.
“I’m just saying…”
Miyuki just giggled. “Hey, can I try some of yours?”
“Sure” Sayaka said as she pushed the plate over towards Miyuki a bit so it’s easier to reach.
“No”
“What?”
“Feed me”
Sayaka just sighed. “Ah, such a child” she said as she used the fork and cut a little piece off and fed it to the girl who sat opposite her. “Here”
Miyuki took the bite with a wide grin and nodded. “It’s good!” she exclaimed. “So sweet and spongy”
“Yeah, it is”
“Hey…” Miyuki began as she leaned in.
“What is it?”
“I like where I am now”
Sayaka cocked her head to the side. “What do you mean?”
“I mean, I’d like to be number one in senbatsu and all, and will aim for it. But, I wouldn’t mind it if things stayed the way it is right now” Miyuki explained. “I mean I like how you’re leading the group and how we’re all very close with each other and not drifting apart. Once people start getting temporary positions, solos, and placed in units and stuff like that. There’s more stress, which could lead to a lot of complication, right?”
Sayaka nodded at what Miyuki was trying to say. “Yeah… I guess”
“Then, complications could lead to lots of other things within the group and we could slowly drift apart without noticing. So, I like the way we are now” Miyuki ended with a smile. “I want to stay this way, but it’s not possible”
“Well, I’ll always be the leader and you’ll be our humble ace. And, we’ll help lead NMB together without all the complication then” Sayaka stated. “We can always try to keep the little things the same while moving forward”
“Then, you’ll have to be the leader forever and never graduate until your duty has being carried out successfully” Miyuki said.
“And, you’ll have to remain as a role model for the juniors to reach for and can’t graduate until you have carried everyone up with you” Sayaka said.
“Fine”
“Okay then”
Miyuki raised her hand and poked out her pinky. “Promise?”
Sayaka hooked her pinky with Miyuki’s and nodded firmly. “Promise…”
‘We whole-heartedly believed that we would be by each other’s side on stage forever…’
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[Present]
One drop.
Two Drops.
Three Drops.
Subconsciously, Sayaka began to quietly cry in the corridors of the TV station as her legs gave way and she slowly slid down onto the ground, with her back leaning on the cold wall. This is the first time she’s cried over someone, even after the understandable rejection. She never cried. She’d be mad, angry, frustrated, but never cried. It felt almost foreign to cry over something that’s supposedly banned. She knew the result, yet she did it anyways. It makes her so angry to think she actually did this to herself.
Honestly, she hated it. How she felt abandoned, how she felt useless, and how she felt like she should’ve just kept quite. Kept on lying to herself, and just denied for the rest of her life. Now, she can’t help but think that even if Miyuki accepted, she wouldn’t mind not knowing the whole time. She could’ve lived on acting oblivious and dense. But, the emotions slowly drove her insane and she just couldn’t handle it anymore. She couldn’t keep the lid shut, no matter how hard she tried and how much force she used. She should feel relieved, but she regrets it. Regrets everything she did, from the day she said ‘hi’ to Miyuki to the day she kissed her on the train, until now.
Why did she even think for a second that she had a chance? How stupid of her. She hates herself for changing, because her old self would’ve stuck to the rules. Her old self would’ve ignored the feelings and would’ve being rational. Her old self would’ve never fully, let the bubbly girl with a contagious smile, into her life. She would’ve kept her distance, because her old self would’ve known that she was going to fall in love and would’ve stopped before it reached her.
“Sayaka…?” a voice called softly.
Sayaka knew that voice better than anyone else. She stood up and started to walk away but was caught by the wrist. Wiping her tears, she turned around. “What?”
“I’m sorry” Miyuki said with sad eyes. “I didn’t mean to put you through all of this”
“Great, because you just did” Sayaka said. “You knew the whole time, and now you change your mind and decide not to love me back? Then, what was your purpose when you asked me back then? When you said I was a liar, what was all of that?”
“I do love you” Miyuki said. “I do, but Tanaka came along right after and my parents are expecting me to hang out with him a bit. Just to get to know each other”
“You could just say no” Sayaka stated within the heat of the moment. “You don’t have to listen to them”
Miyuki sighed. “Sayaka, they’re my parents. They raised me up all the way up until now, and allowed me chased my dreams. Allowed me to meet you” she held Sayaka’s hands. “I should at least act the part for a while before telling them otherwise, make it seem like I did consider their options and make them happy for once”
Sayaka nodded. “I know, I just…” she swallowed hard. “I just love you so much, when you said no, I felt like dying. Only for a split second though”
Miyuki smiled warmly. “I know. I love you too. Really, and I hated myself for saying no too. But, let’s be honest. The chance of our relationship lasting if we started is near impossible. Our society and culture has us bound, and our job,” she explained. “We just can’t at the moment, but I just want you to know. That I love you, and I’ve loved you this whole time, and that I’m sorry that we have to end without even beginning”
Miyuki leaned in and kissed Sayaka passionately.
That was their third kiss… and, their last.
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“I knew it wasn’t anybody’s fault,
But, every time I think about it.
I feel like society is judging me,
And, that I will never be able to ‘I love you’ ever again”
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Replies:
@KristenJo : More trouble? Hm, maybe. And, will your wish come true? I wonder, why not judge through this chapter. I kid, they might end up together while going through some rough obstacles along the way.
@BbSis : Ah, right the Japanese title means: 'Why Did I Fall In Love With You?'. Sorry, for not having like a translated subtitle or something. I kept on forgetting, haha Some good things may happen to SayaMilky, my friend! Maybe...
@dirtydeeds : Oh, I'm so glad my writing isn't degrading. Lol. It's a fear of mine as a fanfic writer. And, I hope this chapter is still up to standard too
@Sieka : Drama, nah.... Drama comes after. Lol. When they're older. You'll see all the drama there~ Muhahaha! (Never used this emoticon before, I feel like I have stepped forward in life)...
@Sasshii : I'm glad you liked the ending, I was afraid someone would come a murder me for not twisting the manager's logic and keep them together. Lol, jks. But, hmmm, if I would love to be an idol then... Lol
@morkare : Sayanee has finally confessed. Indeed, and the manager has become the villain to all shippers. Haha
@yukofan : I love the early days of SayaMilky too~ So ideal... Well, the management may do some unpleasant things. But, fear not. The second part of Volume 1 has come to save us from our misery!
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Hoh, I understand...so they are gonna mature...or get older on the next part and we see more complications.
Interesting...Mah, Milky's feelings were obvious from the start, hah, well no need to cry over spilled milk now Sayanee...wait, Milky...and spilled milk, okay, sometimes I need to just change Milky's name to Miyuki...I tend to get her nickname caught up with real milk. :sweatdrop:
Anyhow, rejection hurts, but they are being supported, that's okay...but there are complications too...more though even with Milky being in Team B than in NMB now.
Mah, I like drama but that arranged marriage is sticking like a sore thumb. Not that I don't like the drama and all...I think more drama is fine, it makes everything spicy and actually enjoyable with how the conflict plays and how the tension and sadness rises between them. I wanna see how this will tear them apart. :lol:
I more or less want to see a sad end rather than a good end...kinda bad of me, but mahhhh... :lol:
Thanks for the update. :)
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ah this is somehow frustrating me :panic:
all the things that happen and the seperation.... :cry:
thanks for the update and I can't wait for the next part(?)
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Ahhh~ Milky please :panic: :panic:
Poor Sayanee :cry: :cry:
That kiss.. I hope it wasn't really the last for them *prays*
Love the story~
Can't wait for the next update :3
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Nhyaaaaaa so saaad ;.; why, Miyuki, why? :cry
You could just hide the fact that you are dating ><
I hope that maybe turn into a sure thing o/
Thank you for translating the title o/
Can't wait next update o/
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Ahh, so close. Nothing is worse than when the characters both have feelings for each other but can't be together. I understand in a way why Milky would be that way, but you never know until you try. She didn't even give it a chance yet, nobody likes a quitter, Milky! Anyways, I'll keep on hoping that eventually Milky will change her mind and they'll live happily together.
I look forward to your next update :)
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Oh, milky..you should fight for your love..you should not doing whatever your parents' want.
Nooooo..I hope that is not their really last kiss..
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Oh no I forgot comment!!!! :smhid
It is just beautiful!! :twothumbs But Sad! :(
Poor Sayaka, she finally confess but Miruki can't say yes... :cry:
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Yeah! Please continue this! Me <3 sayamilky~
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Oh! it´s the first sayamilky that i read and...
I like It!!
I look forward to the next chapter!
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Gahd... I want an update. OTL
UPDATE PLEASE! TT ^ TT
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please update this fic is so sad but romantic
update pleassssssssssssssssssse
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Sorry for the awfully long gap.
But! I AM BACK!
Haha, anyways here part two of it when they're all independent and stuff. Lol
Enjoy~ :D
05: 5 Years Later~
[Present]
Yamamoto Sayaka ambled through the corridors of the TV station fiddling with her headset microphone. The tape was starting to bother her, and she hasn’t even performed yet. She was really bored right now, there’s nothing to do. The canteen’s not open either so she can’t go eat to waste time either. She forgot her snacks as well, and her phone’s running out of battery. “Why…?” Sayaka muttered as she sighed.
“The next performance is for NMB48! Please, call them out for standby!” a staff member shouted from the entrance of the stage.
Sayaka looked at the man and the lady who was receiving the order. She just went back and forth, before she saw a group of girls hurry out of the waiting room. Sayaka backed herself up to the wall and gave way to the youngsters. She felt nostalgia rush through her blood, as she watched NMB48 go backstage. “Ah…” she whispered to herself. She almost forgot about her origins, NMB48. The place she first started and the place she fell in love. Well, it doesn’t matter now. It’s all in the past now. How long has it been? She thought as she saw the disappearing backs. Actually, she still recognizes some of the faces. Those who used to be research students back when she was still the leader.
She turned away and continued her hundredth stroll of the TV station. But, suddenly all her boredom vanished. Instead, she filled with the memories she had locked in the back of head. Now, they were flooding back and it was almost giving her a headache. She ruffled her hair as she tried to shake out the memories that were returning much more vividly than expected. The main problem weren’t even the memories, she would love to remember the time she would mess around with Ogasawara or when everyone would tease Yamada. But, instead all she’s recalling is the one person she wants to forget the most. Watanabe Miyuki.
Sayaka stomped to a halt in the middle of the corridor out of frustration. It’s being years, she’s a successful solo artist now. She’s had three Tokyo Dome concerts within her solo career, she’s moved forward so much. Yet, why does she still cling onto Miyuki so much? Miyuki’s taking a different path too, Sayaka’s seen it all. Miyuki’s everywhere nowadays, front cover of magazines, photo books, and commercials. Everything, she’s a great model now. And, this makes Sayaka wonder. Is Miyuki still clinging like she is? Or has Miyuki forgotten?
“Sayanee?”
Sayaka froze at the nickname. She turned around slowly. “Mayu? What are you doing here?”
Ogasawara Mayu laughed. “You’re not using the nicknames anymore? Don’t tell me you weren’t the only one who thought they kind of annoying” she scanned the older girl. “And aren’t you becoming more and more handsome”
“Yeah…” Sayaka agreed softly. “Handsome? I should be pretty shouldn’t I?”
“Well, I’m just her as the fill-in MC for the second half. The current got something on” Mayu explained her presence. “And, hey there are plenty handsome girls nowadays. Just look at all the tomboys out there. They are real good at it”
“I see, I guess you’re right. But, it was agency’s idea so… I didn’t have much choice” Sayaka smiled at her old friend. “We haven’t met for a while…”
“For ages more like!” Mayu exclaimed. She’s always been a cheerful character. She would always be able to bring up the atmosphere, added with her great sense of humor people loved being around her. She’s that type that brings people together.
“I guess… So, how’s your career now?” Sayaka asked.
“It’s going good. I’m getting quite a lot of offers now” Mayu said. “Being a comedian wasn’t such a bad idea. A lot of people want me to MC now”
Sayaka gave a soft chuckle. “Yeah, it’s always suited you. I knew you’d do great in comedy”
“Thanks man” Mayu said. “Well, I knew you’d do great solo. You were always quite independent and definitely talented”
“Thank you…”
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“Sorry I’m late” Miyuki apologized sweetly to her boyfriend.
“That’s okay, I just arrived anyways”
“So, where are you planning to take me today?”
“I know this really popular café nearby” he said.
Miyuki gave him a wide grin. “Sounds good,” she said as she wrapped herself around his arm. It was cold these days, so she snuggled up to him a bit more than usual. “Atsu” she called. She saw her boyfriend nod as a sign that he was listening. “We’ve been together for 3 years now haven’t we? We got official after I graduated so…”
“Yeah, what about it?” Tanaka Atsuhiro asked.
“I was just wondering, did you agree because of your parents or because you actually liked me?” Miyuki asked. “Or was it from my fame” she added in quickly.
He hummed as he thought. “I’d be lying if I said my parents wasn’t part of it. But, now it’s absolutely because I like you”
“Okay, me too” Miyuki lied. He’s different, she thought. The only person who’s ever declared their love for her was Yamamoto Sayaka, everyone else just gives her half-hearted likes. Miyuki started off in front of her and just let her boyfriend lead the way. Everyone’s so busy nowadays. Sayaka has lots of concerts and fan events. Mayu has a bunch of shows to host. Aina is busy studying to get her degree. Nana… Well, Nana, she has no idea. Maybe travelling the world or something, it sounds just like her. If, only she could gather everyone for like an ex-NMB member meet up that way she’d be able to see Sayaka again without seeming desperate.
How many times is this? Miyuki thought. Sayaka always somehow ends up in her mind, one way or another. “I wonder if she’s dating?” Miyuki whispered to herself.
“What was that?” Atsuhiro asked, unsure if Miyuki was talking to him or not.
“Ah, nothing. Just wondering when my shoot for tomorrow is” she said.
“Oh, well, we’re…” he dragged his last word and took his last few steps with Miyuki in tow. “Here” he announced as he stopped in front of the café. He opened the door and ushered Miyuki to go in, and so she did as he followed.
“Ah, this place is so cute” Miyuki praised as she was directed to a table with her boyfriend. Everyone gasped at the sight of the famous model.
“Is that Miyuki?” people whispered back and forth.
Miyuki would just smile at them and wave. Then, more whispers would occur along with a few shrieks, which is most probably from fans.
“Is that her boyfriend? It’s the first time seeing him in person” one person whispered.
“I heard that he studied in America and is a doctor, as expected of Miyuki,” another whispered.
“Ah, he’s so lucky” and the whispers would just continue non-stop.
Atsuhiro looked around and fidgeted a little with unease. He hasn’t gone out with Miyuki in public yet and it takes time to get use to. He felt a hand on his.
“Don’t worry about them, just be your usual self. They mean no harm, and I’m here anyways. You’re good to go” Miyuki reassured. And, just like that the memories would flashback. She would remember all the times she had to encourage Sayaka. All the times she would embrace Sayaka. All times she would smile for Sayaka. And, that one time she hurt Sayaka. Everything returned, and it stung. “Don’t worry,” she repeated herself, with a whispered as her grip around Atsuhiro’s hand tightened ever so slightly.
Atsuhiro’s head tilted and smiled. “Okay” he ordered the drinks and foods that Miyuki and himself agreed on getting. They chatted a bit, before something caught Atsuhiro’s attention. He tapped Miyuki’s hand lightly, “Hey, isn’t that Yamamoto Sayaka’s song?”
Miyuki sat quietly concentrating on the music in the café. She heard it, that familiar voice. The rich voice she loved listening to every night on the phone. It’s the same voice. It was Sayaka’s voice. Miyuki never followed Sayaka’s moves after graduation. She didn’t want to, she thought it’d be too painful. But, now she found herself back to square one. Listening to her voice after such a long time, reminds her of the first time they met and talked.
“Yeah, it is her song…” Miyuki whispered still a bit lost in her thoughts.
“She’s really good isn’t she” Atsuhiro said. “She’s quite handsome now too” he complimented with a chuckle. “I swear lots of girls chase her, mistaking her as a boy when they first see her”
“She’s always had a knack of winning people’s hearts, especially girls,” Miyuki said out of the blue. “And that’s why when she fell in love, she didn’t know what to do”
“Oh, she was in love?” Atsuhiro asked, intrigued by the information.
“Yeah, once” Miyuki replied. “She fell quite hard”
“First love is always difficult to deal with,” Atsuhiro said showing sympathy for Sayaka. “Was it one-sided?”
“No” Miyuki shook her head lightly. “The person she loved decided to drop her”
“That’s the worst,” he said.
Miyuki nodded, “I agree, the person regrets it now”
“They must be” Atsuhiro said. “Sayaka’s such a nice person too”
“She’s too nice” Miyuki corrected. “So nice… and strong. She’s so strong that even after having her heart trampled on, it still beats for that exact person”
“Why?”
Miyuki shrugged. “She knows that the other person loves her too, but is in denial… Maybe”
“Oh…”
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[Past]
“The graduation of Yamamoto Sayaka and Watanabe Miyuki has been announced to be next month,” the newspaper stated in bold letters. Miyuki just stared at it and then the clock. It became a pattern now. One minute on the newspaper and 5 seconds on the clock. The door creaked open and finally broke Miyuki from her trance that was slowly nearing hypnosis.
“Ah, Sayaka” Miyuki said.
“Miyuki” Sayaka took a seat next to the girl and took the other’s hand. “You know… I’ve been thinking” she paused. “Why didn’t you tell me about your graduation beforehand?”
Miyuki shrugged. “I don’t know. I’ve always thought about it. But, maybe, when you announced yours I hated the idea of having you missing… or maybe I just got sick of it all”
Sayaka sighed. “That’s quite childish” she commented. “Did you do it because of Tanaka?”
Miyuki jerked her head to look at Sayaka with menacing eyes. “I don’t want to her his name coming from your mouth again,” she demanded.
“Why?”
“It makes me feel bad, horrible, terrible, self-disgust, annoyed…” she was cut off by the soothing voice of Sayaka.
“Don’t say such things,” Sayaka said calmly. “You don’t need to feel bad about yourself” she smiled. “I understand. It’s okay”
“No you don’t…” Miyuki whispered. “You don’t understand. Your love for me is proof. Why do you still love me? Don’t you feel like I’ve taken your feelings for granted?”
“No” Sayaka stated firmly. “You made me realize what it’s like to love. And, my love for you will always be here”
“Why?” Miyuki asked on the verge of tears. Her voice trembled and her need for Sayaka’s warmth increased.
Sayaka gave Miyuki a gentle hug and whispered. “Because, I know you love me too. All those times you were telling me how I was a liar, I understand now. The liar isn’t me” she paused. “Miyuki, you were referring to yourself weren’t you? You had your eyes on me way before we became close. And, you were holding it all in”
Miyuki broke as she heard Sayaka’s words. The tears streamed down silently.
“When I finally confessed you didn’t know what to do though, because Tanaka came into the picture. All these complications were occurring at the wrong times, and you were frustrated. You were mad” Sayaka tightened her embrace. “It must’ve been tough… But, it’s okay now. Maybe, if we meet again in the future in different situations. We’ll be able to make it work”
“Sayaka...” Miyuki whispered.
“We haven’t ended yet, Miyuki. We’re just at the beginning… And, I promise by the end of it all, I would’ve won your heart”
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“Sometimes I’d hear your voice…
You’d whisper to me ever so gently.
You’d tell me of the beauties in this world.
You’d remind me of all the kind hearts in this world.
And, you’d remind me of my love…
My love for you”
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Finally you are back and updated
so sad but it is the begining isnt it hehe anyway I hope you will update this fic more
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Seriously, you made me wait for too long
But anyway...
I must say that it is worth it because the chapter is AMAZING!!
Sayanee, go get your girl! Kill that Atsu guy!! XD
please update quickly <3
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how...hiw can I missed such a nice fic like this....
man...love the story and the characterization looks real...
can't wait for the next chapter...
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This is good~ ahh~ Please update more~ :cow: :deco:
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I want an update... ; _ ;
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I want an update too T_T pleasee.. Im dying heree ;A;
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Finally you're back
This is one hell great chapter ~
Please, don't make me wait again forr the next chapter...
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INTERESTING!!!
:w00t: :D
PLEASE UPDATE SOON :jphip: :D
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I'm really happy to see new update. This chapter make me cry. :cry:
Thank you very much. :cathappy:
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IT WAS A GREAT STORY..
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It makes me remember that the ending was not always happy but they were always became a great story in many ways.. :")
Good job!
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Finally QAQ I WAS DYING WAITING...I'm so happy! Thanks for the update! It was great and I really reaaaally love your story. One of my favourites for sure
Please keep writing! /o/
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Next chapter peoples~
Enjoy :D
06: I heard that you were doing well…
[Present]
Unreal.
Impossible.
The two words that Miyuki processed through her mind within the span of what felt like hours, even though she tried so hard to think deeper, didn’t help her frozen state as she stood in front of the awfully familiar person. “Sayaka…” she whispered. She’s grown, Miyuki thought. They used to be around the same height, but now there’s quite a decent difference. It surprised Miyuki, that Sayaka gave such a different atmosphere now. Sayaka’s success must be giving her a much stronger image compared to when she was in NMB. Back in NMB, Sayaka already gave a strong image, but now… it’s even stronger.
Sayaka gazed down into Miyuki’s eyes for a split second before diverting her gaze to a spot behind the shorter girl. There was silence before Sayaka sighed and diverted her eyes back to the stunned girl. She gave a faint smile. “Hey, you seem to be doing well”
Miyuki gave Sayaka a worried look. Why did she sigh? Why did she seem like she wanted to leave but ended up talking out of courtesy? Why did Sayaka seem so different? “Yeah, I’m okay. How about you?”
Sayaka raised her eyebrows as she heard Miyuki’s voice. It’s as if she wasn’t paying attention. “Ah, right, yeah. I’m fine”
Miyuki tried her best to not frown, but instead forced a smile. The sight made Sayaka wince. It didn’t suit Miyuki to force her smiles. It worked best natural. Sayaka liked Miyuki’s sheepish grins, and child-like laughs. Sayaka swallowed what seemed like a lump in her throat. She looked down unable to make eye contact anymore. This was so… surreal.
Miyuki watched the former-leader look down and finally frowned. She gives up, Miyuki wanted to scream and hit. She wanted to let Sayaka know how mad she was for such a disappointed reunion. It may have been unexpected but it was still a disappointment. Miyuki clenched her fists and decided to walk off. But, just as she passed Sayaka a hand gripped her wrist. It was quite a tight grip; it was filled with frustration. Miyuki turned to see Sayaka looking at her. The grip loosened as they made eye contact.
“Don’t get me wrong” Sayaka said. “I was just surprised,” she explained weakly. She gave gentle smile filled with warmth. “I still feel the same”
Miyuki nodded. “I know, it’s cool” she walked off as Sayaka’s hands softly slipped off her wrists down to her fingers before completely disappearing from her sense of touch. “It seems like you’ll be up soon”
Sayaka just watched as the back faded into the distance. “I hope Tanaka’s treating you well,” she said to no one in particular as the person she was directing it at was already too far to hear.
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“Our special guest today is…” Miyuki started to announce building up the suspense as she heard a drumroll been played in the background. “Yamamoto Sayaka!” she spread her arm out to the direction was the celebrity’s entrance. The on-set crowd cheered as they saw the figure been revealed behind the grand doors of the studio.
Sayaka came out with a smile, a bow, and a wave. She swiftly walked over to her seat and sat down. Miyuki watched as Sayaka’s professional side took over. It was truly an admirable sight. There was no one any of them could’ve gotten to that level of professionalism through NMB. The main MC soon took over, as Miyuki would chime in every now and then for explanations or introducing themes for the show to progress.
“It seems there are two big stars with us today” the MC said as he referred to the model and soloist. “So, you were both part of NMB and the aces as well, right?”
Sayaka smiled. “No, I was the leader. Miyuki was the ace”
“Ah, I see” he said as he nodded along with the answer given. He gave a playful smirk before speaking again. “So, you’ve been out of the group for years now”
Sayaka nodded.
“Mind sharing some information that was dangerous back then to reveal?” he asked.
“Like?” Sayaka simply questioned.
“Did you secretly date during your time as a member of NMB or like someone?”
Miyuki tensed at the question, and looked at Sayaka who was lightly chuckling in her seat. “Yes, yes I have” Sayaka confessed. The crowd wooed. “Too bad it was one-sided” Sayaka continued.
“Oh, unrequited love. Quite the story you have there. Were you friends?” the MC asked. It was all part of the script, and Miyuki hated the script for this sole reason.
“Yes, we were friends” Sayaka said. “We still keep in contact actually”
Why was she so honest? Miyuki wondered as watched Sayaka with intensity, anticipating every answer. “Are they dating anyone now?” Miyuki chimed with her question.
Sayaka gave a slightly startled eye to Miyuki, which only Miyuki really picked up. “Yes, they are right now”
“Have you met the current girlfriend?” Miyuki asked, obviously in a boy’s point of view because it is still standard that a relationship only consists of a boy and a girl.
“I haven’t actually, though recently pictures were updated of them in a café… on a date I presume”
“What did you think,” Miyuki continued to bombard.
“She was much more beautiful than I had envisioned” Sayaka gave a smile. “She seemed like a good person. I’m glad”
“Do you think he ever loved you?” Miyuki asked.
Sayaka stayed mum for a second. “I think, yes. It’s just that we both knew that a relationship was impossible at the time”
“I think he regrets it now, though” Miyuki said with a grin. “I mean you’re such a good person”
Sayaka smiled. “Thank you… I think we both regret it”
They both regretted letting each other go. It was a mutual feeling after all these years. They’d always wonder, what if… What if they had held on tighter? What if they had persisted? Would things have turned out differently? But, after these thoughts they’d just shake their heads.
No.
That’s impossible.
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“Thanks for your hard work” all the guests and staff people bowed to each other before making there way out of the studio to get ready to go home. The staff stayed behind to clean things up though. Miyuki walked slowly to the stairs that led to the back exit of the studio. It was just she and Sayaka now. Just when she arrived by the staircase, Sayaka also arrived. Sayaka stopped. “After you” she whispered.
Miyuki just did as insisted. “Do you still think it’s impossible?” she asked Sayaka who was right behind her.
Sayaka didn’t say a word. They just walked all the way to the waiting rooms in silence. Miyuki sighed. Maybe it was too late, or maybe Sayaka’s taking it slow. Sayaka stopped in the middle of the corridors, making Miyuki stop too as she heard the absence of footsteps. She turned around and faced the older girl. “What is it?” Miyuki asked.
Sayaka still remained silent however.
“It is impossible” Miyuki stated amidst the silence.
“No” Sayaka simply replied. “It was impossible… but, not anymore”
Miyuki gave a chuckle. “What are you talking about?”
“Remember back when we graduated I said that by the end of it all, I’d win your heart? Well, I meant that” Sayaka began. “Tanaka’s a good guy, but I don’t think he’s good enough. There’s so many things I’d like to show you, share with you, give to you… so, many things”
“Tanaka’s not that bad though,” Miyuki said.
Sayaka smiled. “You say that, but deep down you don’t need him”
Miyuki scoffed. “Since when did you get so cocky?”
“I don’t know” Sayaka said nonchalantly. “Maybe the fame is getting to me”
Miyuki gave an airy chuckle. “Maybe, it’s getting to the both of us”
“Indeed, it’s making you forget what you need” Sayaka commented. “That’s no good”
“Shut up”
Sayaka walked up to Miyuki and gave her a sweet peck on the lips. “You’ve been craving for it haven’t you?” she said afterwards with a smirk before waving a casual goodbye.
Miyuki stood stunned in the corridors and touched her lips. A smile slowly crept onto her, “Idiot”
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“I decided that I’d wait.
Wait for you come.
The whole time I feared that you’d have forgotten.
That you’d have moved on.
But, it seems like I’m still waiting.
So, you must be coming then.
And, when you arrive I’ll be there with my usual grin.”
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wohow an update..
u really makes me waiting for a long time :D but its ok :)
i really like ur fic, hope i can see u again as soon as possible :w00t: :twothumbs :inlove: :deco:
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YEAAAAAY AN UPDATE!!! :on GJ:
Oh please please next chap will be warukii dumping tanaka :on chew:
And of course sayamilky rated scenes :glasses:
Please dont make me wait any longer for the next chap :gyaaah:
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Yeay! An updaaate.. Gaaah! Sayanee so cool ! Kakkoi >w< they are so mean to each other.. Author san.. Thanks a bunch :bow: please keep it up! Me wait patiently for the next!
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thanks for your update
Awww sayaka is so honest that it makes me sad what happens with her and miyuki
I hope their love will win in the end
anyway I hope you will update more
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go sayanee go...win milky's heart...
nice update... :on GJ:
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Ahhhhhh yes yes Sayanee yesssssssss. Go for it Sayanee! I'm behind you! XD
Milky, just give up and go to Sayanee's side, won't you 8D
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ERMEHGERD! It's been a while since I read this! GO SAYANEE! I'M SUPPORTING YOU! XD
Update please. m(_ _)m
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please please update :inlove:
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GAAAAAH~~
I can't stay silent anymore! :panic:
I need you to update this A.S.A.P!!!
Sayanee you have my full support!!! :banghead:
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Author I really wish you can update aoon :jphip:
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its hurts..... :farofflook: :tantrum:
surely hurts... :on speedy:
author-san~ you are really good..no, greats !! :on GJ: :on GJ:
angst angst angstt i love angst~! :mon waterworks:
please update :bow: :bow: :mon runcry:
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Author~San please update it ! I really love how u put each and every sequel in the story ! Hopping sayaka will win milky heart back and beat that stupid tanaka
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Well...it's my first comment here....
I really like this fic....nice way of writing...
And you're successfully made me felt fear inside me...
Looking forward for the next update...
Hope it will be a happy ending story...😁😁😁😁
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Author-san, please update this awesome fic. :depressed:
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Come on, Sayanee! Go get your Mirukii!
And that kiss, you got a good timing to do that~~~
Go Sayanee!
Gonna wait for more, author-san!^o^/
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It been two years already. Please continue this Author san :cry: :cry: :cry: