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Okay let's start this normally.
Thank you for the comments and also for not killing me. I'm glad you all liked it and guess ya'll want me to make new chappies don't ya?
Ehe sobs
Since this is my short OS's corna I'll make a new thread for 'A Monster' :twothumbs
Crossing Crossroads: I'm not making a crack fic outta this. I don't destroy it this way (when I do a crack I start crackily *cracks*)
I'm gonna continue my first chappie for it and while ya'll wait here's another fail short OS I wrote yesterday.
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__~What hurts the most~__
''What hurts the most. Was being so close, and having so much to say. And watching you walk away''
I whispered the words again, and again, and again. The never ending words, the words I wish I gave away. Those words that were left unspoken, making me live with regret. Those words saved in my heart are now the only thing I can mutter out.
It was hard dealing with the pain of losing you everywhere I go, but I’m still doing it. I wonder why . . is it because It was my fault? Is it because I never traded away those words saved in my heart? Is it because I love you? Is it because I hate the fact that you left me with a promise saying you’ll always be with me?
Your promise were your last words.
''I’ll always be with you, I love you''
You said that with a dumb smile on your face. Just remembering that smile makes me feel worse. All I’ve been doing is killing you, destroying you from the inside. You were aware of it, so was I.
''I’m sorry'' I wanted to say those words, I wanted to scream them. I wanted you to know how sorry I was. How much I actually value you, how much I love you. But these words were left in my throat every time I wanted to shout them out.
Our old friends are there, smiling happily, moving on with their new lives. I’m the only one who can’t move on. I’m the only one left with only guilt to live on, if the guilt faded away . . . nothing would be left.
I sat on my bed beside the window, curled up with my knees against my chin. My arms around the wrapping them, comforting them. Not really though, nothing would comfort me anymore, not even the darkest corners. Or the rain that poured down on us, every day was another gloomy day. The sun was never there anymore. Maybe it would be there if you came back. But you won’t , you won’t come back to me. The person who never valued you, never trusted you, never gave you any hope, only disappointment.
I lied down on my bed, staring at the ceiling, the rain poured down as usual. I could hear the sound of loud knocking on the door. More rain, more pain. I couldn’t stand this after all, not after you left.
I reached to the pills on the small desk beside my bed, I stared at the pills in my hands. I stared blankly. Nothing could help anyway, what am I living on anyway? Yeah . . . nothing. Bringing my hand closer to my mouth, I took a deep breath. Opened my mouth and let the pills run down my hand and down to my mouth.
''What hurts the most. Was being so close, and having so much to say. And watching you walk away''
''I love you’’ I whispered and swallowed the pills. Goodbye.