One Shot Series 18-Beginner

[WingsofAngels48]

Another one of my one-shots. Please tell me what you think and read my others because very few people liked my previous ones this will probably be the last one I post unless enough people like this one.


 Beginner
Maeda Atsuko wanted to change. She felt entirely not worthy of her position in AKB48. Takamina was a better singer. Yuko was a better dancer. Mariko was a better face of AKB48. So why did management choose her? Ever since her mother asked her if she wanted to audition and she said yes, Atsuko had wanted to change her personality. They'll never accept me like this, was her ever present fear at the time. And here she was, now the center of the ever-changing group, still wishing for change. Later, she asked Takamina about it, and Takamina told her she HAD changed.
"Acchan, you've grown so much since you got here. You've accepted center position, and you're not so timid anymore."
Atsuko thought about this. A lot. Too much, maybe. She was eighteen, and AKB had just finished filming Beginner. Watching the video, Atsuko saw herself confidently wearing a translucent white blouse, a pink and purple striped skirt, and high heeled boots, singing and dancing like she was so sure of herself. This was a Maeda Atsuko she hadn't noticed, but she was there. And this was the Maeda Atsuko everyone saw and looked up to.
I have changed...to what? What is this? I...I'm not sure I want to be like this. I look so...arrogant. I look stuck up. I'm starting to get cocky. Management must hate this...the other members, too. The fans are probably starting to hate me too...they like Yuko better. She won the Senbatsu election this year! They do like her better! She should be center, not me. I've caused so much trouble for everyone! I didn't...I didn't mean for this to happen! I don't want to be here anymore!
These were the thoughts that struck her now, the ones that came to her at night and on stage, the ones that helped motivate her to do her best but also made her cry with her head in her hands.
These were the thoughts that terrified her past sanity, and these were the thoughts that caused her to announce her graduation, on stage in a dress covered in stars. Unable to touch the Acchan she used to be, she stepped forward and left behind AKB48, crying but happy to feel freed.

[cisda83]

It's very heart-felt

It's like you can understand Atsuko's feeling

In this short story, you explain everything from Atsuko POV

Touching the subjects about her lost in election, the haters and her graduation.

But her arrogant and insecure, she never looked like that.

May be at the beginning of her year at AKB but the latest years she is always confident

Yeah... May be she did not recognise her changes.

So your OS is very realistic and touching

Thank you for the OS

Can't wait to see more this touching OS

 

[WingsofAngels48]

Thanks! I really appreciate your review. Honestly, I didn't think she looked arrogant either, but I think she might have been afraid of becoming arrogant herself. I didn't explain that, sorry :/ i'm glad you liked it!

[AshuraX]

Utterly magnificent.

I've been kinda agreeing bout the fact that most people see Atsuko as an arrogant girl. [I.E, her face on Seifuku ga Jama wo suru, RIVER, FuraGe] But if you would pick arrogant, then there's more of the Senbatsu members who looked REALLY arrogant.
Yeah, she actually did look kinda full of herself. I'm an Acchan oshii but I'm kinda strict on her, na mean?
It's kinda like her to be frustrated about herself. I don't know if that would lead into graduation but the idea's good.
And I also agree that Yuko's a better dancer, Takamina's a better singer (though it kinda sounds like she's shouting or something) and Mariko-sama is way prettier, but Acchan is Acchan~ We all don't know why we like her, but we love her more than Minami ever would! (Don't kill me, AtsuMina shippers. I'm just setting an example) But, Yuko's better than her at everything~ (Except her beauty. Yuko's voice is sexy though)
In conclusion, you've just made my day.
Seeing an OS only targeted at our Goddess's troubles and thoughts really makes us proud.
We salute you. *Acchan fans salute*

[WingsofAngels48]

I'm really glad you liked it so much! Please look at my others as well although they're not as good I think. Since this was all written from Acchan's point of view, I couldn't say that honestly I don't think she's arrogant, and I am fully convinced that she is a true center/goddess but I think she would doubt this so I wrote what I imagined were her insecurities.
I'm really grateful, thanks for your review!

[AshuraX]

Yeah, already did~
I liked the others as well~
UZA was kinda cool, Yuko being frustrated bout Paruru taking advantage of the empty void Atsuko left~ AtsuYuu much? But I don't get Yuuhi wo Miteiru ka. Kinda seemed like it was forced or something. Anyways, hope to see more from ya~

[WingsofAngels48]

Hey thanks! Acchan, Yuko, and Takamina were my first oshis so I am an Atsuminyuu shipper if such a thing exists. And yeah, Yuuhi was a little off :/
Thanks a bunch for your support!