@takagakifan: Sorry about that..I know the yellow's too bright, wish they had a darker yellow though.
@ KonaKaga: thanks for the heads-up. I'll try to change it next time, let me know if I mess it up again. BTW, I love how you give me your thorough reviews, it makes me feel good to know someone takes the time to read and give me opinions.
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We didn't say anything.
We haven't said much since we left the train station.
What is wrong with you, Sayu?
There she is in front of you, and you can't say one word to her.
She could be everything you ever wanted in someone.
Sure, you've been hurt, but you have to move on.
This may be your only chance to tell her.
Say something, you idiot!
You may be a narcissisant on cute and sexy, but you are horrible at talking.
"Sayu?" you asked.
"Huh?"
Oh no, we're at my house.
However, you're still holding onto my hand. Please, don't let go.
I don't want you to let me go.
"Guess I'll see you later," you said.
You start to let go of my hand, but I can't let you leave. Not now, not ever.
I cling onto you tight, hoping you just hold me for eternity.
Who cares about work? I just want you.
"Sayu, what's wrong?" you asked.
"Please..don't leave...me," I said between tears.
"Unfortunately I have to," you replied.
"Why?"
"Because I have to work tomorrow. You should get some rest."
"I don't need rest, I need you."
"It's okay, Sayu. I'll be back soon."
That was when I couldn't take it anymore.
"No!"
I grabbed your arm and I kissed you.
Not the kiss that I wanted, but it was worth it.
You pulled away and I knew...
I knew that I blew it.
I should have known...
You really are dating someone.
"I'm..I'm sorry," you said.
"No, I'm sorry," I tried to explain. "I..I didn't mean to..."
"I think I should leave.."
"I knew it! You were talking to her this morning."
"That wasn't her."
"Then who are you seeing?"
"I'm not seeing anyone."
"I don't believe you.."
"Sayu.."
"No! Don't talk to me, ever again!"
"Sayu, wait!"
I run back into the house and up to my room. I jumped onto the bed, crying uncontrollably. I cry myself to sleep that night, knowing that I've already hurt two people.
I hurt Eri, and now I've hurt you.
I just can't seem to go on.
Maybe I should just leave..
I should leave the world, besides no one needs me anyway.