---CIRCLE--- (♥KohaSayu♥) chapter 44 (1/1)

[kuro808]

Reina being herself and Jun being a good friend

And it will be more or less likely not that but one day I will start to write about them  

[oddball]

I wonder why Sayu does act so cold towards Jun, is it because she does have some feelings for her and is afraid that without Koha around she may give into temptation.

Jun seems to have really rallied after she went trough all the problems after she kissed Sayu and confessed her love too her, I just can't quite figure out what Jun's agenda is, I wonder if Lin telling Jun that she likes her will change anything

So Reina is sleeping around becasue she beleieves that Eri only loves Sayu and that she has no chance, is Eri seeing this as Reina not liking her rather than the truth of the situation?

[LiLith]

@rndm-san:

I... Really wanna see a bunny/kitty fight. Teeth versus claws, oh baby, bring it!

Eh? You still haven't got enough of bunny/kitty fight here?

Jun Jun can play guitar?

YES she can!!
Lol, no... I made it up.

@kuro-kun:
YAY~! I'll wait for that day! <3 <3

@oddball:
The reason Sayu acted so cold to Jun is that she still has Koha and only Koha in her heart that she can't open her heart to anyone, especially, she already knows Jun loves her, that's why she tried to keep distance.


Chapter 40

-5 months later-

“Hey! Why are you going too!?”
“Mou~ I wanna see Michishige-san in yukata too!!” I hear Lin Lin screaming outside the door.
“Ah, it’s done, Sayu.” Eri smiles.
“Thank you.”
The door open, then Jun and Lin look at me and cover their mouth.
“Aww~”
“So cute~”
“As expected from Michishige-san!” Lin Lin screams as loudly as she can, when Jun gazes at me with a red face. I look at her and giggle.
“You’re so lucky, Jun Jun.” Reina, on the sofa, lets out a sigh. “For having such a cute and pretty girlfriend, um…”
“What do you mean?” Eri knits her brows and gives Reina a black look.
“Haha.” I laugh. “Isn’t that obvious? She’s saying that you’re not cute enough, Eri.”
“By the way,” Reina interrupts “What the hell are those two perverts doing? The firework festival is gonna start…”
“Firework festival? I don’t think we can go there…”
“Eh? Why?”
“There will be some problems if someone realizes us.” Eri sighs.
“But I wanna see the fireworks~!”
“When will Ai-chan and Gaki-san come?” Mittsi cries out.
“You can’t imagine what those two might be doing at such a midnight…” I cover my mouth. “90% they’re in bed…”
“Hahah.” They burst into laughs.
“Who’s in bed?”
Those aforementioned perverts come in with a lot of boxes and nylon bags  in their arms.
“Aw, what is this, Gaki-san?”
“Small fireworks, foods and drinks.”
“Wow!” Reina screams. “Firework festival!”
“No, we can’t go.”
“Eh?”
“But we can go to the shore.” Gaki-san smiles gently. All of us scream out with joy.
“Why don’t you wear Yukata, Reina? And Jun too.”
“That stuff doesn’t suit me.” Reina pouts out.
“Me too.”
I look at them and giggle.
“You two are really alike.”
“No way!!!”

*

“Aw…” I let out a sigh. “Those fireworks must have been wet by the rain… I can’t even light one up…”
“Should we go buy new ones?” Seems like Mittsi, Lin Lin and other members aren’t doing well with the fireworks too.
“A.” Suddenly, Jun yells. “I lit one up!”
“Amazing!” Mittsi screams.
“Here.” Jun coms to me and gives me that small firework.
“Hey! That’s unfair, Jun Jun! I want one too!”
“Ok, ok.” Jun sighs. “Give me.”
“You’re so cool Jun Jun ♥” Mittsi hugs Jun and laugh.
“Jun! Help me to light these ones up too!”
“Eh? All of these?...”

Watching them at a distance, I let out a smile.
“Wanna drink some?” Ai-chan comes to me with a beer can in her hand.
“No, thank you.”
“Finally, they made up, huh?”
“Who?”
“I mean Reina and Eri.”
“Oh, those aho…” I giggle.
“What was their problem, I wonder.”
“Um…” I gaze at the river. “I think Reina didn’t love Eri much enough…”
“Eh?” Ai-chan raises her brows.
“Ah, of course, we can’t measure how much her love is… But I think, maybe Eri thought like that?”
“Oh…”
“She doesn’t really love me, she comes to me only because of desire or sex… I think that’s what Eri thought.”
“Reina… Even though she isn’t really like that, she always makes people have that feeling.”
“Haha.”
“But, Sayu…” Suddenly, she turns to look at me with a serious face.
“Don’t you still love Eri?”
I look at her with my eyes open as widely as I can.
“E-Eri?” I laugh. “Why do you ask such a question?”
“The reason you suddenly dated Jun… No matter how many times I think about it… I still feel that you did it for Eri’s sake.”
I keep quiet.
“At that time, I was thinking their relationship couldn’t be recovered…”
“Nah, I’m not that great.” I smile. “I dates Jun for my sake, doesn’t concern Eri at all.”
“Is that so?”
“Jun is nice, and she really loves me and cares for me a lot.”
“Oh.” Ai-chan suddenly talks louder when she realizes that Reina is coming near. “Totally different from that idiot.”
I burst into laughs.
“Yeah. The idiot that doesn’t know how to say a single loving word.”
“…And always shy whenever touching things need to be said…”
“Ah, compared to Jun, that’s totally different!” I cover my mouth. “I was so stupid to liken them!”
“HEY! Stop saying this idiot, that idiot!” Reina tells at us. I put my hands on my stomach and laugh.
“Oh, damn, you’re here, idiot?? Ai-chan lets out fake surprised face. “Sayu, she heard all of bad things we said about her…”
“Haha~”
“Reina, you should learn from Jun.” Ai-chan giggles. “If not, you may lose your girlfriend again.”
“Jun? She’s just a girl who likes to pretend.”
“Eh? Pretend?” I laugh. “As expected from Reina, haha.”
“Isn’t that obvious?” Reina knits her brows. “Ai-chan, you know, she even said to Sayu like this,” Reina tries to let out a cool face. “Even if this body turns to ash… I still love you.”
Ai-chan burst out laughing.
“Wow! That’s so cool! Haha!”
“Cool?” Reina screams. “How can a normal person say such chilly words?”
“It’s because you can never say those words that you got dumped.”
“I didn’t get dumped!”
“Haha~” I can’t stop laughing.
“No matter how beautiful words people say, in the end, the person they love the most is themselves, right?”
She takes a beer can and drinks it.
“I love you more than myself… I love you more than anyone in this world… Aren’t those words all lies? I don’t want to lie to the person I love.”
I look at her and smile.
“You’re so kind, Reina.”
“W-what?” She blushes.
“Even though your words are cruel, they’re always close to the truth.”
I take the beer can in her hand and drink it up.
“But… Being able to put the shy feelings aside and say the words to make your lover happy… Isn’t it a wonderful thing too?”
They look at me in surprise. I smile gently, and walk to where Jun is sitting.

“Ai-chan.”
“Huh?”
“Sayu has been growing up.”
“Um. Since then.”
“Is it a good thing?”
“Of course. At least she can forget what happened…”
“but, forgetting about something doesn’t make it disappear. The truth is still the truth, she better accept it, more than forgetting.”
“Um, haha. Somehow that’s true.”


“Need help?” I smile and sit down next to Jun.
“It’s ok. You can’t do those things with that kimono on.” She takes out the foods and drinks from the nylon bags.
“This is yukata.”
“Is… Is there any different?” She screams and looks away to hide her blushing face. I burst out laughing.
“Nee, Michishige-san.”
“Um?”
“Your birthday is coming next week, right?”
I gaze at the surface of the water.
“A, true…”
“Can we go somewhere together?... I mean, just the two of us.”
I keep quiet.
“We’ll go a few days earlier… so that everyone can celebrate your birthday later too…” She looks away from my face. She seems to be embarrassed. I giggle and turn to look at her.
“It’s okay. Thank you.”
“Really?” She smiles brightly.
“Um. Really.”
“Then, where would you like to go?”
“…”
 “Michishige-san?”
I smile gently.
“Seashore.”

No one mentions your name anymore in front of me.
Any story about you, any memory about you, are totally forgotten, or more exactly, are pretended to be forgotten.
Like you’ve never existed in this world.
Even though I know everyone is doing that for my sake,
I still have that feeling of emptiness in my heart
Never be fulfilled.
Because, even now, no matter how much hurt I feel
I still wanna hear someone calling your name, again and again.

[rndmnwierd]

Ah, even though she's with Jun, she can never forget where her heart truly lies. I wonder if Koharu will come back to claim what is rightfully her's?
Though I'm def. glad Tanakame made up!

[oddball]

So Sayu ended up Jun??? Did Ai guess right thast Sayu datede Jun to get Eri and Reina together again or is it that Sayu is trying to get over Koha and is using Jun to try and do that?

I wonder if Jun has something planned with Sayu and Koha involved, Dunno why I think this I just kinda got a vibe that this is what might happen....

[kuro808]

Sayu knows where she wants to be but wanted to just stay in a safe haven until she can take her lover back

[GyaruSa]

Sayu ended up with Junko... I guess it's ok. *Imagines Koharu's army-helicopter-tank comeback xD.* The end of chapter was cute <3. Jun seems that she really loves Sayumi.

Sorry, I can't help myself, but...

“You’re so cool Jun Jun ♥” Mittsi hugs Jun and laugh.

...ChiPan  That was kind of off topic but I'm just too big ChiPan fan : D. Gomen...

[Michi.Pinku]

5 months later  ... and Koharu still doesn't appear ?
oh... sh**t I like ShigeJun but I like even more KohaShige.
>,<  Koharu come back ! 
Reina and Eri made up, that's cute and Reina is raw but still cute.
Moaar !

[LiLith]

^_^ it's been a while!
This chapter took me a long long long time~

Download:  http://www.mediafire.com/?11rb807rsm0yw57

BTW here's download link of chapter 5, for someone missed it ^_^
http://www.mediafire.com/?231dtb67444cj57

Have fun~

[LiLith]

Been exhausted from the assignment   
Damn school 


Chapter 41


“Sayumi.”
I really feel it hard to open my eyes. I’m already too tired after all the recordings today. Someone is calling me, but my eyes still shut lazily before that person put their hand on my shoulder and gently shakes my body. I slowly open my eyes, then rub my eyes to see clearer.
It’s Jun’s shoulders that I’m leaning on. When I look up to see her face, she lets out a gentle smile.
“We’re gonna arrive.”

Since we left at night, it’s mostly morning now. I look at my watch. 3:05 a.m. I remove the seatbelt from my body and open the window.
The flavor of the sea, I really can feel it, even though I haven’t been able to see the seaside yet. Although it’s July, tonight it’s quite cold. I close the window and turn back to Jun.
“That’s great! I can smell the sea!”
She says nothing at all, just smile. I’m so excited that I couldn’t look away from the sight in front. Then the seaside slowly appears. The light from the headlight of the car isn’t enough to make it clear, but I still can see the horizon.
“Here.” I turn back to Jun. My face is full of excitement, makes her cover her mouth and giggle. I blush and knit my brows. “I wanna get off here.”
“Driver-san, please stop here.” Jun says to the driver.
The car stops. Jun takes out our luggage from the boot and gets out of the car.
“Let me help you.”
“No need.” She smiles. “They’re not heavy. I can carry them myself.”
“But at least let me carry a little…”
“Aw.”
She suddenly stops.
“What’s wrong?”
“You’re right, you better carry one.” She laughs and gives me the smaller suitcase from her left hand. I laugh too and hold out my right hand.
“Not that hand.”
I don’t understand anything, but still hold the suitcase with the other hand. She smiles at me. Then, gently, she links her hand with mine and pulls me away.
“A~ Got it.” I giggle. She doesn’t look back or say anything, that means she’s blushing now.
 
After walking for a while, we finally see the seashore. The sea at night looks dangerous, but beautiful at the same time. We put the luggage on the sandy ground and stand side by side, gazing at the surface of the water, watching the waves roll in one after another.
“That’s so beautiful!” I scream out.
I suddenly feel warmth covering my body. It’s Jun wrapping her scarf around my neck.
“It’s quite cold. Can’t believe it’s a summer night.” She whispers.
“Thank you.” I smile. “Even if it’s summer, there’s still some cold nights. Just like sunny days in the winter.”
I just keep gazing at the beautiful sight in front of my eyes, without paying any attention to anything else. So when I turn to look at her, I’m surprised that she’s watching me.
“No moon today. Good.” She turns to look at the sky.
“I love moon.” I pout out.
“Haha” She laughs “But without moon, we can see the stars clearer.”
“Stars?”
“Yep.” She points at the sky. “See? Scorpios.”
“Huh?” I look at the direction she is pointing.
“In summer, Scopios appears in the South. Can you see that bright star? The third one from the top.”
“Oh…” I try to figure out which star she’s pointing. “Aw, I think I see it!”
“It’s 21 light-year far from the Earth.”
She turns to look at me and smiles.
“Um?” I raise my eyebrows.
“Congrats 21th birthday. It’s my present for you.”
My face turns all red.
“Thank you…” I stutter. “That’s amazing…”
“That’s just the first present, there’s another…”
“Hm?” I look at her in surprise.
“It’s already in your pocket.”
“W-what?” I put my hand into my pocket. There’s a small object inside. I quickly take it out.
It’s a ring.
“When…”
“Just a few minutes before, when you were so into the beautiful sea…” She giggles. Then, she takes the ring in my hand and gently put it on my middle finger. “Even though I’m not good at showing my love…”
“You are…” I interrupt.
“Haha.” She laughs. “But, I swear, even if this body turns to ash, I’ll never leave you.”
“Don’t you have anything new to say?” I burst out laughing.
“This is the last present…”
She gently strokes my hair. I look at her with my eyes open widely. She looks straight into my eyes, then slowly brings her face close to me.
And kisses me softly on my lips.

*

When we arrived at the hotel, morning already came.
The hotel is near the seashore. I even can hear the sound of the sea from this place. I slowly go to open the window. The seashore can be seen easily from this direction.
“That’s great.”
“Um.” I nod. “Makes me homesick.”
“Haha, homesick?”
“There’s a river flowing nearby my house. Even though it’s just a small river, it’s really very beautiful.” I keep watching the sea throughout the windows.
“Sayumi.”
“Hm?” I turn back. She doesn’t look at me. Seems like she’s hesitating.
“I love you.” She looks into my eyes. “My love for you won’t lose to anyone, no matter what. You may think Koharu loves you more, but please understand that I love you very much too.”
“Why are you talking about her now?”
“I don’t want you to pretend to forget her like this. Everyone thinks if you mention her name again, it means you still love her. But I think, if you even don’t have enough brave to mention her name, how can you forget all the memories with her? You can’t forget, right?”
“What do you wanna say after all?”
“I…”
I keep watching her.
“Can you move in to my house?”
“W-what?”
“That house… there were a lot of things that will remind you of her, right? Don’t live in that house anymore.”
“…”
Or… You still wanna wait for her to comeback?’
“Jun.” I stare at her.
“I wanna live with my lover too…” she bites her bottom lips. “Are we really lovers? Everytime we’re together, it’s always me and only me to kiss, to embrace you… Even a single loving word, you never say… You never tell me that you love me or something…”
I close the windows.
“Do you really love me?”
“…”
“Sayumi…”
My body trembles, somewhere in my mind, an old memory comes back.

“Do you really love me? Or you just use me to forget her?”

A tear runs down on my cheek.

“I do.”

She leads me to the bed, kisses me softly on my lips.
Every touch of her is very gentle.
Makes me feel like this is just a dream. This is not really happening. Just a dream. That’s what I think.
She unbuttons my shirt, and kisses on my neck.
“Jun.”
“Hm?”
“Bite me there.”
She turns to look at me in shock.
“I don’t mind if you’re rough to me.” I gaze at her eyes.
“But…”
“I told you to bite.”

Even if we kissed each other countless of times
My feeling of incompleteness and emptiness just couldn’t be removed.
Even if we touched each other hundred of times
Our hearts didn’t get closer, even a cm.
That moment, I just felt like something inside me was breaking, little by little.
I didn’t know where I was anymore.

I open my eyes.
“You’re awake?” She smiles.
“Um.”
She wraps her arms around my body.
“Thank you. I’m very happy.” She whispers.
“Um…”
“I think now I can understand Koharu a little. The reason why she was so crazy…”
“…”
“I’m very scared of losing you now… Just like her.” She holds me more tightly and kisses on my hair. “Please don’t leave me… stay by my side forever, please…”
I smile gently.
“Sure.”

Maybe coz I’m not a reliable person
Even the promise to stay by Jun’s side forever that day
I also couldn’t keep to the bitter end.

[rndmnwierd]

Poor Sayu's just fooling herself and it will hurt sweet Jun in the end. I wonder if it's because Koha comes back to claim what's really her's?

[kuro808]

I tend to wonder how Sayu can really look into JUn and say what she wants to do but in reality its covering a big wound with a bandaid

[GyaruSa]

JunSayu is cute and romantic ♥. But still... Sayumi seems still not happy. Just trying to got someone to be Koharu's substitute... poor Sayu. But a great chapter you wrote, as always . Good luck (with everything!)

[oddball]

Poor Jun, she knows herself that she is just filling in for Koha but she loves Sayu so much that she is with her if only until Koha ever comes back... For her part Sayu is only fooling herdelf with Jun and it will only hurt her,Jun and Koha.

It was a bit scary that Sayu wanted Jun to be rough on her, it's kinda a refection on how badly Koha treated her at times but how she also misses Koha at the same time..

[Michi.Pinku]

Finally I read this chapter 
God! Poor Jun  I think Sayu will never love her.
><  now I dunno what I love more, JunShige or KohaShige 
I'll just wait for the next chapter u_u

Peace~~ 

[LiLith]

Haha, I know it has been a while
But heck, I was so busy with studying and stuff 
And lazy... 

Anyway here's the new chapter, I bet I'll update the next chapter soon since I already finished it

Aw the fic is coming to an end 



Chapter 42


Every time I open my eyes in the morning, they’re always full of tears.
Not that I’m sad.
It’s already a habit. I even don’t know what I was crying for. It just happens.

Sometimes, I wonder,
Where are you now?
What are you doing there?
What am I doing here?
…

Where am I now?


“You’re awake?”
I turn to look at the doorway.
“Yes.”
The girl lets out a sigh and then sits down on the chair near my bed.
“You fainted. When dancing at the bar.”
“Oh, wow.” I laugh. “I must have drunk too much then.”
The black hair girl stands up and opens the windows.
“This is your house?”
“No. I can’t bring a drunken girl to my house since my parents was visiting. We’re at a hotel.”
“Aww… so bad. I’ll have to pay you later then…” I sigh, looking through the windows. She giggles.
“Anyway, thank you.” I turn to look at her. “I was bothering you too much.”
“It’s nothing. We’re friends right?”
I say nothing at all, just smile.
“Hey…”
“Huh?”
“You…” She hesitates “Why… don’t you return to Japan?”
I keep quiet.
“I mean, you better not stay here for long. Maybe some fans will recognize you, and your parents may be worried and maybe they would search for you… and such…”
“I understand.”
“Then…”
“But I can’t return yet.”
I get out of the bed and grab my bag. Looking at the mirror, I quickly fix my brown hair with my hands.
“See ya. I’ll return here at night.”
“Wait, where are you going again?”
I open the door and walk away.

*

“Ah, there our queen coming again!”
I walk through the crowd and sit on the chair.
“Vodka.”
“Ok, my honey~”
I smile and look around. Everyone is dancing like crazy.
“About yesterday…”
“It’s ok, I was just drunk.”
He laughs and takes out a bottle of wine.
“I was very worried, this bar would be very boring without you.”
“Your words are still sweet as always.”
“Of course, this is my job.”
I laugh out loud.
“BTW where’s the other queen?”
“I bet she’s having lunch alone at the hotel.”
“Ah, is it just me or your English really improved?” He looks at me with his eyes opened widely.
“Thanks for your sweet words again.” I laugh, opening the bottle and drink. The music, the wine make me feel so dizzy. I stand up, walk to the crowd and start to dance.

Dance, and dance.
And drink as much as possible.
As long as I’m drunk, I don’t have to think about you anymore.
You will just disappear from my mind, for a while,
And then painfully return in my tears each times morning comes.
It will be like that. It’s always like that.
Since that day
The day I ran away.


“Hey!!”

My head hurts like hell. I slowly open my eyes.
“I told you not to go! You were still tired!”
I close my eyes and breathe. My body is trembling, I feel like I don’t have any strength left.
“Um… where the hell is this again?” I smile.
“You…”
“Aw, that hotel again? Did he call you?” I try to sit up.
“You’re killing yourself. Don’t be like that… I don’t know why you’re acting that way, but please stop…”
“I’m ok.” I pant. My sweat runs down on my forehead. “What’s the time?”
“It’s almost 1.a.m…”
“Then it’s 13th July already…”
“What’s wrong?”
“Is here far from the sea?”
“Not really…” She knits her brows, “20 minutes if you call a taxi.”
I push the blanket away and walk to the door.
“Hey! Wait!”


Run, and run.
Midnight here is so cold.
I stop to pant, then run again.
Until the sea appears in front of my eyes.
I smile, walking to the seashore, looking at the surface of the water.

Aw, so cold.

I sit down and hug my knees.


“Talking about July, what do you want to do on our birthdays?”
“I want us to go somewhere far from Tokyo… 2 or 3 days…”
“But, wouldn’t everyone celebrate our birthdays together?”
“We can celebrate earlier.”
“Um…What do you want for your birthday present?”
“Present?Anything expensive…”
“Haha.”
“Then…Isn’t my cuteness enough?”
“Haha!~ Stop getting cuter and cuter, I’ll lose my own control if I love you even more…”
“So it’s enough? Ok, decided.”

“But, where will we go?”

 “Seashore.”


A tear runs down on my cheeks.
I hug my knees more tightly, bowing my head. The wind keeps blowing on my hair.

“Happy birthday…”

I whisper softly.

Each times I was embraced by the sea
I kept wondering if I can start all over by throwing myself into it.
However, whenever I sat on the seashore, your face appeared in my mind
That made me wanna try continuing to live
Even if just one more day.

[kuro808]

thnx for the update

somehow in all of this, they seem they should get back together but after all the damage has been done will they?????

[oddball]

Lilith! I though you had given up on this fic, welcome back! 

Well I think we can say that Koha is definatly strugalling without Sayu in her life, it's an odd mixture of her missing Sayu, the girl she loves and feeling guilty for the way she treated Sayu, Koha left the girl she loved to protect her fom herelf, an odd sitiuation, no wonder it has led Koha to the life she is leaving at the moment.....

[rndmnwierd]

Oh wow, you're back! This one was a bit confusing, but I figured it all out by the end.

[LiLith]

I can be slow, but won't give up on this fic since there's only a few chapters left... 

Anyway here's the next chapter.


Chapter 43


“Happy Birthday Sayumin!!~”
“CAMPAI!~”
“Today everyone has to drink!!” Ai-chan screams loudly. I laugh when noticing the black look Gaki-san is giving her girlfriend.
“It’s ok, let her drink, Gaki-san. Today is special.” Eri seems to notice it too, she pats Gaki-san’s shoulders slightly and grins. Gaki-san lets out a sigh.
Holding a glass of wine in my hands, I watch everyone cheering my birthday with a small smile in my face. I title my head a little, seeing Jun coming near to me.
“Sayu…”
She frowns and sits next to me on the couch.
“Ah, Jun.” I laugh and bring the glass close to her face. “You have to drink too… Let’s drink together…”
“No, I…”
It’s too late for her to resist. The glass already touches her lips and what she can do is drinking it all. I watch her drink up the wine and laugh.
“Hey everyone!” Reina shouts. “Let’s sing!”
Ai-chan and Reina sing together loudly, with the others cheering and clapping their hands. I join them singing too, even though I can’t hear my own voice because of the loud music.
“Sayumi, don’t drink too much…” Jun tries to take the glass of wine away from my hand.
“It’s ok.” I grab the bottle, pouring the wine into the glass.

After a while, they stop singing. Seems like everyone is already tired. We sit around the small table with the birthday cake and some bottles of wine on.
“So our bunny is already 21! Let’s cheer~!”
“Aw~ I’m getting old…” I bow my head.
“Don’t worry, no one tells you’re 21 with that face!” Reina laughs.
“I hope you mean it in a good way.”
“Haha of course!”

We sit there, chatting about random things. Gaki-san keeps complaining about how annoying Ai-chan is when she’s drunk. The wine starts to make me feel dizzy.

“My first love was when I was 6…”
“6?” They burst into laughs.
“Yep… I was in love at first sight, with a girl in my class…” I lean to Eri’s shoulder, still holding the glass of wine in my hand. “But then she changed school, so my first love, well, one-sided love, ended like that.”
“Haha, then who’s the next?”
“A girl in my junior school. I even can’t remember her face now… But she is very cute too…”
“So you’re in love with a lot of cute girls huh?” Eri giggles.
“Yep I love cute girls.” I nod.
“Then why did you date this girl??” Reina bursts out laughing and points towards Jun.
“Hey what do you mean?”
“Isn’t it obvious?”
“Haha~”
“And then… The next is a girl in my neighbor.” I continue my story.
“Hey seriously, when will that list end? How many girls did you fall in love with in total?”
“Then I joined Morning Musume… And the next… is Eri.”
Everyone keeps quiet.
“She’s really an idiot… baka… she dumped a cute girl like me…”
“Hey it’s not like that…” Eri frowns.
“It’s nothing, I didn’t love her anyway.”
The others burst into laughs. Eri pouts out and narrows her eyes at me. I find it cute.
“And the next…”
I close my eyes.
“The next…” I put my hand on my forehead. My head suddenly hurts like hell.
“Sayumi…”
“I can’t remember her name, her face anymore…” I smile.
“Sayumi, you’re tired already…”
“Who… is that?...”

My tears fall from my eyes.

“Sayumi!”

I slowly shut my eyes. Everything disappears. I can only hear someone call out my name.
Someone is calling me, and when I open my eyes, I’ll see that person in the snow, holding me tightly, trying to warm up my body.

“Don’t close your eyes, Sayu-chan!”

*

“Sayu?”
I rub my eyes and slowly open them. Eri and Reina are in the room.
“Aw…” I sit up. My head hurts so much, must be because of the wine. I can’t remember clearly what have just happened. “Where’s everyone?”
“They’re sleeping. They’re all drunk and tired I guess. Jun is gone to buy some medicine for you.”
“Sorry… I’m not used to drinking…”
“Nee, Sayu.”
Reina looks at me with a serious face.
“Hm?”
“You…” She frowns. “You’re still in love with Koharu?”
My heart jumps. I look at her in stunned.
“What… to do with her here?”
“I’m asking you.”
I look away from her face.
“No…”
“But, you cried, Sayu…”
I turn to gaze at Eri with my wide eyes.
“Yeah… you cried, when talking about her…”
I bite my lower lip and bow my head in silence. I feel some tears at the corner of mt eyes, but I try to hold them on.
“And you still pretend that you forget? That’s not true, right?”
“Sayu…”
“Sorry…” The tears I try to hold on have already fallen from my eyes.
“Why do you apologize?” Reina lets out a sigh. “What does it mean?”
I keep quiet. I can’t say anything. Eri holds me gently and strokes my back.
“It’s ok Sayu, just do what you want. We’re always supporting you.”
“ I was wrong… It was all my fault…”
“No it’s not…”

Suddenly there’s a knock on the door, and then Jun Jun comes into the room. Seeing me, she quickly runs to the bed.
“Are you ok now?”
“Um…”
“I’ll take you home.”
I glance at Eri and Reina, then slowly nod.
“Nee Jun…”
“Huh?”
“I have something important to tell you.”

*

I take out the key from my bag and unlock the door. Jun holds my shoulders, leading me into the house.
I stop as I notice something strange inside.
There’s a pair of boots there. I gaze at the strange boots in shock.
“Wait… this…”
Jun covers my mouth with her hand.
“Thief?” she whispers.
No. There’s no way a thief can unlock the door. Even if that’s the case, they would never take off the boots and lay them there for the world to see.
My hearts beats faster. There’s something telling me to go inside. I slowly head towards the living room.
“No! Sayu!”
I almost run. No one is here. I feel my heart pounding hard.
I look around and notice something on the table. There’s a box on it.
It feels like my body starts trembling.
“Don’t open it. Maybe…”
Not waiting her to finish her sentence, I open the box.
And inside the box, there’s a cake.

* Happy birthday, my beloved Shige-pink ♥ *

My heart skips beating.
I run to the bed room, open the door.
And kneel down on the floor.

I cover my mouth and cry.


Lying on the bed, you were sleeping almost like an angel
With your hair dyed brown, and a small blanket covering your body.
I kneeled there, crying.
I couldn’t move from this place.
I knew I couldn’t run to you and hold you in my arms like before anymore.