Chapter 25
Michishige-san?”
“Oh JunJun, come in.”
Jun closes the door and comes near to me.
“Why do you call me?”
“Um… Can you help me make a cake? You know, I’m not good at cooking…”
“A cake?”
“Yeah.” I blush. “For my idiot… today she will comeback here.”
“Oh… Kusumi-san? She has returned home for 4 days, right?”
“Yes…”
She keeps quiet. I don’t know why, but she looks a bit sad.
“Are you ok?”
“Yes…” She smiles. “I’ll try to help you. Although… I’m not good at cooking, too.”
“Haha~ thank you. No one is worse than me at this I think.”
“I’ll help you to make the cream… Where’re eggs?”
“In the fridge.” I go to the kitchen to take some bowls.
“Jun…”
“Huh?”
“About you and Reina… I think Reina has come back to Eri…”
“I know.”
“You know?” I turn to look at her in a surprise.
“Yeah, don’t worry about me.”
“I know it’s difficult… but you should try to forget Reina… She loves Eri. If you still love her, you’ll be hurt…”
“So that’s the reason why you called me to come here?” She glares at me angrily. I really don’t understand why she is angry.
“Yes… I don’t want you to be hurt… because of Reina…”
“It’s you that hurt me!” She yells. “That you’re trying to care for me is hurting me!”
“What…?”
“I don’t love Tanaka-san! I’ve already loved another!”
I look at her in shock.
“Do you want to know who it is?”
She comes near to me. She catches my arm and throws me to the bed.
“It’s you. I love you, do you know??”
I’m really stunned when she said that. I feel so scared. I don’t know what to say.
She leans to kiss me on my lips.
I try to push her away, but my wrist is held tightly so I can’t do anything.
“What the hell are you doing with my girlfriend, JunJun?”
My heart seems to stop beating when I realize her voice. Jun is surprised, too. She lets go of my hands and I immediately keep away from her.
“Koharu-chan…”
She is standing at the doorway, staring at me and Jun.
“Koharu-chan, it’s not like that…”
“Can you get out, Jun?” Koharu interrupts me. I look at Jun. I see some tears on her cheeks. She takes her bag and runs away.
Koharu close the door and comes near to me. I thought she will yell at me, or she will run away, but she didn’t. That even makes me more scared. I must say something. I must explain about that… But what should I say? I even don’t have enough courage to look at her. What if she gets jealous and leaves me again? I must say something…
“Koharu-chan… I…”
“What happened between you and her?” She asks, still staying calm.
“Jun said… she loved me… then she kissed me…”
She catches my hands and pushes me down to the bed.
“You promised not to kiss anyone else, right?”
“I…”
“Why didn’t you keep your promise?”
She glares at me. I feel so scared now. Her look is so scary.
She squeezes my wrist tightly.
“Koharu-chan… You’re hurting my wrist…”
She leans to kiss me. She unbuttons my shirt and quickly takes off my clothes.
“No!”
I cry out.
Hot tears burst from my eyes.
I don’t want that. I’m very scared.
She doesn’t notice me though.
She only kisses, and touches.
And rapes me roughly.
I know when she’s angry, there’s no way to stop her. I let her do whatever she wants, but I don’t do it for joy. I only want her to forgive me, and hope that will stop her anger. I just want to get away from the fear this moment. My tears can’t stop running on my cheeks. , and my body is hurting badly.
I close my eyes and bite my bottom lips to stand the hurt. That’s the only thing I can do for now.
“That hurts, Koharu-chan…”
I cry out again.
But my words can’t reach her right now.
*
When you want to have happiness
Your inner feelings will be stirred easily
The result of that is you will hurt someone
and hurt yourself also
That is the selfishness of human beings
I slowly open my eyes.
Ouch. My body can’t move though. I even don’t have enough strength to get up. Every part of my body is hurt badly.
She is sitting next to me on the bed. She bows her head and embraces her knees tightly.
“Koharu-chan…?”
She keeps crying. She doesn’t look at me also.
“Sorry.” She whispers. “I’m really sorry…”
“No. It’s not your fault.”
“I was too angry… I couldn’t control myself… When I thought you kissed another, I can’t stand it…”
I lean to embrace her, with all of the rest strength.
“Forget it. As long as you’re not mad at me anymore… As long as you don’t leave me… You can do that whenever you want…” I burst into tears.
She holds me back and cries like a small child.
“We shouldn’t continue anymore… I’m afraid someday I’ll kill you…”
“No!” I scream out. “I won’t approach Jun anymore… I won’t come near to her or stand by her… I won’t talk to her also…” I sob. “So I beg you… don’t say that you’ll break up with me…”
“Why could I treat you like that… I can’t understand myself. I love you very much… why could I do it with the person I love…”
“No, you can do it. That doesn’t matter anything…”
She turns to look at me. I smile and brush her tears.
“Because I’m yours, so you can do it.”
I pull her closer and hold her tightly.
“Don’t leave me, please…”
“Yeah…” She nods.
I lean to kiss her, trying to hold on my tears.
Even though we can’t have our happiness together
At least I want to be by your side and be able to remove your empty and loneliness.
If you’re sinking deeper and deeper in your valley
I’ll sink with you.
Because love is blind, after all.