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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #20 on: September 07, 2010, 06:59:55 AM »
Hmm, not entirely sure why, but it's interesting nonetheless. For now, I will just try to take in the characters and wait for explanations on this later, as I'm sure they'll come.

I feel as though I've learned something today. :lol:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #21 on: September 07, 2010, 09:55:39 AM »
LOL Tea chan, you can call me Sushi. I don't mind at all  :P  Who knows... Sukoshi may just be an anagram for Sushi girl (Sushiko) XD

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Well, the part where Reina gets turned...I suggest you go reread Gegenschein the original....I think I was fairly clear when that happened for her.

Ah! I knew you were gonna say this!  Total fail on my part XD  I was being sarcastic about the centuries part since I know Reina's still a "baby" in modern times XD  It's the who (Sire) rather than the when that I'm still after XD  Unless I really did miss that part....?  :huhuh  Old sushi brain may have gone bad from the heat... :sweat:

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The marks of war were evident on his body. Half a ear on one side, the upper edge ragged from an old wound. Puckered lines running from shoulder to torso, burn scars haphazard across his back. His mouth was twisted in a permanent scowl, courtesy of a parting gift from one of those he hunted.

All thoughts of him being a possible bishi have now all flown out the window.   :mon heh:

as for the POV...we aren't suppose to you know...feel sorry for the guy are we?  like when he dies?  later?  by the hands of Ai?  XD 

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #22 on: September 07, 2010, 03:52:47 PM »
This man been through the wars then (quite literally in this case it seems), some sort of vampire hunter?

Marked? Tainted? I wonder if he means bitten? he was willing to kill them even though they were children, is it rulthlessness or mercy, we will have to wait and see

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #23 on: September 08, 2010, 05:13:21 PM »
When I started reading fics in here, my first priority was Yo+Any fics, the reason why it took me a while to read your works  :D And when I read Gegenschein I thought Seirei (sp?) was Miki  :D



Deciphering your story is really a hard work.  :lol:  but makes one hooked, deep.

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #24 on: September 10, 2010, 09:52:55 AM »
Oho!

Two chapters I missed!

Hmmm, so for the the first one I missed, I take it as Ai's beginnings? Sounds very plausible and I shall think of it like that until other substantial details come forth. Ah, young love... Falling in love with a vampire will never let you stay as a human. Something always happens. Kekeke...

Weee~ More geography lessons. It's kinda fun reading things like that. I'm a big dork. Although, that's a pretty wide range you are covering. Truly the ultimate scouting party to cover that much ground.

As to why you wrote it as that POV.... To give us a idea of how this vampire hunter thinks, feels, and his resentment towards demons? Oh the irony when/if he turns into one of them....  >.>

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [1/9 - Tablet II]
« Reply #25 on: September 12, 2010, 03:43:43 PM »
Lol should I be flattered that my stories need brainpower to process? Lmao. Well, I suppose I should be happy that you need to think. :P It means I'm doing my job properly. XD

Yes, you should be flattered.  XD

I'm a bit of an idiotic reader at any rate, but we're talking fanfiction here. If the fanfiction makes me think, then the author is no average fanfic writer ^___^ Hopefully not because you're sprouting rubbish though, lol, as I have much faith that you know what you're talking about!


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And yes, you'll be getting more details as we go. I like to tell it in bits and pieces here, and there's a good reason for it. After all, these are Tablets. *hint hint* :P

I'm glad to hear that - because so far, I'm not really piecing much together.  :sweatdrop:
Tablets? Since tablets are meant to bear pretty brief messages... I can see why your chapters would be of such length and description then  :yep:

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As for what happened to Ai, well, crime and punishment is pretty brutal in ancient civilization. Eye for an eye, tooth for a tooth logic, lifted straight from Babylonian law (yes, I checked XD Code of Hammurabi ftw?!). Yeah, I'm obsessive. :lol:

Obsessive? Or devoted?  :lol: I prefer to call it devotion. I'm happy to see a writer who's very serious about her work though, enough to go through so much background work.  :twothumbs


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As for Aichan being vulnerable, well, she's still human and quite young at that. Can you blame her? :P

No, of course not.  :nervous
I was simply making a comparison to kick-ass Seirei and the full 360 turn around from that character and how that threw me off a little. But of course, young human Ai-chan is bound to be a vulnerable one.  :)


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And well, the guy she fell in love with is pretty damn awesome, and it wasn't love at first sight. Repeat, IT WAS NOT LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT.

Well you're going to have to elaborate on that with more writing  :lol:


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Ahem. Actually, I could turn her story as a human into a standalone fic. I should. Lol. I'll expand as and when I need to here, but otherwise....god, Gegenschein is a saga. It's more than epic. orz Spanning thousands of years of history...I have a lot to write. @_@ But I can't wait to start! XD

I can't even begin to imagine how expansive this world is... must be giving you a cracking headache!  :lol:
I'm truly looking forward to how 'epic' you can make this... it's all in the delivery, Essy, and I'm sure you're more than capable!  :bow:


Tablet III

Ooooo... a whole new POV. It's always good to gain insight into the story through multiple perspectives, though sometimes I wish you'd give us a little more information to work with  :nervous
I know I'm probably just being demanding and you've purposely left out details and all... but with pretty complicated stuff like this, I think I'd need more writing and reinforcement to really take things in.

Like for example, you started off this little chapter with a reference to 'Lord Barak' and by the end, I forgot who Barak was and had to backtrack a bit, to the beginning to confirm. Maybe that's just my goldfish memory at play though, don't worry. Lol. How about Baram? Who exactly is he? Just one of Lord Barak's followers?

I can't exactly get a good grasp on these characters. I'm hoping that it's OK that I'm not, since little has been revealed about them. But I'm wondering if you could provide more character markers so that we can keep track more easily  XD

I'm assuming that these people are Hunters, but there's no guarantee that they are. I can only assume so since they seem to be heading after the vampires, these 'demonic' creatures that could not fare in the daylight.

I'm looking forward to see where this is heading, and if this going to lead to some kind of epic battle you'll be writing in depth  :w00t: (because man, I love the way you write bloody action, couldn't get enough of it while reading Gegenschein... <3)

The geography and history stuff is REALLY beyond me  :rofl:
You seem to be pretty knowledgeable about such things already... but thanks for the notes. I'd be interested in learning more. ^__^  :love:

Thanks for your updates as always, and I hope that you aren't suffering another bout of writer's block >.<
Judging from your latest posts in the discussion thread, you seem to be flailing a little. It's OK, Essy, there's no need to be 100% satisfied with your writing. A 50% satisfaction would probably be enough for us readers to be enjoying at 100%  :lol:

Please update soon!  :heart:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #26 on: September 15, 2010, 07:43:41 PM »
Oh hey, I'm back. XD

Comment replies!

waiwai: Can I call you this? XD More mind-crushingness ahead, I believe. Have fun! :P

rndm: More to come, but less on the history lessons this time. A significant milestone here. Note that time is very significant here, but until I release the timeline, things should remain quite fuzzy. :P I like confusing people!

Sushi: Well at least I like Tea, so being called Tea chan isn't so bad. XD Reina's Sire is pretty badass. You'll see. Haha. I wasn't intending him to be a bishie. He's an old soldier of sorts, so...scars seem appropriate. :P And I just like grossing you out in general. :lol:

oddball: I'm glad you caught the implication between ruthlessness and mercy. He does mean bitten, but the mechanics of vampirism haven't really been explained so I guess things are fuzzy once again. He doesn't want the risk, but then they don't fully understand certain things...ah well. XD Needless to say they do know a lot about their prey, but there are things they cannot know, since they're, well, human. XD Let's just leave it there for now, shall we?

kRisZ: I'm glad you eventually got down to reading my fics. Haha. At least it hooked you eventually! :D

Fen: I agree, something always happens when you fall in love out of your species. :lol: But yeah, they do cover a lot of ground, and try not to think in terms of days or even weeks. A lot of this story takes years to cover, and its best to keep that in mind. :P Well it's to show how those firmly standing in the Light cast the darkest shadows...hint hint. :P

Bee: I think I know what I'm talking about...sometimes. Most of the time I just make stuff up on the spot and then it all fits together somehow. Spontaneous insanity! That manages to seem like genius. Shh, it's a secret. :lol: But I do get into a lot of random research to submerge myself into any given scenario. Then I just make things up on the fly, and it somehow links to one thing or another. It's a strange skill. XD It does feel like I'm digging myself deeper into this universe, what with all the "long stories" yet to be told. orz As for Baram, well, he's implied to be Barak's son, but generally he does play a role...for a short while. You'll see in the upcoming chapter. But well, most of these people are quite dispensable...like cannon fodder. XD I'm so evil lol. And yes, there will be an epic battle somewhere because I love writing those! :lol: As for writer's block, blame rokun for my silence for a while. He made my muse go on strike for a couple of days, but I revived her using Silent Hill OST, of all things. :lol:


Alrighty, time to edit and post!

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #27 on: September 15, 2010, 07:52:04 PM »
Tablet IV


She was like Death.

Watching her precise strokes with the reed stylus on unfired clay; then again as she speaks haltingly in civilised speech, before reverting in frustration to her own garbled dialect. These things make her seem more real, more human. Teetering between the age of youth and adulthood, it was hard to mold someone who remembered a vastly different childhood to one brought up in their ways.

But place her in combat, and she no longer wavers.

Her tribal dialect flows freely as she sways, incomprehensible save for a few words common to their languages. Where others depend on runes and rituals, she etches symbols of element and nature as she moves, her very being a conduit of energy and power. She calls, and the earth itself moves to answer her.

Their own scholars feared her, calling her a devil incarnate. The nomadic tribes of the far North were not to be trusted, they warned. Who knew what dark pacts they had forged with demons unknown?

Worse, she learns. The blocky cuneiform writing of their ancestors, as well as the more stylised etchings they had adapted to. They teach her about the power of numbers, symbols, and the elements they represent. She learns, and she adapts them. She shortens lengthy rituals and merges them with her own tribal knowledge. Direction, meaning, symbolism; she takes the Trinity and enshrines them into forms of power.

So they thank her, even as they feared her. So young, yet a wild talent. Envy could have been a motivator. The ones who fought on the field had fewer qualms, seeing how her talents benefited them directly, those who had to bleed and die out in combat. But even they had moments of doubt, seeing how easily she took to killing, terminating with a ruthless efficiency that even hardened warriors took years to achieve.

Physical combat remained her one weakness in the early years, though her magical skill was beyond doubt. Quietly though, she trained with the one who picked her up in the first place. She never resisted the training, but never quite complied with their doctrine either. She did not question orders, but she never quite followed them exactly as they wanted her to, though if forced to question, no one could deny that she had, in fact, followed instructions to the letter. It made for an interesting, if frustrating, quandary. They had grown to need her expert insight into speeding up the development of runes as a practical combat application, but doubted her loyalty to them.

After all, her clan was slaughtered during an all-out battle between their forces and the fiends they hunted. Caught in the crossfire, so to speak. It was a mystery as to how she even survived at all. It was not too difficult to imagine that she had witnessed the carnage from the beginning, and worse, that she remembered.

But if she did, she did not seek revenge against those who had a hand in the destruction of everything she had held dear. Dark eyes held their secrets, watching impassively and soaking up new knowledge and experiences like a sponge.

The only flicker of anything resembling hate was at the moment of killing. The instant she ended the life of anything, fiend or human, it was there where her eyes became fiery and alive, a seething rage that threatened to devour all that stood before her held barely in check.

And then the subject dies, and she is calm once more. Impassive, like a statue.

Like Death.

Or as they have come to call her, Raven. She still wears the dark feathers, taken fresh from the great scavengers that roam battlefields, her namesake. She seems amused by the irony, even as she braids them into her hair.

Over the years she learns to smile, laugh, and talk with greater facility. Equally, also, her prowess in battle grows as quickly, though she never did as well under the searing Anatolian sun, only coming truly alive in the night, bathed in the gentler light of the moon.

Ironic, perhaps, since their prey was only ever more active at night. Useful, too, since men tread fearfully in the cold and the dark. The chill never bothered her at night; the tundra she was born on had been colder, so much so that it almost never snowed; it was usually too cold and dry to.

In the end, Baram reflected, it was only so much easier for those who stood in shadows to fall into it. He believed that he was of Light, but Raven was unmistakably a child of the Night. He had seen her dance on nights of the new moon, a silent ritual of herself to herself.

Privately, he feared her. But the Light needed what she had to give, so very much. He only hoped he would not live to see her turn on them, as he suspected she eventually would. Those dark eyes held too many secrets, full lips hiding promises never to be whispered, only ever hinted at.

She was beautiful, he realized. But so very dangerous. A weapon he had shaped with his own hands, plucked from a ravaged battlefield. Shadows stirred at the edges of his memories, intangible hands blurring between reality and dreams.

Years have passed, the betrayal yet to come, but the Past never stayed where it was. It caught up one fine day, like a summer storm. Reckless, unstoppable, wrathful.

Raven returns at sunset to find yet another ravaged battlefield, and a stranger in the middle of it all. She does not understand, seeing only the end, and not the beginning.

This time she is no longer passive, but then again, she never was.

She holds her little brother in her arms, his throat slashed out with a blade. A part of her collapses in grief; another, darker side takes control, her fingers dipping into the lifeblood of her kin, weaving and murmuring.

She calls, and the earth answers.

Anyone who approached with killing intent was instantly obliterated, their minds destroyed, turning their weapons on themselves. She sits silently in that circle, surrounded by the dead.


She acts, but is flung away with a single sweep, crashing against a broken wall. Her breath catches, something twisting deep within her. A crushing sensation, then suffocation.

She coughs, a deep, gurgling sound that sounds wrong. Blood sputters from her lips, joining the mass of it on the floor. She falls, surrounded by the dead.

Blood pools all around her, most of it not hers. She does not remember the interval, just as she has blanked out what happened before. She only remembers the pain, and the stranger.

Intense red eyes, burned into her vision. One more thing she could not forget.

Should have died, should have died, should have died.

But she didn't, and the nightmare begins anew.

First priority: hunt down the bitch that killed me. Yeah, would have died. Hell, should have died. Damn friend should have been less softhearted. Hell, I should have just killed the idiot the first time. Now I'm alive and...what? I'm hungry! Shut the hell up! They should all die, and I should have killed them myself. And damn, that tastes awful. Yeah, priority, kill the bitch that got to them before I could. Damn her.


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Perspective shifts might be a tad confusing. I quite like how it turned out though. Free writing has it uses, though I did have to edit a great deal towards the end.

No notes to make for now, since there aren't that many things of relevance, save for the reference to cuneiform writing. Think pictograms, or hieroglyphics. That would have been the ancient Sumerian script. Like I said though, not a big deal (for now).

What do you guys think of Raven though? :D I'm curious. :P

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #28 on: September 15, 2010, 08:32:17 PM »
lol u can call me waiwai if u want^^ whatever floats ur boat~! X3
and u crushed my mind again! :mon duh: for some reason i think raven's miki or like some reincartant of reina XD or some evil twin of ai...ile i seriously dont know XD
raven sounds like a ticking time bomb though wouldnt wanna be around her when she exploded  :mon curtain:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #29 on: September 15, 2010, 10:06:11 PM »
I rather like Raven. She sounds like a certain someone, but then again, not. Hmm, I'm trying to work out who is who, but I still think I'm missing one or two fairly large puzzle pieces here. Once again, I'll reserve my other thoughts until I have more to go on.

You have succeeded in the confusingness, Essy-sama! :lol:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #30 on: September 16, 2010, 04:41:22 AM »
And now I'm confused. Confuddled.

It was all good until you started changing POV around on the fly. Now I sit here, staring at the computer screen... dazed... head nodding up and down... eyes half-lidded.... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.....

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #31 on: September 16, 2010, 03:29:14 PM »
Hmm Raven is definalty a dangerous character, she must be if Baram is scared of her, found on a batllefield hint's to a vicious past, I did wonder if perhaps Raven was a vampire or becoming one and Baram used her to gain information on other vampires.

Will baram regret what he created(possibly) however?

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [7/9 - Tablet III]
« Reply #32 on: September 21, 2010, 01:17:58 PM »
I think I know what I'm talking about...sometimes. Most of the time I just make stuff up on the spot and then it all fits together somehow. Spontaneous insanity! That manages to seem like genius. Shh, it's a secret. :lol:

 :mon speechless:

You sure have had me fooled...  :lol:


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But I do get into a lot of random research to submerge myself into any given scenario. Then I just make things up on the fly, and it somehow links to one thing or another. It's a strange skill. XD

It's the sign of a skilled writer... ^___^

If your imagination and ability to weave things together = great story, what else matters? Rejoice!  :twothumbs


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It does feel like I'm digging myself deeper into this universe, what with all the "long stories" yet to be told.

Which I really look forward to reading about!

Although I do have to admit I'm more excited about finding out what's going to happen next with current Seirei, Reina and the others...  :sweatdrop:

I'm just confuzzled about what's going on right now with all this history >.<

It's still interesting to read of course, but I guess I'm waiting for the point where I'm not asking a million questions by the end of each chapter  :lol:


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And yes, there will be an epic battle somewhere because I love writing those! :lol:

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As for writer's block, blame rokun for my silence for a while. He made my muse go on strike for a couple of days, but I revived her using Silent Hill OST, of all things. :lol:

Eh? Rokun did? Nande?

Is this story that ominous?  XD (I can only imagine the Silent Hill OST being hella creepy >.<).

But yeah, music inspiration FTW!  :yep:



Tablet IV

OK, you really have managed to make me all  :dizzy:

I know longer have any certainties, now I just feel like everything I'm making = assumptions T____T

I'm hoping we get some radically enlightening chapter soon, otherwise I'm going to feel completely lost. I hope you're not planning to keep up with all these question-raising chapters for the rest of the story, until the very end. Which might not even make any sense  XD

So. Here is my attempt at making sense of things. Every thought at the moment is very tentative...


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After all, her clan was slaughtered during an all-out battle between their forces and the fiends they hunted. Caught in the crossfire, so to speak. It was a mystery as to how she even survived at all. It was not too difficult to imagine that she had witnessed the carnage from the beginning, and worse, that she remembered.

Raven. So Raven is a girl. I thought it was a he at first  XD

Raven is an extremely awesome name, so it isn't hard to think of her as somebody very cool. A mystery as to how she even survived - I'm thinking she was turned by someone. Either the almighty He who turned Ai, or Ai herself. But then this conflicts with Baram's "weapon that he had shaped with his own hands" deal. So I'm not exactly sure WHAT Raven is. The Who is a little more clear. Actually, scratch that. Even the Who about her is unclear.  :lol:


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But if she did, she did not seek revenge against those who had a hand in the destruction of everything she had held dear. Dark eyes held their secrets, watching impassively and soaking up new knowledge and experiences like a sponge.

She really does sound like she could be Ai-chan. Is she? Perhaps Ai-chan is a split personality or something xD
Argh, I don't know. This also goes against my other assumptions. >.<


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The only flicker of anything resembling hate was at the moment of killing. The instant she ended the life of anything, fiend or human, it was there where her eyes became fiery and alive, a seething rage that threatened to devour all that stood before her held barely in check.

And then the subject dies, and she is calm once more. Impassive, like a statue.

Like Death.


Raven sounds awesome. Like, Seirei cool. She's not driven by murderous desire to avenge, yet she still rains down upon enemies like Death itself. Death is objective, but when it acts, it can be ruthless. That's the impression I get. Something to be respected.  :shocked:


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She only remembers the pain, and the stranger.

Intense red eyes, burned into her vision. One more thing she could not forget.

Should have died, should have died, should have died.

But she didn't, and the nightmare begins anew.

Again, this makes me believe she was turned. Maybe by the Almighty He (before he perished). Or maybe Ai. In the first little prose you posted in this thread, somebody seemed to be talking to this Raven, and says this: "I see Him every time I close my eyes. Do you?"

If 'He' turned Raven, I can understand why she would be able to see him. But then if Ai turned Raven, perhaps because of the strong connection, Raven could see him too. ???


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First priority: hunt down the bitch that killed me. Yeah, would have died. Hell, should have died. Damn friend should have been less softhearted. Hell, I should have just killed the idiot the first time. Now I'm alive and...what? I'm hungry! Shut the hell up! They should all die, and I should have killed them myself. And damn, that tastes awful. Yeah, priority, kill the bitch that got to them before I could. Damn her.

This was a bit confusing. Raven talking about Ai-chan?

They were somehow 'friends' before Raven was turned by her?

..........

:gyaaah:

Essy, this is really distressing!

It might be OK for you because you made all this up in your head, but I wonder if you've overestimated the lot of us. I'm not sure about the other readers, but I'm just...  :panic:

Lol, ok anyway...

Please update soon and begin clearing up this mess!  :heart:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #33 on: September 22, 2010, 10:14:20 PM »
I'm insane, but I had to finish it. 4am! I have to wake up in 6 hours! Urk.

Comment replies first.

waiwai: More mindcrushing. I think I'm taking my sadistic tendencies a little too far. XD Ticking time bomb is an interesting analogy. Hm, worth a thought.

rndm: I rather like Raven too. I think I made her too epic, but well, the story needs an epic person when Ai is still all...noobish. XD Good, you're confused! :D Let's hope I can unravel that successfully with coming chapters...

Fen: You need more sleep. Hell, I need more sleep. :lol:

oddball: I guess I must have been too vague. Oh well, can't expect people to read my mind. All will be revealed in time I suppose. XD

Bee: There you are. XD I feel a little bad about confuzzling everyone with the history, but I kind of  wanted to straighten everything up in my head. Even if it makes no sense to anyone else. Hm. I guess I'm too weird to be read easily... As for Raven's identity...is it bad if I hide who she is all the way until she actually makes an appearance in Gegenschein proper? :lol: I'm evil. XD After all, there's no reason for her to take a Japanese name until the time period and location fits...:P Ok now I'm just being mean. :lol: Raven does feel very similar to Aichan, doesn't she? Yet totally different on some level. You'll see. XD

Upcoming chapter is confuzzling even to me. Oops?

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [16/9 - Tablet IV]
« Reply #34 on: September 22, 2010, 10:21:35 PM »
Tablet V


It seemed like a very long dream. Different places, different people. Widely separated in time.

They speak, but it all seems so far away. She watches, like an old movie on rerun through an ancient television set. Cracked images, fuzzy sounds. Like another life, maybe her own...who knew?

There once was a man born of a God, who should have been a man, but was not. He outlived his own mother, and then forgot even her face as time passed. His father moved on to other lands and other women. He might have had siblings that still lived. He would never know for sure.

There was a woman, born so long ago that she has forgotten from whence she came. She looks like no one in that time, and yet everyone looks like her, perhaps some distant descendant of her people, long lost in the sands of time.

As all stories go, the man met the woman, and things happened. As in most stories, things did not end well. She left, he followed, she did not return to him. He waited for her, for he had all the time in the world. He would never die, and neither would she.

Or so he thought.

He lived. She didn't. He stayed at her grave for some time, watching the ridge crumble into a hill, the little village where she settled flourishing into a thriving outpost. Time meant little to someone who had an infinite amount of it.

He watched the humans of the village as one would observe wild flocks in the field. Detached, vaguely interested at times, but never an active part of their lives. On occasion he crossed paths with the odd human, which was quite enough for a small legend to spring up about his protective presence over the village. As his father was, he was venerated as a God, and grew stronger from the sacrifices they brought to him.

Ea, or Lord, they called him. Too similar to his father, the infamous Enki, worshipped across the continent. For all they might have been father and son, they looked as if they could have been brothers, had they ever been placed side by side.

It seemed like he could stay there forever, away from the real world, where he would have been called to battle again. He had fought to protect humans many many years ago, but now all he wanted was to protect a memory he cherished. There were others who could take his place in the war. He would not be called out again.

For he had failed to protect what was important to him once, and no longer felt qualified to protect the rest of mankind. One life he failed to save, that had changed him.

Another life he would save, that would change him again.

It was no more than a passing gesture. A mother in labor, pained but determined. The newborn, whimpering and mewling, then becoming still. Him passing by, as the mother cursed the gods and prayed for salvation at the same time. He had been intrigued enough to intervene.

The baby lived. A fierce bawling from those tiny lungs, eyes once dull becoming bright and lively. He had a peculiar sense that it would not be the last he saw of that small child.

It wasn't. Personally, he had never had to save a human more than once, given how he had never crossed paths with them more than once, and even if he did, it usually took place in less critical circumstances. Thus when he fished an unusual prize out of the river, he was vaguely amused by the fact that the little girl dangling limply in his arms was actually familiar. Blood called to him, and he closed her head wounds almost absently, feeling a strange kinship to one brought back once by him before.

She fell into his lap again, this time visibly older (to his vague surprise, he could never be sure how long or how short a time it took for humans to grow up), but still young as a human. Battered and bruised, but not beaten. Definitely not.

He was not sure why he saved her again, but he certainly hadn't been trying to seek her out at all. Who was he to ignore the dictates of fate, if she kept on finding her way to his side, even without her own consciousness?

In the long march of time he had endured, he had always seen humans as candles in a breeze. Burning brightly for a short time, then extinguished in a sudden gust. Ephemeral existences, yet to be respected for their struggle for life as their mortal coil burned to a close.

This tiny young woman - girl no longer, though still small - was yet another one of those wavering flames. Plunged deep into darkness, but burning all the more brightly for it. She was so full of life, something he himself had been lacking for ages.

It reminded him of her, the one he had failed to protect. The one who was never his, and who left him behind in a world that could not accept his existence. Their eyes held the same fire, a desire for more than what life had given them.

Yet this girl knew nothing of the world around her, while his love had been worn out by it. One a freshly blank slate, the other remade over and over until it fell apart.

It was a new beginning of sorts. To one who knew so little, every new experience was a joy, and it lit his heart to see her absorb his lessons, trying so very hard whenever something stumped her -- which was often. She was plain in so many ways, but she never gave up in spite of that.

He found that he enjoyed teaching, even as his father had before him. Reading and writing, basic mathematics, natural sciences, even how to read the stars above. He told her about the world he had seen, about places and people, the great events that changed the course of history in his lifetime. And she listened.

He did wonder why she stayed for as long as she did. True, he had knowledge beyond what most others had to give, but he would have thought that she would want to see the world he described to her. He even asked her once.

Her answer...what was her answer? The images wavered. You seem so lonely. I don't want to be alone. Promise me something...

There was a promise. What did he promise? She asked, or did he ask something of her? No, wait, where...

Regret, fear, guilt. I'm so sorry, my small one. Did I hurt you?

Then relief, hope, and a tiny spark of joy. The images, no, the impressions blurred once more. A confusing whirl of emotions, sometimes up, then down. Tightly wound and compressed, fading in and out of sight.

They were reflected in each other's eyes, every moment an eternity as they joined together under the stars.

The same glade is burning, memories dissipating into smoke as noise turned to deadly static. Anger, indignation, adrenaline as the invaders were mown down like wheat.

A pained roar, not of injury, but of loss.

Hands reaching for each other, grasping tightly. The world faded.

And then there was blood.

~*~*

Pain!

Hands clawing mindlessly at the source, scrabbling fingers losing purchase on the slick surface. A grunt as a grip was secured, and heaved.

The shriek froze a vole in mid-nibble, beady eyes blinking to assess the presence of a new threat. The sudden clatter of a bloody shaft not three feet away startled it into movement, long claws throwing up dust as it scurried down a hole and resolved not to come out until the danger had passed.

Dust and sand scattered as the creature moaned, rolling into a low crouch. One hand remained pressed tightly against the abdomen, fingers searching for the offending item. The splinters fell out in a spurt of blood, even as the bronze tip was finally ripped out with an agonized howl.

Pain. Hurt. Danger.

The mind was fogged, only the most basic imperatives standing out clearly. The world sharpened and came into focus as eyes blinked out at the surroundings. The azure sky seemed to stretch out endlessly, and the creature caught sight of a hawk in flight, far above.

Lines and color felt surreal; same, yet different, somehow. It was as if someone had rearranged the very structure of the picture, without changing the placement of anything within it. The effect was simultaneously familiar and alien, the mundane becoming abstract in an instant.

There was sound; the twitching whiskers of the frightened vole like whispers in the sun. Overhead, the fierce hunting cry of the hawk, a piercing shriek that should have been too distant to hear, but was heard all the same.

And the smell! Blood, the creature's own, and something else. Dead blood, decaying. It was...unpleasant. The breeze brought slight relief, along with the smell of fresh grass and ashes...

Movement! Eyes flickered to track it instinctively, the spot of white grey barely visible against the slightly darker shale of the sheer slope. Another instinct struck.

Hunger. Food.

Thought flowed into action with barely a register of it having being thought at all. Like a wraith, the creature sprung on the hapless goat, hands crushing the heavily muscled neck of the big mountain goat in a single flash.

Kill. Eat.

The blood was warm. The creature shuddered all over as it spasmed, still holding on to its prey. Every single muscle in its body seemed to burn intensely, but as quickly as it came, it was over.

Fat drops of liquid fell to join the red mess pooled around the dead goat, and there was a moment of consciousness as the creature touched its own face. It came away wet, and the stains stayed.

Tears. The stirring of something that might have been memory, almost wavering into an awakening of self...

Firepainfearblooddarkscareddon'tgodon'tleavemekillthemallkillkillkillkillkill

All rationality fled in the face of terror, and the creature howled its distress. Better to forget, better to not remember. Better to be a beast and live unaware of the true horror.

A beast lived without knowledge of the end that would come. And for the beast for which the end would never come? Perhaps it would simply live, until something changed it all.

~*~*~

It felt like I was sleeping inside myself for a very long time. So long that I forgot myself, and that was a brief happiness to be savored. I never wanted to wake up to a world I didn't want to face. A world to which I didn't belong, which would reject my existence.

If I slept, if I dreamt, at least I would not be alone.

But I could not close my eyes forever. When I woke, everything fell apart once more.

I woke to Death, with me as Executioner. I never thought to kill, but it came like second nature. Everything I touched seemed to wither before me, and I despaired.

Nothing else left in this world, nothing I could do but kill. I could do that. I needed something to hold on to. I needed...



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Some answers, more questions. I think I'm going nuts.

Extremely moody now. Will go away and hide until it blows over.

Bah.

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [23/9 - Tablet V]
« Reply #35 on: September 22, 2010, 10:52:05 PM »
u did it again! :panic: XD i seriously feel lost yet i get it at the same time XD

like that god was the same one that saaved ai like a kajilion times? and thats all i got...i think XD
the 2nd part's maybe ai? idk! :panic:

u did save me from going crazy out of boredom though..i desperately needed to read something XD
and ur not goinf nuts...ur just insainly creative X3
and i hope ur bad mood goes away soon...plus GET SOME REST!*hugs*
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Re: Gegenschein: The First [23/9 - Tablet V]
« Reply #36 on: September 23, 2010, 01:31:39 AM »
Have read, will reply later.

 :heart: :heart: Essy-sama~!


EDIT: Okay, the first part is Him, the one who saved Ai and turned her and loved her. Seems like fate to me. Well, that was my first impression, but I had to go back and reread the other parts first and I just didn't have time last night. The second part, Ai? After she turns, she's lost. She has no Master to guide her, so she looses it and does nothing except follow her instincts and try to forget her pain. Bam, big puzzle piece right there(if I'm right, of course). I think the other piece is Raven. Was the monster that killed her and the hunters Ai? Did Ai turn her?! Or am I totally imagining that?
« Last Edit: September 23, 2010, 02:07:25 PM by rndmnwierd »

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [23/9 - Tablet V]
« Reply #37 on: September 24, 2010, 01:25:08 PM »
Hmm I must admit I am thinking the same as Rndmn here, though I don't think it was Ai that turned Raven but I supose it could be, all confused now!  :doh:

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Re: Gegenschein: The First [23/9 - Tablet V]
« Reply #38 on: September 30, 2010, 08:48:08 PM »
Tablet IV
I'm thinking raven is Ai

Tablet V
I'm thinking that girl is Ai too...

So sue me  :D



In the end, I'm thinking those two are different persons but connected in one way or another.


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Re: Gegenschein: The First [23/9 - Tablet V]
« Reply #39 on: October 02, 2010, 07:59:23 PM »
Must have broke most people with the last chapter. Only 4 comments. Ah well. Beggars can't be choosers.

Comment replies! You know the drill!

waiwai: Yes, the god that saved Ai a kajillion times. Somehow I like the way you put it. :lol: Sorry about the brain trauma, but it was necessary? lol. Well the upcoming one is a bit more straightforward. Just a teensy bit. XD

rndm: You're right on the dot for most of it. Note I said "most of it". XD I won't tell you what you got wrong, but you did get the gist of it, so good job. :D It's a pretty big puzzle piece though. And I must apologize for all the skipping around in time I do in this story ^^;

oddball: It doesn't have to be her. Well, you'll see. XD

kRisZ: You have Ai on the brain. :lol: Not that I blame you, I do too. :lol: You're right about them being connected though. It's a major part of the themes surrounding this prequel. I can only hope I portray it well. Thanks for reading and commenting!


Thanks to all those who commented! Really appreciate the effort you guys took to do it. :D

Time to edit and post!

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