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Hey guys~
I originally posted this on LiveJournal, but with different characters, and I thought you guys may be interested, so I'm going to post it here. I have to warn you that my English is not perfect, so please excuse any mistakes.  :nervous
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Warning: Strong language.

Chapter 1

"Ai-chan, I’m so sorry!"
 
She was standing outside my house, crying her eyes out, hoping for me to open the door so we could talk, but there is no way in hell I’m opening that door for her.
 
 
[Flash back]

"Ai-chan, I love you."
"I love you too."
"I'm going to be with you forever no matter what."

[End of flash back]

 
Ha! Forever my ass! Does she really think that I’m going to open the door for her? It's been two hours already, leave! Dammit, leave! Your crying is not going to make me feel bad. "Ai-chan, please open the door, please please please!" Oh my god, this is really starting to piss me off! Do I really? Why should I? "Ai-chan, I’m going to kill myself if you don't open this door right now!"
 
"Fine, kill yourself! See If I care."
 
And then, there was silence...Wait, she didn't kill herself...Did she?
I rushed to the door and opened it just to be jumped on by her. "Ai-chan, I'm so sorry, please forgive me." I didn't say anything, I was just standing there letting her tears soak through my new shirt, I just bought it and it's quite expensive. After maybe three minutes, she finally backed away with her eyes red from crying, she looked scary. I’ve never seen her like this before. "Ai-chan, please say something!" I finally talked. "What do you want me to say? That everything is going to be okay?"
 
"Ai-chan, I’m sorry."
 
"Will you stop apologizing? It's really annoying and it's not going to work." I said without showing any sympathy. She's the one who made me like this. She promised that we'll be together forever, and I was dumb enough to believe her. I thought I was in love with her, but I guess I was wrong. Love is not real; you only see 'love' in cheesy Hollywood movies. It’s just a myth. "Ai-chan, I made a huge mistake."
 
"Yes, you did. Now what do you want?"
 
And then tears stared running down her cheeks...Oh man, not again! "Why are you crying again?" I said with an angry tone and that only made her cry even more. "I lov-"
 
"Don't you dare say that!" I cut her off before she could finish that sentence. "Why are you here at the first place? Aren't you supposed to be with him… in your honeymoon?" She looked up and said “....I left him."
 
I was shocked when she said that, but happy at the same time, I don't know why but I was happy… “I left him because I couldn't live with him for the rest of my life...Ai-chan, I'm still in love with you...I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life by leaving you..." As If I wasn't shocked enough! What the hell am I supposed to say next? I miss you? I love you? I want you back…? Oh hell no! “Are you done? Is that it? Well, you should go home now, because it's getting late." She was about to cry, but thank god she didn't. “Fine, but before I go I just want to let you know that I love you and I'm sorry for breaking your heart. One day you'll find a better person who will treat you right..."
 
I don't know why, but I wanted to cry...and then...Tears were running down my face like silent raindrops. She hugged me, but I pushed her away because I won't let her play with my feelings again. Never. "Leave!" I said while I was crying. "JUST LEAVE!" I screamed. She had no choice but to leave. "Risa!" I shouted, there was something I wanted to tell her...
She turned to me with teary eyes "What Ai-chan?"
 
“I hope you die and rot in hell!"
 
I gave up my career for you; I gave up my whole fucking life for you. Because of you my parents rejected me, they kicked me out of the house, they erased me from their memories, but most of all they hated me! That's all because of you.
You know, 'hate' is a big word, you should never use it, but I mean it when I say: "Risa, I hate you!" I really mean it, and I hope one day you'll feel the same way I feel right now. Heartbroken, lonely, depressed, angry, weak, suicidal, and the list could go on and on...
 
“Fuck you, you whore, I don't want you back...”

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So...? Did you guys like it, hate it? Do you want me to finish writing it? Do you think my English is bad? I do  :(
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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #1 on: November 13, 2010, 06:13:09 PM »
WOW...

It was another point of view XD from the Magical relationship to a sadness and despair one  ._.

I like it, but well I'm a fairytale fics freak XD that means I love happy endings XD

Even with all that I like the way Ai.Chan didn't forgive her =D


God!! She knows she's HOT!

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #2 on: November 13, 2010, 07:40:43 PM »
This is a great start!! I don't think many TakaGaki fics now start with them being anst so I'm glad to have read this one starting like this. I look forward to the next chapter! :D :thumbsup

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #3 on: November 13, 2010, 10:44:49 PM »
Omg it's only been one chapter and I'm already hooked lol  :lol:
You should keep going  :)...... plz

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #4 on: November 13, 2010, 10:46:40 PM »
I don't think your English is that bad!  :P

and I'm definitely hooked... Aichan doesn't want to fall for Risa's old tricks (whatever they are) again, but she still loves, I think....  :cry:

i'll wait for updates~  :cow:

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #5 on: November 13, 2010, 11:18:46 PM »
okay I like it :twothumbs

so please keep going on XD XD XD

and like it how you start the story :P


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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #6 on: November 14, 2010, 05:19:05 AM »
Your English is fine, better than some of my friends even! XD

This is really a good hook, not too many Takagaki fics start out this way, so I'm interested to see where this is going.

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #7 on: November 14, 2010, 06:54:40 AM »
~WHOA there...

 XD

Nice to see a new fic from you, cute... (I'll just call you that to make it easy xD).

That beginning was pretty intense T____T


"Risa!" I shouted, there was something I wanted to tell her...

She turned to me with teary eyes "What Ai-chan?"
 
“I hope you die and rot in hell!"

 :OMG:

*splutters* WHAT?!

>.<

I feel like we have a long way to go before Ai's heart can be mended... that is, if it ever will be. :/

But I'm interested. Anything TakaGaki shamelessly interests me  :lol:
You do have quite a promising start. I'd really like to find out what exactly happened between them for them to have ended up like this... how Gaki could ever leave Ai-chan to get married with a man. NANI?! She was drunk? Possessed? Blackmailed? Something along those lines? @___@

And yeah, your English is fine. Perfectly understandable. Don't feel bad... there's always room for improvement (and that's the case with every writer), but it's not the end of the world, you learn as you go! Good luck!

Waiting for your next update!

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #8 on: November 14, 2010, 10:02:12 AM »
I had a bad feeling when I saw the "I Don't Want You Back" title. :lol: And you weren't kidding about the strong language. XD

Well, that was just really intense and sad! :cry: What Ai-chan said was super harsh, but can't really blame her since she sacrificed so many important things in her life for Gaki, who went off with some dude.

Please continue with the story! :twothumbs And I hope they would have a happy ending. :mon pray2:

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki]
« Reply #9 on: November 14, 2010, 02:25:07 PM »
@Haruka, writerjunkie, SarangAi, fallenxangel24952, rndmnwierd: Thank you guys so much for your replies <3

@Beecubed: Thank you <3 Blackmailed...? You just gave me an idea... :mon evil:

@kano-chan: lol yeah, I had to warn you about the strong language. XD
A happy ending? Well, you'll have to wait and see :D
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Warning: Strong language.

Chapter 2


[Flashback]

“Fuck you, you whore. I don’t want you back...”

[End of flashback]


Ai’s POV

I meant what I said, but why does it hurt so much? I mean, she deserves it. She broke my heart, she left me for someone else…she left me for a guy! She lied to me about who she really is. She told me that she likes girls, but if that’s true, then why was she sleeping with a guy? WHY did she marry a guy? God, I’m so confused…and why the hell Am I thinking about her right now?
Get a hold of yourself! You just ended things with her. You told her that you don’t want to see her again, but why do I have a feeling that I have made a mistake? Screw this. I’m going to bed.

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It was 3 am, she kept rolling in her bed, she couldn’t sleep, she kept remembering what Risa had told her: “I left him because I couldn’t live with him for the rest of my life…Ai-chan, I’m still in love with you…I’ve made the biggest mistake of my life by leaving you.”
Ai finally gave up on trying to sleep. “If only I hadn’t told her that I was in love with her when she was dating that dickwad…”

[Five months ago.]

“ Ah~ I can finally sleep.” Ai jumped on her king size bed happy. She was finally going to sleep after an exhausted day. She started drifting off, when suddenly…
Ring Ring
“You’ve got to be kidding me!” She tried to ignore the sound, but it kept ringing and ringing and… ringing. “That’s it!” She jumped off her bed and ran to where the annoying sound was coming from. She was about to say a lot of things an idol shouldn’t say to whoever was calling her, but when she saw the calling ID, she smiled…

“Hello Risa~.”
“Hi, I’m sorry. Were you asleep?”
“No. What’s up?” okay that was a lie, but whatever. She thought to herself. “Thank god, I’m fine. I just want to talk to you…” She called, because she wants to talk to me. Of course she wants to talk, that’s why people call each other you dumb shit! “Okay, what do you want to talk about?” trying to sound as cool as she could, but failing miserably. “I don’t really know…Do you want to hang out?” Is she asking me out on a date? She started grinning like an idiot. “Yeah, that would be amazing.” “Awesome, because I think it’s been a long time since we hung out." Yeah, it’s been a long time… “Ever since you stared dating that dickwad” She mumbled.
“What was that?”
“Huh? Um, nothing HAHAHA” Ai mentally slapped herself for saying that. “Anyways, how about we go to the cinema?” ”Ye-“ Risa interrupted her, before she could finish. “Awesome! There is this new movie about two people falling in love, and then getting married.” Wow! The story is so not predictable…Ai thought raising a brow.” That’s sounds great!” She answered with a mocking voice. “It’s a romantic movie.” Really? I thought it was horror… “I love romantic movies!” I hate those mushy movies…

Risa and Ai started talking about stuff that neither of them really cared about. The only thing that mattered to them was that there was no awkwardness between them anymore. They haven’t been able to talk like this, mostly because Ai was ignoring Risa. Every time they see each other, Ai would turn around and walk away. It’s not because she didn’t want to see her, it’s because she couldn't. It hurt her so much; knowing that they will never be together hurt her so damn much. Every time Risa talks about him, every time Risa thinks about him, every time Risa calls him, hugs him, kisses him. Every single time, Ai would feel her heart being stabbed all over again. But not anymore, because she has moved on… or at least that’s what she wants to believe. 
                                                          "Moving on, is a simple thing, what it leaves behind is hard."
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To be continued…
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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 2
« Reply #10 on: November 14, 2010, 06:37:57 PM »
Ai'a hurt, so she wants to hurt Risa too. Makes sense, keep going!

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 2
« Reply #11 on: November 14, 2010, 08:23:13 PM »
so before they are goin' out risa already have a boyfriend :shocked :shocked :shocked

ahh~ I don't know give me the next chapter XD XD XD

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 2
« Reply #12 on: November 14, 2010, 11:34:39 PM »
Wow...Ai-chan is so full of yankii-ness in this story. 8)2

Ai-chan thinks that she might have made a mistake, so that's definitely going to change somethings... :D

**waits**

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 2
« Reply #13 on: November 15, 2010, 04:43:37 PM »
Man poor Ai is definatly upset at Gaki!, she had a boyfriend before dating Ai as well as laeving Ai for a guy, that's got to be pretty tough on Ai, no wonder she's acting like such a Yankii!

But then, Ai chan can't get the thought that Gaki made a mistake out of her mind.....

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 2
« Reply #14 on: November 15, 2010, 05:56:50 PM »
@rndmnwierd: I'm glad it makes sense :) I will keep going. Thank you. :heart:

@fallenxangel24952: Yup.  :twisted:

@kano-chan: Yes, she is. Yankii Aichan rocks  :rockon:

@oddball: She left him for the same guy. Gaki made a mistake, but she had her reasons...What are the reasons? Now that's the real question  :twisted:
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Chapter 3


Ai’s POV

I saw her waiting for me outside the theater. I smiled, and as I was walking up to her, that smile was replaced with frown when I saw him, placing his arms around her waist and giving her a kiss on the back of her head. “What the hell is he doing here?” I felt my eyes becoming watery, I wanted to cry. Seeing him made me so mad, I wanted to pull Risa away from him, because she’s supposed to be with me, not him. She’s mine!
I turned around, and was ready to leave; that’s when I heard her calling my name “Ai-chan!” Damn! I should have walked faster. I turned around with a fake smile on my face “Oh, Risa!” acting all surprised. I knew those acting lessons would pay off someday. She started running towards me, and gave me a hug “Ai-chan, you’re here. I’ve been waiting for you.” She backed away and looked at me “what’s wrong?” “What do you mean? Nothing is wrong…” please don’t ask anymore questions, or else I’m going to end up crying, because seeing you right now is hurting me. Seeing you with him is killing me.I knew she didn’t believe me, but she chose not to ask anymore questions.
“It's been almost a month.” “Yeah…” One month, one painful month… “Ai-chan, I’ve really missed you.” She looked at me with sad eyes, I could see that she really misses me, but I can’t do anything about it. I’m sorry. She was about to give me another hug, but that bastard chose to ruin it. “Hi!” “Oh hi, babe.” She gave him a quick peck on the lips then turned to me. “Ai-chan, this is my very handsome boyfriend…” as if that peck didn’t piss me off, they chose to make out in front of me, now, I was furious! I wanted to blow his fucking head with a shotgun! But where can I possibly get one? … Where is Reina when you need her?
After probably twenty seconds of making out, they finally, FINALLY broke away from the kiss. I swear, they wouldn’t have broken away from it if I hadn’t cleared my throat. Risa, why are you doing this to me? You’re torturing me. They looked very embarrassed after their make out session. Risa was looking at the ground with her face burning red, and that bastard was…smirking? I've had enough of this. I’m leaving. “Um, I’m sorry, but I just remembered that I have some business to take care of at the agency. I have to go.” I have some business to take care of alright! I'm borrowing Reina’s shotgun! Risa looked up, she was about to say something, but by then I had already turned around and started walking. “But_” I didn’t bother to turn around and listen to her, I just wanted to leave. Fast.
I’m sorry Risa…
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I didn’t know where I was, all I could remember was that my head felt like it was about to explode, and I felt like throwing up. I tried opening my eyes, but couldn’t. The lights were too strong.
“Where the hell am I?” I thought I was alone, but apparently I wasn't. “You’re at my place.” “WHAT THE FUCK?!” I swear, I thought I was going to have a heart attack. “What a beautiful man scream… and ‘fuck’ is bad word.” What the… Wait, who the hell is she? “Who are you?” I tried seeing who that person was, but my blurry vision didn’t help. “My name is Eri, and I saved you.”  Saved me from what? It’s like quote from a cheesy low budget movie. "I saved you." Oh, please.
“What?” what is she talking about? “You see, I’m a waitress. You came to the place I work at, and you were drinking too much. Guys were trying to do stuff to you, and I saved you. You should really consider quitting alcohol. It’s really bad for you.” Wow! She “saved” me, and now she wants me to stop drinking? Who the hell does she think she is? My mother? “Umm, thanks for ‘saving’ me mother. But I could’ve taken care of it.”  “Yeah, right! You asked them if they had condoms…” Oh my god, please tell me this is a dream. Yeah, this is a dream; I’m going to wake up at any second now…come on wake up! “You’re not dreaming.” She said boldly. She could have at least let me pretend it was a dream. Dammit. I don’t know what’s bad enough; the fact that I had asked them for condoms, or the fact that they were guys! I hate men! I was about to do…things with them. Oh god, just thinking about it makes me want to kill myself…but before doing that, blowing that bastard’s head off with Reina’s shot gun. Gimme a Hell Yeah!
“Well, I’m sorry for interrupting your thoughts, but since you’re awake now, I think you should leave.” Ouch. “Yeah, sorry.” As soon as I got up, and was about to leave her place, she stopped me. “Um, can…I know…your name?” I could’ve sworn I saw her blushing, but I didn't think too much about it. “I’m Ai, Takahashi Ai.” I smiled faintly at her before closing the door. She’s cute…
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4:30 AM
After leaving her place and walking in the rain for 40 minutes, I finally reached my apartment. “Tadaima!” but was greeted back with darkness and silence. I don’t even know why I bother saying that every time, it’s not like my parents are going to appear from nowhere and greet me back. Sometimes I feel so pathetic. I walked to the living room, and stood there, looking at the family picture, regretting the decision I’ve made by staying here in Japan, while my family are in the US. “I wish I was with you guys right now…” I just stood there staring, when suddenly I felt cold. I forgot that my clothes were damped from the rain earlier. I started walking to my room, but when I saw my bed, my huge, awesome bed. I didn’t feel like changing anymore, I just wanted to sleep. “You ARE going to change your clothes before going to bed, aren’t you?” Freaking stupid voice in my head, always telling what to do! I didn’t have to listen to it, but somehow, it sounds just like Risa’s. I quickly walked to my closet, snatched out my red pajamas, and went to the bathroom to change. I don’t know why I always change in the bathroom, even though I do live alone. But somehow I get this strange feeling as if someone is watching me…Great, now i'm becoming paranoid!

To be continued…
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Next is Risa's POV   :byebye:
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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 3
« Reply #15 on: November 15, 2010, 11:34:05 PM »
Chapter 1 & 2

incredible start on the story, although a TakaGaki story with conflict is soooooooooooo good

Chapter 3

Meeting Eri in such a way is incredibly interesting, and Ai becoming a total ass-kicking bitch XD
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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 3
« Reply #16 on: November 16, 2010, 01:08:32 AM »
This is a really interesting story! The opening really caught my attention and the progress seems interesting, I wonder how TakaGaki will happen (only to fall to ruin). :w00t:

I like the way you portray Ai! It was interesting to see her so... mean. Though her language was surprisingly vulgar xD. I loved the line about wanting to find Reina for a shotgun. And AiEri interacting 8Db If my attention span can surpass a 5 year old's, I will definitely be following this fic!

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« Reply #17 on: November 16, 2010, 07:07:25 AM »
This is the most badass Ai-chan ever in all of the stories I've read! :shocked: She asked them if they had codos?? :shocked :bleed eyes:

Looks like Eri's got a little crush on Ai-chan there... :inlove: Maybe we'll see her in the future? :roll:

But the scene with Gaki and her boyfriend making out in front of Ai-chan is just so.... :mon annoy: I was like, ohmygosh! Really?! She didn't love Ai-chan at that time? :O That was just messed up; that scene.... :angry:

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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 3
« Reply #18 on: November 16, 2010, 01:36:52 PM »
Man poor Ai-chan having to watch Gaki make out with her boyfriend right infront of you  :OMG:  , don't worry I have a shotgun you can borrow!  :angry:

Seems like Ai is also a drinker as well as a bit of a Yankii in this fic, luckily Eri was there to save her, and Ai thought she was quite cute, I wonder what sort of role Eri will play from here on in?

Is Ai really becoming paranoid, or perhaps Risa still has something she want's to say to Ai?



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Re: I Don't Want You Back [TakaGaki] Update - Chapter 3
« Reply #19 on: November 16, 2010, 05:36:37 PM »
@kurosawa87,Mkame: Thank you.   :)

@kano-chan: Eri she has a crush on her, and yes there will be AiEri. The kissing scene made me mad, even though i'm the one who wrote it  XD

@oddball: Eri will play a very, VERY interesting role...  :twisted:
Risa is still not sure about her feelings for Ai-chan, to her, she's only a friend, but who knows? Maybe she secretly loves her, but just won't admit it. You'll have to wait and see  :D
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Chapter 4


Risa’s POV

“But_” I tried stopping her from leaving, but she didn’t even bother to turn around. I’m so hurt right now. Why is she acting like this? Did I do something wrong? Did I hurt her without realizing it? What did I do to make her act so strange? It’s like she doesn’t want us to be friends anymore. Ever since I started dating him, she had started ignoring me. Why Ai-chan? Why?
A kiss on my cheek stopped my train of thoughts. “You look so distant. What’s wrong?” I felt myself blushing like crazy, but thank god for the turned off lights in my apartment. I didn’t want him to see me like this, even though he told me that I he likes it when I’m blushing…
“Um, I’m fine.” He gave me a look. But I tried to ignore it and focus my gaze on the TV. “I don’t believe you, but I just like you too much to ask anymore questions…” I felt his arms around my waist, as he turned me to face him. “Baby, you know you can talk to me about anything, right?” “Yeah, I know…” “It’s okay if you don’t want to tell me. I’m not going to force you, but I just want to let you know that I’m always going to be by your side.” When he said that, I felt like crying, because it reminded me of when Ai-chan and I were close. She would tell me the exact same thing. I tried to stop the tears, but they kept falling. He held me in his arms and started patting my head and stroking my short hair.  “It’s okay…just let it out.” That night, I cried in his arms until I fell asleep.
Ai-chan, why are you doing this to me?

~*~

Everything was spinning around me. I couldn’t see, I couldn’t hear, and I couldn’t breathe. How did I fell? Someone has pushed me…but who? I kept desperately struggling for air. I needed to breathe, I desperately needed to breathe. I tried my best to reach the top, but failed. Someone was holding my legs and pulling me back every time I was close. Blood started pouring out of my nose, that’s when I knew my end was near…
“Risa!” a voice, a familiar voice was calling my name. “Risa, can you hear me?” it kept calling. “Risa, wake up!” the person who the voice belonged to was now shaking me. Suddenly, I felt a burning sensation on my right cheek. Someone has slapped me…I found myself on my bed, terrified, soaked in my own sweat, and that’s when I realized it wasn’t real, none of that was really happening. It was a dream…a very scary dream. I was having a nightmare…a nightmare that until today I can never fully escape, nor can I understand.

~*~

“Risa, are you sure you’re okay?” She’s been asking the same question over, over, and over again. How many times do I have to reply with the same answer? “Sayu, I’m fine. Really, it was just a dream!” “But Risa_” I cut her off before she could finish. “No buts! Look Sayu, I understand that you’re worried about me, but this is really starting to get annoying! It was JUST a dream! So please, I’m begging you…stop.” She looked at me with a shocked impression. I’ve never been this harsh on her before, I couldn’t help it. She made me lose my temper. She’s an amazing friend, but sometimes she needs to know when to just back off! Her gaze started shifting to the ground, which made me feel even more horrible. “Sayu, I’m sorr_” She immediately looked up and smiled “It’s okay, it was my fault. I’m the one who should be sorry…” Awesome, just awesome. Now, I feel like the biggest butthole on the face of planet. How can a person be so sweet after hearing such harsh words? I can never fully understand Sayumi. First, when I had rejected her feelings, she acted as if nothing had happened. I thought she was going to hate me, but she did the opposite; she’s the one who set me up on a blind date with a guy, who’s now my lovely boyfriend. And now, after losing my temper with her... Sayu, why are you so nice?

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Sayu and I spend the whole day shopping for new clothes. I’m not so fond of it; I’d rather chew on broken glass than shopping, But you know Sayu…she wouldn’t take no for an answer. “Today was so much fun!” I had to agree with her, it was fun. “Yeah, thank you for today, spending the day with you made me forget about Ai-cahn…” I shouldn’t have said that, because it only made me feel sad; knowing that I might have something to do with Ai-chan’s behavior. Yup, it made me feel like crap. Sayu must have noticed, because she leaned closer and gave me an embrace. “Gaki-san, everything between you and Ai-chan is going to be okay. I promise.” Hugging her felt so nice, in times like these all I want is for someone to be with me, telling that everything is going to be okay. Ai-chan, I want you to be the one who’s doing that. We both pulled away from the hug and I could feel myself 100 percent better. I swear, whenever Sayu gives me hug, all my worries and pain disappear “Thank you Sayu, I really mean it.” “That’s what friends are for.” She simply replied.
It was getting late, Sayu decided to go home, but before that, she gave me another hug and did one of her peace signs. I couldn’t help but smile, she’s so adorable, I don’t get why so many girls hate her.

~*~

“Tadaima!”  I was expecting Kei to be there, but I guess I was wrong...again! Lately he’s been acting strange. Always sneaking out in the middle of the night, spending the whole day with his friends… or at least that’s what he’s been telling me. I love him; he’s a great guy, but I just don’t get it. I feel like he’s hiding something from me. God, what have I done to deserve this?

~*~

I was going to call Ai-chan, but I knew she wouldn’t pick it up, just like every time. So I decided that tomorrow I’m going to visit her, and we’re going to talk about what’s been bothering her whether she likes it or not! I’m not leaving until she tells me why she’s been ignoring me! Ai-chan, tomorrow, you will tell me what’s wrong. You can't keep doing this to me. Tomorrow, I WILL know the truth...

To be continued…
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