11 - 4Haruna could not let all the tears inside her to show. She had enough on crying, throwing tantrums, wishing for Yuko to remember her, being hysterical on her current state and to Yuko’s condition. Everything. Haruna realizes all this character she is showing to the AKB members and all to the people who knew what had happened to Yuko is not helping to bring back Yuko’s memory at all.
In the end Haruna continued doing the opposite. She keeps begging Yuko to try and remember all the memories she has in her heart. Telling the girl not to forget Haruna. Crying until her eyes become all swollen. Skipping lessons, performances, shows, and all sorts of idol-world business. Everyday, she’s been staying at Yuko’s side. Haruna had explained and told how AKB48 created and how Yuko had fallen in love to Haruna at first glance(which Haruna got the stories from Yuko before), how Yuko always do her skinship to Haruna and most of, how Haruna regrets being cold, rejecting and every sort of things that broke Yuko’s heart. Everyday, Haruna kept saying how much she really love Oshima Yuko. Each Yuko’s answer ‘
Sorry. I don’t love you.’ And ‘
I really can’t remember you.’ crashed every pieces of Haruna’s heart and the whole life of Haruna.
Everyone gave their ‘Don’t give up Haruna! Yuko’s memories will soon be back.’ – ‘Ganbatte Nyan Nyan! Be strong!’ – ‘Yuko is tough!’ – ‘Yuko’s heart are on yours Kojiharu’ – ‘Kojiyuu are still together!’ is what most of the fans and AKB members had said to Haruna.
Kojiyuu? Together? Haruna hope so.
What broke Haruna’s heart more is the moment she learned Yuko is… graduating.
Akimoto Yasushi on News: The talk of Yuko’s state exploded around Japan. We knew there is a possibilities that her Amnesia is just temporary or worst, permanent. Our team reviewed all the information about Oshima Yuko’s situation and we decided… Oshima Yuko from Team K will graduate.All the fans of Yuko and AKB48 here in Japan and the other countries had bashed Akimoto for making such a imbecile decision to make Yuko thrown out of AKB in just one snap. Also, how Yuko can graduate AKB48 if she has an amnesia? What if her memories came back and soon realizes that she is no longer an AKB member? The what if’s and hates kept increasing as they can’t still move on to the fact she will be soon evicted in AKB48.
Oshima Yuko. Graduating.
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For the first time Haruna attended AKBINGO set. Though everyone can see the pure misery and pain behind Haruna’s smile. Sometimes whenever she remember Yuko doing the same game of the segment made her burst into tears which the Director have to take Haruna out for awhile.
All the smiles, laughs and calm faces of AKB members are creating a pain inside them. They want to show their sadness to everyone like Haruna always do. Team K members are known as one of the energetic and cheerful team. Whenever they are in dressing rooms, practice, performance and after the show. They couldn’t help but share the sadness and pain inside them together. One of their beloved member will be gone soon.
After the recording AKBINGO, Haruna automatically went to the hospital where Yuko is at. Before opening the door in Yuko’s room, she heard Julian attempting to take Yuko’s memories back. She then pressed her ears to the door, clenching her hand to her chest and short tears started to form in her eyes again.
[
Inside the room]
“I was right. The small star really distance herself from the big star.” Julian’s voice are in pain too.
After pulling the curtains away from the window to make a brightness inside the room, Julian sat at the end side of Yuko’s hospital bed.
“Small star? Distance to… big star?” Yuko narrowed her eyebrows, not having a big clue what the guy named Julian in front of her is saying.
Julian let out a small giggle and nodded to the girl he got close with from the past few weeks. Misery also washed inside him as he cannot believe Oshima Yuko – his oshimen will have an unfortunate incident. Why does it have to be amnesia? He kept asking to the person above.
He took his phone out from his pocket, finding the picture the day Yuko decided to pull off her presents to Haruna. The day he found two stars happily sharing a strong bond together. Julian show the picture to Yuko.
“The small star is Oshima Yuko. The big star is Kojima Haruna. Close.” Julian stick his hands together to show how close the two star is.
Yuko only nodded. Julian then clicked the next button, revealing a photo where Yuko has a big smile plastered her face next to the shining stars in the sky. The time after Yuko had bought her first bear with big ears present for Haruna.
“I look so happy in here” Yuko said and gave the phone back to Julian.
“It’s all because of Haruna.” Julian let out a warm smile.
[
Outside the room]
Haruna is thankful to Julian who is always by their side. He is a guy with a kind heart that Haruna ever met as he is not the type of guy who flirts with girls or stealing away girls. Haruna felt very relieved that Yuko didn’t fall in love with him. She wouldn’t probably know if Yuko really fell in love. And if it happens, the pain she has now would probably be a gazillion hurt than this.
Haruna then slid the door open and went inside.
“Here comes my crying star.” Yuko joked by lowering her voice only for Julian to hear and show a small giggle but winced after as her head is starting to throb.
Julian rose up and went to Haruna to hug the new comer. “Hey.” He greeted.
Haruna greeted back too and went to Yukos side. Haruna then brushed away the little strand of fringe in Yuko’s forehead. She stare at Yuko for a second and pulled away after.
Sensing the difficult vibe between the two, Julian nodded and pretended someone called him over the phone. “Hello? Err yeah… I’m leaving now. See you in a bit.”
“Uhm Yuko, Haruna I’m leaving you guys for now. Goodbye. Take care aight?” Julian said his goodbye and went out the room after receiving Yuko and Haruna’s goodbye.
The awkwardness and silence around the room started again. This always happen every time Haruna show up to Yuko. Both don’t know what to say to each other.
Haruna couldn’t hold her tears again. All she want is to show a real smile to Yuko, but whenever she try it, tears always appear as if trying to say to Haruna that there is no point to show a smile to the girl she loves.
Looking at the same girl who keeps crying from the day she opened her eyes is challenging Yuko to exert herself to remembering anything but a blank memory keep appearing in her brain. She does not know Kojima Haruna at all.
“Don’t you get fed up on crying every single seconds?” Yuko asked.
Haruna shook her head. “All the tears shows on how many days, years I can wait for you to remember me.” Haruna whimpered, trying to wipe the tears away from her eyes but the tears is nonstop.
Yuko is feeling guilty to let a girl like Haruna suffer because of her current situation. Everyone kept saying to her that she – Yuko loves Haruna. She would always make an effort to make Haruna set her attention to Yuko. How Haruna’s gadgets are always her number one enemy. Nyan Nyan is the nickname Yuko give Haruna. Being called as Perverted Squirrel as she always do the famous Skinship she do to Haruna and yet ended up being slapped, punched, flicked in ear or forehead, receiving cold harsh words from the tall girl but that won’t still make her give up to make Haruna shot her a smile at least. Confessing everyday her love towards the girl but ended up taking her love as a joke. Always being rejected by Haruna. All those negatives still won’t stop Yuko to love Haruna. Giving all the love she can give to the girl she deeply love. Making haruna happy whatever it takes. The past Oshima Yuko only want Haruna to give her heart and to love her back will make Yuko the most happiest and lucky girl ever lived.
The small girl arise on her bed and kneel in front of Haruna so she can have the same height to the tall girl. Yuko stared at Haruna’s eyes. The eyes filled with pain, suffering, misery, all the sadness are seen in the girl’s eyes.
“Please close your eyes.” Yuko requested.
Haruna did what Yuko had told her by closing her eyes. She felt Yuko’s fingers pressed into her puffy eyes. Still closing her eyes, Yuko wiped all the tears away and blow the eyes afterwards. The moment Haruna could tell her tears are gone she opened her eyes and see Yuko flashing her a smile. Yuko then lay her back again on her bed.
Feeling the touch of Yuko again made all the pain inside Haruna decrease for awhile. She is been longing to feel the warmth in Yuko. Everything from Yuko. Happy memories. Haruna wants happy memories.
Calming to her crying, Haruna set her gaze outside the window. The sky is clear blue, the warm of the sun is hugging them inside the room, the natures are comforting Haruna.
“Do you want to go outside? For fresh air?” Haruna’s voice become rasp as she invited Yuko who is also gazing outside.
Yuko nodded. “Hai, for fresh air.” She smiled while still looking outside.
Yuko then got up from her bed but nearly fell over as her head ached a little again. Haruna quickly hold on to Yuko’s waist and supported her throughout the balcony as she is limping due to minor injury in her leg.
Breathing in all the fresh air made Yuko’s head be light. It feels like she is alive and does not want to come back in her room again as it always give her weird vibes. Yuko stretched her arms over her head and yawned a little.
“Fresh ai—“ Yuko coughed as her throat became dry from yawning a seconds ago.
“I-I’ll get you a water.” Haruna offer up and quickly went inside the hospital to get a water from one of the vendor machines.
Somehow, Yuko felt happy to have Haruna beside her. Now she sees why the past Yuko is willing to give her life for Haruna. However, a voice suddenly interrupted her thoughts.
“Oshima… Yuko?”
My eyes. My eyes. Arr, I feel like re-reading this fic from the start. xD Again... I tried to make some scenes as sad as possible.
DAMN AKI-P IS TROLLING!!! :]] MAKING MY YUKO GRADUATE!!!
Err, yeah, so I don't want to proof read this chapter cause to be honest, I was crying when writing this. LOL So I don't want to get all emotional again. Tell me if there is any errors or something you spotted.
Topic: I'm With You (KojiYuu fic) 18/10/2011 (Read 49485 times)