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what? KojiYuu
I guess I can't make one, because I don't know anything about that pairing
Sorry
Yoshaa!! Omakasee!! Here's my new fiction...
need long time to finish it
I guess it's little bit long?!
anyway.. please enjoy!!
Forgive my poor english...
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Tell Me Your Honest Feeling
I run as fast as I can…. Once I look at my watch,
“Yabee~” I continue to run….
I am late, eh already late. It was because yesterday I came home so late and my alarm didn’t work for me. And yeah, today I wake up late….
Everybody must have waited for me! I have to run faster! That’s what in my mind.
Finally I have arrived and quickly come in to the room.
“I am sorry, I am late!” everybody’s eyes are looking at me. There I stand and try to catch some airs to breathe.
Then someone runs toward me…
“Why do come late?”
“So-sorry….I woke up late this morning….”
“You should email me, I am worried about you. I thought there’s something happened on your way here…” Then I give her my happiness smile. Sorry to make you worry.
“I am sorry… Because I am already late, I forgot to tell you.”
“Fine. Okay, let’s practice.” then she grabs my hand and pulls me to the crowd.
“I thought something happened with you, Acchan….”Miichan says.
“Yeah… Because you never come late, and if you do, you must tell us, right?” the taller girl adds…
“I am sorry, Miichan, Mariko… Sorry to make you all worry.”
“Ii kara… Okay, let’s practice!” shouts Yuko and everyone gathers to start the pratice.
Today we have exclusive practice for our event next week in Nagoya, together with SKE48… But we appear as mysterious guest even members of SKE don’t know about this. We will perform some of AKB’s singles in there and make the fans love us more.
It has been 5 hours since morning, and our leader shouts to us to take some rests. I walk to my bag and take my towel. I wrap it around my neck. I take my drinks and my eyes are searching for you, and there you are. You sit on the floor and read a magazine. I smile to myself then start walking closer.
“Minami….” I call her. She then switches her view to me…
“Oh, Atsuko…”
“Here….” I give her mineral water. I have prepared two, for me and for her.
“Sankyuu…” she takes it and drinks it.
I sit beside her and drink my water as well…. I rest my head on her shoulder for some minutes, but she ignores me. She keeps reading the magazine… I am curious what she reads.
“Nee, Minami…”
“Hm?”
“What are you reading?”
“Articles.” she looks so serious.
“What articles?”
“Not special one.”
Okay, I am curious, then I move to her back and sit there as I hug her from behind. I place my hands around her waist and I rest my chin on her right shoulder. Okay, I can see what she is reading.
“Eh? My interview?” I said. No response from Minami.”The interview when I finished shot for Q10, right?”
“Yep.”
“I think it’s not interesting reading that… You know Minami, your face is so serious…”
“I just want to know what your comments are after shooting that drama….”
“You can ask me directly if you want….”
“I think it won’t be the same… I prefer to read it on magazine.”
Then I decide to read it too… Bla…bla…bla…bla.... and it comes to my comment about kissing scene in Q10 with Takeru… I widen my eyes.
Q : In one of episode, you had a kissing scene with actor Sato Takeru. What was your
feeling at that time?
A : I was so nervous actually. I didn’t expect any of kissing scene before, and this was
also my first drama that had a kissing scene in it.
Q : And also you played with one of senior actor, Sato-san. Didn’t you feel shy on that
scene?
A : Oh yes of course. I was kinda…. embarrassed with Takeru-kun. But he was so kind
to me. When the director said “cut” his face was just only one centimeter from me
then he showed his embarrass face and it was so cute.
Oh damn. Minami could be mad at me when she reads that. I bite my lower lip… Hope Minami passes those comments.
“Hmm…seems like you enjoy the kissing scene, Atsuko…”
DANG. Yappari, she won’t pass that comments.
“No, Minami you are wrong. I didn’t enjoy the kiss.”
“But by reading your comments, I know you were so exciting about those scenes.”
“No I told you. Trust me.” she remains quite. Minami must be mad… Then I give a short kiss on her neck… “I only enjoy your kiss, Minami….” I whisper to her ear. And I know she is blushing.
“O-okay Atsuko. I trust you.” See? Just by one kiss Minami won’t be mad. Hehe… I love you more…
Ah… I have been dating Minami for a year now, and almost reach two years. Hmm… our anniversary will be on the next week, after our performance in Nagoya. We have a plan to have dinner at my house….And I am the one who cook the dish. Hehe… She asks me to do so coz I am good in cooking.
“Hey you two…no hugging please.” tease team K’s captain, Sayaka.
Both of us look at the taller girl over there, and I grin.
“Would you like to join, Sayaka?”
“Ah no thanks…. Don’t do anything more than that, okay?” she points at us.
“Can’t promise you.” I chuckle. She is just shaking her head and leaving us alone.
“Err… Atsuko, just sit beside me….”
“I won’t. I want to hug you like this Minami.” I hug her tighter…
“We can do it next time…”
“No… I don’t want next time… I want to do it now.”
“But everybody will watch us…”
“I don’t care…They know about us, right? So it doesn’t matter.” I hear Minami sighs. Yeah… I don’t care… I want Minami, and no one can’t bear with it.
Today’s practice has been finished. Everybody one by one starts leaving the building, I just get changed. I see Minami in the room.
“Oh you are still here….”
“Of course. I am waiting for you.” she smiles.
I am happy she is waiting me. Then I grab her hand.
“Okay, let’s go home.” she doesn’t give any response.
“Minami? Do you hear me?”
Then she raises her head and looks at me.
“Atsuko….I….”
“Hm? What is it?”
“I……I…..”
“Yes, what is it Minami? Don’t make me curious.”
“Can I…..can I get a kiss from you before we leave?”
Oh…. she asks for a kiss huh? Phew Minami…. You don’t need to be that nervous, I am your girlfriend, right? You look so cute with that face...Hmpfh…
I smile as I move closer to her.
“Why are you so nervous? Just ask me and I will give you.”
“I tried.” she is blushing. The embarrass Minami, is so cute!
“I can’t guarantee you if something more than a kiss will be happened.” a naughty smile appears on my face. She remains quite and her face looks even redder…
I touch her soft lips and press my lips on it. I start with a slow kiss and she replies it… I move forward and push her slowly… I can feel her hands are wrapping around my waist, we twist our tongue inside and make the kiss is in full passion… I suck her upper lip then after that I move to her lower one…. I lick her chin and down to her neck… I kiss it softly and come back to her lips… Then I end up the kiss…Time to breathe. I look at her face, her eyes, her lips and I can’t stop myself for not kissing her. It’s so addicted…. I kiss her again and this time is so rough and my kiss goes wild….My hands are moving to her hair and making it little bit messy…. My lips move to her cheek, kiss it softly and her neck. Then I look at her….
“I guess I can’t stop Minami…” I whisper to her. She looks down, I guess she is shy. Fufufu…. so cute…She always lets me do everything toward her. I think I am too active here? But well… I lift her chin up and kiss her lips again. Duh, I wanna eat that soft lips right now… I can’t control myself to not touch her right now… My hand walks on her soft skin, my fingers feel her hot body’s temperature… Try to undress her. I have done unbutton her 2nd button, 3rd, and my hand starts traveling inside of its….I want to touch her more and make her can’t forget about me… I want her to feel my love through my fingers and make her just thinks of me… The only me who loves her this much….
“Please Atsuko, don’t…”
“I’ve told you Minami, I couldn’t stop….” I said as my fingers are still traveling around her chest…
“Yeah I think I put it he-”the door suddenly opened and there are Miichan and Mariko. Minami then quickly fix her shirt and look so nervous. They look at us with surprising looking… Miichan suddenly closes her eyes with her hands as Mariko turns around.
“We-we are sorry! We didn’t mean to disturb you!” Miichan walks slowly to the table and takes something there.
“Hehee… Wasuremono….”she puts her watch and she giggles as she still closes her eyes…
“P-please continue! Hehe…” BLAM!
“Uwaa!!” Minami squats to the floor.
“What’s wrong Minami?”
“I-it’s so embarrassing!”
“Hehe… Just don’t think about it….” then I squat beside her… Stroke her hair.
“Aahh… I guess we can’t continue Minami….Maybe next time.” I say as I wink at her. She nods….
I grab her hand and help to stand up. “Okay, let’s go home.”
“Yeah…” she takes her bag and we walk home together.
Today we also have practice and Minami picks me up. I was surprised this morning she had been already inside my room.
~Flash back~
I am still on my bed, dreaming. My dream was so beautiful, it was only me and Minami.. We lived in the world just the two of us. Oh, so beautiful dream… But then I woke up as someone is shaking my body.
“Minami?” I can hardly open my eyes.
“I don’t want you to come late again today. Okay, hurry up.” Minami pulls me so that I sit on my bed now. But still closing my eyes.
“Let me sleep~” I come back to lay down to bed, but Minami pulls me again.
“No…no…. You have to wake up… We don’t have much time Atsuko….” she cups my cheek….And slowly I open my eyes.
“Okay, 5 minutes Minami….”
“No! You can’t sleep! Alright Atsuko… Stand up.”
“I can’t…Please help me to stand….” I cover my mouth as I yawn… Minami grabs my hand and try to help me to stand… Maybe I am too heavy?? LOL I can see Minami is trying her best to pull me up. And then with her full power, finally she can move me but it’s too powerful so that both of us are falling.
“Itai~” Minami rubs her head… Then she looks surprise as I fall right on top of her.
“Sorry Minami… You are my pillow now.” I chuckle. Thanks to her I don’t feel hurt.
She is blushing…. Kawaii!! Then my naughty mind is coming again.
“Nee, can I request a kiss from you Minami?”
“W-what?”
“I’d be happy if I receive one from you…. Come on. And I promise you I won’t sleep again….” I whisper to her. Haha… I make her nervous again! I enjoy it very much!!
She looks so confused, doesn’t know what to do. Yeah, since it’s always me who kiss her first. Guess I don’t have any choice, I give her a short kiss on her lips.
~End of flash back~
We walk together to the theater to practice and hold hand each other…. I am so happy! I guess I am the happiest person in the world!
Then we have entered the room and there are some members.
“Wow… how was yesterday?” Miichan asks as she gives us want-to-know smile.
“You ruined it, Miichan….” I pout.
“Hahaha…. sorry Acchan, I don’t know you two were still there… Just tell me if you want to do that thing again, I won’t come back to take my forgotten things.” she laughs….
“Okay,okay listen! We only have some days until our performance!! Let’s practice seriously today!” the leader shouts and claps her hands. Everybody starts gathering… The music is playing (PonyShushu) and everyone starts dancing…
After they practice some songs, aki-p appears.
“Hola!” all eyes are on him. Coz it’s so rare he is coming to see us practice.
“How’s your practice?”
“Little bit tiring…” answer some members at the same time.
“Well, today we have special guest! Please welcome!! Ray!!” he shouts as a girl with long hair comes in…
“Hello all…”
Eh? That singer Ray?? What is she doing here?
“Well minna… I think you have already known her, right? The charismatic singer, Ray… Actually she comes here to see your practice for upcoming event. It just coincidence we met in front of this building and she said she wanted to see your practice.”
“Hai! I want to watch how the top Japanese girl band, AKB48 practices.” she smiles.
“Well, that’s all… And Takahashi-kun, please….”
“Ah, wakarimashita…” akip leaves us then.
Wow… I never see Ray in person, and she looks so damn gorgeous…. She’s skinny and cute too…
“Hello minna!! Yoroshiku nee!” she shouts.
“Yoroshiku onegaishimasu!” everyone bows their head.
“I’m Takahashi Minami, Team A’s captain.”
What? Why is Ray blushing?? I can see her face is pink! Like, “Kyuuuu~n” Grrhh!! Don’t dare you to touch my Minami!!
“Oh, eh … ha-hai….” she stutters. DAMN! I think I am right! She likes Minami!
Then we continue our practice, and once I see that girl, she is looking at Minami with that “kyuuuu~n” looking! Oh dang!!
“I love the dance!!” she is standing up and clapping her hands.
“Let me try!” she walks closer to Minami.
“Is It okay?”
“Yea~” she smiles. Buh, don’t try to be cute in front Minami!
We are dancing RIVER, and for this charismatic singer and looks so gorgeous, likes to try it? Don’t kid around… I guess she just wants to attract Minami’s attention.
Not long, this singer is falling.
“Itaaaaaiii~”
“Ah are you okay???” Minami helps her stands up. I can see Rai is smiling. So you lie to Minami? Oh very good! I guess I can’t hold my self! I need to slap this girl right now!!
“I think I’ve sprained my legs…” said her as she is pretending to be hurt.
I can feel my head is burning, my blood is boiling!
Then I see Ray rests her head on Minami’s chest as Minami helps her to stand! Graaahhh!!!!
“Please hold your self Acchan…” Miichan comes closer. “I don’t like her too…. I think she likes Takamina, beuh! Her way to attract Takamina is not cute at all… It’s annoying.” Miichan tries to calm me down….Guess I can hold it. I won’t be mad here, if she knows who I am…
They are going to the dressing room, but I can’t follow I still have to dance with the other.
Okay, they took so long now… I need to check.
“Should I accompany you?” asked Miichan.
“No, thanks….” I leave the room and walk to the dressing room.
There I can hear some voices. I peek from the window, and WHAT AM I SEEING INSIDE????????
That Ray is hugging Minami with her smile and Minami lets her do that??? Ray then quickly kisses Minami’s lips.
Oh nice!! I have to kill this girl right now!
I open the door harshly as they look at me. I know my face is like HULK right now… I don’t care… I need to kill this bitch!
“At-Atsuko?” Minami seems so surprised.
“What are you doing here, M-I-N-A-M-I?”
“Hey, don’t talk like that to Takamina…” Ray try to defend as she wraps her hands around Minami’s body.
“Could you please don’t touch her?”
“Why should I? Who are you??”
“Please Atsuko…Listen to me! I can explain!” Minami is panic now.
“Oh, you don’t know me???” I ignore Minami…
“I do. You are the worst dancer I’ve ever seen!” said Ray. My head is booming and I can feel smoke comes out from my head.
“WHAT YOU HAVE JUST SAID?” I push her body…
“HEY WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE??” she pushes me back.
“Okay, enough you guys! Please!!” Minami tries to separate us.
“Don’t touch me, Minami! Let me kill her right now!!”
“Oh you wanna kill me? Great! I will take your spot in AKB then!” she laughs.
WHAT? Then I slap her face, then she slaps my face too…
“Please stop Atsuko! Ray! Please!!” Minami is screaming, and not long after Miichan and Yuko comes. Maybe they heard Minami’s screaming… They help her to separate me from Ray.
“Acchan, yamette!” screams Miichan as she holds her friend’s body.
“Let me off, Miichan! I need to kill this bitch!”
“Easy Acchan!!” Yuko helps Miichan….
Finally, they could pull me back and we are in dancing room now. I sit on the chair there.
“How do you feel?” ask Miichan.
“Bad.” I simply answer her.
“Acchan… Just forgot it, okay?” says Yuko. Then I see Minami and Ray comes in. Minami looks at me and I don’t want to see her right now. I look away. Miichan and Yuko are sighing. I stand up and grab my bag.
“Where are you going?” ask Miichan.
“Sorry guys, I think I am not feeling well today. I wanna go home.” I faster my step then leave that room.
I sit on my bed and rest my back on the wall… Try to forget today. But I don’t understand why Minami let Ray to kiss her? More over its on her lips?! How cruel! I am so hurt here…. I feel the pain on my chest, the pain because of betrayal. Should we break up? I guess Minami likes Ray and Ray likes Minami… I don’t have any right to stay with someone who doesn’t love me anymore. Yeah… I think it’s better for us to break up…
Today is our performance in Nagoya. I have not talked to Minami yet since that day. In practicing too, Ray kept visiting and she behaved like Minami’s girlfriend, and everybody feels being disturbed. But Minami can’t do anything….
When MC shouts “AKB48” the crowd starts screaming!! We are out and singing RIVER. SKE looks surprised too and so do the fans. After RIVER, we continue to sing PonyShushu, and the last one is HebiRote. Then, the show has finished.
In the back stage I decide to talk to Minami…. I approach her.
“At-Atsuko…” she seems surprised.
“I am tired being like this….”
“Yeah me too…”
“Okay…Let’s break up.”
Siiiiiiiing. No response.
“I know I can’t be a good girlfriend to you…. I always force you and might be troubling you every time…” still no response from her.
“I have been thinking this every day, and I think this is the best for us, Minami….” I could feel my eyes are teary, and it starts falling.
“And now… now…” I am sobbing. “….now you have had better person beside you…. and you don’t need me anymore….”
“At-Atsuko….”
“Takamina!” there she is… She appears on the wrong timing.
“You!” said Ray as she sees me here.
I force my self to smile, “Don’t worry…. I will leave now.” I turn back and start walking. I am going home…
“Nee Takamina, what did you do with her just now?” ask Ray as she is shaking Minami’s body.
“Broken up….” Minami says in low tone.
“What? I can’t hear you…”
“Ray, there’s something I want to tell you….”
>>Atsuko’s house<<
I cover myself with blanket so all parts of my body is covered by it.
“Isk…isk…” I am still sobbing. Tears keep falling… I just left from the event and went home earlier before I could say good bye to other members. I am alone in the darkness, I won’t turn on the lamp… I love being alone in the darkness like this.
Now I am thinking about Minami… I still remember her face at that time when I said broken up. She didn’t give any expression, just stay and quite. Now I know Minami… You actually want to broke up with me…
*sob “Minami…..I regretted for what I had said to you…” I know when I said those thing I was so hurt, but I had to do it for Minami’s sake, for Minami’s happiness.
“Minami….I need you. I miss you….I can’t live without you….” I say in sobbing.
It’s better for me to hurt myself than I see your tears…. Let me carry this pain all alone…
TOK…TOK… I heard someone knocks the door.
“Acchan….” I heard my mother’s voice out there.
“I have prepared dinner for you….”
“I-I’m not hungry…”
“Ee? What’s wrong with your voice? Are you crying??” she sounds worry about me.
“No… I’m fine.”
“Are you sure you are fine? May I come in?”
“No… I want to be alone.”
Long pause in the conversation.
“Well Acchan… If you have something to tell, Mom will be there to listen…”
“Thanks, ma….” I hear her foot steps walk away.
Then….
“Atsuko….”
DEG! Mi-Minami?
“Atsuko…. can I come in?”
“Minami? What are you doing here??”
“Can I come in?”
“Please go. I don’t want to see you right now.”
“Atsuko please….”
“No. Just leave already!” I shout at her as my tears are falling again.
BLAM. The door closed. Minami is coming in. She walks closer and sits next to me.
“Why is it so dark here?” I don’t give her any answer.
“Atsuko…..”
“Why are you coming in? Didn’t I tell you to leave???”
“I…..worried about you…”
“Stop pretending you care!!” I cover my face as my tears are falling again…
“Atsuko, I am not pretending. It’s real. Real I care about you.” I can feel her hands on my shoulder.
“Don’t touch me!”
“Atsuko please. Let me explain…”
“I don’t want to hear anything. We had already broken up, and you have had already someone you loved, why do you still come to see me? Do you want to laugh at me?”
“Listen to me Atsuko!” I stop my words… I am so tired of this, tired of myself, too tired to angry.
“Do you know how I feel right now? Do you know how I passed this day? Do you know what I really need right now??” I look at her. She looks firm and serious.
“It’s not Ray, it’s you Atsuko….” she holds my hand and kisses it.
“Don’t you know how much I missed you these days? Don’t you know how much I wanted your kiss?”
“Minami…” she wipes my tears and she smiles.
“I am so sorry Atsuko, I have hurt you… But I have to look the situation. She’s Aki-p special guest, I won’t make her angry, so I just let her…..”
Now her reasons really make senses. From the beginning is all my faults. It’s better to listen to her explanation before I jumped into a conclusion. It’s my fault.
“Minami, I am sorry…. I…don’t want to break up…I can’t live without you, and I need you Minami….” I look at her even in this darkness, I could see her clearly… She strokes my hair and uncover the blanket that wraps my body.
“I miss you too, Atsuko…. Really I miss you….” and its for the first time Minami gives me a kiss… I close my eyes, try to feel her first kiss that she gives me. She plays with my hair as her lips are still on mine. I slowly move my hand and put it around her neck… We keep moving our head and I can hear a sound of this kiss… I am happy I can be with Minami again…. I love this person so much….Then I am surprised when suddenly her hand touch my breast.
We keep looking each other, and she is blushing and so do I.
“I….I’m sorry Atsuko.”
“No…need to say sorry Minami….” DEG! DEG! DEG! I can feel my heart beating so fast. How could Minami do that? I know myself is more active than her, but this is the first time she touches it though I never do that to her.
“I know what inside my mind is so dirty!”
“No, no… I am fine with it. So please….” BLUSH. Glad that my room is so dark, she might not see my pink face… Uwahh… hazukashii….
“Is it…..okay?” I nod…. Then she moves closer, she looks in doubt but she continues moving…. I close my eyes and not long after, her lips press mine. She does it slowly and with rhythm. Her hands are on my shoulder, and I place my hand around her small waist… She starts sucking my lower lip and then the upper one….
Then I can feel something warm inside my mouth, she has pulled out her tongue. It starts moving inside, for once our tongue are meeting and twisting each other…. I pull out mine too as I try to move it inside of her mouth and I can feel our kiss becomes hotter. We make some noises as we keep doing that hot kiss…..
Her kissing then goes wild and she pushes me down and now she is on top of my body. She travels around my face with her lips, first she kisses my chin, moves to my cheek, my eyes, nose, and back to my lips. She then kisses my jaw and goes down to my neck… She kisses it as she rubs my neck…
“Atsuko, this is my first time kissing you right? Now I regret it…”
“Eh? Why?”
“For this one year, I have passed this moment, this moment where I could kiss your soft skin… This one year, 12 months I never know your skin is this soft.. I regret it now.”
“Don’t regret it Minami…. Now you have already kissed me, just felt it now…” I smile to her and she replies my smile as she continues kissing my neck, licking it, and marking it. She kisses my lips again and her hand starts moving inside of my pajama.
DEG!DEG!DEG!DEG!
My heart is beating so fast, so so so fast! Maybe she could feel it too…
But I let her do whatever she wants since she is on my top. Her hand has reached my chest and has touched my breast, again. I can’t resist it coz I want it… I really want it…..
Her other hand has unbutton my pajama as we are still kissing. I think she wants to undress me right now… She moves to the right and kisses my right shoulder as she moves her hand to touch my breast again… I can’t stay, coz it tickles. Then I roll over and I am on top of her right now.
“Let’s exchange, Minami…” I say as I kiss her lips… Suck her lips and pull out my tongue and travels around inside of her mouth….I want to take revenge coz she has unbutton my pajama, then my hand starts moving and unzip her jacket and unbutton her shirt inside…. I feel her soft lips and I bite it but not that hard, I can’t hold myself for not biting it…..
Minami’s hand now gets my pajama lower until my elbow and she puts her hand around my neck… Our passion has made us lost our control… I break the kiss as I look into her eyes….
“I love you so much Minami… Please don’t leave me.”
“I love you too, Atsuko… And I won’t leave until I die…” she smiles. I am happy I hear that from her, from someone whom I love so much.
“Happy anniversary…” she adds.
“Yeah…. It has been two yours now, Minami….” I smile…
“Atsuko, you are so sexy…”
“You have always seen me like this, right? Photoshoot and our pv?”
“But that is different…” she says and she rolls her body… “Okay, my turn now…” she whispers to me as she kisses me roughly on lips… I pull her head closer to me as our kiss is going deeper…
That night we spend time together and that will be the happiest time of my life…. I won’t forget that moment and I will treasure it deep inside of my heart as my love for you keeps growing and never decreased.
Maeda Atsuko loves Takahashi Minami.
Forever and Ever.
FIN~
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OMG I am bleeding
I am so embarrassed with my own story..
I read my comics to help me made that scenes
But it's too tiring and difficult
What do you think about 'that' scenes? I have tried my best
I won't include that scene again on my next fic if you don't like it...
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