@anzai : thank you. I have just finished my exam today
yo minna! hehe I can update less than a week! Still can't believe it
Here's the continuation. Gomen if it's bit boring coz it's long
Douzo!
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“Please Takamina-senpai. Don’t cry. I am here. I will be here with you….” I can hear clearly Milky’s voice. She strokes my hair smoothly and full of passion. My hand holds hers and it’s really soft and warm. Then she gently wipes my tears and hugs me again.
Why she did that to me? And why I am so relax in her embrace?
I decide to pull myself off her.
“Thanks, Milky. I am okay…” I say as I stand up. She does too.
“What happened, Takamina-senpai? You don’t look as usual.” She asks. She sounds so worry.
“Nothing. Why are you still here?”
“I passed by and I saw you here…. Crying.”
“Oh… sorry to make you worry. I am alright now. You may go home.” I say as I smile to her. But suddenly she reaches my hands, I am surprised with her action.
“I won’t. Let me accompany you.” She begs me. Why she acts like this? I really don’t understand her. She really cares. I can see it through her eyes. Pure eyes and angel’s heart. She even tighten her hands holding mine.
“Okay.” That’s all I can say. I don’t understand myself why I accept it? Why I can’t say no to her? I still can’t understand. She looks so happy when I say yes.
“Takamina-senpai, let’s go to another place shall we? I will make you laugh and not feel sad again. How?” I nod automatically. She starts pulling me, like forcing me to follow her. I can’t smile as I hate myself. I am the worst. Isn’t like using her just for forgetting Atsuko for now? But it can’t be helped as I can see she is so enthusiast to cheer me up. She is so kind to me, and I can’t make her sad. This is the only way I can make her smile. This is like I am going out with my younger sister. I can’t feel satisfied until she laughs and smiles.
Before she accompanies me home, she takes me to buy some cookies. She treats me. I say I don’t want to eat one, but she keeps forcing me and I don’t have any choice. Again, she smiles and laughs. I feel so happy when I see that. She really has an angel’s smile. She tells me some jokes and it doesn’t fail to make me laugh. Being with her although it’s only for some minutes, I can forget my problem that I have with Atsuko. On my way home, I don’t know if she realizes that she always holds my hand. From the place I wait for Atsuko until now, she keeps holding my hand. Once I glance at her, she really enjoys eating her cookies with the other hand. I look down as I am thinking. Could it be she like me? Oh come on. No… Think positive, she does care with everybody, so its normal if she acts like this.
Here we are in front of my house. I turn around as she releases her hands on mine. I smile to her.
“Thank you Milky. Are you okay walking home alone?”
“No problem, Takamina-senpai. I am used to it.” She smiles. What a soft smile she shows me. “May I have your email?” she takes out her phone as I say yes to her.
“Okay, thanks. I will text you right after I reach home.” She smiles again.
“Be careful, Milky. If you meet bad guys, let me know.”
“You will come and safe me?”
“Yes of course!” I smile as I pat her head. Seems she enjoys it.
“Thanks. You are so sweet….” I blush at the same time. I am such useless. Why am I blushed at this situation?? Wake up Takamina, she’s your kouhei! “I will take my leave. See you senpai…” she then bites her lower lips, looks doubt of something. I tilt my head, confused. Immediately she attaches her lips on my left cheek and runs away. I am so so so so shocked! I put my hand on the place where she just plants her short kiss, and I look at her. She turns her body and smiles to me as my face is redder. She runs like an athlete and she is not seen anymore.
What was that just now? She kissed my cheek? What was that supposed to be? And I hate myself. I am so slow! Why I stay there like an idiot, and accept her kiss? Why? What if she really falls for you, what if?? You have Atsuko, the girl that you really really love. It doesn’t mean you two broke up when she ignores you. You know Atsuko so well, Takamina! She will be back to normal when everything is settled!! And what if she knows Milky kissed you?? She even be more angry than today! She probably asks for breaking up! You want that, Takamina??? You want that??!! Of course not! I don’t want that happened. I love Atsuko, I love her more than everything exist in this world. She is the only girl I can see… The only girl that I really want to protect by all strength. Should I ignore Milky so that she won’t fall for me deeper?
I couldn’t sleep well last night. My mind was full by Atsuko and Yukarin. Where did they go yesterday? What did they do together? How could I sleep when my girlfriend was with her ex crush? I am here in theater to continue practicing. I still not see any signal of Atsuko. I am so early after all…. But I do see some members here.
“Oi.. you don’t look so well today.” Sayaka asks. “Didn’t sleep well?”
“Yeah.. as you can see, Sayaka…” I give her small smile.
“Hmm… you must sleep well. Are you nervous with next event?”
“Little bit….” Well that’s true. Whenever AKB48 or no3b have to perform, I will be nervous. Sayaka then pats my shoulder.
“You are the leader. How will be the others feel when their leader is feeling nervous? Genki daze yo!” Sayaka gives me some courage. I smile as I nod. She smiles too and she gets back to practice with her partners.
Yoshh… she is right! I could not feel this way. I must be strong, so that I deserve to be the leader of AKB48.
Somewhere in the same building.
There are two cute human beings are sitting against the wall. The one is drawing and the other one is playing with her DS.
“Geezz… I always lose!” she bangs down her DS and makes the other girl looks at her angry friend.
“Wow…. Easy. You don’t have to bang your DS down, right?”
“Who cares! I can buy the new one.”
“You can save your money for something else that is more important than a DS, right?”
“You don’t understand, Mayuyu! I always lose!! For how many times I try but I can’t win!” she then looks away and crosses her hand in front of her chest.
Mayuyu sighs. “Calm down, Rabutan. Maybe next time you will win. Here…” Mayuyu takes her friend’s DS and gives it to her. She takes it and puts it inside her bag.
“Eh? You finish playing it?”
“Yea… I am afraid If I will bang it twice.” Mayuyu then chuckles.
Not long there are two girls passing in front of them.
“Why you didn’t come yesterday? You promised me right???” The girl in front of her stops and turns her back.
“I told you I was tired last night, so that I went bed early!” she sighs.
“But you promised me… don’t you know how much I miss you?” says the other girl. Her eyes are teary. Mayuyu and Rabutan just dazed seeing those couple are fighting, and not for the first time. Almost every time they meet.
“Try to understand me, Tomomi! Don’t be egoist!”
“I am not! It just because you promised me, Tomochin….”
“I was so tired last night!! Can’t you accept that? How could I explain it to you?”
Tomomi cries because Tomochin shouts at her. “Why are you crying??? You are such a cry baby!!!” say Tomochin. Tomomi then raises her head and looks at her girlfriend.
“What happened to you Tomochin? Why are you shouting at me??? You changed!!” Tomomi then pushes Tomochin’s shoulder.
“Why are you pushing me???” Tomochin back pushing her girlfriend’s shoulder. Tomomi can’t hold her tears and now she begins to cry….
Mayuyu and Rabutan are looking at each other and thinking the same way. Leaving this place quickly. They then stand up and step out from the room.
“Did you see that??” Mayuyu says as they walk further from that room.
“Yesterday. So it means, yesterday!” Rabutan then covers her mouth coz she shouts so loud.
“Sssttt…..” Mayuyu puts her hand on her lips. “So…. That was real. Yabee…..” Mayuyu bites her lips.
“What should we do, Mayuyu? We’re really in not good position.”
“You are right. If we don’t tell Tomomi, she will be suffering more and more. But if we tell her, we don’t have any right of it. I am so confused!”
“I think Tomochin has changed since she knew Tomomi. Did you remember she dated more than 3 girls in the same time??”
“Yes, I did. She promised Tomomi not to be player anymore. But…..yesterday we…..” Mayuyu then shows her sad expression. “….mou what should we do, Rabutan???”
“I am confused too…….. Okay. For this time, all we can do is hoping they will be back to normal. It’s not our business after all…” Mayuyu nods. And then Mayuyu holds her friend’s arm, and makes her turn around. “What?”
“Because of this thing spends much energy, I want to eat ice cream…”
“Eee????”
Mayuyu keeps forcing her friend to accompany her buy some ice creams. After that they go back to have some practices with other members.
Atsuko’s POV
Today I come a bit late with Yukarin. She stayed over last night at my apartment. We talked about everything since we met rarely so we took this chance to talk a lot. I always think about Minami… Honestly I can’t sleep well last night. I felt guilty. Ya at least I should give her chance to explain… Leaving her like yesterday alone in the night, I hope nothing bad happened after. But she didn’t text me yesterday. Usually she texts me when I am mad at her… I wonder what she did yesterday.
I enter the room together with Yukarin as I see she is right there practicing with the other members.
“Ah, Yukarin!” Jurina calls her partner as Minami turns around and our eyes meet. I look away try to avoid her eyes. I walk to the corner and place my bag there, followed by Yukarin.
“Sorry I am late.” She approaches Jurina. They chat a bit before practicing. I am waiting for Tomochin, because she is not here right now. I do some stretching and once I put a glance on Minami. She continues practicing with her partners and she doesn’t approach me. I wish she does, so that I can talk to her. Honestly I don’t want to be the first who talk to her… It’s just she is always the first who talks to me when we have problems. But now she acts like nothing happened. Or is it because it’s crowded here and she wanna talk to me later? Hmm… I guess so.
I widen my eyes as I see Minami approaches Milky. Milky is holding her feet as I can hear she is saying “Hurt..”. I think she hurts her feet? Minami rubs her feet and smiles to her… Milky then gives a small punch on her arm… Minami just smiles and laughs. She helps Milky to stand up and back to practice. What do you mean Minami? Are you showing that to me in purpose? Oh I see… that’s why you don’t talk to me right now, because she is around right? Fine Minami. You are good. You are nice!! You don’t see me as your girlfriend anymore! FINE with me!! Just have fun with her already!!!
Finally Tomochin is coming. She puts her bag beside mine and she doesn’t look good.
“Hey, Tomochin. What’s up? Sick?” I ask.
“Little bit tired.” She sighs. “Let’s practice, Acchan….” She pulls my hand and starts practicing.
In the middle of practicing, Milky excuses herself to the restroom… When she wants to enter the room, she hears voice.
“Don’t get close to me!!”
“Ehh?? Why? I miss you~”
“No!! Stay……a…..way!!”
“What’s wrong Nyan Nyan? You don’t miss me?”
“No I don’t!!”
“Huhuhu…. So sad.”
“Just go already with him!”
“Hm? Him??”
“You’re partner in your new drama….”
“Aaa…..Are you jealous? My Nyan Nyan is jealous!! Kyaaa ureshii!!”
“N….no!! Don’t talk about nonsense!”
“Ara…. Your face is red… Don’t lie to me, coz I know you love me so much like I do…”
“What a confidence.”
“A revenge from Oshima Yuko. Hahaa….” Milky chuckles listen to her senpais conversations. “Ah, didn’t you see Takamina this morning? She looked different, right?”
“Yeah… I guess her problem with Acchan has not been settled yet.”
“You are right. I never see Takamina down like that. I don’t know if Acchan can make her like that…”
“It couldn’t be helped. Once you really love someone and you have problems that can’t easily be settled, you must be depressed and down. I understand Takamina’s feeling. Acchan’s jealousy sometime is so scary….”
“Aaa…. Are you talking about yourself, Nyan Nyan?” An evil smirk appears on her face. Haruna looks away.
“Sometime.”
“Kyaaa kawaii!! I love you Nyan Nyan!!”Yuko tries to kiss the girl in front of her.
“Mou!! Let go off me!! Yuuchan!!”
Milky is shocked with what she heard just now. Senpai that she admires love Acchan that much? And she cried yesterday was because of Acchan? Without thinking more, she then walked to the practicing room.
“Acchan, I am going home first. I am not feeling well….” Tomochin says as she takes her bag.
“Are you alright, Tomochin?”
“I guess…. Okay, bye…” Tomochin then walks away as she leaves Acchan there alone.
“I guess I have to practice alone.” She walks to the place where she puts her bag. She reaches her mineral water and sits there.
“Where’s Tomochin?” suddenly Sayaka approaches me.
“She said she was not feeling well. So she went home to have some rests.”
“Oh…. Gezzz… These day are so many of us sick. Yuki, Sasshihara….”
“Yukirin is sick?”
“Yes. Just now Sae excused herself to accompany Yukirin to see doctor. I hope everyone will just be okay… We will have this performance in this short time. We should be well prepared.”
“Yeah.. I hope so too…”
“Not only them, Takamina too… I guess she didn’t feel okay. She said she couldn’t sleep last night. Arrghhh!! I wonder what made them sick!!” Sayaka then leaves me there.
Minami didn’t feel okay? What happened to her?? Is she sick? Although I am mad at her right now, but I still care. I wonder if she’s alright. I really want to talk to her right now.
“Can we talk?” I am surprised as this person suddenly is standing in front of me. I nod and she leads me somewhere outside.
“What is it?” I can hear my voice is so cold. It’s just because Minami always spends her time with her only. That makes my heart hurt.
“Let’s get to the point. I won’t forgive you if you make Takamina-senpai be sad.”
“Eh? What do you mean?”
“I know everything. I know you have special relationship with her….”
“You don’t have any right to get involved in someone’s problem.”
“I don’t. I just can’t see Takamina-senpai be sad like that everytime. If you make her cry again, I will take her away from you. I am serious. I love Takamina-senpai.”
She is so straight. And what? She loves Minami and wants to take her away from me? You are great!
“Huh?”
“She doesn’t deserve you. I still can’t believe you can do this to the kindest person like Takamina-senpai. I don’t know why she could fall for you.”
What the hell is she saying? Saying something like that as if she understands us. What is her business by the way? She is just an outsider and she dares to say that to me? How cool.
“What do you know about me and Minami? Mind your own business! And yet! Just take her!! I don’t mind!!”then I leave Milky there. In rush I go to the toilet and wash my face. What was that? She challenged me?? FINE. Just take her I don’t need her though!!
The door opens and I can see clearly from the mirror who it is. I turn around and give that person very sharp eyes before leaving the rest room. She grabs my hand as I want to go out.
“Wait Atsuko. Finally we can talk here.”
“Let go off me!!” I push her body.
“Atsuko……” she just stares at me, confused.
“What? Still care about me, huh?”
“Yes of course. You are my girlfriend…..”
“Not anymore!!”
“Eh? What do you mean, Atsuko? I don’t understand….” She walks closer to me as I step back slowly.
“Just go with that Milky girl!! I don’t mind!! We finish!”
“Eh? Wait wait wait…. I don’t understand Atsuko. Okay… I guess we need to talk, okay? Calm down.”
“I don’t want to talk to you! I don’t want to meet you!! I hate you!!!”
“Atsuko, what’s wrong?” she holds my hand as I push away her hand.
“Don’t touch me! Listen…. We are over! I am tired with all of this! I want to end it now! Don’t disturb me!!”
I see her eyes are teary as she holds it for not falling. “Atsuko…….” She keeps calling my name and yet she can’t hold her tears as she is crying right now. “Why Atsuko? I didn’t even make any mistake. And you……..ended it suddenly without listen to me first.” She wipes her tears.
“I’m with Yukarin now. That’s all….” I lie to her. She is really shocked when she heard that.
“Are you…..serious?”
“Yes. I am wrong I think I don’t love her anymore, but actually I do.”
“No….no….you are lying. I know you don’t love her Atsuko. You don’t.”
“Why you don’t accept it already, huh? You have Milky! You love her, and she loves you!! Why you want to keep our relationship?”
“Atsuko, who loves Milky??? She’s just not more than junior to me! The one I love is you….” Tears roll on her cheek and its much.
“Enough!! I don’t love you. From the beginning, I don’t love you!! Now leave me alone!!! We are over!!” I go outside and slam the door. I run to the corridor far from that place. I stand against the wall as I am crying too…. I cover my face with my hands. I feel so guilty for what I say to her. It’s really not coming from my heart. Various thing that just happened drove me crazy. Maybe Milky is right. I don’t deserve Minami. I will always make her sad and suffering when she is with me… I think Milky can do better than me. Though she really loves Minami…. I hope this is better for us…..
Minami pov
I can’t believe she said that thing to me. Am I dreaming? No I’m not. It’s real. I and Atsuko are already over. What should I do when she’s not around? I feel like don’t have any motivation anymore… Everything I do, dancing, singing, those are for Atsuko. She is my motivation…. Because of her I stay in AKB48. But…..we are not even friends anymore. She hates me now and yet I am so heart broken when she said she was with Yukarin. Baka Takamina!! She didn’t love you from the first…. Poor you. She pitied you, Takamina…..
“Takamina what are you doing here?” I heard Miichan’s voice but I don’t give any respond. “Eh? Why are you crying?? Tell me whats going on?”
“Miichan……I……”
“Yes? Just tell me, I will listen….” She puts her hands on my shoulder. My eyes start teary again and tears falling again.
“I am confused….. I……don’t know what to do….. I really love her Miichan… I really love her…..” I cry so much now as Miichan looks so worried about me.
“What happened between you and Acchan??” then I hug her tightly.
“I love her so much Miichan……. I really love her……..But…..she has left. She left me alone….. What should I do?” I bury my head on her shoulder as I am crying so much on it. Miichan’s shoulder is so warm as I feel enjoy there. She strokes my hair as she whispers some words to courage me.
Day by day I pass without Atsuko’s smile and her embrace. Everyday I have to enjoy the view when Yukarin embraces her, it’s almost everyday when we get our practice. She shows her soft smile to Yukarin like wanting to show how much she loves her. Little punch Atsuko gives to her whenever she tells something funny doesn’t look hurt as she enjoys it. I feel my heart hurt when Yukarin whispers something to her ear as she laughs then her face is redden. I still can’t believe Atsuko has forgotten me that fast… Or maybe it’s true that she never has that feeling toward me in the first place. If I am somebody else, I must be mad right? But seeing her laugh, seeing her smile I am so happy as before I always see her sad and cries since Yukarin rejected her. I realize that my love is not only for having her, but her happiness is everything to me though I can’t have her by my side. Sounds pity right? Yes, I am so pitiful. But I have never once felt regret. I am happy I can fall in love with her, I am happy I can make her smile and laugh. That moment would be unforgettable one for me…. I will keep it deep inside my heart.
“Tomomi!!” she approaches the girl name Tomomi. “Ara…. Why are you still here?” Sayaka asks Tomomi.
“I just finished practicing, Sayaka. Why do you ask that??” Tomomi chuckles.
“Oh really? Ah, I didn’t see you during practice. That must be I was too concentrate…”
“You were.” Tomomi smiles.
“Ah right… could you please hand this to Tomochin?” Sayaka gives Tomomi plastic bag. Tomomi takes it.
“Hm? What is it?” asks her as she is identifying what it is.
“Fruits and some medicines. At first I wanted to hand it by myself, but I guess I can’t… I forgot I have appointments with someone at GYM.”
“Eh?? Medicines? She is sick???” Tomomi sounds worried.
“Eeee??? How come you don’t know?? I think you must be the one who know it right?”
“I don’t know……” she then remembers their conversation before. “…..or I did.”
“Can you hand this to her? Please?”
“Ah, yes… no problem.” Tomomi smiles to her. Sayaka then says thanks and she immediately excuses herself. Tomomi quickly heads to her beloved home.
Arriving there she can open the door house as it’s not locked. Tomomi thinks that Tomochin is not alone right now… When she closes the door, she notices pair of shoes there. That’s not Tomochin’s nor their parents. Coz she can’t find any shoes of Tomochin’s parents’. Someone is visiting? She thought. She walks slowly to Tomochin’s room as she can see Tomochin is sitting on her bed with someone else. Someone she doesn’t know. Tomochin smiles to that girl and she strokes Tomochin’s hair. Tomomi can’t move her feet to enter the room as she wants to know who that girl is. She is not AKB’s members though. She feeds Tomochin porridge and Tomochin looks so happy. She cleans the edge of Tomochin’s mouth…
“Get well soon, okay… I have some plans to do with you….” The girls says as Tomochin nods.
“You are here to take care of me, I think I will be better tomorrow.” Tomochin smiles. The girl smiles shyly.
“What is that just now… You say playful words again? I won’t fall for that!!”
“I don’t. I am saying the truth you know~”
“You show that face again… I really want to kiss you right now….”
“Just do it….”
“Eh?? Is it okay? You are sick….” She nudges Tomochin’s elbow.
“So what?? If you don’t want, it’s okay…”Tomochin pouts.
“Ahaha… okay..okay… I won’t take any responsible if you get addicted….”
“I wish I do…” the girl moves closer and she kisses Tomochin’s lips. Full of passion. They don’t notice the figure who holds her tears in back door, seeing those scene. The plastic bag she holds is falling and make Tomochin and the other girl looks at the door. Tomochin is shocked when she sees Tomomi is standing right there holding her tears.
“To….Tomomi…..”
“I…..I am sorry. I……I am leaving.” Tomomi runs away and leaves the plastic bag there.
“Who is that Tomochin? Your friend?” Tomochin looks at the girl and smiles forcibly.
“Yes. She is my friend.” The girl nods and she walks to the door and takes the plastic bag. “I think she comes to pay a visit. She’s such nice friend, right?” she puts the bag on the table. Tomochin just shows her fake reaction as inside her heart she feels guilty. Tomomi has spotted her kissing with another girl. She can’t chase her up as right now there is another girl visiting her. She wants to chase her, but her body can’t move.
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Today we will fly to Hokkaido because our event will be held in Sapporo in a week. We have to rehearse there and get well prepared. We are at airport and Togasaki-san gives a list of our roommate later in the hotel. And oh my god. I am in the same room as Atsuko. We are roommate. Even we will be in the same room, it won’t change our relationship. We may keep silent each other even until we leave AKB, we can’t back to be friends.
In the plane I sit beside Miichan as Atsuko sits with Yukarin. Day by day they get closer and sometime I am wondering till where they do as a couple? My mind is going crazy as I imagine they have kissed each other… I know I never make Atsuko satisfies, and maybe Yukarin can give her what she wants. I sigh, although its not me, but I always wish for her happiness. I start to accept everything…..
Some hours we spend on the sky, finally we have arrived. We quickly go the hotel…. Arrive at hotel, Togasaki tells us to go to our room to rest. The bell boy leads me to my room. No sign of Atsuko. He unlocks the room and please me to go in. I put my luggage there and lie on bed. It’s tiring. For some minutes there is still no sign of Atsuko. My heart is beating when I think that we will face each other later. I try to think for some words to be said to her when we meet. I heard the door is knocked as I jump off my bed. My heart is beating… It’s her it’s her! I walk slowly to the room and open it.
What a disappointment. She is not Atsuko.
“Takamina san!!!” she enters the room and closes the door. “I will be your roommate!” Jurina says as she is so cheerful. She might know I am so confused now as she knows my roommate is Atsuko. “Acchan has changed her room with me. Now she is in the same room with Yukarin….”
Like a knife is stabbing right on my heart. I think I’m gonna die here right now. Atsuko really hates me huh?? She hates me that much as she doesn’t want to see me. Though I have something to say to her……
“Oh I see… come…come…..”I please Jurina to come and place her luggage near mine. She lies on the bed.
“Aaahhh! I guess I am gonna sleep!!” Jurina says.
“Don’t you feel hungry?” no answer from Jurina. I guess she is sleeping. HAYAI!!
Because I am so hungry I go out to find something to eat.
“Hola!! How is you roommate?” Miichan asks me when we meet in lobby.
“It’s not her.”
“Eh? What do you mean?”
“She changed the room with Jurina. She is in the same room with Yukarin.” I smile to her.
“Don’t show that silly smile! I know you are hurt! Just let it out! I hate it when you pretend.”
“I give up on her….”
“Eh?”
“Yeah… I give up. Atsuko really hates me Miichan….. That’s the fact.”
“You have given up already?? Where is your pride??”
“I don’t have any…”
“Takamina!!” I place my hand on her shoulder.
“Thanks Miichan for always giving me some courage. Thank you so much…”
“Takamina!! Listen….”
“Btw… I am so hungry. Wanna join me?”
“Takami-” She has not even finished yet, I cut her.
“Oh I guess you are still full… Hehe…. Okay, I am going… bye bye….” I leave Miichan alone.
Atsuko POV
If we are not having a fight, if we still together right now, I will be so happy. We are roommate. But the reality doesn’t support me. I don’t know why this thing should be happened. I don’t know how I should face her. Should I smile after I said that horrible thing to her? Do you think she can forgive me? I know from the first I was wrong. I was the one who should be blamed. Yukarin is in same room with Jurina, so to avoid Minami, I begged Jurina to change room and she agreed.
“Why you still can’t forgive Takamina?” Yukarin asks.
“I wonder….”
“Takamina is nice person. You should not treat her like that…”
“I know… I don’t understand either.”
“Hey, try to talk to her okay? You guys have misunderstood.”
“I guess….we can’t go back as we were before… I said something bad to her… I think she can’t forgive me after that day….”
“You won’t know unless you try… I know whenever you are with me, you always think about Takamina right?”
“No I don’t.”
“Yes you do. You can’t lie with it. I can see it, Acchan. Your feeling toward her is strong. Until this time, you still have that feeling to her…”
Hate to admit but Yukarin is right. These days I always think about Minami… I really miss her. I miss her touch, her laugh, and her fail jokes. I miss everything. I am afraid if she ignores me when I try to talk to her. I really miss her…..
The door is knocking as I walk and open the door.
“Do you have time?” asks the girl.
“Sure.”
“Good. Come with me.” She pulls my hand. Here we are somewhere at pool.
“You changed your room?”ask her.
“How do you know?”
“Why? You don’t want to meet Takamina?”
“Miichan, what are you talking about? I don’t understand.”
“Just answer me Acchan!!” I am shocked as I never see Miichan is being this serious. She looks onto my eyes. “Why you can’t answer? Answer me!!”
“Yes!! YES!! I don’t want to meet her!!! Enough with that?”
“Why Acchan? Why you treat her like that? Don’t you think about her feeling??”
“Enough Miichan! I don’t want to hear anything right now.” I turn around and want to go back to my room as Miichan grabs my hand.
“I have not finished yet!!” she holds my hand so tight. “If you don’t want to listen to her, just LISTEN TO ME!!!” I turn around and now I am facing her.
“Listen to me Acchan!!” when she is sure I won’t go anywhere, she releases her hand on mine. “Are you afraid when you know the truth? The truth that Takamina is not the one who was wrong?”
“I knew I was wrong.”
“So? Why you didn’t listen when she wanted to explain?”
“I don’t deserve her. She has Milky…..She can give her happiness…”
“WHO THE FUCK IS MILKY???? I am talking about you and Takamina!!!”
“You don’t need to shout at me!”
“I have to!! I want you to realize it! I want you to hear my voice so that I’m shouting!!” I remain quite. “I hate it when I see Takamina is down. You know she always thinks about you? Do you know that? Do you know how much tears she has spent every day? Do you know how much she misses you? The one who can understand you just her! Just Takamina! Not Yukarin, not me! Don’t you think about her feeling?”
“But…….if she is with me, she will be suffering…..”
“SUFFERING OF WHAT?? Isn’t she happy when she is with you? There’s nothing to be suffered!”
“I don’t deserve her…”
“Stop talking about that! Try to be honest with your own feeling Acchan!! What is the best for you, you decide that! I care with you…..I care with Takamina. I can’t see both of you are like this…. You two are suffering….. you know what? Takamina was so disappointed when she knew you changed the room.” Miichan takes some breathe. “She loves you so much, Acchan. She can do everything just for you. Until now, her love for you is still even bigger. You have to meet her.”
“I don’t know how…. I have said something horrible to her. How could I meet her Miichan?”
Miichan looks like thinking about something. “Okay….Meet me at beach tonight. I will tell you how.” I nod. “Acchan……try to be honest.” Miichan smiles and she leaves me there. I feel like an idiot. What have I done to Minami? After what Miichan said about her, I know we were the same when we couldn’t meet each other. She was suffering, I was suffering. We both were suffering. I felt so guilty for what I’ve done to Minami.
“Takamina, where have you been?” Jurina who just woke up asks me.
“Having something to eat.”
“Why you didn’t ask me?”
“You were sleeping! I did though….”
My phone is vibrating. I read the message…… What is she going to tell me?
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I know it's boring.
btw I have written about a half for next part. I am not sure about it
I will post the next part when I finish my business plan
and hihihihihihi.... I made little drama too for TomoTomo
Topic: [AtsuMina's Series] _other pairing included_ Fifth Update Nov 19th (Read 18861 times)