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Truth
At first it was just a friendly meeting of people who have a thing for writing. Takamina invited us, the chosen ones, to come and join her at the gathering. Many people came and the beginning of our getting-to-know-each-other session was really fun and enjoyable.
I am the person who finds it hard to open up to people and I also have a double personality. I was hurt a lot in the past and bullied so much that when I met these fellow writers I felt I have to put up a different face if I wanted them to like me. It was still me, but more like my other side, which I call Gekikara.
It’s spicy because I love the crazies and I myself am crazy to some extent. I initiated some playful fights and it was really fun, especially because for spectators they looked like real fights. In reality, no one was hurt in the process of fights. I used the creepy laughter, murdering stare, phrases like ‘Nee…okotteru?’ and ‘Bukkorosu!’.
One of the things I always loved about Takamina is that she never was pretending to be who she wasn’t, never tried to show off or mock someone; she always was in her place and always tried to solve arising problems with a clear head, clever thinking. She always put a strong front but I had a hunch she is very delicate inside. I also was a fan of Acchan, always. So later, when I found out the two were dating… I was really happy for the both of them.
Now Takamina disappeared, she ignores my messages, and Acchan appears just from time to time. I feel like we are all drifting apart but the bond, I know it’s still there. What happened to the two, it’s not my job to tell their story, I just don’t think things are going to work out between the two. Back to the topic…
Sae was the first person I got close with there because she always supported me and we soon became friends. She pretends to be a man so I call her by the names she goes: ‘Gakuran’, ‘Youran’ and sometimes add ‘baka’ to her name. We loved this playful banter and it was really fun to just chat like that.
Then one day Mayu and Yuki came and…things changed drastically. From the very first meeting I had this not very good image of Mayu. To me she was just a spoiled brat who was using Yuki to fulfill her needs and to toy around. Yuki… On the first day we already had a friendly face-off and that was the first time I was taken aback by surprise. She had this black aura oozing out of her and she was as good in the fight as I was. I think it was then when she caught my attention for the first time. And if I were to say that later there were times when I disliked something about her, I would be lying.
After the friendly fight was over in a draw we found out some of the writers hated the fights we held and felt disturbed by the mess we did. That was why we left the building and headed to nowhere. We came upon an alley which was far from the lively city areas so it was really good for us to sit and talk.
Yet somehow it all turned into a game. Mayu and Yuki were playing and I and Sae were watching. We felt jealous because the two had a great chemistry and they suited each other, in a way. That was then that I found out Sae has feelings for Mayu; it was still not love but more like a ‘like from the first sight’.
I think Mayu felt guilty for having fun with Yuki while we two were just sitting and staring. She invited us to join the game but Sae was not up for it. I joined them and then I didn’t even notice how Mayu left me with Yuki and went over to Sae. She started the new game with Sae, so Yuki had to put up with me.
Why I say so? She was really reluctant at first but with time passing – thank god – she gave in and we were playing nicely. Things got really interesting though playing games here was not the most important thing. You see, Mayu went to Sae herself, but she got jealous over me playing with Yuki. Where’s the logic? She was the initiator but somehow became the victim? And then she left. Sae went after her. It was then that I finally understood she was a player and that she was using Yuki and manipulating her.
I don’t think I can tell everything… There are so many things to be kept in hiding. After the two left, it was surprising to me when Yuki suggested we go for a walk. We talked a lot, got to know each other a bit more. Even after the four of us met many times in that alley nothing’s changed between me and Yuki. We still were meeting each other and talking and kissing even.
I know it sounds bad but… I dunno the back story of Mayu and Sae but I know they saw each other and ‘played’ behind our backs. Whatever. That is an old story which is better to be forgotten. We all four cheated so in this case you can’t find anyone at fault; well, maybe all four then.
You know, Mayu had a thing for Yuki, I mean, she loved her (I wonder if now what she has for he is love or just not being able to let go). But we all knew she easily got bored – she admitted it herself – so she went to play with Sae sometimes. Of course to Yuki she said she loves only her and spends time only with her.
I actually don’t want to bash Mayu, she’s my friend but… The way she treated Yuki and Sae… She even was talking about bringing me down, making me pay for everything, plans on how to torture me. She said it didn’t matter if Yuki was hurt in the process, what mattered to her was the pain she was gonna give me. And she knew Yuki’s going to go back to her no matter what.
Even Takamina and Acchan found out about her lies and deceiving matters and they kicked her out from our friendly circle. Later she came back, apologizing, saying she had problems in her life. I believe her; I think we all do, just… I had bad things in my life too, really bad things, should I treat people in such a manner too?
Somewhere along the way I fell in love. I was thinking about Yuki every day, I wanted to see her, to kiss her, to nuzzle in her oppai, to hug her tightly and never let go. I wanted to go on dates with her, to watch the sunset, to eat delicious foods with her and just cuddle until the sunrise. Whenever I heard her voice my heart would flutter and I would blush whenever she stared at me with that intense all-knowing look. I never found her actions or words disturbing, and damn she’s so clever, pretty and fun to be with.
Yuki also had a bad past. She was bullied, abandoned by her ex-friends so I think we had mutual understanding for each other because of that (and we still do). She had thick walls built around her heart and didn’t let anyone get close to her as she didn’t want to be hurt again.
I told Yuki that I love her and that I don’t care if she is not mine. What I cared about was for her to be happy. And even now, when we’re just a step away from being an official couple I still care about her happiness the most. She tried to hurt me using cruel words and even some cruel actions but it didn’t work out for her and she understood I was serious. I asked her to give me three years. I said in those three years I am gonna stay by her side and by there for her. She doubted me a lot but so far nearly one year passed and I’m still by her side.
If you think I do so because I promised…it’s only partially true. It’s more because of the way I see her. I love her, I want to be with her, she needs me and I need Yuki too. And I made so many cracks in that wall of hers. She’s slowly opening to me, telling me things, trusting me with her secrets, hopes and everyday life. She trusts me and that is not all.
You see, Yuki broke up with Mayu for a few reasons. There is another I believe but this one I really know. It’s because she caught her lying and she felt like Mayu was toying around too much. I don’t think Yuki could trust her as she trusted me. I never lied to her; I was always true to her and myself. I think in love a person should not possess, should not only take. A person also has to give and show affection and care.
In the beginning Yuki was not able to make decisions herself because it was always Mayu and other people who made decisions for her. With me it’s different. Now she’s smiling more, laughing a lot and enjoying her life. She stopped sulking so much, she doesn’t have her emo modes as much as she did before. She also finally started trusting herself a bit and she became more independent. She knows what she wants and slowly follows it, as I never held her by a leash and I never said things like ‘Don’t leave or I’m going to cut myself.’.
What I really want now is to hug Sae tightly and say that everything’s gonna be okay. I heard she found another tall tower to befriend and being ditched and hurt by Mayu doesn’t mean that your world has come to an end. I want Sae to know I am always there for her as I am there for Yuki, Mayu, Takamina, Acchan and Miichan.
Yes, Miichan is a really close friend of ours and she’s the one I find the most adorable in this friend circle. She’s so sweet, cute; ‘innocent’ and she already had a bad love experience. She was really hurt then but she never lost her poise or cheerfulness and put up a strong front. I really admire that characteristic of hers.
You know, Minegishi-chan was actually my accomplice from the very beginning. She always gave me lots of melonpans, we shared spicy crackers, played pranks on Sae and Takamina. She was, still is and always will be a mood maker.
I don’t know many things about the members of this circle as of yet but there is one thing I certainly know. We are still good friends, all of us, and we all are like a family with strong bonds that are never going to disappear. No matter where we are, what we do, even if we top talking to each other, that bond is never to break and this family is always going to be a crazy family of lambs.
Topic: Love problems! Characters . DISCONTINUED. (Read 13109 times)