The next day, Miyuki arrived at the hospital early in the morning. When she walked into Haruka's room she wasn't expecting to find Haruka's father there. She was a bit startled but didn't let out a sound finding both father and daughter were fast asleep. She quietly tipped toed in, closing the door behind her and putting her bag down. As soon as she grabbed the chair to sit, she heard Haruka wake up. "Mmm, hey." She whispered looking at Miyuki who froze in place.
"I'm sorry I didn't mean to wake you." Miyuki apologized, taking a seat.
Haruka shook her head, "You didn't." She looked over at her father sleeping on the chair in the most uncomfortable way. "I'm surprised he spent the night here." Haruka whispered, not wanting to wake him.
"He was worried about you, I could tell." Miyuki said.
Haruka turned to her and sighed. "I doubt it."
"Really. I was able to see it when he heard the news about..." She stopped herself before saying that word, she didn't want to upset her friend again.
"My pregnancy?" Haruka said looking down at her stomach. She placed a hand over her belly and gently rubbed it.
Miyuki lowered her head, feeling sorry for Haruka's loss.
"If I'd known, I would have taken better care of myself." She kept running her hand in circles over her belly. "Maybe, I deserve it-"
"Don't say that!" Miyuki took Haruka's hand, "don't ever say that, Haruka."
Haruka looked up at Miyuki who stood up from her chair to move closer to her. Miyuki looked down at the girl, raising her hand over Haruka's forehead running her hand over it, moving her bangs aside. "No one deserves to loose their baby..."
Haruka couldn't hold her tears back and began to cry. Sitting up, Miyuki caught her into her arms and held her close again, letting her cry all she wanted. Soon, however, Haruka's father woke up and saw what was going on. He stood up and quickly made his way around the bed. Miyuki moved aside to let him hold his daughter. Haruka cried harder when she felt her fathers arms wrap around her and softly spoke to her, telling her, "it's okay."
Sayaka was up preparing breakfast at her apartment, waiting for Yui to wake up. Last night, Yui ended up making her way to a bar, wanting to drink away the thoughts of Haruka. Sayaka had followed her after she left the hospital, trying to get Yui to talk, but Yui only ignored her, changing the subject to work or anything else that didn't involve the name, Haruka.
Once in the bar Yui ordered shots, strong mixed drinks, and beer after beer. Yui pretty much wasted all her pocket money and Sayaka had to use up all of hers as well. If this was how Yui was going to cope then she let her go all out. Yui was drunk by the end of the night, she slurred her words, stumbled on her feet, and even fell off her chair hitting the floor pretty hard. She didn't feel
It though. At this point Sayaka picked her off the ground and left the bar, with a bit of a struggle.
Hailing for a taxi, Yui tried pushing away from Sayaka telling her to back off, she wanted nothing to do with her. Luckily before Yui almost dropped to the ground the taxi stopped in front of them and Sayaka leaned her against it, opening the back door and helping her in.
The whole ride, Yui kept signing to whatever the radio played, then she began to tell Sayaka some secret from her childhood. Yui just spoke and spoke, never saying a word about Haruka. That was until they arrived to Sayaka's. In front of Sayaka door, Yui stopped dragging her feet and Sayaka almost lost her balance at Yui's sudden stop.
"I-I'm-I'm not going in there." Yui slurred, adding a poke to Sayaka's cheek.
"Why? You need to sleep." Sayaka said taking her key to open the door.
"No-no, no, no, no!" Yui shook her head. "I'm not going in, because I can't imagine how many times you brought the girl I love to feck."
"To what?" Sayaka asked.
"Fwuk! Fuck!" Yui cursed.
"Yui, it's late I can't take you home." Sayaka tried opening her door, but Yui pushed away, stumbling and hitting the wall. She fell on her ass and Sayaka sighed. "I'm not... Going- I'm going home." Yui tried standing up, but only fell right back down and she began to laugh.
Sayaka, took her arm and helped her up. "Yui, come on."
Yui reached her hand out, "okay, help me up, Sayanee!"
Sayaka used all her strength to pick her friend off the ground. Finally getting her on her two feet she dragged her in the apartment.
"You're sexy, you know that." Yui continued to slur her words and poked Sayaka's face, "I bet that's why Haruka loves you."
Sayaka didn't answer, she only continued helping Yui into her apartment, closing the door and getting Yui to her bedroom. Dropping her on the bed, Yui tried getting back up. "I need to get out of these..." Yui began to unbutton her shirt and pants, "I've been wearing this since yesterday." Yui succeed in kicking her pants off and continued to unbutton her shirt.
Sayaka watched her struggle. "Need help?" She asked.
"No, no, I got this!" Yui waved her hand to keep Sayaka away.
Sayaka continued watching how Yui slowly and dumbly tried to get a grip of a button and push it out the hole. She sighed, tired of watching her struggle and instead turned to get some pajamas for her friend.
"Got it." Yui said, excited to have finished unbuttoning one button. Once Sayaka had the pajamas, she threw beside Yui on the bed and knelt down to help Yui. Yui didn't fight her away this time. Yui watched as Sayaka finished unbuttoning her shirt then helped her remove it. "I loved her, did you know that?" Yui asked, her voice sounding innocent like a kid. Sayaka, looked up at Yui, sadness filled her eyes. Instead of replying, Sayaka grabbed the shirt.
"She said, not be be mad at you. She said it was all her fault, but... You went along with it... You didn't try to stop her before, you didn't try to stop yourself... Even when you knew that I loved her." Yui's tears began to form. "How am I not suppose to be angry at you... Hate you for betraying me... You knew how much I..."
Sayaka began to feel worse than before. Yui had a point, she could have stopped this way before, but she didn't, she tried too late. But to Sayaka, she believed Haruka was in love with her and vice versa, that in the end it could have bee the two of them.
"Yui... I." She paused trying to find the right thing to say. "I do love her, i believed she loved me just as much, but... I was wrong."
"Are you sure she doesn't love you? Because I still remember how you two held each other and kissed at the party."
"I was saying goodbye... And she doesn't love me the way she loves you." Sayaka looked up at her, wanting to show her honesty. "She is in love with you."
Yui looked at Sayaka, believing what she said. She then grabbed the shirt from Sayaka's hands and threw it on, grabbing the pants as well she finally changed into pajamas instead of having the suit on for another night. Sayaka helped Yui lay back in her bed.
"We were suppose to run away..." Yui suddenly said before Sayaka left. "I bought plane tickets to surprise her... I guess I'll take the trip myself."
"Yui, I am sorry..." Sayaka said sitting beside Yui. "I should have been a better friend."
Yui only looked up at her, her eyelids halfway closed.
Sayaka turned around looking out her window. "You should fight for her like you said, remember?" Sayaka waited for a respond, but when she turned, Yui had fallen asleep.
Now, as Sayaka finished breakfast, she heard the door to her bathroom slam against the wall. "Guess she's up." Sayaka said to herself. She put breakfast on a plate and took it to the table. Leaving the plates, she walked over to the bathroom finding Yui kneeling over the toilet, barfing. "I have some aspirin." Sayaka said, opening a cabinet and taking out a small bottle. "I'll get you some water." Sayaka quickly went to the kitchen, grabbed a glass of water, and took it to Yui. Once Yui finished puking, she took the water and pills from Sayaka and took them, hoping she won't throw them up.
"How are you feeling?" Sayaka asked.
"Like shit." Yui answered quietly, holding her head. "Can you not talk so loud, please."
"Sorry." Sayaka whispered. "I made breakfast, it will help with your hangover. Whenever you want to come eat, it will be there." Sayaka informed her.
Yui nodded and finished up what was left of the water.
Back at the hospital, Miyuki left Haruka with her father, leaving the two to talk once Haruka calmed down.
"I wish you didn't have to go through the this." Her father said, taking her hand into his. "I'm sorry."
Haruka tightly held onto her fathers hand tightly, forgetting her hate towards him and just enjoying the love he was giving her after all these years. "If I'd known, I would have taken better care of myself."
"Don't start with the what if's, Haruka. It's will drive you crazy." Her father said. He suddenly stood from his chair and sat on the bed beside her daughter. Haruka gave his some room and laid on his shoulder as he wrapped his arms around her, holding her close. "You know I remember the last time I held you like this was also the time I brought you to the hospital." He chuckled. Haruka stayed quiet waiting for him to continue. "You probably remember too... I took you to your first fashion show and I remember you were sitting on my lap when suddenly you jumped off because you said a lady had a pretty dress on." He laughed, as did Haruka. "So, you jumped off my lap and ran for the runway, and take note this was the end of the show so everyone was out parading the clothes. Anyways, you climbed onto the runway and bumped into one of the models!" Her father began to laugh so much remembering the scene that happened next. Haruka remembered it as well and laughed with him. "The model, she fell back and landed on the woman behind her and she fell on a male model and he fell and so on, it was the domino effect." He paused catching his breath from laughing and continued, "once you saw this happen, you got scared and what terrified you the most was the security coming to grab you so you ran down the runway, looking back at the man trying to grab you that you didn't notice the runway ended and you fell flat on the ground."
Haruka laughed more, holding her belly from the pain of the surgery, but she remembered that day being the most scariest thing to happen to her. As her father was about to continue, she heard his laughter die down. "And," he cleared his throat, "I ran to the end of the runway to find you sitting up on the floor, looking up to find me... I got scared when I saw the gash on your head. I remember you were pouting and your eyes were tearing up, but you didn't wail like I expected you to..." He smiled picturing little Haruka on the floor pouting.
"And then?" Haruka asked.
"Your arms stretched out towards me and I picked you up, pressed my expensive necktie on your head and ran out. I hailed a taxi and took you to the hospital. You laid on me just like this while they put stitches on your head."
Haruka, remembered. Pressing her head against his shoulder and gripping onto his arm, she let go of her anger towards him and realized he does love her more than she expected.
The two continued their talk 'til her fathers phone rang.
"They are summoning me." He said in an annoyed tone.
Haruka giggled, as he struggled to get off the bed. Up on his feet her grabbed his jacket, picking up the phone.
"I'll head over as soon as I can." He said before hanging up.
"Is it important?" Haruka asked.
Her father shook his head, "it can wait."
"Go ahead and go, there's not much to do here anyways. I'll be fine, I'll play cards with Miyuki." Haruka smiled.
"Are you sure?" He asked, making sure.
Haruka nodded giving him a smile.
"Alright..." He sighed, walking over to Haruka and giving her a kiss on her forehead. "I'll come back as soon as possible."
Haruka nodded and watched him go.
Just as soon as her father left Miyuki walked right into her hospital room, closing the door behind her. Turning, making her way to Haruka, she asked, "how are you, better?" She smiled at her.
Haruka returned the smile and a nod.
"I'm glad." Miyuki sat on the chair beside Haruka's bed.
"I need your help with something though." Haruka immediately said, her smile disappearing.
Miyuki's smile faded as well, "what's that?"
"I need to move far away from Japan, can you help me do that?"
Yui hung out in the bathroom awhile longer, still having the urge to vomit, but she ended up passing out on cold tile floor for a couple minutes. After those couple of minutes, she woke up again, slightly better than before, and she pushed herself off the floor and onto her feet. The world spun as she walked out of Sayaka's bathroom and made her way out the bedroom.
Now, upon entering the living room, she found Sayaka laid back on the couch sleeping. Turning around to look at the food placed at the table, she began dragging her feet to it. The shuffling sound woke up Sayaka, who hadn't been actually sleeping.
"You're up!" She sat up on the couch.
"Shhh." Yui hushed the girl as she grabbed her bowl and glass of orange juice, taking it with her as, again, she dragged her feet to sit on the couch next to Sayaka.
Yui placed her cup on the floor and her bowl of soup on her lap so she can begin eating.
Sayaka watched her, waiting to see if this miracle soup would cure her hangover.
"Did you eat already?" Yui asked before taking a spoonful of soup.
Sayaka shook her head, "I was waiting for you."
Yui only nodded and placed the spoon into her mouth feeling the warm soup go down her esophagus. She couldn't show how delicious it was since she was still feeling the hangover, but she loved the soup. "I haven't had this since... The party at that random girls house when we were still in school." Yui chuckled, taking another spoonful of soup.
Sayaka laughed remembering all the drinks they had and having no way of getting home. "We got into trouble, but your parents never knew you were hungover."
Yui laughed, "thanks to this soup." She slurped some soup, already feeling better. The laughing had died down and all Sayaka did was watch her friend eat.
"Stop watching me eat." Yui said, not bothering to look at her friend.
"Sorry." Sayaka looked down at her hands running up and down her thighs. "I wanted to say sorry... For-"
"I don't want to hear it anymore..." Yui stopped her. "I'm tired of hearing that word..."
Sayaka dropped her head.
"I can't forgive you or Haruka.... I don't know if I ever will." Yui turned to her friend.
Sayaka could still see hurt in her eyes, wishing she had thought about how much damage she could do to her friend.
"Thanks for the soup." Yui placed the unfinished bowl on the coffee table in front of her. "I'll head home now." Standing up, Yui slowly made her way of the door, leaving whatever she had behind. She still looked ill, but Sayaka let her go.
"By the way, I was serious last night, I'm going to leave the country for awhile. Guess I'll have use of my plane ticket." Yui said before opening the door and walking out.
Later that evening, Haruka's father returned to the hospital to spend the night with Haruka. Miyuki's shift ended, so she decided to make her way home. Being late Haruka's father offered her his driver to escort her home and Miyuki gladly accepted, but before leaving, Haruka's father reminded her about Paris, informing her he would have her plane ticket the next day and everything will be settled when she gets there. Miyuki smiled and gave a nod to him before bidding goodnight. Making her way out of the hospital the driver stood waiting for her beside a black Mercedes with tinted black windows. Just walking towards the driver was intimidating. He opened the door for her and Miyuki jumped in, the man closing the door. For her, it was weird. The man got in the driver seat and looked up at his rear view mirror asking Miyuki for her address.
"Uhm..." Miyuki placed her index finger on her chin, thinking. Did she want to go home or...
"Is it okay to drop me off at a friends place instead?" Miyuki asked.
The man smiled and gave her a nod, "yes, ma'am. Mr. Shimazaki, said wherever you need to go."
Miyuki just said, "oh."
"So where to?" He asked.
Miyuki soon arrived in front of Sayaka's building trying to push herself to go up to the girls apartment and talk to her, but she hesitated each time she got out the car, going right back in. The driver watched her, never did he complain though, while he stood holding the car door open for her. "I'm sorry," she apologized, "you probably need to get home."
The driver shook his head, "it's alright, I'm in no urge to get home." He smiled.
Miyuki sighed, "what should I do?" She asked herself. The driver heard her however and he chimed in. "If I may," he looked at Miyuki as she looked up then gave him a nod. "I suggest you take a deep breath and go for what you want to do, if not wouldn't the outcome be worse if you don't do it, especially if it worries you this much."
He had a point, Miyuki thought. She took that deep breath, stepped out of the car and her legs began to move toward the apartment buildings entrance. Placing her hand on the call button to Sayaka's apartment, she pulled back and turned to the driver, finding him leaning against the car. "I'll wait here." He called out.
Miyuki was glad he would wait for her. She turned back to the call button and pushed Sayaka's apartment number.
Sayaka answered the call and was glad to hear Miyuki. She let her in and waited for her in her apartment.
Shortly, Miyuki was at her door, puffing her chest, ready to speak to Sayaka about the two of them. She knocked the door and say a immediately opened up.
"Hey." Sayaka greeted with a weak smile.
Miyuki quickly noticed it. "What's wrong?" She asked, as Sayaka stepped aside to let her in.
"Nothing." She tried to fool the girl again.
"You can tell me." Miyuki said, slightly Sri king her lower lip out. All Miyuki wanted to do was make her feel better.
Sayaka closed the door, leading her to the living room where both sat on the couch.
"Yui was here. She drank a lot last night and I brought her to spend the night, this morning however she told me she was leaving the country." Sayaka explained. "First I lose Haruka, now my best friend..." Sayaka sighed.
Miyuki felt her stomach drop as Sayaka frowned.
"At least you're here." Sayaka again weakly smiled, but it was a more sincere smile than the one before, reaching to take Miyuki's hand. Miyuki pulled her hand away quickly.
"What's wrong?" She asked.
Miyuki didn't know how to respond, how to tell her she was leaving too and she didn't know for how long. She didn't dare to look up at her, only keeping her head down.
"If this is about the other night-"
"It's not that," Miyuki responded quickly. "Well it sort of is..."
"I know it was fast, but... I want to give it a shot, the two of us." Sayaka tried reaching for Miyuki's hand. However she pulled away again.
"Sayaka, you can't just..." Miyuki some softly, "you can't be over Haruka this quick."
"I'm leaving to Paris." Miyuki blurted, quickly glancing up to watch Sayaka's expression change.
"When?" Sayaka asked.
"It was a last minute thing..."
The two sat quietly. Miyuki waiting for her to say something else, instead Sayaka took a deep breath and exhaled. "How long will you be gone?"
"I don't know." Miyuki shrugged. "This might be good, though."
"How?" Sayaka asked.
"Gives you time to heal from Haruka... Maybe when I get back we can give it a shot?" She tried to put a bright side to this.
Sayaka, however only nodded, still having the same sad expression. "I actually expected that you would help me... I guess I'll have to wait." She smiled, trying to show Miyuki she wasn't as hurt and that her words helped her in some way.
"I will be back as soon as I can." Miyuki smiled back.
Sayaka gazed into her eyes and reached up caressing her soft cheek, "I'll wait then."
Ending their conversation, Miyuki remembered she had left the driver outside. She quickly made her way downstairs and out the building hoping he didn't leave her. Luckily, he was still there.
"Told you I'd wait." He smiled opening the car door and took her home.
It was already late at night, but Yui didn't care, she held onto the bouquet of flowers and walked down the hall to Haruka's room. She was in luck, no nurses or doctors were around and security was outside having a smoke.
Yui walked into the dim lit room, taking gentle steps towards Haruka's bed. Before making it to her, she felt her insides jump when she caught a glimpse of Haruka's father on the chair. She sighed when she saw the man was fast asleep. Again, taking those soft quiet steps, she made it to Haruka side, placing the flowers on the bedside table as quietly as she could.
Turning back to Haruka, she watched the girl sleeping, reaching up to brush away some hair strands from the girls face. "You're so beautiful..." Yui whispered.
Haruka stirred and Yui pulled her hand away, afraid she may wake up. That wasn't her plan. She returned her hand over Haruka's forehead and gently petting her, moving down, closer to Haruka's face. "I know I shouldn't be here, but I'm going away for awhile," she began to whisper to her, "I came to say goodbye... Maybe someday I can bump into you again... Hopefully I can fall in love with you all over again..." Yui leaned closer, planting a kiss on Haruka's forehead. Thanks for the comments I know I took too long, but I finished it! did you enjoy it? More Sadness? My bad... lol If there is spelling errors or random words that dont fit in.. I apologize I really wanted to post it and I didn't want to go over it lmao! honesty!