"I, Yamaguchi Maho will graduate from NGT48. I wrote the feeling I kept in my heart on a letter, and share it with all of you.I really like idol and the group, therefore, I hope the group can change, because I am very painful, and I don't want my important companion have the same feeling, therefore I prepared giving up everything and took an action.However, after I disclosed everything, the director told me "Because there is no charge, so it is not an incident", and blamed me against the company, I have became a victimizer. I am just want to protect the members, and do the activities seriously. And the group where overlook everything, is not the place I think I can continue my idol career.For the un-overlookable problem, the group give me an answer "If you can not overlook, you should graduate, otherwise there is no new NGT48". However, if the environment does not change, I think same thing will happen again. I were enduring, and hoped I could do the best, but the fact is I am just a nobody who can do nothing.I don't know what is more important then human life. I sincerely wish my important companion can be an idol safely everyday.Since I disclosed the incident, there are only (Hasegawa) Rena, (Sugahara) Riko and Mofu (Murakumo Fuka) are still willing to come close to me. Therefore, while I know they have made the decision for the future, I have decide to make an announcement. What I can do for NGT48 is only graduation. To all of you, I am sorry.There were a lot of people supporting me, the people who are the victim suffered the torture I experienced , leave me message, the people who have courage because of me, I am wondering if they are disappointed by this result, I am very sorry about this. I think it is the world people do the right thing, they may not get a return, but I don't think they should suffer.Thank you I am glad there is a lot of people spend their time supporting me, I hope, in the future, they spend their time to do the thing make them happy, as well as, they hope I will be happy.For the fans who support me, I am sorry I graduate from the group like this. There were days I sang and danced, and had handshake event every weekend, and we would say "see you", but my final handshake events will be on 5 May 2019 and 6 May 2019. Let's handshake again after my long absence. I will be happy to continue our "see you", let's talk about dream then.My last day of activities will be on 18 May 2019, a graduation live performance with (Hasegawa) Rena and (Sugahara) Riko together. (Sugahara) Riko who can not participate in the live today due to injury, is undergoing the rehabilitation, for smile once again on the stage. I will be happy if we can show you we can move forward. What I can do is, I should show you the happy face, not a sad face I did, and give you support. Just like all of you helped me, I hope I can give my hand to the person in need.For this incident, I once wish I did not join NGT48. But standing on the stage and perform the live together, and get the support from you, I really feel happy about this, I think it is great to join NGT48. I hope members and fans both can move forward in the future, I hope you can have a smiling face all the time.There is less than a month left, no matter as a person, or a NGT48 member, I hope we can meet again with smile. Please keep supporting."
I, Yamaguchi Maho, will be graduating from NGT48.I am very sorry that I have to say this to all the fans but I wanted to do it while I’m smiling.It took all that I had in order to hold back my tears after hearing the graduation announcements of Rika and Rena.I loved AKB48 and idols but I disliked myself who had fallen in love with idols.I disliked myself for fighting against my parents who opposed of me becoming an idol.But if I hadn’t become an NGT48 member, I felt that perhaps I wouldn’t have to go through these feelings.But I do think it was a good thing that I became a member of NGT48.For those who always stood by my side and supported me, Rena, Riku and Mofu. No matter what anyone said, I believe we did the right thing and because of them I felt protected.I feel that if I had done something irresponsible, I’m sure they would have been upset with me immediately.I believe that we were friends who shared the same purposes and they helped me to believe.And because these three supported me, I want to support them.If I had not become a member of NGT48, I may have never known what true friendship is.Meeting such wonderful friends is my treasure.If I hadn’t become a member of NGT48, I wouldn’t have met all the fans who have kindly supported me.All of you who have gone so far to use your time on me, who thought of me, I also thought about all of you everday.It will always bother me that the final appearance that I would show my appearance was when I made that apology at that time.I thought if the one that would be hurt was me instead of other members but I realized by doing so, I caused many worries for the fans. I’m sorry for making such an appearance.So, with the Final Stage performance, I want to make it through with a smile up to my graduation announcement but when I saw the news broadcast the following day, I wasn’t smiling at all and the image of me crying is what I remember.With the last two handshakes and the Graduation State performance, I want to make you all smile.Just as there are many sad emotions that I’ve shown you, I want to make you laugh in the end.Just as you have all kept me going, this time I want to make you all happy.With these events that have transpired, many people who didn’t know me, have kindly found me.There are also people who tell me that they would’ve wanted to know me.No matter of all the painful, hurtful and sad things that were part of my life, I’m so happy that had a chance to meet you and I thank you for meeting me.Even when I was inactive, your messages, photos, illustrations filled my heart and encouraged me, that it made me happy.I will be quitting as an idol but as a human being, I want to become a strong, kind woman who is worthy of all your love once again.Even if you whisper behind me, I want to live upright and walk down the path that I truly believe in.I want to show you a happy me this time and so you can all receive my happiness and the courage from my efforts because I will work hard to achieve my dream.I won’t tell you to please support me but If you can, please watch over me. That would make me happy.All of you are my treasure.