“Leave me like this and we’re through!” her piercing voice echoed in my memories. After that, my whole world faded into darkness.
“Please! Don’t leave me!” her arms wrapped around my waist, I could feel her lips quiver as she rested her head at the nape of my neck. Her fresh hot tears, “Please…” she begged.
I felt anger boil inside of me, and the next thing I knew…. She was there at the bottom of the stairs.
I was shocked, “that wasn’t supposed to happen” I thought to myself, my legs were shaking as I make my way down, I wanted to run… but I couldn’t. As I took the last step of the stair, a hand grabbed my ankle. “Ren-chan…” I kicked off and ran. The dark corridors where never ending. I could feel my cold sweat running down my spine as I ran from corner to corner. Her voice was haunting me, saying my name like a mantra… As I reached my last corner I saw the door. I griped at the knob, but my hand kept slipping, then I heard a voice calling out for me…it was on the other side of the door, “Reina!Reina!” I held unto the door knob, sobbing.
“Reina! Oi. Wake up…” there was a hand slapping my face, “oi, cut it out…you’re crying..” the hand stopped the slapping and caressed my cheeks instead.
“Uhnn..” I groaned as I opened my eyes, the lights were bright.
“You okay? It’s me Sayu, you know the cutest girl in the world. Well, soon to be sexiest.” She smiled at me, placing a light kiss on my forehead
“Sayu? Wh-what are you-“ I got cut off by her sudden death hug.
“Don’t you remember? We spent the night together…” She lightly bit my ear making me blush.
What?! Spent the night? Seriously? Wait…this can’t be happening.
“Hahaha, seriously Reina…you think I’d spend a night with you?” Sayu pinched my nose and got off my bed.
“You evil bunny..” I mumbled, I sat up and rubbed my eyes
“Here you go..” she gave me a glass of water and sat on the carpeted floor as she leaned on the bed frame.
“Wow, thanks. I needed that.” I placed the glass of water on the floor.
“So, you were having that nightmare again?” she asked shyly, as if scared of me.
“Hn. Yea.” I looked at the empty vase sitting on the porch outside my balcony, trying to erase the memories that kept haunting my sleep.
A minute of silence passed by, “Sayu..” I whispered.
“Yea?” she answered, still focusing on the cartoon show that was hilariously stupid.
“Why…am I always having that dream? Why not our happy moments?” I choked on my own words, as fresh hot tears rolled down my cheeks.
Sayu just kept watching tv, but I know her mind is racing with questions, similar to the ones I asked. I love Sayu, cause even if I was the reason why her bestfriend died.. NO, her first love. As those words echoed im my mind… I could feel my heart ache in pain. But I can’t be like this. Not when she’s around.
“She’s haunting us…” Sayu bit down her lip.
“I can’t stop but hate myself..” I looked at my scars on my wrist. The scars that carry my pain and sorrow.
“But I don’t think, she’ll like that..she wants you to be strong….” Sayu changed the channel, she didn’t dare look at my face.
“I know…but it’s hard. Too hard for me.. she was all that I needed.” I know my words had hurt her, but she didn’t show even the slightest sign of it.
“When she decided to break up with me…she had a smile on her face, I felt angry. But for a moment as she held my hand and apologized, I saw in her eyes. Then I realized, that…I wasn’t the only one hurt here..she was hurt too….my anger…it vanished just like that..” Sayu had a hoarse voice, she wiped her tears away.
“She loved me..but she loved you more. You were much precious.” She took my wrist and kissed my scars.
“So never hurt yourself anymore….” She let go of me and turned back to her tv.
She left me speechless, she knew more about her. She understood her more. She took care of her more. I felt like a jerk.
“Sayu…I’m sorry.” I know we’ve had this talk for a million times. But now, I know why.
Why it was always that dream..why do we always talk about her death. Why.
Our broken hearts shivered in the dark, missing the same warmth that both of us had once owned. Our souls, won’t just let go of her that easily, even as its beating started to slow down. We never let go, we held on to that little piece of memory that burst our hearts open. The little memory that she gave us, the last time she held me. The last time she told me she loves me. The last time she kissed me. The last time saw her…crying face.
I hugged Sayu from behind, burying my face at the nape of her neck.
“Sayu, I love her so much. But why? Why did I do that to her?” I cried.
“She loves you too, Reina…” Sayu patted my head.
“
Daisuki yo…” I whispered.
“
Zutto..” I heard Sayu say as she cried with me, for the first time.
“
Takahashi Ai.” Our voices blended. The pain, sorrow, sadness. Everything.
Ai..are you watching over us?-------
not that way i planned it to be.
but i hope you liked it.
Topic: Are You Watching Over Us? [NOT so One shot-tie] (Sayu POV Update) (Read 9046 times)