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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always be - 01/17
« Reply #100 on: January 18, 2010, 03:08:22 PM »
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I am so going to leave that up in the air for now...
Hey, hey, come back here and give the answer! XD
 
Hmmm are you going to take the 'With You' concept like you did with Target (different main charas and stories in one) or is this a continuous one with same main chara?

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I didn’t think it mattered to you either since you usually hung around Umeda-san
Maimi?

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“What about your girlfriend? I feel bad for doing this to her, I mean she’s one of my best friends…I think we should tell her already"
Risako?
 
The girlfriend is Kanna? And this is from Airi POV?? :dizzy:

So many drama already in chapter 1? LOL

But :cow: for kids fic!

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always be - 01/17
« Reply #101 on: January 19, 2010, 04:39:24 PM »
@ Her Awesome Holiness: Hmmmm....maybe this next part will make things clearer (I hope), but if it doesn't, in my perspective I rather it be like that because then when I do a final, it'll be more satisfying.  However, usually that isn't the case, because I tend to give up the secrecy half way through, dropping hints everywhere  :nervous

@ Chloe: Naw...I feel like leaving that one in the air  :twisted: no no I'm not that evil, the answer is.....KohaSayu

The 'With You' concept??? Well you're just about to find out

Who is who...you'll find out in good time

I'm glad you like this kids one, but thanks to you, I came up with this

With you, I’ll always remember

I was in dance rehearsal, everyone was trying to get back into their work schedules after your accident.  We all tried to get back to our normal lives, in which some have managed to do just fine, but some, like myself was still trying to deal with it.  It couldn’t be helped because I’ve been through enough with you as it is, helped you keep a secret, made promises with, and watched you fall.

Flashback #1

I had just finished recording for a new song and was about to leave the building until I saw them, I was shocked because I thought of my imoutou, thought about how they could do this to her when she placed them in a position of high magnitude in her heart.  I was about to rush up to them and give me a piece of my mind but I was pulled back, and was face to face with you.

“Shhhh!” You put a finger in front of your lips and dragged me away from where we stood

“Hey!! What gives??? Why are we letting them be???” I hollered at you, totally confused as to your actions

“Tanaka-san” you bowed “you can’t touch them”

“What do you mean I can’t touch them, I’m goin’ to giv’em the asswhippin’ of their lives” my Fukuoka accent coming out “how will my imoutou feel??”

“That’s exactly it! How do you think she feels??? You know how she feels about them, she trusts them.  If she ever finds out, she’ll breakdown, she’s fragile” Good point, she was fragile and I became her oneesan so I should make sure she doesn’t get hurt

“Wait a minute!!! You knew???” You nodded your head “So you haven’t told her?”again you nodded “So you’ve been hiding it from her all this time???”

“I’m not the only one that knows, the group knows but they made a promise to not say anything for the moment until we figure out how to lay it down gently.  So in that sense, can you keep it a secret from her for now?”  I didn’t have much of a choice did I?  I don’t want to see her hurt and it seems like you’ve been keeping her the dark, should I tell her???

“Fine” I didn’t know what came over me but I agreed to it “for now…if this gets out of hand, I’m not going to hold it”

“I’ll deal with them, but promise me you won’t interfere” you sounded sincere and when working with you I know you were determined when you set your mind to it, so I nodded my head

End of Flashback #1

Flashback #2


“Tanaka-san!!!” I turned to see Umeda-san running up to me “She got caught again and was dragged away”

I rolled my eyes “Where are they?” I have had enough of this, I’m going to personally talk to them. 

“T-they’re…fighting…physically”

My eyes widened “Let’s go” Umeda-san and I ran to where you 2 were fighting and without wasting time we barged in there and saw my imoutou glaring at you by her girlfriend’s side.  Umeda-san and I were huffing and puffing trying to catch our breaths from all that running “Are you guys okay?” I walked up to my imoutou

“Ask her that question” her voice contained venom in which I cringed ‘If only you know what was really going on.  You’re directing your anger in the wrong direction’

“Come on let’s get them cleaned up” I helped my imoutou and her girlfriend up, making sure I held onto her girlfriend a little tighter indicating my displeasure. 

“I expected better from you, why would you do this? I thought you would consider me as a friend, but obviously not if you’re hurting the people I care about” she spat before heading out with her girlfriend.  Before leaving I looked in your direction and gave you an apologetic look for her behaviour

End of Flashback #2

Unexpectedly, I felt my eyes beginning to burn as I recalled the memory.  I quickly shook it off, I was at dance practice and I really shouldn’t be crying at this moment, it wasn’t good for the others to notice it because we were all dealing.

“Hey” I turned to see my girlfriend walk up to me, leader of our group, one Takahashi Ai “Are you okay?” I nodded my head “Are you sure? I mean I understand if you aren’t, I too miss her”

Tears were forming again as I notice how frequently they have fallen from time to time since “Ai-chan, I made a mistake in this all too and now…*sniff* now…” I couldn’t finish my sentence as one lone tear drop fell

Ai wiped it away quickly “You did the best you could, you were torn too.  Don’t blame yourself, I’m pretty sure she doesn’t…they don’t”

“*sniff* If…if only I persuaded, was persistent…” I recalled the time Saki-chan, Umeda-san and I talked to you about it.

Flashback #3

It’s been awhile since your fight and over the last few days I had been thinking, backing out if I must say and I needed to tell you right away.

I went around looking for you and found you in a conversation with Saki-chan and Umeda-san as I walked in “Hey” you guys stopped talking and greeted me back

“I think we need to talk” I told you and I guessed you knew what I was about to say because before I even spoke up you cut me off

“No! She’s not to know…at least not right now! It’ll hurt her, devastate her” Yep you know what I wanted to talk to you about and I assume they were here about that too.

Boy this is going to be hard “How are your injuries?” I diverted the subject for now because the atmosphere was getting very unpleasant

“They’re fine, I’m fine” you responded in a low voice

“Did you really have to beat her up?” I asked, it wasn’t like you to beat anyone up, you usually had a good tolerance

She looked at the floor on the side, and I could see the bruise that formed at the corner of your lips “I caught them again”

“So? That’s not the first time you did” Umeda-san shot obviously we were all curious as to what caused you to blow up

“I confronted her again…told her that she shouldn’t be doing this… she ignored me…she…she…” we could sense you getting upset, tension within you rising “she accused her of doing the same…with me.  I denied it…she saw right through me…and taunted me about how they were together and that…that I’ll never be…because she loved her…and not me…she then laughed and …and said that she won’t let go nor will she stop” I felt bad for you, I honestly felt bad for you because you’ve been protecting her, unknown to others but our little group knew, heck your whole team knew except her.  I was speechless so to speak I didn’t know how to respond to your tall, airheaded at times, quite strong and right now foolish figure, foolishly in love that is.

“You’ve got to tell her” Saki-chan was the first to speak up “You’ve got to tell her” she repeated in a louder tone

“I’ve got to do nothing…nothing but protect her” you responded

“Even if it means getting yourself into fist fights? Getting into trouble with the agency??? You can’t do this to yourself! Why are you doing this?  She has a right to know” Saki-chan flared

I walked up to Saki-chan and placed my hand on her shoulder “Saki-chan, calm down” I knew Saki-chan was really upset because she turned away and started taking deep breaths “Saki-chan has a point though, she has a right to know, you can’t hide it from her forever, one day or another she’ll find out” I warned you

“Better another then” you scowled in which at that moment I let out a sigh.  There was no reasoning with your stubbornness on active at the moment

“You’re a hopeless case but I can understand, I just hope you know what you’re doing” I turned leaving her with my last remark.  You were stubborn, foolish, crazy, idiotic and any other word to describe your moronic behaviour but I knew you did it for her and I felt bad for not helping you, for wanting out.  You’ve worked so hard as it is to keep things under wraps, do I really want to be the one that destroys all that?  Do I want to be the one that brings the bad news to my imoutou? I too was confused as to what to do, I didn’t want to see my imoutou hurt either but I didn’t want to see you in pain.

End of Flashback #3

“I should’ve been more persistent, I should’ve broken my promise to her” I hollered out.  Ai had taken me away to a secluded room as I retold her the things that have happened that I didn’t tell her before.  I only told her the basic overview but never in detail of what happened

“Oh Ren, you were torn, don’t blame yourself”

I couldn’t help it though, it would’ve been easier if I hadn’t gotten close to you, because if I didn’t I wouldn’t have hesitated and told her from the very beginning when I first found out.  If I told her right from the start, then she wouldn’t have felt the pain she does now.  If I told her earlier, she might not have ran out of the agency that day.  I held onto Ai tightly, I miss you and I know Ai does too, we’ve had the chance to meet and get to know you and make those wonderful memories together.

That’s what is left of you now though, memories, memories that I could smile at but the thought of your absence, I was brought back to crying again.

Flashback #4

I had been waiting in the main lobby for Ai right after our talk.  Not long after I saw all 3 of you walk out and by the looks of the other two, there was no resolution, but my attention was diverted when I saw her running out of a corridor…crying?  I heard you call out for her and started to run after her, Umeda-san and Saki-chan in tow.  Things didn’t look okay so I gave chase after the crying girl and our little group.  I managed to surpass Umeda-san and was gaining on Saki-chan when I noticed her in the middle of the road, due to the crazy honking noises.  My feet stopped moving as I freaked out praying that she’d move but it seems like she was just as shocked as she stood in the middle of the road with a truck fast approaching.

You noticed too that she wasn’t moving as I saw you speed up but that’s when I felt like the world had gone in slow motion.  I was relieved at one point when I saw you push her out of the way…but at what cost.

Saki-chan, Umeda-san and I heard the truck’s tires screeching to stop and watched as it hit you full on, throwing your body up in the air a few feet away.  I was focused on the events and was sure when you landed with a thud, it echoed in my ears.  It was the loudest thing I’ve ever heard in my life.  The 3 of us snapped to reality when the truck driver slammed his door.  We all ran up to you, calling out your name, tears falling out of our eyes looking at the blood flowing from your mouth

I saw your mouth twitching, speaking to us in fact as Saki-chan, who had held on to your head cradled in her embrace, move closer to hear “T-Tanaka-san *sniff* she’s calling out for you”

I got closer as you coughed a bit to regain more of her vocal chords “T-Tanaka-san, c-check on her…”

“Don’t worry *sniff* you just hang in there.  Don’t talk now, save it for later *sniff*”

“T-Tanaka-san, check on her…and…and take her away from here” my tears were flowing even faster, even at a time like this you only cared about her “Remember to take care of her for me *cough*”

“Ren!” I looked up and although my vision was blurred I knew Ai was calling out to me.  I saw her figure and others come closer and could hear the gasps when they saw you lying there

“Oh my god!”
“Oh shit!”

I wiped my own tears and got up slowly, I had a task to do and I was determined to try to fulfill as much as I didn’t want to.  I saw the other members crying in each other’s arms, and some freaking out shouting constantly for you to stay strong or not leave.

I moved through the crowd and found her still on the ground as I jogged up to her to check that she is alright.  When I grabbed her shoulders, she looked up at me so I pulled her in for a hug, relieved that she was alright physically

“I-I’m fine oneesan…I’m…I’m just shocked” she said in our hug ‘Your fine now but you won’t be later’

I pulled away and gave her a weak smile, tears beginning to fall “T-that’s great!...L-let’s get you…you out of here” I choked out as I pulled her up taking her away from the area

“W-what’s going on over there?” she pulled her hand away from my grasp and started heading towards the accident

I grabbed hold of her arm again “L-let’s go! C-come on!” I tried to pull her away once again

She got out of my grasp again “Who just saved me? Who just got hit?” I didn’t know how to answer her or if I should answer her but I guess because I didn’t answer she started walking towards the accident

“Don’t! D-don’t go!” I tried stopping her, but honestly I couldn’t do it, she’ll find out anyways as I watched her leave.  I had to get myself together because I knew she’ll need me when she sees you.  I wiped my tears and ran for it, pushing through the crowd and luckily I got there in time because I caught her before she fell “I’ve got you”

Umeda-sand and Saki-chan looked up at us and I noticed you trying to smile at her.  She moved out from my arms and walked towards you, crouching down to get closer “W-why?”

“D-don’t worry…*cough*” blood had started seeping in Saki-chan’s clothes indicating you were bleeding at the back of your head, blood was also spilling out of your mouth “Everything…e-everything will be…*groan* be alright” you managed to finish

I closed my eyes at the scene in front of me as I felt a pair of arms on my shoulders, I turned to find Ai there crying, I cried in her embrace.  Watching and hearing you guys now was too much for me right now  “*sob* y-you can’t…*sob* leave like this!!! *sniff* you can’t!!! N-not *sniff* not when…when…” she couldn’t even finish her sentence as I turned around to see you holding her hand.

“S-shhhh…I-I’m not leaving…I never *groan*…never will…with you,…with you, I’ll always…be” as if in slow motion, your eyes rolled to the back of your head and closed themselves, hand slipping out of hers and fell to the ground with a thud

Everyone around fell silent for a moment before we all hovered closer to your limp body calling out your name, reacting to what we had hoped was not the case.

“NO!!!” I shouted and turned to cry again in Ai’s embrace.

End of Flashback #4

I was all cried out at the memory as Ai held onto me when we walked back to dance practice “Maybe you should skip it today, take a nap while waiting for me…”

“Tanaka-san!” Umeda-san and Saki-chan ran up to me, eyes were red “We should find her now, it’s almost time” I nodded recalling what they were referring to

“Ai-chan, there’s something I’ve got to do, we’ll meet later, you remember where right?” She nodded so I gave her a peck before I ran off with Umeda-san and Saki-chan.

We walked up the stairs to the only place we knew she would be, it was a habit that she developed since your death and I can’t say it worried me every time she was there by herself on the roof.  We opened the door and there she stood in deep thought

“Hey” I called out with a weak smile, trying to hide my worry “Thinking of her again?”

She smiled and nodded “Don’t worry Tanaka-oneesan, I’m okay, she…she promised with me, she’ll always be” I guess she saw right through me.

People in our industry come in and out and at times we forget their importance, like the senpais that have graduated before me, the lessons we’ve learned were critical to survive in the business.  People in my life come in and out because I tend to befriend someone quite easily but soon grow apart from them, forgetting that relationship at times, but with you, I’ll always remember.

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always remember - 01/19
« Reply #102 on: January 19, 2010, 06:11:36 PM »
Still drawing a blank. I dun know the kids at all. :? But I enjoyed anyway. Just one little gripe.

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my girlfriend walk up to me, leader of our group, one Takahashi Ai
Renai?! Nooooooo!!! :panic:

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always remember - 01/19
« Reply #103 on: January 20, 2010, 08:26:23 PM »
^ You don’t like RenAi?

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@ Chloe: Naw...I feel like leaving that one in the air  :twisted: no no I'm not that evil, the answer is.....KohaSayu
Yay for that! But who’s POV was that? Sayu?

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I'm glad you like this kids one, but thanks to you, I came up with this
I like kids :)
But I wonder if it’s a good thing that I kinda inspire you for these one-shots? Compared to the last one, this was more to angst so far, I mean I inspire you of that? Gotta pray that if I ever inspire you again it’s gonna be fluff  :lol:

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I’m goin’ to giv’em the asswhippin’
This is why I love when you put Reina in your fics, go yankii!

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“No! She’s not to know…at least not right now! It’ll hurt her, devastate her”
The girl really is persistent about keeping it a secret, eh? Reina and others were right because the girl should know about her girlfriend behavior (in fact I think it’s more hurting to find out by herself about it in the first part) but I understand how the other girl wanted to protect her feeling.

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quite strong and right now foolish figure, foolishly in love that is.
Oyeah love will make you a fool indeed :yep:
Love is hard :bleed eyes:

Ah so it’s changing character again, maybe the I’ll always remember you part is how the other characters saw the girl that died(?) from their POVs, the memories of her in their heart?

Tell me the dead girl is Maimi! Because if Reina, Ai, and Saki knew her then it probably from High King? Plus she’s close with Umeda.


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always remember - 01/19
« Reply #104 on: January 20, 2010, 09:00:22 PM »
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^ You don’t like RenAi?

Hell no! Interferes with my Takagaki. :angry:

 :lol: :lol: Actually, it's just one of my least favorite pairings, it's right above Gakikame, which also interferes with my Takagaki.

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always remember - 01/19
« Reply #105 on: January 21, 2010, 05:10:59 PM »
@ Her Awesome Holiness: I used RenAi this time around because I have done the Gakikame, Tanakame, Tanagaki, Takagaki, SayuJun, JunAika pairings so far, so I decided to change them up once again.  Gomene

@ Chloe: Maru maru...bingo!!!

Well I don't know how this angst one came up and I don't think you inspire angst so don't worry about that, it just happened out of the blue  :nervous Even I don't know how this theme popped up in my head but it did after our mini conversation on kids

I love yankiis, especially yankii Reina!!!!

Yep, changing characters again, however I'll always remember you is just from one character's POV, others won't be the same just like this next segment

Well can't really tell you as of yet...however keep in mind, most everyone in H!P work closely together so knowing them isn't going to be a new thing nor is being close to one another

With you, I’ll always cherish

I was walking around this neighbourhood and it brought back a lot of memories, of when we were younger, this was where we filmed our first movie after being selected from our auditions.  That’s what I have been doing lately, I tend to wander into areas in which brings me back to our memories, memories of how close we were, the places where we had our fun, where we talked about our pain and where we worked together.  There was one place I wanted to avoid but regardless of how much I wanted to avoid, it wasn’t possible because it was where we work, where we first met.  My emotions would go in overdrive when I go the agency because that is also where you left this world behind.  I remember when you first told me about your feelings for her, we were still young but you were attracted to her, as I also told you my feelings for another.

Flashback #1

I paced around the dance practice rooms where we were all suppose to wait, I was nervous inside but I didn’t want to show that to the others.  I looked at how much fun they were having with a camera and with each other and I instantly wished I was one of them, so confident, so happy, so unbothered.

“Hey” I turned to see you behind me “Relax!! It’ll be alright” that’s all you told me while smiling and from the smile I knew you were just as nervous as I was but here you were trying to calm my nerves.  I could tell you were nervous because you were like that when we did our filming too, you were suppose to smile but because you were so nervous, the smile looked like it was forced, it wasn’t the same as when we filmed our first PV, playing in that fake snow with our senpais.

I giggled at you “you should be one to talk” I retorted but we shared a laugh but it was also because of you that I did loosen up, we both did, we went around to the others, talked with them, played with them even.  All the nervousness that we once had before our first real concert as back-up dancers were gone, we weren’t camera shy either which is one of concerns at the time.  I know because I even took an opportunity to talk into one freely, smile freely as if I was talking to someone as opposed to an inanimate object. 

I was grateful for your existence because you were real, clueless at times, funny, intention or intentional, kind and reliable on a level that most others don’t see. It was instantly that I knew you were someone that I could talk to closely, a friend that I could open up to and I wouldn’t have to hesitate to offend because you were just that great to be around.

End of Flashback #1

I chuckled at our childhood memories, especially recalling how you would laugh regardless if you were made fun of, especially that time when we were rushing out and I heard you fall down the stairs but you didn’t let that stop you from going on with our venue.  Your nose must have killed but you still smiled to the public, that showed me how easy-going you could be when we all made fun of the red nose you had from the fall.  I can’t deny it was funny and I made fun of you but we were kids and you?  I don’t know if it was your cluelessness or whether you were just too kind to spit out any retort but you just stood there embarrassed but laughing at your own sillyness.

Soon after I became a leader, or captain as my group members like to call me and although we didn’t always work together or meet, it didn’t matter because every time we did, it was like magnet, I would stick to you and you to me and we’d do nothing but talk about the events that we went through.  Regardless of where we were, either at the backstage waiting for our turn to perform, or at the sports festivals, we would take any moment and any moment to talk, and it was great just opening up to you because you were always ready to listen, regardless if I was happy or upset, you wouldn’t think I was a bother.

Flashback # 2

“Nee nee do you have time to talk?” I asked you over the phone, there was something in my mind and I know I could talk to you about even if there was no solution, it would be great to let it all out

“Sure” your usual cheerful voice answered without hesitation or anything and it was like that always

“Can we meet up somewhere?” I didn’t want to talk about my problem over the phone, I was more of a face-to-face person than anything

“Where do you want to meet up?” I gave you the location and although we live apart, not once did you complain about the travel time nor the distance
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We ordered our drinks at a small café and as soon as the waitress left you smiled at me and started our talk “So what’s on your mind?”

“Have you ever liked someone before?”

You looked at me for a brief moment “So who’s the lucky person?”

“Would it be bad if I told you that we both know this person?” You put your hands together and placed your chin on them in deep thought. 

“No it would be bad, but now I’m thinking of who the lucky person can be.  I mean we both know a lot of the same people considering we work for the same agency” you chuckled

“What if it’s a member?” I looked away afraid, afraid that you’ll look at me differently as if I was some weirdo, I was conscious of how others viewed me, especially close friends

“That does bring down the amount of people that we both know doesn’t it? But still a wide variety”  I was surprised that you didn’t catch my fears but that could be because of your cluelessness

“It’s…Miya” I whispered, I knew there was no beating around the bush because sometimes you could be so dense that unless it slapped you on the face, you wouldn’t know what hit you

“Hmmm…I could see that, I always was curious about you two”

“You mean…you don’t mind?” I was relieved you didn’t care and shocked at your statement

“Mind what?  Saki-chan, I don’t get why you didn’t just say it, I mean do I look like that kind of person to judge you by preference?” You placed your hands down onto your lap and looked at me seriously.  I was baffled by your response, you weren’t clueless this time, you knew perfectly well.

“I’m sorry, it’s just that I…”

“you’re scared of what others might think of you?  Saki-chan, we’ve known each other for how long now?  Do you think our friendship was based on your exterior and abilities??? Yes you can dance really well…scratch that, you have the moves to make people drop dead, but it’s you and your personality that I care about and that we are a family the agency”

I was happy that you didn’t care because if we weren’t friends, I don’t know where I was going to find someone that was so care-free to listen to my problems “you’re right, I should have known that you wouldn’t mind and judge me for it”

“So…Miya eh?” you cocked an eyebrow at me and had a sly smile, causing me to blush

“Er…yeah” I scratched the back of my neck

“She can be tough but I see that she treats you well and makes you happy.  I’m happy for you Saki-chan”

“She’s got this aura that attracts me to her, my attention is usually diverted to her and we always have a great time together, be it talking, joking or anything, she can always lighten things up” I looked up at nothing in particular picturing Miya

“And you are head over heels for her” you laughed, bringing me back to earth from cloud nine

“So what made you curious about us?”

“When we had the sports festival a couple years back, we were all on the same team right?” I nodded my head “Well I noticed her looking in our direction every time I was talking to you…I think she feels the same for you Saki-chan”

“Really?”

“Yeah, but I don’t blame her, I think others always wondered about our friendship to be something more than that” you waved your hand as if it wasn’t anything new, surprisingly you caught Miya looking in our direction at the time and I didn’t…who was the dense one again?

End of Flashback #2

I was always amazed at how perceptive you were when it came to your friends, if it wasn’t because of your perception I might not have had that kind of drive to be open to Miya about my feelings, needless to say we became an item.  We had our usual talks about the members and the funny things we encountered when we were apart and that was when you first talked about her.

You talked about her and her girlfriend that they got together, which didn’t really surprise me because although I didn’t talk to either of them on a usual basis, I noticed that they were always together.  But from our discussions it slowly dawned on me that you had feelings for her, and it wasn’t a ‘just friends’ kind of feelings, it looked more, but they were together so I guessed that’s why you never chased after her.  I was, however, surprised at the extent your feelings for her were though

Flashback #3

I was walking into the agency that day early for our schedules dance practice when I first found out about her girlfriend and another.  I can’t deny I was shocked catching them together because I would have thought that one was the girlfriend and one was the bestfriend, that they would have more sense than to be doing this to her.  Seeing how happy they were out in the open, I thought it was best if I indicated that I was around.  I mean everyone, in the kids that is, knew the relationship that she had with both of these two people, so shouldn’t they think it wasn’t wise for them to be publicly showering each other with affection?

I was going to walk up to them but I felt a tug on my arm, stopping me from advancing, so I turned around to see you standing there, sadness in your eyes.  You pulled me away from the happy duo, I was clearly confused because if you were pulling me away that meant that you saw it too and if you saw it, why weren’t you doing anything about it?  One was in your group and the other in mine and although we were in different groups, we were all friends right?

“I know what you’re going to ask” you started “and yes I have known about them”

“Does she know yet?” you shook your head “and why doesn’t she know if you know?”

“I can’t bring myself to tell her as of yet”

“What do you mean you can’t bring yourself to tell her??? She’s being lied to, by two of the closest people in her life!!!”

“I know!!!” you shot back “That’s where I am conflicted!!! Can’t you see??? How would you feel if Chinami and Miya were doing this behind your back???”

I didn’t answer because I think it was a rhetorical question, I would have been very upset, maybe even depressed because I love them both, one as my girlfriend and the other as one of my best friends.  I would be torn if I were to lose both of them at the same time, especially since I’ve known them for a long period of time.  “But…but I’m going to talk to them”

“Saki-chan, don’t!!! Pretend you don’t know about them for the moment” you pleaded and within your eyes a question popped up in my head

“How long has this been going on?”

“Not too long ago I caught them”

“Have you talked to them?”

“I have talked to them…once, they were scared when they knew I knew and begged me not to say anything and that it wouldn’t happen again…I didn’t expect them to be doing it again”

“So you expect me to sit on the sidelines and not care???”

“No Saki-chan, I’m not asking you to sit aside, I’m pleading for you to give me more time to sort this out before it blows way out of proportion.  I’m going to try to settle this before she finds out, I’ll make them choose what they should be doing but I don’t want anyone to accidentally let it slip to her before I’m finished.  Saki-chan, you’ve got to promise me you’ll not tell a soul, not even Miya about this, you’re not going to talk to either of them because I don’t want to risk others knowing about it and creating tension between our groups, not when we work within the same agency.  Worst case scenario is that we’ll lose more people if management finds out”

You did have a point and I know this wouldn’t be good for anyone if management finds out.  Looking into your eyes, you were begging me not to say anything and to let you handle it and although I was sceptical about everything, I agreed to let you deal with it

End of Flashback #3

That day I didn’t know how to face her because a part of me wanted to blurt everything out but I promised that I wouldn’t say anything and for the amount of time that I’ve known you, one of the things you didn’t appreciate was promises being broken. 

I didn’t know how to really deal with anyone after our discussion, I wanted to tell Miya what was going on, to rant, to vent, to just let it out.  I wanted to give my fellow member a talking to about how displeased I am with the knowledge I was given but I couldn’t make other members suspicious at the hostility I wanted to give out.  I wanted to tell her when she came up to me asking about the whereabouts of her girlfriend one day but I bit onto my tongue and refrained from saying anything to anyone.  I soon found out that your group knew what was going with the exception of her, and Tanaka-san knew what was going on as well.

As time went by I began to lose patience when things didn’t change, I found you talking to Erika-san and since Erika-san knew, I didn’t see a point in taking you aside.

“Hey” you both acknowledged me when I walked up

“How is progress on solving her problem?” I didn’t want to beat around the bush, I wanted something done now

“I’m working on it” you responded but I saw right through you, you didn’t know how to proceed discreetly without blowing their cover.  I wanted to be upset with you but I couldn’t because at the end of the day I knew you only worked hard in covering it up because you didn’t want to see her hurt.  As much as I wanted to reveal the truth, I also didn’t want to see you upset because I cared for you.  I wouldn’t want to do anything that’ll hurt you or make you cry or jeopardize our friendship but you can’t expect me to sit quietly any longer

“Covering it up isn’t helping anything and I know you know that! Your dense but not dumb, you have to stop hushing people from saying anything to her, it might be best if she found out about it”

“They’re going to make a decision” you answered but it seemed like you didn’t believe it either

“You don’t even believe it, how do you expect me to?” You didn’t answer me when the door opened and Tanaka-san walked in

“No! She’s not to know! It’ll hurt her, devastate her” you raised your voice right when Tanaka-san was about to speak and judging by how Tanaka-san refrained from saying anything , I could guess what was on her mind.  You were getting worked up, I could feel it but I was too because I don’t think this is the best solution either.

“How are your injuries?” Tanaka-san asked out of the blue.  I then remembered that I heard a fight occurring before and that she said some words that upset you.

“They’re fine, I’m fine” you responded in a low voice

“Did you really have to beat her up?” Tanaka-san asked, igniting my curiosity because in the years that I’ve known you, you wouldn’t physically hurt someone or something, so for you to lose yourself and hit someone, something must have happened

You turned you head to the side and looked at the floor, it was then that I noticed the bruise around the corner of your lips “I caught them again”

“So? That’s not the first time you did” Erika-san voiced out for the first time, but looking at her face I think she was thinking the same thing I was, you had a good temper, nothing really irks you nor have I seen or known of you to be upset to that extent in which you would actually hit someone

 “I confronted her again…told her that she shouldn’t be doing this… she ignored me…she…she…” we could sense you getting upset, tension within you rising “she accused her of doing the same…with me.  I denied it…she saw right through me…and taunted me about how they were together and that…that I’ll never be…because she loved her…and not me…she then laughed and …and said that she won’t let go nor will she stop” That did it!!! Someone had to tell her because it seems like things were getting out of control

“You’ve got to tell her” I stated in a low voice unsure how you’ll react and how I’ll go against you “You’ve got to tell her” I repeated in a louder voice

“I’ve got to do nothing…nothing but protect her” you responded

“Even if it means getting yourself into fist fights? Getting in trouble with the agency? You can’t do this to yourself! Why are you doing this? She has a right to know” I flared up at you, you were throwing everything you worked hard on in your career out the window if you constantly fought and you’ll risk your health from the fights

I felt a hand on my shoulder “Saki-chan, calm down” Tanaka-san soothed but I was boiling inside, I turned around and started taking deep breaths ‘1…2…3…4…’ “Saki-chan has a point though, she has a right to know, you can’t hide it from her forever, one day or another she’ll find out”

“Better another then” you scowled in which at that moment I let out a sigh. 

“You’re a hopeless case but I can understand, I just hope you know what you’re doing” Tanaka-san turned leaving us with her last remark.  I can understand too but I don’t want to see you like this, I don’t want to see her hurt either but look at how things are turning out.  The 3 of us stood there in silence, no one said a word for a couple more minutes

“Just let me deal with it, I don’t want to tell her just yet, please Saki-chan? Erika?”

Umeda-san and I exchanged looks and I saw her nod “Fine” I don’t know how much you were willing to take but I do know how much you love her and how much she means to you.  We decided to not stay in that room because it would look awkward for on-lookers so we decided to head out to the lobby and possibly get something to eat.

We didn’t get to get anything to eat when we saw her running past us and from what I saw, she looked like she was crying.  You called out to her and  started to run after her, Umeda-san and I in tow.  I had ran further ahead from Umeda-san trying to catch up to you but me being less of an athlete than you, I was still lagging behind.

I looked at the floor, trying to pick up speed, but looked up when I heard honking noises and saw her in the middle of the road.  My feet stopped moving as I freaked out praying that she’d move but it seems like she was just as shocked as she remained in the middle of the road with a truck fast approaching.  You noticed too that she wasn’t moving as I saw you speed up trying to reach her before the truck did.

I heard the truck’s tires screeching to stop and watched in horror as it hit you full on, throwing your body up in the air a few feet away.  Everything was slow in my eyes but that could be because my mind was slow in processing what had just happened.  Things didn’t go back to normal until that disgusting thud emanating from the contact your body had with the ground.  I snapped to reality when the truck driver slammed his door, as I ran up to you as fast as I could.  I was in utter shock and I was scared out of my wits when I approached your weak body, blood spilling from your mouth. 

I slowly cradled your head into my arms, my tears were falling non-stop, I was screaming inside but I just couldn’t produce any sounds.  I saw your mouth move so I leaned closer to you “T-Tanaka-san”

I immediately looked up at Tanaka-san “T-Tanaka-san *sniff* she’s calling out for you”

Tanaka-san got closer as you coughed a bit to regain more of her vocal chords “T-Tanaka-san, c-check on her…”

“Don’t worry *sniff* you just hang in there.  Don’t talk now, save it for later *sniff*”

“T-Tanaka-san, check on her…and…and take her away from here” my tears were flowing even faster, even at a time like this you only cared about her “Remember to take care of her for me *cough*”

“Ren!” I looked up at the voice, I didn’t know who it was but I could see through the blurs that there was a crowd gathering closer around us

“Oh my god!”

“Oh shit!” and other comments were made

“C-call…call the ambulance quick!!!!” I finally managed to get my voice back as I started yelling for someone, anyone to call an ambulance.  I looked at you, I could feel your body getting cold and I hugged you tighter and tighter, you can’t leave, not when you haven’t fixed the problem, not when you have confessed, not when you haven’t lived your life to the fullest, not when you haven’t been given a chance to be happy with the one you love.

I could hear the people around us crying as Umeda-san and I were, I couldn’t believe my eyes and I didn’t want to believe my eyes.

“I’ve got you” I heard Tanaka-san say as I looked up and noticed her.  I had wanted to hate, wanted to yell, scream, hit, kill but I couldn’t, you would hate me for life that’s not something I wish for if you decide to get tired. 

I watched as she got closer towards you and crouched down “W-why?”

“D-don’t worry…*cough*” blood had started seeping into my clothes indicating you were bleeding at the back of your head, blood was also spilling out of your mouth “Everything…e-everything will be…*groan* be alright” you managed to finish

Where is that fucking ambulance???  With every minute we wait, you have lost another minute at a chance to live.  I closed my eyes praying that the ambulance would just come already, god has to hear my pray and keep you alive, he can’t be cruel, not to you, you deserve to live “*sob* y-you can’t…*sob* leave like this!!! *sniff* you can’t!!! N-not *sniff* not when…when…” she couldn’t even finish her sentence as I turned around to see you holding her hand.

“S-shhhh…I-I’m not leaving…I never *groan*…never will…with you,…with you, I’ll always…be” as if in slow motion, your eyes rolled to the back of your head and closed themselves, hand slipping out of hers and fell to the ground with a thud

Everyone around fell silent for a moment before we all hovered closer to your limp body calling out your name, reacting to what we had hoped was not the case.

“NO!!!” I shouted out and hovered over your lifeless body “No…no…no…no” I felt someone brushing my back but I continued to shout and cry out

End of Flashback #3

I managed to walk back to the agency to grab my things, I had been crying throughout this whole time but I wiped them away quickly, today was a special day and I don’t intend to be late for my next engagement.

I spotted Umeda-san in a daze and tears falling down her face, on the couches so I walked up to her “Hey…are you alone?”

She wiped her tears before she turned and looked at me, giving me a weak smile “Hey, she texted me saying she wanted to think for a bit before we go”

“Oh…have you seen Tanaka-san?” I asked placing my bag on the chair for support

“I think she has dance practice this morning”

“Do you want to get Tanaka-san first before we get her?”

“I think that’s a good idea” as Umeda-san got up from the chair “What time is it?”

I looked at my watch “Shit!! We don’t have much time” We both decided to run and find Tanaka-san quickly before looking for her because with her, it might take us more time to get her away from where we knew she would be.

“Tanaka-san!” Umeda-san and I called out when we saw Tanaka-san and Takahashi-san “We should find her now, it’s almost time”

Tanaka-san turned to Takahashi-san “Ai-chan, there’s something I’ve got to do, we’ll meet later, you remember where right?” Takahashi-san gave a nod before Tanaka-san gave her a peck, and we were running off to find her.

We walked up the stairs to the only place we knew she would be, it was a habit that she developed since your death and I can’t say it worried me every time she was there by herself on the roof.  The first couple of weeks, she wasn’t happy, she wasn’t watching herself, she practically went into a depression or at least that is what Umeda-san said.  All of us were scared for her because we weren’t sure what she would do next, she was like a walking zombie, no emotions, only cries.  We opened the door and there she stood in deep thought

“Hey” Tanaka-san called out with a weak smile “Thinking of her again?”

She smiled and nodded “Don’t worry Tanaka-oneesan, I’m okay, she…she promised with me, she’ll always be” I smiled because this is the first that I’ve seen her smile even the slightest.

I don’t blame her for I was like that for a while myself, I spent most of my time thinking back at all the fun we had, the things we did, the time we spent together, your personality, your care-free spirit, your warm smile.  All those things have become memories now, memories that we created together and I made a promise to myself that in my lifetime all those memories with you, I’ll always cherish.

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always cherish - 01/21
« Reply #106 on: January 22, 2010, 03:16:41 AM »
So if Captain's the narrator on this one that means that the one who died is....
And the one who was the girl that the one who died loved is...

Ah, I see, but still not a complete picture.

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« Reply #107 on: January 26, 2010, 03:50:04 PM »
@ rndmnwierd
XD I see, I can understand that.


@ author-san
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Well I don't know how this angst one came up and I don't think you inspire angst so don't worry about that, it just happened out of the blue  Even I don't know how this theme popped up in my head but it did after our mini conversation on kids
Be it angst or not, the good thing is you get to make another fic :thumbsup

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I love yankiis, especially yankii Reina!!!!
So do I!! :D

Seeing from Captain’s POV the girl that died seemed like a very kind person.

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I knew there was no beating around the bush because sometimes you could be so dense that unless it slapped you on the face, you wouldn’t know what hit you
LOL

Will wait till you reveal the charas ;)
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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always cherish - 01/21
« Reply #108 on: January 26, 2010, 05:11:28 PM »
@ Her Awesome Holiness: Er...yeah...that's right, that's who is who, I understand who you are referring to...  :dunno:

@ Chloe: I'm not technically done with this series yet and I don't know when I will be doing another... :err:

*high-five for the love of yankii Reina!*

I think I should be ending everything soon, maybe another one after this one and that's it

Part 4: With you, I’ll always love

“Ahhhhhhh” I yelled out to the open waters, since your death I did this a lot, going to the beach or in a washroom stall when no one was around, I would yell out, vent if I must say.  I had been thinking about you more than I use to because…because I never got the chance to confess about my true feelings and now…now it’s too late because you’re gone…far from my grasps, far from my sight, far from this world.  I never got to comfort you in your times of pain because you never showed them to anyone, but I wanted to be the one that would tell you, you were not alone, that I was right here beside you. I too felt the pain in my heart, seeing you the way you were.  I looked back at when I first developed my feelings for you, to me realizing you’d never return my love to the day you left my side.

Flashback #1

I had always had a good relationship with her because she saw me as an oneesan and I saw her as one of my imoutous within the group.  I had just found out one of her close friends was going to leave and as expected she was shocked at the information.

“What?! Really she’s just going to leave us?”

“Yes, unfortunately Megu has given up on this dream but she will pray for our own major debut” I retold her what Megu had told, or shall I say texted me.  Why am I playing broken telephone again? Oh that’s right! Because Megumi didn’t have the courage to say it to her face-to-face, or to anyone else in fact, that’s why and only a selected few knew before the public announcement was to be made.

I could tell she was upset and who wouldn’t? A close friend of yours decides to leave, effective immediately, and they didn’t even say a proper goodbye to each other.  I was about to console her when you walked in with Saki-chan and Toku-san.  You were always close to them right from the start and it made me wonder how you felt when you were not part of the same group as they were.  But although you were in different groups, you proved that it didn’t matter because you and Saki-chan always kept in touch and it was then that I started developing these different emotions.

I know I shouldn’t because I saw you more frequently than Saki-chan or Toku-san but I couldn’t help but feel…jealous?  Jealous of the fun and laughter you guys share, the talks you guys have on your own time, jealous of the time and attention you gave Saki-chan.

I was always happiest when you were by my side, just the 2 of us and it didn’t have to be anything romantic but I felt happy because you were giving me your undivided attention.  Like myself, many others would question your relationship with Saki-chan and every time some one makes a comment I would unintentionally frown, oh how I hated that green-eyed creature named jealousy

End of Flashback #1

Soon I learned to accept though because you treated everyone the same, that was who you were and are.  I believe that it is one of the reasons Saki-cahn loves talking to you, your personality was definitely one that people can’t help but befriend and in my case love

My world shattered though when I found out about your true feelings for her and I can’t deny that I was surprised because no one would have guessed that you had feelings for her but that could also be explained by the fact that she had her own girlfriend so you had to hide your feelings very well.  It wasn’t until we first caught her girlfriend and another together that your true feelings were showing and when we had the talks about it.

Flashback #2

We had gotten an early breakfast before work and we still managed to have some time left before our meeting so we decided to take a stroll around the agency building.  As we were walking in random directions, that’s when we first caught the duo flirting with each other, playing with each other in a sense that didn’t seem like they were just friends.

I was enraged at how they could do this to my imoutou, one was her girlfriend and the other her bestfriend.  I balled my hands into fists, clutching tightly as I continued to see them fool around.  I was about to storm up to them when you stopped me “Wait!” you hissed

I turned to see you in deep thought “Wait? Why are we waiting we should go have a good talking to them or better yet pulverize them or something”

“No…no we can’t” Was I hearing correctly? What in the world does we can’t mean in this situation? “We shouldn’t, we don’t know what their relationship is, why raise a false alarm?  This will only cause tension within our group and within our groups”

“Are you kidding me??? Does that look like they are just friends?” I knew you to be dense at times but seriously, that looked nothing like friendly touching or anything

“I don’t know but let’s not do anything in case we were wrong.  Who knows? Maybe that is how those 2 interact and maybe even how she interacts with them… Let’s just go” you turned and dragged me along as I took one last look behind me before giving up.
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I had just finished my recording and was about to wave goodbye and both of you, since you guys haven’t done any recording yet.  It was her turn to record, so she quickly flashed me her signature toothy grin and waved a quick goodbye before I had left.  I had walked outside the building when I realized that I forgot my phone in the studio, I smacked my forehead for being so forgetful as I turned around and headed back inside.  I didn’t get far when I heard noises coming from one of the rooms, voices actually and I was curious, heck who wouldn’t?  You know that most people should have left by now so why would there be random voices right?

I leaned closer to the door  “What time is she done recording?  Are you going to wait for her?” one of the voices said in a pouty tone

“I don’t know, and I don’t think I will, we never did say whether I was to wait so why don’t I spend the time with you?”that confident voice, I did recognize right away so I pulled my hand back to knock but before my hand reached the door, I felt another grabbing onto it and pulling me away

From the outline and height, I knew it was you “Hey what are you doing? Stop!!” you didn’t stop though, not until we were outside the building.  I flung my arm out of your hand “What the hell? Why did you pull me away, they were in there and I’m sure that it isn’t just friends now!”

“Don’t Erika-chan, don’t” I don’t understand you, how can you just sit back and let things slide like this?  It doesn’t make sense

“What do you mean don’t, why shouldn’t I? I have to warn her about this, she’s got to end things off between the two of them” I had turned to head back into the building but in one swift motion you turned me around

“You can’t!! Think about it, it’s your word against theirs, one is her girlfriend and the other is her best friend, what choice would you make??? If she chooses them, how is she going to face you as a member and as her oneesan??? If she chooses you, how is she going to face her girlfriend as a member and what about her bestfriend??? Doesn’t that mean she loses everything???” Shit! I hadn’t thought about that, regardless of what she chooses it will create tension within the group and for sure I know if she chooses them over me, I wouldn’t be too happy, upset even because I would feel like she doesn’t trust me.

“So you think by pretending nothing is happening that will solve everything???” I didn’t think that was a solution nor did it sound even logically reasonable as an action

“No…I will talk to them, trust me I will, just not right now, we have too many things going on right now.  So why don’t you leave it up to me okay?” One of the things I admired about you was how you took charge on issues like this, yes in the public it may seem like you’re unreliable but I believe your reliability is different from Saki-chan’s, you can be reliable when you need to be.  I nodded my head at your suggestion.

End of Flashback #2

I laughed thinking back at how you always made me weak, my resolve on anything would always crumble when I looked into your eye, of course you had your reasons too but it seems like every time I had an argument or wanted to argue your point, it would never come out, instead I would forget and give in.

Soon the situation was getting out of hand because before long Nakky and Chisa has caught them before too and once again you hushed them up and of course they would when they thought about her perspective and feelings and of course the fact that they were on good terms with you did help in the cover up but how long were you planning to do that?  When were you going to talk to them about it? Make them make a choice, they can’t do this to her, it’s not right!

Flashback #3

I have given you plenty of time to talk to them but it didn’t seem like you did when I overheard Nakky and Chisa talking about it.  It didn’t take me much to get them to spill what they know and how you were covering the situation again.  I don’t get you, I mean why cover it up? I’m pretty sure if we told her, she’ll listen, what is giving you this doubt?  Well actually I knew that answer but then what about them?  Why can’t we confront them?  You asked for time and a chance to talk to them well what is a good moment to do that then?  I was determined to tell you or more like order you to tell them only because you wanted me to let you deal with the situation, but if you don’t then I will, no more waiting.

I had found you walking out of a random room and not long after they came out too, heads hung low.  I can’t believe it! You did it! You said you would talk to them and you did it! Might I say that I was surprised and proud of you? Well indeed I was because just when I was losing my patience you surprised me by pulling through.  I walked up to you with a smile “Hey…was that?”

“Let’s talk somewhere else” I followed you up to the roof, you made sure no one was around before proceeding to the ledge.  You didn’t say anything but stood there looking out to the open view.

“So…I see you finally talked to them”

“Yeah I did” you didn’t sound too good but that could be because you had to confront them and you were never the confrontation type, you were more like the ‘as long as the group is happy, that’s all that matters’ even when you were blamed for our action, for not having better control of us, you never stopped us.

“So…what did they say?” I stood beside you enjoying the open view, it was a chance for me to see the beauty that you see and in a sense it made me feel that I was closer to you.

“They said that it was their fault, an accident and they begged me to not say anything to her, saying that it’ll never happen again” your voice was so monotone but in my eyes it only made you look cooler and all I could do was look at you in awe

“That’s great! No one gets hurt and she didn’t have to know like we wanted”

“Yeah…great”

End of Flashback #3

Flashback #4

Not long after you talked to them, they went back to their ways, and now even Saki-chan and Tanaka-san had found out about the issue but I guess they were persuaded by you to not say anything to anyone because she would be crying but I didn’t notice any changes in her moods

I had wanted to persuade you about maybe telling her when from a good distance I saw you dragging the lying girlfriend somewhere.  She was dragging her feet and trying hard to pull out of your grip whereas you had a determined look.  At first I thought you were probably dragging her because she pulled another one of her pranks as I turned around and headed back the way I came from.  But then I stopped in my tracks, even in the past when she did pull a prank on you, both of you guys wouldn’t have those expressions on your faces, your expressions would have been lighter, happier sometimes, but those expressions weren’t of that genre at all, something didn’t seem right.  I turned around but couldn’t see you guys anymore so I ran and searched for you guys.

I wouldn’t have found you guys if it wasn’t for the fact that there were various grunts and crashing sounds as I peeked in to see you 2 physically brawling.  I had to think quick, at this rate, both of you guys will sustain serious injuries, I wasn’t capable of dealing with you guys at the same time and I didn’t know Saki-chan was all I know was that the senpais of Morning Musume has a recording or something today…MORNING MUSUME!!!! Tanaka-san was around!!!! I dashed towards the studio.

As I was running, I thought about what would be the cause of the fight, your opponent I didn’t think much about, she was always more vocal and held grudges quite well so it wouldn’t surprise me if she beats someone up but you, you were a different story.  It isn’t in you to physically hurt someone and I didn’t know why but if she was involved, I can assume only one thing, you caught them again

“Tanaka-san!!!” I hollered out “She got caught again and was dragged away”

Tanaka-san  rolled her eyes “Where are they?”   

“T-they’re…fighting…physically” all that running was finally taking a told as I could barely speak

Tanaka-san’s eyes widened “Let’s go” we ran to where you 2 were fighting and without wasting time we barged in there and saw her glaring at you, by her girlfriend’s side.  Tanaka-san and I were huffing and puffing trying to catch our breaths from all that running “Are you guys okay?” Tanaka-san walked up to her side, whereas I walked up to yours.

“Ask her that question” she spat with so much anger I was shocked if you weren’t, she wasn’t the usual friendly girl that I was accustomed to

“Come on let’s get them cleaned up” Tanaka-san helped her and her girlfriend up

“I expected better from you, why would you do this? I thought you would consider me as a friend, but obviously not if you’re hurting the people I care about” she spat before heading out with her girlfriend.  Just before they left I noticed Tanaka-san  giving you an apologetic look.  If only she knew what was really going on, she was flaring up at the wrong person.

“Are you okay?” I looked at the blood at the corner of your mouth

You wiped it away roughly “I’m fine” your voice carried a tinge of sadness, upset even, but why wouldn’t you?  The person who she should be angry at shouldn’t be you yet here you are taking that from her.

“Why did you guys fight anyways?” I was curious as to why you would blow up, your persona wasn’t the physical type, yeah you had the strength but not once since I’ve known you, had you ever used it to hurt anyone physically and intentionally

“I don’t want to talk about it” seeing you limp a bit to a nearby chair all my curiosity left, my only worry was the injuries you had as I helped you clean up

End of Flashback #4

I had walked back to the agency building to pick up some things I needed before I was suppose to meet the others.  I knew that Tanaka-san had practice in the morning so we decided to all meet here at the agency.  To me it didn’t matter where we meet because I still had to come back to the agency in the morning to pick up some items first.  I checked my watch, I still had time as I took a seat on one of the couches in the lobby.  ~BUZZ BUZZ~ my cellphone vibrated indicating I had a new text message, in which I quickly checked before noticing my surroundings.  I looked around and memories of that day came flooding back to me.

Flashback #5

Over much debating internally, I couldn’t let this to continue, I had wanted to talk to you about it again for the millionth time.  “We’ve got to tell her, she’s going to know”

“We’ve got to do nothing!”

“Well if you aren’t going to then I will”

“You will not!”

The door opened and in walked Saki-chan “Hey” I nodded my head in acknowledgement while she walked up

“How is progress on solving her problem?” she asked you, whereas I didn’t know what this was all about.  It was times like these that I get a bit upset because it was as if you guys had your own language, sharing your own secrets, but now was not the time to be jealous.

“I’m working on it” you responded but it didn’t like you were confident in your response

“Covering it up isn’t helping anything and I know you know that! Your dense but not dumb, you have to stop hushing people from saying anything to her, it might be best if she found out about it” Saki-chan continued

“They’re going to make a decision” you answered but it seemed like you didn’t believe it either

“You don’t even believe it, how do you expect me to?” You didn’t answer me when the door opened and Tanaka-san walked in

“No! She’s not to know! It’ll hurt her, devastate her” you raised your voice right when Tanaka-san was about to speak and judging by how Tanaka-san refrained from saying anything , I think I can assume what was on her mind.  I guess today is a day we should gang up on you and make you realize that telling her is the best solution.  You were getting worked up, I could feel it and I noticed Saki-chan getting angry as well

“How are your injuries?” Tanaka-san asked out of the blue.

“They’re fine, I’m fine” you responded in a low voice

“Did you really have to beat her up?” Tanaka-san asked, igniting my memory of asking you previously in which I dropped because you were hurt.

You turned you head to the side and looked at the floor where we could clearly see the bruise around the corner of your lips “I caught them again”

“So? That’s not the first time you did” I questioned for the first time in a long while, it didn’t make sense to me how catching them again would cause you to erupt, the logic behind this wasn’t really strong enough.

 “I confronted her again…told her that she shouldn’t be doing this… she ignored me…she…she…” we could sense you getting upset, tension within you rising “she accused her of doing the same…with me.  I denied it…she saw right through me…and taunted me about how they were together and that…that I’ll never be…because she loved her…and not me…she then laughed and …and said that she won’t let go nor will she stop” That’s when everything made sense now.  That’s when I realized that all that you’ve done from beginning to end to cover it away from her, you were trying to protect her without getting her hurt.  You didn’t know what to do about them because you knew she loved them both dearly, so you decided to keep her in the dark!!!!  I was crushed at this point, how could I have not put the pieces together??? You had feelings for her but you never could confess because she was together with someone else, someone that didn’t deserve her affection yet she loved so so much.

“You’ve got to tell her” Saki-chan stated in a low voice “You’ve got to tell her” Saki-chan repeated in a louder voice

“I’ve got to do nothing…nothing but protect her” you responded

“Even if it means getting yourself into fist fights? Getting in trouble with the agency? You can’t do this to yourself! Why are you doing this? She has a right to know” Saki-chan yelled into your face

Tanaka-san placed a hand on Saki-chan’s shoulder “Saki-chan, calm down” Saki-chan must have been boiling with anger at your actions because she turned around and started taking deep breaths “Saki-chan has a point though, she has a right to know, you can’t hide it from her forever, one day or another she’ll find out”

“Better another then” you scowled in which at that moment I could help but let out a sigh, a sigh that you’re stubborn and a sigh that you’ll never notice me.

“You’re a hopeless case but I can understand, I just hope you know what you’re doing” Tanaka-san turned leaving us with her last remark.  I can understand too because if I were you, I might have taken the same course of actions, just so that you wouldn’t be faced with the cruel reality that laid ahead of you. The 3 of us stood there in silence, no one said a word for a couple more minutes

“Just let me deal with it, I don’t want to tell her just yet, please Saki-chan? Erika?”

I exchanged looks with Saki-chan and I gave her a nod, I never did win in any argument so why bother trying?  “Fine” Saki-chan huffed.    We decided to not stay in that room because it would look awkward for on-lookers so we decided to head out to the lobby and possibly get something to eat.

We didn’t get to get anything to eat when we saw her running past us and from what I saw, she looked like she was crying.  You called out to her and  started to run after her, Saki-chan and I in tow.  I wasn’t that great of an athlete to begin with and it was evident when Tanaka-san came up from behind me.  I just got my feet out the front doors when I noticed her standing out in the middle of the road.  I was scared for her, she was an imoutou of mine so regardless if she is the one you like or not, I still didn’t want to see her get hurt. 

I heard the honking of the truck that was fast approaching and in front of me I think Tanaka-san and Saki-chan were just as shocked as I was because they weren’t moving, feet glued to the ground.  However yours weren’t as you picked up speed and pushed her out of the way. 

But that was when all my happiness was sucked out of my body as I watch the truck hit you, throwing your body up in the air a few feet away.  Tears had started falling down and my legs gave way when I heard the thud that sounded when your body hit the ground.  I frantically tried to push myself off the ground and ran towards your weak body, soon Tanaka-san and Saki-chan also ran towards you.  As we approached you, I didn’t know if I had the strength to stand anymore as I saw the blood spilling from your mouth, lots of it and it didn’t stop.

Saki-chan cradled your head in her arms, tears were falling, whereas my legs did give in as I fell beside you, taking one of your hands in mine.  Your mouth moved in which Saki-chan leaned closer to hear you better.   “T-Tanaka-san *sniff* she’s calling out for you”

Tanaka-san got closer as you coughed a bit to regain more of her vocal chords “T-Tanaka-san, c-check on her…”

“Don’t worry *sniff* you just hang in there.  Don’t talk now, save it for later *sniff*” Tanaka-san was almost bawling like we were.

“T-Tanaka-san, check on her…and…and take her away from here” my tears were flowing even faster, even at a time like this you only cared about her, why? My heart felt like it was shattered into a million pieces because you cared about her emotions a great deal, more than you cared about your own and I can’t deny I wish I was her, because I would be the one on the receiving end of this unselfish love you gave her “Remember to take care of her for me *cough*”

“Ren!” I looked up at the voice, I didn’t know who it was but I could see through the blurs that there was a crowd gathering closer around us

“Oh my god!”

“Oh shit!” and other comments were made

“C-call…call the ambulance quick!!!!” Saki-chan started yelling for someone, anyone to call an ambulance.

“P-please stay with us…stay with me” I whispered, closing my eyes to pray to the lords, you’re a good person so your life story shouldn’t be like this, your story shouldn’t have to end, not now, it’s too soon.  I prayed harder when I felt your hand losing warmth

I could hear the people around us crying as Saki-chan and I were, I kept my eyes closed, continuing to pray, pray like I never did before.  In a sense I also wish that by the time I open my eyes, I’ll be somewhere in my room, on my bed and realize that this was all a dream, a cruel dream, a nightmare.

“I’ve got you” I heard Tanaka-san say as I looked up and noticed her.  I had wanted to hate, wanted to yell, scream, hit, kill but I couldn’t, I was torn because she was my imoutou and she was the one that you loved, you would hate me for life that’s not something I wish for, even if you don’t have feelings the way I do, I didn’t want you to leave this world hating me. 

I watched as she got closer towards you and crouched down “W-why?”

“D-don’t worry…*cough*” blood had started seeping into Saki-chan’s clothes indicating you were bleeding at the back of your head, blood was also spilling out of your mouth “Everything…e-everything will be…*groan* be alright” you managed to finish

I cried even more seeing you guys like this, you still didn’t confess to her, you still tried to calm her down first.  With every word, my chest would become tighter and tighter “*sob* y-you can’t…*sob* leave like this!!! *sniff* you can’t!!! N-not *sniff* not when…when…” she couldn’t even finish her sentence as I turned around to see you holding her hand.

“S-shhhh…I-I’m not leaving…I never *groan*…never will…with you,…with you, I’ll always…be” as if in slow motion, your eyes rolled to the back of your head and closed themselves, hand slipping out of hers and fell to the ground with a thud

Everyone around fell silent for a moment before we all hovered closer to your limp body calling out your name, reacting to what we had hoped was not the case.

“NO!!!” I shouted out and hovered over your lifeless body “No…no…no…no”

I felt someone touching my shoulders from behind as I turned to see Nakky and Chisa, crying.  I pulled them closer to me and we cried in each other’s embrace.

End of Flashback #5

My tears had began to flow as usual, as it has been since “Hey…are you alone?” a voice called out to me

I wiped my tears before I turned to see Saki-chan, I gave her a smile or at least tried my best to smile “Hey, she texted me saying she wanted to think for a bit before we go”

“Oh…have you seen Tanaka-san?” Saki-chan placed her bag on another spot on the couch

“I think she has dance practice this morning”

“Do you want to get Tanaka-san first before we get her?”

“I think that’s a good idea” as I got up from the chair “What time is it?”

Saki-chan looked at her watch “Shit!! We don’t have much time” We both decided to run and find Tanaka-san quickly before looking for her because with her, it might take us more time to get her away from where we knew she would be.

“Tanaka-san!” we had called out when we saw Tanaka-san walking somewhere with Takahashi-san “We should find her now, it’s almost time”

Tanaka-san turned to Takahashi-san “Ai-chan, there’s something I’ve got to do, we’ll meet later, you remember where right?” Takahashi-san gave a nod before Tanaka-san gave her a peck, and we were running off to find her.

We walked up the stairs to the only place we knew she would be, it was a habit that she developed since your death and I can’t say it worried me every time she was there by herself on the roof.  The first couple of weeks, she wasn’t happy, she wasn’t watching herself, she went into a depression and it began to worry our whole group.  All of us were scared for her because we weren’t sure what she would do next, she was like a walking zombie, no emotions, only cries.  We opened the door and there she stood in deep thought

“Hey” Tanaka-san called out with a weak smile “Thinking of her again?”

She smiled and nodded “Don’t worry Tanaka-oneesan, I’m okay, she…she promised with me, she’ll always be”

I couldn’t blame her for what she feels because I was like that and I still am to be honest, I don’t think I’ll ever return back to normal fully. I spent most of my time thinking back at all the fun we had, the things we did, the time we spent together, your personality, your care-free spirit, your warm smile.  I looked at her as we were exiting the building to our destination, and I recall your last words to her “With you, I’ll always be” I scolded myself for not confessing my feelings to you when I had the chance, maybe things might have turned out differently.  I still look out at the sky a lot of times because I hoped that you were watching me from above, smiling down at our group.  I now had new habits that I grew fond of and it wasn’t until Nakky or Chisa would point out that you would use to do the same that I realized all these new things that I seemed to love had a reason.  Everything that revolved around you, everything that you say and do, everything that had to do with you, I’ll always love.

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always cherish - 01/21
« Reply #109 on: January 26, 2010, 07:42:05 PM »
@ Chloe: I'm not technically done with this series yet and I don't know when I will be doing another... :err:
Relax author-san  ;)

*high-five back*

Unrequited love is heartbreaking.

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or better yet pulverize them or something
Nice :grin:

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“I’ve got to do nothing…nothing but protect her”
“Better another then”
stubborn, stubborn, stubborn.
Though Kinda reminds me of myself :nervous

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Everything that revolved around you, everything that you say and do, everything that had to do with you, I’ll always love. 
:)


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: With you, I'll always cherish - 01/21
« Reply #110 on: January 26, 2010, 08:35:58 PM »
@ Her Awesome Holiness: Er...yeah...that's right, that's who is who, I understand who you are referring to...  :dunno:
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@ rndmnwierd
XD I see, I can understand that.
Ah, good, I'm glad you two understand, because I think I need things spelled out for me... :sweatdrop:

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 4: With you, I'll always love - 01/26
« Reply #111 on: January 26, 2010, 10:57:37 PM »
^ I'm sorry, I was referring to your previous comment about RenAi.
Sorry for not pointing it out clearly, my bad  :sweatdrop:


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« Reply #112 on: January 27, 2010, 03:23:39 AM »
^Ah, I had forgotten about that. :doh:

I dunno, something about RenAi just makes me prickle. Maybe I'm just so used to the pairing feeling destructive or feral.

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 4: With you, I'll always love - 01/26
« Reply #113 on: February 03, 2010, 04:00:39 PM »
@ Her Awesomeness: Well everything will be spelt out for you in this last installment  ;)

@ Chloe: You hoped who was dead again?....Ah Maimi right??? This answers your question about the cheaters

Part 5: With you, we’ll never forget

Nakky and I couldn’t sleep yesterday did you know that?  We are still affected with the news of your departure, I can imagine how those that you were closer to, that knew everything first hand feels.  Today is a special day, in which I know will bring us all into tears once again and recollect what happened that day.  Nakky stayed over at my house last night so that we could arrive together and meet the others.  We were getting ready to head out to our destination where others should be going too and while we were riding on the train I couldn’t help but think back.  I recall by the time Nakky and I pulled through the scene to where you laid in ShimiSaki-chan’s and Erika’s arms, there was blood everywhere, on the ground, spilling from your mouth and splashed onto ShimiSaki-chan’s clothes.

Nakky couldn’t bare to watch at how you tried to soothe Airin, calm her even telling her not to worry, that everything will be alright and I wish I could believe you in your words but I couldn’t, you didn’t look good and we all knew that.  It was worse watching you give your final breath to her before your hand slipped out of hers and you closed your eyes for the last time, because we knew, regardless of how you tried to hide it all, we knew.  But we also knew Erika had fallen for you so we couldn’t do anything, who were we suppose to help?  All of you guys were close friends and bandmates to us.  Seeing Erika so upset we could only hug her to let out her feelings.  As soon as each of our trembling hands touched each side of her shoulders, she turned and hugged us tightly crying into our support as we did in hers.

I felt bad at how the situation came to be, if only we weren’t all so close to each other, if only we persuaded you, if only we weren’t affected by you so easily as our friend, our advisor and our leader, maybe you wouldn’t have died.  If only that day I told her, if only I didn’t let Nakky stop me,…if only I knew what I should do…could’ve done…

Flashback #1

We had caught them again with you that day and before you could tell me to stop I hollered out to them “OI!” They looked in our direction and immediately you can see the colour drained from their faces as they quickly jumped apart.

“Chisa, go!  Let me talk to them but go” you instructed.  I was about to retort when Nakky tugged onto my sleeve, so I turned around to look at her and saw that she was shaking her head, obvious to what I was about to say.  I let out a defeated sigh, I really wanted to kick some butt, honestly how can they continuously play like this? What about other people’s feelings?  Do they mean nothing to them in their eyes?

You nodded to Nakky to drag me away and although I didn’t want to I followed but not before seeing you walk up to them.  I felt better because it means you weren’t going to ignore the situation anymore, you were taking initiative to solve the problem.  I can’t deny I’m still boiling inside because I never would’ve thought the one person who I thought would make her happy would cheat on her like this, especially not with her best friend.  Man does it suck just thinking about it and it was also one of the reasons that we didn’t want to say anything, we couldn’t, we couldn’t even start to imagine how she would take it if she was to find out. 

“Do you think she’ll resolve the issue for good?” Nakky asked me as we were walking around

“Honestly babe, I have doubts about it, I don’t doubt that she wants to solve the problem but you and I both know that there isn’t an easy way out, one that would minimize the damage.  I doubt them because they promised that they won’t do it again, sobbing to us that Airi is too much of an important person to lose but talk is cheap obviously if they are at it again” Just thinking about them having fun, while she is being kept in the dark, I clutched my hands into fists

“I wish we could do something about it, help out instead of just leaving it up to her” Nakky voiced out in an annoyed tone

“I do too but what can we do?  We, ourselves see the whole situation between all three of them, yet we can’t choose sides, it’s not right, what will happen within the group?” I was frusterated, Nakky was frusterated, heck everyone who knows about the situation must be frusterated

“Chisa!” we turned our heads and saw Airi running up to us “Have you seen my girlfriend around?”

My face darkened at the aforementioned missing individual, what the heck does she see in her anyways?  I mean it was all fun and games with the flirting before they became an item but dragging it out to others after the fact, now that isn’t funny anymore. “N-no, no we haven’t right Chisa?” Nakky answered nudging me to follow suit

I couldn’t do this anymore, I have to give her some sort of warning or even just tell her everything!!! “Stay away…” I uttered but was stopped by a jab that Nakky threw at my side

“Chisa!” Nakky scolded before turning towards her “Sorry Chisa and I were having an argument so she’s a bit grumpy that she didn’t have a retort for my latest reasoning” Nakky pulled me away before I spill anymore.  “That was close!!” Nakky let out when we were far enough

“Why did you stop me?” I demanded “I’ve had enough of this, the least we could do is warn her or something can’t we?”

“No!  We can’t because what reasoning were you planning on giving her huh?  Stay away from your girlfriend because she’s cheating on you? Isn’t that like directly telling her???” Nakky yelled back at me and I knew she had a point but I just didn’t feel like letting this go.  At the end of the day though, I couldn’t bring myself to do it and because Nakky was getting upset at me about it, I had to drop it.

End of Flashback #1

We arrived at our destination and looked around at the others that have arrived, other agency members like some of the Berryz were there, the senpais and even graduated senpais were there.  I noticed that when my eyes exchanged with other members of the Berryz, they all gave us apologetic looks, in which they shouldn’t, we didn’t blame them…

Out of the corner of my eye I saw them, hand in hand, and I don’t know what it was but I lost it, they shouldn’t be here, they have no right to be here anymore. I left Nakky’s side and ran up to them from behind.  I heard Nakky calling my name, but I ignored it, no one was to stop me,…there isn’t anyone around to stop me anymore, tears had began to brim.  I charged up from behind, turned her around and pulled my fist back in one swift motion.  It wasn’t until I made contact that my tears started to fall down.  Others around me all watched in horror as I picked her up by the collar and pulled my fist back again.  I felt arms around my hand and waist pulling me away and I saw some of the senpais at her side checking her injury

“Get out!!! Get out both of you!!! You aren’t welcomed here!!! Look at how much trouble you’ve caused!!!! She’s never coming back!!!!” I hollered while being dragged away.  The senpais that were checking your injury looked at me with confusion.  I struggled out of the grasp of those pulling me away and ran up to her again fighting through the mini wall the senpais put up and I had almost reached her until I heard them shout at me.

“STOP!!!!” Everyone stopped and turned to see them coming.

I took this chance to get through the senpais and pulled her collar to deck her again but I felt 3 pairs of hands controlling me and Airi in front of me.  How can she defend them still??? How can she defend them when she already knows about it??? How can she defend them when they hurt her so??? I looked into her eyes “Stop, it’s okay Chisa, everything is okay, don’t do this, not today…not here” She put her hand on my raised arm and instantly I softened.

ShimiSaki-chan went up to them and pulled them up and I heard them mumble a ’thanks’ to her, I turned away at the scene, they can be forgiving but I can’t.  From the side I saw Erika looking at me, she had tears in her eyes, threatening to fall, as I opened my arms for her to hug.  She ran into my arms “Thanks Chisa for stopping” how can I not stop, she was right, I shouldn’t do this today, not here…not now.  We all watched as the 4 walked along the path, everyone moving aside for them to walk through and following right behind them. 

We continued down the path up the hill slowly and in 2 lines and didn’t stop until we reached the top, where there stood one lone monument, one lone tombstone with your picture.  Everyone spread out to be lined around it, as I saw her pull out a handkerchief and begin to wipe the dust on the tombstone, especially away from the picture of your smiling face.  Just looking at the picture, tears were welling up again and I could feel that Nakky’s were too as she took my hand in hers.

“Thank you all for coming today” Tanaka-san stepped up and stood beside your tomb “I know it must have been difficult to arrange for us to be here today…*sniff*” Tanaka-san was beginning to cry and I watched as Takahashi-san went up to support her “I’m sure not all of you had the chance to work with Maimi, but even so have probably heard great things about her, and for those that have, Abe-san, Yaguttsan, probably remember the fun that you’ve had working with her.  I did,” Tanaka-san looked at Takahashi-san, who gave her a smile “Ai-chan did and it is through these experiences that made our bonds closer.  I’m sure that as she is watching us from above, she’d be thrilled to see us as well as emotional to see us all gathered here today, seeing how many friends she’s had”   Erika took out some white roses from one of the bags and passed them out to everyone to lay on your grave, even to them, while Tanaka-san and Takahashi-san stood back in line.

One by one, people would walk up to your grave, bow and put a white rose down and some would make a small comment.

“Maimi-chan, it was great knowing you did you know that? Maybe it is because we are both dense and clueless, but every moment we were together, it was always jokes and fun.  You were the first ever collaboration with the kids and the only collaboration I’ve had in a while, hehe, we were considered a unit right?” Abe-san chuckled a bit through tears “I still can’t believe that such a young, care-free, cheerful girl like yourself have been taken away from us…may you rest in peace and protect us from the stars above” Abe-san bowed, placed a white rose down and slowly walked away

“Yassui!!! *Huff*” Yaguchi-san was also tearing already and she looked like she wasn’t able to continue, luckily Momo-chan, Erika-san, and ShimiSaki-chan walked up to her side.  They all gave Yaguchi-san the support she needed as ZYX. “I know when we first collaborated together it was for ZYX and although you guys” Yaguchi-san looked at all of them “were scared, I admit I was just as scared working with you guys.  Hehe as you may know, some of you guys were intimidating me with your sizes *sniff*, but we worked well together at the end nee?  T-the impression I have of you as you grew up is your s-smile, *sniff* your smile…y-your smile was a unique one and you struck me as a person that was never upset, *sniff* always smiling regardless of how hard your training is.  *Sniff* I think the only time I recall seeing you not to be smiling your fullest was when you first started but that could be because you were nervous nee? It’s a loss to the world…a loss to the world to never see that smile again, *sniff* t-that…that same smile that warms my heart *sniff* god bless you Yassui for the good memories, may you rest in peace” Yaguchi-san placed her white rose down and then walked over to join Abe-san and other senpais on the side.

“Whooo~ *sniff* Maimi-chan, genki desuka?” ShimiShaki-chan and the Berryz walked up in front of your grave “*Sniff* I speak on behalf of our group when I say that it has definitely been our pleasure to have known you…*sniff*” The Berryz were all crying and sobbing lightly in the background with Toku-san and  Miyabi-chan crying closest to ShimiSaki-chan “I, personally, am grateful that in my lifetime I had the chance to know you *sniff* and…and I thank you for all the times that you would listen to my problems.  Y-y-you were and always have been a great friend, *sniff* one…one who would never reschedule or reject me, would make time for me, travel out of your way when I was in need” Listening to ShimiSaki-chan’s speech, our own group started crying harder thinking about how you would do the same for us, along with the Berryz.

“Y-You have commented before about me smile, Maimi-chan,*sniff* but I liked your smile, I like the fact that you could smile through anything *sniff* whereas…whereas myself, I do tend to get upset easy and wouldn’t hide it either” Toku-san commented

“I tend to get jealous of you did you know that? *sniff* I-I-I wasn’t as tall as you were, nor was I as athletic as you were, b-but I trained or at least tried to train harder.  *sniff* It was like you were my goal, my way of trying to be better or train harder, my motivation…*sniff* that seemed to have faltered now” Momo-chan was trying hard not to break down but I could tell she was because her small frame was shaking slightly “b-but I won’t let this pull me down *sniff* I promise you *sniff* I-I will continue to try hard”

“*Sniff* I…I’m ashamed really…ashamed on multiple accounts.  *sob*Jealous maybe?  Jealous of what you have, jealous of your good qualities but I was cleared up by Saki-tan, big time” Miyabi looked over to Saki beside her giving her a light smile “I always thought the same way the general public did, you were dense, not fit to be a leader, not on top of your game, but…*sniff* I’m sorry…I never realized how many behind the scenes things you have done to keep your group in line…*sniff* never realized how much of a friend you meant to a lot of us… never realized how much of a leader you could be…even if it wasn’t within your own group” Miyabi looked and stared at Risako, who looked away in shame “You’ve spent most of your existence with us, wasted most of your time on your group and in the agency without living life to your fullest yet… *sigh* and I’m in awe, flabbergasted, surprised…thankful.  Your dedication and the emotions that you portrayed to your group members good…and bad” Miyabi glared at Kanna “is something I can learn from, something we can all learn from.  Please watch out for us, Maimi-chan, like you’ve always been doing”

When all of Berryz were done, they went up altogether and laid down their white roses, then got together in a line “May you rest in peace, Maimi-chan.  We love you” they said in unison before bowing and walking to the side.

It was finally our group’s turn, Maimai was having trouble walking from when we got here to now, and it was the other Berryz and Morning Musume members that helped her get till this far.  Nakky, Erika and I went up to Aika-san to take Maimai from her as we slowly walked up to your grave.  Just by that short walk, I know that Maimai was at her limit, because her legs have given way long ago and she didn’t have the energy to do anything but cry now.  “M-Maimai, *sniff* please be strong *sniff* for her” I whispered in your ears as support

None of us were actually in any condition to say anything, we were bawling non-stop and our words were incoherent now.  “M-Maimi-chan” Erika started, breathing slowly to get her voice in check “you were the one that I was closest to in the group because our ages were closest” Erika looked up at the sky and breathed loudly “but despite the fact that I was older, I wasn’t as capable or tolerant as you were, and I relied on you a lot of the time.  *Sniff* I-I-I hate you though, *sniff* for being my pillar and leaving me be weak because *sniff*…because now who was I suppose…suppose to lean on? I’ve become weaker.  *Sniff* I-I-I won’t deny that I enjoyed it though” Erika chuckled lightly “H-how you would take care of me, make me laugh *sniff* when I was down, and listen to me when I had problems.  *sniff* I…I voiced it out to you before how I *sniff* I saw myself as weak and felt weak in comparison, do you remember what you told me? *sniff* you said that you’ll take care of me…until I become strong…because *sniff* because you believed in me. *sniff* as much as I don’t want to, I will become stronger,…on my own…f-f *sniff* for you”

“M-Maimi-chan!!!! Come back!!!” Maimai ran to your grave and hugged it crying, just seeing her like this my heart ached.  Everyone knew that you treated her like a younger sister and she loved you just the same, you guys had a close bond, sharing the same birthday.  Everyone else turned away seeing MaiMai like this but they won’t know how she feel exactly, every birthday, she’ll be reminded of you.  Seeing that Maimai was in no condition to continue this, Erika and I, who were also close to Maimai held onto her and lifted her away

“M-Maimi-chan! We’ll…*sniff* we’ll miss you!!! I-I know *sniff* I know that people see you as unreliable *sniff* and not fit to be leader, but…but *sniff* we do.  *Sniff* We saw and felt you working hard to be a better leader *sniff* and we’re happy that you were.  Although…*sniff* although you aren’t physically here, please continue to guide us *sniff* from up above and watch over C-ute like you have been doing” Nakky spoke on our behalf because I was taking care of Maimai with Erika-san

Before she could speak, they walked up together and stood beside her.  I couldn’t hear what they told her but all of a sudden she took a step back and let them through.

“*sniff* Maimi-chan, I’m…we’re…we’re sorry.  I’m…I’m sorry *sniff* I know…I know I said some things that I shouldn’t have and…*sniff* and I know you must have been hurt and…*sob* and now it’s too late for me to apologize because I’ll…I’ll never get the chance to say it to you personally ever again.  I’m sorry, Maimi-chan *sob* I’m sorry.  We…We never thought that things would turn out like this…but now…*sob* now we’re too late” they both fell to the ground on all fours crying and sobbing

I watched as she walked up to you guys, tears of her own falling and patted you guys on the shoulders.  You both looked up to her and she smiled, a weak smile “*sniff* d-don’t worry, I’m…I’m sure she’ll forgive you…*sniff* I mean, she forgave you guys.  I’m sure!” she turned to look at your picture “*sniff* because that’s who she is *sniff*” She took each of their arms and picked them up, in which they both gave her a hug and murmured something in her ear before putting down their rose, bowed and took a couple steps back for her to do her speech “*sniff* if anything…if anything, I should be the one saying sorry. I-I was stupid to see how you protected each and everyone one of us…stupid for being so harsh on you.  Sorry Maimi-chan for all my stupid mistakes *sniff* and although you’re physically gone *sniff* although you’re physically gone, you’ll never be gone.  B-b-because *sob* you’ll always live in our hearts.”  She turned to look at Erika and nodded at her, who ushered us to the front beside her, where she first laid down her white rose followed by each and everyone in our group, before we bowed in unison.

She then turned to ShimiSaki-chan and Tanaka-san and nodded at them, which caused the whole group to step forward,  “*sob* L-l-like you told me that day…with me, *sniff*…with me, you’ll always be.  M-Maimi-chan… Maimi-chan, all those here *sniff* all those here each contain memories of you *sniff* and if I may…if I may speak on the group as a whole…everything we know about you *sniff*, everything we went through with you,…we’ll…we’ll never forget. *sob* G-g-goodbye Maimi-chan, and…and H-h-happy birthday.  G-god bless you”


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 5 (final) - 02/03
« Reply #114 on: February 04, 2010, 03:12:17 PM »
@ rndm
Seems there are lots of drama when it it comes to RenAi.


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Yay, I was right it's Maimi! Though I shouldn't be happy because she's dead  :sweatdrop:
Wait, wait, so who's Airi gf and the girl the gf cheated her with?

It's over but once again  :cow:  for Kids fic!


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 5 (final) - 02/03
« Reply #115 on: February 04, 2010, 03:36:08 PM »
@ Chloe: It's in there, unless you meant that you didn't know who played who as opposed to what are the names

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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 5 (final) - 02/03
« Reply #116 on: February 07, 2010, 08:38:09 PM »
:doh:
Sorry, I reread it again and now it's clear. Shouldn't have read it when I was sleepy and tired  :nervous


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- With You: Part 5 (final) - 02/03
« Reply #117 on: March 01, 2010, 11:42:53 PM »
I haven't written a one-shot in ages it seems but in reality its been only 1 month  :lol:

Alright something that I have been thinking deeply about, what do you think?

They Said…

They said we weren’t meant for each other,
That you were too young for me and I should find another.
They said that it could ruin your views in your future life,
If things didn’t come out properly, if things didn’t go right.
They said that I was one of your influences right now,
I still think and laugh about that one and think “how?”
They said you’d fallen for me for a very long time,
If only I had the courage to say the same and make you mine
They said you were confused for a long time with your feelings,
I couldn’t deny that I wanted to know how you were dealing
They said this result was because of who we are, in part because of me
It was undeniably my fault, I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror, you see
They said that I should of handled this better, minimize the pain,
They don’t understand that I was at a loss too, nobody was at a gain.
They said I should’ve told you how I felt about you,
Funny how they changed sides now when there isn’t anything I can do.
They said they were sorry for me, for us, for everything
But it’s all too late now, when I’m left here with absolutely nothing.
They said…why did I listen to what others said to me?
Because if I didn’t, I wouldn’t feel this guilt and we’d be happy

As I penned those last words to this poem I wrote for you, my tears had already started falling and nothing would make it stop.  I went through these last few weeks of my life with plenty of pain, anger and regret when looking at those who I thought would’ve understood me.  It’s all too late though, you’re friends look at me with mixed emotions and they didn’t have to say anything at all, I could clearly see it written on their faces.  I barely have the courage to look at their young faces, they were at a loss too and it’s because of their tight relationship with you, all 11 of them, different groups or not, they were feeling the pain that I was or at least close to. 

Flashback

I remember when I first noticed you, you have grown up already and although we weren’t close nor were we given the chance to be close, I still noticed you.  You had a special aura around you, something different from others, and I didn’t really think of it as anything more, telling myself I see you as my younger sister.

I paid more attention to what you were doing and I didn’t notice it either, I didn’t notice how I would zoom in on you when you practiced, thinking that I was just paying attention to your practices as a senior.  I mentioned about how cute I thought you were, at how you’ve matured, at how you seem so care-free with the load on your shoulders to my friends and they just looked at me weird.  When they first told me something was off, I denied them by telling them I am just looking out for you as a senior. 

I kept that in mind all the time ‘I see her only as a little sister, I see her only as a little sister’ so it was natural that if you were sick or if you had an accident, regardless of how big or small, that I would worry right?  I thought it was normal, I mean I get worried about my real younger sister…don’t I?

I was taken aside by my best friend one day when we were at rehearsal, I had just finished my rehearsal and I knew I had messed up because I saw that you and your friends were in the stands watching us rehearse.  I closed my eyes waiting for my best friend’s lecture about not staying in focus and questioning why but it never came as I opened my eyes to meet her worried ones.

“Is there something you have to tell me?” she asked and I just looked at her quizzically and shook my head “Are you SURE?” again I shook my head

She frowned and sat there thinking, whereas I was thinking this was an awkward moment as I looked at the walls and other things around me until she spoke “Do you…do you have feelings for her?”

“Who are you referring to?”

“The one you’ve been denying about all these weeks, the one where all your attention has been drawn to unexpectedly, the one you’ve been telling us you see as a younger sister”

I was dumbfolded, she just answered her own question didn’t she?? “Er…like you’ve said I see her as…”

“Don’t tell me you see her as a younger sister because it is obvious it isn’t” she hollered at me in which surprised me “Look, you can’t and shouldn’t have feelings for her, she’s too young for you, innocent, she’s going to get confused about these feelings.  I don’t suggest you continue this”

“I have no clue what you are saying but by the way you have just phrased yourself, it makes me feel that you are saying that I will be poison to her” I was angered, what do you mean I can’t and shouldn’t??? I just told you I see her as a younger sibling…don’t I??? No, don’t let her words make you think otherwise

“I didn’t mean it that way, I just hope you understand that if she starts developing feelings for you, it will be frowned upon because she’s young and innocent, she’ll be confused and go through something that she wasn’t sure about.  I just wanted to warn you about that point” she got up and walked away

I was utterly upset because I didn’t expect that from my best friend, telling me I was going to taint you, where is she getting these ideas???

End of Flashback

Needless to say, I ignored her thinking that she didn’t know what she was talking about and I watched over you and even took the first step in conversing with you.  I kept in mind that I only see you as a younger sibling throughout as we talked about different things when we get the chance. 

Flashback

It was like any other rehearsal we had in a large group, I took the chance to meet up with you and we would talk.  It was funny, I was getting grins from your friends and just looking at them grin at me I could only laugh at how cute they were, although at the back of my head I wondered what they were grinning about as they left us alone. 

I had felt comfortable with you and I have learned new things from you and how you think, it was absolutely cute and fresh to me.  I don’t know how or who started it but in one of our talk sessions, our lips met the other.  I pulled away quickly and I guess you thought I was upset about it because you got up quickly with your head lowered and ran.  I wanted to run after you, I honestly did, but my legs didn’t want to listen to me as they were stuck on the ground.

I cried to my other friends because I was confused now but little did I know that it was the biggest mistake of my life.  They told me to stay away from you, that I should figure out what it was that I felt for you and if it was love…if it was love to break it because nothing good will come out of it.  I was dumb, blinded, swayed to easily because I agreed and thought that you mistaken my care and concern for you as something more. 

End of Flashback

Little did I know that I was the one that was mistaken, you knew your feelings as clear as diamonds, you weren’t fooling around nor were you confused.  I didn’t know that my care and concern for you was way out of the realm of sibling-love, I truly had become attached to you, but that is all too late now isn’t it? 

I knew those around me were regretting their actions, regretting keeping us apart but what good is that to us now???  Absolutely none, I can’t say I loathe them because they are my friends but I can’t say that I forgive them either.  You won’t come back, never in this lifetime will I see your smile again and here I stand living with these unexplainable feelings.

I want to hate them for standing in our way, why couldn’t they be more supportive like your friends?  Maybe its because they are younger than me and my friends, that’s the only explanation I could come up with but I knew deep down that I couldn’t hate anyone but myself, hate myself for being a coward, hate myself for listening to what they said.

I stand here on the rooftop and put that poem I just wrote on fire hoping that it’ll reach you  as I watched the remaining message to you almost engulfed in flames before taking that extra step forward

I’m coming for you Maimi, wait for me


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- They Said... - 03/01
« Reply #118 on: March 02, 2010, 03:30:41 PM »
Another again? Wow!

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‘I see her only as a little sister, I see her only as a little sister’
Denial mantra  XD

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“I didn’t mean it that way, I just hope you understand that if she starts developing feelings for you, it will be frowned upon because she’s young and innocent, she’ll be confused and go through something that she wasn’t sure about.  I just wanted to warn you about that point”
Not legal? It's hard if she isn't.

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I’m coming for you Maimi, wait for me
:mon scare: she's gonna jump?

The main character, If she's a senior, then she's likely from MM...Risa?  :? Because I thought the best friend that would think with so much logic like that probably would be Ai.

What's with the angsty one-shots lately, huh?  :lol:


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Re: FaqU's one-shots- They Said... - 03/01
« Reply #119 on: March 03, 2010, 03:24:24 PM »
I don't know what is up with the angsty one-shots but I guess I think better about angsty feelings than I do others.  Maybe it's just me and my weird thinking  :lol:

We Said…

We said that you guys should never be together,
We did know that it was in the context of forever.
We said that she wasn’t fit and could ruin her life
We did this thinking that we were doing what’s right
We said that you would be an influence in her future
We knew she was young, still fresh, innocent and pure
We said that you weren’t sure of what you were feeling
We thought that over time you would go through healing
We said that you should keep a good distance from her
We did this to keep your feelings from developing further
We said that you guys can’t be together because of who you are
We didn’t know that the things we said would take things this far
We said we were sorry that we should have done what we did
We hoped that you wouldn’t hate us and try to forgive
We apologize for the loss that you feel right now
We want to compensate you in anyway, anyhow
We said…we said a lot of things that means probably absolutely nothing
For now…now we see someone in front of us as if they have lost everything
We said…why did we say those things I hope you can understand in good time
We didn’t mean any harm we just did those things to protect you guys over time
We regret that now as your pain is very clear to us as we can see
Please try to understand we said those things just to see you happy.

I wrote this poem for our group as we are feeling guilty for everything that transpired and no one had the energy to even pen these thoughts out to you.  I, as your best friend, was the best choice amongst everyone and even I have trouble writing my thoughts about what happened.  Our group has gone silent from all the crying and regret that we feel because we didn’t know how to face you and that look you had, it was an indescribable look, a look we never thought we’d ever see shown on your face.  We thought we were doing things for your own good, for her own good, but we now know that we were wrong, at a cost.  We wanted to apologize to her friends for the loss but we didn’t even have that courage to face them because we knew they were supportive of her and we wondered why we couldn’t be the same?

Flashback

I had noticed it for a while now that you were staring at her and paying all your attention to her, you would sit in the stands and watch her group practice and although that would seem logical in everyone else’s eyes, I knew what was to transpire.  I could feel your confusion, I could hear your thoughts, I could see your mixed emotions, even when you couldn’t but that’s because you were so dazed by her.  It wasn’t long when you first voiced your observations to our friends, who in turn replayed it back to me, and they told you that what you saw was not something that we saw and that maybe you shouldn’t pay too much attention to her but you denied all of their comments, you kept repeating that you were watching out for her like an older sister, a senpai.  You kept on denying our friends and the fact that we saw things that you clearly didn’t and we tried to tell you that you were not seeing her like a little sister anymore, in fact you were seeing her as something more closer.  I couldn’t hold my tongue anymore, after much urging from our friends that you weren’t listening, I decided it was time I had a word with you because clearly your performance was not the best that I have seen you and I knew that she was occupying your mind, when she was right in the stands with her friends looking at us rehearse.

I dragged you aside to an empty room, a little furious at your performance as well I was concerned about how far this attraction between the both of you has gone.  You shouldn’t develop these feelings, she’s young, inexperienced, she doesn’t know what she feels and what she wants right now.  Someone will be heartbroken if things go down south and I hoped to protect you both from that happening.  I sat you down in a chair and I could clearly see that your eyes were closed waiting for my lecture but when looking at you with mixed emotions of anger and worry, worry seems to overtake anger.  I didn’t speak up until you had opened your eyes and met mine, “Is there something you have to tell me?” I asked you hoping that you’d open up to me as your best friend but you shook your head, I wanted to scream in my mind ‘You can’t keep on denying your feelings but you can’t have these feelings’ “Are you SURE?” I emphasized that last word to indicate that it was a good chance to open up to me because I am giving her that time to have this heart-to-heart conversation but again you shook your head.

I was disappointed that you didn’t tell me what was going on in your mind, what you were thinking, although I had a sense of what it was, it was better to hear it from you.  I debated about telling you what I thought but I also wanted my sensitivity to be wrong, I decided that I couldn’t avoid this anymore, it’ll only aid in your feelings to continue to grow. “Do you…do you have feelings for her?”

“Who are you referring to?” ‘I guess you are still in denial of your feelings’

“The one you’ve been denying about all these weeks, the one where all your attention has been drawn to unexpectedly, the one you’ve been telling us you see as a younger sister” I said that all in one breath, with a hint of annoyance

“Er…like you’ve said I see her as…”

‘That’s it!!! That’s the last straw!!!’ “Don’t tell me you see her as a younger sister because it is obvious isn’t it?  Look, you can’t and shouldn’t have feelings for her, she’s too young for you, innocent, she’s going to get confused about these feelings.  I don’t suggest you continue this” ‘There I finally said it’

You didn’t take that lightly though as your anger started to rise “I have no clue what you are saying but by the way you have phrased yourself, it makes me feel that you are saying that I will be poison to her”

I was shocked, “I didn’t mean it that way, I just hope you understand that if she starts developing feelings for you, it will be frowned upon because she’s young and innocent, she’ll be confused and go through something she wasn’t sure about.  I just wanted to warn you about that point” I left you with that last comment, hoping that you’d understand where I am coming from, where we were coming from

End of Flashback

I didn’t know whether to be surprised or expectant when you decided to ignore my warnings because you still watched her, you even took things a step further when you walked up to her and starting hanging out with her.  Our worst nightmare arrived when you came to us after rehearsal one day.

Flashback

The door opened to our shared hotel room, in which some of our friends were chilling in, you had tears in your eyes and we worried over you.  It was then that you told us how far things have gone because she had kissed you and you regretted for freezing, indicating to us that she felt the same way for you too.  We didn’t support you, we told you to stay away from her giving you excuses that you froze because you weren’t sure about your feelings and that you should figure that out first.  We didn’t stop there though, oh no, we had to break everything now because this can’t keep going on, we told you if you love her then you shouldn’t continue this because nothing good will come out of it.  We knew your mind wasn’t thinking on it’s own, the perks of being close friends with you is that we know when and how to pursue you and we knew that you weren’t listening to our ramblings, you were only picking up points here and there and we stressed on some of those points and you agreed.  Our friends and I could relax at that point because we knew that in this moment where you are confused, you will do as we suggested, we didn’t know that this all came with a cost, a cost that we weren’t willing to pay.

End of Flashback

I can’t deny that I was wrong, we were wrong, wrong for stopping you guys from finding each other because obviously the outcomes of this told us we were wrong, like a huge slap on the face.  The days that you ignored her, broke her down completely, it was cruel punishment and we are the ones to blame, we were the ones that put that into your head.  If she wasn’t so depressed over your change in behaviour maybe, just maybe she would’ve noticed that car that was coming, maybe she would still be alive.  If she had survived that car accident, maybe you wouldn’t have been depressed and maybe we could have had that chance to make things right but we’re late.  We know that there is nothing that we say or do now can replace the pain that you feel, the pain that her friends feel, the pain that we feel but we can only try to take you out of this slump.

I penned in the last words before putting this card with our poem into an envelope in our hotel room for when you came back from your walk.  I knew that this wasn’t much but our friends wanted to start doing something for you, just to get you back on your feet as I looked at the envelope one more time before heading out to the dance studio.

No words can ever replace the pain that you feel, but please don’t push us away, we want to help you heal.



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