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Her and Sayu both. I think they talked about it on Sayu's radio show. Koharu sleeps with her eyes open and it creeps everyone out. She even bought a mask so that she wouldn't disturb others. She said that her family often checks to make sure she's still breathing because she looks like she's dead! And apparently, Sayu's not much better.
But it's funny too
Chapter 19
Koharu pulls me into her room and closes the door. I gaze at her. I really don’t understand anything.
“Why do you let her kiss you?” She stares at me.
“What?”
“If I don’t break, you’ll let her kiss you, right?”
“That’s just a game, Koharu-chan.”
“Yes that’s just a game, but a kiss is a kiss!”
“Why do you care?”
She keeps quiet.
“I’m not your girlfriend. Why do you care?”
She glares at me, clearly angry. She comes near to me, pushes me to the bed and lies on top of me.
“You’re mine.”
She wraps my wrist so that I can put her away.
“I’ll never let anyone touch you anymore. You’re mine.”
“What the hell are you doing? Cheating on me and Mittsi?”
“Huh?”
“You said you dated Mittsi, why do you still want me?” I cry out.
“I…”
She bows her head in silence. She lets go of my hands.
“I didn’t date Mittsi at all…”
“What?” I glare at her.
“I… I told a lie about that…”
I’m really angry. I push her away and yell to her.
“WTF? Why did you lie about that?”
Now it’s her turn to be scared.
“I… I just want to know whether you will be jealous or not… But you weren’t… So I decided to give up…” She bows her head to avoid my look. “But today… I really can’t stand it anymore…”
“Jealous? I WERE very jealous! So what else’s? Are you happy about that?”
She looks up to me in a surprise.
“You were jealous…? So why didn’t you say anything when I said I would date Mittsi…”
“Damn you!” I yell. “Do you have brain? What could I say when you smiled and told me you would date her and I didn’t have to worry about you? What could I say, huh?”
I bite my bottom lip and look away, trying to calm down.
“But… I also have my feeling! I had to see you kissing Kamei-san, looking after her, staying with her, sleeping with her everyday. I can’t stand it!!”
“Yeah it’s my fault. But I didn’t do anything with Eri! I didn’t love her anymore. I only helped her. Why didn’t you trust me? Why did you tell a lie instead? You think if you make me jealous, I’ll tell you that I’m jealous, I love you, please don’t date her, or something like that? You’re such an idiot! You even didn’t let me explain anything. Do you that if you hadn’t lied in that moment, we wouldn’t have broken up?”
“I… didn’t know…”
“Do you know that day what I came to your room for? I wanted to explain, I wanted to tell you that I love you, not Eri. I wanted to apologize for leaving you alone like that. But I couldn’t say anything!”
“I’m sorry…”
She starts crying.
“I was idiot…” She bows her head. Her tears drop on the bed. “I didn’t mean to lie you at all… I just wanted you to care for me… I wanted to know whether you need me or not…”
I feel my tears start running down on my cheek, too.
“I didn’t mean to monopolize you… I only want you to need me…”
I was very angry. But in reality, I feel happy, too. Seeing her sitting in front of me like that makes me feel at ease. At least I know she still loves me, she doesn’t change.
“You can yell to me, you can slap me. You can do whatever you want… But… I beg you…” She cries out “Please comeback to me…”
I can’t stand but lean to hug her. I don’t know what to say. I just let her cry on my shoulder like that for a while.
“Do you… still like me?” She sobs.
“No at all.”
She turns to look at me when I say that. Her eyes are full of tears. I smile, brushing her eyes. I pull her close to me.
“I don’t like you. I love you.”
She puts her head on my chest and bursts into tears. I gently stroke her hair.
“Why didn’t you trust me? I love you. No matter how much hurt I feel, I really can’t stop loving you.” I whisper. “So you have to trust me, ok?”
She nods, still crying.
“I was wrong… I’m sorry…”
“I was wrong, too. I didn’t have enough courage to talk to you directly… I was cowardly… Thank you for taking me here.” I hold her more tightly. “Everything is fine now. Nothing matters anymore… Don’t worry, ok?”
“Yeah…”
“So stop crying. I hate seeing you crying like that. That’s not a cute scene to see.”
“AH~ you say I’m not cute?” She pouts out.
I cover my mouth and giggle.
“Hey! You tease me!” She goes on top and start to tickle me. I can’t help but burst into laughs. I try to push her away and tickle her back.
“Shhh…” She puts a finger in front of her lips. “Stop laughing. That will disturb the next room.”
We look at each other and giggle. She buries her face to my neck.
“Sayu-chan…”
“Huh?”
“From now on… please… don’t kiss anyone else…”
“…”
“In the concerts, or on the TV… don’t kiss anyone else.”
“You know they’re just fake kisses.”
“Yeah. I know. But I’m… I’m still a kid. I can’t be mature enough to control my feeling. I’ll get jealous. Although I trust you, I’ll still get jealous.” She looks deeply into my eyes. “Maybe I’m selfish. But I don’t want us to misunderstand again.”
“I know.” I smile and kiss on her hair.
“Ano… Did you and Kamei-san… do it yet?”
Her question shocks me. I push her away and gaze at her.
“I told you we didn’t …”
“But why?”
“I don’t know. I wasn’t ready.” I blush “We only kiss, and no more.”
“For 4 years?”
“Yes. Why do you ask such a question?”
She keeps quiet. She nuzzles to my neck again.
“Hey you’re acting strangely!”
She continues to keep silent. I push her off my neck and kiss her.
“No!” She screams out. She keeps away from me and catches her breath.
“What’s wrong with you? Why do you avoid me?” I hold her chin with my finger, forcing her to look at me.
“I’m sorry…” She blushes. “But… If we keep kissing and touching like that… I… I will not be able to control myself.” Her face turns red.
“It’s OK.”
She looks at me dazedly. I lean to embrace her.
“It’s ok if you want to do this. You can do whatever you like. I belong to you.”
“But you said… you weren’t ready…”
“For you, I’m always ready.”
She’s surprised for a while. But then she smiles more than happy and lean to kiss me.
“Ah~ but not here. Someone may come here to see us because of your weird actions at the party…” I whisper.
“Forget them.” She unbuttons my shirt. “Tonight I won’t let you leave me. Even if someone interrupts, I won’t stop.”
She smiles and kisses me on the neck.
That night, I suddenly realized that
To be kissed softly by you
To be touched gently by you
Is not enough for me.
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