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I know I shouldn't be laughing since it's such a serious fic but I couldn't help it when Reina was yelled at asking if she had a brain. I think a couple of e members must have thought that in real life too
lol, although this is a serious fic, no one will complain if you laugh here
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Chapter 22
I stop in front of the door. I know I’ll be such a fool if I keep standing here, but there’s something preventing me from knocking on this door.
* “Is your dignity that important to you?” *When I recall what Sayu said, my heart tightens. Dignity? Maybe she was right. The one to lose the trust is me. I should have trusted Eri. I should have trusted them.
I gaze at the door.
Finally, I decide to knock.
“Eri?”
No answer.
She isn’t here?
I try to knock again. Still, no answer. I try opening the door. It’s unlocked, that is strange. Eri always locks the door. She’s a careful person, after all.
I come in and look around.
My heart seems to stop beating.
She’s lying on the floor. She holds her neck with both her hands, her eyes are full of tears. I’m too stunned to do anything.
“ERI!” I run to her. “ERI WHAT’S WRONG WITH YOU?”
“Reina…?” She looks at me in surprise. “Why do you come here?”
“Forget it. What’s wrong with you? Are you ok?” I let her head rest on my arm. She breathes heavily. I have never seen her like that. I really don’t know what to do. I take my cell phone from my bag and call Gaki-san.
“Moshi moshi?”
“GAKI-SAN… ERI… SHE…”
“Calm down. Eri what?”
“She can’t breathe… What’s wrong with her? Can you come here?”
“Oh. I see.”
What the hell? Why can she stay calm like that?
“HEY! What should I do now? Should I call an ambulance?”
“No, Reina. For you, it’s simple.”
“What?”
“She needs CO2. What you breathe out is CO2. Having fun kissing you turtle, nee.”
She hangs up.
Damn. She can’t talk to me a little huh? Maybe she’s in bed with her girlfriend that’s why.
“Eri…”
I slowly open her mouth.
*
Hot tears burst from my eyes.
I hold her tightly in my arms.
“Reina… I’m fine now…” She breathes steadily. “Don’t cry…”
I dry my eyes. But it can’t be helped. Tears can’t stop dropping.
“Why… What is this…”
She lets out a smile and touches my cheek with her hand.
“Just because… I need your breath, Reina.”
I look at her in shock.
“That hurts very much… That was like… Living hell…”
I burst into tears.
“But as long as Reina is by my side, nothing matters anymore.”
I hold her more tightly.
* “Eri needs you a lot. You’re the one who thinks only for yourself.” *“Reina, I told you not to cry.” She leans to embrace me. She smiles and presses my head on her shoulder.
Damn it. I’m the one who have to lend her my shoulder to rest or cry. But I end up borrowing her. Holy crap.
“Reina, you seem to be aware of your fault, nee?” She giggles. “If you apologize, I’ll consider forgiving you.”
I glance at her. She still can joke at this situation huh?
“Yes. I’m sorry.” I pout out.
“What kind of attitude is this?”
“I’m sorry! I’m sorry! I’m sorry! OK?” I cry out.
She bursts into laughs. She brushes my bottom lips a few times.
“I’m just joking. The person who has to apologize is me. I’m really sorry.”
I shake my head.
“Reina?”
“Huh?”
“I miss your lips very much.”
As long as you have enough sincerity,
The word “sorry” is never difficult to say anymore.
*
I open the door.
“Koharu-chan? Why don’t you turn on the light? That’s too dark to see anything…”
Without a word, she closes the door and locks it. She pushes me to the wall and presses my body against her.
“Koharu-chan…”
She silences me with a kiss. She kisses along my neck, then my collar bone. She quickly unbuttons my shirt and throws it away.
She presses me down to the floor and lies on top of me.
Her hand travels around my body, then stops in front of my pants. She unbuttons it and pulls down the zipper.
“Koharu-chan… we should… go to the bed. The floor is cold…” I breathe heavily.
She takes my hand and leads me to the bed. She still doesn’t say anything, that makes me a bit scared. As soon as we get to the bed, she pushes me down and goes on top. She kisses around my chest. Her breath is really heavy. She seems to want it now, that I’m willing to give her. I’ll give her anything she wants. And more important, she’s not the only one who wants it right now.
I stroke her hair. I close my eyes to feel more of her touches.
But suddenly she stops.
I look at her in surprise. She closes her eyes and catches her breath. She looks very sad. I can’t understand why.
“You really loved her.” She whispers.
“What?”
“Kamei-san. You loved her.”
I knit my brow.
“I told you many times I don’t…”
“Listen to me. Just a little.”
I keep quiet.
“Although right now you love me. But you loved her. That’s the truth.” She buries her face to my neck.
“I have never loved anyone but you. So I have never had to change my love… But I know, once you love, you cannot forget. Although you have a new love, you still can’t forget…”
“You still… care for her. Although you love me, she’s still very important to you. Whenever you stay with her, you turn into a very gentle person…”
Tears run down from her eyes.
“She can’t be replaced… in your heart. You still always rely on her. Whenever you get hurt, the person you want to share your feeling first is not me, right?”
“But…”
“I know in your heart, she still exists. But, I want to love you, despite all of that. I always want to become more mature. I want to become a person that you can rely on…” She looks deeply into my eyes. “I really want to be that gentle lover… but…”
Her tears drop on my cheek.
“But my heart still tightens whenever I see you care for her, whenever I think about it. I’m still jealous.”
I brush her tears.
“I don’t want to admit that… But… It’s like that… I want you to belong to only me… I’m like… monopolizing you…"
“No… That’s not true…”
“Am I too selfish?” She cries out. “When did I become that cruel person?”
“No! You’re not cruel!” I scream out. I start crying, too. I pull her closer to me and hold her tightly.
Why does everything have to be that difficult for us?
Although we’re in love, we still have to try to untangle the feeling of incompleteness.
Why is love so painful like that?
Koharu-chan,
When I think back about it now, your selfishness,
It isn’t really that important,
Doesn’t matter anything at all.
No one can love without selfishness and injuries
As long as we are courageous and passionate enough to hang on,
everything will be alright.
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