Yeah I know, I should work on Pink Vitriol instead of making you wait more... but you know it is pretty long to work on it, so I'd rather post this short Two Shot before, so it can help you waiting a bit more... No? hehe... Anyway, DEAL WITH IT. No seriously, sorry for my other fic, I'm kinda stuck with a sudden lack of inspiration...
Thank for your comments!
you should make a part 2! unless you're gonna make it heartbreaking 
It's kinda sad (I think that's your forte, isn't it? 
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The reason why I'm always writing sad things is because I think I totally suck at happy ending
As simple as that
YES I SWEAR! I'M HORRIBLE AT HAPPY ENDING TT_____TT
So yeah.... Is this fic going to be a sad ending too? Read it and find out about it! Sorry for the mistake... Haven't correct it either -.-'
Part 2I think I’ve never cared so much for someone in my life. The day after their sudden separation, when I went to see her after school, I’ve never feel so useless ever. I had a devastated person in front of me. I never want to see her this way. It was painful for me to watch her. It was painful because I knew that, no matter how much I tried my best to help her, I couldn’t make her smile.
I remember the first day she went at school after her rupture. I called her the night before, asking her if she was going to come… She said yes. The day after, I went sooner at school, just to be sure I would be there when she would come. I sent the whole day by her side. I didn’t want to leave her. I didn’t want her to be alone. I wanted her to know that she would never be alone… So I never left her. I was too afraid to find her crying in a dark corner. I talked to her about everything but the guy. I waited for her to talk about it first, and when she did, I was already ready to listen to her… as her loyal best friend. When she talked to me about him, about how she still loved him and hoped he would come back… I still don’t know how it was possible for me to stay alive.
The month after their separation was hard, not only for her, but also for me who had to support her all the time even though I wanted her to forget about him. She was always comparing everything to him, always talking about him, always saying he would like this or dislike that… I couldn’t tell her to stop, it would have been heartless from me… but seriously, I wanted to kill this guy. I wanted him to give me back the real friend I had before… everything. The friend I could see a real smile on her face, not a fake one all the time. I wanted him to bring me back the real Atsuko, not this sad person standing next to me in the street. But I had to face reality… this person… was still the one I loved.
After three months, she started to forget a little about him… or at least, she started stopping talking about him. I was able to have a conversation with her like before. She was smiling for real, I could see it in her eyes. I was thinking everything was slowly coming back like before… The Atsuko I knew before… was coming back home. I could see her far, walking toward me with her beautiful smile, stars shinning in her eyes… the girl I knew before he broke up with her. I was ready to take her, to bring her to a better world. And guess what, she reached me. The Atsuko I knew… was back… after so long time. Hope had never left me, not even for a second. I knew my best friend my strong enough to surpass it.
We’re now at the end of the year. Six months has passed since Takahiro broke up with her. I can tell she’s still thinking a bit about him, even though she’s not talking about him anymore. I surprised her looking at his picture a month ago… I know she still hasn’t forgotten about her first “real” love relationship… I guess I can’t understand since… I never experienced it. I’m still hoping I can find love someday… even if it’s not with her. I guess… even though I never stopped being with her… I never really understood how she felt. I can’t.
It’s really funny how things are now though. Our classmates know about what happened. They don’t talk about him either, knowing it may make cry. Or at least that’s what I told them. I just want her to be able to think about something else at school since she can’t do it at home. I was taking care of her so much that the “TakAcchan” name started again. But this time, the “taka” part was me. Not as her girlfriend… but as her friend. I’m glad about it. At least… that’s a beginning, right?
“Minami!” Atsuko says as she comes outside.
I smile at her. We’re eating together right now. It’s been like this everyday since he left her. Just for that, I’m thankful to him. I know I’m being cruel again… but I’m really happy to share more time with her now, even if I know she suffered a lot just some months ago. We start eating. I’m nervous. I keep glancing at her, smiling awkwardly. In fact, there’s something I want to ask her, but I don’t know how she will take it. I want to make sure she doesn’t misunderstand me.
“Hey, you know… soon it will be the prom… for our graduation…”
Great, I managed to say it without looking suspicious. In fact, I’m just smiling and talking as usual. I don’t know where I found the strength to say it this way… but thank.
“You know, we could go there together… as friends of course.”
I don’t think I need to add anything else. I don’t have bad intentions. I just know that… she will be sad if she goes there with another guy than Takahiro. I know she will be sad, thinking she might stay alone all time if I go with someone else. So at least, I want to go with her as her best friend and make some good memories. And I have to admit, I don’t want her to go with one of our friends… I don’t want to take any chance.
“Of course!” She says, smiling at me. “Thank you for inviting me… I was thinking I should just stay home.”
I look at her surprised. I knew she was still sad… but I didn’t expect her to think about just avoid it. I can’t help sighing, thinking we will have fun instead of staying home.
“I don’t know what I would do without you.” She adds, stealing a piece of fish from my bento at the same time.
“Hey!” I growl. “Don’t steal my food!”
She laughs. I like the way she laughs… I want her to be happy forever… even if she doesn’t need me to. But seriously, I’m not stupid enough to let the person I love being alone during that special day. I’m not like this Takahiro asshole… I will never leave the person I love. I know that… when I will leave her, it will be only because she would have asked me to. Until this day… I’m just dreaming about her day and night.
***
One week later, there’s only one week left before the graduation. I feel like we’re even closer than before since I asked her to go with me. Sometimes… I feel like I could kiss her and it wouldn’t matter. Of course, I never do it. I’m just thinking about the graduation prom… I can’t wait. Atsuko and I are going to celebrate it together, it will be awesome! I am currently waiting for her to come so we can just walk home together. I like being with her. I enjoy every time are together. I wish I could confess to her… but I don’t want to loose her. So I guess I’ll just wait more. I just hope… I’m doing the right thing.
I see her leaving the school and begin to walk toward her when another person arrives and talks to her first. I stop as I recognize his ex. His freaking ex I wanted to kill so much each time I saw Atsuko’s tears. I don’t know what hold me, but I walk calmly toward them and just frown at him.
“No.” I hear Atsuko saying as I approach them.
I know she tries to sound strong, but I can tell she’s moved by his sudden appearance. What the hell is he doing here anyway?! He sees me and smiles. I don’t know why, but I feel that my murderous intentions are coming back…
“Hello, Takahashi-san.” He says politely.
If he knew how much I want to rip his head off and give it to wolves, I don’t think he would be so nice with me.
“I was asking Atsuko if she wanted to go to the prom with me.” He keeps saying.
Excuse me?
“And I was answering that I don’t want to.” Atsuko frowns.
I wonder… if she can see that I’m about to stop breathing right now.
“Please, give me another chance.” He says with a sad voice. “Can we talk about it… just in private?”
He’s looking at me, like he’s asking me to leave. But I’m not moving. I’m just staring at Atsuko. If she wants me to leave… I will go. Can she tell… that my pain is about to come back?
“I don’t want to.” Atsuko answers.
My best friend… I know her so much that I can see the tears appearing in her eyes. I can tell… she has no idea what to do right now. I guess we can’t help it. Maybe I should leave them alone so they can talk… but I’m too scared to find a destroyed Atsuko when I will come back.
“Please…” He begs her. “I know I’ve being really stupid but…”
Of course he was stupid. And he still is. He’s taking her hand nicely, trying to act nice, but I want to kill him. I can tell… Atsuko is already destroyed just because he touches her. And I don’t want her to cry… not now… not after so much time… not after everything I’ve done to make her happy.
“Leave her alone.”
I don’t know why I said that, but I’m already pushing him back from her. I’m between them, ready to protect my best friend. I don’t want him to even look at her now. I can tell she’s ready to burst in tears, and I don’t want it to be here. Not when everyone is looking at her.
“But…” He says.
“Shut up.”
I’m stronger than him. I can kill him if I want, and it is with this though that I just pronounced these words. In others words: don’t even say something else if you want to stay alive. I can feel Atsuko holding my shirt. Damn… she’s probably holding her tears now… I grab her arm and leave, not turning back to look at him.
We are in front of my house. I don’t know what to do. We are sitting on a bench, waiting for something to happen. I don’t know what to say. After so much time… I thought everything was fine… but this guy just brought everything back to the start point. I guess I still can’t understand. What does Atsuko feel? Does she want me to leave her alone? Does she want to talk to him? But I don’t want to! I want her to be mine…
Why am I so selfish?
Maybe it is not what she wants. She probably wants to talk to him… to go with him… she probably still loves him! I ruined everything again. I’m stupid. I’m… thinking about myself. Maybe she really wanted to go with him…
“I’m sorry.” I whisper.
To my surprise, she’s not crying like I thought she would. She’s just smiling at me.
“Don’t… I’ve found someone better than him anyway…”
I can’t answer anything. Who is this “someone” she’s talking about? Is it another guy? I don’t think it’s me… it’s impossible. What if she told me she doesn’t want to go to the prom with me anymore? What would I do? I don’t want to go with another friend than her… she’s probably the most important person to me…
She’s just staring at me.
***
“Congratulations!”
This is it. The end of a chapter of our lives. The beginning of a new step in our lives. The prom just ended. Some of us are still there, ready to leave soon. I don’t care about them. I’m just waiting for Atsuko to come back. We danced like crazy tonight. We were together all the time. Or at least, I tried to be with her as much as possible. I knew Takahiro was there too. I didn’t want them to meet. I wanted Atsuko to have fun. And it worked.
The only problem is… she’s a bit drunk now. I don’t know exactly how it happened… I guess she can’t handle alcohol like me.
“I’m sorry, Minami…” She says as she walks out of the bathroom. “I’m ruining your night now…”
I want to tell her that as long as she’s with me, everything will be fine, but I can’t say anything. I know some students from our class are still looking at us. I don’t know why… now they are talking about us as a couple. The “TakAcchan” pairing is back… this is what they said. But I don’t want Atsuko to be sad because of rumours. So I have to deny them everyday. Deny the fact that we’re together, deny the fact that the “taka” part has become me… deny the fact that I love her.
“It’s okay.” I answer, wrapping her shoulder with my arm, staring at the others to look at their reaction.
I guess it is alright. They are not laughing… I think they are really seeing us as a couple. And I also think they accepted it. How can they accept something that is not true?
We’re heading outside. We sit together somewhere where nobody is. I feel the wind caressing my face. It’s good. I feel… relaxed. Music is still playing in my mind… and my eyes are still staring at her beauty.
“Tonight was fun…” She sighs.
Yes… I will remember this night all my life. I’ve never feel so close to her. Even if we’re only best friends… I feel like we are dating tonight.
“Thank you. I know you invited me… because you wanted me to have a nice time.”
No… you’re wrong. I invited you because I’m in love with you… but I guess I can’t say that, right? I can’t say… that I want you to be mine… I’ve never been really good with words anyway. I’m sure it would look strange and that you would just laugh at me, taking it as a joke.
“You know… during all that time… you never left me. Thank you.”
She’s so cute when she’s thanking me. She’s so cute when she’s nice with me, telling me I am important to her… I wish we could stay like this forever. Or maybe not… because if time suddenly stopped… I would feel pain in my heart for the rest of my life. Because I know what I want… and I know I can’t have it.
“You know… the thing I said before… when you were encouraging me after… you know what…”
… What?
“You have answered me that… you didn’t think two girls could go out together.”
… Eh?
“And I’ve answered “who knows”?”
… I’m not sure… what exactly does she mean by this? Why does she bring such a strange subject right now? I don’t want to talk about it. We’re fine right now… even if I love her… we’re fine. I don’t want her to suffer anymore…
“I think I know the answer.”
What… is she talking about? Is it because she’s a bit drunk? I don’t know what to do… should I say something? Should I just laugh? Should I… ignore it?
We are staring at each other. I don’t know what kind of message she’s trying to tell me… but somehow… there’s something new in the way she looks at me. I smile. I think… maybe I know what she means by this.
But I’m afraid. What if I’m wrong? What if… it is not what she means? Will she think I’m some stupid pervert just staring at her without saying anything? There’s no way, right? We’re best friends… She knows I would never do that to her…
“But if we date…”
What? Did Atsuko just…
“… then… it would be two girls going out together, right?” She smile cutely.
Eh?
Did… the “taka” part just become me? I… don’t want to talk about this subject. It is just… too awkward… I mean… I do love her… but to me, Atsuko could never see me as more than a friend. But… what is happening right now?!
“Hey, Minami…” She says innocently, a pink color appearing on her cheeks. “Do you think two girls can do… you know… do you think they can?”
EH? Did she just say… what I think she just said?! I’ve never thought about… this. I mean… I love her since a long time… but I’ve never thought about… what would happen if everything came true. I’ve never thought about… the others levels of a relationship.
She takes my hand softly, like it was the most fragile thing in the world. Didn’t she love this asshole just a month ago? Or maybe… I’m just imagining things.
“Who knows…” I answer awkwardly.
I’m looking at her in the eyes and she says innocently:
“I do…”
Oh God.... Is she really... Is Atsuko really talking about doing... And suddenly, everything becomes black.
It’s not that I fainted or anything…
It is just that… I closed my eyes as soon as I felt her lips on mine.
The End
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