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BouJ525 OneShot [UPDATE Do your best (No pairing/Atsuko's grad)]
« on: December 09, 2010, 03:21:30 AM »
List of OneShot
Earthquake (kojiyuu)
Christmas KojiYuu fanfic
Christmas Atsumina fanfic
A Day without you (KojiYuu, Haruna version)
A Day without you (KojiYuu, Yuko version)
Atsumina random OS part 1
Atsumina random OS part 2
Puzzle (Atsumina)
Liar Game (Atsumina)
Eagle Kite (KojiYuu)
Time (Atsumina)
Madness (No coupling)
Heaven's gonna wait (KojiYuu)
Accident (KaixRay)
You just have to ask me (Atsumina)
Do your best (Atsuko's graduation mini fic)

Hello everyone! Here's a little one-shot I made during math class... The teacher was absent this morning that's why XD No, I'm not someone who don't study for exams. I'm not someone who don't listen at class... yeah, anyway XD

I created a "sad" KojiYuu fanfic ( -.-' I don't know myself when I'll finally create a happy fanfic), coz I didn't want to make another TakAcchan one. It's short... and since it was at school, I don't know if it's "that" good, but here it goes!  :grin:
And for those who read my other story, I'll update this week-end, sorry about it!

Sorry for the mistakes

OneShot

Earthquake

Wind was slightly blowing dust in her red eyes as she walked in the middle of the ruins. Her arm was bleeding and she was covered by blood, even though she didn’t feel any pain. She looked around, searching for rescue, but all she could see were death bodies, lying on the ground. She stared at the ruins. There was nothing left, even with the protection of the buildings against this kind of situation. Everything was destroyed, electric wires were flying around here and there, a disgusting smell was spreading in the streets… and she was alone, even though she could hear sounds from everywhere. She passed her hand through her long hair. She must not cry… She must not cry… She must keep her strength to find her. She heard an explosion, somewhere far in Tokyo. She could hear an ambulance… and people’s voices, asking for an unreachable help.

She could see there was nothing left… The theatre was… gone. Her friends… What about them? Where were they? Where was she? She couldn’t even think at this place as her home now… How did it happen? When did it happen? She was only talking to her… She was only taking a break… And she was about to confess to her. She was about to tell her how she felt toward her. She was going to tell her… that it wasn’t a joke anymore, that she was serious about them. And just when she had finally been ready to release those feelings, everything had turned black. The ground had shaken, she had heard people screaming around her before she had begun to fall. So suddenly… when she had opened her eyes after what seemed an eternity, everything was gone. She could imagine the front page of worldwide newspapers…

“Earthquake in Tokyo”
“The famous metropolis has been destroyed”
“Japan needs help”


And if they were lucky… maybe the world would have the though to write…

“AKB48: End of a great time”


She was wandering around, hoping she would not be the only survivor. She was looking for… her. There was no word to describe how much regretful she felt. Why hadn’t she told her the truth before? Why had she waited so long? There had been thousand warning about such a catastrophe… Of course, they had never thought it could happen now… Was it too late? Was it too late to find her? She couldn’t even imagine her being… gone. How would she look at herself in the mirror now? She walked hesitantly, trying to control her fear. Another step… Just another one… because she needed to find her. She felt bad… she felt sick… if she didn’t find her… she would die.

She moved her hand, trying to find her cell phone in her bag that was away on the ground, surrounded by debris. It wasn’t broken. She opened it, trying to join someone… but there was no signal. She moved around, despairingly, but no matter how high she raised her arm… there was nothing. And she was still bleeding… She had never felt so alone. She used to be always with someone, asking for hugs and kisses… And now she could not even whisper to anyone.

She walked weakly. Maybe she would feel better if she moved a little… Her head hurt. She saw something similar as she knew before, under a large piece of metal. She looked closely, breathing heavily, fearing what it might be. Scared, she took out the piece… As fast as possible, she turned around. It couldn’t be… She heard a baby crying somewhere under a destroyed building and felt useless to help him. She was about to faint. She was just walking into what seemed to be a war zone. She flinched, hoping she wasn’t searching for nothing. She slowly walked away, leaving Mariko’s dead body behind her.

The girl felt her hear beat harder as she heard a slightly breathe sound under a rock. There was an empty space there, just enough… to help someone to survive from fallen pieces. She had tears falling down her cheeks. Her arm was hurting now. She could feel the pain like never before. Maybe it was broken. She could felt another kind of pain, coming from her heart… She was alive. She was saying farewell to the city she used to know…Her world was gone. Wherever she looked, nothing was similar. Again, she heard this breathe. Slowly, she removed the large rock with all her strength left. She sighed from relief as she began to cry. Not because she felt pain… Not because of Mariko’s death... But because she had finally got her answer. Because… right in front of her, there was the person she had wanted the most to survive. It didn’t matter how much she had lost blood… how much she had felt lost…

“Yuko…”

And as the girl heard her name, pronounced in such a weak way, she cried even more. She was alive… She could start again… as long as Haruna was by her side. She could tell she was afraid. She was covered by dry blood… she was trembling. Suddenly, there was another tremor, less strong than the main one, but enough to make the duo scream. A pipe broke somewhere near and water began to flow on the street.

“I hate earthquakes.”

Her voice was so weak… It looked unreal… Yuko smiled slightly, too glad to say anything. They were both hurt, there was a war scene in front of their eyes, they were living a very bad dream… but at least they were together. As she sobbed, Yuko said softly:

“Then… you must hate me.”

“Why?” Haruna whispered as her head had stopped bleeding.

“My heart… Each time I see you, it makes an earthquake.”

The tall girl didn’t answer. There was no way she could be afraid of such a great friend. She was glad it was Yuko who had found her… She knew she was safe now, no matter how hard the situation seemed to be. Yuko heard her own voice, even if she was half aware of it.

“Before it’s too late, I need to tell you… I’m sorry for everything I’ve done. The jokes… with you and the others girls… It was stupid from me. That’s what I wanted to tell you before it… happen.”

“Everything was a joke?” Haruna asked, feeling a new wound ready to appear. It wasn’t physical… It was deep inside her… something she couldn’t call properly…

“Not… all. Some parts were true.”

Yuko softly hugged her friend, both of them shaking. They were living, together, everything was gone… They didn’t know about the others members… They didn’t know about their families… But they were together.
Haruna could hear Yuko’s personal earthquake now that she was so close to her… This one… could remain forever…

The End
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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #1 on: December 09, 2010, 07:48:10 AM »
COOL~!!!!!  XD
Want more please~!!!  :twothumbs

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE~!!!!!!!!!  :bow:

LOVE  :heart: YOUR FANFIC~!!! THANK YOU~!!!!  :thumbsup

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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #2 on: December 09, 2010, 11:03:25 AM »
WOW!More KojiYuu please

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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #3 on: December 09, 2010, 05:12:40 PM »
O Mi Gawsh!!! thanks for the story. I really like KojiYuu fics. I'm soo happy!  :twothumbs (And it's my B-day today!! Wow double the fun!!) XD XD
Oh, plz continue to create more fics especially this pairing.  Thanks soo much :]  :bow: :bow: :bow:
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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #4 on: December 11, 2010, 04:11:57 AM »
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Happy birthday!

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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #5 on: December 13, 2010, 02:20:16 PM »
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Belated Happy birthday to you.  mine was on the 6th :D

Anyway...

wow, akb48 in a end of the world setting huh. that's kinda new and great!  :twothumbs
though i felt sad when i read about Mariko being dead.  :(
it's sad because after the earthquake...next would be a tsunami.  :cry:
still it's a great read! thanks for that!  :twothumbs

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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot
« Reply #6 on: December 20, 2010, 04:48:22 AM »
Sorry for the late comment...  :mon wind:
I really can't believe that you could write this Fic (You killed Mariko-sama! How could you!! :scolding:)
Anyway, I can't do anything about it cu'z it's your fic (but can't believe you could kill some Akb girls...  :fainted:) Your lucky it's a KojiYuu fic (I'll forgive you this time...  :mon exhaust: even if I don't want to..)

Anyway, pls... continue writing, I was surprise with the story because it's not really common.. (well, I think you know the reason...)  :mon annoy: (one angry fan)

Thanks again for the story... (oh plz, not another calamity like what FoF-sama wrote there...) But really thanks for the story :]  :on GJ:
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« Reply #7 on: December 24, 2010, 03:50:26 AM »
Hi guys!
School's done!!!!!!! Yeah!!! So I had time to create a short KojiYuu OneShot as my Christmas gift for you! Nothing serious, just something I had in mind XD
Here it goes and sorry for the mistakes!

Christmas KojiYuu Fanfic

It was the night before Christmas. Outside, snow was slowly falling down, covering the ground with a thin white blanket. Light were flashing everywhere in the huge town Tokyo was. It was a beautiful night. Yuko was impatiently waiting for Haruna to come to her house. They had decided to spend Christmas’s night together, as nice friends, without the others. Anyway, the others were busied too. Plus, both of them didn’t want to have a big party this time, and it was one of the rare times they didn’t have to work for AKB48 the night of December 24th. It was the perfect opportunity to share great time together. Of course, they wanted to see their family, but it would be the next day, December 25th.

Yuko LOVED Christmas. When she was young, she had always liked eating cakes with her family and talking happily with her friends. She had great memories about this celebration and wanted to make even more. Sure, she was older than before, but when it was Christmas… She just became a kid again. She had put decorations everywhere in her house, making it the more red and green as possible. There was a little plastic Christmas tree because she couldn’t put a real one in her living room. She was like a little kid in paradise.

***

Haruna was walking in the street, heading to Yuko’s house. It was a beautiful night. She couldn’t wait to arrive and have fun with her friend. She was admiring the Christmas lights everywhere, wondering how would be her first Christmas alone with Yuko… After all, they had always being with the others members or their family, never the two of them alone. She couldn’t help but smiled as she knew she would have to avoid Yuko’s skinship at least once during the night. She needed to be mentally prepared. As she was thinking of many ways to avoid her friend’s love, she heard two voices she knew very well, as she walked right in front of a giant Christmas tree.

“Stop laughing!”

“I can’t believe you decided to do this job to help your mother’s friend!”

“It’s not funny! It’s just for little children! Stop laughing, I’m loosing credibility!”

“Since when do you have credibility anyway?”

Haruna smirked as she saw the face of AKB48… laughing at a mini version of Santa Claus. Or at least, that was what it looked like. But she could tell that under this red coat and false beard was no one, but Takahashi Minami, her own captain. Priceless. Maeda Atsuko, her best friend, was by her side, laughing like never before. Haruna could tell that Acchan never knew a thing about Takamina’s Christmas’ job just by the way she was looking at the captain.

“Ah, Santa Claus, you’re so cute!” Acchan laughed as she took a picture with her cell phone.

There were little children pointing at them with questioning looks. It was really funny to see and Haruna just listen their conversation a bit.

“What do you want for Christmas?” Santa Takamina asked to a little shy boy, ignoring Acchan.

The shy boy whispered something into Takamina’s ear who promised him he would get what he wanted. After some others children had come to talk to Santa, Haruna saw Acchan walking nearer Takamina, asking with an innocent ton:

“Will you give me a gift too, Santa Claus?”

Haruna smirked, knowing Takamina hated this kind of… proximity… especially in the middle of the street while she was supposed to play the Christmas idol of all children over the world.

“Of course! I’ll give gifts to all nice children!” Takamina answered, playing her role, knowing there were kids watching her.

“Really?” Acchan asked as she whispered in Santa Claus’ ear what she wanted.

Even with this false white beard covering her face, Haruna knew Takamina was blushing under it and she laughed loudly, wondering what Acchan had asked to her friend. Unfortunately, both Acchan and Santa Takamina heard her and turned their heads, looking straight at the tall girl who quickly mumbled an excuse as she turned around.

“Sorry, I’m late!” Haruna mumbled as she turned and walked toward Yuko’s house, knowing she was really late. She smiled and she knew she would laugh at Takamina FOREVER now.

***
 
The doorbell rang and Yuko answered, all smiling to Haruna. The tall girl smiled back and came in. There was a bit snow in her hair, but she was glad to be finally at Yuko’s home. She had brought a cake that Yuko quickly put on the table.

“I’m glad you came tonight!” The squirrel said happily.

Waiting for midnight with Haruna was the best situation EVER for her. She didn’t want a “friend” to be with her. She wanted HARUNA to be with her. It was completely different from Yuko’s point of view. From Haruna’s point of view, it was more like a nice night with her friend.

The two friends talked together for a bit when Yuko suddenly showed a card to her friend. She had never told anyone about this, but Haruna was special. Yuko could tell her anything.

“Look!” She said with the same childish look she always had during Christmas since she had four years old. “I made my card for Santa Claus!”

It was a really cute card, red with green writing, decorated with sticker and a drawing of snowman. Haruna smirked.

“You what?”

“It’s nice, isn’t it?!” Yuko asked with the same cute voice. “Look! I’ve made a plate of cookies to him when he’ll come too! And some milk too! You know, like in the story!”

At the last part, Haruna laughed as she asked:

“To Santa Claus? You still believe in him?”

“Of course!” Yuko said with a strong voice. “He does exist! Don’t you believe in him, Nyan Nyan?”

Haruna hesitated to answer, wondering if Yuko was really serious when she talked about that. She should have taken her to Takamina… or maybe not since the small captain had already Acchan to mess up with her.

“Well…”

“He’ll come for sure! I made a letter to him, asking for a gift but… I didn’t have time to send it to him since we had to work…” She added with a sad voice.

Yuko looked so serious when she talked about it that Haruna couldn’t help but asked:

“Wait a minute, you’re serious? You still think he exists? Don’t you know that…”

“…he doesn’t?” Yuko completed. “It’s only a story we tell to little kids! But I’m not a kid anymore and I still think he exists! So he’ll come for sure and thank me for thinking he still exists!”

Haruna blinked at her, trying to stay serious. It was definitely something to laugh about, but she didn’t want to hurt her friend. Yuko wrote something else inside her letter, staring at Haruna at the same time, which made the tall girl flinch. She placed it with the cookies plate near the little Christmas tree. She was so cute looking at the plate that Haruna couldn’t make laugh at her. Such a child…

“It’s nice to see that… you still believe in him.” Haruna said, trying not laugh.

Really, she thought Yuko was a bit overreacting with “Santa Claus” since… well… it was only a story.

“It’s nice to believe into something we can’t be sure of, you know?” Yuko said. “It makes you feel less lonely. Like there’s always someone watching for you. And I only ask him things I can’t have by myself! IT’S LIKE WAITING FOR A MIRABLE!”

Yuko was so into it that Haruna took a picture of her. There were stars in her eyes. The others members would never believe that the main Team K member still thought Santa Claus exist. It was cute and funny at the same time. Maybe she should keep this secret for herself… after all, she was sure the others didn’t know anything about it. Here must have a reason why Yuko had told HER.

“I’m glad you look so… happy about it.” Haruna hesitantly smiled.

With a sudden change of conversation, Yuko hugged her friend and asked as she tried to get closer:

“What did you ask him, Nyan Nyan!”

“Nyan Nyan” couldn’t believe what she was hearing. Was Yuko REALLY waiting for him to come?! Was she really asking her what she asked to him?! She couldn’t be so childish… right? She knew Yuko could act in a very cute way sometimes, but there was no way the young adult would be waiting for someone who didn’t exist! Haruna didn’t know what to answer, but she was saved by no one but Yuko who added with an excited voice:

“No! Don’t tell me! It’s supposed to be a secret or else it won’t come true! I’m glad you came here tonight! Let’s do skinship! And then we’ll wait for him!”

What the?! How could Yuko changed so suddenly her mood! One second she was waiting for Santa Claus… and the next one, she wanted skinship?! Haruna moved apart.

“No. Way.”

“Please! No one will see us!”

“That’s not the question! I’m not doing skinship! And doesn’t Santa Claus see everything?!”

Yuko pouted as she wrote something more on her letter to Santa Claus.

“He can see, you’re right, but… it’s not a problem since he doesn’t care if we’re gays or not, unlike in religion, you know? He’s not homophobe!”

Haruna sighed. Why did she want to come here already? Oh yeah… just to have fun. Well, at least she was discovering a new side of her friend.

“Anyway, it’s no!” Haruna replied.

After hearing another rejection, Yuko decided to change mood again and became all happy, acting like she was living a dream since she was still with Haruna anyway. They talked and eat together as great friends, even though Haruna had to avoid Yuko’s skinship all the time. At the end of the dessert, Yuko sighed. They kept talking together in the living room, joking, smiling, getting closer and moving apart… Haruna’s fear of skinship was beginning to become a game. Maybe it was because of alcohol they had drink… Not too much, but still enough to make them dreamy. She had almost stopped avoiding it near ten o’clock, letting Yuko hugging her and putting her head on her shoulder… and even on her breasts. Soon after, they were just sitting side by side, enjoying the other’s presence. When one in the morning arrived, Yuko began to fall asleep. She was fighting her tiredness.

“I want to see him…” Yuko’s tired voiced told Haruna.

The tall girl turned to her, surprised. She didn’t except Yuko to really wait for him. Because… well… Even if it was Yuko… wasn’t it too much for her age?

“Why do you want him to come so much? There’re many younger kids in the world than you.”

Haruna’s voice was soft, even if she knew she was only telling a lie. There was no way he would come here… if ever he existed. Yuko moved her arm around Haruna’s waist as she said:

“Because it’s great to feel like a child once during the year… No more problems… innocence… Nostalgia… happiness… Not that I am not, just… Isn’t it nice to believe in something everyone denies? It seems that miracles can be possible when we do this.”

Yuko’s voice was sweet, cute, not so loud… She was slowly falling asleep. Like a little child in her mom’s arms.

“I want to wait for him…” She added, closing her eyes.

Haruna found Yuko really cute the way she was. What a child… She just put her hand in her head and say:

“Just sleep. I’ll tell him you wanted to see him.”

Yuko smiled. Of course… Deep in her heart, she knew Santa Claus didn’t exist… But it was nice to believe he did, right? Just once a year… feeling like an innocent kid again… being by Haruna’s side like this… it was perfect. She was thankful to Haruna to respect this childish side of hers. She fell asleep as Haruna was watching over her.

***

Yuko woke up the next morning into Haruna’s arms. Blushing a little, she moved apart, still looking at her friend. She was a bit shy about what had happened yesterday with her being so philosophic and childish at the same time. She looked at the Christmas tree and narrowed her eyes. The cookies were gone, the milk too… And the letter had vanished. Her eyes moved to Haruna’s face. The tall girl was breathing slightly, still sleeping. She had a mini smile in her cute face. Yuko’s face moved closer. She thought Haruna was really cute, sleeping like this. She knew she shouldn’t do that, but her friend looked so beautiful… She had always wanted to sleep by her side, so close to her… Just to feel her presence, not necessary to make out or anything pervert. She knew it wasn’t the impression she gave to Haruna, but truly, the main thing she wanted was to be with her. She smiled shyly and kissed her softly. The meeting of her lips and Haruna’s made her heart beat so fast that she quickly moved apart, breaking this soft contact, afraid that the sound in her chest might wake her. But Haruna didn’t open her eyes nor wake up… she only reached for Yuko’s hand and didn’t let it go. Yuko smiled. It was the best Christmas ever.

***

Unaware of Yuko’s happiness, deep inside Haruna’s pocket, a little piece of paper was hidden, some words written on it:


Dear Santa Claus,

I know I am an old kid now, but I’m still writing to you.
There’s only one thing I want for Christmas this year, but I can’t have it by myself…
I want… Haruna to stop avoiding my kiss!
Please, make it happen!

Thank you!

P.S: Look Santa! A drawing of my dear Haruna! She’s cute, isn’t she?

P.S2. It’d be great if she stopped avoiding skinship too… ”


When Haruna had read it at two o’clock in the morning… She had agreed with the first gift… Not the second…

But she already knew she would give to Yuko next year…


END


So what do you think about it? Tell me honestly... should I just stay with sad stories XD Cause I have the impression I'm better with them XD Oh, and MERRY CHRISTMAS in advance TO ALL OF YOU!

I'm going to update a short TakAchan version soon! A double gift for you  :)
« Last Edit: December 24, 2010, 04:45:59 AM by bou-j525 »

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Re: KojiYuu fanfic OneShot [UPDATE-->KojiYuu Christmas OneShot]
« Reply #8 on: December 24, 2010, 06:00:45 AM »
OMG, this is just too cute to bear, thanks you so much for this Christmas present >.<, and when I was reading the takacchan (kyaa~, takamina santa  :wub:) part I thought about pleading you to write more about it, but when I read that you will actually write one soon I squeal like crazy  :inlove:, thanks you again :D

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« Reply #9 on: December 24, 2010, 02:59:17 PM »
Yuu-chan SO CUTE~!!!  XD

Thank you for the great update~!!  :bow:  :twothumbs

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« Reply #10 on: December 24, 2010, 04:12:15 PM »
Hahaha I have the impression the TakAcchan version sucks XD Maybe it's because it was one in the morning while I was writing it and I was half asleep... Anyways, here it is! And thank you for the comments ^^
Again, Christmas' coming, so Merry Christmas to all of you  :thumbsup

Christmas TakAcchan fanfic

Takamina stared at the dark sky as snow began to fall. No. In fact, tonight, she wasn’t Takahashi Minami anymore. She was Santa Claus. Or at least, that what she was trying to show to young kids that were walking in the streets with their parents. It wasn’t like this she had planned to spend her December 24th, but she had to admit it was quite funny to laugh with all the children around her. She had accepted this job only because her mother’s friend had asked them, but she would do it again next year with pleasure. She really liked kids. She thought they were funny, trying to take out her false bear and trying to get her attention. She was almost done though and would see Acchan later. They wanted to celebrate Christmas together. If it wasn’t for that job, Takamina would already be with Acchan, but since it was really a last minute decision, she had just called Acchan and told her she would come later because she needed to help her mother’s friend.

“Merry Christmas!” She said to a little kid hidden behind his mother.

He smiled gently, but didn’t come near her. Takamina just wanted to hug this incarnation of cuteness, but stayed immobile, knowing she must not scare hi,.

“Don’t be afraid of me! I’m going to give you a surprise tomorrow!” She added.

The kid’s smile grew a bit as he nodded shyly and left with her mother, sometimes looking back at the strange white and red character. The false Santa Claus laughed behind his beard. It had been like this all the night. Some kids trusted her more than others, but there was always a smile in their face when they left her.

Suddenly, she flinched as she saw Maeda Atsuko staring at her with a strange look. Santa Takamina turned her head in the opposite direction, hoping her friend hadn’t recognized her, but she knew it was too late as the pretended friend began to laugh walking closer in her direction.

“Takamina?” Acchan asked, smirking.

Takamina, not even a bit credible, answered:

“Takamina? Who is Takamina? I don’t know anybody called Takamina. I don’t know what you are talking about right now.”

Acchan tried to hold herself, but burst in laugh a second later.

“I’m Santa Claus right now, call me like that.” Takamina quickly whispered to Acchan.

The face of AKB48 stared at her friend a moment. Since Takamina had large boots, she was almost the same height as Acchan’s. ALMOST.

“Daddy, look, Santa Claus is smaller than this girl!” A boy told his dad. “Isn’t he supposed to be the tallest?”

 It made Acchan laughed even louder.

“Stop laughing!”

“I can’t believe you decided to do this job to help your mother’s friend!”

“It’s not funny! It’s just for little children! Stop laughing, I’m loosing credibility!”

“Since when do you have credibility anyway?”

Takamina didn’t answer, knowing she had to be a perfect model to her young public, even though she just wanted to reply something else. Acchan just kept on laughing, unaware everybody was looking at her weirdly. Really, when Takamina had told her she would come later, she had never expected THIS was the reason! It was just priceless.

“Ah, Santa Claus, you’re so cute!”

It was the only thing she could say before starting to die laughing loudly again. She opened her cell phone and quickly took a picture, wondering why the hell she had become friend with someone like Takamina. It would make an awesome post, she knew it.

“Mama, does Santa have a girlfriend?” A little boy asked her mother.

Acchan suddenly stopped laughing, hoping she had heard the wrong thing. When it came to her relationship with Takamina, it was becoming a “dangerous” zone.

“Of course he does! Look how these two have fun together!” The mother said as Santa Takamina, who didn’t like this subject either, just asked him:

““What do you want for Christmas?”

The shy boy walked closer, but hesitated to say something, thinking he must have done a mistake by talking about Santa Claus having a girlfriend. Santa Takamina encouraged him with a huge smile, ignoring Acchan who was starting to laugh again.

“I want my mother to be happy forever.” He whispered in Takamina’s ear.

Even though Takamina wanted to let out a cute “Awwwwww”, she just promised him his wish would come true. After all, a cute “Awwwwww” would not be like Santa Claus at all.

“I want to ask you something too!” A young girl said.

“What do you want from me?” Santa Takamina asked nicely.

“I want to become an idol when I’ll become older!” She said proudly. “Just like the group AKB48! So I will inspire lot of people too!”

Takamina stared at her with astonishment. She was a bit too young to listen to their songs, wasn’t she? But it didn’t matter, she was so cute… and a fan!

“Awwwwww!” Takamina said with a really girly voice.

She secretly said sorry to her credibility, but it was too hard to hold it. That young girl was too cute.

“Um… I mean, I’ll make sure you’ll become an idol later!” She added as Acchan smirked.

Two others kids went to talk with her before Acchan suddenly appeared in front of her, asking with an exaggerate innocent voice:

“Will you give me a gift too, Santa Claus?”

Takamina sighed, knowing she couldn’t joke or be mad at her friend in front of everyone.

“Of course! I’ll give gifts to all nice children!”

“Really?” Acchan said, surprised that Takamina had answered something like this.

Well… maybe it was the right time to play a bit with her… She whispered something into her ear, half serious and half joking. Then, she looked at her in her eyes, her lips forming a cute smile. Takamina was glad she had this huge beard to hide her shyness. There was two different ways to take what Acchan had told her…. Which one was the good? She suddenly heard a loud laugh and turned her head, breaking the eyes contact she had with Acchan. The two girls briefly saw Haruna’s silhouette before the tall girl disappeared, mumbling something they didn’t understand.

“I guess she’s going to Yuko’s house… They must celebrate Christmas together.” Acchan said.

“Tell me she didn’t know it was me…” Takamina asked with an anxious voice.

“Why?”

“Because now you can be sure the members will never look at me the same way if Haruna tell them… My life’s over!”

Her hands covering her face, she felt something pulling her huge red coat. Her eyes moved until she saw a tiny hand hanging on her coat.

“Why are you sad, Santa?” A four years old girl asked.

Embarrassed, Takamina didn’t answer. How stupid she was to make children believing Santa was sad right on December 24th!
 
“I am not sad!” Santa Takamina said with her smile back. “Come here and tell Santa what you want this year! Have you been nice with everyone?”

Acchan stared at her friend, thinking she was really cute acting like this. Takamina would surely make a great mother. She looked at her cell phone. If everything went well, they would go to her home in about half an hour. Until then… she had time to write about it in her blog, right?

***

“Finally done!” Takamina said as she took out her costume.

It was really surprising to see how much it was hot inside this outfit. If ever Santa Claus really existed… she admired him to be able to stay the whole night with such a big coat.

“Here some cake.” Acchan said as she gave a small part to her friend.

“Uh?!” Takamina claimed as she saw a mini part of chocolate cake in a plate. She didn’t want to be egoist… but she had never seen someone giving someone else so less food. “Let me guess… You ate everything?”

Acchan looked away as she nodded shyly, even though she knew Takamina would never get mad at her for something like that. Her friend pretended to be mad at her for a second as she finished her part quickly. It was a great cake that Acchan had made herself. Takamina was even surprised Acchan hadn’t eaten everything. They talked together all night, joking about what Haruna and Yuko would do together, sharing pictures, drinking with “moderation” and remembering great times. Takamina didn’t want this moment to end. She had never felt so good with Acchan. There was nothing that could break the way she felt now.

“Look, it’s midnight!” Takamina said “It’s officially Christmas.”

“It’s nice we’re able to celebrate it together!” Acchan answered. “I wished the others were here too though… Next year, it’s going to be a huge party!”

“What, you don’t like being only with me?” Takamina joked as she laughed a bit.

Acchan smirked, looking straight at her.

“Of course I like it. Remember what I asked you for Christmas?”

Takamina knew she was blushing even before she could say her answer. Acchan laughed as she saw how shy Takamina was. It wasn’t so much she had asked her after all! Could it be… Could Takamina take it the wrong way? Oh. That would be funny.

“So, when will you give me my gift, Santa?” Acchan asked, moving closer to Takamina.

Takamina avoided her, playing with her at the same time. Everything seemed to be like a joke with Acchan. She could never know when she was serious or not. Sometimes, it was nice, sometimes, like now, it was bothering her.

“Um… never?” Takamina asked.

“Wrong answer.” Acchan smirked, still trying to get closer to her friend.

Takamina flinched. What was going on with Acchan? Oh no, please, it couldn’t be… alcohol? No, Acchan wasn’t drunk. Or at least, she didn’t seem to be drunk. Well, in fact, her friend had always been a bit player with everyone, so Takamina couldn’t help but smile as she knew it was probably just another thing about this. It was becoming dangerous.

“Okay!” Takamina said, still moving apart but smiling. “I’ll come back in a minute, wait please!”

And the small captain went in another room, searching for something. Acchan sighed. It wasn’t funny without Takamina by her side. Her friend was the only one that made her act natural. She didn’t need to be anybody else than Maeda Atsuko with her. She didn’t need to play a role, like she sometimes did with others members. She was herself. And right now, her inner voice was telling her it was Christmas. Christmas, also called “lovers holiday”. It wasn’t a coincidence she had finally managed to spend Christmas ALONE with Takamina. It was because she had planned it. She had told the others members she couldn’t see them, she had asked Takamina’s family to let her go for December 24th and made a family diner the next day instead.

In fact, Acchan had planned everything to make this night as perfect as possible. But, of course, her friend didn’t need to know about it, right?

“I’m here!” Takamina said as she appeared in the living room doorway ten minutes later.

Acchan let out a scream of surprise. Takamina had wrapped herself like she was a giant Christmas gift. She also had the huge ribbon on her head to go with everything. She even had pieces of paper covering her face. She really had become a huge Christmas gift. She was a human gift.

“What are you doing?!” Acchan laughed as she went by her side, trying to tear up the paper.

Takamina’s face suddenly popped out the paper, even though he head was still covering by red and green silk pieces.

“Are you insane?” Acchan asked, half serious.

She found Takamina really cute, unable to move with her new outfit, as funny to watch as Santa Claus one. It made her wondering how Takamina had managed to wrap herself like that. They both stared silently a bit at each other before Takamina shyly broke the awkward silence.

“Didn’t you say you wanted to have me for Christmas’ gift?” Takamina asked, slightly shaking her head to make the ribbons falling on the floor.

Acchan blushed, knowing that Takamina had probably done something like this exactly because she didn’t want to think about another way to understand this wish. She hesitated to say anything, especially since she knew if she did something, nothing would ever be the same. But then again, she remembered how much effort she had put in order to plan everything to have a perfect celebration with her friend, how she had lied to some others members, how she wanted to tell Takamina about her feelings since so long time. So, she smiled back.

“Stupid…” she whispered as she walked by her side.

And before Takamina could answer anything, she softly kissed her, removing the paper on her friend’s head by passing her hand through her long hair. She felt Takamina flinching a bit before her friend answered shyly at what she was doing. From a shy and awkward beginning, they both gained confidence as they became sure of how to act, like they had both waited for this moment since a very long time.

They broke apart, searching for some air to breathe. Acchan slightly smiled as she saw a really shy wrapped Takamina standing in front of her, knowing she had finally got the Christmas gift she had wanted since almost a year.


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« Reply #11 on: December 24, 2010, 10:43:36 PM »
Christmas TakAcchan fanfic is so  :heart: and takamina - santa claus is really adorable.acchan's gift for christmas is takami  :inlove: :inlove: :inlove: i want such gift too  :P :P :P

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« Reply #12 on: December 27, 2010, 05:38:26 AM »
Whaaa!!!  :mon tantrum2:... another late comment from me!!.... :mon waterworks:
Anyway, thanks for the Christmas fics!! (I'll forgive you for the "Earthquake" fic... Just make sure that it's really a oneshot fic... hehe  :on lol: Really, I'm serious here..  :mon suspect:)
Thanks again for the cool fics... I like them both :] (Yuuko sempai is sooooo kawaiiii!!!  :mon lovelaff: :mon lovelaff: My gosh  :mon scare: Kojima san is sooo lucky to have Yuuko-sama as her lover!!!  :mon blood: I'm jealous!! :mon inluv:)

I also like the TakAchan couple!!  :mon inluv: (but still like KojiYuu more!!! hehe  :mon XD:)
Thanks soo much for the fics bou-j525!!!  :mon heh: :] (Sorry if I'm soo late for saying this to you, I'm soo happy that you greeted me on my b-day!! I'm sooo embarrassed right now!!! :mon ignore: :shy2:) Really Thanks soo much (I'm soo loving you!!! :luvluv1:) :]

Just keep on writing bou-j525-san!!! :mon inluv: Thanks soo much :]  :mon heh:
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« Reply #13 on: January 26, 2011, 01:24:34 PM »
Hello! I think this thread will become my "one-shot" thread finally XD

HERE IT IS! My new short and sad creation... inspired from a two-lines text someone sent me from facebook XD (coz I don't have facebook btw)

Hope you'll like it... btw I'm back to sad stories XD

KojiYuu
A day without you (Haruna version)


You always told me your love without hiding your feelings. You were not shy about it and did not feel any fear. You wanted the world to see us as a couple. When I told you my feelings were the same, you wanted to share your joy with the entire universe. Even though I never said it directly to you… I was glad to see you cared so much for me. I couldn’t stop smiling when I was by your side while you were trying to touch me. I had a strange feeling when I’ve accepted this contact for the first time. It was also the first time I saw you really shy about it. We never did more than that. I didn’t want to, at the beginning. And suddenly, I wanted to feel your body close to mine. I wanted to feel you like never before… to fill the desire I had in my heart. I wanted our two bodies to become one. You never wanted. I thought it was strange coming from you… because it was the total opposite from who you were. I thought… it was what you wanted from the beginning, so when you told me it was too soon, I couldn’t believe it. I thought you were joking and that we would do it the first time you came to sleep at my home. But we didn’t. You said we were not ready yet, that we should wait more.

I never understood why you were so distant when it came to do it. I never understood why you, the pervert of the group, didn’t want us to sleep together like real lovers would. I thought you wanted to wait for our one year together birthday, but no. I thought you wanted to wait for my birthday to give me the most beautiful gift I’ve ever wanted, but you didn’t. As times went by, I decided I would wait for you because it was all I could do since I didn’t know the reasons behind your refusal. I decided this side from you was cute. You were acting with me in a different way than with the others. You allowed me to see the real person you were. I never said it to you, but I liked the way you were looking at me like I was a goddess. I liked this special smile you gave to me when we were alone. I liked the smell of your hair when we were close together.

“If you can live a whole day without me, I will love you even more.”

We’ve always been together, never being apart more than half a day. You would always call me when I didn’t have time to. I would always visit you, just to see your smile when you saw me in front of your house. When you told me that, I was surprised. I thought you were just joking. But when my eyes have met your beautiful and serious glance, I knew you were telling the truth. I knew I could trust you this time. There was only one thing I could think about when I heard “I will love you even more”. There was only one thing you could give me to make me happier… I knew it. I accepted your challenge, because even if it was going to be hard, I knew I could do it. And I really wanted to see how much you could love me. I really wanted… to feel your warm body next to mine.

 “Don’t try to contact me for 24 hours!”

I did what you wanted. I never tried to call you. I never went to wait in front of your house. I never sent you a mail either. It was the longest day of my life, but I only had to think about my reward and motivation would come over my desire to see you. I spent the day reading and listening to music. I couldn’t do anything more. It was the first time we didn’t talk to each other for a whole day. I’ve never felt so lost in my life. I felt so alone, but it was all right, I could forget my loneliness by listening to your songs. I could forget it a bit by looking at pictures of us, smiling together. Though doing those things wasn’t enough. I needed to have you by my side. I couldn’t wait for the day to end. I told myself I would call you as soon as midnight would arrive. I told myself I would come to your house as soon as this painful day would end… and kiss you like never before. I told myself I would kiss you like if my life were in danger. I told myself… I would make you regret asking me to do such a difficult thing.

“Is it Kojima Haruna?”

I wanted to call you at midnight. But I didn’t have time. At 11:59, someone called me. Someone I didn’t know. A guy, I think, I can’t remember clearly. I told him I was busy. Really, who would call someone so late at night? But he told me it was important. He told me it couldn’t wait. I was mad at him because I couldn’t talk to you as soon as midnight came. I just wanted to hang on and tell him to call later tomorrow morning. I wanted to hear your voice the most. I wanted to hear you telling me it was done. I wanted you to reassure me about it. But it wasn’t your voice coming from the other side. It was this guy’s. It was a professional voice that scared me at first. As I was about to tell him I didn’t want to talk to him, he pronounced your name. I couldn’t answer anything. I was afraid it was your secret boyfriend or something like this. I was afraid he might be the reason why you couldn’t give me what I wanted. I was afraid he would tell me you broke up with me.

And then, my world was destroyed. Everything went black in my mind. He told me something I didn’t want to know about you. He told me… something I should have learned from you, not from him. I hang on as soon as he finished and tried to call you to confirm what he had said. I composed your number twice. You never answered. You never called me back either, even though I waited all the night. This guy… was right, wasn’t he? I called you again in the morning. I knew I couldn’t reach you, but it was stronger than me. I had to try, to believe it was a lie, to still think you were there and that you would call me back. I couldn’t stop thinking about what he had told me. Was it true? If so, since when did you have it? Since when… did you know you had cancer? Since when… did you know it was incurable? Since when… did you know you were going to leave this world in 24 hours?

I went to your house the same day. I wanted to see you. I wanted to hear your voice. I wanted to feel your lips against mine. I wanted to feel your hands passing through my hair like you used to do… You door was opened. Nobody was there. I couldn’t believe that guy was right… I couldn’t believe… you were not here anymore. I couldn’t believe this home would be cold and empty from now on. Your scent was everywhere. Everything here reminded me of you. There were pictures of me everywhere, like you wanted me to live with you but were too scared to ask me to. I would have accepted with pleasure. I wanted you to ask me to move here… I was hoping we could finally begin a real life together. I wanted you… to be mine forever.

I walked everywhere, not touching anything, thinking about nothing. Why didn’t you tell me about it? Why… didn’t you have better treatments or anything you needed to be well again? I couldn’t believe what I was doing here. I was supposed to be here with you. I was supposed to be here to… receive your love. I went in your bedroom. I was not crying. I was not sobbing. My heart was… just incredibly empty. There was a note in your pillow. I thought you had forgotten it yesterday before you left for hospital… But no. It was to me. You had left it because you knew I would come here soon. You wanted me to have it. Why didn’t you tell me about it instead of doing something like this? I took the small piece of paper. I was shaking so much I couldn’t read it properly. I had to go back to the kitchen and opened the huge light to see it better. I could tell you were crying when you wrote it. The ink was not clear at all. You wanted me to spend a day without you, right? Why… did it have to be the last one you were on earth? Why… did you have to be alone the day you needed me the most?

“Congratulation, you did it Nyan Nyan!
Now you will be able to do it everyday…”

My eyes couldn’t look away from the note… I couldn’t believe what was written on it. You had… what? You had left me because… of something like this? You had… make me spend a whole day alone, knowing you were going to leave me, because you wanted me… to be prepared? Was it the reason why you wanted me to live 24 hours without you? How were you supposed to love me more now… How was I supposed to forgive myself from leaving you alone the last day you spent alive? I should never had accepted this challenge.

“Now you will be able to do it everyday…”

You are stupid. Even though it’s been a year today… I’m just living the same 24 hours over and over again…

The End

ENDNOTE: So...?
« Last Edit: January 30, 2011, 02:09:40 AM by bou-j525 »

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« Reply #14 on: January 26, 2011, 10:29:05 PM »
THANK YOU FOR YOUR UPDATE~!!  :tama-excite:
but . . .

IT'S SOOO SAD~!!!  :mon cry:   :gmon tears:  :pig cry:

PLEASE UPDATE MORE~!! Bye~ :on speedy:

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« Reply #15 on: January 27, 2011, 06:16:11 AM »
bou-j525 san!!!!  :pleeease:

Huhuhuhu...  :fainted:  :gyaaah: I still haven't read this yet  :mon wind: I'm currently at school...( No I am not skipping classes.. or am I?  :mon dunno: I'm not really, for real hehe... :grin: It's just that my class will start later ooOOOOmigawsh!!  :panic: got 10 minutes left before class!!  :banghead: Darn school!!! Oh, wait,  :mon dunno: I remembered.... There's no first class.. Which means..... *wait for super loud fan girl SCREAM*... YAY!!!!  I can at least leave a comment here!!!!  :mon angel: )

Anyway, haven't read this yet....  :mon wind: I really soo can't wait to read this (even if you said that this is a sad fic..  :fainted: I don't mind as long as it's my precious KojiYuu pair  :mon inluv:)

I hope that this fic will not make me tear up and end up doing this  :mon cry: (just like what RenaChii did down there :]  :lol: I hope not  :mon sweat: )

Pls continue and write more about this two!!! I'll read it for sure :]   :mon determined: Arigato!! :]  :)
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Re: BouJ525 OneShot [UPDATE January 26th: KojiYuu]
« Reply #16 on: January 27, 2011, 10:59:23 AM »
I could feel the heartaches..... :cry: :cry: :cry: anyway, this fic moved me and i suddenly have the urge to write a sad fic between Acchan and Minami.... :( :( :(

why is it so hard to resist the pull of temptation to write a tragedy fic.... :banghead: :banghead: :banghead: Bou-san, it's you're fault  :( :( :( kidding  :P :P :P though i really want to write one now  :nervous

PS: or maybe I still hadn't move on with my last break up.... :panic: more sad fics  XD



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Re: BouJ525 OneShot [UPDATE January 26th: KojiYuu]
« Reply #17 on: January 28, 2011, 12:04:22 PM »
 :fainted: This story was way too sad!!! I loved it but... it made me sad... v_v;;
i suddenly have the urge to write a sad fic between Acchan and Minami....
:mon wtfmm: DONT YOU DARE!!! lol jk jk.... but seriously!  :mon evil: I'll never proof read it!!!

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« Reply #18 on: January 29, 2011, 07:29:21 PM »
bou-j525 san!!!! :fainted: I'll take back what I said!!! :err: huhuhuhu!!! :mon waterworks:

Your fic is soo sad!!! :mon cry: WHY?!! :gyaaah: Why did you create such things!!
Huhuhu... Why does my Yuko needs to die... :mon fire: I'm soo crying.. (and to think that Harunya was even willing to do it with Yuko :mon dunno: ... tsk, tsk, tsk )
Ei but that's not the real reason why I'm crying, 'k... :mon ehh: (here we go again...  :mon exhaust:  )

Pls, I beg of you, pls. do not write another sad fic (for now) especially bout this two... Aww, they both look cute here :(

If you'll continue this "SAD" fic of yours and I'm also talking to you, dark-atrox san, (I think that's the reason why I'd confuse your names 'bout my last comment... tsk, tsk, tsk... You two, you're pretty both the same aren't ya' ME Gonna do this to you
really, if you're planning to write a tragic fic..... :mon mad:) hehehe :]  :grin:

I soo total agree with Keichan ^_^ san....  Hmp... Dunno, but I was soo lonely after reading your fic... I think that's what you want...  :smhid (Authors now a days...  :smhid) Just pls... write something that soothes the mood (you know, not that kind of fic pls...  ) Doing that puppy eye dog look... :]
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Re: BouJ525 OneShot [UPDATE January 29th: A day without you, YUKO POV]
« Reply #19 on: January 29, 2011, 10:04:43 PM »
^

But dude you always post before you read LOL what would happen if i write something you dislike one day xD...

Quote this because it's the perfect situation to mention it XD

EDIT: I'm currently writting a YUKO version. Then... I think I'll write something happier.

EDIT2: 
I wanted to share this ONESHOT (haruna and yuko version) not to make you sad, but because I wanted you to read about how I think about things like cancer or death or... anything. Though it's only a really short thought. I don't feel sad or anything in my life right now, it's just that I like writing sad stories. I think it's easier to talk about characters' feelings. I'm sorry if you don't like it, then you should just don't read it (logic, isn't it?).

KojiYuu
A day without you, Yuko version



You never knew how much happy I was when you confessed to me. I couldn’t believe it… I wanted the world to see us together. I wanted to travel the world and tell each person that you were my beloved girl. I wanted to see the jealous look from each person living in Japan… because I was so proud of you. I always thought you saw me only as a friend. I always thought… I didn’t deserve to be your girlfriend. I always thought a girl like you deserve more than what I could give to you I couldn’t believe that, with all the girls from the group, I was the chosen one… I couldn’t believe my dream had become true. I could finally feel your body pressing on mine. I could finally reach for your hand without joking or laughing by anxiety. I couldn’t believe it when we kissed for the first time. I still can’t forget that incredible feeling that went through my heart this time. You lips were soft. They tasted great… I didn’t want you to break this precious contact. I didn’t want us to need to breathe. I wanted us to stay like this forever. I needed you by my side to feel good. I couldn’t smile when you weren’t there. I couldn’t act by myself when you were gone… but even so, I was afraid. I was afraid… because I didn’t want to lose you.

I wasn’t the real me. I… was playing a role. I’ve always thought you deserve more than me… so I played a role. I needed to impress you by everything I did. I wanted you to look at me and think “she’s crazy, she’s nice, she’s funny, she’s beautiful, she’s the one I need”, because that was what I thought about you. I needed you to only look at me… because I could never look at someone else when I was with you. I wanted you to smile at everything I said… because whatever you said, pain could never reach me when I was talking to you. I was afraid you might leave me at every little thing I did. I was afraid you might tell me farewell at each mistake I made. So I tried to be perfect. I tried to reach perfection… because I thought the only thing that could reach the perfect person you were… was another “perfect” person. I thought that, if I weren’t perfect, I had no right to be with you. You told me it wasn’t necessary, that we would never be apart, that you would love me forever, even if I became old and ugly… but it was stronger than me. I needed to reach the higher point.

I learned I had cancer two years ago. I don’t know how I managed to hide it from you, but it was a miracle. I didn’t want you to know it. I didn’t want you to see me cry. I didn’t want to share my pain with you… because I could never have supported it. I didn’t want to see your beautiful face soiled by tears. I heard so many people saying they “understood” how I felt… They were all ignorant. Nobody would never understand how someone sick felt. How could they? Words can be really sweet, but sometimes, they don’t mean anything. Scientifics could do a thousand experiences to try to prove something; feelings would never be understood by anyone. As for me, I never understood how I felt myself. It’s not sadness or pain that appeared the first. It’s guilt. I felt guilty because I knew I would leave you alone someday. I hated myself because I knew I would make you sad someday. I wished my own death… because I didn’t want you to suffer more than needed. Then it was frustration. I was mad at myself. I was mad at my body because I got cancer. I was insulting myself, saying it was my fault you would be sad. I was mad at myself to have this illness. I couldn’t realize that, in fact, nothing was my fault. But at this time, I was blind by culpability at the thought I would leave you by yourself. I kept telling myself “why are going out with her if you know that, in the end, there will be only sadness left?” I never knew the answer.

“If you can live a whole day without me, I will love you even more.”

I managed to hide it from you two long years. They seemed endless. Each time I saw your smile, I wondered if it would stay after my life. Each time we spent together, I wondered if you would do the same with another person when I would be gone. Each time I saw your happiness, I wished I could come back to the past and erase my existence from your heart. So that maybe you wouldn’t be sad later. Each time our lips met, I hoped I could disappear from your heart. I wished we would never separate. I didn’t want to have treatment for this illness. I knew I was stupid, but I didn’t want you to see me in a hospital bed. I didn’t want you to see me weak and bald, because if I were going to die, I didn’t want the last memory to be a sad one. When I asked you to live a day without me… I already knew what was going to happen. I was sick often than ever, but I still managed to find excuses about my sudden weakness. I didn’t want you to see me lying in hospital for my last day of existence. I didn’t want you… to look at me the way I was. I didn’t want to see you sad. If fact, maybe I was just thinking about myself. Maybe I was just… selfish. You believed me when I said I would see you after. You were waiting for me… but what you wanted the most, I could not give it to you.

I wanted to give you my everything… but when you decided you were ready, it was too late. Under my clothes, I was pale, weak, we could easily see my ribbings through my skin. I didn’t want to scare you. I didn’t want you to sleep with… what I have become. I didn’t want you to… feel me this way. I tried to do my best and to eat more so I could become better looking… But it didn’t work. I was too sick. I was… condemned to go this way forever. I was hiding it. I was saying I was sick or I had a headache. I told you… I would be ready soon. But everything was lies. I couldn’t tell you the truth. I couldn’t believe… you still wanted me by your side. But my desire kept on growing. I wanted to feel you more. I wanted our bodies to become one, to feel your soft skin on mine. I wanted to feel your hands caressing my weak body, to hear your voice whispering in my ear you loved me the way I was, to feel your lips kissing my body. I wanted your clothes to disappear so you could me mine, even if it was only for a night… but fear controlled me.

“Don’t try to contact me for 24 hours!”

I don’t know when or where I found the strength to tell you these words. I don’t know… how come I didn’t die right after them. I had only a day left. I knew it. I was sleeping all the time even though I wasn’t shut away at hospital. I… was free. I spent my day thinking of you, trying to write you something... but the words didn’t come out. I wanted to tell you I love you. I wanted to write you a whole book where I could tell you everything, what I thought about you, how much I love you, how much I was going to miss you… I wanted to go to your home and tell you to forget about this stupid game. I wanted to listen to my feelings for once and do what I wanted. My desire was stronger than before this day. I wanted to join you and bring you to my home right away so I could show you how much I love you. I wanted to feel you under me, screaming and reaching your climax as we would finally let our feelings show us the way to follow. But instead of listening to what I wanted the most… I just decided to hide, making you believing something impossible.

When I finally finished writing a small note… I knew my time had come. I went to hospital, half conscious. I don’t know what happened next. I remember I screamed your name as the world went black. I remember feeling something piercing my arm, like if they were giving me some drug to stay calm… I remember… tasting something salty on my tongue. My tears, they couldn’t stop falling down. They couldn’t stop… however I wanted them to, they couldn’t. I remember hearing a faint voice asking me if I needed something. I wanted to scream your name once again… but this time, I had a mask on my mouth and couldn’t speak anymore. I was lying on one of these beds I hated the most during the last two years. I remember that, while I was slowly leaving this world, I saw your face in my mind. You were smiling. You were happy. You were telling me everything would be fine… You were kissing me hard… You were everything I ever wanted… and everything I left behind when I finally stopped moving.

I don’t know how you are now. It’s been a year. I’m gone. I’m… nowhere to be seen by your beautiful eyes. I can hardly remember your voice… Because it’s always like this, right? A day, you think you will remember a person forever… and as time goes on, you realize you can’t remember the way she talks. You can’t remember the way she walked. You can’t remember the way she was acting by your side… It’s like… once death come, a huge part leaves with her. But she comes back over and over again, stealing smaller parts from your memories. And the most painful is when you realize you spent a day without thinking about the person you considered like the most important. You suddenly… woke up and see that the world’s still changing. I know you will go on someday. That was the reason why I decided to leave you that day. I decided… my last day on earth would be without you… because I wanted you to remember me… when I wasn’t sick. You tears… would have killed me more than my illness.

But… it’s only after a year… that I finally realized I didn’t need to be perfect to be with you. I realize… I love you so much that I could just look at you and feel my heart explodes from happiness. I’m waiting for you… I’m crying… I’m still thinking about past… but I’m smiling too. 

The End

End note: So...?
End note 2: Going to correct my next chapter of Pink Vitriol so I can update tonight ^^
End note 3: I'll write something happier next time...
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