Okay the last chappie
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Final Chapter
DEG! Did I hear Minami’s name? Is it true? Omg what happened to her? is her illness that serious? Yesterday she looked okay… I feel my body is shaking. I feel my feet so weak… Then Kojiharu holds me so that I can’t fall. Aki-p looks at me..
“Well, Atsuko… You may go first.” He gives me permission to visit Minami in hospital. Without thinking, I take my bag and run as fast as possible. I take train so that I could arrive there faster.
Minami…..Minami….
I keep running as I look for your room. I can’t find it. I panic so I just keep running. Then I meet a doctor there.
“Ex-excuse me… Do-do you know patient her name is Takahashi Minami?”
“Oh, Takahashi-san… Yes. The room is over there.” The doctor points the room at the corner. I bow to him as I said thanks. I run again and I see two persons there. They must be Minami’s parents. They are talking to the doctor… Her mother is crying, then her father is holding her… I don’t know what happened? Why is she crying? Is something bad happened to Minami? I cover my mouth, I feel my hands are shaking… My tears are falling down and it makes me more scared about Minami’s condition.
The doctor walks away, and Minami’s parents sit on the bench. With my full effort I walk toward them… They realize I am there and her father stands up.
“You must be Atsuko right?” Why does he know about me? This family is so weird. I am sure they have 6th senses…..
“Yes…” I answer… I try to hold my tears, but I am still sobbing.
“H-how is Minami, Uncle?” I ask him as her mother is crying louder. I look at her, I know the answer…. I know Minami’s condition is not good…. I am scared to hear about her condition…
“Atsuko…. Thank you very much you have taken care of my daughter Minami when we were not around.” he bows his head. I am shaking my head, then he looks at me again.
“We…..we are sorry if Minami had mistakes or she did something that made you mad. We are very sorry…” What the hell is he saying? Why this person said sorry to me? What happened actually?? I don’t like this conversation. I have to see Minami right now.
I open the door, and ignore that old man stupid story, and I see Minami’s there. I cover my mouth, and tears are falling…. Her condition even worst! I can tell it by just looking at her. I approach her and sit on the chair beside the bed. She even looks paler. I am crying so much now, I know she is suffering… Minami… I will be your power, I will support you, please wake up…….
Her dad comes in and puts his hand on my shoulder.
“Minami……. she has problem with her heart.” WHAT? HER HEART?? I look at him with are-you-serious-face…
“What do you mean, Uncle?” I can’t believe this old man story. How come she has this kind of sickness? She was fine lately… She could dance, she could move even faster than a monkey. And now he is saying what? Problem with her heart? Oh please I can’t believe it.
“Doctor said, 2 months ago she had come to this hospital to check up… She asked the doctor if she could dance this time because she will have a concert and stage performance. Then the doctor said Minami should be more careful with her steps, don’t move too often… The doctor was also surprised when she knew how healthy Minami was. He allowed her to dance then….” That must be the day when she came late to the rehearsal.
“Minami has this problem before she entered AKB48. At first we didn’t agree about her decision to get in this group, but she is the only daughter we have. At least she could be happy and can sing on the stage. Being a singer is her vision. We can’t say ‘no’ when it is related to her hobbies.”
Is that true Minami? Is that….true you have problem with your heart? Why Minami? Why you didn’t tell me about this? Why Minami, why? I’m crying so much as I hold her hand.
“Minami can be saved if there is someone who wants to transplant their hearts to her.” said him then he leaves us alone.
I am still crying…. How could you do this to me Minami? I won’t let you go! As what our promise that night, I won’t let you go, Minami! You can’t leave me alone!!
“Minami… Hiks….Minami…. please Minami…. Open your eyes…. Hiks.” I wipe my tears as I keep calling her name. “…Minami, you said you won’t go anywhere… You said you won’t leave me alone. You will always be with me…. I trusted your words. Minami! Wake up, Minami! Open your eyes!! I won’t forgive you if you leave me alone!!” I shout at her as I am still crying. No response from her.
“Minamiii….. hiks…. please open your eyes…. I don’t know I can live without you….Minami…” I am tired of calling her name. She won’t open her eyes….
She has not said she loves me yet, and now she wants to leave me alone? Minami… I need you. I don’t want you to leave me alone….
I fell asleep. I still on my position, on the chair with my head on the bed. I feel my eyes have already dried, I didn’t stop crying last night until I fell asleep. Then something warm touches my hand so that I open my eyes….It’s Minami’s hand. I am surprised as I call her name.
“Minami?!”
“Ohayou gozaimasu…”she smiles. Is it a dream? It is not. She is my Minami, right in front my eyes… She….wakes up! She opens her eyes! Thanks god, thanks!
“Ho-how are you feeling Minami? Are you feeling good? Which part of your body is in pain? I will call doctor!” Yes, I heard so panic. As I get up from the chair, she grabs my hand.
“Wow Atsuko… Easy!” she giggles. She is giggling. It means she is fine right? I am glad to see her like this.
“Why are you here anyway?” she asked.
“I was so panicked when I heard you were in hospital yesterday… So I decided to go here…” she touches my eyes.
“Wow… your eyes. Were you….crying?” Minami’s hand touches my eyes and it feels so warm… I nod. “You must be crying so much…. I am sorry Atsuko.”
“Why do you always say sorry, Minami? You don’t need to say it… I am glad you are okay now. You know, I am afraid if I lose you… “She strokes my hair as she smiles.
“I won’t go anywhere, I will always be with you…Always.”
Then she gets up and warms up. I try to pull her back on the bed.
“What are you doing Minami? You are still sick, you should not move too much. You have to rest…” I said as I grab her arm.
“I am okay Atsuko… Let me loosen up my body. It feels so good.”
“No, you have to sleep! Now!”
“Wow easy… You are like doctor now. Haha…”she laughs. Then she grabs my hand,
“Nee Atsuko… Let’s go somewhere!”
“Hah? No! You have to~”I have not finished yet as she pulls my hand outside.
“Wait here, I am gonna change my cloth. Okay?” BLAM. she closed the door.
“Mi…” Arrghh…… What is she thinking now? She is sick but she wants to go outside? I sit on the bench. Hmm…where are uncle and aunt? Maybe they went home?
JDAM. Minami’s there. She has changed her cloth.
“Okay let’s go!” she grabs my hand and pulls me.
“Minami! Where are we going?”
“Amusement park.”
“Hah?”
She keeps pulling me, I can’t against her strength. Even in that condition, Minami is still strong. I just can keep following her…….. Wait? We are going to amusement park? It means…..Our first date? First date with Minami? When I am thinking about it, my face gotten pink and blushed along the way.
<They have disguised themselves with hats and masker>
At amusement park
“Huaaaaaaaaaa I am here right now!” she looks so happy. She runs over there and over here. She doesn’t look like a patient. My Minami is back.
“What are you doing there? Come here, hurry!” She shouts at me as I am so far behind her. Then I run toward her and she holds my hand.
“Let’s have fun…” she said. I nod as I give her my smile.
We had ice cream, we had takoyaki, we rode rollercoaster, and many more. She keeps holding my hand and so tight. And then we head to the small park inside of the amusement park. We sit on the bench.
“Wait here, I’ll buy you something to drink.” she runs.. I wait for her and then after some minutes she appears with 2 cokes.
“Take it…” she said as she gave the coke. She sat next to me. I said, “Thanks..” I drink it as she did it too…
“I know Papa had told you about me…”she started talking. I look at her.
“I am sorry, Atsuko… I didn’t tell you earlier about this.” she bowed her head.
“You always treat me like this, Minami… What am I to you? Don’t you know how shocked I was when I heard that you have problem with your heart? It is too sudden!”
“I know I was wrong. Forgive me Atsuko… Please.”
“Fine… I won’t be mad at you as you are sick now… But please… Tell me if there is something happened to you.” she nods. Then she smiles again.
“Let’s go to have another ride!” she gets up and grabs my hand. She pulls me and looks for another play zone.
Here we are… In the spinning wheel ride.
“Woaaa takai!” she said as she looks the view from the window. Baka Minami… She seems so happy with this kiddy playing… We are already 20 but she seems so interested with this kind.
“Thanks Atsuko… You have accompanied me here. You know I’ve never been here.” she still looks at the view. Oh… I see. So that she is so happy right now. I smile at her. I am happy seeing her face right now....
GREK…GREK… This thing is stopping. Ehm? What happened? We are at top right now.
“Waaa!!!” Minami is shouting. What is it again??
“Look Atsuko! So beautiful!” Seems like she doesn’t realize that the wheel is stopping. I still sit and cross my hand in front of my chest.
“I am not interested….”
“Just look at this! Our city is so pretty at night!” she is still impressed. Ckk… Minami…. From the beginning that is all you do, seeing the view. Huff…It is just the two of us and you just see at that nothing-special view? Oh come on! I don’t give her any response. Then she turns around and finds me with boring face. Then she sits next to me…
“Are you not happy?” she asked. I just give her short answer, “Hm..”
“Are you mad?”
“Hm…”
She looks around and realize that we are at top and this ride is stopping right now.
“Oo…Why is this thing stopping?” Oh god this person….
“How could you didn’t know what is happening? Just continue seeing that view and forget about my existence here….” I look away. We stay quite.
Then her hands pull my face and now I am facing Minami.
“So you are mad?”
“I am not…” I try to look away, but she pulls my face again.
“Yes you are… Are you not happy? Sorry if I made you bore this time. I don’t know you don’t like going to amusement park…” Now her face looks so sad. Oh god I feel guilty now. She asked me to accompany her and she had to be happy but I made her sad. What have I done?
“I am sorry Minami… It is not because I don’t like going here. I do, but I hate it all you did were seeing that city view. You even forgot about me….” she looks at me.
“Really?” I nod. Then she hugs me…
“I am sorry then… I didn’t mean it Atsuko.” I close my eyes, try to feel her warm hugging. I reply her hug, and we are hugging each other. After some seconds she releases her hug and look into my eyes. She moves closer and kisses my neck. She marks it.
“Looks like the mark has already disappeared. I decide to make one…” she smiles at me.
“Just do whatever you like, Minami…”
“From now on, you are mine….” she said as she kissed me on the lips. Her kissing is different now, so rough. She puts her hands on my waist and she often moves her head left to right. Minami is different, but I like it. I hug her as I reply her rough kiss. Her hand is slowly moving to my cheek and rubbing it. I love it when she does that……. And then she breaks the kiss and looks at me… (Still in close distance)
“Atsuko….I love you.”
Finally she says it. I know she takes so much effort in saying that. I am really happy when I hear it.
“I love you too, Minami… I love you so much.” and then I kiss her with passionate way as she does the same. She pushes me so hard until I reach at the corner, I can’t move. She keeps pushing me so hard…… I can’t feel the air, I can’t breathe as she keeps kissing me roughly. I am enjoying this sensation, then I put my hands on her neck and pulls her so that she will kiss me with more passion. We do it so long until this ride is moving again…….
She breaks the kiss….
“Atsuko, are you happy now?” she asked.
“I am very happy, Minami……”
“Promise me you won’t cry again?”
“Yes Minami… I won’t cry again….” I said as she gave me her last hug.
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PLAK! That hand landed on my left cheek….
“How dare you take Minami outside?” She is shouting at me… I rub my cheek.
Yes…. I got slapped by her mom.
“Don’t you know she is in critic condition? How if something happened with her!” She sounds so angry. I can’t face her. I look down and regret everything.
“Okay mom… It’s okay… Let’s sit and wait for the doctor.” Uncle asked aunt to sit. They sit on the bench. I walk slowly to the window, I can see doctors and nurses are trying to help her. It is so sudden…. What happened to you Minami? Just now you were smiling at me, we were holding hands together, eating together, and….. kissing each other. I’ve got bad feeling about it.
Minami collapsed right after we rode that spinning wheel. I called ambulance quickly and took her to the hospital. Now she is in coma.
I keep prying to the god, I beg him to save Minami’s life.
Not long, one of the doctors comes out as uncle and aunt approach him.
“How is Minami?” asked aunt. I can hear doctor is sighing.
“Who is Atsuko?” asked the doctor. I walk toward him, my body is shaking.
“I…..am Atsuko.” I said.
“Minami keeps calling your name.” DEG! I can feel my heart is beating so fast. My tears will fall in some seconds but I have to hold it. I don’t want to cry. The doctor gives me the sign to go inside the room, then I start walking. I approach the weak Minami. She is sleeping on the bed… I sit on the chair beside her. Then I can’t hold my tears anymore. I am crying there….. I am crying so much…
“Minami…. I am sorry….Minami, I am sorry…..” I keep crying as I cover my face with my hands. It is all my fault. It’s all my fault. I can’t say ‘no’ to her… I know she is sick, but…. I let her to go out. I am sorry Minami….
“At….suko.” I hear that weak voice… She opens her eyes.
“Don’t……apologize.” she said.
“Minami…..” I hold her hand. “Minami…. I am sorry. I make your condition worst. It is all my faults.”
“Don’t say sorry….I said…..” she can’t talk much, I know she is so weak….
“I am……the one…..who asked you to….”
“Minami… hang in there… I don’t want to lose you, I don’t want lose you. You promised me!” My tears are falling even much.
“I am…..sorry Atsuko…. Looks like I can’t keep it….”
“NO! No Minami! No! You are strong, please don’t say it! Please!!!” I hold her hand tighter…
“Atsuko…. You have….promised me, right? You….you won’t cry…anymore. Remember?” I nod.
“Yea… I remember Minami….”
“Now, please….. don’t cry.”
“No Minami….No…..Please Minami, don’t leave me alone. I can’t live without you…”
“You can…. I’ll be always with you… Inside your heart. I’ll be there always….” her voice is weaker.
“Minami?” I call her……
“I…..love you Atsuko…” she said as she closes her eyes…
“Minami? Minami? Minami!!! Minami wake up! Please open your eyes!! Minami!! Don’t leave me alone!!! Please Minami!!!” I am crying louder now. I am shaking her body but no response…. I hear uncle and aunt come in and both of them are shouting Minami’s name… But still no response.
She had passed away………… Today is her funeral and every members come even her fans…. Most of them are crying and they never expected something like this will be happened to Minami…Our strong leader… Aki-p is there too and he looks so sad. He’s crying but he holds it… He has lost his precious leader forever.. Everybody wants to send her off.
I am going to the sea…. I can’t see Minami’s face, I can’t send her off…. Or I am going to cry again…
I walk slowly on the bridge as I bring a flower along with me…. I play with it…
I look at the sky and it’s shining… I assume Minami is smiling right now, seeing me from up there… Honestly I can’t smile right now. I am still in a deep sorrow and deep inside my heart I am still hoping for Minami…. But I know it is impossible… She had passed away. I can’t see her smile, can’t hear her laugh, can’t feel her warmness, can’t feel her soft lips again…… Then I start crying again…
“Minami…. I can’t. Living without you is impossible. It’s hard….. I can’t Minami….” I walk to the end of the bridge…. I throw away the flower….. I step forward until I reach the end of the bridge. All I can see it’s sea. So large and………looks so deep.
I am thinking to jump…. Leaving this world. The world without Minami… I close my eyes…. But I hear a voice and make me stop my action…
Don’t!I open my eyes…. I feel like hearing Minami’s voice… I look around, but no one there. No Minami…. I step backward and wipe my tears…
“Minami….. Sorry I am this weak….” I look at the sky…..
“Minami…. I won’t cry anymore, I promise you…. I will never forget our moments, I will treasure it inside my heart…. Thanks Minami for everything you have given me….. Thank you so much, Minami….. You will always be in my heart and you can’t be replaced…” I smile and then I walk away and decide to send you off, of course with a smile.
END~
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I never thought my fic will be like this
note : Minna-san forgive me
I will update my one-shot
Topic: Love is You (AtsuMina fanfic) - COMPLETED (Read 31364 times)