I just want to say that sorry for updating until now, I wasn't having inspiration at all on this piece so, plus I couldn't pretend so -sobs- but now here I'm again, and yeah I never let a fic without finish so don't worry, but, we still have like 2 or 3 chapters left until the end..or the semi end, but here is a big advance on the story -nods- So enjoy~!! is Yuko's pov but the first part I tell it myself xD~ Karomuwi D; you're always so excited I hope I won't let you down or any of the people who read this, THANK YOU VERY MUCH ><
Opposite worlds or hidden feelings? Chapter 6 – Still Yuko's mind - /Yuko POV part II
OTP:KojiYuu - /Main character:Oshima Yuko. /Support character:Kojima Haruna.
“...you can still regret about this.” - Miichan mumbled, staring at Yuko the one who was sitting on her couch, drinking a beer.
"Maybe." - Yuko said, pausing herself a bit to drink a bit more. - "If I actually had something to regret about". -Yuko grinned, just the way that she use to smile before, that makes Miichan a bit Happy, Maybe if she followed this game she'll have the old Yuko back, but in the bottom of her heart she feel a bit pain, feeling like she betray KojiHaru's to fill Yuko's wish, but It can be helped, though, and only because Miichan's loyalty was only to Yuko on this war.
"So.~?" - Yuko leaned closer and pecked Miichan lip's, that just caused a blush on the younger girl face, even if they were used to that type of skinship, this day was kind of different.
"Let's..take it slow." - Miichan says, looking at her still blushing, Yuko show a small grin on her face and then step back.
"You still can't get over Mayu~?, such a kid."
With that comment Miichan feel her face turn totally red and feel frustrated, Yuko knew her weak point, dating Mayu a few months ago but being dumb because of Mayu preferring Yuki, well that was obvious but Miichan in the past really feel like Mayu loved her, reminding that she don't bring Miichan a huge pain in her heart, and a huge rage as well towards Yuko for reminding her that, she glanced at Yuko and steeped forward, keeping herself really close of her friend.
"Forget about what I said before."
We all know that Oshima Yuko always have the perfect words to obtain what she wants.
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The next morning on Yuko's apartment we could hear a loud yell.
"UWAH! Back pains!, Mou! and now I have rehearsals.." - Miichan shouted, waking me up, I could feel a pretty notorious back pain as well, coming closer to a freaking pain on my head and a mind full of memories from the past night.
"Shit..." - I mutters while Miichan was changing clothes, she appears not to hear me, I just stare a bit on shock, thinking about the past night, Miichan sat on the bed, not even looking at me.
"I'm the only one who feels really dirty now?." - She asked, almost with a voice full of pain, I just stare at her back for a few seconds and then pressure down my gaze.
"I'm sorry..." - I said, tearing up while I covered my face with both hands. - "I'm really sorry Miichan! I'm always making you doing those stuffs because I'm such a selfish person...I..I.." - I don't even could finish the sentence, Miichan just lean closer and hugged me tight, trying to be a support for me but having no bigger results.
"I'm so sorry..."
"I know."
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that week I go out with Acchan trying to distract my self from all the shit that I was causing later.
"I'm really thinking on leaving you know." - I cough a bit and drink water while I looked at Acchan, her face wasn't surprised at all.
"Because of NyanNyan?"
At the moment I heard that name I feel my heart warm up and ache a bit, but she wasn't actually the reason of my sudden decision, I just shake my head, Acchan looked at me with wide eyes and tilted her head a bit, I crossed my gaze toward hers and finally speak.
"I can't make someone happy until I pay everything I'd done."
"What are you talking about? , Yuu chan, you didn't do anything at all."
"Yes I did." My eyes tearing up a bit reminding what I'd done to Miichan, my best friend, the person who was always there for me, also the things I'd done just because of my love for Haruna, is good loving someone, but hurting her and my friends for that, its something that must be pay.
"For me, for my friends and for my heart. I need to be a person who can love again"
Acchan looked confused but she limited herself a bit, not asking any more about the previous subject and just changing to another topic.
"And ..were are you planing to go? Yuu chan." - She asked, smiling a bit.
I lean closer and kissed her cheek, giving her my best smile possible.
"Let fate decided that ne~?."
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"Arigatou for all this time we share, memories, fights, tears and joy, please all of you, be strong from now on, maybe I'm gone of AKB48, But you can always rely on my as a friend, a sempai or maybe just a fan, maybe in the future we can share stage again, the stage from AKB48, Our eternal and glorious stage, I really love you all, please keep on work and be good girls as well, I, Oshima Yuko, will always remind this days like the best of my life, THANKS."
that's a little fragment of my graduation speak, but even the entire part wasn't enough to explain all my feelings all those years, sharing friendship, sharing camaraderie, sharing love.
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Not even that day I speak with the real NyanNyan, she just gave her speech like all my oldest comrades, but it wasn't special, it was just like the others, just a normal speech and a normal hug that you give to any person who is graduating, but I wasn't expecting more anyway. I couldn't expect more.
"Nee you should kiss."- we were having a drunky party for say, me and all my ex mates, my decision has been sudden but I was going to america with Acchan in only two days, she was dancing and enjoying her time with Takamina while I was "drinking" and sitting on the table with Mayu, Miichan and Haruna, it wasn't awkward any more between me and Haruna, or at least that's what we showed to the world.
"EHHH?" - I said on reply of the kissing theme, it was true that in the last pass weeks me and Haruna were acting like nothing happened, I was a few days of distance from leaving and we haven't spoked about that. The time had passed like flying since my graduation, it was winter again, a year since our..first time, I didn't knew anything more deeply about Haruna anyway, don't even know how she react after knowing about my graduation, and no even know how is she now that'll be gone, but, no matter what, knowing doesn't worked now, so it doesn't matter any more, from nothing I feel a small peck on my cheek, that make me blink and blush, especially at seeing who was the person that had given it to me.
"NyanNyan? why?" - It was a big surprise, long time since she hasn't showed a note of affection towards me, much less since our pass months full of fights and disappointments, at least not a real caring show of affection like that, Haruna just grinned and stares.
"Last day." - She just say that and nothing more, I didn't dare to ask because we weren't alone, so, like my usual reaction I just give a cheeky grin and continue with the party, the thing I could notice that night was that NyanNyan wasn't drinking at all, and strangely, neither do I.
After the party the group was separated on three, Shiriri went with Miichan, Acchan went to Takamina's house and me and NyanNyan stayed together, I was about to say her that I can go and take her to her place but she speak first.
"I want to do the same tour that we do a year ago." - She said, smiling at me.
"Y-you mean "that day?" - I asked, pretty surprised with wide yes and a few blinks after that.
"Yes, Yuu chan." - She take my hand in a reassuring way and looked up, smiling in a way that makes my heart tremble and my gaze full of joy.
"I think it's going to snow."
She said, I smiled and she smiled, we knew that this would be the last time, but while she was smiling to me like this, I really could feel like.. we could ride ourself from the eternal pain...just for tonight.
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AFTER making this fic I really do hate alcohol I mean I always hated it but not so much like now, I know is a big change on the plot but, I know why I'm doing this...I don't promise anything like...common though, sorry if is random even after this, I'm more like the weird plot twist person. and ...THANKS FOR YOUR SUPPORT~
To be continued....
Topic: Opposite worlds or hidden feelings? [KojiYuu?- 7/??] (04/12/2012) (Read 18837 times)