dont let the darkness take me away (atsumina/kojiyuu) chapter 6

[mikaellitsa]

yooo minna
im new as a member here but  I have read so many fic that i decide make account  in this forum and now I want to post my first atsumina fic
my eng is not that good soooo sorry i hope everyone understand ^_^


   Dawn was slowly rising and there on the horizon  was a girl, she stood there with cold lifeless eyes staring the dead bodies. Few minutes later she left walking into an old alley  looking for her next target till she reach  the end  and found someone standing in the corner  wearing hood and with fighting position. ‘seems I found someone for entertainment’  while  talking to her new victim  a small sad smile appears. She was waiting for him to do the first move but that never happened and the  just both staring to each other.’ That’s not funny at all’ she complain to the person ‘if you are not here to fight me go away before I do something  that you don’t want’ she warn him. After a few minutes the person turn around and left. ‘what a weirdo’ she murmured.
    Next morning in a different place two girls they were sitting and chatting about the new concert to their school. ‘ I really wanna see  acchan in maid costume, god cant wait till Friday’ a short girl  smirk  evilly  while talking to her best friend. ‘ you know  nya nya will be ten times better than  acchan, im gonna definitely take pictures of her’. Both  start laughing ‘ we are such a pervert  yuko that’s not good at all’. The short girl answered back. ‘haha yea right but its like heaven for me’ yuko reply back and start eating her melon pan.
    ‘come on  Acchan will be late again ‘ said the tall girl  while standing next to the wall waiting for her friend  to wake up. ‘5 more minutes Haruna its still early’ a half sleep acchan  cover her self again with the blanket. ‘thats it if you don’t get up in 3 minutes ill attact’ haruna was walking closer to her friend  waiting  for her to get up but that never happen. ‘ok its not my fault if that’s hurt’ and she jumped on the bed. ‘ ok ok im up, god Haruna stop hurting me every morning’ and with that she went out of the room.
     ‘ why is so hard to wake up  every morning Acchan, you should stop coming late every night if you don’t want me to hurt you  the morning. Haruna was shouting to acchan.

[kuro808]

It is a good start.

Just more stuff to fill in sooner or later

[mikaellitsa]

part 1

Dear diary

    I don’t know  for how long I can be like that. I hate that person since that day the only thing I can see is revenge but yet I fall in love with that person. What should I do? how I should react? Every time I see that person I cant control my self  my heart beating so fast that smile that face , like an angel. But that night that person was like a devil smeared with blood no emotions nothing. I hate that person I really do or im try to remind my self that night every single day  make my self  feel only  hatred.


    ‘ e midget over here’  one of my classmate called me, I really want to punched that guy ‘ seems you are really midget if everyone call you like that’ yuko who was behind me start laughing ‘ ee shut up you are midget yourself’ I punched her arm and went to that guy. ‘ my name is minami, mi-na-mi, not midget’ I shout him ‘so what do you want’  I stood in front of him angry. ‘hey minami takamidget  why so angry early in the morning’ my friend ask me while she was sitting. ‘seriously stop that im not  a midget. And you if you have nothing to tell me then excuse me I have other things to do’  I said to takeru   and start walking away. ‘ wait sorry okay? I just wadering if you want to come with me and my friend karaoke after school’ he smile at me waiting for my answer. I didn’t even bothered to answer back and I just left the class. On my way to rooftop  I found acchan talking with a guy. Its look like the guy try to confess, I hide my self behind the wall and waiting for the answer.
     ‘ look I really like you  go out with me please’ the guy begging  waiting for an answer.  ‘sorry but I like someone else’ and with that acchan tern and left.  O god acchan  cold as always, sorry buddy  seems is not your day. I wait for a few minutes and when the corridor was empty again I continue  to the rooftop.
      The school finished with nothing special happen till was time to go home.  As always I was the only one who left in the class or that was I thought.  Before I leave I heard some scream and voices on the first floor, I threw my back and start running  to find that person.  Not so far I found the guy who confessed to acchan shouting to her and telling her he wouldn’t let her be with anyone else except him. 
the surprising was that acchan  wasn’t at all scared she was just standing there   staring at him. What I should do? I know I may like her but she pissing me off the cold queen maybe that would be her lesson  and stop being like that.  ‘ so are you sure you don’t want to be my girlfriend?’ he smirk and  pulled out a small knife.  I was so shocked that I couldn’t even breath ‘ what the fuck’ I shout and start run toward him. I try to punch him but he was faster than me, loosing my balance I fall down. Acchan was still standing doing nothing . what the hell you are doing if you don’t help run, I was shouting in my mind. ‘ seems I shoult take care of you minami’, great  im gonna die here. I closed my eyes waiting for him to stab me but nothing happen. When I open my eyes I saw acchan in the same spot and that guy lying on floor covered  by blood.  ‘ how that …’ before even finished acchan grab me and take me away. ‘oi wait, how you do that? you were standing all the time in the same place, he was about to stab me’ I was talking so fast  while we are running out of the school. ‘ no need to know’ that was the only thing she said. When we reached the entrance she let my hand and walk to the opposite  side ‘ oi im talking to you don’t run away from me’ I tried to get her but she was faster than me.

When arrived home yuko was still out so I made dinner and went to sleep  I was really tired. Few hours later my phone start ring ‘moshi moshi?’
‘oi takamidget come here  everyone is here don’t stay home is Friday’ yuko was screaming  and I heard some people laughing and singing. ‘ where are you yuko?’ I was trying to wake up  ‘karaoke bar  next to train station im waiting for you don’t be late’ and before I answerd back she hung up. Jess yuko who said I want to have fun. I coverd my self with the blanked and fall asleep again.


to be continued

sorry for my english guys 

[blakwhite]

yaaay update 

wow, acchan can kill someone without moving ? 

acchan, pls dont be so cold toward takamina 

anyway, that's great update :3, and dont worry about your english, im no good with english too 

ganbatte ne mikaellitsa - san

[kuro808]

The weirdness ensues with acchan's power

[mikaellitsa]

part 2

    I wake up in the middle of the night and yuko still was out  so I try to call her a couple times but  she never picked up and I started feel nervous so I decided to go out and search for her. When I arrived at the karaoke  I found that none of our friend was there  so I start walk to harunas home  hoping that yuko would be there, calling for yuko at the same time. The home was dark when I arrived so I knock the door few times but no one answer me ‘ Haruna please if you are here open the door  is emergency’ I shout  out loud but no response ‘shit were are you yuko?. I was really nervous now  I start walking back to our apartment hoping she was there. On my way home three guys  come next to me asking me to go with them  and have some fun. ‘look I don’t want to come just leave me alone oke?’ one of them grab my hand violent  ‘ no sweet heart you coming with us’ everyone laughing and enjoying there selves. O god  that’s not happening to me. ‘so we can do it with the good or bad way you can choose’ another one guy spoke and smirk to me. ‘look maybe some other time not now’ I try sound calm, if that was possible anyway.
        ‘don’t play hard lady we gonna have fun today,  you bring her with us’ the same guy  point to his friend and then both of them grab my hand and  take me with them.  I was really feel scared  now trying to liberate
‘no no no you are not go anywere stay still and we will  be good with ya ok?’ one of the guy who  help start to speak ‘and by the way pretty girls like you shouldn’t go out at this time’ finished before he come closer to my face. ‘Ill remember that next time old man’  I answered and kick his leg  not that strong but enough to free one of my hand and punch the other guy in his face. ‘ shit im gonna kill you’ the man shout while  clean the blood from his lips. I start running  as fast I could  without have any destination in my mind as far possible. ‘were should I go. Fuck yuko were are you  cant let you what if something like that happen to you? I was shouting angrily while I was running.  I saw a really dark alley and I turn round to hide there but I crush onto something or someone and I fall down. ‘ what the fuck’ I scream in pain. I saw I figure trying to stand but falling again. ‘oi are you okay?’ I ask as I was trying to help. ‘no just leave’ I heard a low voice,  it was a girl, and I knew that voice. ‘a-acchan?’ the girl look at me in the eyes  she was bleeding to much ‘what happen? I ask .  wait am I worried about her?why?  Part of my body wanted to do as she told me and  leave her but the other part of me couldn’t just leave and let her die or worst the guys who hunting me found her. ‘ok put or arms around my neck I don’t know were we are but we should leave now’   
 
to be continued

[kuro808]

Takamina sure gets into trouble

[mikaellitsa]

Part 3

 i carried acchan in a bridal way I start walk away, she fall asleep in my arms  staring at  her for a few minutes ‘shes cute when she’s not that cold‘  I was walking for a while when I  heard  some footsteps behind me. ‘ ei  you  not gonna  escape that easy come here’ a guy was shout me. O crap they found me, I was more worried about the girl in my arms. I start running but wasn’t good enough in a few second they  surround me and that time you can see in their faces they were really angry. ‘you thought we’ll leave like that?’ the guy that I punched before was coming close to me. ‘stay there ill punch you again’ I try sound brave that time, well that was my best try at least. one of them push me really hard and both me and acchan  fell down. ‘now you gonna pay for what you’ve done to us. ‘wait boss look at that, we gonna have more fun now’ the other man pointing at acchan smirking evily.  ‘think so, go get her’ he order them.
    I stood really fast in fron of them to protect her ‘wait take me and leave her, ill pay if is that you want’ I begged  them ‘to late girl’ the man who they called boss punch me in the face. ‘ take that as a pay back’ and he punch me again before I fall down. Shit im not strong enough. I try to go closer to acchan she was still  unconscious ‘please wake up you need to run away’ I whisper to her hoping she will hear me. ‘oi get up  don’t cry now’ one of them grab me and lifted up trying to kiss me ‘ come on lets have some fun now’. Fuck, this is it,  I cant do anything his really strong. I try to punch him but he avoided and kick me in my stomach. I felt blood in my mouth shit old man I really wanna kill you now.  He was about to hit me again when I grab his hand and punch him twice in the face making him fall on the ground ‘ ok then whos next’  I was really angry now I couldn’t think clearly ‘go  and get her’  someone else shout and two guys try to hit me  but I avoided easy and kick then in the stomach. ‘so you are the next I guess’ I talk to him and start going closer. ‘not so fast’ someone behind me talked and after that  I felt pain in my back, everything blackout.

    When I open my eyes I was in the same place still dark  no ones was there except me and acchan I try to lift my body and go next to her  ‘ it seems I manage to save you somehow’ I talked to my self and  take her in my arm again I felt some pain but I couldn’t let it effect me now. Not that long we arrived in my apartment  and I put her in my bed. Before I clean her wounds   I went to check for yuko and thank god she was sleeping loud under her blanket, I was angry with her but happy at the same time because she was safe. I returned back to my room and try to clean the blood from her. When I finished I just lay down next to her and I fall asleep.

oki guys that was the first chap sorry for my eng
i was thinking leave minami as the weak person here but naaah  shes my tomboy cant do that she would kill if i just leave someone touch her acchan... dont wanna die 

[blakwhite]

yaaay update :3

takamina kakkoi 

yes yes, dont let anyone touch acchan except takamina 

thanks for update 

[kuro808]

Interesting first chapter

[mikaellitsa]

-Acchan-

I   open my eyes   slowly feeling someone next to me   I turn my head only to face minami, sleeping peacefully with her face next to mine.  She’s beautiful.  but how I end up here? I tried to get up but I felt pain in my whole body. ‘Shit’  memories from last night start coming back  after my fight minami found me and carried me away and then this guys  came for minami. O no what happened after that why cant remember anything? Is minami ok?  I turned my head right away to face her again. She looked fine but then I  noticed her lips  under her lips she had  small cut I snarl ‘ if I found this bastard’ I whispered and left quietly the room. Thank god was still early  didn’t  want minami see me here.

I checked my phone and I had 5 missed calls from haruna and few voice mail. I opened one knowing who was the one who send them. ‘ acchan what the hell were are you, you said you will be back soon, harry up and come im  worried to death’ haruna’s voice sounds so angry.

-Minami-
When I wake up acchan wasn’t next to me  I knew she already left so I just cover my self with my blanket and try to sleep. Few minutes later yuko came in my room singing ‘yo takamina wake up im not gonna let you spend the weekend here’ I heard her while I feel someone was try violently take my blanket. ‘oi yamete shitakunai’ I try to pull back my blanket.  I thought I won when I heard the door open and close after a  second, finally peace again. Not for too long  yuko appears in my door  and behind her was haruna. ‘ohayo minami’ she greet me smilling. ‘ ohayo can you please take away yuko? I want to sleep’ I complain to the only person who was more normal  well compare  yuko  anyone  would be like that. ‘sorry I promised yuko  to help her wake you up’ she looked at me apologetically. Great.
    ‘o come on takamina  why so depressed? Dress up and come in the kitchen ill make you breakfast hurry up’ and with that they left me alone. ‘cant help’ I talked to my self and get up, in less than 5 minutes I was eating with the other two. ‘ so whats the plan yuko?’ I asked while eating my  cake. ‘she want to go to the  new amusement park’ haruna was the one who answered back.  ‘Sound fun  you can go by yourselves you don’t me there’ I finished with my food and went to wash my dishes. ‘no no you coming I invite more than you acchan and wmatsui couple will be there.’ Yuko  answered this time happily ‘will be fun trust me’ I stop my work, acchan? She will come? But she’s  injured. ‘ok ok I got it ill follow you guys’ I reply to them and start thinking about acchan. I really want to see her im worried about her.

-Acchan-

    Seriously Haruna why am I doing what you order me? I was walking to the train station that  we supposed to meet at 13:00. I took my phone  12:50. ‘ok 10 more minutes, were is she? Hope she didn’t ask a lot of people  to come along with us she knows I hate  it.’ I murmured to my self. ‘Sorry for the wait here we are’ Haruna shout at me   while she was walking with yuko next to her and… minami right behind them? O great the only person didn’t want to see is here.  I look at them and nod them . ‘so shall we go now? Jurina and rena waiting for us there’ yuko talked and walked to the train.  I took a quick look at minami and started follow the other two.
    ‘how you feeling?’ I heard minami whispering  but I keep walking without reply. ‘I hope you feel better’ I heard minami  again and  I look at her that time but it seems she was texting to someone.  I should say thanks later I guess.


-Minami-

After half an hour we arrived   to the amusement park and there was wmatsui couple. ‘Yo guys you are late’ jurina came to us complaining. ‘gomainosai it was hard to make minami come with us’ yuko answered  and blame me at the same time. I look down ‘ oi oi don’t worry takamina  its only five minutes’ jurina came and hug me ‘so lets go?’ rena looked bit annoyed. The place was huge and so many people ‘ ok first lets go for ride’ yuko was jumping show us the big rollercoaster.  No way im not going  there. ‘we should try maybe..hm.. something else?’ I Suggested but everyone start laughing. Ok not everyone  acchan was still with her cold expression   in her face. ‘ don’t tell me takamina  is scared of this small thing’ jurina and yuko start to teasing me. Ha? That thing is small for you guys? Are you crazy or insane? ‘of course not,  and stop making  fun with me’ I pushed  their hand from my shoulder ‘ is just that we can…’ before I finished both of them drab me with them ‘ if you are not scared so lets go’ o god why this happened to me? I was crying silently.
      After we finish with this ‘small’ ride I was feeling really bad I thought I would die there. For sure these monsters friends of mine are totally crazy. ‘ok ok lets try that one’ yuko show us a different roller-coaster .  for god sake someone save me please.  ‘em sorry but me and minami will stay here, she doesn’t feel well’ I was shocked with the person who spoke was acchan and not only that but she was saving me from this monsters. I couldn’t help but  to smile. Everyone  didn’t try to fight and they just left.
    I couldn’t found anything to say so we stayed quiet for a couple minutes. ‘ano arigatou’ she said  and I turned my head to face her ‘sorry’ didn’t understand  why  she thanked me, its was me who has to do that for the ride. ‘for last night I mean, thanks’ she look at me   with serious  look. ‘ wow.. no no don’t need to thank me’ I felt awkward now, should I ask her why she was like that or not? I decide to give a try. ‘ ano maeda  why you were…’ she didn’t let me finish and she get up from the bench ‘you want something to drink?’ she asked while she was walking to the kiosk ‘no thanks’. great minami you make her angry  again, it was bad idea to try. 


Its was time to go back again ‘it was fun today we should make it  more often’ rena  and jurina  excuse their selves and left. So me and the other start walking back to the station. ‘so minami  you still feel bad?’ haruna ask me, ‘a no don’t worry im fine now’

I saw acchan staring at the dark alley next to us. ‘sorry ill  see you in a bit I have to go somewhere’ she said and left to the alley. ‘wait don’t go anywhere alone’ haruna was shouting at her. ‘don’t worry ill go with her, ill see you in a bit’ I   placated her and start running  after acchan. What the hell shes doing  I know shes still injured even if she doesn’t show it.


heh thanks  guys dont worry no one can touch acchan ecxept minami
hm curious to know what acchan saw in that alley....
i think is time for some action 

[blakwhite]

  what acchan saw ? O_O
is it the one who make small cut in minami's lip ? 

pls update soon 

[kuro808]

Kinda interesting between the two

[mikaellitsa]

sry im little bit busy with project i think ill be able to post something in the weekend... sorry if its not big

[chibi_airin]

DAw so cute atsumina!

Keep it up with the sweet story!!

[mikaellitsa]

chapter 3


I was running after acchan  ‘’ seriously  how  a injured gir can  run that fast?’’   I keep following her  but she was too far now. Shit I push my body to run faster but then I lost her. I stopped trying to see If shes was somewhere here but then I realize that I was completely alone in the alley. ‘Acchan’ I shout couple of times  but no answer. I start walking deeper in the alley hoping to find here soon.
    I was walking for maybe half an hour  without found her and I stared thinking that maybe I should just leave her and go even if I knew deep inside me that I was worried about her. ‘Are you looking for someone?’ a voice behind me scared me and I turned my body to face the person  ‘ acch..em maeda  how?’  I was surprising  to see her and especially behind me.  I was about to say something  but she covered my mouth with her hand  ‘shh, don’t talk’ she came closer to me.
    Few minutes after we heard some voices and she grab my hand and push me fast behind  the wall  to hide our selves. ‘did you found them?’  one man talked to someone I couldn’t see anything but I was able to hear. ‘no sir we lost them sorry’ someone else answered. And then pause for a while. I felt acchan coming more closer to me and I start blush, lucky me it was enough dark to see  to see me like that. ‘ when you found them kill them.. both’’ someone else talking now. O my god I was listening  conversation about crime. ‘the  other girl is to weak don’t think we have to’ but before he finish the other man shout ‘I don’t care she must been  known something she help maeda shes dangerous’
 What the fuck they were talking about acchan? I lift my head to see her and she was seems so calm compare to me.   i try to  take away her hand  and say something but she didn’t let me just just look into my eyes. What going on? Why?  ‘go now, found them!’  he order them and after that I heard there footsteps to far away from us.  We didn’t move for a  while I was waiting acchan  say something but  she just kept  like that. ‘they talking about you’ she release my mouth, her word shock me. ‘eehh?’ I couldn’t think clear what she mean now?  ‘they were talking about you as well’ again the same thing. ‘what do you mean?’
    Because of last night you shouldn’t help me, they know about you now’ she walk away from me and I try to follow her  ‘is that the man you hurt you last night?’ was the only thing I could think. No response.  Arg   that girl why she don’t answering back. ‘oi acchan answer me’ I grab her  arm and forced  her to face me.   ‘how did you call me?’  whats wrong with her mind anyway. ‘sorry maeda I mean, so now answer me’
   ‘ no need to answer’ she start walking again. If she keep like this I  should kill her now!
‘look I don’t care what you think but if they were talking about me I need to know’ I was really angry I almost shouting. And then she cover my mouth again, but this time  not with her hand but with….. a kiss? What the hell? I try to  stop her but she was to strong for me. I could feel her,  her warm body … oi oi oi minami focus now, I tried to push her away again but without success. That kiss feel so comfortable, she was really gentle now, fuck my mind goes  blank.  Few minutes after she stopped  and look into my eyes.  ‘good, and now that you are  calm again follow me and don’t talk anymore. No answer means no answer’  and with that she left me  and start walking.
WHAT WAS THAT? (shock) (BIG SHOCK)

thanks everyone ill do my best to not disappoint you
 i know is not that big chap ill try make bigger next time.. i just have a lot of project this month and is really hard  do both ^_^ but what to do i love atsumina... soon ill put some kojiyu

[abcari]

Today's Lesson:

you want to shut up someone?... kiss them

hahahaha xD good chapter, short but really good C:

[mikaellitsa]

CHAPTER 4

She took me back to my house and she made it sure I was safe inside. All the time we didn’t say anything   and of course I wouldn’t risk have another fight with her.

  ‘ oi takamidget were have you been we were waiting for you guys  for hours ya know’ yuko came to me really angry. ‘sorry I…erm… spent little time with acchan’ couldn’t anything else to answer back, and obviously talk about criminal people now wasn’t good idea.
   ‘Eh? Since when you call maeda like this?’ a sudden question bring me back to reality. Ops I forgot I never call maeda acchan, I hope Yuko don’t think anything weird or pervert thing. ‘I…I don’t’ I replied. ‘yes, yes you do’ she smirk and came closer to me. I rolled me eyes ‘whatever im tired’ I push her little away and  make my way to my room. ‘ oi oi takamidget we haven’t finished yet’   I heard yuko shouting from  the living room . I ignored her and went to sleep.
    But yeah in the end I couldn’t sleep I was thinking all night about the criminals and the kiss I shared with acchan. God this girl why she has to do that to me, it was my first kiss after all and she stole it  arg I want to kill her more now.

The weekend was already gone and here I am walking to school feeling really shit  ‘ I hate school’ for the very first time it was me who complained about school, usually I like spend time there with my friends. But this time was different, acchan would be there and the person I don’t want to face right now is her.
SCHOOL#

‘ok class take pen and paper you have half an hour to solve this formula, considerate as a test’ great math test always the best way to start your week. I was trying really hard to solve this formula but… well imposible acchan was there in my mind damn it that girl I want to punch her really hard. I hope this  will be  the last thing she did to me.


Lunch time came really fast  but I was  really angry with my test and acchan so I didn’t moved at all when the bell rang. i closed my eyes really sleepy at the moment to move yeah stay like that minami and everything will be fine. WRONG always wrong minami  Yukos voice wake me up. ‘oi  takamidget why you didnt tell me that?’ she was standing in frond of me  what the hell ‘yuko is really early for me now what do you want?’ I reply weakly. ‘don’t play fool now, why you hide it?’ she keep going with this nonsense things. ‘ok what do you mean now, don’t get you, and make it quick im sleepy here’
‘you and atsuko dating and it was Haruna who told me, not even my best friend, seriously?’ she was complaining now I was about to say something when I really realise what she said? WTF? Me? Acchan? Dating? She talking about me now? ‘wait what do you mean yuko?’ I was really confused now
 ‘what do I mean? I mean that my best friend hide the fact that she’s dating the queen of the school the most popular girl that any guy here and maybe in whole japan dream of to have and here my best friend dating her and  I didn’t know it’ she was shouting…  I was totally speechless  right now  me dating who? ‘oi yuko is that kind of joke?’ I questioning  but I only receive a dead glance.
 lunch time was almost over now and I was sitting alone in the empty class thinking about Yukos words. Seriously? Is that prank? I really don’t like it. But then acchan came in my class. ‘We need to talk, come’ that was the  first time I wasn’t angry with  her to order me and I followed here I wanted to talk with her as well. We were in rooftop now.

‘ill be fast, from now on you and me dating’ she said serious. Ha ha say what?
‘what if I refused then?’ I didn’t want to sound that ironic but  well cant help with that girl.
‘you have no choice’
‘will see about that’
‘minami I need a reason  to be with you now, without any problem’
‘why should I have to  be with you?’
‘simple from today ill training you, I cant let you die yet, and I cant protect you all the time, I need to make sure this guys not gonna hurt you. Is that good reason for you?
Ok and now I was really serious shocked, she want to training me? To fight? Is she serious?
‘ok look maeda I don’t think this is good idea’
‘so you telling me you don’t mind if you get killed by those guys, am I right?
‘eh? Of course not, but date?DATE? and training? Seriously?’
‘you save my life that night I owe you , and I need reason  why I will spend all night out without Haruna worried about me. And im sure you don’t Yuko worried about you’
 Fuck she has point now
‘fine, but still I don’t think is a good idea’
‘well  like I care’ and with that she start walk away
‘ but it seems you do acchan’ I said to my self  as I was walking back to my class

hoho i feel sorry for minami  is she hates acchan now let see what shes going to feel after their (especialy) first training.... lol

[blakwhite]

UPDAAATEEE !!

:3 thank you, atsumina momment is nice :3

and

I WANNA SEE THE FIRST TRAININNNGGG
pls update soon 

[mikaellitsa]

the training part  ill make it really comedy... i can just imagine acchan with her cold behavior trying to teach  minami whos stubborn and  fail all the time....  whos gonna kill first the other in the end