Yooo~! I finished chapter 12! I really want to see your reaction to this, so tell me about them~ Muahahah. Have fun reading~
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The next day, Jurina went to the cafe for the first time in a long while. She had decided that she would not act like a child and face her problems with maturity. She took her seat at her usual table, ordering her usual. Though she had told herself she would act like how she did before anything had happened, she did not follow what she said at all. Instead, she had stayed quiet throughout the whole time that she was there. Rena thought it was weird, seeing that Jurina was not talking and she seemed to not smile at all. Worried, she went over, sitting across from Jurina. As Rena sat down, Jurina moved her gaze from her cake to Rena.
"Are you okay, Jurina?"
Jurina did not want to talk to her at all. She was holding back all her urges to just slap Rena across the face, but she remembered about her plan. Her plan to act normal. The corners of Jurina's lips curved into a small smile, nodding her head as she sowly moved her gaze back down onto her cake. "Yeah, I'm fine."
Though the idol had said that, Rena knew that she wasn't okay. She could see it in her smile. It wasn't the same one that Jurina always had on. Rena could see that Jurina's smile had a tinge of sadness hidden in it, and her eyes were glistening from the tears threatening to escape. Jurina was not okay, and Rena wasn't just going to leave her alone. Rena reached over, placing her hand over Jurina's, speaking with a soft voice.
"Jurina, I know you're not okay. What's wrong?"
Feeling the sudden contact, Jurina flinched a bit, the slowly retracted her hand from under the older girl's. Her hand had this tingling sensation now, and it was driving her crazy. She wanted Rena's touch, to hold her hand forever, but then she remembered that Rena didn't love her. It would be pointless. Jurina tried her hardest to hold back everything that she had wanted to say.
"I told you, didn't I? I'm alright."
Rena felt a pang of sadness as Jurina took her hand away. She wanted to hold Jurina's hand, but it seemed as if the idol didn't want to. As she listened to the other girl, she could hear her voice about to crack. She wanted Jurina to tell her what was wrong, but Jurina kept insisting that she was fine. She would not just leave it like that when she knew damn sure that Jurina was not fine.
"No, you're not. Tell me what's wrong. Please?"
Jurina sighed, "I told you. I'm fine, nothing's wrong with me." She gave Rena a sad smile, then proceeded to stand up, throwing down a few bills onto the table. "I'm not hungry, I'm going to go." She turned around, walking towards the door, and exited the cafe. Rena was debating on whether to leave her alone or follow her, and in the end, she had decided to go after Jurina. Though, before she went, she took off her apron, tossing it to Airi and telling her, "Airi, can you take care of those, and tell Yuka I had something to do. Thank you! I'll owe you by taking you out for food!"
She didn't wait for Airi's reply as she quickly walked out of the door and looked on either sides, trying to find Jurina. Once she spotted her crossing the street, she ran after her, trying to catch up. Despite being bad at athletics, she still ran after her. It seemed as if she would never catch up to Jurina, but that was also due to the fact that the idol was also running away, not knowing that Rena was following her.
After the run, Jurina ended up at her secret place, plopping down on the benchand breathing heavily. Now, she could cry. She could let out all her feelings. Her breathing started to become more ragged, a few tears streaming down her face. Then, she felt a presence and a voice.
"I.. I found you." Rena said out, panting and breathing heavily.
Hearing her voice, Jurina quickly wiped the tears from her face, and hoped that her eyes showed no sign that she was just crying a few seconds ago. Clearing her throat, she spoke up, turning her head to face Rena.
"What are you doing here?"
Rena walked over to Jurina, sitting besides her and staring off into the distance. After waiting a while to get her breathing back on track, she replied to the idol. "You still haven't answered my question."
"I did. Nothing's wrong with me."
The older girl looked over to Jurina, gazing into her eyes. Jurina's eyes were puffy, and was a light shade of pink. Raising one brow, Rena scoffed. "Nothing is always something. And it had to be something if it made you run out of the cafe to here and start crying. Yes, I can see. You're eyes are puffy and a bit pink. So tell me, what's bothering you?"
"Nothing. The reason why I was crying is because I was running too fast and I tripped."
The reply only brought out another scoff from Rena. "Please, you don't even have any injuries. If you did trip, you would at least have a scraped knee. Just hurry up and tell me what's wrong already."
This annoyed Jurina, as Jurina did not want to talk to Rena at all, but due to her plan, she had to act normal. She tried to be calm, but it bothered her too much, and she finally snapped. She moved in her seat, turning to face Rena with her whole body.
"Fine! You want to know what's wrong with me?! I'm hurt, okay! My heart hurts!" Rena was speechless. How was Jurina this hurt, and Rena didn't notice? With no reply from Rena, Jurina continued. "You act like you love me, but you go around saying you don't! You raise my hopes up just to crush down to the ground again! You think I didn't know?! I overheard you with Airi. Two times! She asked you if you liked me, and both times, you said no. The second time, at the store. She asked you if you loved me, and you said no! And you also said you never would love me! If you didn't love me, what were all those kisses and hugs about, huh?"
Tears were now streaming down Jurina's face, her cheeks red from all the anger she was holding inside. How could Rena not notice it at all? She didn't know what to say. She had made Jurina hurt like this many times, yet she didn't even know. Not knowing what to do, she pulled Jurina in for a hug, letting the idol cry onto her shoulder. Jurina did not resist, and hugged back, letting all her sadness and hurt out. While Jurina was crying into her shoulder, Rena finally spoke up.
"I'm sorry. It's just that I'm not really good with putting my feelings into words. I actually love you too. I wonder why it took me so long to realize that I did. I didn't realize it then, but I think I fell in love with you ever since the first time that we met. Even though I acted like I hated you, deep down, I think I really loved you. I love you, Jurina, and if you'd be willing to give me another chance, I can make things better. So.. What do you say?" After finishing, Rena bit her lip, anticipating Jurina's answer.
Jurina, who had run out of tears to cry, let go of Rena's hug, wiped her eyes, and nodded with a small smile on her face. Rena's eyes lightened at the nod, her mouth in an o-shape then shaping into a grin.
"Then.. Does that mean you'll give me another chance?" Jurina nodded once more, "But this'll be your last chance, you know." She stopped to chuckle dryly, then continued on. "If you mess it up again, I'll have to punish you."
Rena's head tilted to the side, not sure of what the younger girl meant. "Punish? What could you possibly do?" Jurina's face suddenly turned into a serious one as she blinked once at the older girl. In a serious tone, she answered Rena.
"Oh, trust me. You wouldn't want to know. Just hope that you don't break my heart again."
Rena gave Jurina a smile, pulling the idol closer to her to close the gap between them. "Don't worry, I won't. But I can't believe you were sad all this time and I didn't even know."
The corners of Jurina's lips curved into a smirk, crossing her arms. "Did you forget I was an idol? I get acting roles, so of course I'd be good at acting." "Oh yeah. How could I forget that my girlfriend is an idol? But I guess it's because I feel comfortable around you as a person." Rena nodded, her eyes closed.
"Wow, how could you for― Wait! Girlfriend? Does this mean we're dating now?"
Jurina looked up at Rena, her eyes anxious as she bit her lip, waiting for an answer of some sort. Rena looked down, shocked by the distance between the two. She started blushing and getting all flustered, turning her head away from Jurina.
"Y-yeah. We're dating now."
Jurina broke into a grin, uncrossing her arms and clinging onto the older girl.
"You're so cute when you're shy~!"
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