im the shadow in your life (atsumina) chapter 2

[mikaellitsa]

                                                                                                 our sad past - prologue
Memories….  Everyone  have memories with friends with families with lovers. Is a normal thing. Memories … but still  my memories are  not the same with the rest of the people… Are not only memories from the past  22 years of my life… my memories  the people I know are older than my age… you see im not  a vampire to live for years so yeah this is not the case I don’t drink blood  as far I remember at least and im not any kind of creature im human.
Angle?  No no im not an angel   either .
I know now you are confused  lt me explain to you.
years and years ago I was young again and I had my life. I had my friends my family and the person I was in love with but I never had the strength   to confess. She was the most beautiful girl I ever met… we met in high school  but almost never  talked  but in college we were in the same course so I had the chance to know her and become friend with her. She was really kind person   and I loved her even more  but I wasn’t that good  as she though. I was an assassin, the  college it was more as my cover  but in the night I was killing people  don’t get me wrong  they were ordering me to kill bad guys, but still a murder is murder. Im not proud of myself  but the group I grow up with  make me think is for the best, they were like family to me  and I didn’t want to disappoint them.
when we graduate I confessed to her  but she rejected me  but could do anything for it. She knew how I was feeling and she started show off her new boyfriends to me  that really hurt me  she then told me to leave her alone but before that she kissed me  and said that her current boyfriend kissed better than me so I wasn’t have any chance. With that I return back to my group I felt so  sad  that I promised to my self that I will never allow to my self  love anyone.  Few years passed  and my new orders were to kill… the person once I loved… but now  I wasn’t  the person I used. I trained so hard I became the best in my group, I had no feeling, no humanity in me.
It was late Saturday night I was wearing black cloths and waiting for my target .  the girl I was waiting finally I could see her. I walked closer to her and I  point the gun toward her. ‘’Good evening  Maeda’’  my cold tone reached her and now she was staring me but she was not scared at all ‘’ I think is time I apologize I don’t think you will go anywhere tomorrow’’ and with that I shoot her
something inside me  felt wrong  I caught her before she hit the cold ground.
‘’good job minami’’ she wasn’t angry at all, she was… she was smiling.
‘ you are about to die, why you smile?’ I asked her really curious
‘ I know, and im happy about that” she was still smiling  ‘ can I ask for something ?’
I stared at her for a bit she looked really tired now  I guess one request is finf
‘ sure any last wish?’  still feel wrong but why I hate her, and im professional I killed before and on top of that, I hate her I HATE HER…
‘a last kiss?’
what the hell? The last time I kissed her she was really rude I loved her and she played with my feelings but before I answer  she kissed me. That was the moment when I woke up  the moment I realized that I killed that person who made me feel like human the only person I tried my best to be good for her even knew I wasn’t. even if she hurt me she was the reason I enjoyed my life for year.
‘at least you are safe now’ and with that she closed her eyes  and she never woke up again.
For the next few days  I left the town  trying to  calm  I couldn’t accept it I couldn’t forgive me, why she was so happy with the fact that I killed her?
when I return back  the group had meeting so I decide to join them but before I open the door I hear the person talking about me and the girl I killed
‘ why you order her to kill her, she did what you asked her’’ one of the guys argue with our captain.
‘because  I want to make sure she wouldn’t do anything in the future and I hate her father  is something I own  to him’
‘the girl was innocent when you order her to leave minami she did when you said you will kill minami if the maeda  girl didn’t go away she accept it  she cared about our minami she loved her she wouldn’t do anything’ the guy reply  back
‘ still I wanted to be sure’’
‘and now what? Minami missing we don’t where she is… you know she loved her and im sure she still love her, you hurt her… you are the one she respect you are like father to her  we are her family and still you did that if she ever find out….’ But before the guy finish I opened the door and point the gun to him
on shot... he’s down staring at me holding his stomach ,
a second shot … dead
I didn’t wait for any  question for my actions  I didn’t let him speak I just killed him
then I point the gun  to me one shot and im done so why I feel so sad of the fact that im about to die?
no is not that is that moment I realized I killed the person who loved me and try to protect me  without me know anything the time she was hurting me she was getting hurt as well but I decide to hate her I decide to kill her. If I was fighting  if I was trying to  protect her  if I was trying  to run away with her she might be alive… we might be alive together…
so many IF but I cant do anything now  shes dead and im going to apologize to her … but again I cant even do that shes defenetely in paradise but a killer like me will never go there  so I guess any punishment is acceptable now. I closed my eyes and with a smile I shoot my self.

sorry for my bad English and i hope u like it in the future  it might take a bit time to upload my chapter this  months but i will i jaust cant promise that it gonna be every week or every second   lot of project to do now :3

[love angel]

 Author san i like your story
 It's so interesting
 I will wait for your update 
 

[mikaellitsa]

                                                                      chapter 1 the second chance
 
small chapter i know but i wanted to give my first chapter before i stop for a bit i hope you find it interesting and soon ill update again

I woke up  and I don’t feel any pain  but I remember that I shoot my self and im supposed to be dead so I guess this is what the call after life, but why im in a white room and im laying in a really comfortable bed?
‘ I see you finally woke up, welcome back minami’  I turned my head on the side and WTF a man is sitting next to me
‘ don’t be scared I wont hurt you’ he replyed really calm
‘where am i? and who are you?’ I asked
‘ you are dead for now  but  you can choose to live or  die for good’
‘I want to..’ but he cut me before I answer
‘don’t answer now, I have to talk with you first, I have an offer to give you’ he talked
‘ok but I already know my answer just let me say it’ I sat and faced him
‘ I can give you a chance to start again your life, to save the people you love, to choose who you wanna be and what you want to do’
that was impossible  if im about to die I cant  come back to life and the mistake ive done I cant fix it
‘ no even if I accept you offer I don’t want to live anymore I have nothing’  atsuko was dead because of me and I couldn’t change it  now so I deserve to die.
‘you can start your life again  is gonna be the same  you going to be a kid and a teenager  and an adult, you going to face the same problems you gonna meet the same people.’ He answered back
I laughed ‘ then what the point if I kill the person I love again and then kill my self?’
I was waiting for his replay  and for few minutes I was just staring at him
‘ you are right, you know the end,  this is what you telling me right?’ he stopped for a moment but I knew he didn’t really expecting any answer. ‘ but if you keep your memories you can change the end, if you  remember  what happened now you can save the person you love, or you can do thing different, im giving you a second chance  you know what is going to happened so you can avoid things, but remember  I know what you desire the most and this is to be with the person you love… if you fail to protect her  she will suffer again, im giving you a second chance to save her if you don’t succeed you will be forever my servant and you will never have the chance to reborn in the future’
I was trying to  understand   is true that I wanted to save her and if I have the chance I want to make sure that atsuko can live, she died young because of me and it wasn’t fair because I was stupid.
‘I want to live I want to protect her’ this was my answer now
‘good  when you wake up  you will be 10 years old in your own body, nothing will change if you  live every the same way you used  to then we will meet here in 15 years if you decide to chance your fate  lets hope we never meet again, but now im thinking about it  I want give you all the memories, if you truly love her you will change the fate for both of you’ and with that he left me alone
‘great he tricked me, I hope the new me change things, even if I don’t remember everything  I need to protect her ‘ and with that I felt really sleepy.



‘Minami… come on we have to go’ a man called me for god sake I don’t have school today  why should i wake so early in the morning  ‘ yeah dad im  coming’ I was sitting in my bed ‘ what a weird dream and whose that  girl I need to find and protect?’ I was confused with my dreams ,few minutes after I went downstairs.
‘look at you little one’ my  friend and team of the group teasing me again ‘ stop it kai is annoying one day ill kill ya seriously’ I tried to punch him back but he was fast
‘leave her alone kid’ me father came next to me and gave me a back with clothes ‘from today you going to spent 2 year  in the mountains with some of my guys you going to train with them  is time now’
‘yes father’ and with that I went into the car  with the mens that im going to spent 2 year far away.

[black_maa]

Woah... that was interesting.. 
I am really curious, how things would go now. 


Can't wait for next chapter! 

[taenylove]

Woaa interesting fic~

keep up the good job mikaellitsa-san

[cisda83]

Ah... Minami killed Atsuko and Atsuko accepted her fate... for Minami's sake

Now second chance... Minami as a kid... to her teen life....

How is she going to live her life....?

Would she be able to avoid making the same mistake...?

Would she ran away with Atsuko?

Would she be able to protect Atsuko?

Can't wait to find out

Thank you for the updates

 

[mikaellitsa]

THE BEGINNING

Today is my birthday  finally I can go back home, I spend 5 years in this place training everyday, my father though would be better if I spend more year away training so I would be ready once im back home. Im takahashi Minami 15 years old and finally I can go back home and work with the rest of my finally. They trained me to be cold and kill as fast as possible with no fear, and am afraid of nothing.
           ‘’ Welcome home Minami’’ the first person I met was my father  he welcome me in his office  ‘’from tomorrow you going to this school’’ and he gave me some documents
         ‘’But father what is the point t attend  this school I though I trained to be an assassin not a high school girl’’ I replied back while im reading the rules of this school
       ‘You are right my child but you need a cover, and is better if we use this cover as you are still a kiddo’’ and with that the conversation ended and I left the room, I still don’t get it but I get he has a point. This day I spent the rest of the evening reading the schools documents, I guess is not that bad if I try to leave as a normal teenage.

      I was standing in front of the schools gates I could see the student chatting and laughing with their friends, I don’t really get it how they can be so innocent and stupid, when a killer is there but well this is not my problem if I need to kill on of them ill just do it. The school is big enough so I spent most of my time trying to find my classroom.
    ‘’Hello, do you need any help?’’ a girl came next to me and asked polite
    ‘’ where is C-2’’ I asked cold
    ‘’ O I see we are in the same class I can help you with that as you are new here just follow me’’ still polite well she not that bad and hmm she has nice smile
   ‘’My name Is Maeda Atsuko and yours? ‘’ she introduced her self while we are walking
   ‘’Minami’’ just that a cold short reply
   ‘Nice to meet you Minami’’ she still reply politely and with her smile still there, Such a weird person usually people would just get annoying if someone is that impolite, well who cares anyway.
   ‘’Here we are C-2’’ she opened the door and waited for me to go first, so I just got inside, I guess this pissed her off no manner at all from me. But I guess I was wrong she was still smiling while I was walking inside
    ‘Hey guys this is Minami shes in our class please take good care of her’’ the Maeda girl spoke to the people who were already in the classroom
    ‘Hey there my name is Yuko nice to meet you ‘’  ‘’yo my namie is also Minami but you can call me michan’’  ‘’Hey my name is mariko nice to meet ya kid, oh and this is Haruna but shes in her world right now im not sure that she realized that someone new is here’’
   Other people came closer to me and introduced their selves everyone were really polite and did their best to make me feel comfortable. But after a while  some of them just got the point that I don’t care and went back to their sits, I guess my cold stares work for some people but not for maeda and her group, they were still around me and chatting about different things

    A week pass since I started my  school life and still had no work to do till today, finally I had my first mission after school I have to meet with the rest of the team.
    ‘Minami why you are not coming to eat with us no need to eat alone’ it was Yuko who tried to get me eat with them but I just left the class and went outside  ‘no need for me to get too close with people’. While I was eating I listened to some girl laughing really loud and I saw that three of them were hitting Maeda really hard. Well I guess shes really weak if she cant take care of her self
   ‘Listen to me bitch if you ever talk to my boyfriend again I will kill you  got it’’ I was still there so it was really easy to listen everything.
     ‘’OI you leave her alone’’ Yuko was running and trying to fight those girl  must say she had some skill but in the end she end up n the ground next to Maeda,  well even with some skill it was Yuko against 3 girls unfair for her, for me really easy. Then again one of the girl hit really hard Maeda n the face and I could see that she had blood n her lips.I don’t know why but that moment I felt strange I felt a bit angry  I felt like I wanted to kill this girls now. Focus Minami you have nothing to do with this. I stood and left the plece before I change my mind and hurt those girls. After that I didn’t see Yuko or Maeda but didn’t bother to ask if they were ok, the fact that I was worried for Maeda I couldn’t get it I knew her only for a week.
      It was the end of school so I start walk away it was time for my mission.

IAM BAAAAACK

ill do my best to post  more often from now on guys promise :3 and sorry for my bad english i hope you like it !!!

[sadrilim]

Author san, for this story you make, how will you process the ending? Good or sad ending?

[black_maa]

Oh my!!!    Minami, you are too cold towards others..
Poor Atsuko... even Yuko got hit.. 
I hope Minami will soon change her attitude and be little nicer.. somehow...


Waiting for next update!