Dear Shortcut48-san,
I know that this comment is waaaaaay too late--and right now I am running late for a club practice as well.
But, I finally finished the last chapter. So, it is only fair to leave a comment to say:
Thank you very much for TTM. Hontou ni hontou ni arigatou gozaimashita.
I don't like roller coasters. I never do. I always dread the possibility of riding one and I eternally regretted that one time I did, right after the ride ended. Thus, I always avoid them.
And, let me tell you that your story was one hell of a roller coaster. I did not plan to ride on it, but I got shoved by the crowd and followed along until I got sucked into the queue. With all that sharp turns until the very end, if it truly was a roller coaster in a real life, I would have died of a heart attack from riding it, before it even reached its maximum height. Truth be told, I felt like I did die a few times along the way of reading it. The number of times that it broke my heart was countless. It really felt like I was trapped in hell where, every time my heart shattered to pieces, you fixed it all back together in a blink, only to break it over and over again. Really. I should have just hated you since a long time ago. I really should have.
But, I also cannot deny that you are one wicked author. I sure felt like I learned a lot from reading your work. But, I don't think that I will ever be able to write as outstandingly as you. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I truly wished that somehow, the 48G management will find your fic, presented it to Aki-P, and he would say "Ooh, it's interesting! Let's make a drama about this!" Then I imagined that they will hire Amber Liu from f(x) to play Maru--I don't know why, somehow I started imagined her as Maru lately.
So, congratulations! And please kindly take all that I wrote here as a huge compliment. I really meant to give it as that.
I really have to go now, but let me just say that Maru is stupid. I may never be able to forgive her for deciding to be euthanized--even after all the heartbreak she gave to Paruru and everyone else. I imagined myself in their position and I still couldn't understand her decision. My hope was definitely lifted up when it turned out that she survived and just went into hiding. Deciding to really leave this world because she could not see or walk anymore was really unnecessary. I am sure that the lost of vision and being paralyzed will cause a huge stress and burden. But, even until the very end, I cannot understand why death will be a better alternative. Sure, Paruru would want to take care of her. But, if she continue on living, I am sure that they will find a way to balance the woman's career and their relationship. I was just rooting for that. But, no. She kept on believing that it was for the best (while I kept on cursing and thinking that Paruru should be the one who decided what was best for herself).
Anyway, I am glad that you started a completely new fic altogether with an alive Maru in the other thread. I guess, since you are using different names and some kind of an alternate universe, some will really be able to see it as a different life--the next life--in which Maru (along with some others) are really born as a guy to fulfill her promise. But, for me, it just help me to really consider that TTM is just a drama--something like MG, Cabasuka, Koi Kojo, or that scandal-detective thing they had around last year's SSK. It was one hell of a drama but it means that everything that happened was just some scripted things. And your new fic is another drama where they are all casts once again. So, Maru is still alive and well, and YuiParu is still going strong--although I know neither of those are real either, I want to leave it to just that.
Oops, I really really am going to be late now. All right then. I'm signing off.
*Sigh. What was I even thinking posting this kind of comment on your thread*
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p.s.: I apologize for not clicking the thank you buttons anymore. I was rushing to finish reading the whole thread. But, you know that I thank you for each and every one of the updates from the bottom of my heart.