It's my
1000th post and I decided to dedicate it to my always No. 1
Oshima Yuko-sama.
I noticed her since the Old Team K was formed. She was already somehow attractive and I always tried to locate her later on, when videos of her in Stages appeared. With time going and passing by, she became more beautiful, more attractive, more the person I looked up too. Soon I became obsessed with her, in a good way that is. Seeing her smile, hearing her laugh, watching her acting, or noticing her antics... Everything became a habit, like blinking, breathing, living. Seeing her pictures, listening to her voice, laughing at her jokes and spazzing over her was a part of my every day routine. And it still is.
When my friend asked me, why Yuko-sama, why her, I answered that at first I had no idea why. She just had that something, that caught my attention, that drawn me to her, that I was always searching for her, whether it's her position on stage, or her voice in a song. But later I understood, that those squirrel features that she has - crooked teeth, cute dimples, quirky laugh - and skin-shipping antics were just small grains of salt in a wast wast sea. I could mention any part of her that is good... I know I might be blinded by her, but I see no bad things in her.
I so fell in love with her acting - she's the best actress in AKB and it's sister groups, in my opinion - that I watched every movie, every drama, every CM or TV show she was in. You might call it bad/black/insane obsession, but it's not like I do not live my own life. But when I felt down, sad or some other negative emotions, I listened to her songs or watched her video, all the bad emotions went away like a feather swept away by the sudden gust of wind. Just listening to her soothing voice already melts my heart. Just watching her act makes me proud of being her fan.
I love her serious side. When she shows that real side of hers, the one that is true Yuko-sama - which is a rare occasion and I strongly believe she is serious in life and with everything she does - I watch her with respect and nod to myself sometimes, thinking of how awesome that person is. Yet she has another side we all love, it's her perverted funny side, which I believe is also part of who Yuko-sama is, though others might say it's just an act. Yes, she's an awesome actress, but I sense and feel those sides of hers are the real Yuko-sama.
Her groping others makes me laugh, her clinging over NyanNyan makes me all fluffy inside, and her 'Oshiri Sisters' with Mayuyu makes me smile widely. One only has to watch videos of her making funny faces so to see how incredibly humorous she can be. And all the KojiYuu videos... They shout of one sided love, but deep in my heart (Though I ship YukoRena) I believe Yuko-sama and NyanNyan are really close friends, like Yuko-sama and Acchan. I guess Acchan graduating made an impact, as when I watched the last stage (Tomochin's B-Day one) I noticed that our Yuko-sama sometimes was off... She wasn't at her fullest... It's like she's overworking, and add her true friendly rival leaving...
I could probably write loads, walls of text here, but it would go on and on about how awesome she is, but I think you already could see how I love her from this post. And i always wanted to defend her fear to balloons... Some say it might be an act, but I think that it might be true. Just she at first pretended not be afraid, but when it was too much, she couldn't hide it anymore. Well, I might be wrong, I am biased, after all... Yuko-sama is always in my heart, and I support her no matter what.
She is my No. 1, the one I look up to, the one I confine in (mentally), the one I am proud of being a fan of, the one who is amazing beyond words, the one who is magical, magic itself. She is the one I will always support and keep looking up to, as she never did anything to disappoint me.. She is a true idol to me, but most importantly, a true actress that inspires me to live up to my dreams.
Yuko-sama, daisuki

(I'm crying now... I got too emotional... I felt like writing a real letter to her...

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