@strawb3rrykream - I was scared when I was writing this
I didn't want to make it that dark but yeah...
@SxY - At least I'm not the only GakiKame favourer (is that even a word?
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@JFC -
@ringo-hime - LOL I was reading everybody's shoked comments then you made such an energetic one!
It's good to have such energy!
@lil_hamz - I think I spent in total like 5 hours or less... I can't really remember *scratches cheek* Ehehe... Thanks
GakiKame = Me? How lucky can one girl get?
I hope you're not dying to read the next chapter like the girls in the story.
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It's Not Death That I'm Scared Of
Part 2
I collapsed onto the cold and bloody floor next to the girl that lay dying. I felt blood rising up my throat, gradually beginning to trickle out of my mouth. The same seemed to be happening to her. She let out a weak cough and blood splattered out. She looked at me, her eyes filled with fright.
“It hurts…” she mumbled out.
I could feel my eyes begin to sting.
“You idiot!” I yelled at her even though I was less than a meter from her face.
“Why did you have to interfere?!”
She gave a melancholic smile.
“Because I don’t want you to die.”
“I want to die!”
“No you don’t.”
I froze. What?
“Yes, I do! You have no right to say that I don’t!”
“What are you denying? We both know that you don’t want to die.”
I gritted my teeth in frustration.
“I think that the pain is too much for you. It’s making you delusional,” I remarked.
Her laugh was cut short when she began to choke on her own blood. She grasped the area around her stomach in pain. Her hands were smeared in blood, the colour so vivid it hurt to look at it.
“You love life too much to want to die. You’ve never experienced real pain until your best friend and secret crush fell in love with someone that wasn’t you,” she said.
The metallic taste of my blood overflowed my senses. I spat it out.
“Your just over reacting; you’ve never known real pain until now.”
“What do you know about pain and suffering?” I asked bitterly. “Have you ever had your best friend abandon you for something else that she found more important? Have you ever felt that pain when she no longer listens at you? There’s no way you have!”
A look of utter pain was plastered all over her face.
“You’re wrong,” she stated, “I’ve felt the pain of my best friend ignoring me. I’ve felt the pain of her drifting away. I’ve felt the pain of watching her suffer and I’m unable to do anything to help her. I know what that pain feels like!” she shrieked.
I stared at her. She’s experienced the same pain as me? But, she’s always smiling. There’s never once been a hint of her pain. She’s always been the one to lighten up people’s days. How…?
“But the most unbearable pain of all,” she started her eyes capturing mine, locking me in their blood-chilling darkness,” …was when I saw her trying to kill herself.”
“Ehh?” I breathed out.
Tears fell out of her eyes.
“Have
you ever felt that pain!? Of course you’ve not! You’ve never even once realised what you were doing to me! I’ve wanted to help you so many times but I couldn’t; you would push me off and lock yourself away! You’ve changed, Gaki-san! I’ve become scared of you and I’ve become unsure of myself! We always told each other when something was wrong. Why didn’t you tell me that you were hurting? Why didn’t you let me help you? W-Why, why-“
Her words stopped, her sobs overthrowing them. I listened to her wails of sadness echo in the small bathroom. In that small span of time an invisible barrier had been created between us that was hard to traverse. Even if I tried to say something, the words wouldn’t come out. They disappeared into the air as if punishing me. And that’s when suddenly reality hit me. I had just tried to kill myself, and now I was taking someone else down with me. Someone that I loved.
“What the hell am I doing…?” I asked out loud my voice fading.
I slowly raised my wrist into view. The fresh blood dripped from the gash onto the floor. My arm was visibly shaking; I was about to lose all feeling in it. Blinking hard, I tried to stare past the black and white dots that were floating about in my vision.
“I’m sorry…” I whimpered in a small voice. I looked into her eyes.
“I’m sorry. I’m sorry. I’m so freaking sorry!” I cried out. I grabbed her hand in mine. “I’ve been so selfish. I was just so scared. I knew that I was losing myself! I wanted the happiness to come back! I really did, but I was so far down in the darkness!”
My tears mixed into the bloody mixture as I looked at her emotionless face, her eyes closed.
“I’m so happy…” she breathed out in a barely audible voice. “You’re really mature, Gaki-san. Unlike me…”
She gasped for air.
“What are you talking about? You’re the mature one!”
“…H-Haha…tha-thank-you.”
Her eyes closed again. I felt my head drop back to the ground again, but I never let go of her hand. We lay there dying together; these were our final moments.
I realised that I had never known the true meaning of love until now. I had realised that my friendship with Ai-chan had trapped me in a box; a box that I had only managed to break through now. I didn’t love Ai-chan, and Ai-chan didn’t love me. Well, not like that anyway. She was still my best friend. But now I knew what I didn’t before; love is unconditional. Even if you try to avoid it, it will always come back to keep you company.
I could barely feel the pulse of the girl next to me as I held her hand.
“..I-I..I love you, Gaki-san,” she said, tears falling down her face. I felt a smile creep onto my face.
“I l-love you too.”
I could feel myself fading quickly, but I kept myself going from the gentle squeeze that her hand gave. The sound of sirens filed our ears.
“I’m scared, Gaki-san.”
I squeezed her hand back.
“D-Don’t be. I’ll be with you no matter what. Even if that means searching forever, then I will… You’ve always been there for me, s-so I’m going to always be there for you...”
The sound of many running footsteps could be heard. I felt my eyes begin to close. I tried hard to open my eyes and I was granted with a glimpse of the girl. I smiled as I felt my eyes close themselves for the final time. The door to my room burst open. My breath left me, only one thing escaping my lips.
“
Eri…”
That’s when everything began to disappear. I only remember one last thing…
“
Paramedics! We received a call about an attempted suicide-…”
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Ok, I REALLY need to write something that's not GakiKame V___V
Everyone's probably annoyed at me 
...... 
I guess you readers must be GakiKame fans though.... I should probably try and reach out to other readers.
OK. Here's my plan.
1) Update SNHTS
2) Write a different pairing fanfic.
I'm not sure what order, but keep an eye out. The one-shot will probably come first. But it'll probably not be a one-shot since I always end up continuing them...O___o[/bgcolor]
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