Also, this might sound a bit out of the blue or weird but I need help and thought here maybe you can help me as many of you have probably gone through the same I am going through. I am 17 years old and am in total love with Watanabe Mayu to the point of despair and uncontrol. I started liking her just when I discovered AKB, like 4 or 5 years ago. The thing got uncontrolled like 1 year ago and since then I've been deeply in love with Mayuyu. When I'm saying this I don't feel proud for it. If I was attracted to her but living a normal life it would be ok but this is not letting me have a normal life like any other teenager would. I was thinking of going to psychiatry since this is just too much for me to handle. I feel depressed because I know I'll never be able to really talk to her and get to know her. In the begining I thought I'd be able to do anything if I just had the enough courage to do so. Now I know that handshake events or sending her cards and presents isn't enough to get her attention. I am just one of the million guys out there wanting her to be with them. When I start thinking that when she finishes her career as an idol she will get married with another celebrity and have children with him I get incredibly depressed. I feel like shit in those situations. My room is full of her posters, magazines, photographs, dvds, goodies... and sometimes I don't even feel like entering my own room just because I don't want to imagine her with another man. It sounds stupid, how would you love someone who you really don't know? I think I'm just stupid, anyone in his common sense would realize that loving someone with who you've only shared a handshake with is stupid. She means everything to me and I would give my life for her. I'm sorry if I sound too emo or something, I don't pretend to. I just want to continue loving Mayuyu but in a healthy way and wanted your advice. If this post is unappropriated or unrelated to the post I'll delete it right away. Please don't make fun of me ,I just want your help.
First of all, welcome!
Secondly, in a lot of ways idols are promoted as 'substitute girlfriends.' We get to see them in various scenarios, we can get their photos, etc etc. As a result, it is quite easy to be completely drawn in.
However! The key point is to remain realistic. Like you said, the girls see thousand of fans every day and they will never become out actual girlfriends. The cold hard facts is that they are entertainers/celebrities and we are their fans. If you are at a point where you fandom is affecting your daily life, then it's definitely time to make some changes. My advice would be to take some distance. For example, why not remove some of the posters for a while? You know, just so you won't be confronted by her 24/7. Take distance, stop writing letters for a while, and try to focus on other stuff for a while. Hang-out with friends, go out to see a movie, stuff like that. Later, when you feel more comfortable you can pick up the fandom gradually again. You can still support her, but just keep your expectations and hopes realistic.
In Mayu's case, she only likes 2D guys so I wouldn't worry about her marrying some other guy just yet
Topic: [TEAM B] MAYUYU ~ The Watanabe Mayu Thread (Read 2350709 times)