A's Note: Thanks for loving my MaYuki ending. :] Anyway, they will still appear on the future chapters. (Based on my chapter plots)
A's Note again: ...
10(
Matsui Rena’s Point of View)
I stared at the white dull ceiling. I sighed from the fact it is the same color of my dull heart. A heart that wanting to be with someone… someone I hurt the past few days. The first time I saw her, she made my calm life into a crazy life – my heart beats crazy.. How she makes me want to lay my eyes everytime I see her, how I want to press my body closer to her, how my lips wanted to touch her pouty lips, how my heart want to give everything for… Matsui Jurina.
‘
Stupid me. I walked my love away from her. I ended our relationship because of my weak heart.’
I hold my wretched chest, letting my tears run down on the side of my eyes as it drips on the case of my pillow. I wanted to scream, scream all the words to Jurina. Words of love and longing answers. Here I am, still weak to confront her. Too scared to confess everything.
Someone reached out a tissue in front of me. Kashiwagi Yuki, the girl who found happiness along with Watanabe Mayu. I took the tissue from Yuki’s hand and pressed it to my wet eyes. “I envy you.” My voice croaked due to the lump on my throat. Yuki brushed the hair on my forehead sideways and kissed my forehead.
“You don’t aren’t the Matsui Rena I knew on my very first day at this school. I see broken hearted girl.” Yuki’s smile lighten up my forlorn mood, her warm smile killed my broken heart a little. “Walk forward and stay at her side. Don’t walk away. Tell her~ your world.” Yuki caressed my cheeks before standing up.
“That is the most lamest advice I had ever heard.” I chuckled weakly which Yuki chuckled on what I said too, she then leans in to me and place a kiss again on my forehead. “I gotta go, Mayu’s waiting for me.” She wiped away the liquid at the corner of my eye.
“Ehh, I’m jealous.” For real, I am jealous to their relationship. I wonder if I didn’t admit to Jurina what I felt about our relationship, we should be experiencing a blessed memories right now.
Yuki shook her head and left the room with a smile on her face. She can’t wait to be with Mayu. Jurina’s image suddenly appear on my mind. I started sobbing again.
Jurina… I love you.
I want you back.
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I went to the SKE floor after I fixed myself up. There is still a spare time before first class starts. There is still a spare time to get a glance of Jurina’s figure. Or yet a chance to talk to her even if she gives me little short words.
Earning a stare from each SKE students in me, I still don’t care if I look like a desperate person begging someone to talk to me.
“Yagami Kumi, please.” I begged to Jurina’s friend, asking for Jurina to come out of their classroom. I placed my hands on Kumi’s shoulder and lowered my head, not wanting her to see tears forming in my eyes. “Please.”
Her other friend came to us and removed my hands on Yagami Kumi’s shoulder, pushing me away from her friend. “Jurina doesn’t need your cold heart. Didn’t you heard what she told you before? She hates you. Jurina hates you.” Kumi coldly emphasized the word hate to me.
“I love Jurina.” The liquid in my eyes are falling fast. I wiped it with my arms but the flow seems to be not stopping.
My words startle the two girls. No, not just them, even the people around us heard what I admitted. Yet, that didn’t stop the two girls to hate me. They still don’t believe me.
Kumi shoved my chest using her fist. “How could you? How could you say such words that isn’t true?” Kumi paused for awhile, she set her gaze to the classroom and look back at me. “Stop saying you love Jurina just because you feel guilty by
rejecting Jurina.” Kumi turn the volume of her voice up when she said the word ‘
rejecting Jurina’, for me and for everyone to hear the awful thing I did.
The two words echoed on my ears. I hated that word
reject. That word ruined everything. It ruined Jurina’s love and trust towards me. It ruined my whole life.
“I’m sorry…” I paused and set my eyes straight to Kumi with so much serious. “Please tell Jurina… I’ll be waiting.” I pledge. Jurina will know what I meant. I sent her a message earlier to meet me at the rooftop of the dorm later at night. “No matter how long it takes.” I then left the SKE floor and went somewhere else.
I’m skipping my classes again. There is no point of going to class and listen to the lecture if you only want to listen to the voice of the person you love.
Jurina… heal my heart by talking to me with your lovely voice.
I won’t let you go.
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I stared at the dark starless sky while holding the necklace that attached on my neck and took a deep breathe. I’ve been waiting here in the cold rooftop for about a hour and fifteen minutes. Jurina isn’t showing up. But that won’t stop me for waiting. I keep my words.
“No matter how long it takes.” I murmured in the thin air. I will not give up even if I wait until tomorrow morning or forever. I won’t back down, I told Jurina I will wait for her here.
I’m serious about my love.
The thoughts running in my mind stops when I heard a screeched coming from the door. I immediately jerked my body up straight and patiently waiting for Jurina to face me. The awkward silence is suffocating me. I saw Jurina clenched her skirt. She then looked up to me with tears running down her eyes.
“I… I can’t stand seeing you! Please give up on me!” She shouted and turned her body around, making her way through the door. I quickly catch up on her by pulling her body to get back here in the rooftop and closes the door behind her. She tried to open the door again but I trapped her by placing my two hands on the door.
“You want me to give up?!” I angrily asked. I lowered my head for a seconds and banged the door behind her using my fist, a single tear appeared in her eye. “I WON’T GIVE UP ON YOU! I’M NOT GOING TO WALK AWAY AGAIN!” I cried out. I don’t care if I’m scaring her right now. I want to let it all out.
I fixed my crying eyes right into Jurina’s hurt and scared eyes. “You have no idea how much I hated my whole self for…” I paused for awhile, not wanting to say ‘
rejecting you’ but I have to. “… rejecting you. I wished I never said that word that broke your trust and love to me.” Jurina clutched my shirt, sharing her tears with me.
“It hurts to see your hatred toward me. How can I cope if the person I love built so much hate to me?”
“Jurina… I love you.” I cupped her cheeks, no matter how many tears she let out in her eyes, I still love her beautiful face. The face that permanently sketched in my heart. “If I could make everything right. I’d do it all tonight. I’ll hold you and your heart close to my arms and spend my whole life loving you.”
Jurina removed my hands from her face and look fixedly at my neck, the necklace she gave me on our first date and the day we become together. Though, it broke my heart to see a clear neck of Jurina. She stroked the necklace for awhile. “You wore it.” She whispered without a hint of happiness in her tone and even in her expression. I only nodded and place my hand on her hand but she suddenly pluck the necklace from my neck.
Staring at the shinning necklace that has an M placed in front of a square, Jurina read the writing that engraved at the back of the necklace.
“You are the only one for me. – WMatsui.”
Jurina let out a sad smile and shut it tightly her fist. She walked in front of the railing of the rooftop and… threw the precious object into the suffocating air. My whole heart crashed into pieces. I thought… she’ll forgive me. My hopes disappeared. I stood here in my position, not making a single movement.
“I don’t trust people like you. I detest your kind of people. You like them, you like to pretend you love that person.” She went to face me with an expression of loathe. Jurina opened the door
“I’m sorry but I’m walking away from you. I don’t want to pretend that your in my heart when the truth is you don’t exist to me anymore.”
Jurina… please don’t walk away. Don’t leave me.
I don’t you to be the one who will turn her back and walk away.
I love you Matsui Jurina.
A's Note: SORRY EVERYONE!!! I TRIED TO MAKE IT AS SAD AS POSSIBLE BUT I'M NOT SURE IF IT REALLY WORKS TO YOU GUYS.
My eyes are sore right now and my trashcan is full of tissues. -.- Hmm.
Does this mean I'm finish with the WMatsui now? Err btw, sorry if there is mistakes/errors cause I don't want to be all drowned out by my tears again, so tell me if there is anything you spotted.
Topic: Future Love - chapter 14-3 (Multipairing) 02/10/2011 (Read 62313 times)