This was supposed to be a long one-shot but my first try in writing this ended up as a... Well.. Fail (in a form that it turned into a Smut, which I swore never to make), so I had to rewrite it. And now it's not as great as how it was at first (Not that it was great to begin with.) But hey, at least I still tried to make it, write?!
Anyway, let's continue! T_T
Unrequited Love: Part 1An unrequited love, they say, was far better than being rejected. That it was less painful than hearing the words “I don’t love you back” or “I’m sorry” from the person you love…
Maybe that was true. She was already sure that she would, without a doubt, get rejected if ever she confesses to the person she loves anyway. At least right now, the two of them could be friends, talking with each other, giving each other some hugs and even share quick kisses at ease. Confessing her feelings would only ruin their friendship. And she knew that if ever she gets rejected, then everything won’t be the same anymore…
Why?
Well there are two reasons why.
First would be because she was far too young to be with her.
And the second would be well…
Because they were both Girls…
She couldn’t deny the fact that her ‘love’ to the girl was forbidden, and the more she tried to hide it from her, the more her feelings would tempt her into confessing. Worst of all, every time she would talk to her, every time the two of them would spend some time together… It would hurt her inside…
It was like a slow suicide…
And yet, even though she knew that she would only hurt herself by it… She would still come to meet her everyday… Even though it hurt her each time she realizes that she would only remain as ‘friends’ with her and not move to another level… Even though hearing the word “We’re friends” from her very lips crushed her into pieces... She would still expect to see her everyday…
That’s right… it was a slow suicide… A suicide that doesn’t kill you literally…
But instead, kills all of your happiness…-
“….na…” Jurina furrowed her brows a little as she finally came to. Everything was still black for her though, but she was aware that she heard a feint voice just now. A familiar one at that, but she couldn’t point out perfectly who it was yet.
“…rina!!” Now it was louder. Well, more like it was half-way to shouting.
“Jurina, if you’re not going to open your eyes this instant, I won’t talk to you anymore for a whole week.”
Instantly recognizing the voice now that it was clearer, younger girl’s eyes darted open, only for it to close again thanks to the light immediately greeting her eyes. She groaned a little before opening them again, this time slower. Now it wasn’t the blinding light that greeted her vision- but rather, a blinding beauty crouching down beside her.
“Ah, it worked… I mean, Welcome back to reality, Jurina.” The said beauty smiled, making younger girl’s heart flutter a little, “I have a bad news though.” Jurina frowned at the other female’s sudden change of voice, “Jurina… You’ve been asleep for three years, and now, SKE is gone, everyone’s back to living with their ordinary lives… Actually… The whole 48 Group died, including the overseas sister Group… Everything fell apart within the span of three years.”
Jurina mentally facepalmed as she closed her eyes disappointedly. That was a lie, obviously, and she was aware of that. “I see that you’re still ‘fat’ even after three years, Rena.” She decided to go by the ‘joke’ though, teasing the older Matsui instead in process- who gave her a painful pinch in response. “OW! Hey- I was only joking, jeez! You crab of a melonpan lover you!” she rubbed her arm while pouting.
“That’s what you get for calling me fat…”
“I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” Still half-asleep, Jurina pushed herself up and rubbed her eyes before scanning around the mirror-filled room. It was now empty, with nothing but abandoned water bottles and bags lying down at the corner of the room.
Practice must have ended already… younger member thought to herself as she looked at the object she used as a pillow. Her bag. She frowned soon after
But wait, isn’t it a little bit too early for them to finish Practicing?“Jokes aside, how are you feeling now, Jurina?”
“Better than earlier, at least… By the way, where’s everyone? Isn’t it still early for everyone to be heading home now? And I was hoping to get at least a hour of practice after I wake up too… Curse this dizziness…”
Rena sighed.
“Aki-P thought that it would be better if everyone goes home and take a rest for now… Aside from you, the others were also worn-out for some reason… Which leads to this question; why did you bother coming here when in fact, you’re still dead tired from filming for Shukan AKB? You should have taken the day off if you were tired… I’m sure that Aki-P would have understood…”
Because I would miss a chance to see you…Jurina smiled bitterly in secret. She couldn’t possibly voice that out though, so she had to come up with a lame excuse.
“Well I was scared that I would miss a new choreography or something close to that… So I came.” Yep. Lame excuse.
She facepalmed inwardly.
“Like I said, stop worrying about small things.” Rena sighed. Really, this girl sometimes gets too serious on practicing. She sometimes would even forget about eating Lunch just so she could continue on practicing with the others. And to think that she was still fourteen as well… “Jurina, you have to think of yourself more. You’re still Young, you know. So try not to push yourself too much.”
Jurina frowned even more.
There’s that word again. ‘Young’. Everyone would always tell her that she’s too Young for this, too Young for that. Why can’t she do everything she wishes to do!? It’s not her fault that she tends to try her best to become the ‘Number 1’ in Rena’s eyes, right? She did promise that she would do her best to become her number one…
But… She must be failing… Horribly at that, knowing how Rena still had her full attention on Furukawa Airi. If only she had the power to switch bodies!!
“Well that aside…” Rena finally stood up from her crouching position, with her hand held out towards younger Matsui, “Why don’t we change out of our dirty clothes and head home already? You still need some rest, right?”
Heaving out a defeated sigh, nodding her head was the best thing Jurina could do, grabbing the older Matsui’s hand soon after for support as she stood up from the ground.
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“A-Ah… Isn’t this… A little bit too rough, Yuka…?”
“It’s fine… Leave this to me, Mizuki. I’m actually really good at these kinds of things, you know… Now Relax and let me do the working…”
Both Rena and Jurina’s face heated up with the color of red spreading on it as soon as they drew near to the dressing room.
Those were the first words they heard from the other side of the door- but aside from words, there were also moaning, panting… and even more moaning!
Jurina’s face grew even redder.
“Won’t everyone find it weird if they find us though… Like this as well…”
“Shh… Everything will be fine, I tell you…”
Oh God, oh God, oh God, oh God, those words continued on ringing inside Jurina’s head in a loop, her eyes growing wider and wider by the second as she and Rena continued to stand still before the door- as though they were made into stones from surprise.
“Jurina, let’s leave.”
“Eh?”
Rena successfully snapped Jurina out from her ‘Oh God’ trace, with the latter one now looking at the former with a puzzled look on her face.
“Let’s leave.” Rena hurriedly turned to the other direction and took a few steps forward- only to be stopped by Jurina.
Jurina herself was surprised as to why she did that… But she did it… And now she had to defend herself as to why she did such a thing. The look of Rena’s face earlier flashed in her mind though…
The usual composed and calm Rena was actually glaring at the door angrily. As though she was trying to break it open with only her stare. Does she hate those kind of things that much? Maybe she didn't like the thought of two people actually being intimate inside a dressing room? Or maybe… maybe Rena didn't like the idea of two Girls doing ‘it’…?
Jurina shifted her eyes down a little.
If so, then that simply meant one thing to younger Matsui…
She had no chance in invading Rena’s heart now. It was clear now that Rena is absolutely straight. And she knew that the older Matsui had no plans of bending herself even if it’s just a little… Never…
And then, the door flew open.
“Oh he~y! You two were eaves dropping? Say, say, don’t you think that Mizuki looks great in this wedding dress? This was supposed to be for her photoshoot tomorrow but I wanted to see her in it already... Oh! Oh! And this tux, does it suit me? We look like a couple, right~?”
The two Matsuis stared at the pair standing before them with widened eyes.
Pfft…Mizuki, Yuka, and Rena slowly turned their attentions to Jurina, who was now holding her mouth as though she was trying to cover it from eating something horrible.
“S-Sorry.. I just… I…” Youngest of the Group laughed loudly, making the other three even more puzzled. “Sorry… I actually- I mean… It suits you, Mizuki! Really!”
“…I feel like sarcasm is being used on me…” Kuwabara Mizuki deadpanned before walking inside the dressing room again, dragging Nakanishi Yuka along with her in process. “Come on, we’re changing out of these… I don’t think I want to do the photoshoot tomorrow anymore…”
“Eh? But you really do look good in it! Jurina herself even said it, right?”
“While laughing? Yeah right, as if I’d believe that.”
And with that, the door shut before Jurina and Rena once again.
“Well that was some disappointment, eh, Rena? I guess we completely misunderstood the tw-”
“I’m going home…” Rena cut the poor Jurina before she could finish, walking away from her soon after.
Jurina just stood there, wide eyed and obviously surprised at how Rena just acted not less than a minute ago. The small girl pursed her lips into a bitter smile soon after, with her hand which she instinctively held out as soon as she saw Rena’s back walking away from her dropping down back to her side. “She really must hate it huh…?” younger girl muttered to herself.
She knew it…
She knew it from the very beginning that Rena wasn't one of those Girls who would fall in love from the same gender…
She knew that she had no chance at all…
She knew all of that and yet she…
She still chose to love her…
“Jurina? What happened?” A Yuka who was now in normal clothing asked as soon as she walked out from the dressing room, giving younger girl a gentle pat on her shoulder for attention at the same time. “Did Rena leave already? Without changing her clothes?”
Jurina turned to the taller girl, rested her forehead on her shoulder, and muttered something that wasn’t the answer Yuka wanted…
…
“Yuka… I think I want to graduate…”
Note After JPHiP's stupid April Fools prank happened:
If you find weird words on this like testicles and other things that seems completely out of place, blame the god damn jphip april fools prank.
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